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4/22/13 -Same dream, varied ending-

I'm in the middle of NY, it's evacuated. Tons of trash rustles about in the wind. I turn around to see what's going on. The sun it bright and blinding, I'm surrounded by abandoned parking garages.

Out of nowhere water begins to rise. The first time I had this dream, I died instantly from drowning. The second time I had this dream, I remembered to swim up and survived.

Now the water recedes and the streets are even filthier than before, debris piled high and I feel hot (temperature).

-Wake up-

Monday 4/22/13

Last night bed around 12:30am - 5:20am

DR: I'm floating in a hot air baloon over the barren fields near NZ. I ask the guy which way he thinks wind will take us. I see some sacks with what I think is chopped up meat on the fields, but they turn out to be onions. We land next to my parents house. I take a few onions with me. (Watched episode of Futurama, where they leave the sewers with hot air baloon.)

DR: I'm hiding in a house where people are walking around. I think they see me but I don't mind and they don't mind either. I have a small insect that is bioluminiscent bright green. I hold it in my hand, otherwise it would be flying infront of me. I think it's half bio, half mechanical. Like a little spy insect. (Watched Avatar, where little insect when disturbed jumped in the air and flew like a helicopter.)

Nap 8:30am - 9:50am
I'm in India. (Watched documentary about cotton farmers in India.) I'm in a huge house with tons of people. I'm suppose to be one of the babysitters. They show me some rooms, I introduce myself to gramma, other people introduce themself to me. I'm having hard time understanding because of their very thick accent. I lay under cover with one of the uncles. Apparently, it's a custom. The call me closer and I see they gonna sing happy birthday to someone.

Then they gonna show me my room. I come to to small house outside of the big one. There are two entry doors. Between them is a lot of old spiderwebs on dirty, whitewashed walls. I realize nothing will stop snakes and other things from crawling to my room. They open the door to the left for a boy who is suppose to live there. The room is barely two steps deep. He complains about it. Room is empty, just a concrete bench on the back wall, like in a jail.

My room is still under construction. Lots of concrete debree on the floor, dust, white paint, tools, buckets... Room is huge and now I notice light coming in there from right side. There are some chairs and sofas and people are sitting there from other parts of the house to watch tv, that's on the oppoiste wall on some cabinets filled with books and other stuff.

DR: I'm walking along the road at night in Kom. I don't ahve money so I ask some people and I think I can ask the bus driver to take me for free, because he knows my mom. I would pay him later, of course.

I'm walking in different part of that place. I hear a siren. It means some kind of a danger. I have no idea what kind, but alien invasion crosses my mind. I get off the road and start walking in some dusty ditch.

Before this, I'm crossing a river on some kind of a rope suspended between shores. No clue what I'm doing there, but to escape something I drop down. (Watched the axe man and their trouble with skyline cable suspended in air that draggs the timber.)

The first I remember of the dream was walking into a Costco building, but it looked nothing like the roomy interior of Costco. The ceiling was lowered, the shelves were closer together, it took less time to walk from one place to another, etc. Right in front of me were 3 ladies standing behind tables lined up behind each other. I walked up to the first lady and she took a red balloon up to my mouth and in a very Asian accent told me to blow in it. I had a difficult time doing so, only managing to get a single blow in before it deflated. During my attempts it looked like she was measuring my blood pressure, but I couldn't tell. After a few failed attempts at blowing up the balloon, she took it away and shook her head, telling me that she couldn't measure me. I got angry and proceeded to the last woman in the table line. I asked her to measure me, but she said that if the Asian lady couldn't do it, she couldn't do it either. I demanded for her to do it, but she consistently denied me. Steam practically coming out of my ears, I stormed off.

I passed the deli section and went down the nearest flight of stairs I could see. The room I was now in was long and skinny. A counter with another employee standing behind it was in front of me. Completely bypassing it, I walked to my right, where there were shelves and shelves of storage for frozen items. A woman, presumably a trainer for new employees, was showing her underlings how to shelve the items. I scooted past them and saw an outlet stationed in the wall for a Little Caesar's. I remember faintly that I was supposed to go in here to find food. I ordered a personal pizza and ate it up the stairs and out the store before I woke up.

A friend kisses me on the cheek...

