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More from the night of December 3, 2009

Note: Got this information through viewing a dream, in holographic form, from a dream that actually took place on August 11, 2010.

MoSh was on top of a hill with another man, there was a house under construction there and it appeared that MoSh was helping with that. It seemed like an odd time to be building a house, considering it was night time and there wasn't much in the way of light there. The man MoSh was with, who MoSh later identified as his father, got in a white pickup and drove off after explaining that he needed more materials for the house. That left MoSh standing there on the hill in the dark by himself. Apparently MoSh didn't feel like waiting for his father any longer, as he walked down the road in the opposite direction from where his father had gone. MoSh was walking towards a city, the many colored lights sparkled in the night. MoSh later identified this place as Edmonton. MoSh finally came to a bridge, there were a lot of people on the bridge engaged in various activities. Activities that didn't look like they belonged on a bridge… There was a sleeping bag beside the road, there were at least two people crammed into it and they were moaning and moving about a lot, it was enough that I was glad I didn't have to see any more of that. MoSh paid no attention to the sleeping bag, he walked right past a group of people playing Guitar Hero or something similar on a game system hooked up to a television, right there on the bridge. There were quite a few people gathered around and watching. MoSh headed a bit farther across the bridge, then he stopped and gazed out over the water.

I was beginning to wonder if MoSh was going to do anything else when he finally moved. He summoned a guitar and a guitar case, left the case open on the ground, then leaned against the railing and began playing. I still didn't see why we were viewing this dream, since MoSh playing guitar isn't anything unusual, but at least now I had music to enjoy while I waited for something to happen. While MoSh was playing, a few more people started to gather around and some tossed money into the open guitar case, giving MoSh tips to continue playing. A decent sized crowd had gathered when MoSh paused, summoned a PS2 and a flat screen television, popped a Guitar Hero disc in, and started it up. Now he was playing his guitar with the other instruments accompanying him via Guitar Hero.

The present day MoSh, on my right, said in his deep dream state using his powers come so easily. He wants a guitar, he summons a guitar. Wants a PS2, he summons it… he said he wished that worked in his normal dream state… I said it just takes time and practice. He said he needs to be lucid much more often before that's going to happen…

MoSh's audience didn't seem pleased that he was playing with the PS2 now, and several walked away muttering comments about the crap from the PS2 drowning out the good stuff… As the crowd thinned out I noticed Asuka was one of the people listening, she looked very happy, she was standing there smiling brightly at MoSh. MoSh continued playing, I'm not even sure if he noticed Asuka… He was just finishing a song when another woman came over and ejected Guitar Hero from MoSh's PS2. MoSh stopped playing and told her to give it back. She asked if it wasn't the public use one. MoSh said no, that was his. The public use one was down the bridge from him. The woman apologized and handed MoSh's disc back to him before heading down the bridge to the other PS2.

Asuka now walked over to MoSh and put her arms around him. He pulled away for a bit but then seemed to realize who it was and the two of them embraced… someone summoned a sleeping bag… they crawled into it for what I assumed was a session of which falls under the category of TMI in my opinion… but at least they were doing the deed in the privacy of the sleeping bag… I was looking out over the river at the city when they apparently finished what they were doing and got out of the sleeping bag… Asuka was saying she wanted to go meet more people, and see the biodome, she said Shawna wanted to get out and do that stuff, too, it wasn't fair to keep her locked away in MoSh's inner world all the time… MoSh said she is staying there for her own protection… Asuka said it would be safe. She opened a portal, MoSh and Asuka went through it.

The scene changed to MoSh's inner world, MoSh and Asuka went into the house quickly as I did a double take, forgetting for a moment that his house was considerably different back then than it is now. The scene followed MoSh, however, and soon we were in a bedroom of the house. Shawna was there and Asuka went right over to her and said they were going out for a while, Shawna seemed happy about that. She opened another portal, not paying any attention to MoSh as he tried to say something, then the three of them went through the portal…

On the other side I saw MoSh, Asuka, and Shawna in the biodome looking around. They both seemed to be enjoying the location. A woman flew over in front of MoSh and was talking to him, Asuka glanced over at that with a strange look on her face. The woman, who I identified as Pixie who lives in Silver's dream house, handed MoSh a bottle with some pills in it. MoSh was going to be wasted? Pixie said something about hijacking Santa's sleigh, then she dove into the koi pond with a big splash that completely soaked MoSh… and then MoSh was gone… and the scene changed.

MoSh was back on the bridge, surrounded by guitars. Someone ran past and grabbed a guitar case and ran off. MoSh wasn't happy about that and he chased after the man who had stolen it. MoSh lost the thief, but met up with another friend and they started looking for the guitar. No luck, although there were many strange things at the pawn shops they were checking… things such as dark energy crystals, various dark magical items, and just a slew of other unpleasant things… MoSh and his friend didn't notice those things. Having failed to find the guitar, MoSh's friend had to leave, so MoSh started wandering around again and ended up back at the job site where all of this started… his father was back, the white pickup was crashed into a tree… um… nice driving…

MoSh was telling his father that his guitar had been stolen. For some reason this got his father really pissed off! He was yelling at MoSh, calling him useless, making a total ass of himself, made me want to go punch him in the face… I was mutter to myself, "If this wasn't a hologram I'd rip you a new one, you fucking son of a bitch…" Instead, I followed MoSh away from his father a short distance, where it looked like his father's words had really affected him badly. MoSh dropped to his knees, his head in his hands, and was screaming incoherently. I couldn't help myself, I got down beside MoSh and tried to hug him… and of course my arms went right through the hologram… D'Oh! MoSh did seem to look at me momentarily, but I wasn't sure. His dad soon came over, still yelling shit… saying something about MoSh's friend Steve and them both being losers, falling silent only when a portal opened and Asuka came through looking seriously pissed.

"How dare you!" Asuka said loudly to MoSh's father, "You should be ashamed of yourself! That's your son, you fucking asshole! I'm going to have to teach you a lesson!"

I was staring at that, I didn't remember ever seeing Asuka like that, yelling and cursing like that… it was rather refreshing to see that instead of her getting kidnapped and needing rescuing… She didn't stop with words, either. She went over to MoSh's father and swept his feet from under him, knocking the surprised man to the ground. When he tried to get up, Asuka kicked him in the face, she kicked him in the gut, in the crotch, kicked him and kicked him… levitated rocks and threw those at him… she was beating on him endlessly, with everything she could levitate… then she finally turned away, she was holding her head and repeating over and over, "Not again… not again… not again…" MoSh was watching her, he looked over and saw his dad was on the ground, not moving, mutilated to the point where he was surely dead… MoSh didn't seem to know what to say, but Asuka spoke first. "Get away from me," she said, "It's not safe. I'm not safe to be around. Please get away, I don't know if I can stop it… so please get away… PLEASE! At this point MoSh disappeared, and then the dream was over… and I woke.

I felt the dream slipping, so I focused on using Allura's version of time dilation, and the dream stabilized. I looked over at Data and asked him what dream we would be viewing today…

I was back in MoSh's inner world, in his living room, sitting on the couch beside MoSh with Data in front of us. Data said he had another dream queued up to be viewed. The holographic view system activated and the scenes around us changed to the scenes of MoSh's dreams from the night of December 3, 2009.

Present day MoSh and I were in an office of some kind, a really nice one, and MoSh was sitting at a desk with some old looking papers on it, they looked like old parchment. I looked closer at the parchment and it had an outline of a person with different energy centers highlighted, it was a drawing of an astral body along with an energy body.

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I studied the picture on the parchment for some time, for some reason I thought it was important. There's a link to a larger picture of it, but I'm not sure if I got it right or not, I just did the best I could. MoSh then took another paper and wrote some more things down, but I didn't get the idea I needed to remember those, so I focused on remembering the diagram on the paper. I wondered what the chances of me remembering that were… I was still focused on that as the images of the dream changed, and I didn't even realize the dream had changed until MoSh nudged me because I wasn't paying attention.

MoSh got up out of a sleeping bag at night, and stretched before walking down the hill. He met Asuka down there, but he didn't seem to recognize her, which seemed to get her a bit annoyed about that, but soon MoSh seemed to realize who she was and they talked for a bit, I got closer and I could hear that Asuka was trying to make MoSh become lucid, but he wasn't doing it… She was trying again when the dream shifted once more.

Now it was a park, it was still night, although it wasn't completely dark… maybe early morning or late afternoon, and I got to see just what I always wanted… MoSh taking a dump… which I didn't stare at, unlike a rude DC who came along and walked right in as if this wasn't as rude as it appeared… I said out loud, "Data? What the fuck did you leave that in there for?! I didn't really need or want to see that…" The dream shifted.

