Vividness-7 Control-0 Before i went to bed i kept repeating in my head "im dreaming" and then i fell asleep then about an hour later i did WILD. So i finally realized i was ina dream but i couldnt control myself or anything. So i just finally let myself go with the dream and so in the dream im at school and we are talking about trigonometry(i hate it) and then the bell rings so i go to next class.but like always i wonder around he school for while and then the tardy bell rings and then they get me in trouble then they send me to 2 period but right when was about to go to class some kid stopped me and wanted to sell me stuff and i was like "what kind of stuff". But i find out that all he was selling was teddy bears so i was like ok so then i just left and as i was opening my 2 period door i woke up. Can anyone explain to me why knew i was dreaming but couldnt control myself or anything else?
In which I meet a woman who claims to be my husband's first wife... I'm walking around Berkley and I meet a pretty 40ish Indian woman named Sangeeta. Her hair is pulled back casually and she wears a burgundy and gold shawl. She carries herself elegantly. We get to chatting and she tells me that she knows who I am. She says that she was married to my husband when he was straight out of high school. This really shocks me and I tell her I don't believe her. She just laughs, and says it was a long time ago. She says he cheated on her with another woman and left her to marry this other lady. Wait a minute- that makes me his [I]third[I] wife! I leave Sangeeta and go to a cafe to call my mother-in-law. I plead with her to tell me honestly whether or not this is true. She weeps and apologizes for lying to me all these years and admits that it is true. Now I wouldn't have minded so much if I'd always known that my husband had two marriages before he met me, but finding out now after I've been married for ten years is shocking! It completely changes everything I thought I knew about my husband's life. The entire timeline of his life that I thought I knew well must've been fabricated just to cover up these former marriages. And worse still- every one of his early friends and all of his family have been lying too and going along with this for years! I feel like a fool, but the worst part is that I feel broken-hearted. I'm so miserable that I dread calling him up and confronting him. What could he possibly say that would make up for this level of betrayal? I think that I'll just leave my life and disappear without telling anyone anything. I start to think about how difficult it would've been to pull this off. This deceit would've required hundreds of people to flawlessly lie to me for over a decade. All of the photo albums I've casually thumbed through at friends and family houses would have been carefully presented just to cover up his previous marriages. This seems like too large a conspiracy- and it would've been absolutely pointless. Why would they do that? There is no reason, I think to myself. It doesn't make any sense. I look around in the cafe and realize that there is also no reason for me to be in Berkley. I'm dreaming. It's as simple as that. Relief rushes over me. Though I'm lucid, I'm not excited about it. I'm just relieved that my life is still normal. I put my head on the table and fall, peacefully, into another dream. In which cousin S gets a job at SUNY and I encourage her... S sends me an email describing her job offer. I respond with encouragement and questions. The dream is pretty boring so I won't talk about it in detail. The only thing that makes it interesting is that the whole conversation took place via email. I think this is the first time I've emailed in a dream.
Took 1 100mg b6 pill last night. Tried a new technique out which did work. The technique is simply repeating in your head "I am lucid dreaming" while thinking of those words in your head. Worked for me last night. Anyways here's what i remember from last night. Lucidity-7 Vividness-6 I'm in my house. All i can remember is that i think i'm dreaming. I plug my nose and understand that i am dreaming. I still have doubts so i shove my finger through my hand and move it around. It hurts some when it comes out but it verifies that yes i am dreaming. I walk outside. My mom's boyfriend tim doesn't want me driving the car.(in my dreams when powers don't work for me i just drive around) He takes it out back so i can't use it while he claims he needs to work on it. I pretend to care. I say, " oh darn now i can't drive it" while i sit down in it with the keys. I close the door, lock it, turn on the car. My mom and her boyfriend are banging on the windows trying to get me to stop. I press the gas and i'm off. This part is hazy, but i think i went to school after that. I'm not sure, but i just remember that women were around. Dream 2 Lucidity-0 Vividness-8 I only remember half of this dream, the second half. I'm running around a yard throwing molotovs and axes at other people. I'm pretty damn good at it too. Eventually i run out of Molotov's and come down to a be-be gun pistol with no ammo. Someone starts chasing me down. I'm faster than him and once i pass a corner i jump into a car. I load up the pistol with a shot and head into the house. I was apparently trying to find something, but i don't remember what or who. Dream skip to my school where me and my friend are hanging out in the cafeteria. I pick up a laptop from a fridge and start playing it. A girl walks up to me that i know and asks about classes. I say i don't need to be here and i'm only here for fun.
