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Doubtful me: Here goes another night of low quality sleep, not remembering any of my dreams, and having extremely low awareness and high stress.

Confident me: Shut the f*** up. You CAN become aware inside a dream tonight and you will remember that dream!

Doubtful me: Well I haven't had a lucid dream in over 3 months and I'm not even sure that it was really lucid and I just don't think I can do it anymore,
I feel worn out and uninspired and I don't even know why I can't concentrate enough to have one of those things.

Confident me: Look, we all have troubles with things that we really want to do or experience, but don't you think that the reason we can't succeed is because we are constantly doubting ourselves and that if you literally didn't think about anything else at all that you could put on your serious mode?

Doubtful me: What are you talking about dude, what are you my fitness instructor? I just can't do it, okay? I've read numerous blogs and posts on this website but still just can't do it, I've given up and come to the realization that it just isn't going to happen again.

Confident me: Well are you making the things you read your own? Are you putting special value on the things you read and not just seeing information as a jumbled mess? I think that you can do this if you really try dude!

Doubtful me: I don't know man, I just can't seem to concentrate on just breathing or anything but my day's and tomorrow's worries when I'm laying in bed about to go to sleep.

Confident me: As Nike says, "Just do it". Do not contemplate anything, do not even think, just do it. Greatness comes with action anyway.

Doubtful me: I just think too much, I don't know how to be enthralled in anything like I used to.

Confident me: The best time to start is right now, even if there are busy things going on in your life, once you just do it, you will find that your everyday tasks actually become easier.

Doubtful me: Okay, thanks for all the advice man, I'll try my best tonight, okay? But just so you know I still think you are ugly, like extremely ugly. I literally want to draw on your face with crayon you are so ugly.

Confident: Hey, I like Crayon poisoning!

Doubtful me: What?

Confident me: Nothing, never mind, just get out there and lucid dream

It's the middle of the night, and I just woke from a very short DILD. I didn't RC, bu I realized it was a dream, moved around, and woke up,
The dream I was having, I was chasing a tiny pig, with my girlfriend. We were trying to catch it. When it suddenly grew to a full grown boar. I said, we'll lets hope you can't get injured/cuts from its fangs... My gf replied, not in a dream like this you can't. Boom lucid, boom awake...

Progress, however now I can't sleep.. But good progress non the less.
I wouldn't count this tommy lucid amount, because it was so short.

After this lucid I couldn't sleep, so I went to the fridge to get some apple juice. I actually bought the juice for the sole purpose of increasing the vividness of my dreams (I read on the forum that Apple juice will increase the vividness of your dreams). I had a bit of trouble falling asleep, but eventually I did.i had a super vivid and long non-lucid.

My dream starts out with a guy from work,p. he is following me, and after some time, he pulls a gun on me. As he stands there, I'm thinking what I should do. Before I make my decision of trying to tackle him and grabbing the gun, he goes to his knees and hands me the gun, while saying, shoot me. I grab the gun, and realizes its a soft ball gun. I tried to shoot for the lolz, but the trigger is not working.
Next thing I saw this parkour team, Team Jiyo, shooting a fighting scene at a parkour park they build themselves. (Right now I could go in detail about all of this, including the parkour park itself, and the entire dream, but I won't).
Later withe dream, I was riding my bicycle down this mountain road, leading to a big beach house. The road was made of sand, and cars were driving up and down the roads. As I reached the beach house, so did loads of other people. Everything was soooo fking vivid!! As I was about to enter the beach house with my bike. A kind girl helped me out, with lifting the front of my bike. I thought to myself, yeah ok it's only a dream. Boom!!! I was lucid. I didn't RC or anything, I just followed the flow of the dream. She let go of the bike just as I got lucid. I biked it up myself and carried it into the next room. I remember steering the bike as I do in real life. Nice feeling of lucidity! I spotted my girlfriend in the crowd of people entering the beach house. The vividness was unreal! After putting my bike down on the ground, I went to socialize with the dream characters. Boom I woke up, because of my girlfriends alarm clock.