MoSh was with a woman, it was Asuka, and she was slightly behind him, I remembered she'd had that bad habit for a while of not being where MoSh could easily see her… They went into a building that looked like an office, there weren't any other people there, it was completely silent there. MoSh was exploring the place, Asuka staying just a little bit behind him, when he entered a larger room that looked like it was meant for large presentations. Not big enough to call it an auditorium, but bigger than a normal office, with seats lined up and a stage at the front. The only light was coming from candles lining the sides of the room, which actually gave it a rather creepy atomosphere. MoSh went up to the stage and started playing a guitar that he had summoned, he was playing very good. Asuka took a seat in the front row and listened attentively, I also listened, he was playing classical music, which I am not very knowledgeable about, so I couldn't say what song or composer. But he had more audience than just Asuka… weird specters floated in as he was playing and filled more of the seats. Neither MoSh nor Asuka seemed to notice them, and I didn't sense hostility. Another shift in the dream…

Now there was a short bit of MoSh with Asuka in a small playground, there was someone on the teeter totter moving it in odd directions, MoSh joined that person, the teeter totter moved erratically, and both of them nearly fell off and face planted… Asuka looked like she couldn't decide if she was worried about them getting hurt or wanting to laugh at the ridiculous looks on their faces… "Hey, Data!" the present day MoSh said to me, "We don't need to see every little fragment, just get us to the parts I asked you to see!" The dream shifted…

Now I was looking at MoSh back on the hill where he had been a couple segments ago, where the sleeping bag had been, and Asuka was with him. She asked MoSh about an unconscious dream walker, said she would really like to meet her if that was at all possible. MoSh said he wasn't sure where H was at this time, then he walked over to two other men and asked them if they had seen H. The younger of the men said H was getting ready for the party, of course. It was H's birthday, he added that MoSh had better have brought a present this time… and a real one, not some piece of shit. MoSh asked the man where the party was taking place, and the man looked at MoSh like he was nuts. He said MoSh already knew that, MoSh said if he knew he wouldn't be asking. The man hesitated, giving MoSh a strangely blank look that I have only seen on a DC, then he repeated that H was getting ready for a party. MoSh called him useless and walked a short distance. Asuka looked at the two men for a bit, then she looked at MoSh for a bit, said if he could focus on H, she thought she could open a portal to get there. MoSh agreed to that, and after just a short pause, Asuka opened a portal and then followed MoSh through it.

On the other side of the portal we were in a big room that looked more like a warehouse than a place to have a party, but there was a woman there working on changing that, she was hanging decorations on the walls, covering the plain concrete floor with what looked like colorful beach towels… lots of them… Asuka went over to the woman and introduced herself, it turned out the woman was H, and H said she was very busy with the party preparations. Asuka said H shouldn't have to do all the work for her own birthday… Asuka started helping H out, she brightened up the place by creating colorful flowers and making them grow over some of the uglier parts of the room. Before long it did look like a really festive place. H said she still needed the cake, she asked MoSh about the cake, MoSh didn't have a cake… H told MoSh he was supposed to bring the cake, Asuka said no, she was supposed to bring the cake, and it was right here… she summoned up a cake, a very fancy cake, it looked really delicious, though it looked more like a wedding cake than a birthday cake… and H didn't miss this fact. She told Asuka that she was having a birthday, not getting married, but then she took the cake and started eating it like a pig… then the dream shifted.

Next there was a car on the road, and the past MoSh seemed very interested in that. There were four people in the car, a man and a woman in the front as well as a man and a woman in the back, the men were both on the driver's side and the women were on the passenger's side. There was nothing remarkable to be seen about the group, it was dark and they were driving a bit fast, the driver wasn't paying enough attention… was there going to be a wreck? Sure enough, there was a wreck… the car slammed full speed into the back of a stopped semi truck, crumpling the front of the car completely and triggering the airbags in the car… there were 4 airbags, two in front and then two in the back of the front seats for the rear seat passengers. The man on the driver's side was lucky there was an airbag, he was not buckled in. He flew forward into his airbag, then he acted like he couldn't breathe. The woman next to him was behaving a bit strangely… I saw she had what I think was a pencil and she was stabbing the man in his right side over and over and over and over… ok… that one was a bit disturbing… The driver from the semi came back to see what had happened, he saw the woman stabbing the man beside her. He asked what she was doing, she said unfortunately the man beside her had been killed in the accident. She fished around on the floor a bit and came back up with a screwdriver, she continued stabbing the man with the screwdriver even though the truck driver was watching… um…

Another shift in the dream? Nope. It ended this time. MoSh and I were back in his living room. MoSh was not pleased with Data, he said he'd asked for the important dreams, not every single fragment he'd ever had! MoSh was especially annoyed about the one where he'd been on the toilet, although I had made sure to turn away without seeing anything… in fact, I would have sworn his pants hadn't been down, he had just been sitting there on a toilet doing absolutely nothing… but MoSh was still yelling at Data about including non-important dreams in the set. Data stated MoSh hadn't defined what an 'important' dream was, and since hidden dream signs could be in any of the dreams, he had included them all. MoSh was quite exasperated, I'm not sure if that's what woke him, but he disappeared. I woke shortly after MoSh disappeared.

Note: I fell asleep with my light / sound machine as I usually do, with the intent to accomplish a couple of goals. My goals included meeting with Nomad on the moon to share some energy with him because he said he has been so worn out lately, MoSh said he would help with this. Second I planned to go and view another dream from the past, another of MoSh's dreams, and then I had plans to locate Blake and maybe have an Oblivion dream with Tigress if I could get that. That seemed like a lot of dreams for one night, but I figured I would just get in what I had time for. I fell asleep and slipped into my WILD…

I didn't even have to take a look around to realize where I had entered the dream, no hesitation, I headed straight for the front door of MoSh's house and knocked. No one opened the door, but there was a voice behind me, and when I turned I saw MoSh there with Asuka. I asked MoSh if he was lucid, he said he was, I asked if he was going to remember the dream, he said no. Asuka pulled a Gibbs on him (a slap to the back of the head) and told him that he would remember the dream, not an option. I opened a portal to the moon, to get to the BanYan tree near the base of the tower, and it opened. MoSh and I went through the portal, but I was surprised Asuka didn't follow us. The portal closed behind us.

I followed MoSh over to a tree, a huge tree that was standing at the base of an even bigger tower, I stood there and stared at the tree for a few minutes, It was a huge tree that had numerous pod type structures connected by walkways in the branches, it was a pretty amazing looking tree… I was thinking that would be a cool thing to have in an RPG… a huge tree with all those different pods in it, it looked big enough to be an entire city in the tree. I went over to the tree, I spotted Nomad near the base of it, he was talking to someone that looked a bit familiar… Nomad was talking to someone who appeared to be part human, but mostly tiger… Nomad seemed to be enjoying talking to him, MoSh and I went over to the two of them. Nomad asked if we remembered his cousin, Bobby? Who now goes by Saber? I said I remembered seeing him once before, in a previous dream. I told Nomad I was there to give him some extra energy, MoSh was going to help with that… I saw there was a fox there with us, the fox came over to me and sat there, looking up at me… cute! It made me want to pick up the fox and hug it… So I scooped the fox into my arms… the fox allowed that… and I was petting the fox when MoSh was trying to get my attention, he said if I was through snuggling with Pablo maybe we could do what we came for. Snuggling with Pablo? I looked closer at the fox I was holding… yup. The energy signature was Pablo's… I asked if he was going to share positive energy with Nomad. The fox licked my nose… I set the fox down and then we went ahead and did healing spells to transfer positive energy to Nomad, golden energy formed and filled all of us there… it was a very pleasant energy.

After sharing energy with Nomad, his cousin, the tiger man, wanted to show off what he had done with the tree, the BanYan tree, which had once been Nomad's moon house and now had reached the scale of a small city. We looked through some of the various chambers inside the pods, and it was really an awesome place… it had everything, pods with various rooms, pods with natural habitats, pods with healing areas, many of the pods were much larger on the inside than they appeared to be from the outside. Some of the pods seemed to be there for production, growing crops of various kinds, some I recognized and many I didn't, pods with various animals and insects that were producing cloths… Saber said they would be sold in the city in the biodome and Nowhere, free, of course. There is no need of money there… MoSh seemed impatient, I thought about that for a bit and I remembered there were events from the past he wanted to take a second look at, so I told Nomad that MoSh and I had something to do, but we, or at least I, would be back to share more energy with him later.

So now I opened a portal back to MoSh's inner world, we both went through it and entered directly into the living room instead of at the place where I normally enter in the front yard. Data was there, I could hear Asuka in the other room humming a song to herself, and I could hear the sound of children playing in one of the other rooms. I felt the dream slipping, so I focused on using Allura's version of time dilation, and the dream stabilized. I looked over at Data and asked him what dream we would be viewing today…

To be cont…

Note: When I fell asleep this night I was feeling rather crappy, even though I haven't been depressed much recently, I found myself feeling quite depressed last night. I had two main goals, to meet up with MoSh and view a past dream of his and to try to find Blake in a dream. With these things in mind I fell asleep and slipped into a WILD…

I was in the front yard of MoSh's inner world home, which is where I am completely used to being. I still didn't feel very good, I felt like I was all alone even though I logically knew that wasn't true. But logic doesn't often do a lot of good when emotions are involved… I was feeling hesitant to even go into MoSh's place, my feelings of isolation threatening to make me put up a wall to keep everyone away. I knew that would be a bad idea, so I forced myself to go right up to MoSh's front door and knock. The door was answered right away, MoSh was there and he looked happy to see me, which alleviated any remaining feelings that I might not be welcome there. I went inside quickly, MoSh closed the door behind me. MoSh was saying something to me, but I wasn't really hearing what he was saying because even though I felt assured that I was welcome here, I still felt depressed.