Lucidity: 0 Control: 0 I was in a distant land and spawned with some people in a building. Then after, we started to go deeper into the rooms of the building, we were fighting off zombies. They almost got in by breaking a barrier like Cod. I woke up before they got into our room.
I'm in the lobby of some store, and I'm trying to unlock the door to get outside. A group of guys keeps running in front of the door and banging on it and yelling so I'm afraid to open it. I say "Heyyy come onnnn!!" A car of random girls drives by and I run out to them but they don't let me in, grr.. so I say "Ok, well, have a nice weekend!".
I've been asked to audition for a teacher. Somehow this audition is a huge life-changing deal. She has already decided to reject me - that's clear - and the audition is merely a formality. The trouble is that my music isn't played by someone born into a wealthy enough family for her. I start. She immediately covers the keys so I can't see what I'm doing. Fine, I accept that as a teaching technique with some students, but it's a little weird at an audition. She then starts demonstrating arpeggios, Hanon moves, elaborate sostenuto progressions, the works. I'm out of practice and intimidated. I'm not about to show her the music I've written - she's a hostile force. This is right after I've been introduced to two unattractive gentlemen and asked to choose between them. "Neither" was not an accepted option, so I am now on the blacklist with this piano woman. Finally, I've had enough. I start playing Scott Joplin's "The Entertainer" - and not perfectly, either, but just because I like playing the song. She stops the audition and asks me to talk to an adjudicator on my way out. Before this, I'm on my way to the audition room and I'm walking through a huge house, very clean and spacious. I see lions and antelopes and other huge beasts materializing before my eyes - some of them being ice sculptures, yet alive. At one point I say there are lions, but my sister says, "Lions? There are no lions," and gives me a significant look as if to say, "Don't tell this lion he's a lion!" I pick up on that and say, "Of course there are no lions, because there are no predators. Lions eat people." Then I catch a hurt expression in the lion's face, and I hastily add, "Except the good lions, of course." Real-life parallels: I've been helping my 20-month-old nephew play the piano. He keeps trying to close the keyboard cover. I showed him how to sweep the keys with his palms and he's fascinated with trying to do that. My sister has repeatedly been correcting things I say in front of the child and ways I deal with the child - in a nice, toddler-friendly voice, of course.
NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID Good morning! I'm trying to fix my sleeping schedule, so I decided to have a REM rebound day today. Only got a few hours of sleep... Bedtime: 03.30 07.45: Fragment *I'm eating mackerell, pineapple and round sandwiches. 07.45: The SP nightmare I'm in SP. I know what to expect and that it's all in my head. The hallucinations still hit me full on and it's terrible. Somehow it's worse than it's supposed to be and I get scared. I can feel pain in my chest and it feels as if I'm being crushed, all the while hearing an extremely loud sound. I wake up in the dream. I tell a few people about the experience. "It felt like I was trapped there for hours. Like I was being shot right in the chest, over and over" 07.45: Seduction, FAIL! I enter the taekwondo dojo. Everyone seems to be glad to have me back and I shake a few hands. The master tells us to line up and I get in line at the back with all the white belts. After a few seconds I realise I am no longer a white belt, I've got my green one. I push my way through a few people and end up at the front. There must have been atleast fifty people there and we have to make several rows with people to fit in the relatively small dojo. A female teacher with big breasts stands before the lines of people. She starts giving us instructions on how to warm up correctly. It feels more like Yoga. Stretching and doing super easy dance moves. The dream skips. I'm in the dressing room. "Hey Matteh, are you going to take a shower or what?" a guy asks me. "Nah, I'll probably do it at home" I tell him and walk out the room in only my underwear. I check if the shower outside is busy. It is, and I realise it's the girls shower. I walk back inside and check the sauna door that leads to another shower. A girl is taking a shower in there. "Hell no, this is the guys shower" I say to myself and enter the room. I walk in the shower and stand before the girl. She smiles at me and knows she's in the wrong place. "Can't we do it together?" she asks me, rubbing up against my leg. I can feel her pubes prickling my leg. I pretend to be interested for a few seconds. I am just about to kiss her, but I push her out. "Get out" I say and close the glass door to the shower. She won't give up without a fight and stands outside, looking cute. I spot a small red light coming from up above. She's videotaping me with a camera. I tell her it's pointless, I won't do anything as I've already got a girlfriend. Even though I can feel something grow in my pants I refuse to give in to the temptation. Suddenly I'm talking to my friend G's sister. She asks me what kind of cellphone I had back in the days. She shows me a photo of a girl and I remember having an Ericsson. 07.45: Wake up Amount of sleep: 3½ hours Supplements before bed: Nothing That's it! So little sleep, but still recall. I hope I'm getting better and better at it. Would love to dream every day of the week when I start working again. I aim for a lucid tonight. Let's hope my intentions are enough. Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!
summaries: 1st. a dark broken house with a lots of people.(did not recognice the people.) playing ball.( i were throwing a ball back and forward with a guy, we were standing in a dark hall.) a rabbit.(i mainly focused on the rabbit, it got of its cage, and i was trying to put it back in it, wich was a fridge.) 2sec. at the beach. was there with a girl.( i did not recognice the girl, but i felt that i knew her, my family was there, and some old schoolmate.) sun was burning on our skin. 3th. dancing with michael jackson. had a mission killing michael jackson.(he was very annoying and i chased him around the building and outside the building.) in the end it was just a video game.
Well, here I am again, awake. I've been awake since 12:30. I have to be up at 5:30 anyway to be at work at 7, so I figured I'd just go ahead and post the one dream I had. Won't be going back to sleep anyway. Bold=dream I was in my family's bonus room. The light was very bright, and everything looked very clear. I was with my friends B and C. We were shooting rotting, gray zombies as they came at us. It was kinda like a video game. B used her gun to shoot 3 in the face enough times to bring them down. I said "Let me try!". She handed me the gun and 3 more started coming at us. I shot them in the neck and face, but one was very close and almost got us. I ended up bringing them down before they could reach us. C took the gun from me and took his turn at shooting zombies. After that, the dream started to become eerily realistic. It didn't feel like a game anymore. It seemed to get darker in the room, like it was nighttime inside, but still light at the same time. Very strange. Zombies are everywhere now, not sure where B went, but C was still with me. I become terrified for my life. C said "Don't let them get you..." Then, I woke up, half expecting to be in the bonus room. I was panicking. Also, I looked at my phone to check the time, and C had sent me a message 20 minutes before I woke up, which was kinda weird. I took a melatonin last night, and I'm thinking I probably shouldn't do that again. I used to take it a lot with no issue, but I guess that's changed. That nightmare was way too realistic for my taste...
02.01.2011 NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID I was at an university. I end up alone with a classmate who tries to hurt me by carving some message (which I didn't see) on my chest. I arrive home but there are a lot of people waiting for me at the entrance hall. I begin to get suspicious so I ask them who I am. There is a girl who wants to explain it to me but an old man won't shut up. I make him shut up and the girl explains to me that my classmate is really a split personality of mine and that the people there are part of his big corporation. I have a sort of flashback where I realise that all of that is true and I enter my home. Once I'm there I enter a sort of 2D zelda game but at the same time I meet my parents (I was in two places at the same time, not related to the personality thing). I explain to them that I have a split personality but they think I've always been the other guy. Dreamsigns: When he carved something on my chest and the whole split personality thing. Also zelda. Notes: The most amazing thing about this dream was the flashback when I realised that I really was the other person, it was incredibly realistic and I really believed it.