She had forgotten to turn of her alarm, even though she don't have to get to school before 10.30...
yessss more progress! And maybe I have the apple juice to blame?! It was a short lucid, but a vivid and nice lucid! This one definitely counts! I felt like I could keep staying lucid in that dream for so much longer. 2 DILDs in a row, but no RC.
its not like I don't need to RC, I have been lucid many times before (not only the 12 times that my profile says) but the problem has always been stabilizing the dream.
I have been into lucid dreaming for about a week now, but a couple of years ago I was also trying out lucid dreaming. 2-3 years ago I tried out lucid dreaming. Back then had many lucids, but almost ALL of them were very short. And I woke up right after realizing I was dreaming. I tried all kinds of stabilization. Rubbing your hands, spinning, looking for detail. Everything made me wake up. Until I just said fuck it, and when I got lucid, I just followed the flow of the without stabilizing or anything fancy, and I was lucid for longer than ever! Best advice to noobs like me, who have trouble stabilizing is: go with the flow of the dream, no stabilizing.
I think for me, whenever I was stabilizing, I was actually breaking down the dream because I was focusing too much on the dream NOT to fade, then it fades... Go with the flow!

I've been getting a very healthy amount of sleep the last few nights. Perhaps too much. So, I have a few fragments from last night's dreams including one in which V was incorporated. We had rekindled something, but she obviously had a different vision for how things were going to play out. As I return to the bed to cuddle with her, she guides my face in a mild rejection. I feel deflated and realize that she's entirely in control of the situation. I was, myself, going through some strange emotions since I kept remembering how recently I had been dealing with feelings towards A. This is an on-going issue in my waking life, so I can hopefully use it as one of my major dream signs to look out for.

Current dream signs:
1. A
2. Birds, in pursuit of
3. Costa Rica, revisiting and perhaps living there
4. Derek, regaining communication and potential conversations

Let's see... hmmm... ah yes... so i was dreaming about looking at a video on you tube and erm...it sounded like the song breathing you in By Zircon. and apparently i wanted to look up what the video was. Wait, if i saw the video how would i not know what it was called? and apparently i liked it so much that i wake up... IN MY DREAM,a la inception and i rush downstairs to see if it was real and i find it; and it has a different title. apparently, you have to be a Fire Emblem awakening fan to under stand who i am referring to; Lucina you know Chrom's daughter. OR SO I THOUGHT.​ THIS FREAKING VIDEO. LET ME TELL YOU. WHEW! IM NOT GONNA GO INTO ANY FURTHER DETAIL.( SPOILER: SHE WASN'T A GIRL)

This dream came to me pretty fragmented. This is what I get for trying to WILD when it has become pretty clear to me that I have no idea how to wild.

I wasn't successful in being lucid, but I was successful in inducing my dream location, a beach. Specifically it was the dream sign beach resort, the one my family visits every spring around this time.
I think I may have been mildly lucid when the dream began.

Something was going on having to do with food.

I was giving someone a tour of the resort. Come to think of it, it might have been Lia. I can remember one of the three buildings had a weird extension made from these brownish cobblestones. They were cemented together, and the extension had these huge panoramic glass windows. It looked very modern in fact.
The DC who I assumed was Lia was curious about the extension. I told her that I wasn't familiar with the extension and it must have only been added after the last time I visited.

Okay, I need to go and cry now that my two best dream signs just sailed right over my head.

The resort began to distort, and it felt like we were in more of a bay type area. The bay that seemed to be closing in had these really tall trees on the shore that felt like the giant jungle trees from Minecraft, save for they were realistic and not made of blocks.
There were alot of rough waves in the water. I spotted a whole palm tree that was floating on the water and being pushed toward the shore. I then spotted a second palm tree, followed by a couple of very large pine logs that were sawed off on each end.
One of the pine logs washed up on shore right in front of me. Lia was still with me and explained that it was weird that the logs were washing up on shore because they were cut by a logging company in California.

Why that information was important, I don't know.

