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Dream - Lucid

I was definitely lucid last night for a little bit, but the only things I remember about it are:

-It felt like I was loosely hanging onto the dream, as in I would feel the head buzz and see the dream form, and then it would go dark and happen again, and
-I was naked and imagining someone having sex with me though they never materialized in the dream, and I had a SUPER intense orgasm when I started to touch myself. I am pretty sure I was not woken from the dream afterwards either, something I have been getting better at over the years. I was focusing, in the dream, on not being woken up.

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I was looking at my UHRS report online. I saw some weird numbers that looked like I had missed a ton of questions, but on closer inspection they looked ok. I had notes in red underneath some, one I remember saying something along the lines of "don't just do a few and get tired of them." There were no capital letters used.

I had other dreams too, NLDs, but this had been a weird morning for me as my daughter is hanging out with her Nana for the weekend and I got to sleep in (!!!!!) which never happens. I'm trying to recall but it's proving difficult. Also, I've had a lot on my mind as we are moving a week from today and there is so much that still needs to be done and I am stressed beyond belief. Definitely hampers my recall.

There were some longer cinematic dreams in the night. Seems like I was always waking from a dream. No recording during the night so recall's somewhat fragmented now.

+(f) (outside, daylight) I see my father sitting in a group on a chair, and I notice my mother sitting with him and think that's odd because she died but spend no more time thinking about it. She looked really happy.

+ I'm climbing up some hallway that narrows down to a tiny space and I'm trying to find an opening to get through. I see an opening up and to my left and it appears to be a bedroom with young man. I climb up there and there is a whole world there, a garden, I'm walking around doing stuff, someone made a bong out of a <my musical instrument> and I'm looking at it and wondering if I can play it.

At some point in this adventure I'm in a footrace with an Indian man. I feel my legs moving incredibly fast.

Some short dozing dreams wrapped up the night:

+ I'm parking cars with my dad into my CH garage. I see a car in there spinning its wheels on oil on the slick concrete floor. We're packing about 3 cars into this (single car, now)

+ at the fight: I'm sitting sandwiched in between two huge beefy muscular guys in the audience at a boxing match. I say "man the thing about these events is that everybody who comes here is a fighter!" My arms are pushed up against my side, these guys feel as solid and unyielding as tree trunks. There's a big commotion in the ring and some guy is telling a story about how he trampolined off of the floor the ring and sailed through the air (into a throng of people?) This replays in my mind a few times.

+ standing outside with wife in some random place talking about our bank account & interest & taxes, I'm trying to prove that even with taxes we should invest in an interest-bearing account, some guy comes by and doubts my analysis.

D1 - I had a recurring dream (long term) of being in a large house. The house was incredibly familar though it was not one i've ever been in the waking state. It was a sunny day and the house had a load of rooms all on the ground floor. I was trying to stop someone from getting in, with a great feeling of vunerability. The house had a main front door which was easy enough to lock but the back door which was way back in the kitchen (seemed to remind me of a house from my childhood, my Aunties) had a wooden fairly plain white door. I knew the lock very well and kept trying the small silver key in the lock but it was just turning and not locking it.

D1 Part 2 - In the same house in the front room standing with a girl next to a padded red sofa. We are talking about new beginnings and that if you are serious you need to sow your seeds deep. Only then will things be deep rooted and survive the tests of time.
So we start a journey down into the depths of some subteranean place, deeper and deeper, it is all very red and purple down there and dark. We eventually get deep enough in that other world and plant our seeds. On return I find that plants? of some kind are growing out of my dna and sprouting from my arms, this is good apparently. Things have taken root at a deep level.

D1 Part 3 - In the same room in the house, the girl is gone and a boy is their, I am now on a white sofa talking to him. he has blonde hair compared with her black hair. We are talking about synchronicity.
At this point the phone rings, it is a white corded landline. I change my talking voice the sound of the phone making a strange melody
then the doorbell rings, it is the girl. And I continue my melody adding the new electronic sound, like a strange magpie to my existing melody. The sound would be very hard to describe lol. but is very clear in my dream, a trill whir of lots of high pitched sounds melded.
I see the pattern as a three dimensional shape of many sides, snake like, its sides have shades of white flowing through it.