Everyone is getting on an amusement park ride, I follow the crowd, wonder why nobody invited me, we get on a tilt-a-whirl type of ride, and after the excitement of getting on with everybody I say "ok, this isn't really fun, I'm just dizzy more than anything."

I come home into the kitchen and my brother has a pizza and there's a box of laundry detergent inside the pizza box. My mom (not my real mom, some dream mom) is standing beside my brother. I'm watching the scene as if it's TV, Khloe Kardashian is me. She says "what's that" to the box of detergent. My brother makes a comment about how I (or Khloe) should know this stuff. I want my mom to see I'm contributing, I clean up, tidy....now they're both in the living room and my brother is being lazy, I want my mom to see how much I did. I realize she took apart the vacuum cleaner because it needed to be washed. It's sitting outside on the deck with soap and water in it.

I'm watching two people interact, one of them is a character from Party of Five or something, one character says he should have done something or been somewhere, the other character (the Party of Five one) says something to the effect of "how could you be in two places at once?"

This was my third experience with lucidity and I was SO excited to realize I was there again.
This time I started by jumping down a road. I could not exactly fly in this experience, it was more like I was jumping like on a pogo stick but a giant one. I would come down, but then all I had to do was bounce and push and I was flying again. Anyway, I was going down an empty road. It was paved, but no stripes, so it was a fairly empty road in the country. It was dry as all the landscape was kind of dead and dry. I saw other people this time who were doing the same thing as I was, who I believe were also lucid dreaming, or in the same world that I was, but there were also people there that were unable to see me. People driving in cars who did not seem to realize all of us flyers/bouncers were around. While going down the road, (I was looking for a town and I don’t know why) I came across some sort of sports team, at least that’s what I thought they were. But they were men, all dressed in green and I assumed they were irish because they had red hair and freckles. I only noticed them because they were together and I notice that they too saw me. In this event, I could not see myself for some reason.

Ok, I bounced along until I got to a town. I went (bounced) into a restaurant and was looking around. I noticed that there was money outside on the floor of a porch that no one noticed, and I thought, wow, I’m going to go pick up the money, and then I said to myself there would be no need to do so because I wouldn’t need it and could just have whatever I wanted. I went to check out this theory by going behind the counter in the restaurant (it was a diner of some sort) and started opening the refrigerator on the counter and cabinets to test if anyone would see me and chase me out of an area I was not supposed to be. They did not. No one could see me. It seemed as if I could not really control well where I was going when I would bounce because I wanted to stay there but I bounced too hard and ended up leaving there and bouncing higher up in the sky, away from the diner. I ended up coming down near some sort of convention center (at least that’s what I thought it was). It was some sort of busy downtown stadium where there were a lot of highways. I had to go down under a street actually walking and I know I was walking to get to wherever everyone else was going. Everyone else meaning there were people like me, and not like me (Like ghosts, or flyers or whatever I was) all attending. I didn’t even get to the event because I encountered violent people. I knew this because they had guns and were dressed in some sort of combat suits. I knew that they knew I was not a bad person and they were not after me, but I also knew that the people they were after must have been behind me and I could somehow become injured in the crossfire. So I quickly bounced back into the other direction, trying to get out of the way. It seemed as if my bounces were not as powerful as before so I had to work harder to get a shorter distance. Eventually I was running on foot and my bouncing did not work at all. Fighting started behind me, still back on that city street and underpass before the entrance of the stadium. I could hear and feel the wind of bullets passing near me and for some reason I do believe I could have been hurt, had I been shot. This fight was between people like myself, people who could see me, not with the other “normal” people who were not spirits. They had no idea anything was going on. They were all still driving past, going to this event, with full cars. I finally got to the top of where another highway was, was able to bounce across, and then landed in what I think was a huge front yard in front of the diner. The diner was at the very top of this hill and I was at the bottom. I was still super scared because of the shooting behind me and I saw that the next lot over, there were a bunch of police tanks of sorts. I started bouncing over there to get help. I bounced into the yard of that place and I could see that the entire hill was covered with mud but I didn’t think it would affect me. Well it did. I got stuck in the mud and was so scared because the police were aware of this fight and the fighting seems to have followed me. I could not bounce. I was just stuck. I was scared I would be shot, so I decided it was in my best interest to wake up and get out of this situation…which I did.

I just got my Remee sleeping mask yesterday so I tried it out last night and I think it worked, really well.