I was in a set of maybe two or three rooms. It felt like these rooms were underneath the beach that I had been on in the first part of the dream.
The rooms were arranged in a triangle formation, with one door connecting to each room. The rooms were covered, wall, floor and ceiling by a rich brown wood. (Maybe it was the pine wood from earlier.) One of the rooms was larger than the other, and there were about half a dozen dream characters chatting and talking. Apparently this three rooms setup was part of some strange social experiment.
I tried to go into the room with the other dream characters, and I wanted to chat with them, but there was a tall thin boy who disallowed me from coming into the room. I tried to go in twice and each time he pushed me out.
The third time I tried to go in, I told him not to push me and to just hear me out. I felt like somebody was next to my right leg, and I looked down. There was a girl, maybe two years younger than me trying to put her clothes back on. Realizing she didn't want attention, I quickly looked away out of respect and realized she was the only girl here. When I looked around the room, and saw the faces of the other boys, I got the feeling that the other boys were abusing her. (I guess this was part of the social experiment we were in.)
I kept on talking with the tall boy, who started to become more friendly as we chatted. I think I was eventually able to make amends with everyone.

Had a pretty random dream about Auron, a mod here.

I had just arrived at a meeting with other dreamers elsewhere. Everyone was sitting at an elongated table just chatting. Then when I looked to the center of the table did I spot Auron. He was sitting there quietly. Not talking to anyone else. Wondered why he was here, this was supposed to be a somewhat private function.

Then again, I suppose there are no rules in dreaming and there aren't any figurative locks one can put on a mind.

Anyway, guess he wanted to join! God knows why, it was a pointless meeting. Nothing was accomplished besides people simply arriving there.

Grayson's come across Mina and Harker in some danger and got them out of it by offering them a ride home in his carriage. Now they're discussing a message he's sent someone to deliver, and Mina's objecting to sending this messenger into danger on their behalf. Grayson asks what danger she's referring to. Why, the war, of course. They're not far from the battlefield; that's part of why they were so grateful for his rescue. Throughout this conversation, Harker has become increasingly uncomfortable and is beginning to regret accepting the ride. Mina, sitting across from the other two, is noting that Grayson's in shadows so dark he can't be seen.

Lucy in a different carriage, with Lady Jayne riding outside. Jayne says to her, "Don't you think you had better go?" "No. My choice is to stay." "Atta girl."

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

A species of small creatures which, as they grow up, take on masters and will instinctively fight the servants of other masters if left alone together - which often results in fighting their own siblings, sometimes to the death. Later, when they grow into masters themselves, they see the other side of that, with the responsibility and grief of killing. (The dream logic was inconsistent about who was actually the one doing the killing, the servant or the master. The main point was violence without thought of consequences in the young, servant version, contrasted with the grief, guilt, and sense of responsibility in the older, master version, and a sense of circular time or mythic time, coming back around to the same event but from a different perspective.)

I'm breaking into the ruins of an old and isolated church, with a cat, carrying a candle; I climb up the stone wall and up onto the second floor, which is mostly open to the sky. However, just as I get there, I see the property owner returning home across the fields in the distance, in a dogsled. I extinguish the candle I was carrying, but it's too late, he's already spotted the light and is turning this way. I climb back down the wall and run for it. However, I'm on foot and he's got dogs; my odds of outrunning him aren't good.

We cross a river, and the scene changes to 3rd person; now it's a group of children who are running from him, and they dive beneath the water and stay there. As a 3rd person observer, I'm thinking about legends of creatures that can't cross running water, and about the way the scene changed when I hit the water, the river acting as an event boundary.

A party where I've been looking for a woman, a dressmaker, known for a dress that resembles the sea. I find her, an elderly woman, and I ask her about that dress, which pleases her, but which isn't the subject I really want to talk to her about. We're interrupted by another woman, someone I know, and the two of them go off to talk in another room, behind a closed door. I eavesdrop from just outside. I hear them mention a Joanna - a dead woman who I keep hearing about, someone who left a widower behind, someone powerful. I'm caught listening, and so go away without hearing the rest of the conversation.

Rumpelstiltskin. I have some guests, people here to do business, but I've just turned away from them and am talking to Belle, showing her the potion I'm preparing and saying "It's designed to attract." The scene switches to 3rd person, and I note that Rumpelstiltskin loses the showman routine he uses with the others when he talks to Belle; I'm thinking something abut the length of time Belle's been around and how they interact, which is something that Rumpelstiltskin is feeling a little bewildered about. He heads up to the tower to get in touch with someone through some magical means. "Don't go listening," he says to Belle. She's indignant - of course she wouldn't!