Updated 01-02-2011 at 11:25 AM by 40435
Non-dream Dream Lucid Im not sure in which order I saw these, but I think they went something like this: 1. I had a FA. I walked out of my room, but then it turned into a nightmare (like my FAs allways do). And like allways it was about my parent/s trying to kill me. This time I was given two ways to die, other one was cooking me (how pleasant). Fortunatly I allways get lucid in FAs, but unfortunatly my dream control is pretty near 0. Im not sure what happened next, but I remember hiding in darkness/smoke that suddenly filled the room. 2. I think this was the part where I had about 5-7 FAs in a row (frustrating) before i woke up. 3. I were in my school, but the teachers were unfamiliar (someone explained that it was another school that looked like ours). We watched a film that was about some sailors going on an island (at least I think it was an island) where some men had been murdered in the forest, but the people living in a village didnt know about it because the governant didnt want anyone to know about it. But the sailors heard about it from the kids in the village and thats all I can recall (movie plot worth an Oscar). I felt really tired, so I tried to sleep all the time. 4. I was going to store with a scooter, but for some reason I started going back home before I reach the store. I come to a street where i think my home is (it isnt) and at the end of the road there is an replica of my grandparents house and yard. I accidently fall on top of my grandparents dog and two (dead)cats and they start chasing me (that "dead" means that the cats are dead in real life).I close myself into a closet and realise im dreaming. I try to teleport somewhere else and kinda succeed, but instead of getting somewhere else my dream changes and I lose lucidity. 5.I saw an sloth chasing a grasshopper in somekind of white box (like universe would be nothing but flat, white floor as far as eye can see) then they both fell out of the box and then it changed to some kind of game where you had to activate "soul totems". Soon after that I woke up.
a 1/1/11 Dream while siting in front of the TV (max 3 min). I am talking to this guy that seems like a manager or something, he has this clipboard and is saying something. My hair is very wet like I just came in from the pouring rain and the water in my hair is dripping down between my eyes with hair washed down with it. I push the hair back up to get the water away from my eyes but then realize like "What? How can my hand be here? I am napping in front of the TV I can feel my hand at my side. " Standing there feeling the dream self I also felt my body and my feet up on the ottoman. "I am standing dripping wet here in a known dream and yet I am napping in front of the TV which I can still hear!" It was very weird being fully in 2 places at the same time. The guy that was talking to me looked at me like "whats happening to you?" The sheer weirdness of it all woke me up.
Plans: This is my first night of the new year, though I don't have any special plans going on for tonight. This may or may not have contributed to the fact I have only a couple fragments of non-lucid dreams to post, which while these dreams are insignificant and dumb, I am journaling them to stay in the habit of remembering and journaling. Free the Holiday I am in an office, this is where I work, and there is an office meeting going on right now. I look around the room and see the other people I work with, and also the boss is in there addressing all of us. I am sitting at a computer, working on finishing up a system backup of one of the many servers I am responsible for. I am in the data center of a hospital working as a computer operator, which means I am also responsible for answering phones and responding to issues that users throughout the hospital may have… and this is the part I hate. And it is because of this that I am completely miserable right now, sitting there at the computer, looking at the phone, actually afraid that it could ring at any moment. And while the whole team is present in the office, I am the one currently on duty, so if the phone rings I will have to answer it. While I am afraid of the phone ringing, the boss is talking about an upcoming holiday, saying an operator will have to be on duty for the holiday, and we are taking turns covering holidays so no one person is forced to work on all of the weekends. He is now announcing the person who will have to work on the upcoming holiday, and he indicates a black man who I know works the same shift I have… so at least I won't have to work that holiday. He is getting mad, however, saying that since I just started work here I should have to work for the holiday instead of him. The boss isn't pleased with the other man's attitude, he says the