I can't remember too much but I know I chained like 5 lucids last night. I kept doing a RC on my hands and then having a false awakening, then doing it again.

I remember telling a DC he was dreaming, which he refused to believe. He thought it was "just a humble suburban home". I started screaming it at him but he still wouldn't believe it.

I saw my brother playing on a futuristic keyboard. I tried to use the computer next to him to go on the internet, but it didn't work.

I thought about doing the task of the month but I couldn't remember what it was. Maybe tomorrow I'll get it.

Finally -- Advanced Task of the Month!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #87: The Diamond

I'm driving somewhere in California, preparing to merge onto the freeway. Some guy in a Hummer blocks me from merging in, though, even steering his behemoth vehicle toward me so that I have to run off the road. I wind up on some semi-abandoned, crumbling old road, following one other car. The road's filled with enormous potholes and huge slabs of the road jut up at crazy angles. The other driver and I steer carefully around these chunks as best we can and I'm very worried that I'll break an axle. I think that this is all cause by California's ever-present budget woes.

The road ends at a marina but the other car has vanished. I get out of the car and sit by a wooden railing, pouting about my problems. As I look down at the water, I see a little girl crash a jet-ski into a dock, fly over the handlebars, perform three perfect back hand-springs, and walk off as if nothing has happened. I'm impressed by her athleticism and very relieved that she wasn't hurt.

There are narrow wooden walkways leading in a couple of different directions, but none of them are wide enough to fit a car. I need to keep driving but I don't want to leave my car here. I think that if this was a dream, I'd just go jack one, Grand Theft Auto-style. This thought makes me critically question reality and I realize that I'm dreaming!

I leap to my feet and take flight, soaring high enough to see the top of a nearby apartment building. There's a huge pool party on the roof of this building, lots of DCs milling around, and I decide to check it out. I discard the "Great Wall of China" Task of the Year for now and decide that I'll do the "make a diamond out of coal" Advanced Task of the Month.

I look for the DC who seems most in charge and central to the storyline of this party scene. A girl that's seated in a beach chair nearby seems to be the focal point of the scene. She's mid-20s, black, very cute, and three or four of her girlfriends stand deferentially around her as they all talk. While it's not an exact match, I notice that she looks a bit like Stacey Dash.



As I walk up to pseudo-Stacey, she and her friends turn to look at me. I say, "I'm going to give you a diamond." One of her buddies, a brunette holding a slender glass of what looks like champagne, laughs at this.

"Are you serious?" asks "Stacey".

"Totally serious," I say. "It's for a task. You just need to hand me that lump of coal that you're carrying around."

"Sure, take it!" she says, handing me a peach-sized lump of coal. Whew, glad that worked, I think to myself. Stacey and her friends watch me, intrigued. I give the coal one quick squeeze, imagining that it immediately feels sharp and hard like a diamond. I open my hand and yes it's a diamond! There are some lumps of dusty black coal-crap on it, but I quickly brush them away, revealing a sparkling, golf ball-sized, round cut diamond.

Her friends murmur appreciatively and I hand Stacey the diamond. "Aww, it's so nice!" she says, smiling appreciatively. She holds it up to the sunlight to admire it then stands up and approaches me. "Hey, will you help me out with a question that I had?" she asks.

"Sure. What's up?" I'm very intrigued about what her question is.

"What's the difference between..." she begins, pointing toward herself and circling her finger as if to indicate "me" or "all of me". Her voice trails off and I quickly wind up in the void. The excitement of TotM and the anticipation of the question get me too wound up, though, and I wake up before I can use the void to travel anywhere.

I buckle down for DEILD but I feel like I'm not going to fall back asleep. I try to really let go, and after waiting for a bit, I slip back into a non-lucid dream: "Stacey" is in a dark, wood-panelled office, seated across from a severe-looking woman in her 50s. Stacey is visibly upset and says, "You have no right hire someone else to ghost write my story! How can you do this to me?"