"MoSh…" I said, interrupting him, he stopped talking and looked over at me, seeming to notice for the first time that I was upset. He asked what was wrong, I simply replied that I wasn't feeling very well right now, in fact I was feeling quite depressed, and I needed a hug. A small part of me in the back of my mind told me I was a fool to say that, it said MoSh wasn't interested in whether or not I needed a hug, but that part of my mind had no choice but to shut up when MoSh put his arms around me and gave me the hug I had been needing. I hugged MoSh back, and just that made me feel considerably better… MoSh asked what was wrong, he asked if I knew what was causing my depression since he thought I had been doing a lot better lately. I told him I had been doing a lot better, but there will still be occasions where I feel depressed, and it had chosen an unfortunate night to happen. I explained that I had been feeling somewhat depressed yesterday evening, and then it turned out there was no one to talk to… Nomad was too busy with homework to spare even a few minutes, Tigress had chosen to watch movies all day, and there was no one else online... so I had ended up feeling lonely, on top of being depressed…

MoSh gave me another hug, and I was feeling a lot better now… MoSh asked if I felt well enough to go view his past dreams, I said sure I did. I thanked MoSh for listening and for being a good friend, and I was ready to go whenever he was ready. MoSh said he was glad he could help. We went into his living room and sat down on the couch, Data was right there, too. He said he had the first dream pulled up and ready to display. He announced that the dream about to be viewed was dreamt by MoSh on the night of December 2nd, 2009. Apparently I didn't need my laptop to generate a holographic view of past dreams, as the hologram formed around MoSh and me right as Data finished announcing the date of the dream.

I looked around our new surroundings in time to see a portal open, MoSh and Asuka came through it, and then the portal closed behind them. It was night time outside now, and the two of them walked into a cathedral of some kind. The hologram followed MoSh and Asuka into the cathedral, where they walked down a familiar looking hallway and into a music room, where there was some piano music coming from that room, there was a man sitting at the piano playing wonderfully, then he hit a sour note, hit the keyboard, and let out a stream of what I figured must be expletives in a foreign language. He fiddled around with the music in front of him for a bit, then returned to playing beautifully. MoSh took Asuka over to the man, introduced them to each other, introducing the man to Asuka as Johann Sebastian Bach.

Bach got up from the piano and greeted Asuka in a polite manner, he greeted MoSh as he would greet an old friend coming to visit, asking him about some sheet music he had apparently given MoSh on a previous visit. Bach played the piano a bit more, hit another sour note, cursed a bit more, then looked back over at MoSh. He said he was having problems with the end of one of his pieces, no matter what he tried it didn't sound quite right. MoSh looked at the sheet music and played a few notes on his guitar, hit a sour note in the same place Bach had been hitting his sour notes… Bach said that was the same problem he had been having. MoSh played with it a bit longer, and four sour notes later it came out sounding wonderful. Bach was thrilled. He said that was it! The song was complete.

Asuka had wandered off a bit, she was looking at the various architecture of the cathedral and seeming to like what she saw even though a lot of it was quite old and dusty… When she heard MoSh and Bach sounding happy she returned to them and asked if they had figured out the problem. They said they had, and MoSh said he wanted to play for Asuka, he wanted to jam with Bach. Bach agreed to that, and they started playing a song I didn't recognize, although there are very few songs by Bach that I would recognize… But recognize it or not, I could not deny the fact it sounded totally awesome. It occurred to me that it would be awesome if I could reproduce this on my electronic keyboard, and then since I know I am not very skilled, maybe MoSh could listen to the song and play it on his electric guitar, which would certainly sound much better than anything I can do. Since I had that idea, I focused on listening to the music, on hearing each and every note they were playing, and while I found the music immensely enjoyable, I had doubts in my ability to even vaguely reproduce it IWL.

After that song was done, Asuka had clearly enjoyed the music, she was clapping and threw a couple of flowers towards MoSh and Bach, then she looked like she got an idea. She went over to Bach, motioned to the piano, and asked if he minded if she tried something. He told her to go ahead. She played a few notes that sounded ethereal, and a flower bloomed to the right of the piano's front right leg… right out of the floor! Bach stared at that in amazement, MoSh didn't seem to find it that odd, but as Asuka kept playing, more of the flowers grew. Bach wanted to know how she did that, she spoke with Bach for a time about the energy of music and getting specific energy frequencies with the right combination of notes, which Bach clearly understood if only by instinct because his compositions had a powerful energy to them… So after a bit more of that, Bach and MoSh played another song, and more flowers sprouted from the floor, making the dingy room seem a lot brighter. Bach thought that was really something, and set to writing more of this music down to paper. MoSh looked at one of the pieces Bach had lying on a table, Bach said he could borrow it if it interested him, one musician to another… MoSh thanked him and picked up the papers, then disappeared. Bach looked surprised, but then realized MoSh must have woken up, he commented that dreamers can come and go so quickly. Asuka said she hoped he remembered…

I heard Data's voice say he had the next dream prepared, but I was feeling like I might lose the dream. I told Data to let me do a time dilation before we went to the next dream, so the hologram shut down and left MoSh and me in his living room in front of Data. I was focusing on Allura's method of time dilation, I barely noticed when there was a knock… or more like a scratching… at the door and Asuka opened it. I was focusing on compressing more time into less space when I was startled out of my focus by a fox! It was a cute fox! The fox jumped into my arms and seemed to want to be petted, which I did, but I still had to dilate time. I tried to start my time dilation over, but I didn't get it done in time and everything around me faded and I woke.

Note: The only real plans I had this night was to meet up with Tigress for an Oblivion dream, although I still have continuing plans that have to do with the TotY and MoSh meeting up with don Juan, who says he wants to have continuing dreams with MoSh until MoSh can get the memories of the dream on his own rather than through me. He seems to think that is important. So with these things in mind I fell asleep with my light / sound machine on and slipped into a WILD…

I found myself starting this dream in the biodome by the koi pond. I wondered if there might be someone meeting me there… I stayed around for a while, looking to see if anyone might show up, but no one came. When I got to the point where I thought I might lose the dream if I continued doing nothing much longer I decided to head off to my next goal, which was to take MoSh to don Juan. I knew I hadn't arranged this with MoSh ahead of time, so I wasn't sure if he would be there, but it wouldn't be any extra trouble to check. I opened a portal and went through it into MoSh's inner world, into the front yard of his house.

When I stepped out of the portal I didn't see any sign of MoSh, but that isn't really that unusual since he's not usually there waiting for me to arrive. I went over to the door to the house and knocked, the door opened almost right away and I saw it was Asuka. She gave me a friendly greeting and said she hadn't been expecting me, thus there were no cookies, I said that was fine. I did some small talk with Asuka such as how is she doing, how are the kids doing, and then I asked her if MoSh was here. She said MoSh wasn't dreaming at the present time, but he could show up at any minute if I wanted to wait for him. I said I would wait for a short time, but if I spent much more of this dream doing basically nothing I was afraid I would lose lucidity or even lose the dream entirely. I didn't have to wait long, however, before MoSh appeared as if from nowhere. I told him he was dreaming and should do a reality check, he just looked at me strangely, then at Asuka. He pinched his nose and said he was not dreaming. I told him that he was, and I had come here to take him to go see don Juan. MoSh looked at me, looking much more interested now, he asked if I knew where don Juan was. I said I could most likely find him pretty easily. I had already told MoSh to do a reality check a couple of times, I didn't figure telling him more would do any good, so I opened a portal with the focus of finding don Juan.

MoSh and I emerged from the portal inside a building, it was pretty dark and I couldn't see much of what it was, but I did see don Juan was there looking at us as we entered. Don Juan looked at me and said he would be seeing me again soon, but this time was for MoSh alone. I was hoping I wasn't in the middle of something urgent when don Juan decided it was a good time to drop by, what if I was on my way to help someone and I was short on time, then instead of my portal tracking that person I ended up with don Juan… then someone got hurt or killed… Don Juan said that's not possible and I know it, since I can be on many planes at the same time. It seemed like he was waiting until I left, so I went through the portal back into MoSh's inner world and it closed behind me. I opened a portal back to the biodome, to the location beside the koi pond, figuring I would check there again before moving on to my next goal.

To be continued in the next post…

Note: This night was another night like last night in that I had an epic WILD all crammed into one hour followed by the rest of the night with CRS. I don't know what the cause of this is, but it does seem to result in epic recall for my WILD, which I will post in a few different parts here.

I fell asleep with goals including getting MoSh to meet with his spirit guide and don Juan, and Tigress suggested MoSh might benefit from discovering his animal guide. Additionally I am still going with the goal of sharing a DDO or Oblivion dream with Tigress as well as completing the TotY. I used my light / sound device and slipped into my WILD…

I started this WILD as so many of them start, which is inside MoSh's inner world right in front of his house. In just a short time I had met up with MoSh and he said he was ready to go, but I said there was something extra that I wanted to do that might also help him. He asked what that was, I told him we would go find his animal guide. He asked why he needed to find an animal guide when he had already found his spirit guide. I told him that an animal guide can help you with different things than a spirit guide, I told him I am not as familiar with these things as Tigress, but I understand enough to know each guide has something special to tell us if we will just listen.

I led MoSh into the area behind his house where there were trees, though some of the trees, and to a nice meadow, which we sat down in the middle of it. I told him to focus on calling his spirit animal to us, and when the animal comes to us, we will know what animal it is. MoSh sat there for a bit, he appeared to be focusing on something, but nothing was happening. No animals were emerging from the forest. MoSh seemed to be getting impatient, he said he wanted to get going to talk to his spirit guide and don Juan before he woke up, he didn't want to spend the whole dream waiting here for some animal that might not come. I figured it would be pointless to just sit there if the animal guide wasn't going to present itself, so I told MoSh we could move on as long as we could look for his animal guide again later. MoSh said fine, and he got up.

