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Yesterday, lucid: This was a reocurring dream scene. Back in high school even though I'm an adult. This time I just said, yes I know I'm too old to be here & became lucid. I was shocked to find that I was back in time to the 60's. I stumble upon others who also were others like me that are time travelers in a sense. I'm kind of startled & confused that there are other ppl like me. I ran off some violent crazy woman & decide to stay w/ these ppl for a while & enjoy this new adventure. But Meesha Cat wakes me up.
I laid back down & focused on the dream I was just in & I started chaining right back into it. Still my time travel friends & we break up into groups in an apartment complex to keep us all together. We now come across children w/ the same time travel ability so we feel obligated to help mold them & train them to be safe w/o drawing attention to their abilities. A woman is charting out who will live in which apartments. A man & me are hitting it off & flirting so we ask to be put together w/ a group of the small children that we have bonded with. All of the children were toddlers up only to the age of maybe 6 at the most. After we had settled in I woke up.

Today: I was in a dream w/ my husband & we hear my phone ringing. We are both laughing saying "Fuck 'em!" We are avoiding my phone. But it really was my alarm on my phone which was waking me up. I checked the time & it had been going off for 8 minutes, lol

I travelled a hundred miles back and forth on top of a giant metal fish. My brother showed me how to launch it in the air at unprescedented speeds. Think Howls moving castle meets angry birds.

It took me to lands of lush grasses and blue seas, but soon I had to return home. I got news from my mom... my father had died. I was walking back to my house in a phone call with Wil, telling him that I still felt no sadness as there was no way i actually had allowed the reality to sink in. Right outside my home a couple passed another with a dog and fawned over it. Wil made a joke about them whoring for a high rating, which obviously came from me watching black mirror last night. I got home, and entered what was the exterior of one of the houses with the stone wall lawn from my old walk to school, and the inside was the dankertons. Simon was watching the hills have eyes but it became reality, and was about monsters that feed off the ego to destroy people. The protagonist was a girl that slayed a massive demon in the living room that possessed tentacles that could impale your chest bones. She played a card of some kind that sealed it's fate. Suddenly Arshia called me on his phone and started making jokes about something, and I woke up.

Experiment with mindfulness...coming soon.

EDIT: Typo. Actually Log 572
One brief WILD recalled today, along with a fragment from long before that. There's also a long duration of controlled hypnagogia, but I won't bore anyone with that stuff.

Scrap Group 1
Playing Streets of Rogue. I'm doing a rescue mission, but my escortee is a moron and runs into danger. I don't bother saving them. Part of this has me within the game in first person perspective.


Dream 1 - November 2016 Advanced Task I

WILD transition in bed. I waste no time flying out to the hallway, and stop to try Advanced Task I. There was resistance in peeking through the wooden floor, as in other attempts. What's more, my head would flash back to an erect position at times. Still, my persistence pays off. My head phases through. What I saw... was pure darkness. Big surprise...

A few seconds later, a tunnel exit appears in view. I'm approaching quickly. Once through, I drop down a sharp incline. I look around, and see I'm in a roller coaster ride. There wasn't any noise, making the experience less exciting than it should've been.

I awaken half a minute later.

This felt like an extremely long dream of almost reality. It is like I step through a door when I go to sleep and start living another life. I am trying to relinquish using so much control because I miss finding messages and still trying to learn more about my dreams. My dreams are becoming so real life like and long. I have fun while in my dream being a detective of my dream and looking for the inconsistencies which are much less. I always thought I became lucid by seeing the inconsistencies but this dream I was lucid while looking for them. I didn't find a lot. I was alone which is a sign, I was in a hotel room where the room looked somewhat like the inside of my house but off a little and when I opened a cabinet I saw a rubbermaid over half full of iced tea, which I don't drink and it would never be in my cabinet lol. Then I saw the cleaning lady was the janitor from my work, but other than that it was a long dream of walking on the beach, walking down the street, going to a restaurant. I slept great though. I was getting too excited and putting too much pressure on myself with the challenges that I felt I was taking a step back in my dream quality. Once my insomnia is gone I may get back to it. For now...I am "Detective of my Dreams". I hope it will pay off for me.
I feel the tea was a message and it feels positive it was 3/4 full.

I'm really struggling in the last two weeks with recalling my dreams. I'm having incredibly long dreams every night where i fail to remember what I do, but they feel never ending. This time anyway i have something to journal.

- I'm in a "oratorio" in Italy (place managed by the local priest who offers facilities and playing activities for chosen and kids in addition to little moments for praying together). I'm there with my mother and at a certain point I spot some friends i had in my youth and started to play football together. We then act a little show which the purpose was to have fun of an older guy who was also playing football with us in the past.

