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It's another nightmare and I wasn't able to shake it.

Tonight I didn't wake up every time my alarm went off. I had about 4 dreams, and I remember 2 of them.

I didn't seem to commit totally to my DEILD attempts this night, I will try tomorrow night... However, at one point I did hallucinate a bit!! But I wasn't able to enter a dream.... Tonight is the night!! Let's hope..

I was at some kind of bus or tram station, I think it was somewhat similar to one I know in real life, always driving through on my way to work. Oddly enough the actual street or railroad seemed to be missing though. There was a lot of gravel on the ground and a cat, I remember touching both and being surprised at how realistic it felt and used it to try a slow stabilizing start on my dream which also worked at first, somewhere in between these scenes I also must have done a RC as I was lucid most of that time (I also remember that RC, just not when exactly I did it).
After I thought I took the dream slow enough I intended to fly, succesfully turning into Ryuuko and jumping off a near cliff, gliding for some way, then I remember how I suddenly saw myself (or Ryuuko) from behind, able to pick up on some details (mostly the not black as thought, but instead colorful, blue-green scales, but it also ended my dream. It also looked like some kind of forest but I can't remember the details as much as I'd like to.

I was on my way to work, I was driving in a car through the mountains, and it was a beautiful, already somewhat bright day, the complete opposite to my actual way to work. I got lost there but realized how far away from reality all this was, then I suddenly was in a building with a nice view of the mountains and did a nose-pinch RC, with success.
Out of a strong urge to fly I dashed forward, broke the glass of the window and spanned my wings, starting to glide immediately. The world then was filled with repeating patterns which I could control to some degree, but the dream faded fast.

To bed (Close to 9:30 maybe)

Woke up 3:15am Weird mixed coffee drink
Fragment

A man who in this dream fragment was supposedly from church but upon waking I recognized him as someone I sometimes have to deal with at work (in waking life he is not very nice, but in dream he was). In the dream he and his wife were standing on an upper ledge of a building looking down, and he was dictating to me the recipe for a weird mixed coffee drink. There appeared to be rules to what kind of stuff one had to include, but within those rules one could substitute somewhat to make different variations on this drink. He was telling me the variation he liked best. Upon leaving I remembered I had another question for him, so I came back to ask it. Then I was on my way: I don't remember any more, but I think I was on some tort of quest or scavanger hunt?

Fragment 2: something about infidelity of a man I do not know in waking life, but who in my dream was someone I think also from church but not same guy as in previous dream. The infidelity seemed to be one incident rather than an affair.

8:20am
Fragment

I remember there were Indians in this dream, some powerful shamans. And me and others were traveling, and I think flying on either eagles or some other way (there were eagles somewhere in this dream). There was also magic. As we were about to fall in the water, we transformed our animals (or Pokemon?) into a creature that could swim and carry us. I remember being surprised by its weird shape that seemed better designed for floating than for swimming. There was an Indian woman who accompanied us part of the way, and she may have been a ghost, we asked whether she would stay with us but had somewhere else to go. Something about a class in magic or shamanic practice that an Indian was about to start, and we were taking. I remember the name of the class was weird, but I forgot it now, and it was also weird that the first quiz was on the second day.

Did an unsuccesful WBTB before.

Had one very strange dream;

So I was outside my school (again) and I met my sister. Apparently our schoolyard had changed into a gigantic amusement park. The colours of the dream were very vivid. I had some kind of microphone with me and I was interviewing everyone I met. I don't really remembered what she said. At this point I thought how awesome it would be to be in a LD. (man, so close). I then proceeded to search something to drink - without really being thirsty.
I encountered a lot of teachers on my way wich made me uncomfortable.
Right at the end of the dream I realised being in a dream. But after trying to do a few things like flying, jumping around or summon a DC, (all of those failed) I woke up - forgetting yet again to try DEILD..

That's all I can remember now.

1 st LD Wild. I found myself in the kitchen. Tried to move hands and stabilise the dream, but awoke.