That was when an animal did finally enter the meadow and headed straight for us. It was a fox! Could MoSh's animal guide be a fox? I remembered that Pablo's animal is a fox… The fox came closer to us, not showing any fear or hesitation, and then proceeded to jump directly into the air at me. The animal looked friendly, and I caught it in the air, pulling the cute fox into my arms and stroking the soft fur. Then I looked at the fox closer, MoSh wanted to know why his animal guide had gone straight to me, I said that was because the fox was Pablo, who had told me he might be showing up in my dreams in his fox form. So as MoSh and I went looking for MoSh's spirit guide, whom he calls Victor, I brought the purring fox with me, stroking silky soft fur.

MoSh and I searched for Victor, and the search led us to a night club or bar or something, they sold drinks, but they also had a live music going on there. We found Victor, but the music was much too loud to hear him over, so we just motioned to him that we wanted to talk to him, but we would have to do it outside. The three of us went outside where it was quieter, the bar must have had excellent sound insulation, because I couldn't hear a bit of the music outside. Victor asked MoSh how it had been going, MoSh said he had some questions, Victor said he would do his best to answer those questions. MoSh asked how he could increase his recall of his deep dream state. Victor asked if MoSh can't hear him at all while awake, because he had been trying to help MoSh remember some of what had happened in the deep dream state.

Victor said that the memory is a lot like a muscle in some ways, the more you use it, the stronger it will get, and when it comes to MoSh's memory of the deep dream state, that really needs some good exercise. He said the idea was to help MoSh with recalling deep dream memories only as much as needed, if that meant channeling the entire dream for now, then it did, but as MoSh did it more, Victor would have to tell him less and less of the dream until just giving MoSh a dream symbol would trigger the memory and finally MoSh wouldn't need Victor's help at all to recall all of his dreams. And even better, as MoSh gets better at recalling the deep dream state, his regular dream recall will also improve since his overall memory will get stronger. Victor went on to say that anything MoSh can do to improve his waking life memory will help him recall dreams, too… memory games, supplements, he rattled off a list of supplements here that a lot of them I didn't recognize including B vitamins, Omega 3 fats, antioxidants… I knew I would never remember the ones I have never heard of… but one of the best things MoSh could probably do would be to get a key piece of information from Victor and then meditate on it, letting the images flow freely and without questioning them, and if he had any doubts, he should just check with Victor who would confirm or deny if they were correct.

MoSh seemed to be thinking about that a bit, he said his ability to hear Victor in waking life is not consistent, Victor said the more they communicate in that manner, the better it will get. He looked over at me, I did a double take, not sure what I was supposed to do to improve MoSh's contact with Victor, he said that I have an excellent connection with my guardian and my guide, it is something that develops over time. I confirmed that, telling MoSh that when I first started hearing Hetfield, my guardian, I was not really hearing words, I would just sometimes get feelings and images, now I can hear him quite clearly, down to the last expletive… I thought about Hetfield letting out a stream of nasty words when he gets angry at something… Victor said that events occurring in the deep dream state weren't originally meant to be remembered, because that's where the subconscious mind deals with things that might be too extreme for the conscious mind to handle, so it takes some work to make it come easily, but it can be done. He looked at his wrist as if consulting a watch that wasn't there, then he said we had better be on our way to see don Juan before MoSh or I woke up. I noticed the fox in my arms disappeared. I didn't want to also wake up before finding don Juan, so I opened a portal focused on locating don Juan, MoSh and I went through it.

On the other side we were in the same kind of desert setting I had found don Juan last time when I dreamed on four planes simultaneously, controlling each of them separately but at the same time. Don Juan saw the portal and he saw us emerge, then he turned his attention to MoSh, almost seeming to not notice me at all. I knew that wasn't the case, he was just focusing his attention on MoSh. He said he had been expecting us, and that he and MoSh had much to discuss. Crap, I hoped I would be able to remember it all… I stood near them, trying to focus on what don Juan was saying… but he wasn't saying anything. He looked over at me. He said there is no offense meant in it, but as what he had to discuss with me was done with just the two of us was as it should be between him and MoSh. MoSh hesitated, then said no, he needed me there to remember. Don Juan said that a man who lets another support him all the time will not learn to walk on his own. Don Juan and MoSh both disappeared, not in a flash of light, not through a portal, they just vanished, one instant they were there, then they were gone.

I felt the dream slipping, and I didn't want to lose it yet. I thought maybe I could follow don Juan and MoSh, and just only tell MoSh what had happened if all other attempts had failed. To maintain the dream I did a time dilation, which stabilized the dream. I focused on following don Juan and MoSh, tried to open a portal, but nothing happened… hmmm… maybe I was really not meant to follow them. I figured I might as well continue to another goal for the night…

Note: This dream is continued in the next post

Note: This night was a really strange one… I fell asleep and was successful in entering my WILD, and then I proceeded to have what felt like a really long lucid with at least one instance of time dilation only to wake up and find out I had only been asleep for an hour! So I took notes on the dream and then went back to sleep, and for the rest of the night I didn't remember a single thing! Not even a piece of a non-lucid! That makes this one of the strangest nights of dreams I have ever had.

So I went to sleep with a list of goals starting off with taking MoSh and Asuka to Voyager to see Tuvok, who will hopefully be able to help Asuka with controlling her emotions and energy to prevent her from losing control as happened in an unfortunate incident quite a while back. That is the incident that made her not want to fight due to fear of losing control again. In addition to that, I wanted to complete the advanced task of the month, which looked like it was going to be easy this month, and share a dream with Tigress where we both remember, either one in a DDO world or now we've added Oblivion to the list of game worlds we would both like to visit. With this list of goals in mind I used my light / sound machine to slip directly into a WILD…

Due to my goal that I had in mind, I entered the dream state right outside of MoSh's house in his inner world as has happened in countless dreams before this one. And just like those dreams, I went over to the house and knocked, the door was opened immediately as if MoSh had been waiting for me to come, which he very likely was. We didn't take the time to go inside, instead MoSh and Asuka came outside, all ready to go. I was going to open a portal to take us to Voyager, then Q showed up and said he had found the perfect Voyager for us to visit, but it would be a good idea to approach the ship in MoSh's Delta Flyer due to some issues with this particular Janeway that could pose a problem if we just popped in through a portal. So I still opened a portal, I just changed the destination from Voyager to the landing bay of the tower on the moon.

MoSh, Asuka, Q, and I emerged into the landing bay and headed directly for MoSh's Delta Flyer, which had the entry hatch opened when we got there. MoSh, Asuka, and I got into the Delta Flyer, but Q said he would get things set up for our arrival on Voyager, then he disappeared in a flash of white light. MoSh piloted the Delta Flyer out of the landing bay and away from the biodome, heading into deep space. There was a wormhole not far past the moon, which was clearly left by Q for us to go through to find the Voyager he had been talking about, so MoSh piloted the Delta Flyer through the worm hole and exited in the blackness of space where we were surrounded by only stars. MoSh was already scanning the area for Voyager and soon changed course to approach our destination, the starship was soon in view through the front window of the ship, looking huge compared to our shuttle.

The communications system came to life as Voyager hailed us, an image of Captain Janeway appeared on the screen, she was on the bridge of Voyager surrounded by her crew, which included Tuvok, and Q was also there. Janeway was talking to Tuvok in a quiet voice, apparently not wanting anyone to hear, but the sensitive systems on the modified Delta Flyer picked up what she said, and so did Q's ears. Janeway was telling Tuvok that she still didn't trust Q, and even if the woman Q spoke of was completely innocent there was no way of knowing for sure he wasn't using her as part of a scheme of his…

"You wound me," Q said to Janeway as he stepped up right beside her, "To say those things after all we have meant to each other, it is like a knife in my chest."

"Then allow me to twist it a bit," Janeway said coldly, "You never meant anything to me, and I know I never meant anything to you beyond your twisted scheme. If it wasn't for the fact I sense truth in your tale of this young woman needing help I'd have you thrown right off of my ship."

Q looked around a bit, "Thrown off?" he asked as if amused, "By who? No one here could make me leave if I don't want to go. And that is fine that you want to keep our past love a secret, I will speak no more of it." Q smiled at Janeway.

"There was no love!" Janeway said, sounding frustrated.

"As you say," Q responded with a knowing wink in Janeway's direction, "It's our little secret."

"There is no secret!" Janeway insisted, "There was no relationship, no affair, no love, no nothing!"

"As you say, Captain," Q said with another knowing wink.

"Grrr!" Janeway was perturbed, "Dealing with you is so aggravating!" Then she decided to completely ignore Q, speaking to us instead, she said we were cleared to land in the landing bay, she said it rather abruptly since she was clearly in a bad mood. I telepathically and sarcastically thanked Q for giving us a pissed off Janeway to deal with. Q said he had to keep the role of Q or it would seem suspicious, and in that dimension Q always pisses Janeway off. Q said that in that dimension he and Janeway had been together briefly, but it was because Janeway had gotten stung by an insect that produces a powerful aphrodisiac that made her fall for the next man she saw (or woman if she had been a lesbian) and that man was Q… at which point she threw herself at a surprised Q and said she was in love with him, but since she was cured any mention of that incident pisses her off and it is such a Q like thing to bring it up just for that reason. Q added he hadn't been in love with Janeway, but he had wanted to keep an eye on her so nothing would happen to her while she was in that state. By the time Q finished his history lesson we had landed in the docking bay of Voyager.

