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#370 - DILD - 5:53AM

I am in some church that looks a lot like the last one my father preached at in Texas. I am standing in the back leaning on the back rest of a pew while someone drones on up front. I come to awareness as I am staring off into space being introspective. I decide this is probably a dream and wonder into a back room.

I remember the costume task for the task of the month and look for my manatee outfit. There is a white toy chest behind a stack of chairs. There seems to be a bunch of stuffed animals and puppets in there. This is perfect for what I need. I reach in and pull out a grey hoodie with a plush manatee head for the hood. I decided before hand that I didn't want a complicated costume but this unexpected item is genius. I find a full length door mirror so that I would have a visual ground as I slip the costume over my head. My reflection doesn't cooperate and is making funny faces at me. It's not even doing the same movements I am. I decide this DC is annoying and move to another mirror. My reflection is still making faces but at least it's cooperating. I carefully slip the hoodie on while I keep a visual on the mirror. Once I have it one with the hood up, I turn around and imagine being in the water.

The hallway behind me quickly fills with water to the roof and I start swimming. Air bubbles swirl around me as I level out and make swimming motions. The dream fades here a bit but I focus on memories of snorkeling and quickly find myself in something similar to King's Bay. I even act the part and pretend that I have fins for elbows as I 'walk' the bottom among the vegetation. after a few seconds, my vision fades to black again but I decide that I have done the task so I let myself wake up.

I go ahead and nose plug but blow through. I set up and find myself outside next to my wife. I have the Manatee hoodie in my hands. I say to my wife, "Look, it's a Manatee hoodie! I just made it up on the fly but you would really love to have this. I wonder if it exists." My wife doesn't say anything but just smiles. I decide that I should do a web search when I wake up. This thought sends me into another FA.

I nose plug and am upset that I can't wake up. I am really worried that I will forget doing the task. I try really hard to wake up but just have some SP feelings instead. I quickly recall the costume dream and feel I have a good memory of it so I go ahead and allow myself to have some more lucid dream time. I sit up and feel slightly bored not knowing what to do next. I see my wife lying next to me and get some ideas. I'll skip the details, but I enjoy some rough anal sex with her stopping just before I reach completion not wanting to have a wet dream.

I have another FA and I nose plug. What the hell? I see my wife fully clothed looking into the mirror on the closet door. I am not at satisfied from before so I enjoy some oral sex. I feel that I am being ridiculously rough with her but decide that it's ok in a dream. I have an intensely satisfying release at the end and feel that I have now had a wet dream. Annoyed, I decide should wake up and change.

I have another FA and nose plug. I shout out, "Goddammit mother fucker!" my voice is vivid and loud. I spend a few seconds trying really hard to wake up, but I just can't. I decide to let go the worry of forgetting the dream and needing to change and decide to be thankful for such a strong LD. I open my dream eyes to look around and instead of a ceiling, I see a vivid, clear deep space view of a bright blue planet nestled next to a golden nebula. I am in awe of this sight and spend a few seconds taking it all in. I want to fly to the planet and explore so I reach my arms up to it as I lay in bed. I try to fly up to it but can't seem to move or float up. I don't want to try to stand up or do much of anything because I don't want to ruin such a beautiful sight. Fixated on the view, I relax hoping to float up but I have another FA.

This time I can hear the box fan humming and I try to move to get up. The effort jerks my physical body and I wake up for real.

10:25AM - Non Lucid - CanisLucidus At The Event

My wife and I are with CanisLucidus and his wife in a limo. CL is talking to his wife about getting tickets to some Glenn Beck event. His wife told him not to worry about it because she order early and got an awesome deal on some first class seating and there were going to meet Glenn Beck. I am a little disappointed that we didn't think of this. We had to order cheap tickets last minute.

We separate and I am with my wife in a crowded street like it's New Year's Eve in Times Square. There seems to be a million people here. I am talking to my wife about random stuff and I tell here that all it will take is just one person to turn into a zombie and then everyone will quickly be infected and wiped out. I somehow know this is really about to happen so I keep a watchful eye on the people around me. My wife seems to think I am nuts but I am ready to fight the zombie hoard.

