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Some sort of pleasant emotion or feeling.

9th May

Dream:

I was in Texas or Arizona or such. A hot and arid place in America at any rate. I remember only a few details from the end. I could see through a panoramic view of an online maps thing; I was looking up Niagara falls. To my surprise there was a city there. It was grand, modern and overall beautiful. The water courses ran under and through the city. It was a sunny day in the view.

Then the next thing I remember, I was packing up or something, to walk there from where I was. There were others doing the same. One of them was a Turkish or Arabic man, not much older than me. We knew each other vaguely. As we said goodbye as we both got ready to leave, he said to me "may God be with you in your travels". I simply replied "goodbye", and quickly regretted it. I realised I could have said goodbye in my own language and not in English, as it would have had a more similar meaning to his own, longer, expression.

I walked through a flat and rocky, dusty area. There were rock cliff faces to either side, or perhaps ancient ruined buildings. I came to a Y shaped road junction in the middle of the desert; this bit had a few hills but was mostly flat otherwise. Cars went by. I remember noticing a car drive past and I noticed the driver somewhat clearly, a woman, medium length hair, tied at the back. The car was a faded cerulean blue and quite old and blocky-looking. I was getting ready to cross and I looked towards the horizon beyond the road. Big red canyons, piled up in an abnormal way. Dream ended shortly after.

Dream:

Again remember little of the dream's start. I remember being at the foot of a mountain, then teleporting or entering some dark place. Then there was fighting as I was going through this cramped and strange factory place. It did some laundry of mine as I went through it. Some pants and hoodies, they became a warmer colour as they were made ready for me. Some boys, two twins I think, got my attention and they lead me out from the place. I think I was getting stuck on some mechanism when they started talking to me. The place had many traps anyway, when I first got in, there were flying needle darts and other things.

The reality and history of this place were just somehow known to me to be different from normal. I didn't realise I was dreaming even so, but it was like a mix of Trigun and Path of Exile. I remember then being in a shack of some kind, made up of corrugated panels. There was an old man? Some gadgets scattered about. I remember we talked for a little while about this world of theirs. I made some surprised remark about how they had all this technology but seemed to live otherwise primitive lives. I don't remember his reply but he was amused I think.

Then I remember being in a basement of some other shack place. It was night time, but I think I had walked there. It was in the middle of a town of sorts. This woman owned it and we talked. As I stood next to her at surface level, there was some kind of dust storm outside and I could see people in sorts of brown power armour. There wasn't much light and so through the dust I mostly just got glimpses of things, even though I think I'd seen the surrounding area earlier in the dream.

The woman told me a story about how she got this bit of land, and then I could "see" a memory; not far at all from us, less than thirty yards away, the vision began with a medieval gate to a different area of this town, with a cliff to the right. It was day time, and this little girl, no older than eight, walked toward the gate with her dog. They looked cartoony. A massive castle tower fell from the high cliff, crashing on the gate. The impact made a small shockwave and the girl and dog were blown back a small distance, the dog landed in some deep water and yelped and drowned, the girl crying and trying to save him. This vision made me sad and the feeling carried through when I woke up later.

The woman told me that the girl was her friend when she was younger, and that she didn't know where she was anymore. She seemed sad for not knowing, but she also seemed to convey the feeling that maybe the other girl didn't want to be friends with her anymore. The woman's face seemed to imply regret and guilt (from inaction?). I remember we walked outside for a bit in the area in front of the gate, it was sunny and clear.

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Notes:
- Although the second dream did so very allegorically rather than in a literal sense, it reflected a lot of my thoughts at the time of these dreams. Firstly how we all live in a world of technology, but we are otherwise primitive without it because it is not a part of us. Also in the same way, technology did not necessarily makes these peoples' lives any better and this reflected my trend of thoughts about how many of us simply take what we have for granted.
- It was odd that I was aware of the dream-world to be a different one from the waking one, but I did not come close to any thresholds of pre-consciousness, as far as I can recall.
- It is not often that a feeling within a dream carries on into waking except when it was the last thing felt, which wasn't the case here.
- My regret about not saying goodbye to the Arabic man in the same manner comes from the value I put on words sometimes and also reflects how I struggle with not being able to say what I actually wanted to have said to someone.

I felt like my physical body was all the space surrounding my body and it was firmly pressing against the outside of my actual body, which felt like a hollowed out shape in the center of the surrounding space. I couldn't breathe because I didn't have lungs. The space felt very solid like a rock wall and my actual body felt like a space carved into the middle of the rock.

I slept on my arm while studying and then had a dream, I was in student council of my previous university and I was talking about a topic of a physics. suddenly We heard my assistant professor of current university and I started to write on white board in the council. Then My assistant professor said: "Let I look What do you doing for your thesis". Then I found myself in my childhood house. I felt Exactly an old feeling which I experience it my childhood. I become lucid. I wish I could stay longer in this dream and fill more :'(

I can not describe my feeling! I can not.

24.11.2013 1/3

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Eu estava num barco/jangada, pescando com algumas pessoas.
Nós pescávamos, mas só conseguíamos peixes deformados/feios, como aqueles abissais.
De repente um monstro do mar surgia e criava uma onda tão grande que nos jogava em terra e secava o mar.
Podíamos ver os peixes abissais por todo lugar.
Todos ficavam tristes/abalados pelo ocorrido e íamos embora.
Encontrava minha mãe me esperando e andávamos. Passávamos por dentro deum mercado/padaria.
Eu dizia que não tinha conseguido nenhum peixe.
Minha mãe respondia: "Não existem mais peixes".

I remembered the whole dreams the whole morning, but since I didn't get to write any of it down until now, I have forgotten most of the dreams and now only have parts of them .