1. I was in the backroom of my job, Walmart. I remember standing in the very back of this area, and A was with me. It was rather dark, but to my right there was some sort of extension of the building that led to a hallway that was made completely of furnished shiny wood. In this hallway all of the lights were on, so it made things easier to see from where I was currently standing. Suddenly I hear someone in the front of the room say "All right group, it's time for our daily meeting" they said. It sounded like Erica, one of my co-managers. I knew then that A and I had to get out of here otherwise we'd get in trouble. At the moment, no one could see us given that there still wasn't much light, and also that there was freight and pallets of stuff everywhere blocking our view.
I hear a lot of people walking. As I peek out from around a pallet that was taller than me, I see all of my coworkers standing in a circle. The meeting is about to start. "Just tell them you're my girlfriend" I told A "they won't be mad about that cause my other coworker's girlfriend sometimes comes back here to bring him food." "Okay" she nodded. With that we walked out into the open and now everyone was looking at us. Suddenly my other co-manager Joe activates some sort of super loud alarm. Just then I say "Wait stop, this is just my girlfriend" I tell Joe. "Oh okay" he says. He then deactivates the alarm by using his MC-40(a cellular device for company use like tracking inventory, orders, etc) and the alarm stops.
Now we are standing in front of everyone, not knowing what to say. "So what is she doing back here?" one of my coworkers that works in electronics asks. "She was just bringing me food" I reply. "What kind?" someone else asked. Suddenly my electronics coworker starts making up shit about how A is here for some other completely random reason that I don't even remember. "No she just brought me some Jack-In-The-Box" I tell everyone.

Note: I've noticed that every time I feel like I'm losing myself in waking life, she shows up in my dreams without any effort on my part.

I wrote down my dreams but I'm just too exhausted. Deep cleaning the house today in preparation for Thanksgiving dinner at my house. We bought a 50 inch tv, new stand & upgraded to the Hopper3 w/ the joey. It's finally time Mike & I got something for ourselves. We always buy for grand kids & other things but we finally put ourselves first. Screw it if christmas isn't as big & flashy as usual. Now the kids can reap the benefits from all the movies/netflix, etc. We are tired of being at the bottom when my husband busts his ass to work over 60 hrs a f****** week & feel like we can't buy ourselves shit. Good for us! I'll post my stuff tomorrow during my breaks of cleaning like a mad woman again.

#501-DILD-4:00AM

Well this should make up a little for the last few LDs; really vivid and stable.

I am in some strange house back in town. I see my Father and and wife milling about. Then we are in a car looking at the house. Neighbor's are outside staring at us. I think how this is all wrong. We live out of town now. I hate this. Then we are back in the living room. I am still perplexed why I am living in town, but then it dawns on my that this has to be a dream.

I immediately remember the lucid task to put my head through the floor. I kneel down and take a moment to stabilize visually. I pay close attention to my hands and the carpet. The texture is very vivid and the color is something like faded dingy mauve. It looks like someone needs to vacuum or, perhaps, shampoo. I go ahead and start pushing my heading into the floor. It feels a little like jello then solid wall. I try several times and stop when I realize and I not thinking about it the right way. This is more like phasing. I think to reach through like its an open window. Suddenly, There is an electronic whoooomp sound and a space opens up for my head and I peak into the sub-flooring. Of course, it's pitch black so I snap my fingers and create a flash light with my index finger. ET phone home? I am a little shocked how well my dream control it. Darkness it always a struggle for me, but everything is now brightly lit.

There seems to be a space of a few feet deep in here and directly in front of me is a mirror. I look into it and see my face is just a skull is with frame around it. I giggle at the oddity and then look around some more. The area is dirty with a few pieces of scattered trash. I try to take mental note of each piece but quickly realize it's a waste of time.

I stand up and now my head is poking out the top of the roof. I go ahead and climb up and see one of the neighbors taking out the trash. I tell him he's not my real neighbor and that I don't live here. He asks why and I say that it's because I don't like him. Then for some reason, I jump down and hit him with both feet. As I do, he grows like Jake the Dog and pushes me back up on the roof. Everything is getting weird and I realize that I am loosing focus. I decide to go ahead and wake up so I don't lose lucidity and forget the dream.

11/20/16
20th November 2016

Just a quick entry…

(private part of lucid)

I walk up to a DC that I take to be my wife as a toddler!



I go to pick her up and she becomes an infant that I hold in my left arm and call my son over.



My son is now an infant laying on a surface and I cusp his cheeks in my hands and I am amazed at how real he feels and it feels like I am experiencing him as a infant once again! Very special experience!

It was night, pitch black all around. With younger sister we were up a hill behind our house where we were building a shop. We already had one storey done, which we usd to sell stuf. We turned lights off and went back to our house in compete darkness. My sister fainted and I carried her back to house. When we were reaching the entrance, I felt a horrifying presence approaching. Suddenly I got punched in my face. It pained quite bad, despite that it wasn't a strong punch. I knew that it was a ghost that attacked me. I ran with my sister back to my house. I left her in living room and entered my room. Then I saw an enormous orgy.

Been really sick for the past few days and had no dream recall at all, at least until this morning. I slept from about 7:00am until about 11:00. I've been taking a break from lucid dreaming but once this illness runs its course I plan to return to and re-evauluate my chart and meditation method. I think it had potential.