Now I am watching CL with his wife like it's a movie. CL is narrating and I feel like I am reading one of his DJ entries. I see everything as from CL's point of view. He is next to his wife. She is in a fancy evening gown and CL is wearing a gray suit. They are high up in some balcony like in an Opera House. There is some conversation. I say to myself that I like how this is playing out like a movie with a plot. It's also skipping back and forth between characters like a movie. Seeing from CL's eyes, I look down at the jewel encrusted wine glass in his hand as he takes a sip. It looks like a moscato or some other white wine. There is some fine cursive lettering etched on the base of the glass. Now I am not looking from CL's eyes, but like I am there. I take the glass from CL and look closer. It is part of CL's DJ entry. It's hard to read and I don't remember it all but it says something about how he likes how he knows were are the DC's are in this part of the dream. This is just before 'it' all happens. He uses actual names rather than DV nicknames, but he tells where He and his wife are, where my wife and I are, as well as Dreamer and OpheliaBlue. There is something about how he's disappointed that I had to join the crowd down below but I had volunteered to help out with the event. I thought this was totally wrong and I begin to wonder what's going on. I try to read more of the small print to get some understanding but can't seem to see what the words are anymore. I am suddenly woken up by my wife getting out of bed.

Monday 3/18/13 bed around 1am -7am. Nap 10:45am-11:30am

Holy smokes, this was a good one. About 30 min of chaining. First WILD, rest a mix of WILDs a DEILDs + 1 lonely FA.

I was really torn between getting up and writing it down and between continuing, and that got reflected in FA in which I got up and wrote stuf up, only to ralize 5 min later in next DEILD that I didn't do it.

The entries were absolutely amazing. More energy oriented then ever before. Othere times I used to get up with my getting up or rolling out.

My mantra was "slow down, look around".

List is not in order of it happening.

Sensations:

1. Vibrations, which i managed to make stronger by thinking "energy, energy". Boy, did they ever got stronger. Incredible massage. All I could think of was how can anybody not like vibrations.

2. At least 4 times I got out by rocking my body lengthwise, from feet to head. Incredible real feeling. Once I continued the motion and started floating out like from my head. Once I got out by falling backward head first.

3. One exit when I realized I can feel the papers on the desk I was WILDing at (not there in WL) so I started touching papers and desk and saw my arms and got up.

4. One exit - I kneeled on some stairs (like for older pets to be able to hop on bed) and tilted my head forward and down to get the falling feeling.


LDs:

1. I'm walking through one story house in tropical spanish style. (watching too much House Hunters international IWL). Lots of big, bright rooms. Come to the patio with huge flower pot with big leaf plant (like a banana tree) in shape of a casket. I'm about to freak out but I don't alow myself to do that. Instead I think "no, that's not it, just a flower pot".

2. I'm sitting with mom and I'm writing something. She doesn't like that so I ask her if I should rather carve it into my arm. She likes that even less. I pick a ballpoint pen and "carve" write 4 - 4inch letters on my left inside forarm. The ink is not sticking everywhere. Mom comes back with a first aid kit.

3. In one of them I remembered the "slow down, look around" mantra and actually looked around 360 degrees around me. I usually never look around, just move forward.

Added 4. On two occasion, I was blind and thought about wiping my eyes clean, but then decided to do it the easy way and take off my sunglasses instead. I think this happened after exit by falling sensation, not by getting up. If that's so, that's great, because I don't remember having success with this type of entry before.

Added 5. On one occasion I counted my fingers. Left hand had more than 5 fingers, and they looked dirty.

On both occasions it got brighter. In one LD I started to see a wall infront of me. It was grey and textured. I normally don't like going to places I don't where I'm going, but said to myself to stop being a chicken and something nice will be there.

So I went through the wall pushing it away with botm my hands, as you would push away spiderwebs in your way.

Man, I hope I remember more. I'm so stoked. They were all short, most of the time just a few seconds, but I had such a good time.

