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Might have been lucid. The thoughts or feelings didn't feel great. Was wondering if anybody could answer this question. Can it be possible to change my thought patterns while lucid and possibly return to the waking state with better thoughts and feelings?

I was having a NLD about a guy who is driving quite a cool car in NYC. I was the observer in the dream and not playing a part in it myself. It was a bit like watching TV. He went into a warehouse and met the lady there who was minding the warehouse. He did not realise it but she fancied him. He wanted to keep making an effort for people to like him. The ladies were talking together from the supply chain and they were saying how hot he was. Looking at him from the dreamer's point of view I couldn't see totally why but I guess he had a lot of things going for him. He brought his car up to the top of the skyscraper where his office was and starts to spray paint it a different colour I guess to make more of an impression. I see the car and it is half one colour and half another plus it is about 70 stories up the building on the balcony. I said this must be a dream so I had a DILD but woke up shortly afterwards. I could see the car and the balcony and I knew it was a dream.

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1. My husband and I are in our house, a two story house (ours is not - so normally I would be on top of this as a dream but I took Advil PM to sleep because I haven't slept but one to two hours a night) listening to the radio telling about a tornado that hit the beach and being there were so many people missing they were telling about where to meet up if you lived in that location. I told my husband how sad that was, can you imagine? He said I worry too much. Then just after saying that the house started to rumble and you could hear the sound of a train. I immediately ran under a section of the stairs that seemed very strong, and told my husband to come under there. He laughed at me and said he was fine where he was like he was aggravated with me for worrying about it. Just as he said that the entire house was gone and it felt like my head was going to explode from the pressure and my hair was being sucked up, then poof silent and calm. I am standing on a slab of concrete with water spouting out everywhere from the plumbing being ripped apart. I see the refrigerator laying flat with dents all in it on the front yard. Looking around I see nobody anywhere. Silence was awful but then in caught up to me that my husband was gone. I was walking around trying to figure out where to go, I didn't have a phone or any clothes on. I firetruck pulled up and they gave me a blanket to cover myself and took me to a bus that took me to a house that had a few people I knew there. I had to go to the bathroom and when I went in there the roof was gone but it functioned fine. When I came out I saw my step father who was being his normal self and when I told him my house was gone and my husband went with it he said good it's about time, we never liked him anyway lol. I asked him where my mom was and he said it took her too but now he can really enjoy going to Hooters. OMG I wanted to kick him in the head. I woke up!

2. I was flying around in space on a hunt for a planet that I knew about wanted to see if I could find it again. Instead I found a new one. From up above I could see it had a pyramid and was so curious to see what else was there. I wished I had my gps unit (I don't have one) and I summoned it. What I got was an arm band like phone looking gadget with a wand that I could speak in to for notes and information to what I pointed to. I turned it on so I could find the planet again and flew around the planet at super high speed. It was tiny. It looked like it had water near the pyramid. I landed because this was the only structure I could see on the planet. I pointed at the pyramid and it put a photo on my gadget and I was impressed. Then I documented it and flew to the top to get the height, traveled around the base. I appeared to know how to work this device. I then saw running water. It was bright green. The dirt was yellow looking and it didn't appear to be sand but was very fine like powder. No wind at all. Then I saw one tree at a distance and wanted to collect data on that so was on my way there when I was woken up by my dog grrrr.

1) I am duty doctor and on a home visit. I visit a woman at home, she mentions her son is a bit depressed so I speak to him, then I am told I need to see the daughter as well - she is getting dressed in her bedroom so I have to sit and wait for her. She comes out in a dressing gown and I have to examine her, I accidentally touch her breast whilst examining her and she tells that I shouldn't have done that and I get worried in case she complains about me.
I go outside to my car and realise I have already spent several hours doing this one visit and I need to get back to surgery. I put my bag in the back of a car, talk to someone, then go to my car and realise I put my bag in the back of someone else's car. I walk around trying to find which car I put my bag in but disturb a couple in a car by accident.
For some reason I have to go back in the house. I am sat down and lots of people I recognise keep walking into the room, and I presume they all live at this house. Then I am given a piece of cake and I say 'you certainly look after me here' but I'm actually starting to get very worried that I should be back at the surgery.

2) In surgery. I'm looking around for a special type of envelope. I come back to the filing area and someone has installed lots of expensive new filing cabinets and I wonder why since we are under such financial pressure when the old ones were perfectly good.

25-Jan-2017 - ND#1: Bad news (->DILD) + ND#2: Pizza with colleagues (->DILD) +fragm

Two NDs where I understand I am dreaming but no recall after that point. Meh...