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

Based on Carmen - she's dancing, I'm sitting in a chair watching her and thinking about the past, about killing for her, feeling sober. (This felt like it was a variation on the servant creatures from before - as if there was something I was trying to work out but wasn't quite getting, so the dream was rephrasing.)

Date: 12/16/2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (Successful WILD!)
Total Sleep Time: Almost 7 hours

I did a WBTB around 7:30am because I had an appointment with the exterminator coming at 8:00am. It only took the exterminator around 15minutes for him to do what he needed to do and I was back in my bed around 8:25am. I had been telling myself since yesterday that I was going to WILD AND be successful at it. Before my WBTB, I had actually gotten close to 7 hours of sleep. I realize the more I sleep, the more successful I am at WILDing. In my mind while I lay there I told myself to stay AWARE and not AWAKE. It may have taken me thirty minutes for my body to get relaxed, but soon after that I felt my body kind of ‘drop’ and the vibrations soon followed.

I felt myself holding on for dear life as the vibrations where stronger than ever and soon…I was ‘out.’ I did a quick RC of levitation and it worked. I recalled going through my bedroom wall (which is not too hard because my bed is right next to it) and I ended up ‘somewhere’ (very dark place and I don’t really know where I was). I then recalled I had a few task to do and for the life of me…I couldn’t remember the TOTM. I decided to concentrate by looking at my hands and things became clear. I was in some type of room that had a tree growing in the middle of it. The tree was strange…it was a tree that bore fruit AND vegetables (???). I distinctly recall me saying that the tree had watermelons, cantaloupes, and cucumbers growing from it. I looked up to the highest limbs on the tree and sure enough…there was all the fruit and veggies growing. I decided that since I can clearly see to fly at super speed and I raised my arm up like superman and took off! Everything was going past me a warped speed and I saw the brightest stars in the universe flash past me. I felt almost nauseated from the speed (in real life, I suffer from extreme motion sickness) and I guess that is what made me feel my real body and before I knew it…I was back in my body breathing heavy like I just ran a race.

To my higher power and Lucy…thanks.

fragment 1:

The earliest part I remember is sitting in a classroom, very similar to the one from last night despite never having been in it before. I was supposed to read this paper with my group that talked about everything coming in pairs. The teacher wanted us to explain why reality was like that, why did everything come in pairs of 2. I thought she was talking about everything having its opposite but she told me that it wasn't opposites, but the pairs were all very nearly the same. They only seemed different to me. So I was reading through this paper, and I turned one page and there was a music video on the paper. One guy with a mullet was standing in some industrial yard on a metallic structure, spraying water in the air. The water started to fall on my buddies at the table and I apologized, because they weren't ready for it. Half the classroom faded into the industrial yard with this guy. Red Rain, by Peter Gabriel, started playing as this guy was spraying us all with the water coming out of this hose. I thought it was nice. Then I woke up.

fragment 2:

This one is a little blurrier. My sister and I were driving on some road trip with the 2 kitties when she wanted to stop at a gas station. The gas station was filled with over the counter drugs, but they were in powder form, weird. That's all they sold there too, so I was sad. Then when I was leaving the gas station I noticed that the kitties had escaped. My sister caught the girl cat pretty easily, but the boy had some kind of inhuman strength. He kept running from me and he ran into the arms of some old lady. She handed him to me and then he started to run away. He was dragging me along the ground as I held onto him. All I could think at this point was, Yes! Our daily trainings have finally started to pay off! Then we drove to some place where there was a person with frosting for hair - I tasted it and it tasted just like raspberries, delicious.

dream 1:

At this point, it was very close to my wake-up time. I had about 30 minutes left and I was getting very frustrated that I hadn't had a lucid yet, so I decided to go all in and try an old-style WILD like I used to do. I focused on the auditory hallucinations and controlled them so that it became part of a dream, then I paired them with the pictures in my head until it became more and more vivid. Eventually I opened my dream eyes and I was confused because I was still in my room, so I checked to make sure it was a dream and it was! I got out of bed and started to transform myself into a dragon on the floor. I did it fully, sort of, I was more like a baby dragon. I guess I didn't want to destroy my room with too large of a dragon transformation. I started to flap my little baby dragon wings and fly around the room. I was extremely excited at this point and I woke up with a burst of adrenaline, no more dream-time left for me.