2nd LD Wild. I found myself sitting on the sofa, but my body was shaking so much, that i fell down the floor, but i didn't worry about it - i knew that its a dream. So i fell down the floor and wait a bit till the dream stabilise. Then i stood up and went outside through the wall. I wanted to make TOTM with snowman. There was little snow on the ground, but enough on the car. I made a small snowman and took it on the ground and animated. It had a big mouth like snowman in "frozen" and instead of feet it had gloves. And it was funny when it mooved with its gloves)) It said - look! Opened his mouth (it had a blue tongue) and got a piece of lego from the mouth.
Then i decided to make a snowstorm. I made strong wind and even a tornado, but there wasn't snow, so it was only strong wind. I thought that it counts like first of three step task and i can make a snowstorm next time. I turn around and found that my wind destroyed my snowman. I made it again, it was alive.
I went to find Santa. My yard transformed in the school yard and i imaging that i found Santa with dears and sledge round the corner. I went there and found what i wanted and even more...
Big sledge was coming in the yard. There was dears and the sledge was FULL of presents. The Santa was young - about 30 and without bread. When i saw presents - i lost my manners at all. The slege mooved slowly, so i jumped in it and opened one of the presents - there were sweets. I took one and ate. It was tasty. I jumped down from the sledge and awoke.

Dream of: 08 December 2013 "The Eye Of The Storm"



dreams are encounters with truth

I'm sitting on the ground floor of a big brick building which is part of a private school which seems like a college. Other students are in the room and I'm sitting at a table with a couple girls (in their late teens) who are eating. They're talking about the students who attend this college. Apparently about 100 people live here at the school and they are divided into two sections. One section consists of 64 people who are students, while the other section consists of 29 people who aren't even students. I'm surprised that so few students actually attend this school. I'm thinking that I could even stay in the school if I wanted, but I'm still not sure how the room and board is set up.
I'm a bit self-conscious about eating with these girls. They seem like the flippity high-class type. I spill a tiny bit of food on the table. I'm unsure that I'm displaying proper table manners.
Finally I stand up. One whole side of the room is covered with big glass windows and glass doors. I walk outside for a moment and am surprised to see six or seven big funnel clouds hovering over houses on the distant horizon. I holler out, "Tornado!"
I watch as the tornadoes tear into the houses. I think I can safely watch for a bit and still have time to run into the building and head to the basement before the tornadoes reach me. I want to watch as long as I can. The sight is quite spectacular. Lightning flashes over the perimeters of some of the funnel clouds. Suddenly a big piece of something which looks like the roof of a house flies up into the air. Lighting strikes it and creates a dazzling show as the edges of the flying roof light up before falling back to the earth.
I step back inside the building. I plan to head to the basement when I hear someone say something about not opening the basement door at the bottom of the stairs. I think about 50 people are already gathered in a big room in the basement, but I don't think I'll be able to go in, so I'll have to huddle outside the basement door.
Ten or fifteen people are still here in this room and are watching the tornadoes through the big window. I think its now dangerous to remain here, but they don't seem to be concerned and they continue watching the action.
The wind picks up as one of the funnel clouds seems to hit the building, but the wind still doesn't seem strong enough to force me to the basement. Suddenly the wind seems to stop, and I think that this is the "eye of the storm" . I think to myself that if the back half of the tornado is no worse than the front half, I should be able to weather this without problem.

Dream of: 06 December 2013 "Unreal Scenario"