holiday schedule is based on taking turns, it's not based on seniority, and it is his turn now, so he will work on the holiday. I feel some degree of relief that at least I won't have to work on the holiday. Poison Desert I am out in the desert around my house, it is sunny out, though it isn't especially hot. I decide to take a shortcut through some open desert so that I can get home a bit quicker, so I follow a trail I know off into the desert. It is a fairly long trail, and I haven't really explored the entire area, so this will be a first for me. I come to a place where there is a large sewer tunnel entrance, and there is a small warehouse type building next to that with some equipment and stuff in it that is used in the sewer system. I think it is odd that there aren't any roads leading to the warehouse, so I decide to investigate. I go over and look into a window, where I see many barrels of toxic waste… or I am assuming they are toxic due to the radiation symbols all over them as well as the skulls and crossbones. One of them is being emptied into the sewer system, and that seems like a really bad thing, so I think I need to get some evidence and turn these idiots in. I am considering breaking into the place when I see there are people in there, so I had better wait until there aren't any people there. I move a bit away from the building and then I notice there is someone coming out… shit… I do a couple stretches on my legs and then I take off down the trail jogging as if nothing is wrong at all, as if I haven't seen anything out of the ordinary. The man is yelling to get my attention, I don't want to stop because he might be suspicious, so I keep going, pretending I haven't heard him. As I get out of sight, I put my earphones in figuring if he catches up and says something I can say I had my music turned up too loud. Would that work? No clue. I continue, moving at a good speed, until I finally reach a main road. I head down the street towards my house, which isn't the house I currently live it, it is the house I lived in previously, and I haven't lived there for about 10 years…
Updated 01-09-2011 at 02:12 AM by 27700 (Post restored for members who have been following my DJ)
So in the dream i "woke up" on the couch i fell asleep on and immediatly knew i was dreaming but to be sure i looked at the clock in my room then looked away then looked back and it was a totally a different time so i was sure i was in a dream!. So then i go out side to my pond and made the water go from merky brown to bright red. then fo no reason i woke up -.-
double Very weird and abstract dream... I was my double... or he was me? I was looking through his eyes and he was looking through mine and vice versa. I was shifting at will between the two. In one dream I was with Manuel... in another I was maybe with Kaomea. Note: A few days ago I had a dream about running into an old highschool friend Derek. and there was a woman chasing him around, but he came back later with the right girlfriend. then some guy told me to "Go back to Spencer" on the 30th. I ran into Derek at a pub an he had the exact same girl with him from my dream and they were together like a couple. Last night I ran into S at the same pub. This is someone who went around telling lots of people that really liked me etc and then ignored me when I was around. This time she had a bf with her and she hugged me and said ,"I love you... but only as a friend so don't be a creep." So naturally I left prety peeved. it wasn't until I got home that I realized that the "go back to S" line was telling me to go back to the pub and see her... maybe. I was too mad and tired by then and went to sleep. Then Me and Asuka gave S a nightmare for being a bitch. (No offense to women... but if you're the type that lead a guy on and then bring him down with BS you are a BITCH. plain and simple.) Funeral I'm at my funeral? It's not really me in the casket. Asuka has made me invisible and I am standing by a podium with her. S is in the audience in the front row. Asuka is giving a speecha nd saying that I died of loneliness and a broken heart blah blah blah... She's really playing the words right to make it seem like a sad story. The whole time she is looking directly at S with an accusative tone. Asuka's tone of voice goes from sad, to more anger... now she's yelling at S, who seems to have a guilty look on her face... she then sways a bit looking disoriented.Asuka then leaps fromthe poidum , grabs S and drags her through a portal... It's around here that I wake. ??? I amspeaking with the woman with i am supposed to meet soon. We are in astral from and she is wearing a kimono with pink stripes. We are both translucent and it looks all very interesting. I forget what is said.
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