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March 25, 2013

1st Dream
My sister rented a motor boat at the lake for I, her and her baby. We took it out on the lake and, again, I was driving (see: Driving Off A Cliff', a DJ entry by mwah).

As I navigated toward the deepest part of the lake (that would be in the middle), I noticed that water was getting into the boat. I wasn't driving fast or wild, just takin' slow and easy so I thought there was a leak in the boat.

When we got to the deep part, there were lots of boats there and water started to fill the boat at an alarming rate and it capsized.

We all went under. I found my sister and the baby (she was holding the baby) and swam them to shore with much effort. We barely made it.

The next day I said to my sister, "Did you get a phone call about the boat? They must be wondering where it is by now?" She just shrugged her shoulders and looked at me like a zombie (not the hungry look, more like the zoned out look).

2nd Dream
My family moved out of an apartment but left some things there to pick up at a later date. I went to the apartment to retrieve my things and there were two ladies packing. I told them that the room that they were in was mine and my sister's room. They nodded and turned back to their tasks.

I began going through my things (on the opposite side of the room from the two ladies) and was thinking about a box of shoes that I found, things like, "I wore these downtown once and they hurt my feet so much I'll never wear them again!" and "Why did I leave these here? I wear them everyday!" and "Well I guess I don't need these shoes any longer because it's almost springtime". Then I proceeded to look through my skirts to match shoes to them so that I could figure out what shoes and skirts to take with me at that time.

When I returned home (new home) I turned the tv on to watch a movie.

It was a fairly vivid dream involving me and some of my friends. A, S and H. We had all gotten together at some hotel and were working on a cartoon.
S was doing the animation. I think he was working in flash on his laptop. I was drawing sketches. A and H were working on doing voice recordings for the cartoon.
We proceeded to watch our cartoon. I don't want to go into detail about the jokes because they were sexual, racist, etc, and I don't want to offend anybody. But some of them were actually pretty funny. But all of my friends and I were the main characters in the cartoon.

March 18, 2013

In a dream I was driving a red car. There were three other people in the car. The road conditions were icy. I slid down a steep hill and managed to avoid a sharp drop-ff in the nick of time by coming to a complete stop.

Looking down the chasm sent chills down my spine. The passengers where very quiet.

That's all I recall from that part of the dream. The next part I remember ...

I went in search of a cigarette (I don't smoke so why?). Anyway I found a man sitting alone in a park and he was smoking. I asked him if I could buy a cigarette from him and held out a quarter. I tossed the quarter into his lap. He was sitting Indian-style.

That's it, that's all I recall.

non lucid
*Chatting with minjit about her life.
*Darshan of padmasambhava in the old chinese zen temple.

(In this dream I am not me, I am someone of the opposite gender, and about 35 years old, but It takes place in my house...weird.) I'm in the bathroom with my cellphone texting with some woman, apparently we're are in love and I'm cheating on my wife with her. I convince her to come visit me even though she resists. She thinks I won't love her anymore when we meet or something. When she arrives I can't see her, but her friend who looks exactly like Jennifer Lawrence tells me that she is in the room, confused I ask her where>? The friend says she's walking around, at that moment I realize why she was worried about meeting me, she think I won't love her since she is in another realm or spirit world, But she has sent me pictures of herself on the cellphone, so I ask her if I can see her in picture why can't I see her here? then the friend says because she isn't making it so. I ask her to, then she becomes somewhat visible to me and she walks up to me. I'm still confused about the whole thing, but her friend says she is the energy bringer and she loves energy and drains some from everyone and she can make her appear or disappear, the friend says her name is Aphrodite. Then they both disappear and leave more alone than I've ever been.

Before falling asleep I was listening to a hypnosis Session of Jody Whiteley from youtube. It was this one to be precise: Sleep Hypnosis Easy Lucid Dreaming - YouTube

Spoiler for Beginning of the dream (Sexual Content):

I was somewhere on a street in my current hometown, and there was this unknown girl. We just suddenly had sex for no apparent reason, I started to hold her from behind, raised one of her legs, and finally came inside.

TL;DR of above: I had sex with an unknown girl.

After some time I heard about someone who was now being searched europe-wide for impregnating some random girl, and that person was me. There was an high bounty on my head (12500€, or something like that, maybe 10x as much) and I was really worried about the Situation. Some time later I was in a room and thought about the situation when I came to the conclusion that I never touched anyone apart from my girlfriend, and that I'd never do that without a really good and strong reason either. Let alone impregnating anyone, as I REALLY HATE babies entirely, not to mention I'm concerned that our planet is overpopulated anyway. At that point I already knew I was lucid, and did a nose-pinch RC to confirm that.
I applied what I heard in the Hypnosis video, as I got lucid I tried to react to the situation with detached interest. I don't think that made a lot of difference, but I guess it improved stability at least a little.
I immediately went out to search for my dream guide again, and stopped in front of a big screen-like thing which displayed different landscapes, soon after I woke up.