procrastination is a sin

*My old friend Wunder (whom I first met in 1981 when we attended law school together in Waco, Texas) is visiting me early in the morning. Abruptly realizing that I have completely forgotten about a court case which is set for a hearing today, I quickly begin getting ready to go to the courthouse. I grab the files and leave with Wunder (around 30 years old), my mother (around 40 years old), and a child who is with my mother.
*We take an elevator to get to the courthouse. On the elevator I point out to Wunder that we are not simply going up in the elevator, but that we are actually moving horizontally from Dallas to the courthouse in Fort Worth where the hearing is being held. We quickly arrive at the courthouse, a place where I haven't been in years. We walk into a delicatessen on the ground floor of the courthouse and all sit down at a round table. I have a big stack of papers which I spread out on the table as I try to remember the details of the case.
*I'm utterly unprepared, but I figure I still have about an hour before the hearing will begin. I'm beginning to think that I actually have two cases which I've filed in order to dissolve an injunction. These cases have been going on for years and years and I don't even remember the details as to why I'm trying to dissolve the injunction. I haven't been in touch with my clients, so I don't know if they're even going to show up today.
Wunder looks at some of the papers and tries to be help me figure out the case. I imagine that he's astonished to see me operating in such chaos.
I also remember that in this case I filed a special motion and a brief which had something to do with nuclear power. That was years ago and now I'm not even sure that the nuclear power issue is even pertinent to this case. Now I can't remember any of the details of the case. I'm trying to figure it out, but time is running out, and I need to go upstairs to the courtroom.
When we all stand up, I become aware of my attire. I realize that I'm dressed inappropriately for court. I'm wearing a checkered brown flannel shirt, big light-brown brogan shoes, and blue jeans with a hole in the right knee. I also realize that the judge might require that attorneys wear a sports jacket and a tie. I think I might be able to run somewhere and buy a tie - I still have probably ten minutes before court starts. I look at Wunder who is immaculately dressed in a dark suit, a white shirt, and a blue tie which even has a little gold chain on it. I suggest that he might be able to lend me his tie, but he balks at the suggestion and seems disinclined to give me his tie. I figure that asking for his jacket would likewise be futile.
Being dressed this way seems a bit odd because I distinctly remember going to my closet and pulling out my old black pin-stripped suit. I know I haven't worn the suit in years, but at least it was still a suit. Now, however, I'm dressed the way I am.
*After we stand up, we hear a loud voice which seems to be coming from a loudspeaker. One whole wall of the delicatessen is a window through which we can look out onto the street where some kind of gathering is taking place. A semi-truck is sitting with its back open in the middle of a crowd and something which looks like the interior of a radio station has been set up in the back of the semi. A man sitting at a desk is giving a news broadcast on a loudspeaker. He sounds like Rush Limbaugh, but I can see that he isn't Limbaugh. Wunder becomes interested and he wants to stay and listen to what the man has to say. I figure that Wunder isn't used to seeing a spectacle like that, but I don't have time to wait around, so I head toward the elevator without Wunder. I think he'll join us when he's ready.
After boarding the elevator, my mother and I arrive on one of the upper floors of the courthouse where we find ourselves standing in a hallway. I think we are going to court #2 which is some kind of special court. Other attorneys all wearing suits and ties are walking around the hallway. I need to find out if the opposing attorney is already here. Maybe I'll be lucky and he won't show up. I know he's going to be astonished at the way I'm dressed.
I'm also carrying a big stack of unopened envelopes which I grabbed when I left the house. I quickly look through them, thinking I might have received something from the court regarding this case. I have all sorts of vanilla envelopes as well as regular white envelopes. I see one white envelope which looks as if it might be regarding this case. Since I'm in a hurry, I hand the envelope to my mother and tell her to open it. I look at a clock on the wall and I see that we still have seven minutes before the hearing. She opens the envelope and hands the letter to me. I see that it contains a motion "to remove stay". Its from an old bankruptcy case with which I didn't even know I was still involved. It seems curious that the word "remove" was used instead of the usual "lift". It looks as if it has something to do with Time-Warner. I think I need to attend to this matter latter - at the moment I simply need to concentrate on getting into the court room on this case.
I look for the docket sheet which I think might be posted on the wall, but I don't see anything. I need to go into the courtroom and check with the court clerk about the case. Since the case is so old, I can just imagine that it will be the first one on the docket and that I'll be the first one to step up in front of the judge. I wonder if I should apologize for the way I'm dressed, but decide that I probably shouldn't even bring up the subject - I'll just roll the dice and see what happens. At least I'm on time. Being late would have been a terrible disaster. The case would have then probably been dismissed and I would be pleading with the judge to reopen it. At least I won't have to be doing that.
I just wish I wouldn't have waited until the last minute. If I had just started working on the case one day ago, I would have been prepared. Now I have to go into the courtroom without even being sure what the case is about.
This whole scenario just seems so bizarre, I almost wonder if I'm imagining the whole thing. Maybe this is all just some kind of premonition. It certainly seems real, but I'm hoping that somehow this isn't even real and that I'm just imagining all this.

The first fragment:
I remember being in some Physics class and the Professor was demonstrating some cool technology. He picked me as a begrudgingly, involuntary volunteer. He had me get in a metal basket, like the ones that are used in boom lift machines. He then started getting all crazy and he made the basket levitate. The basket started to fly all over the room and I didn't think this was weird or out of the ordinary at all, I thought it was great.

Next part I remember, the class all went to some big auditorium to watch a film. This girl that I had a huge crush on in first grade sat down next to me (she was my age now, not a little kid) and started hitting on me, talking about how sexy I am now and how she was a fool for not returning my affection. I told her, "Too bad girly, I'm not interested anymore", and I walked away from her. That's the last part I remember

The second fragment:
I was at my parents' house and I was a little bit younger, all the furniture was the same as it was back then. This girl that has had a big crush on me for a long time was hanging out at the house with me. I think she's pretty sexy too, but arr luv iz forbidden for reasons that I won't get into.