ND#1:
At train station, with my wife. She tells me that a colleague S died because of bad weather in the M. area
I immediately despair, take my hands to my face.
I suddenly realize this is not very realistic, and realize I must be dreaming

ND#2:
I am at the pizzeria with many colleagues, a long table outside.
It seems it's very late, everyone has finished eating their pizza, while I still have to order mine (!)
Someone has in their dish a pizza composed of clean slices from many different pizzas, I eat that one to avoide the wait (!!)
We go to pay the bill and find out that M has already managed, I hit a high five with the waiters there (!), then when moving on I tell the colleagues M shouldn't have done that
We walk through several city streets, we split - based on where we parked, I guess - I remain with M and V.
When we get to the area where I had parked my car, I am not able to find it.
I somehow expected that to happen, and decide that if I will not find my car, that's definitely a dream.
I walk the street in both directions, I see many cars but no sign of mine, I know it's a dream.

ND#3: (fragment)
Connects to a product I priced yesterday IWL
In the dream I notice they have used that price for higher quantities than initially advised, I am kinda worried by that (?)

Wake up 4:30, WBTB, attempt WILD, but I drift to sleep

Nights 5 and 6 earned me zero points. No dream recall; no anything.

On one of these days (can't remember which), I experienced a very short WILD during a nap. It lasted about 3 minutes. During the dream, I tried to achieve my second competition goal of figure drawing (practicing a real life skill). While I was able to make a sketchbook appear, it was harder to make a model show up, and I tried to start sketching but I think I woke myself up. At any rate. I'm not going to count it this time, because I know that I can do better than that. I don't think it quite counts since I didn't really finish practicing the skill, like I didn't even finish a gesture drawing or anything.

Night 7:
Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 1: This was from my hypnagogic imagery. It's always hard for me to wake up during those and write them down, because my body is in the process of falling asleep and doesn't want to stop! However, in this one, I was walking to a castle, with Tess.

Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 2: I was visiting an aquarium at a college. I believe it was either a) one I had previously visited IRL, or b) one that I thought I had visited IRL in the dream, but hadn't actually done so. There was a whale, and I can't read the rest of my notes. -_-

Non-Lucid Fragment 3: I was at a different version of my grandma's house, and a former uncle of mine was there. He either farted or fainted -- it's hard to read my handwriting dang it xD I think it was actually farted. And he was putting away some stuff in storage. The dream faded to a store/shop of some sort.

Night 8:
Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 4: There was a Pokemon, a spider and something else that I wanted but that also creeped me out. Someone or something got lured into a corner.

Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 5: Theme park, roller coaster, talking with others at the stheme park.

Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 6: I was making love to an older (middle-aged?) woman. She was very pretty, and it was all in all a very pleasant experience, but I remember wishing that she could somehow be Tess, my tulpa, so I wouldn't feel so guilty about what I was doing.

Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 7: This one may gross you out. Just a fair warning haha. I fell in love with a lizard that was sticky and slimy. I need to stop spending so much time on DeviantART. It is dirtying up my subconscious mind. xD

Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 8: A group of shiny people were running away from something. Metallic shiny, I think? But I was "pinned down and safe." Nope, no idea what that meant. It made sense to me at the time of writing, obviously. Again, too much time on DeviantART. \o/

Night 8:

Non-Lucid Full Dream: I was still a missionary (did it a few years back). It was our day off, and I was on the computer...watching a live dog??? Ah, I still can't read that line! Another missionary was online chatting (face to face!) with Adam Young from Owl City, and I started chatting too! Adam looked a lot younger, though, and he had a security guard with him. For whatever reason, he was in a rush, so he couldn't chat for long. But he was also very kind, as I'd expect him to be.

Night 9: Got nothing. I could've at least written down some hypnagogic stuff, but I was too exhausted. It's been a difficult start to the new semester, and I haven't been sleeping enough.

Total: 1 WILD, 8 non-lucid fragments, 1 full non-lucid.

Wrote out a looong dream for the dream contest even though, it being nonlucid, I would've only gotten a single point for posting it.

Then Dreamviews glitched out and was like "haha, it didn't post. why don't you hit back and then reload? "

I hit back. The dream was still there. I reloaded.

Poof.

I realize I'm dreaming while walking up stairs to lookout platform on top of building.
I rush with excitement to the edge, and look out. As usual, the landscape is beautiful and vast, and I can see with crystal clear vision at any point miles away.
I see: a forest to the left, a field with neatly placed trees but long/unkept grass in the center, buildings and roads to the right, and a lake in the distance (looked kind of like the Great Salt Lake in how the ground around it eased in so gradually).
I think, and remember that I'd wanted to do some math questions for my dcs.
I look around, and see about 3 dozen people on the platform, and on one below.
I yell out, "Hey guys, I have a question for you!".
They all pause momentarily, and then resume walking. I decide to instead single someone out.