Our surroundings instantly changed before we could even get out of the Delta Flyer as Q teleported us straight to the bridge, the first thing I noticed was the dirty look Janeway was still giving Q. Janeway then made an apparent effort to stop being so angry before turning to greet us and asking which of these two young ladies was the one in need of Tuvok's assistance. MoSh indicated it was Asuka, I was looking around the bridge at the time, it looked somewhat familiar from previous visits to Voyager and similar ships and from the television series, and yet there were subtle differences that were hard to identify that still made it seem unique.

Asuka went over to talk to Tuvok, the Vulcan stood up to greet her as she approached him, greeting her with the usual Vulcan hand gesture which Asuka failed to emulate until she actually held her fingers in the proper position with her other hand. Tuvok paid no attention to that, he just continued speaking to her. I didn't hear all of what they were saying, but I did hear Tuvok ask Asuka if she would allow him to do a Vulcan mind meld, as it would greatly assist him in helping her if he could see where her problems originated. Asuka seemed a bit hesitant, she looked over at MoSh, saying something about being ashamed and not wanting Tuvok to see, too many people know about what happened already… Tuvok mentioned that in 93.765% of cases he had been involved in or had witnessed, a human hiding from a shameful event turned out to be the only one who was passing such an unreasonably harsh judgment on themselves. Asuka hesitated, MoSh told her that just meant that the only one passing judgment on her was herself. Tuvok merely said that was correct, but if she wished to continue without the mind meld, he would still try to aid her, but it would be much more difficult. Asuka finally agreed to it.

I was thinking there were other things I needed to get done in this dream, for some reason I was feeling quite rushed as if I had to be somewhere right now, I couldn't remember any appointments or anything time based… check the biodome to see if anyone was looking for me there, do the task of the month to ride a unicorn and see if Walms was in my inner world, then share a DDO or Oblivion dream with Tigress and hope we both remembered. Tuvok finished his mind meld and said that he would definitely be able to assist Asuka with control. Asuka seemed happy to hear that. I told MoSh that I had other dream goals tonight, so if he didn't mind, he and Asuka could stay here on Voyager with Tuvok, and when MoSh wakes up he returns home automatically, Q could take Asuka home if needed… he said to go ahead, he and Asuka would be fine there. I smiled and opened a portal back to the biodome.

I exited the portal right next to the koi pond, which was where I had expected to emerge, I looked around and saw I was alone. There was no one waiting there right now. Maybe I should wait around for a bit? I felt the dream slipping… I was going to wake up… but there was so much left to do. I also wanted to see how long I could make this dream. I focused on Allura's method of time dilation, and the slipping dream stabilized.

Note: Due to the length of this dream, I will continue it in the next post.

Note: My first goal for the night was to go to MoSh's inner world to see if there was anything wrong in there due to some strange sexually explicit dreams he had the night before, consisting of transvestites and a series of lesbian orgies… After that, I just saw the movie Shrek Forever After and I saw the main characters riding on the back of a large red dragon, that made me want to ride a dragon, so that was the plan for after that. With these things in mind, I fell asleep, but I was not successful in my WILD. These dreams are kind of chained together as best as I could since this is also the night my waterbed sprung a slow leak, so I woke up several times to find I was wet… I had to take care of that situation before I could get back to sleep.

I woke up in bed… but I wasn't in bed, I was in water about half a foot deep, which was not a good sign since I sleep on a waterbed. I sat up, I was soaked, my waterbed mattress was flat beneath me, and there was about half a foot of water contained within the plastic liner around the bed frame. What had once been my bed was now a small wading pool in my bedroom… Damn, I hadn't figured I would get this wet! It was just a slow leak! Cursing my luck, I climbed out of the bed (pool) and I was dripping all over the floor, I was heading to my bathroom to get a towel and dry myself off with. I came out of my bedroom and I was not in my house… I was in a college dormitory, which is also odd since I have never lived in a college dormitory in my life, and there were people all standing around talking, no one seeming to notice the fact I was dripping all over the place. This didn't strike me as odd enough to do a RC, though. I was thinking I need to get in the habit of doing RC's more often, so I thought entering the hall was a good place so whenever I start a dream in my room I will do an RC when I leave. I did a nose pinch RC and found I was dreaming.

Now that I was lucid I had to remember what my goals for the night were so I could get going on them. As I was thinking about that, at first the goals were eluding me, but I finally got onto the right train of thought and remembered what I wanted to do. Ride a dragon! But that wasn't the first goal, the first goal was to investigate MoSh's inner world for any sign of problems. So I opened a portal to MoSh's inner world and went through it.

I stepped out of the portal onto the green grass in front of MoSh's house, which looked completely normal as far as I could see. I went to the front door and knocked, Asuka opened the door and had a plate of cookies in her hands, she offered me cookies as I entered the house looking for MoSh. I took two cookies and looked around the house until I finally found MoSh in one of the bedrooms working on a computer there. I focused on scanning the area to see if there was any sign of unstable dark energy, but the only source of dark energy I could find was me, and that dark energy was stable and contained. I checked closer, looking for any sign of various types of negative energies, as well as for light energy that was not stable, since that can be as bad as unstable dark energy. Nothing. Everything around MoSh's house looked completely normal, and when I expanded my scan to reach the outer areas of his inner world, everything looked normal there, too. I got MoSh's attention and told him I didn't see anything wrong in his inner world, he said to check again, I said I already had checked several times. He pointed out that there had been transvestites and lesbians having orgies in his house the night before, I told him I didn't know what to tell him about that, but there was nothing going on right now. I told him if there was anything else going on, I would be back to check again, but for now, how about we go get on a some dragons and fly?

MoSh was agreeable to that, and he went to get the kids. There were four kids there, I suck at telling age, but there was a girl who appeared around 14, a girl looking about 7, a boy that looked to be about 5, and one more boy who appeared to be the youngest looked to be about 3. Asuka picked the youngest up, and all of them followed me through a portal to my inner world, to a wide meadow near the edge of a cliff where there was plenty of room for dragons to take off. Right now, however, the field was full of playful pokémon, which clearly took everyone by surprise since they had been expecting dragons. I had been planning on bringing someone… Pablo! I opened a portal to Pablo's inner world and went through it, only to find Pablo climbing a tree in his inner world, I called to him and asked if he wouldn't rather be riding a dragon than climbing a tree… he jumped down from a very high branch, landed squarely on his feet, and then came through the portal. Now I saw Nomad was there, he was looking around for dragons, too. He said if we were short on dragons, he could transform into a dragon and carry someone on his back. I motioned to all of the pokémon and said we were by no means short on dragons. Additionally, there were a few dragons showing up now, those dragons included Vegeta's huge dragon, looks extremely mean and I wouldn't recommend anyone other than Vegeta try to ride him, and my own dragon, who looks like a bigger and meaner charizard with golden scales instead of red and orange, though he is nowhere near the size of Vegeta's dragon.

Vegeta came over closer to MoSh, his gigantic dragon right there with him, somehow in spite of the dragon's size he was moving very silently, so when MoSh turned around to see Vegeta the dragon was practically on top of him which clearly alarmed MoSh. MoSh stared at the dragon briefly before turning and heading quickly over closer to my golden charizard, saying he would stick with that size.

Vegeta looked at MoSh, then at the huge dragon behind him, and said the only reason MoSh would want to ride that dragon would be if MoSh was suicidal. MoSh said he didn't want to be anywhere near Vegeta's dragon. Vegeta told him to cut that out, the dragon is a sweetie as long as you don't try to ride 'im. Vegeta told MoSh to feed his dragon something and they could be best friends. MoSh fed something to the dragon, who seemed quite pleased with that, and nuzzled MoSh looking for more. Of course when that big a dragon nuzzles you, it is likely that you fall over… which MoSh did.

Now it was time to take off. All over the place, pokémon began changing into dragons, starting with my pikachu, my first pikachu, who turned into a huge blue dragon surrounded by electric sparks. A vulpix transformed into a huge black dragon for Pablo, I saw Tigress getting onto my flaming golden dragon, MoSh, the kids, and Asuka were on a rather long white dragon, I didn't even see what pokémon transformed to form that one… Soon we were all on dragons, there were more people there than I remembered having… I was thinking that there were an awful lot of people I don't know inside my inner world, making me a bit uncomfortable, but then again, Vegeta was also with us.

We rode the dragons on a bit of a tour of the wild areas of my inner world, the castle that was designed after the Castle of Lions off of Voltron with the unused mech lion replicas perched on their towers, I looked at the black lion and remembered my ex boyfriend James used to pilot that one… no more, I didn't really want to think about my ex… We flew the dragons low over an ocean, and then through a portal out of my inner world. I wasn't sure where we were going, I didn't really care where we were going right now. I was just enjoying the sensation of flight. Somewhere in this area my memory of the dream fades, though I'm not sure if I woke up or if I stopped remembering.

Note: I actually did wake several times in this dream, then I fell back asleep and focused and got back into it, and I was able to do it! This was actually a quite successful chain of dreams, now if I could just do this kind of chaining when I'm not being awakened by a wet bed!

Note: My first goal for this night was to look for Asuka. MoSh said he is worried about the situation due to not having seen her in the past few dreams, so I agreed to help locate her and see if there was something wrong. With this in mind I fell asleep and slipped into a WILD.

As my WILD began I found myself in the same familiar location in MoSh's inner world. I didn't have to wait very long, MoSh came right out of the house and came over to me, clearly in a hurry to get moving. He came over to me and looked like he was surprised that I had not yet opened the portal, we most certainly had to get moving before… well before what? I had no idea what he thought would happen if we didn't depart immediately, but I went ahead and opened a portal while focusing on locating Asuka wherever she may be. MoSh followed me through the portal.