[Comment]
I have a great fear of opening up to people but obviously would like people to come into my home and have visitors, if they are safe.
It is a lonely existence hiding.
I am hoping to make a fresh start and build relationships with people in my life.
I see synchronicities everywhere.

19/5/6
Dream 1: I was watching an ad on tv for a primary school fete. They were interviewing a few of the kids, and four of them in a row all had beards or five o'clock shadows, more significant than what I can grow haha. I mentioned this to my dad, who rewinded to have a look, then suggested that maybe they were European (lol).

Fragment: Something about different religions.

Dream 2: I was building a large scale remote control car style thing. I had finished it and it was in a long tunnel. I hopped in and set off, starting off slowly but gaining speed, extremely nervous about whether it would work.

I recall a fragment. It was dark, the sky was just black. First I was in home, finishing renovating it, then I found myself in a club with brother and his pals. I met one of my classmates and we went to a parking lot and drove a car.

5.19.16

Bed at 11pm. Alarm at 6:15 to go to a 8am gig at my second job, but woke up from a DILD at 5am.

I'm in a room and everything has green tint to it. I wonder out loud "why is everything green"? And I answer to myself with big grin "Because it's a dream".

Scene changes and now I'm walking down a busy street. I quickly decide I finally want to talk to a DC and I turn to a guy walking next to me with a question "Whats your name?". He gets confused and he clearly has no idea, all he manages is "uhmmm and errrr". I think to myself I should find a DC who is not just in my mind but who can think for himself.

I'm in a small room following the void state fromt the previous lucid. My awareness breaks through without RCing, and I find myself lucid in an area closely resembling a section of a high-scale hotel. There is dark marble throughout the counter tops, and mirror against some portion of the wall. A high quality sink is in this area along with some toiletrees. I think back to the goal I've been working on and try to imagine a cacao bar in one of the small boxes. The same situation from the previous lucid repeas, and there's a tasteless piece of papery material inside when I imagine it to be there. I begin turning to see where the room leads to an enter the first door. It is a very small room with a lounge chair of some sort. I quickly turn away, and open a door on the adjacent wall. Another small rooms lays beyond. I turn once again, and the same sitautuoin repeats. I finally open the door on the 4th wall and find another small room with a bath inside of it. However, it's another dead-end. I step inside, and look at the intricate pattern on the dark red tile above the bath. I decide I'm going to phase into another dream through this wall. I begin sliding into the wall, and my vision starts heading to a blackout. I begin imagining a snow scene. Nothing forms, so I begin trying to imagine a mountain peak with a shrine. The visuals don't catch on, so I think back to a podcast, and imagine myself driving a high-end sports car up a mountain path. I begin to get some tactile sense, but the dream fades and I wake up.

I'm with S in an area resembling a kitchen following the previous lucid. I am standing in front of a tall counter top with a dark marble surface, and she is standing in front of me to the left of the counter. I'm aware of how 'strange' things feel, and do a noseplug. I breathe and become lucid. I turn away from her slightly, and repeat"I'm lucid! I'm lucid!". Past where S is standing lays a doorway entering into a hall beyond. I get the impression that this leads to the hotel-like setting of the previous dream. At this point I decide to get started on some dream goals. I think back to one goal and my previous lucid and want to try eating a massive cacao bar and feeling the effects. I look around the counter top and determine it would be a good idea to just imagine it's inside of one of the containers on the counter. I peer inside the box, pretend it's what I'm looking for and take a bite. It's fairly tasteless, and tastes pretty much like paper. My mind isn't convinced. I decide to continue on down the hallway and enter to the next section of the dreamscape. At this point, the dream goes void, and I hold my awareness through a minute long segment, awaiting the next to form. I lose lucidity for brief time as the new dream forms.

I find myself in a void intermission following a dream about progress of one of my students. I feel my dream body in the void and focus on relaxing it completely; part of my mind understands that I will enter into an LD from here. I find myself in a house, and quickly do a noseplug. I breathe and become lucid. I become excited, and focus on my goals and mantra of extending the dream duration. I keep thelling the dream that it will last for an hour. I shout "this will last for an hour" with conviction several times. I continue on down one of the hallways. I feel as though I am in a combination of a house/hotel with many hallways connecting various rooms. I explore for a bit. There is a lot of vividness to this iniitial portion, however *there is a section of the dream around this portion which slipped from memory due to subsquent dreams*. I think back to previous goals once again and think of eating a huge cacao bar and feeling the effects. I'm appreciating the length and stability of the dream and have the thought that it is lasting quite a few minutes. Before I continue on to the goal, the dream fades and I enter a FA.