Spoiler for Improvement Notes:

Broke a week long dry spell of lucids - Very Good
Immediately applied learned techniques - Very Good
Searched for Dream Guide - Good
Got no response - Bad
Suddenly woke up without getting anything done, again - Bad

Finally, several weeks ago I had a lucid again, and this time a real lucid.

Don't really know how exactly it started or how I got lucid. So far I know I was in a big shopping center again, it was really high (more than 15m). I was constantly trying to stabilize and managed to do that as well as achieving decent details (though of course I can't properly remember them ). I was running around and there were some people and when I went around the corner I fought an nonexistent foe for fun and tried to use a small shock pulsar. With success! It wasn't the biggest of explosions but it was a ball of detonating light with an radius of roughly 3,5m so that's at least something to start with.

Last night's dreams weren't very remarkable. I have a cold or some sort of sinus infection, and kept waking up with a fever.

I dreamed that my back molar was completely rotten, and every time I closed my mouth, it shoved the tooth out of place. The tooth was extremely loose - I was able to pull it up and see a pool of brown gunk beneath it. It didn't hurt, but it felt extremely uncomfortable and weird.

I really don't remember much else, beyond a vague dream involving the characters of Avatar: The Last Airbender - a show I haven't watched in year. My brother and a friend were discussing it earlier in the evening, though, and I think that may have influenced my dream.

Today, woke up 6am or so by alarm. Had no recall. I had been sleeping for about 6-7 hours.
Made two hamburgers, ate in front of the computer.
Packed the gymbag, headed off to the gym. Worked out and tried to go after my new scheldue. Barbell squat I really hated because technique were total failure, I need to train without weights to get it right but I think I will just skip squats as I don't want to get injured before the test and I believe it wont be enough time to get right with the technique etc. I rather just spend that time on technique on deadlift that I think I've start to get better now.

Anyway after gym, walked to the internship that I started today. It was quite alright in the beginning. My times are 9am to 4pm, with 45 mins lunch and 2 times 15 minutes coffee pause.
The last two hours today were just super boring. The work itself must be so boring that I'll die. But, 22th April I hopefully will start work there and earn me about $1500 a month, for like 2 months. That will be some money atleast. And times will be 8am to 5pm, which is 2 hours more than this internship.

So, after the internship, my dad picked me up with his car and we drove home and made waffles. As it's the waffles day today (well atleast dad said so).

We made it, ate, made dishes and then I were on the computer some more time before dad drove me to the city to go on this place me and my friend were gonna film at. My friend however, lost the time (surprise suprise, I kind of knew something would happend that makes him not come, or come late. Because that's what often happends, he got bad luck?). Also he didn't have any car to get there once he were at home. If I had knew it just a 10-15 minutes before I went into city, I might could have told dad to drive to him and pick him up, then we would get some minutes late, but not too late for what we were about to film anyway.

So after that filming was done and all, I walked to the busstation, waited like 21 minutes on the bus, went on the bus all way home.
Once at home, I went straight to the computer with the memory card, put it into the computer, loaded over the huge video files, put them into Sony Vegas, started to edit it. Done editing and now it's rendering, the video is like 22 minutes long and it will take like 4 hours to render it, so I will just have on my computer during the night I guess, and in the morning I will send the video to that woman who wants it.

The video I wasn't very proud or happy about, not superduper quality. Wasn't very light where they talked etc. Not very big spotlights that casts enough lights all over. It would be much better quality if she had been staying outside in middle of the day, even if it would be cloudy and all, it would be loooots better light and therefor so much better quality.
Sound quality wasn't very great too but atleast you hear what she says and I reduced some noise too.


And that's it. Now I am about to go brush my teeths, maybe first have some milk or something. Then brush teeths, drink some water, take this Listerine total care thing, and drink more water, and take my contact lenses off, and before all that also dishes my protein shake that I haven't had time to do yet since like 16 hours ago when I worked out at the gym.

Had sooo much to do today, and tomorrow is muuuch to do again, except tomorrow I just have to wake up 6am (if not before that maybe), go to gym before 7am, and then go internship until 4pm, then maybe walk all way home, and home after 5pm, making dinner and eat, time will be like 6pm, and then I got like 4 hours to do something before I maybe shall go bed. Because tomorrow I should go earlier to bed, like 10pm maybe. So I get an 8 hour of sleep someday, and not 5-7 hours of sleep.