Side-note | Lucid

[LUCID] Grocery store task
Before bed, I was running over my known dreamsigns, telling myself that "If I see X, I'll know I'm dreaming" I don't remember how this one started, but I think there's a good chance it was the "huge room" dreamsign. After waking up, I couldn't remember anything for a few moments. Just as I thought all was lost, I got a flash of this one. I'm sure I forgot parts (like how I got lucid in the first place).

I'm in a grocery store. Some kind of event is going on at one end. I'm at the other end, getting snacks. Lots of junk food is hanging in front of me; nothing is too my back. A friend is with me, but I knew that as a DC he can't be as fast as me, because he's bound by the rules of the dream. I'm still waiting for him at the snacks, and I know that once he arrives and gets his own snacks it'll still take him a while to get back to the event. I start thinking about how I can help him. I decide that adding moving walkways to the store would be a good start, but I don't actually try it.

Now, I'm looking at the store's safe. I pick up something that would let me open it (maybe the key? I don't know), but then I decide, that I'm in a dream, so I should use my mind! I stare at the door, trying to picture the gears inside it spinning, unlocking, and opening the door. Nothing happens.

Now I'm with my family in a kind of hallway next to the windows. It's wide enough for a line of cafe tables and enough room to walk. We're sitting on the floor, looking out the window. A couple of bulky men are standing outside the window. Beyond them is the parking lot and road, and beyond the road is a steep embankment going up. My wife and I are sitting right next to each other, my right arm pressed against her left. I remember the task to close my eyes for ten seconds. I get an odd feeling of excitement, that I'll be doing something I know I shouldn't be doing, but I KNOW it'll go well. I close my eyes and start counting. I focus on the feeling of my wife against my side and on the memory of what I saw. I almost see a kind of "after image". The men's shirts particularly stand out as blobs of color. I reach 10 and open my eyes. As far as I can tell, nothing has changed. I consider trying it again, except visualizing a different scene with my eyes closed; but I don't do it.

Now I'm looking at the embankment. People are climbing up ladders to the top, but something is going wrong. They're complaining loudly about it, even though it's their own fault. (I don't know how I know they're complaining; they're across the street where I can't hear them). Eventually, some other activity has to stop because their complaining is just too much of a pain.

Now I'm walking with my third daughter on the road, just like everyone else. We're still following the rules of the road and get into the left turn lane behind a line of people.


New directions
I'm walking through a grassy field (some kind of park, I think) sending a text message to Jakkarth, telling him that I've moved to a new place. I try to give a thumbnail sketch of where it is, but I'm still not familiar with the area and I can't provide real directions. I tell him that I'll send proper directions once I get back to the house. Now I've just come down from being on a play fort. I realize that my phone isn't in my pocket and look around for it. I see it on the ground under the fort, and I realize that it fell out of my pocket somehow as I was coming down.


Lost ties
I'm walking around outside church Side-note(which looks nothing like the real one)[/COLOR] when I see JB, one of our deacons, holding a wad of ties in one hand and his cell phone in the other. He's using the cell phone to talk through the PA system, announcing that he's found some ties and that they'll be going in the trash unless they're claimed soon. He shows them to me and asks if they're mine; I take a quick look and tell him they aren't. He gives one final warning over the PA, then starts to throw them away, but I stop him. I tell him that it always annoys me that the policy is always "Claim your stuff or it goes to Good Will." I wish there were a short period during which the stuff stayed on display but where anyone who wanted it could take it. He thinks about it, then agrees with me and hands me the ties to look through again, to see if I want to keep any of them. He warns me that there's trash in the middle of the wad of ties. I see that he's been going around the property, picking up trash and wadding it all together. On closer inspection, I really don't like any of the ties and start looking for a place to throw them away.