Non-lucid. Totally lost my dream this morning because Meesha Cat was all over my head, literally! Between that & my phone going off & me being so late today that I just went through my grocery day & doctor's appointment all naturelle. Had a no make-up day & had to just throw some clothes on, put my hair in a ponytail & off I went! lol

I added a box fan to my room, since my room gets hecka hot at night, and my ceiling fan is apparently broken. Honestly, I don’t know why I didn’t do this sooner - it makes the room like 20 degrees cooler, and it works really well as a WILD anchor.

Anyway, I took an extended hour-long WBTB last night, mainly because I was incredibly thirsty and spent a ton of time just drinking water. I had a bit of trouble falling back asleep though, so I just paid attention to the whirring of my fan. After a while, I notice that the sound of it has changed to what sounds like an incredibly epic orchestral song. I actually think it’s some music playing on my phone at first, and I’m tempted to roll over and turn it off. However, I have a sneaking suspicion that I’m close to a WILD, so I just wait it out. Next, I begin to see HI of this long highway stretching out in front of me, and I feel like I’m running/flying down the road at an incredible speed. I still feel like I’m laying in bed, but at the same time I feel an incredible rush like I’m actually moving. I maintain focus on the road, until I finally transition fully.

I’m in my parents’ bedroom somehow. I’m kinda tired of all my lucids taking place inside, so I decide to run towards the master bathroom window and jump outside. I’m now flying over my backyard, but in the middle is a really tall tree with berries on it. I fly up to the branches and see a ton of berries that look like purple grapes, though a small percentage of them are colored silver and gold. I grab one of each color to try them out. I pop a normal purple one in my mouth - it tastes like a grape, but not quite as sweet. I eat a silver one, and suddenly I start flying higher and higher uncontrollably. I get too high and the dream starts to destabilize before I can eat the gold berry.

I remain still and DEILD, this time into my normal bedroom. Again, I jump out the second story window, onto the roof of the porch. This time I stop and take a minute to stabilize the dream before I start. I repeat to myself one of my old mantras that was pretty effective for prolonging the dream. “This will be a long, stable, lucid dream.” I repeat this over and over, while rubbing my hands together and doing a few RCs. Eventually the dream feels stable enough. Finally, now I can enjoy my nice luci-

The scene immediately cuts to black, and I wake up. Seriously?... I manage to stay still and DEILD again. I’m in an entirely different scene, being led down this dark alley at night. I think to myself that it looks like one scene from Rick and Morty (I’ve never seen the show, just the occasional gifs that show up on imgur every now and then). I have handcuffs on my wrists, a set of shackles on my ankles connected by a chain, and am being followed by a guard down the alley, who warns me not to say a word, or else he’ll taze me. He leads me towards a building, where another guard is guarding an entrance fenced off by huge metal bars. The second guard opens the gate, and then opens the main entrance door. I’m led into what looks like a huge food court mixed with a Costco. There’s people everywhere, I’ve never seen a Costco quite that busy.

I’m seated at a table, where the guard removes my handcuffs and walks off. Two friends, Ryan and Kelly, from my graduating class are at the other side of the table, and they start talking to me about something I don’t remember. Somehow the subject of the guards is brought up, so I explain the situation to them. I don’t remember why I’ve been arrested, but basically if I try to break the chain at my ankles, an alarm will go off, and tons of guards will storm the area and take me down. Still, I remember at this point that this is a dream, so it might be worth trying to escape, just for the heck of it. The scenario kind of plays out in my head, where I jump and slide over a few product displays in the middle of the aisles while I’m being chased.

I’m broken from this visualization by a third friend, Sarah, who says that one of her professors is trying to hunt her down. She hands me an earpiece and tells me to warn her if I see him. I stick in my earpiece, and get up and walk around (as much as I can with the shackles still on my ankles, of course. I walk over to the deli counter and spot the professor on the other side. I turn to walk away, when I spot him again, this time off in the distance heading down one of the aisles. I look around and see 2 or 3 more clones of the professor walking throughout the store. I get on the earpiece and warn Sarah of the situation, and assure her I’ll try to do my best to hold them off. I prepare to cause a diversion, but I soon wake up.