see guy that looks like professor, ask him what the square root of 110 is
he ignores me, as he's talking with someone
once he's done, i ask him again, and he says "8".
In a half-second or so, all the dcs start laughing.
He gets mad, and defers, saying "Well that's not my speciality. Ask [...].".
That person then walks out of a limousine, and comes up an escalator to whwre i am
I ask her, and she laughs and says something, and then "2 over a times 1 over b"

back in bed
rock and force my way up, but my blanket's still on me
open the door, it's dark but i turn on the lights (can only see a little light from the edge of blanket)
jump downstairs, talk with sister while going
open door and go out
its full brightness of day now
I see dozens of fire trucks with lights flashing.
I have my blanket still, and it's obstructing my vision.
I manage to get it off, but while I do so, I here the fire trucks leave.
I walk down the road while remembering my dream goals. ("Oh yeah, coworker, massage, pencil, headstand")
I start looking for my friend to ask him his coworker names.
I car comes onto the street from the intersection, and as it comes closer, I fly up for a few seconds, and pass over.
Landing again, I look around the corner, and the next, but then realize he's less likely to be here than normal.
I decide to "fake it". I reach my hand up and shape it like I'm holding a cell phone, then start talking, and ask, "Hey A, what's the name of some of your coworkers?"
He responds! He says, "Hmmm...".
I freeze ans await his list of names, but get super mad: I can feel my dream is fading. "Hurry it up!", I want/try to say, but I can't, because I'm already back in bed.
I try a bit to reenter, but sense that it's too far gone now, and give up to begin recollection.

24/1/17
Dream 1: I was getting something 3d printed for university, however it keeps on coming out badly so the teacher makes it himself for me.

Dream 2: I was on a train with a friend, arrive at a party and play poker with some people.

Dream 3: I was watching a basketball game, kevin durant makes a ridiculous shot from way outside the 3 point line.

Dream 4: I was discussing with someone whether a person is worse if they do an evil act or let the thought of doing an evil act consume them.

I was apparently at some sort of store where somebody was planning to steal a tiny miniature sports car about the size of a skateboard. They were going to cause a distraction and then steal it. But somehow, the distraction was caused but I ended up stealing it. I went out the back way, sat on the car and sped off and drove for a few blocks, pretty fast, low to the ground. Then I turned it around and drove back. When I returned to the store I tossed it to a friend who was there. I believe he took a ride on it too. I did not get in trouble.


There was a mob meeting that I attended. We all wore different sorts of masks. Somebody was trying to say that I had done something bad like ratted on somebody and I was saying that I had not.

Left it too late to remember most dreams from last night.

1) Driving along a snow covered road. Dodging bullets flying at the car.

2) Inside a house, with a few friends. All wearing thick coats and ruck sacks, we were off exploring walking down corridors, can't remember much else.

WBTB
I become lucid. Don suddenly appears and says "I have a challenge for you." He takes me to a room and says, "This is the tiraninon. You must accomplish three difficult tasks to succeed. Good luck."

The scene warped until I was standing at a spaceship port. I have to steal some plans off the malevolent looking spacecraft. After a lot of tense sprinting and blaster shooting, I succeed.

The scene warps again. The task is to buy a bar of soap! I am in a shop selling bars of soap.
After around twenty distractions, and not listening to them, I buy it with the characteristic cuboid money of my dreamworld.

The scene warps again. The task is to survive! I am in a green park and it is peaceful. However bombs suddenly start exploding around me. I think "A rational person would fly out of here to safety, but the children!" I decide that dreaming is not all for pleasure, and save the children, but die in the process.

I complete the triathlon.

I await my score.

Don congratulates me, and says "9, for using a wand."
I somehow know I have been reprimanded about this millions of times myself, but I am satisfied. However, I am confused. I say "But I failed the last task..." Don now says "No, you were the only one to complete it successfully. It has taken you officially out of the spectrum of just control. You have learnt that dreams themselves have worth, not just the control wrought on them."

D1 - Driving around looking for somewhere to park car, but with no place to go.

D2 - In my parents garden at night, again.

24-Jan-2017 - WILD: The giant worm

1AM WBTB, no ND recall, fall asleep after

6AM wake up, attempt WILD, success

WILD: I materialize a canteen tray in my hands. I turn it around, observe its small details, little stains and cracks, until I feel confident the dream is stable enough. I look around, I am at the company canteen. I go take a red apple, I bite it few times.
<JUMP>
I am inside my car, in queue on the road I usually drive each morning. Around me, many more cars. Everything looks normal.

Three rows ahead, the ground cracks and a giant black worm gets up.
It's got scaled body, elongated head, bulging eyes, two short arms up in the body.
I see people getting off their cars and running towards my back.

The worm is trying to attack the people and I summon a transparent glass between the people and the monster.
Then I attack the monster with long bursts of flames from my hands

I summon a tornado close to the beast, cars start rotating in the air.
I "push" cars from the tornado to its body, hurting it.
<JUMP>
I am at the office, V is with me. We talk a bit, then I ask her to pass me her phone, I point it towards her, and I see her in underwear on the screen. Nice.
<JUMP>
A short view of a light blue dodo (it was from a TV program)