Parking deck excitement
I'm in the passenger seat of a van driven by people I'm staying with. I don't know them very well. The father Side-note(who looks like Iron Man 3's Killian - something had reminded me of Extremis the night before)[/COLOR] is driving, and his kids are in the back. We're in a parking deck, trying to get out. The main exit is backed up, so he decides to take a "short cut". He drives over a curb, knocking over some glass jars that had been placed along it. Following this path around the deck, we reach what should have been an exit, except that it's been mostly walled off. There are still gaps around and under it where we can catch glimpses of the outside. I see tires under it and hope it's not a police car, and that if it is they won't realize what we've done. He backs up back over the curb. I see that the unblocked exit is right next to this one, and that it's currently clear. I don't think he should take it yet - if it really was a police car out side, we don't want to tip its occupants off that we were the ones who jumped the curb - but he just takes the exit. Sure enough, it was a police car, and they start following us, though their lights aren't yet on. The father starts slowly accelerating. I ask incredulously if he's planning on getting into a chase with the police, but he denies it. By this time, he's going recklessly fast around the parking lot, trying to lose the police before they actually turn their lights on. I consider bailing out of the car, but decide that would be just as dangerous as staying in.


Fragments
It's night. I see something about a ghostly apparition - some kind of advanced technology - that jumped on / through a helicopter and brought it down. An investigation is ongoing into what it was. I see a pool of some kind in front of me. An artificial animal - a cow? - is helping fill it. Suddenly, I realize that the plot to bring down the helicopter was from the artificial animals, and that it lets them fill these pools over and over, becoming rich and taking all the power as they do so.

Something in a house.

This is just a small fragment, because I didn't get much sleep.

There is a 2 meters tall Vampire Lord in his big and dark castle. I know he is the antagonist of the dream. I am his 'apprentice', but I don't know why, but I want to rival him and oppose his dark soul.

I'm so sad not having been able to remember the whole dream, because it must have been really cool.

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00:00 Monday 2013-12-16 comp #16 night #4

00:30 ?? bedtime

01:47 had dreams but no recall

02:16 some a$$hats outside making a lot of noise, they left soon made it into a WBTB

04:27

F1) in a sports club lifting weights

06:09

1) there are two guys they're preparing to murder an evil criminal another man they are lawmen, but the guy they've caught murdered one of their friends so they're planning to work outside the law to construct a killing device for this guy, it's a tall pole with a huge heavy metal ball combined with a giant metal hook. The device works by immobilizing the intended victim, place the pole over them so that the ball/hook will hit their head around the top, the ball/hook falls near their head, the hook rotates out and stabs into the brain, kiling the victim. They're setting up this device, and the victim is now a teen girl not a man. She is lying down inside a box. She can't see the thing. The ball/hook comes down, the hook comes out, and kills her, but instantly her ghost/soul rises up out of her body and comes to me and I start interacting with her. She has splotchy/zombie-ish skin on her face and body, I realize this is the way her ghost will appear for the rest of eternity. I'm comforting/hugging/kissing her. She's agitated, I'm trying to convince her that she has possibilities and opportunities, for her eternal zombie career. She says she'll never be a personal trainer. I'm trying to convince her to become an actress. She was a low-class girl.

2) Very bizarre scene, there is a human-ish being "egg man" (gives me shivers just to think of it) whose mid-lower body is entirely contained within a large egg-shaped container. This being's eyes are bright red shining slits. There is a bright red shining horizontal slit centered on its forehead. Its entire purpose in life is to live within this egg chamber and to take one thing into its mouth from a bowl in front of its face, chew it, and extract a seed or something from within, and to spit out this seed into another bowl, these seeds are valuable and he sells them. He keeps chewing and spitting these seeds over and over.

F2) I'm looking for something on a large series of shelves. People are watching, things are falling down, I'm trying to pick something up, there's a trailer home afterwards.

3) I'm speaking with a famous woman (former porn star?) beautiful middle-aged woman I'm trying to convince her that she has possibilities and that she should be an actress. She should focus on "stepping up her game" to promote herself.
There's a guy with a foreign girl whom he just met, he's trying to impress her, they're talking with another guy and the first guy is trying to get the speaker to slow down so the girl will understand because she was recording the first time, so that she could appreciate the funny part of the story. He's trying to get him to tell the story again slowly and clearly.