MoSh and I emerged into a beautiful place, flowers growing everywhere, a sparkling stream flowing through tall green grass, the path we were on led to a small bridge over the stream… it was all beautiful. I wondered where Asuka might be, although it definitely looked like the kind of place we might find her. After scanning the area for signs of her energy, I led MoSh across the small bridge and into an area filled with particularly beautiful flower. Asuka was at the end of the path near a small pool, crawling through the plants and flowers as if looking for something, she was so distracted with her search that she hadn't even noticed we were there. She was looking closely at some strange flowers floating in the pool of water right next to her, staring very intently at the flowers as if she wasn't sure what to do next. She only became aware of us when MoSh spoke to her.

"Asuka?" MoSh said, getting her attention, "What are…" Asuka interrupted, she asked him to please not say anything until… she picked one of the strange flowers off the surface of the water… until he had smelled the flower. MoSh looked rather confused, he asked what the flower was for as Asuka came over and held it out to him. She said it was a heart flower, a blue lotus flower with a heart in the center, and whoever smelled the flower would only be able to express their true feelings. She said if MoSh could smell the flower and still wanted her to go… she looked like she might cry, but she went on and said she was sure he would not be able to say such things if he smelled the flower first. So if he really meant what he had… MoSh interrupted now, saying he hadn't said she should go, she had decided that all by herself, after the lucid dream they had shared together, she had just gone silent and he hadn't seen her since. Asuka looked momentarily confused, then said no, he had called her a whore and said he wanted her to go… Something wasn't right there, I was wondering what was going on. Maybe the best thing to do would be to see exactly what had happened. The first thing I thought about was viewing the dream, so I summoned my laptop and activated. I dialed the dream up, hoping I wouldn't see too much of the actual action of the dream.

Asuka's View
The hologram now had me in the dark of MoSh's and Asuka's bedroom, I really felt like I was intruding here, but I wanted to know what had happened that Asuka's report of events was so different from MoSh's. I peeked up at the bed cautiously, I wanted to be sure there was nothing going on there anymore, and the two of them were just lying there. MoSh was facing the other direction, Asuka was facing him, and though it was pretty much impossible to see, there was a shadow between the two of them… was that the problem? Most likely. A voice seemed to come from MoSh, it sounded like MoSh's voice, but it didn't sound like something MoSh would say… he told Asuka that had been so disappointing, he told her if he had known that was all he would get he wouldn't have bothered rescuing her all the time… Asuka just had a shocked look on her face, she said that wasn't funny if he thought he was joking. He (or the shadow) said he wasn't joking, and then added that Asuka had been nothing but a disappointment since day one, she had brought him nothing but trouble, so she should get the fuck out of his house, she was no longer welcome there. Asuka touched MoSh on his shoulder, MoSh responded with, "I know you're stupid… but don't tell me you're too stupid to know what it means when I tell you to get the fuck out!"

It looked like Asuka was crying, but she said to herself that there must be something wrong, someone had done something to him… she went to Data, who was in the other room, she said something was wrong with MoSh, but she couldn't see what, he had to help… So Data followed Asuka back to the room and did a scan of MoSh. The shadow thing was gone, so there was nothing there for him to see. I also took the opportunity to scan MoSh, but there was no sign of infection or anything. Asuka went and used what looked like a laptop and contacted Q, asking him to take a look at MoSh and see if he could find anything wrong. Q also took a look at MoSh but he was unable to find anything wrong. She used the laptop and now contacted Basara, she wanted him to check MoSh, but MoSh agreed with Q, she asked Basara where I was. Basara said I was out dreaming somewhere, but he didn't know where, but I would surely be back soon. Asuka looked in on MoSh one more time, only to find the bed was empty, apparently MoSh had woken up. She turned away from the bedroom and walked down the hall looking very sad, but then she seemed to get an idea. She opened a portal and went through it immediately. I followed her through the portal thought I wouldn't have had to since the dream shifted right away to the new location.

The rest of the hologram projections on Asuka involved her searching through a lush and beautiful garden near the edge of a pond, heading into a rather dreary swamp also near the edge of the water, up to the top of a mountain right near a natural spring that was flowing strong and clear. By now she seemed to be getting frustrated and discouraged, I wondered what she was looking for, but for now she sat down in the middle of a patch of flowers and cried… but not for long, she soon got up and was off again, deep in the woods there was a cave with a clear stream flowing out of it into a sparkling pool. She was looking near the water's edge once again, and looked disappointed and frustrated again when she apparently didn't find what she was looking for. The next stop she made was the place MoSh and I ended up finding her, in the garden where she had found the strange flowers. The hologram ended before MoSh and I appeared.

MoSh said that was not what had happened, he said that Asuka had gone silent, and had refused to speak to him, and then when she had disappeared… Q appeared in front of us, he was holding a strange wiggling little imp like creature by the scruff of its neck. The thing was wiggling and hissing and squirming, cursing and spitting… Q said this annoying little thing had been creating illusions, a little troublemaker with no energy to speak of… MoSh wanted to know how it had gotten inside his inner world, why had it been screwing around in there… the thing was hissing and spitting expletives, hissing something about the entire idea of love being nothing more than a farce, all methods of manipulation, all lies, so those fools might as well find that out now, because anyone who falls for the tripe that is love is only mmmph mmmph mmmph mmmph… Q had covered the little thing's mouth, it bit him… MoSh wanted to rip the thing's head off… Q said he had some use for such a creature, or thought he might, then the two of them disappeared…

Note: My first goal for the night, the one I used my WILD for, was to go meet MoSh and then we were going to go back and view a dream he had a while back where he was speaking to don Juan. In this dream don Juan had told MoSh he had a message for me, but I would have to find him first, and the instructions for finding him were in that dream if I could get them. Other goals are the same as other nights. I fell asleep with my light / sound machine and slipped into an unusually vivid WILD…

I was in MoSh's inner world. I surveyed my surroundings and saw everything looked like it always does, nothing seemed out of place. Sometimes it is difficult to keep the beginnings of these dreams separate since the dreams where I go to get MoSh before doing anything else are starting to merge together in my mind. I found MoSh, and we went through a portal back to my inner world.

MoSh and I emerged from the portal into the living room of my house, the first thing I saw was a cat running when we appeared suddenly. The cat, Amber, peeked around a corner as if to see if it was safe to come out, and seeing it was MoSh and me, she came back out right away. I booted up the laptop that was sitting on the couch and logged into the dream journal program right away. I searched through the list of MoSh's dreams and found the correct one, which was labeled "Don Juan At My Picnic Table," and clicked on that one. Everything was working smoothly as the hologram started up and we were transported to a virtual recreation of MoSh's dream.

I looked around the area, nothing was remarkable, what I was looking at was a park of some kind with a picnic table there, MoSh was sitting on one side of the picnic table with what appeared to be an Indian shaman sitting across from him. The present day MoSh and I got closer so we could hear what was being said. I actually sat on the left side of the MoSh at the picnic table, and the present day MoSh was beside me, and there was a dark specter floating over the shaman… wtf? There was no dark specter… the day was bright and sunny, a great day for a picnic, and there was no sign of anything creepy… except for the dark fog seeping out of the… gopher hole?! That wasn't dark fog… it was a cute little gopher baring it's razor sharp fangs as it tore the head off of a small lizard and swallowed the thing whole… um… ok… my mind was running away from me a bit here… I focused my attention on the shaman, who I knew right away was don Juan, and listened to him and MoSh talking to each other.

Don Juan was talking to MoSh about getting a message to me regarding how to find him, when don Juan said that he took a glance to MoSh's left, directly at me, as if he was looking at me. But that couldn't be, this was a hologram, it wasn't even like we'd traveled through time to view it in person. Don Juan's gaze strayed to the present day MoSh and then returned to the MoSh he was speaking with. MoSh said something about me not having the power to reach don Juan, but don Juan said it has nothing to do with power, what I was lacking was the belief in myself, I have too much doubt about myself to find him, which I thought was odd since I was now sitting across from him… I snickered, which somehow seemed to get his attention again… don Juan looked at me for a bit longer this time, I had the distinct feeling I was actually being watched, so I silenced myself, I wasn't here to interfere, after all… but I wasn't here at all! I put my attention back on don Juan right as a large black form with huge razor teeth reared up behind don Juan and was preparing to bite his head off, or that's what it appeared to be… I instinctive stood up and yelled at don Juan to look out, and right at that time don Juan leaned over to pick something up from the ground… the creature's teeth clamped down on nothing and the thing dissipated into the air like smoke.

After that, the other MoSh was still not paying any attention to me, the present MoSh was looking at me strangely, and don Juan also seemed to be watching me… was this not just a hologram? Were we actually there? I didn't have any answers to those questions for certain, but it definitely looked like don Juan was responding to my actions… so now I just straight out asked don Juan if he could see me, was he actually looking at me like it appeared he was looking at me. He didn't say anything, but he focused his gaze right into my eyes briefly before looking back at the past version of MoSh. So he was seeing me! I had no doubt in my mind of that now, somehow he was seeing me, which would indicate this was not just a hologram.