So after almost all this, I thought it's over, so I changed position but got vibrations again and was thrilled about it. Then I said I need to get up now if I want to remember any of this but got weak vibes again.

2/14/13 Thursday Bed 12am - 7:50am

*Did something have not done in a while - sat on a bed beforegoing to sleep and repeated "looking at hands(feet)/counting" RC and matra. Also as falling asleep.

Took 50mgs of B6 around 4pm.

Had a drink of water before bed and each time I woke up.

DR1 - 2:35am
I'm modding with CL. Replying to a thread.

DR2-5 - 6:21am
- Someone prints a picture and staples it on a t-shirt while a guy is wearing it.
- Taking a shortcut somewhere through 15 icecaves inside volcano Etna
- Tiny white worm bites a hole in my arm
- Going to movies with 2 groups of friends

FAs - 7:50 am - got lucid in all of them
Don't remember all, how I got lucid, but I know I counted my fingers. Tried to yell a few times "stabilize", but all came out is whispers. Have to practice yelling again IWL.

1. - I'm with 2 kids on a bed, watching TV. I realize I can see it through my closed eyes and I figure, this is perfect time to test it. So I describe what I see and boy comfirms each time. I feel a little bite on my right arm. Like small mouth. (gotta check next time, maybe it's my cat). I count my fingers, more than 5, I already suspected because of TV, get lucid.

2. - I'm approaching a field of grass with white standing and toppled over greek columns. Someone points out an older building, with anti-aircraft gun on it's red shingled roof, that fortified with sand bags. I'm thinking Rome, WW2. I'm climbing on the columns, trying to fly, at least get high enough to fly from there.

3. - I'm walking through an office building, where I used to work (not in WL). My old boss comes out the door and we almost collide. he is surprised to see me and makes a face, thinking I'm there to ask for a job. But I'm not. I walk outside, my dress pants draped over my arm, when I count my fingers. Get lucid, throw the pant on a bush. I see a absolutely huge tree with no leaves on it. It's full of cookoo-clocks, though. It's beautiful.

4. - I just woke up in my childhood bed. The hallway is dark, but I see a silhuette of my mom. She is getting ready to go for work. I get lucid, get on my balcony, about to jump, when I sit on an edge and count fingers and pinch nose for a good measure. Then I jump. It's hard to fly.

5. - I get out of the window and i'm flying over snowy street in NZ. I think it's OBE, because they have snow right now IWL. I try to follow some people on a street. Then I see the moon on daytime skys. I say that's where I'm going today. But can't fly.

6. - I'm giving a kid a shower to get him ready for school. Not sure which bottle is shampoo.

7. - I volunteer myself to be in a porn movie. I'm accepted on the spot and I'm shown my "stage".

8. - I'm in a futuristic town with huge buses and huge buildings. I'm climbing on top of a bus and on a next even toller bus and so on, because I wanna fly but can't.

*I think I gotta get over this urge to fly. I'm missing out on so much 'ground exploration' while I desperatly look for a place to take flight from. I could be walking around having fun.


It all happened way too fast, but it was incredible. Thank you, can I please have another one.

Dream one - The first part of the dream is like me playing a HoG. Then it turns into me leading a group of people against some ruler with a lot of men. We get to one point where we can go no further due to a ravine in the floor. And if someone tried to jump it they would be met by a ton of arrows and the ruler’s men rushing at them as there would be bridges that extended. A person of my team deiced to sacrifice themselves so I can get across. When the ruler’s men go after him I am right behind running. I leap onto the bridges and make my way to the men on the other side slashing away with a sword as I go. Thanks to the chaos created the other people with me are able to follow. When it is just the ruler and a few men I go head to head with him. He shoots some kind of arrow at me which I am able to deflect. While asking him what it does he takes it from me and stabs me with it. I fall to the ground while someone stabs him with a sword. I am now in intense pain all over. It feels like my whole body is going to tear apart. The ruler is laughing saying something I cannot remember. He is going through the same convolutions I am going through. Just before he dies he says something about me being the only one who can kill the American gods and how I am cursed to live until I do. Some other people rush in at this point.