So, today I will go bed like 00:00 maybe, in 45 minutes. Better start moving now and do what I need to do before bed.

I meet this young woman that is probably a freshman in college. I am walking home. Our paths are similar and she constantly looks behind herself. All of a sudden bees or some flies come out of her hair and start attacking me. I shoo them away as best I could. I see the girl has some sort of smirk on her face. I felt like she was responsible for this and I began to question her about it. I realize her hair was a combo of red and orange. She somehow changes the conversation to just her hair and I forget all about questioning her. ( I feel like I could've been lucid if I kept questioning it). I then begin to walk with her then I started hearing strange voices in my head saying things like "Protect her..." "Help her" I became more interested in her as things went on. Somehow me and her get trapped in some sort of cave. Then we talk about what I plan to do for the future and I tell her computer programming and she asks me "is that a high demanding job" then we escape. All the while these voices saying "protect her" were still going on and I became more curious about her. (Is this not mind control?). Before that entire event. I was trying to catch a boat to an island nearby. I was nervous because I realized I forgot my keys to my house for when I return. It was close to night but still some sunlight. I decide not to take the boat because it was crowded. Then thats when I somehow ended up at this college looking place and met the girl. When I woke up, I couldn't help but feel like this DC was playing me the whole time.

I feel the vibrations almost immediately after waking up. I felt new sensations such as my head "sinking" into the pillow and it felt like I was under something. I get up and open my eyes but I see weird visuals and I get teleported back into my bed. Instead of opening my eyes I just allowed my dream to come into focus and after a few seconds the visuals faded in and I could see. Infront of me was the window and there is daylight coming through. To my right is the hallway that leads to the living room, the living room window had no daylight, it looked like it was nighttime. I walk into my living room and I see my mom sleeping on the couch I decide not to bother her. I look through the window and I see men crawling around. I hear a voice narration say they are after me. I foolishly believe it. I try to escape the apartment but before I could get to the door three men open it and try to get me. I went past them and went outside. It is night out. I manage to get away from them by turning invisible. I do so by crossing my middle finger over my index finger and I just turn invisible but the power doesn't last long and I am caught. Now suddenly I am talking to my mom. There is this thing in my throat that helps me breathe and I am angry at my mom. I am talking with her on the phone, asking her why did she attach this thing onto my throat without asking me. She doesn't respond at all. I do hear some sort of electronic voice, I turn up the phone volume to understand what it is saying (I forgot what it said when I woke up). It told me of some sort of location which I write down and go to. Now suddenly I am on a balcony and these guys are after me. I jump to another balcony only to find out that they are near there too. So I jump off and I could fly. It was a blizzard out there. I fly down and then the dream shifts to something about superman and I wake up.

Note: This wasn't much of a lucid dream since I lost lucidity at about the time I started being chased.

I don't know how many people are in my house, but everyone is having sex. I'm in my bedroom with two blonde girls and a guy. I don't know what what started this, but it's obviously go time. I went down on the girl I was with....there wasn't any shame in my game at that moment. Then I came up, and started pounding her. (So far, so not weird) Then after a while the guy suggests we swap girls. I say "okay", and when I look, this dude has on a blonde wig. Getting ready to knock this guy out, I say "I don't know who you think you're fooling but you better knock it off". He takes off the get up, and we switch like we were supposed to.

With the next girl, it's different....more sensual. More touching, more feeling...we're thoroughly exploring her body. (Then ase expected it gets weird) She says my cock is too big for her. "Well", I suggested "You can ride on top, but dont' go all the way down". She didn't buy it. She gave me a strap on to use, and asked me to fuck her with that. It's nearly the same size as my penis (which is a lot bigger than it is in WL) and I sigh and say "okay". She squats down on the strap on, and my cock lines up right between her cheecks and goes up to the small of her back. She started bouncing and griding...and I was getting about 0 satisfaction out of it. And to make matters worse, time was up (I have no idea about this time shit....I really wanted for at least her to cum). We started putting on our clothes, and she was talking about the next time she wanted to feel me inside her...I'm beaming at this moment, and I'm telling her next time is going to have to be soon (like later today). The first girl, and the other guy are pretty much gone, and my child hood friends come from the other rooms.

Just when I get to the end of the hall way with the blonde girl, J points to us and says "You, and you, yall can't be friends with eachother anymore". "What did I do wrong?" I say in disbelief, but before I can get an answer out of him, I could hear her crying so hard. She buried her face in my shoulder and tugged at my sweater. I was in that same emotional state, but I had already come to the point of acceptance. "Man I knew something like this was going to happen, it was just too good to be true", my face crinkled up like a wadded sheet of paper, but I refused to cry. She cried for both of us, and there was nothing either of us could do. Soon she settled, and I told her "well right now, we can do whatever we want", she nodded, and I said "I want one last hug". (don't know why kiss or fuck didn't come out...damn nice guys) We embraced, and she left.