We were just hanging out when she kissed me, and so I did a RC to make sure it was real. But NOPE, it was just a dream, at least I became lucid though. So I started making out with her and we moved to the bed where things got hotter. We took off each others' clothes and I was terrified that her dad's DC would come and mess up the dream, I kind of fear him. I made my abs turn super hard and chiseled like a movie star's (partial transformation), and she slowly ran her hand down my chest and stomach. Then we did a little 69 and I ate her pussy (eating something? ). Then a window appeared in the wall and I froze as her dad appeared and said, "I Know what you're doing in there, especially the sexual stuff!.....but I don't care". Then he closed the wall-window and we continued until I woke up.

Last night was the first competition 16 night - and I wasn´t even aware of it..

I had two awakenings, where I had more dream-content than I dictated - but I was too lazy to do that.
Maybe if I had known..

But on the last two awakenings - without noting time - I tried to WILD with WBTB.
Didn´t work - yet..
At least it was good for something!

The dream, I have in it´s entirety:
It started with a FA in our old house - one of my most persistent dream-signs - it is ripped down - one time (maybe twice - once years ago?) this made me lucid - to realize it.

Not now - I got up in my old bed there being frustrated that my SSILD had "failed" - as in me not patient enough - and getting up.
No RC - could hit myself.

A Swiss friend of mine was there as a visitor - which in the dream came as a surprise (yes - again no RC ..).
I wasn´t sure, if I was pleased with this fact - not having known about it.

First of all I decided, that he had somebody to breakfast with - my mother and grandmother - and he was amusing himself - so I went in the basement, in my old room from childhood - not the room I had when we moved back there in my youth.
And suddenly it was not okay, that I wanted to WILD there - something had to be repaired, and it was my grandma´s room - but I had been lying down already - staying awake.

So I got up - yepp - no RC..
Don´t know, if the day held anything - it was afternoon then and first didn´t like, that I couldn´t go out with some friend´s I had planned on meeting - because of the visitor.
But I ended up happy with the night - me and him were at a theatre - a friend of mine was playing a role - the play was by his supposed favourite author - he doesn´t exist, I think - forgot the name.

They and she - were great.
The stage had boxes in room-size stacked four by five - and different scenes in them.
No - music, I think..

Later we were home and talked about the author of the play and her.
It was around midnight by then - so supposedly one whole day.
But there was no story for in between the cusps.


One fragment:
I was doing dishes for a friend at their place. The thought crossed my mind, that the sink was to a normal sink, what an outhouse was to a toilet.
The outflow-net was very big - and under it was a drop and autumn leaves - not any nasty, actually.
A water fountain - a clean basin - and a view.
Anyway - I had been given cherry-drops (??) for disinfection to use.
That was it.


Another one:
I was about to move from Berlin to Bavaria - on my way driving a lorry - and I got a bit lost on the roads.
Somehow I came to call my mother - and she started arguing, that I shouldn´t have decided to do the removals myself lala ..


I count three points:
WBTB, Fail: 1
1 Whole Dream: 1
2 Fragments: 1


Some conclusions and goals:
be able to recognize the most frequent of my dream-signs
always RC and dictate, when I wake up
be more confident in my WILD tries - if I get into FA - why not into lucidity next..
do more daytime work - decide, which


TOTM-Competition-Combinations:
"synch up" with imJD - put on it´s feet team Taurus with him

build a snowman from real snow, decorate and animate it (Object/DC Change)

ask a DC for a present and note the reaction - but before get the DC by Basic Summoning - round corner/behind something

at least start transforming into an Arctic wolf (Partial Transformation) to then maybe camouflage in the snow, sneak up on unsuspecting prey - and - rip it apart and eat it (start eating it seems okay..) - try tasting something.

12.13.13

Last night bed around 2am -9am

Today, wanted to WILD baaaaadly. So I laid down on my sofa at 1pm. Of course, that was a signal for my cat to climb on my chest. She was purring so happily, I couldn't say no. I never say no. Thankfully my other cat was sound asleep. That's because I'm getting smart about my preparations. I used to put pillows and a blanket on a sofa just before WILD, and they always saw that when that woke them up, and they almost always climed up on me. But now, I prepare my sofa way ahead, and then later I just sneak there quietly.