The dream shifts. I am in a boat with some other woman when this huge serpent like creature creates huge waves and then jumps out of the water landing its tail on the boat. The other woman is taken under the water and I am left to fight the serpent. Somehow I get the other woman back, but the serpent retreats.
The dream shifts again. I am not in a tent trying to relax for some reason. Then a male and two kids one girl one boy are in a tent by me. I get the feeling the dad likes me and somehow I like him too.
The dream shifts to where we are all playing around in the tents. They are not joined to make some tubes with rooms on the end. I get a feeling I really like the dad and kids. Then the girl starts screaming and wriggling in pain. At this point we are under the covers on a bed in a room. The dad picks her up and rushers her out of the room. Before I can get off the bed the dad comes back saying sorry once (I can’t remember the time frame) she does this. I get the feeling the mean the tom, but I know it is different. I tell the dad I know why she does that and would he like me to tell him. He gets all quite but says yes. I go into the detail of the start of the dream and how she was cursed and such and that is why she has such pain once whenever.

The dream shifts again. I am now the girl or at least the woman cursed to do away with the gods once more. I am minding my own business when I hear some guy talking about how he narrowly escaped being killed by some strange beasts which have taken over a town somewhere. I take interest in the conversation and ask the man what he is talking about. He tells me and tells me of a book which talks about something like this happening. I tell him what I know and how I am working with them or something like that to get things under control.

The dream shifts again to me in this town even though I have been warned to stay away. The whole town has a eerie blue glow to it and light mist clung to the ground. It is also night; the dream is also like a game. I am shown a move in which a pack of wild dogs or wolves or something run behind a bush. Something happens and the dogs disappear in a big hole with the bush and a bunch of little bugs comes crawling out of the hole. I turn and start to run only to be told I cannot escape the town without lifting the curse it is under and killing the beast there. I am now down a road with some flower bushes nearby. Some guy comes riding up in a golf cart type of car and explains to me the only thing that keeps the mist at bay and will keep me safe. I am then told there is maybe only one of these bushes which blooms and will maybe have a bud on it which I can plant in a special spot. When I get to the bush I see a few blooms and a few buds. When I pick a flower to put in my hair an item menu opens up and show a quantity needed to make a fragrance out of the flowers to wear like perfume. When I close this window I am then shown where I need to plant the bud and how. It is a hole in the ground surrounded by a brass closer with teeth which will hole the bud in place while it blooms and grows into a bush. Over the hole is a glass dome with brass overlay. I then wake.


Dream Two Lucid - The dream starts with hubs, mom and I at a game store. Mom is looking for something but I don’t remember. Hubs keeps on asking one guy for things as mom changes her mind on something. I deiced to ask this same man if they have any PSone memory cards. He saps at me saying he is busy and to go away. Something else happens but I do not remember.

I wake to a FA. Somehow I think to tell myself I am still dreaming and do RC. So I manage to make myself do a hand check RC. At first this does not work but then I think to myself I know I am dreaming. So I shake my hand and see all the extra fingers and smile. This stabilizes the dream. I open the door to the room and walk to the front door. When I exit I see it is day light outside and get happy I am lucid again. I think about my tasks I want to complete, but I cannot think of anything besides conversing with a DC. I think about where I can find a large collection of them and remember an underground bar party spot from a dream before. Only problem this requires an elevator.

I turn back to my door and think once I turn back around there will be a elevator in the same spot as last time between the two doors. Sure enough when I turn around there is an elevator. I do not get happy about this but merely marvel over me being able to make one appear. I push the down button the doors open and I get in. When they open at the end I do not see the bar I was looking for but there are a lot of DCs walking around. A male DC greats me and says something I cannot remember. I deiced this is as good as any DC so I follow him around asking him questions about the dream. I do not remember and of the conversation, and dream details from this point are a bit foggy, but I do remember something about merging and silver liquid in rooms and such. I wake to another FA where I am trying to make myself get up to write down this dream before forgetting.

DG

1/26/12

DILD

Notes: I was staying in a hotel. I had not smoked, so I was feeling some REM rebound.