F3) Bewitched episode. I'm the husband on the old TV show Bewitched, my wife is the pretty witch. I tell the housekeeper that our house is full of witches. so she comes prepared to work in our house with anti-witch charms. My wife is upset that I told the housekeeper ahead of time.

4) street rat. On a street at night going up and down the street (which seems to have been groomed to be resurfaced, I see grooves in the ground) on some machine with some guy, I see on one pass an old, slow black greasy rat walking down the middle of the street.
I'm trying to get my coat back from the coat-check, there are hundreds of people trying to get their coats back from the coat-check, I should have picked up my coat earlier before the crowds arrived, I move past the place where people are picking up their coats to another place and think I should return to the place I just passed.

08:28

F4) lying on bed in my younger son's room. He comes home from school, he wants me to enter the security code in some program on his computer.

5) I'm in a gathering (job fair?), I go to the edge of the room, there are packs of food there I think they're free party favors, but you have to pay it turns out, at least $10 each so I decide to pass, the packages are pretty heavy, I see then that there are also packages containing costumes like halloween costumes, they look like burlap sacks some of them, star wars based they seem to be, I think of calling my kids to see which costumes they want. To the right beyond the costumes is the cashier, there are lots of light-covered baubles there also for sale. My friend JoTy and another DC guy are there telling me to try out the toy double-sided lightsaber. The packaging looks really enticing, depicting a bright flourescent green beam, I hold the device with has a thick central handle and two touch-switches underneath some black foam, and the toy turns on, the "blades" are flickery green, not very bright, rather disappointing. I wave it around and it does not make any light saber sounds. I "bop" each of JoTy pretending slicing and the other guy with the ends of the toy. I turned it on and off twice. I thought I could use this to incubate a dream about having a light-saber (!!!!).

6) floating on a raft with college friends, I see CrLe right in front of me. I smack him on the knee playfully and say enthusiastically, "How're ya doing!?" I say "it's amazing we're already halfway through the 3rd year, it's like it just started, it's my favorite thing to do I love being in college". I say I've saved the regular non-scientific-major classes until the last semester of school, taking history and english and all those "uninteresting" classes.

7) a fast food burger stand has opened up. There are a bunch of young people working behind the counter. One of the young people there is talking to me in English promoting the food place. I'm puzzled why he's talking to me in very good English. I go up to the stand and look at the menu, burgers and deserts. I'd like to get something but I know that if I do I'll be too full.

8) on the back steps of my parents house down to the lawn, I see signs that there have been animals tramping around in the garden. On the fence to the L's house, I see what looks like deer hoof tracks in recently dug-up dirt straddling the fence between our gardens. I look up to the street (HC) and I see there a baby black bear walking around. I feel I must run into the house right away to call animal control because the mother bear may be around and that's very dangerous.

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9) some sort of work marketing-promotion event is beind held outside. The marketing gals are setting up booths with lots of objects/paraphenalia in them, they collapse once and they pick everything up, I think that would suck if everything fell down again because the shelves are filled with lots of small things. There is a very desireable object there as well, the point of this whole promotion is to give these away as the big prizes, I'm thinking are these booths going to be left unguarded overnight? Maybe I can come back and steal some.

inside a restaurant, gathering food and snacks with a woman (HR woman from the above event?), I like her, we're sitting down to eat, I'm offering her the things I have: 1) a small opened plastic pack of BBQ potato chips, the chips are small and orange colored from the flavoring, it's a bad unappealing little greasy bag of chips, and 2) a larger pack of unopened white puff balls/crackers of some sort. I think I need to get a bowl to put these snacks in so they look more appealing, I go off to look for a bowl.

F5) flying high in the air, there will be an attack

10) sitting in car with wife who is on phone (I'm in passenger seat) talking about the real estate deal involving a property we share with her brother and his wife, we're selling it. From what I hear of the conversation I gather that all of our portion of the sale proceeds have been given to her sister-in-law. I exclaim, "Wait, WHAT!?" when I hear this. My wife hangs up she's annoyed with me she didn't want the person she's talking to to hear my reaction. She's on the phone describing what happened, my voice would disturb the other person. She calls the person back, I'm trying to get my wife to answer me, I repeatedly ask, "where's our money?", wife says "they gave it all to sister-in-law in compensation for the hard life she's had."