The first interesting thing is that today being the day after I decided to try lucid dreaming again I woke up precisely at 4:34 AM. When I saw the time, I wondered if this was the same time I used to get up 2 years ago to do my WBTB WILDs that were never successful. I checked my offline alarms and there it was! "4:34 AM WILD Recurrent Alarm". I thought that was Extremely awesome so I took it as an opportunity to try it again.

(The dream I had at that time that I woke up had to do with arguing or something, which is understandable because I fell asleep in a not-so-good mood.)

Anyway, after waking up at 4:34, I got up, woke myself up completely, and then went back to bed to try WILDing. Unfortunately, I just got really scared because the day before, I watched 'The Fourth Kind' and I always get scared the most by scary movies at night when I'm alone. So I decided to go downstairs and watch TV instead to help clear my mind of any negativity, where I fell asleep and had a dream:

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The first part of the dream that I remember is where I am in the online game world of 'AION'. I'm wearing some nice light armor and using a Bow and Arrows to train on large pigs or something. I am in a beautiful overgrown enchanted forest, and I recall being in very similar dreams before. There are many other Elyos training with me. They seem to be very focused on the kill while I am mostly just enjoying the feeling of being one with the deep enchanted forest. It is quiet and so so peaceful.

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The next part of the dream that I remember is where I am in a nice apartment building that is apparently my friend's, Sarah's. This apartment building is huge and beautifully decorated. The carpet is red, and all rooms are cozy and comfortable. I am going back up the elevator to Sarah's home. I can't recall which floor she's on. I pick 5. I walk out the elevator. I walk down the hall and turn to my left where there is a huuge room with winding stairs along the curved walls. The stairs are wooden with gold in some parts, and the steps are of an elegant deep red carpet. The walls are of a warm brown colour I think, perhaps it was dark wood. There are traditional candles lighting up the walls and a beautiful cristal chandelier on the center of the room. There is also some furniture, but I can't recall exactly what and where it was.
I start walking up the stairs, confused about where I'm supposed to find Sarah's apartment. A boy that is a year younger than me runs up the stairs, catches up with me, and asks me if I'm lost. He looks like this Asian-American guy from last year's English class that I had a crush on, but I don't question if it is actually him or someone who looks like him.
I lie down on the stairs, stare up at the ceiling, sigh and say "yeah. I'm trying to find my friend's, Sarah's apartment, but I forgot everything about where it might be."
He lied down next to me and stared up at the ceiling with me. "hmm." He said. "I think she's on the <don't remember> floor."
"Yeah, that's what I thought too, but I didn't see her there."
"Maybe her apartment will show up if you check again?"
"Yeah. For now I think I'll just enjoy this view of the stars." (Somehow the ceiling was the starry sky at this point)
The stars were just as I'd remembered them at the cottage last Summer. They gave off almost the same enchanted feeling that the dense forest gave off from the Aion portion of the dream - but I only acknowledged this while studying the dreams after waking up.

Then I think I get up and search more with that guy. We talk while we search, at one point we end up on the roof top where we get a beautiful view of the stars - which is also the landscape somehow... The stars are the view below us as well is what I mean. This does not seem strange to me however. I simply enjoy the peacefulness of everything. Then we continue searching, and eventually we find what I've been looking for. Sarah's apartment! Which ends up being my family's and my apartment. It looks very very nice. I question the strangeness of how it is my apartment a little, but get preoccupied with my mom asking me to do some things. The guy is gone. I saw Sarah there, but couldn't know exactly where she was, it was as if she was an apparition, but I did not question it. We had food that I recall thinking of being very good food but can't remember what the food was or tasted like.
A part of this dream also exists where I meet my brother's fiancee's sister, who in real life I've been told has eyebrows that make her look angry all the time, and I find out (in the dream) that my brother dated her before too. :/

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The last part of the dream that I recall was at some desert place that I can compare to what I think of Area 51. There are about 7 nuclear balloons floating in the sky that are in danger of exploding!! Each nuclear balloon is responsible for the energy in almost each continent of the world - Africa, North America, South America, Europe, Asia, Australia, and not Antarctica! The seventh balloon is called "THE WORLD." It is presumed that if any of these balloons blow up, their respective areas will be be blown up also. Meaning if the World balloon blew up, that would mean the end of the world.
For some reason my Dad is there with me. He runs to the gunner on the right and aims at the largest balloon (label unknown ) while I stand there motionless watching the action.
The dream switches to first person shooter mode, where I am my Dad shooting at the balloons. There is a bar on the top left corner showing the remaining life of the balloon I am shooting. For some reason, shooting the balloons will keep them from exploding. I acknowledge that the life bar may perhaps indeed prove the opposite, but I ignore this fact and do what I think I have been instructed to do! I keep shooting the balloon.

:edit: I just searched for the balloons that were in the dream and they looked exactly like this one, but only the balloon part, not the basket:



This turns out to be a 1861 civil war balloon. Interesting huh. (I've never seen this balloon before in my life, and in the dream I was shooting at it) Seeing as I was my Dad in this part of the dream, shooting at the balloons for illogical reasons I knew not of, I think it could have been a past life of my dad.

(That nuclear balloon part of the dream did not have that enchanted feeling like the other parts had. It was more of a thrilling happy feeling)

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Then I wake up.

Well I was in bed trying to remember my dream for 3 hours. When I looked deep into my eyelids and I saw some dots instead of my standard colours and a feeling that I've felt before.

I tried to get up but I felt a barrier and heard a sound like the one when you just drop onto your bed.

Has anyone else felt this feeling?

14.05.2011

Giving healings (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in a house, I was giving some healings to people who needed. The house was pretty big, it was lighted with candles and I spotted burning incense.

It was during the evening and someone was telling me she felt great after my healing.

I felt good.