I miss my DEILD window, so I get up and type out these lucids on my phone. I go back to sleep and have a non-lucid. I’m at some baseball field with my mom, and for some reason we’re trying to track down some person (really specific, I know…). We split up and search separately, but after a few minutes I haven’t found anything. I turn to look at the field, where I see my mom running on to the field towards the pitcher, followed closely behind by security. She’s about to be tackled, so I run out onto the field to save her, telling security that she’s with me. Apparently that makes them stop (dunno what position of power I had that does that though…). One of the security guards is this really angry old black lady, who keeps yelling at me and threatening me. I start threatening her back, until I realize that she’s the person we were looking for. She seems to notice this, and she starts running away, so I give chase. She’s surprisingly fast, so she gets a sizeable lead at first. She runs through several gated areas, and quickly shuts the gates behind her. I don’t even take the time to open them, instead I just lower my shoulder and break them open as I run through them, like I have super strength. I finally catch up to the woman and tackle her to the ground.

I kneel on top of her and hold her shoulders down to the ground, so she has to maintain eye contact. “Tell me what I need to know.”
“You’re not ready.”
“I’m almost 12, I need to know.” Um, excuse me? I’m almost 22…
“I can’t…”
“I need to know about the birds and the bees!” What the heck am I saying?

Just then, there’s a white flash, and I’m back in the food court/Costco. I’m standing at the end of the aisle, while my two little sisters are continuing the dialogue from the previous scene (I don’t actually have any sisters, but apparently it all makes sense because I’m a character in a sitcom or something…). I guess it was just a daydream. Eventually, the conversation ends, so the sisters hug, and the older sister walks over to me. “Go well?”
“As well as it could have, when I got blindsided like that.”
“Well, you won’t believe the daydream I just had.” I begin to tell her as my voice trails off, the camera pans up, and the credits start rolling on the sitcom. There’s that stereotypical audience applause as the screen fades to black.

“And that’s how we end the episode,” I say to her.
“Too cheesy. Not to mention way too meta.” There’s cheesy sitcom audience laughter, and the credits roll again as I wake up for real.

It was evening, there was a reddish glow on clouds and the sky, beams of light were falling down towards my house. I was in my backyard and I was some kind of a transformation magician - I could change any object into another one, altering it completely. I was attacked by some evil warlock and used my powers against him. I had a strange feeling all the time, it felt like I was about to wake up or realise something. Gesturing my hands I heard a *kapow* sound and my enemy turned into different kind of animals. We were strafing to the right, I could see buildings on my backyard and my barn as we were moving. Whenever I turned him into a big animal, he smiled and when I turned him to small one, he was sad. In the end I turned him into a mouse and thrown down a well. I turned back, there were two scared people. I toled them "This is just a work of illusion placed upon your mind by evil magician. Please go away."

Dreams were all over the place. I remember a world called albion and then next thing you know i'm donkey kong swimming in the ocean? Brain why?

Nada

I had an amazing lucid dream last night. I suddenly became aware that I was lucid so I turned to the woman standing next to me and and asked - do you represent a part of me? For the first time in the history of ever one of my dream characters said yes. She said Yes! I said wow really what do you represent? She said "the truth of yourself." I said how does that work? She replied - Ask me anything. SO I said - I've been having an issue with a friend that is really bothering me, I dont agree with what they are doing ... And all of a sudden she yelled "THAT'S YOUR EGO!" Her face was angry and mean. I said , you don't understand this is really bothering me, let me tell you what is bothering me and I started telling her the situation again and she cut me off- She looked at me and screamed "That's selfish! That's your EGO!" Her face even more angry than before. I was taken aback and so I tried one more time. But this is really upsetting me..."NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS! THAT'S SELFISH! THAT'S YOUR EGO!!!!" I was really freaked out and pretty embarrassed. SO I said ...I am sorry

Her face went back to normal and she looked all sweet again and she smiled at me and said ...."That's okay

" WoW! What a cool message from the universe! I totally understand now.

The second part of the dream - the devil was chasing me, I ran and hid and ran and spent most of the dream trying to get away from him. Finally he cornered me and I looked at him and saw his horns and suddenly felt sorry for him because I thought the horns must hurt. I reached up to touch them and my hand went right through them, I said " your not real!" He smiled at me and said, no I'm not.