The lady, who I think is her publicist, is unsympathetic. "Not everything is about you." I wake up.

i am lying on the couch in the living room of the old townhouse. it is night and the room is lit by lamps. i feel very ill and feverish. my mother is here. she tells me to get up and go to school. i reply that i can't, i have meningitis and i should be in the hospital. she screams at me and we have a long argument. i am intensely angry. later i wonder if i am going to die and think about what my boyfriend would do if i did. (i was violently ill before i fell asleep which probably accounts for the focus on illness here).

in the next scene i am walking to my high school. it is snowy and i am with my father. i find an iphone sticking out of a snowbank. i ask my father if it's ok to take it. he says yes, so i do. then i am inside the library at my elementary school with some other people. we are watching a movie on a projector screen. at one point there is some starbucks product placement in the movie and starbucks gift cards pop out of the screen and onto the floor. the other people and i scramble to grab them up. they keep coming, along with some lollipops and -- hydrocodone pills... i grab several pills and remark to C.W. that i'm surprised it was legal for the filmmakers to do this.

then i am working at a daycare for disabled children. i am standing on a large circular mezzanine in a domed wooden building with a rustic/old-fashioned atmosphere. there is a matronly black woman here. later i am taking a bath while covered by a white canopy to research therapies for autism?

finally i am outside, on a beautiful rocky coastline. i am listening to a lecture about canadian geography from a disembodied voice. i sprinkle green powder onto a moss-covered slope which i recognize to be british columbia. the voice is now talking about aboriginal tribes: "our friends, the mogwai, are dead..." finally the subject of the lecture changes to buddhism. i don't recall what the voice said.

the general atmosphere of these dreams is unpleasant.

#169 - 5:20AM - DILD/Fragments

I only recall a couple of fragments. I was very tired and didn't take the time to DJ until much later.

I am at work trying to find some documentation on a wire-harness. I look in several filing cabinets positioned in different awkward places throughout the plant. Finally, I find one but the assembly number ended in G04 and I was needing G05. I go back to look but the cabinet now has someones personal junk in it like a jacket and radio ect. I feel really confused and notice how dark the dream is getting but I don't catch on that I am dreaming just yet. I decide that I can make due without the documents and go back to my workstation.

When I sit down I notice that I am completely naked! I put the wire harness in my lap to cover myself and franticly look around to see if anyone is near me. I see a backpack next to me and start digging around for some clothes. I find a pair of yellow sweatpants and begin putting them on while trying to hid the lower half of my body under my desk. My boss, Carrie, walks near talking to someone. Her back is to me and the need to get dressed is even more urgent. I have a hard time getting the pants on. It's like I'm slightly damp and the pants are sticking to me. Finally after some struggle I get the pants up high enough to cover most of my nakedness. I notice how odd it feels to be going commando but I don't care. I dig some more for a shirt and find my wifes t-shirt then my son's shirt then something that looks like it belongs to one of my daughters. I say screw it and put on my wifes shirt. I look down again and notice I am now wearing jeans. I am confused how that could happen when I specifically remember the bright yellow sweatpants. Spencer walks up and says something to Carrie. When she turns around she looks right at me and I know that she knows. At that point I am so frantic for a way out that I finally realize its a dream. I tell her, "This is a dream anyway."

I immediately fall into darkness. I feel like I am wake but not sure. I try rubbing my hands but the feeling is faint. I think about going to my DJ but really want to DEILD. I relax a little too much and fall non lucid.

I am back at work walking through my work area to the break room. Jim, a quality engineer is being a prick again. He's giving some speech and sarcastically says, "If anyone doesn't understand...."
Being sarcastic back, I raise my hand and say, "Yeah, I don't." I continue walking to the break room. I hear Jim say something like, "He said he doesn't understand." He says it in such away that it was like I just cussed everyone out or something. When I get to the break room I begin to feel bad for it and realize how odd and dream like everything is. I say to myself, This is a dream.


Unfortunately I don't remember much after that. I feel like the dream morphed from wondering around at work to wondering around in a hospital but I just don't remember what happened exactly.

I recall another non-lucid where I am naked. What's up with the nakedness?

I was with my wife and son at some house and for some reason I was going to take a bath but she said why don't just bathe with Riley in the swimming pool. I stupidly agree. There are sliding glass doors in the bathroom. I go outside naked and hop over the wall of an above ground swimming pool. When I get in the water I notice I have an audience. To my horror I see all of my nieces and nephews standing by the ladder on the other side staring at me with shocked expression on their faces. They're all the young child versions of themselves and I feel extremely embarrassed. (BTW the oldest of them is 23 with 2 kids of her own irl. She was about 10 in this dream.) I try to hold Riley in front of me to hide myself but realize how stupid that was. I jump out of the water and run with Riley back inside. I can hear the oldest make some shocked muttered comment behind me.