I arrived to the living room, and people were playing video games. I think they were playing with my NES and I told them I had some newer stuff to play. Games, cables, and systems were everywhere. It looked like the shady end of an electronics repair shop. I dug through, looking for tekken, because I knew no one else had a chance in anything else. Finally T spoke up and said "we've been playing games this whole time, so it doesn't matter". J said "we're heading out ayway". We all jumped into an SUV, and came across a MCdonadls that was in the middle of a strip mall parking lot. Only it had spanish words for the name. "I don't see how you go this place", he said with a look that can only be decribed as top hat and monocle. "There's two of them in this parking lot, I don't go to that one". (I knew this imaginary town like the back of my hand) The next one was so close to it, a person couldn't tell where one started, and one ended. By the time J figured that out, we were back in the drive through to the other one. He started ordering all this food that I've never heard of...sounded like he was speaking another language. All the workers in the store were Latin...maybe that's why. I told him I didn't want anything to eat, but couldn't help marvel at how the place was structured.

I had ok recall, but stayed in the bed for too long without realizing it

I recall some sort of FPS game with kinda mazey levels.

Technique: Went to bed at 1:30 and got up at 11:00. I was supper exhausted but managed to set an alarm for 6:00 to try a WBTB WILD.

I don't remember having any dreams up until 6:00 when my alarm went off. After that I tried a WILD but of course it failed, I fell asleep to quickly. I did have three really good dreams after that though, and maybe one more *cough*

Results: Dream color code: RL/Comments - Non Lucid - Lucid

Dream One: I am in Russia, with a group of friends. We explore an abandoned warehouse and break a couple windows. We stop by some shops, everything is very expensive. We go to a restaurant, everything there is very expensive also, and they don't sell vodka?? In Russia? I get into an argument with the waiter because I know he is lying to me.

Dream Two: I am exploring a city, I think it is London. I am with my family (not my family from RL, I just feel like they are family). We walk around for a long time and they share where they are working and whatever they are going through. We get to our destination, an apartment complex.

I have poor recall of what we did in the room, but strangely I have a VERY strong emotional reaction. I can't remember what has happened, all I know is that someone has crossed a line, and they are going to pay for it.

I am around a table with maybe fifteen people, more like board members. I don't remember the conversation but I know that I was very serious and that I participated in the discussion.

Afterwards I was shown a white board with a puzzle on it. To find the person that has harmed us we would need to solve this puzzle.

I am very focused on it. I know that I can solve this puzzle! No matter how long it takes!

I kind of realize that I am in a dream, and it is important that I memorize this puzzle so that I can solve it latter. I start trying to place it in my memory palace. I have been training my mind for months in the method of loci and the memory journey. It is a technique that helps me improve my memory. If you want to learn more about it here is a link The Journey Method - Mnemonics Training from MindTools.com

Side Note: I learned in this dream that whilst dreaming I cannot access my memory palace! It was a very disturbing realization. Maybe it was just because this dream was so unstable?

I am looking at the board trying to memorize it anyway. I want to memorize as much as possible before I wake up. Some time latter the dream starts to fade.

Side Note: I don't remember anything about the puzzle

Dream Three: Darn it I can't remember this one anymore! I could remember when I got out of bed, I know I could. Now an hour later it's gone

Analysis: Hmmmm, I still need to work on my recall techniques. I may need to start keeping a pad near my bed to record major plot details. I have been resisting this because I don't want to interrupt my sleep. Maybe in the short run this will be necessary though until my recall improves.

I'm admiring myself and the dress I wear in a huge, full-length mirror. The color of the dress is a deep midnight blue. It's floor-length and rather simple in it's design. My hair is long, below my shoulders and pinned half up. I have no makeup on. For a long time I stare at myself with a small frown on my face. "I'm more comfortable in pants," I say. "I'd probably look better in them too." I hear a short laugh behind me. Louis is watching me. He slowly makes his way to my side and we both look into the mirror, his eyes going to my face and my eyes looking to his. He's smiling. "You look beautiful like this," he says. "It doesn't matter what you wear, pants or a dress, I want you to be comfortable and wear what you please, but you are beautiful." I smile big then, and notice the small fangs in my mouth. I gasp, turning away from our reflections and to him at my side. He is already looking at me. He pulls me to him, an arm around my waist and his other hand behind my head. I place my hands on his chest and bury my face in his neck. "We are the same," he whispers into my hair. He holds me tighter and I sigh happily.