I had repeated FAs where I kept waking up in the bed. There had to have been at least 5 in total. After the first few I caught on thought to RC the next time I "woke up." Some woman behind me said that it was a good idea and that I should take control. I thought to myself that the RCs will probably fail because this is so ridiculous. The next time I wake up, the nose RC fails. I reach for some water and wake up again.

Eventually I stand up and flick a spider off of me.I realize I'm dreaming and go towards the door. Some guy somehow makes me go by the spider. I know its a dream, but I still don't want to be around it. It is really dark and I head out the door. I am walking around the embassy suites. I want to fly over the balcony, but because I had so many FAs, I don't trust that its actually a dream. I nose RC a bunch of times to keep lucidity and it keeps working. I still don't trust flying though.

I walk out to the main floor area and a few people are gathered in a circle. There are two hot girls so I try to fool around with them. I am with this one blonde girl and I try to get the red head to join. She doesn't want to so I go over to her alone. We have sex and I finish.

When I woke up, I still felt very disoriented and confused about reality.

Tuesday, Jan.3, 2012 Bed 1:30am GM+choline 5:49am

I set up an experiment in case I have an LD/OBE in my room.

The Experiment:
I wrote 10 individual capital letters on small, 1x1 inch squares of paper.

Without looking at them, I shuffled them and picked one of them out. I placed this one on top of the cabinet in the kitchen. I had to use a little footstool to reach, even then I just barely reached. Rest of them were put away, so I can’t see them even by accident. My plan was in an LD/OBE to fly up there and look what letter it is and then confirm in the morning.

Woke up at 5:49 after a dream and took GM4mg +300mg choline.

LD
I’m in a house with my friend K and her 2 kids. It’s about 10 am and I’m about to take a nap to LD. K tells me, not to sleep too long, because J will have some recital/show in her school and we are going to attend.

I wake up and immediately fly out the window. Before I get too far I remember, that I wanted to check the top of the cabinet. I come back, kids want to let me in through an opened window but it’s too small so I have them open a balcony door.

Now this following part is not too clear to me as in order of events, because there were 2 FAs in between.

I ask a guy in the kitchen, I think he is a fireman, to get me the paper off the cabinet. He hands me the paper and says here you go. I look at it and it’s a small piece of paper, maybe 5x3 inches and has some math problems on it. It resembles a test we used to take in grade school.

I search among the text for a letter, that would be different. There is a stamped “U” in light blue ink, with serif. I write only sans-serif. Rest of the text is handwritten.


The paper doesn't seem right and I realize it's FA. I decide to check again. I pull up a footstool and look on top of the cabinet. There is more papers just like the one the fireman showed me. There is also some chocolate and a plastic bag with stuff I can’t see. I look for my paper but I don’t see it. So I look at another math paper and again I look for something different. There is a handwritten letter that looks like this:


I read it as U.

I have another FA.
I’m flying outside again and land on a top of tall building, that continues as a street. There is a bad guy on lower level. I’m holding a bunch of tree branches so I break some off and throw it at him as grenades. I aim another branch at another guy and shoot it as a rifle. I fly away. I’m trying to get to the orbit to look at Earth. But I don’t stop in time and I overshot the orbit. I look around but don’t see the Earth or the moon.

I’m back on the streets and the town is getting cartoonish.

I wake up IWL and go look at the paper. I'm disappointed, because I read it as C. But as I put it down on the counter, it turnes and I realize, it also could be an U.


I didn’t have fast reaction as last time. Barely any images and I though maybe the GM in capsule was not 4mg, or something went wrong. I got very weak vibrations 3-4 times, but nothing materialized from it. I got a fairly weak headrush 2 times, and that’s how I entered a dream. One time I was able to change direction while in acceleration and even levitate up twice, but each time I very gently came back down. Towards the end, I saw movie of some people in a house, but I think one just got murdered so I was not eager to enter that one for sure. Both FAs I RCd finger/palm.

I'll put another piece of paper to the top of the cabinet so it's ready for my next LD.