So the dream went on this way, the past MoSh and don Juan spoke a bit more, don Juan said something about telling me things then I could write them down… at the same time as I was seeing don Juan and MoSh talking in a park I was seeing someplace much more disturbing, a dark and dreary place with strange mutant creatures crawling through the shadows, often coming out and feeding on one another… I couldn't hide a look of 'yuck' when a smaller creature jumped on a larger one, tore into the stomach of the larger one, ate the soft tissue within, then ran off leaving the larger creature still alive, but inevitably dying an unpleasant death, and making the most horrible noises as it died… this caused me to not hear all of what don Juan and MoSh were saying to each other, but don Juan seemed to find my reactions interesting, as he looked over in my direction several times. Smaller ant like mutants, mouse sized ants, came out and began eating the creature before it had finished its slow demise, creating the loudest and most horrible cries of pain yet…

Once the pathetic creature was dead I was able to return my attention to MoSh and don Juan, the latter of the two was looking back at me… I saw movement off to my left and looked over just in time to see MoSh disappear from the picnic bench, that must be where he woke up, and now there was something else there… sort of a version of MoSh, but it had razor sharp fangs and teeth, talons on his hands, and the eyes of a goat… meaning his pupils were horizontal and square shaped, looked really kind of creepy. That version of MoSh hissed at me like a snake and then made to bite me with his sharp fangs, I held him back from biting me, and then he disappeared just as the normal MoSh had done. I looked over at the present day MoSh, and he was looking over at don Juan… hadn't he seen what had just happened? Hadn't he seen the really creepy version of himself? I was getting the idea he hadn't, which seemed really strange that he could have missed it…

Don Juan was looking directly at me now, no longer trying for the illusion that he couldn't see me, it was obvious to anyone looking that he was looking right at me… both of him were looking right at me… There appeared to be two of him, one lying barely beneath the surface of the other, creating a somewhat blurred image of him… I wondered if there was another don Juan within the inner don Juan… I looked closer and could see there indeed was, and another… and another… and another… and then I stopped looking deeper because it was starting to give me a headache… like looking into infinity. I felt like the dream was going to slip away from me, but that was the last thing I wanted to do… I looked away from the many dimensional don Juan and looked at my own hands, trying to stabilize my dream, and I did a double take… I had talons?! Or at least one version of my hands had talons… another had long red fingernails, another looked normal but had blue skin… ok, enough of seeing all of this, to stabilize the dream… I closed my eyes and used the time dilation method Allura showed me, and as I dilated time the dream stabilized.

With the dream stabilized, I looked back up at don Juan, I asked what the message was that he had for me. He said nothing for a short time, and then, "The fact that you are here proves you already understand the message." I was sitting there looking at him with what was no doubt a blank look, the different versions of don Juan were responding differently, one was snickering, one had no expression, one was frowning, one was outright laughing his ass off, one was shaking his head, one was nodding, one was… ok… that was too many don Juans again… I was getting disoriented. He asked exactly what I thought I was seeing, I figured he meant the fact I was seeing many versions of the same thing, so that's what I answered, that it was different versions of the same things from multiple planes of existence. He said I was only seeing a few of the many ways that things are, but let's see if I was really seeing anything at all…

Before I could put meaning to that, however, the scene around me changed. I surveyed my new surroundings and saw I was standing in a forest clearing (barren desert landscape) where there was one person there beside myself. That person looked like an Indian shaman (weird crazy old man) with long white hair hanging down to about the middle of his back (sticking out in every possible direction) and an old wizened face (with wild colored paint all over it)… I was seeing two versions of this person at the same time…

Version One:
I was in a barren desert landscape with very little sign of life anywhere, and the crazy looking shaman was staring at me with an insane look in his eyes. I focused on him for a bit, not sure what I was supposed to do about this situation, he attacked me with a wind spell, he formed a tornado and basically sent it at me. I jumped out of the way and flew over to the other side of the crazy shaman, looking at him to see what the best course of action was… and his spark was something I couldn't miss, so I would heal him. The song I thought I needed to use was Touch My Heart, so I focused on that while evading another wind attack, this one had wind blasts compressed so tightly that they were like spears, the song played through and golden energy flowed through the shaman, I had directed the spell to match the shaman's own energy. The song finished playing, the shaman looked normal now, he nodded at me and was gone.

Version Two:
I was in the forest clearing, there was an Indian shaman looking at me with a calm expression on his face, he also had an evil glint in his eyes. I wondered if he was up to something, I thought there was something strange about his aura, it seemed ice cold. I heard him chuckle, and then there was an explosion of activity as animals charged from every direction attacking me, they seemed to be under the shaman's control. They were innocent animals, I didn't want to hurt them, so I took to the sky to avoid an assortment of birds dive bombed me from the sky, to free the animals I would have to deal with the shaman quickly. I searched him, I figured I would find the spark, but I saw nothing… could that be? I looked a little deeper, still nothing, I looked as much as I could… I was attacked more, and I had still seen no sign of a spark in this man. Since I could see nothing to heal in there I just went for straight defending myself… He was attacking me with a staff that had a blade on each end as the animals continued attacking me from behind, I saw no choice but to counter attack with my Witchblade sword, and I ended up killing him. Once he was dead, the animals dispersed, then I saw a ghost rise from the body and both were gone.

Ok… now things looked normal again, what had that been all about? I was going to say something to don Juan, who was there in front of me again, but I didn't get a chance to before everything changed again. I was inside a room now, that looked like the interior of an old type building that might have been used by native Americans… There was yet another shaman standing in front of me, he had long braided gray hair (long black hair pulled back into a pony tail) (I couldn't see his hair because of a hood over his head)… I was seeing three versions of things now…

Version One:
I was looking at the shaman with long gray hair that was in braids on both sides of his face. He attacked me with fire, forming a fireball in each hand and throwing it at me. I countered the fire with a blast of ice, to extinguish the flames so the place wouldn't burn to the ground with us in it… though this man was attacking me, he had a spark… so I would heal him. A ring of fire formed around the man, expanding to burn all in its path including me… I focused on the song Touch My heart, which felt right for this situation, and the healing energy flowed through the man. He nodded, then disappeared.

Version Two:
The shaman had long black hair that was pulled back into a pony tail, his eyes were creepily red and looked a bit crazed… He was attacking me with ice, throwing icicles at me like spears, I shattered them with my Witchblade sword while checking this guy for a spark, which I saw burning inside him, so I focused on the healing spell that felt right, and that one was the song Frozen by Madonna. The song played and golden energy flowed through the shaman, having the intended effect. This shaman also nodded his head and then disappeared.

Version Three
I was facing a shaman with blood red robes on, his face was mostly concealed within the red hood, but I could see his eyes, and they were burning like they had fire in them… it sounded like he was growling from inside the hood. I'm not sure if it was real or imagined, but I thought I saw fangs inside the hood, the light glinted off his fangs… He was attacking me with dark energy, it looked like his base energy was dark energy, he was throwing balls of dark energy at me. I deflected the energy balls back at him and he absorbed them back into himself. Now I could clearly hear he was laughing at me… I was about to start fighting him, but no… he also had a spark… I needed another healing spell… I focused on the one that seemed right for the situation, and that one was Until It Sleeps by Metallica. The song played through, and the healing took its effect as in the previous two situations. My Until It Sleeps spell was using dark energy, which was clearly the shaman's base energy, and the spell had automatically matched that energy. The stable dark energy flowed through the shaman, bring about the healing effect. Once healed, the shaman removed his hood, nodded his head, then disappeared.

I was now back in the park with the present day MoSh and the don Juan from his dream. MoSh was looking at me strangely, I wondered if I had been gone very long, I wondered if it had even been noticeable that I had been gone… I looked over at don Juan, I was going to say something, but I didn't get a chance before five spirits appeared, the five from the shamans I had encountered, they were all standing in a circle around don Juan. One by one, the shaman spirits merged into each other until there was just one left, and he was no longer a spirit, he looked very solid. And don Juan seemed to know this man, it looked like they were friends. I wondered who this new man was, I wondered how he (they?) had known don Juan. The other man turned around and disappeared into thin air as he walked away, and then don Juan turned back to me. I was wondering what the message had been, I asked him… he said that if I was to examine the events of this dream more closely that the message hidden within would become clear to me. He said now it was time for me to wake up, I had been doing a lot of dreaming in just a single hour of sleep… just an hour? I wondered if that was possible, and then I woke and found I truly had only been sleeping for an hour…

Note: I fell asleep with my usual list of goals in mind to start off with going to meet MoSh so we could view the dream he had a while back with don Juan where don Juan left a message for me. In addition to that and the usual list I have been including recently, Walms had said something about maybe dropping by my inner world then we would go find Xildron. But he had said he would come to me, so that wasn't so much a goal of mine as it was just an intention to be here when Walms showed up. My final goal was to meet with Blake in a dream. I fell asleep with my light / sound device on, and I was successful in slipping into a WILD…

I was in MoSh's inner world, which was where I had intended to go when I had initiated my WILD. I walked over to MoSh's house and knocked on the front door, Asuka opened the door and smiled. She definitely looked 100% better than she had looked after her ordeal she had gone through after getting kidnapped. She had a smile on her face now, and stood back from the doorway to let me in. I spotted MoSh right away in the living room doing something with a small device that I couldn't see. I got close to see what it was, but I never got a chance to look at it properly before MoSh threw it against the wall and it broke open to reveal circuit boards covered with chocolate. Um… chocolate chips? MoSh said the piece of junk wasn't working. I suggested maybe the device wasn't working because this was a dream, and often times technological devices don't work properly in dreams. He said nah, those work fine in his dreams. I rolled my eyes at that and told him we were going to go view his conversation with don Juan, we could use my laptop back home. He didn't seem to notice that as odd, and he came with me through the portal to my inner world as if it was the most natural thing ever.