Then I'm driving in a different car with wife's sister-in-law (I'm still in passenger seat), my wife is driving in a different car. I say "where are we going?" To somewhere having to do with this real estate deal. We turn left on to a street, and we're sailing through the stop signs. I think this is a terrible idea, first of all it's dangerous, second we could get stopped and not everybody has valid driver's licenses, it'll be a problem. I think about calling wife on phone and telling her to stop at all the stop signs.

We approach a car head-on (it's parked), we swerve to avoid it, as we pass by the car a small brown/red animal (dog? fox?) emerges from underneath the parked car heading into the street, and pulls it's leg and it's tail out from under the wheel of the parked car. In a cartoon fashion, the leg/tail gets stretched long and thin while the animal keeps pullilng and pulling, then suddenly the leg/tail snaps free like a rubber band back into position on the body. Happens twice (once leg, once tail). I see a small spot on the body like blood.

We're coming up on a big gourmet food store (like a Whole Foods) where my wife wants to stop and get some cheesecake. I want to drive now. I think we could pull in to the parking lof of this store and we could switch places so I could drive. We end up not going into the parking lot, we go straight a short bit and stop. We have parked inside the middle of an indoor office. I'm thinking "oooh, sorry about that" to the office workers, we get out of the car, and I want to move it out of the way (it's right in between some desks). The car has become a child's toy push car that they can ride in. I start pushing the car around to get it out of the way, it's still really heavy like a real car. I'm rolling it around, maneuvering it around a corner to get it out, I start saying "I love small cars, they're so easy to maneuver, my first car out of college was a FF, it was a really small car, but it was great because it's so tall inside. " The office women I'm talking to say "mmm hmmm yeah OK." I keep going on "it was like a volkswagen golf/jetta but smaller, very small very easy for me to sit in."

One of the office women says to me "boy you have some chapped lips, don't you?!". I think about my lips and smack them a few times, they do feel puffy. I look at myself in a mirror and see my lips, they look like two pairs of the sponges inside womens' hair-rollers, two sponges joined for the upper lip, and two joined for the lower lip. I smack my lips and say "man those things really are chapped, aren't they?"

WILD
I found myself in a bus. I went to the driver and went out the next stop. I wanted to summon patterns in the air, and made a little snowflake on my palm. Then i was making different patterns in the air , but they didn't look like they were made of snowflakes, it was some mix with smoke and snow. Then i wanted to make an ice under my feet and some time stamped with foot till awoke.

Very late in bed and stone-tired - not motivated to WBTB or properly journal with my micro.
But what is nice, is that some parts and pieces show up in my mind on their own - will later try to squeeze out some more from my brain.

One dream:
Again (ffs!) I am at this house, I am never wanted at - of the parents of my first boyfriend.
But again - we were much older.
In this dream - there was a snippet, where I wanted to use the toilet, and it wasn´t locked - I even looked, if it showed red (it was such a door). It wasn´t - I opened the door a bit - and got it slammed back closed by the irate mother - assuming, I did that on purpose - and giving me a piece of her mind, so to speak.
These dreams are full of silly crap..
There never is much interaction with him - it is mainly conflicts with his parents - esp. the mother.
And in each dream of the five I have on here now - every time, I "did something wrong" - and got expelled more or less nicely - actually every time it is something new I did wrong.
This time - again winter, again x-mas time - I was there for visit - but when then the big family walk after food was being walked - I asked my ex, what would be the problem - why she would be so hostile.
And he said, it is because she disapproves of me having an affair with him, while he also has a girlfriend.
This was true then - even when I am pretty sure, it wasn´t before we went out - just "a friend" back then I believe.

A fragment:
I took a walk through a forest with very dark trees - without leaves - but many branches being a bit meandering - even contorted. I was walking on a high pass - I could look down a rather steep decline to the right through the trees - and next to that decline started agricultural fields with some sort of grain being grown there.
But maybe 4 meters broad stretch with trees between me and that decline.
It was dark from all the branches in that place I was in - and below it was "daylight".

Attempted a WBTB, which failed because i wasnt able to fall back asleep thinking i should have woken up earlier, ill try that next time.