Now, I am driving with my wife and I tell her what happened. I am upset that I never took a real bath but for some reason I feel clean enough. We go into a store for... Something. Can't remember.

Edit: I remember some detail now. We were leaving a store and there was this odd entry way like in a house with small glass side panels. The panels opened up to let me out but I didn't go that way. Someone remarked that must be how the thieves are getting in at night. I look down and see a strange tick on my leg. I brush it off and as I look at it on the carpet it swells up into a large spider. I step on it and walk away.

When we get back outside I realize we are driving her Sister's husband's truck. When we get in, there are bags of Quickrete in the cab. I say, "Oh Angel's actually planing on doing some work." One of the bags are in the floor and I move it to the back of the truck. I notice the truck is gray and not at all like his tan colored Toyota. I wonder why there is a clutch because I feel like it was supposed to be an automatic. I mention something to my wife about all of this but she conveniences me that all is normal. I look at the dash instruments and see only large letters: P R N D. I shrug and we drive off.

I try to WILD with the 30mins I have left before the alarm goes off but I was unsuccessful. I don't recall any additional dreams.

To bed at 11pm, woke up at 5am. 6 hours - not enough sleep

No dreams recalled, but woke up thinking about a fight my older son and my husband had on Saturday - maybe I dreamed of it.

i was on a walk with one of my sisters friends (perhaps a cross between margot and some other girl)

we were kissing a little bit and flirting. I was going to get it in, there was a lady on the trail who said so. he said oooo this one is freakey. he is down for it all. this type of guy is one who will never let go.

then the other part of the dream was super weird and i could go into great deal but ehh here we goo

i was in a parking garage and there was like one color vs another color, i tried to cross the batle ground with hands up, then shots were fired. i ahd to take cover back at one side and people kept drying.

then later this intriciate plan in a parking garage involving a large string and a hook allowed the team to catch the other bad guys

~50 mg 5-htp time release
You are travelling between dimensions with maybe 3 other people. Every world you come to seems to be in trouble, and when you reach it you are presented with a number of options for how to help out. Your vessel is like a futuristic u-haul that can fly and traverses dimensions when it reaches 88 mph (lol). It's piloted by some chubby middle aged dude you've never seen before. I don't remember most of the worlds, but on one the water supply is controlled by a large corporation (probably because you're reading dune). You have to go into some plant and shoot a bunch of people and flip switches to shut down the plant so people can have free water. You feel kind of bad about shooting the people in the plant, but they are in the way. As you are leaving this planet you see the corporation's building and it's this huge black eastern looking onion-domed type of thing. Kind of looks like the Taj Mahal, except bigger and more spread out. In another dimension there are these strange enormous sea creatures coming to take over the continents because they want to live on land. At some point you return to regular Earth and buy a box of blue cheerios. The lady at the store won't take cash so you have to use a credit card. They cost 242 forints. You're with S now, and it seems he's been travelling with you. You talk about how it's annoying that every planet you travel to seems to be in some kind of trouble, and you wish you could just find a nice place to relax. You go back to your apartment, and I believe you realize that it's not your Earth.
Flash - you and S are at a parking garage, the world is about to end and you're trying to think of a safe place to hide. You decide that you shouldn't be in the parking garage because it will probably fall down on top of you.
Flash - you're in your apartment and you're worried because someone has been shooting at you through the window. you go to sleep for a bit, and then you're less worried because you realize it was a couple of months ago that someone shot at you. The bullet hole is still in the window. You're still a bit paranoid that they might try to kill you again.

One fragment - and a false awakening, at that.

Dream (fragment): False awakening. I woke up, performed a failed reality check, then actually woke up.

took:
- no 5-HTP before going to sleep
- 0 dose galantamine + choline
- no Piracetam when I got up
lucid dreaming: 0 lucid experiences
note:
- all techniques for falling asleep failed last night, the key is consistently going to sleep at the same time

Dream recall from today's naps.

I was at home and i was trying to WILD, but family was distracting me in every way possible and later i went to check out some levels for Doom. There was one level that was actually fully 3D and featured platforming with exploding barrels. After that i went into editor and decided to build joke mod with some maze and overpowered enemies.
As i was waking up i experienced vivid HH image of different room for like five seconds, there was TV and there was some word on it, and i could manipulate them.