Didn't really have any HH. Just getting nice and relaxed. Then I got a first WILD. Was short, and I wasn't super aware. Just enough to have presence o mind to wanting to invoke falling sensation each time previous LD ended.

In one of them, they rolled my boss to me in a wheel chair, so he can talk to me. I said, "oh, you are impared". Guess what, so am I, coz I'm wilding and not getting up from sofa". And this seemed to be a theme. Me laying down in every transition trying to invoke sensations to enter LD.

Not a single time I realized, that when in that state, I'm already in LD, all I need to do is to get up. Normally I realize that, but not today. Anyways, this went on and on, what seemed like good hour. This is first time I didn't count the LDs or transitions. At least 5 of them, leaning towards more. A liiiitle bit of a bummer. But not enough to bum me out, lol. Thank you for the experience, come again.

Well I was at my older brothers house (this wasn't his actual house) and it was really cool.
I remember that my close family was visiting his home and I think I spent the night there to.
I did stuff like watch TV, Lounging about and check out his cars (they were really cool but I don't remember much about them other then there was two of them and they looked very expensive, actually now that I think about it every thing about the house looked expensive.)

Well that's it, hope this was a semi-interesting dream fragment

Date: December 13, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB
Total Sleep Time: 81/2 hours

Fragments

1. I was filling out an application for something...
2. I saw the letters UAE...
3. I was putting grades into my grade-book for my students...

Let's see if I can improve on this tonight.

I better type this up while it's fairly fresh in my mind. I laid down to nap, originally planning on just sleeping, but I don't think I CAN sleep during the day anymore. What I mean is, every time I want to rest or nap during the day, I end up lucid dreaming. And, that's cool, but it kind of sucks that I can't just have some regular sleep. If anyone has any idea about what's up with that, then please PM me or comment.

These lucid naps are pretty much always wake-initiated. I closed my eyes and pushed everything out of my mind. I realized that it was likely I was going to become lucid, so I decided to think of where I wanted to be... somewhere peaceful, like a beach. So I kept pushing thoughts from my mind and kept the beach at bay, so to speak. It seriously took like 10 seconds of keeping a clear mind before the outlines of waves and a beach began to form. At first it was like a little kid's drawing, but it started to become more vivid and three dimensional. However, before it got any color, I noticed fins in the water. D: The scene had been corrupted. (I am terrified of the ocean and sharks are the #1 reason). So, thanks, mind.

So I started to picture somewhere else and unfortunately I ended up at my job. Part of the time I was lucid, and partly not. It was like I kept forgetting that I was lucid, but I could remember that today was my day off, which it is, so I wasn't actually working, but just going around mingling with people. The significant part of this whole napping session was a guy I used to go to school with. I was always a little mean to him because he was kind of arrogant, thought he was hot, and funny, and always hit on me. anyway... I saw him in my dream, and he wasn't speaking to me, the way people who don't like each other don't, and I was lucid, so I just stared at him for a while. And he looked so real, like down to the last freckle, which I wouldn't know about, but there was just so much detail in his face. And he finally made eye contact with me and when he did, I sincerely apologized. I didn't say what for, I just said.. I am sorry and I maintained that eye contact. This DC recognized my sincerity and appeared to be touched. He smiled, but quickly his eyes morphed into demonic black almonds. Which freaked me out, so I woke up. This was like somewhere in the middle of this nap session.

The reason I say session is that I woke up several times. At one point, I literally had one eye open, although I suppose both were actually open, but I was seeing into my actual waking world, and also into the dream world. However, this could have just been an entire dream, but it felt very real, like yes, lucid dreams feel real, but when you're actually awake (at least most of us) you can see the difference, can't you? I can.

I believe I can anyway. I felt exactly like I do now, typing this, but I was also dreaming full on with my other eye. Isn't that crazy! It was also happening with my ears. In my left ear, I could hear my son's rain sound maker and in the other I was listening to people talk in my dream. I don't know. It's crazy.

It's so weird how dream characters are supposed to be simply our own projections, but at the same time, they seem like individuals with their own consciousness. I hate it when I tell a DC that this is all a dream anyway and it doesn't matter, and they look at me like I discovered some super secret and now they're gonna kill me. Anyone else feel that?

Alright. That's that for today.