I dreamed I was outside a small house. (It looked rather like a strange combination of houses, my grandmother's, my great-grandmother's and my cousins.) But I'm going to ignore the details because the house phased between various characteristics of all of them in the time that I spent there. In the dream, I am motivated to, for whatever reason, build a cobblestone path leading up to the front door of the house from the street.

This proves difficult, I do not have enough stones to make a proper path. The path tapers as it runs up the lawn, going from some respectably large and well placed stones to a couple of very small (maybe softball sized stones) as it reaches the front porch. At some point during the dream, the lawn truncates into a steep incline and I must dig away large amounts of dirt to build a sort of ramp that the path can be laid on. At another point, my path somehow ends up lopsided and looping around into the neighboring houses driveway. But eventually I end up creating a semi-successful pathway, despite that by the time I finish, the entire lawn is a patchwork chunks of grass from all the moving of earth I had to do.

Eventually I finish and I am satisfied. I become anxiotous realizing that I have just done a serious job changing some stranger's lawn. (as the house was still an unrecognizable conglomeration of familiar places, but as far as I was concerned, still a stranger's.) Chances are when they return home, they will find me and I will be punished. I consider running away, but consider that some neighbor has probably already seen me through their window and could identify me.

Before I can decide a course of action, a white SUV with golden rims around the wheels and a golden grill on the front pulls up. My maternal grandmother steps out, and the SUV drives off. This causes me to become lucid, seeing as she has been dead for about five years and I have pegged her appearances as a dream sign. One unusual trait of her is that her eyes are a milky bluish-white, as a blind person's would.

She explains that I am one of the few people she is able to visit since her departure from earth. (She has appeared in previous dreams, implying this.) I reply to her, saying that is most likely untrue and that the likelihood is that she is simply an image created by my subconscious and not really the spirit of my deceased grandmother. She gets a powerful temper from this, proceeding to say that she will run me down with a car. Then going into the garage and getting into the same baby-barf-green minivan she owned while still alive.

I get rather frustrated with her, this seems like an overreaction to say the least. The minivan revs into gear. Fully lucid, but still having faulty confidence, I brace myself for the impact. The van jumps foreward suddenly. I push into it with my arms, crushing the face of the car. I then proceed to punch clean through the hood with one arm. I feel around and grab hold of something. (I think it was a cylinder of the engine) and tear it from the car, throwing it with inhuman force into the sky. (It didn't come back down.) Whatever it was I tore from under the hood of the car, It stopped the car from running. My intention was not to cause the projection of my grandmother harm, and the negative implications that entailed, but simply to disable her means of assault. (so, success.)

I told the projection that my grandmother was never one to lose control of her temper, and even less likely to resort to such a violent means. I begin telling her so and she changes mindsets, getting out of her crippled vehicle and becoming very apologetic for her behavior. I lose the dream around here.

1. My friend had cancer and just found out he is all clear. He was in the car with me and I knew it was a dream because he lives in GA. He handed me this box and I said NO. I cannot take that. He said it just means he is grateful for my support during his rough time. He opened it up and one side was a praying child angel on her knees and the other was a grown up angel and both had a little chocolate diamond in the middle. I was aware that he did this because he was very thoughtful and could not say no, but I felt guilty taking it from him. I still loved the symbol inside the dream.
2. I was at a house with lots of people when I saw a shadow of a man smoking a cigarette behind the curtains that were blowing. I was very aware I was dreaming because I knew noone in this room. I pointed at the window and walked into the room. I waved everyone inside, when the man came crashing in with a gun. I had everyone hiding behind the bed and I tried to act like I wanted him, and he put down the gun and I walked him out the door and locked it. We walked down the hall and the man evaporated. YAY!!!!!

I was in San Diego for the GIS event when I seemed to be walking all over, I wished I had had a skateboard because that would be much easier to get to and from the hotel, when a knee walker appeared. I didn't think I was lucid but just wishing but after it appeared I realized I must have been lol. The knee walker was what I used last year when I had my foot in a boot. I decided to keep that and roll on down the streets. It was very convenient lol.

I was in my new apartment and my best friend (I'll refer to him as Steve) was there too. I don't know what we were doing there but I noticed that in the corner of the room there were multiple guitar amps. Since I play the electric guitar, I wasn't surprised at first, until I realised Steve's amp was there too. At first I was really happy because the amp I brought to my new apartment broke down and I could therefore borrow Steve's amp. However, I then realised another amp which I recognised as the large amp I own which should've been at my parents' place, not at my new apartment. I then realised instantly I was in a dream, but I then started explaining to Steve why this situation was bullshit. I explained that my amp isn't really here in waking life and that the dream messed up by placing it there and I showed Steve that I could confirm the dreamstate by counting my fingers. I counted five at first, but looking away and back to my hand I noticed that my middle-finger was now only half-sized, looking away and back I had four fingers and repeating this once more I had three fingers. I then exclaimed that I confirmed the dreamstate and I then went out to do stuff [CENSORED]. Don't judge me

Anyway the lucid part of the dream felt really long. I know the dream lasted about an hour and the majority was spent lucid (as far as I can tell). I seemed to kinda doubt my ability to control the dream however, as some things I also tried to do didn't really work and I felt like I wasn't powerful enough.