MoSh and I emerged from the portal into my living room, where I saw it was full of all the cats I have ever lost, which was actually just three kitties… There was a medium length haired silver tabby named Che-Si curled up in my usual seat on the couch which is named, a short haired silver tabby named Bandit on the back of the couch, and a cute little tortoiseshell cat named Amber was curled up on the chair where my mother usually sits. I picked up and hugged Che-si, thinking about how wonderful it would be to get to hold her in my arms again… but I was holding her in my arms again! Sure, this was a dream, but I was holding her in my arms. I stroked the kitty in my arms, hugged her close to me, kissed her soft silky fur, listened to the sound of her purring in my arms… so cute… so sweet… and I missed her… I was getting completely occupied with my kitty until MoSh said something to me, reminding me that he was there, this was a dream, and we actually had a goal to accomplish. I set the kitty down and then sat down on the couch, picking my computer up off the seat to my right and turning it on. MoSh sat on the seat beside me.

As I started up the computer and selected the dream journal program that only my dream laptop has, MoSh was looking intently at the screen to see what I was looking at. I opened the dream journal program and there was a list of dreams, but they were mine, so I selected MoSh's dream journal. MoSh was telling me a date to find the dream we were looking to view on, but I couldn't really understand what date he was saying, which was quite frustrating since I could understand everything else he was saying. I finally found a dream entitled "Don Juan At My Picnic Table" and I selected that one. The computer gave me a loading icon, then formed the hologram all around MoSh and me, making it look like we really were going into the dream.

As I surveyed the area I immediately knew something about this was not right, in fact there were a lot of things about this that weren't right. There was no sign of MoSh (other than the one who came with me), don Juan, or even a picnic table anywhere in the vicinity. In fact we were in what looked like a space ship of some kind, one wall of the long hall we were in was looking out into deep space, it was quite a cool sight, but definitely not what MoSh and I had been looking for. I looked outside, and the stars looked really strange through the window… I wasn't sure what I was looking at, but there was a star fairly close to us that was providing light to the hallway. At the end of the hallway was a blue panel that was similar to the ones on the floor and wall, somehow I understood that to be a door. I saw that MoSh was also very disoriented and confused, he looked at me and said he didn't think don Juan had ever been to a place like this. I suggested we take a look around, MoSh wanted to exit the hologram and find the one with don Juan in it, but he finally agreed to check this place out.

The passage we were in turned out to be a very long curved passage that seemed to be going around the outside edge of a huge space station, it was hard to see, but the passage was curving slightly to the left as we were walking. In some of the hallway segments there were more doors that led to the left, farther into the station, but we had yet to check them out. Finally we opened one of those doors and headed farther into the center of the space station. There were artificial lights in the interior of the station, I had been wondering if there were any lights in this place except for what the stars provided… and an old man met us at the door. If it hadn't been the fact the man was wearing space suite type clothing and looked to be a white man I might have thought he was a shaman, he had that aged and wise look about him. He said something about there being spies in the station, and they were going to steal the knowledge for themselves, then he collapsed, dead, I saw an arrow sticking out of his back… an arrow?! That was the last thing I expected to see in a space station…

MoSh and I continued exploring the place, not really sure where we were going or how to get there. MoSh said he wanted to go back so we could try again to view the dream with don Juan, this clearly wasn't the right place. I was getting a little tired of the halls that all looked the same, so I was going to agree with MoSh, then I saw one more thing I wanted to investigate. Every so often in the strange walls there was a glowing spot, and these glowing spots seemed evenly spaced down the hall, and they weren't nearly bright enough to be providing light, which came from what appeared to be fluorescent tubes on the ceiling. I told MoSh just a minute and I went over and touched one of the lights, I jumped back a bit as a portion of the wall slid open, revealing itself to be a concealed door. The inside of the room was really weird with a glowing blue cylindrical shaped something in the middle of an otherwise empty room. Somehow I knew this was one of thousands of databases on this ship, I don't know how I knew, I just did, and each of these pillars stored some unfathomable amount of data…

MoSh looked at the pillar but he didn't seem very interested in it, he clearly still wanted to get going to find don Juan. I told him ok, let's get back to the computer so I could try again to access the correct dream. I told MoSh that I had been in his dream journal when I found this, so that must mean it was one of MoSh's dreams that he had forgotten, or that is what it seemed would have to be the case. MoSh said he would remember if he had ever been in a place like this before. I said we all forget amazing things, reminding him that I had been in an epic battle with Walms' kid Xildron and I'd proceeded to forget the entire thing until I went back and dream viewed it. Either way, MoSh was unable to give any more insight as to where we were or the purpose of this place. So I focused on sending a command to the computer to end the hologram playback, but nothing happened. I realized I don't think I have ever ended the hologram until the dream was completely over and the hologram ended because there was nothing more to display. I wondered how much longer this dream was, MoSh looked a bit impatient to get back, but there wasn't a lot I could do about that right now. I told MoSh I wasn't sure how to end the hologram, he didn't seem to think that was even possible, and the fact we weren't stuck there was proven when I woke.

Note: The first goal of the night was to get everyone together for training with Vegeta followed by getting on with the rest of the goals I have in a seemingly endless list. I was successful in slipping into a WILD…

I looked around to find myself in MoSh's inner world, in the usual place in front of his house. I thought I saw something moving out of the corner of my eye, but when I looked there was nothing there. I was peering into the shadows between the two houses across the street when I heard a familiar voice behind me, I turned to see MoSh standing there with Asuka beside him. Both of them were looking at me strangely, apparently MoSh had said something to me and I hadn't heard a word of it. MoSh repeated himself, asking me what I was looking at as he also peered into the shadows between the houses. I told him I thought I had seen something, but there was nothing there, so I must have imagined it. MoSh said it was probably one of the dogs that seem to roam the area, sometimes they seem to show up at odd times. I agreed to that possibility and opened a portal to get the three of us into my inner world near Vegeta's house.

When I stepped out of the portal I found Vegeta was standing outside looking up into the sky as if he was expecting something to happen. I went over to him and asked what was up there, he paused for a couple of minutes and said he was gone now. I asked who Vegeta was talking about, Vegeta said he had sensed a dark energy being entering my inner world, he had checked the energy frequency and found it to be Walms, but then Walms had left in a hurry. Vegeta didn't seem to think much of that, I wondered why Walms would come here and then leave so soon, he had probably woken up for his next FA. Vegeta was more interested in getting down to training before one or more of us ended up disappearing. I was thinking there was someone else I was supposed to meet with… Blake! I was supposed to find Blake in a dream, he said he'd be waiting in the biodome by the koi pond. I told Vegeta I'd be right back as I opened the portal and went through it before he could finish telling me to get my ass back there and train, I wouldn't improve by running off all the time.

I was in the biodome by the koi pond now, but it seemed my only company there was the fish and a few animals I could see hidden in the plants and flowers. I wandered around a bit as I wondered how long I should wait for Blake to show up and I came across the bread tree planted there by Loaf. I picked a warm loaf of cinnamon bread that seemed to have grown with butter already in it, pulled a large piece off of the loaf, and I started eating it as I headed towards the bench where I said I'd wait for Blake. I sat down on the bench and continued eating the bread, it was delicious, and I watched the fish.

I'd stay here and wait for Blake for a bit and then I'd head back to see Vegeta and continue training. I figured I would stay there until I finished my bread, and then I would check back later as well. As I was watching the fish and finishing my bread I felt like the dream was coming to an end. Since I thought that might be due to the fact I was doing nothing, I decided I had better get back to Vegeta and do some training to get the dream a bit more active. I opened a portal and passed through it to find Vegeta, MoSh, and Asuka in the middle of training.

Vegeta saw me right as I entered the area, I figured he had probably seen me coming before the portal had even opened, and he came over, he said it was about time I returned. He said MoSh had already tried to leave by waking up but that attempt had failed due to Vegeta's time dilation. MoSh said he hadn't been trying to wake up on purpose, Vegeta responded that he knew MoSh hadn't been deliberately trying to wake up, he said MoSh takes some things too seriously, then he added that there are things I don't take seriously enough… such as training. Vegeta was passing swords out to everyone in the training group, which I noticed consisted of MoSh, Asuka, Kanmuri, and myself. Wasn't there supposed to be someone else? Hadn't someone else asked me to bring him here? My inability to remember that detail was going to really bug me until I was able to remember. Vegeta asked me what I thought I was doing, apparently he noticed I was just standing there staring off into space, I had actually let the sword he had handed me drop from my grasp and it was lying on the ground. I wasn't really sure what to tell him since I couldn't remember much myself, so I just picked the sword up and didn't bother answering him. He gave me a bit of a dirty look but then continued with the lesson.

The lesson that followed was basically just a sequence of using our swords in sparring matches with the other students and one final sparring match where it was everyone in the class against Vegeta. Between each of the matches Vegeta and Serena were going around and noticing where we were doing well and where it was not so well, as well as showing us some new moves to try in the next match. Serena was the one who clearly knew more about the swordplay itself while Vegeta was noticing more things to do with speed, focus, keeping our defenses up as to not allow our opponent an opening… I did rather poorly in that area since I noticed my mind was still frequently wandering off to try to think of who I was supposed to bring to the training class.

"That's it!" I suddenly said in the middle of a training match against Kanmuri, "It's Mzzkc!"

"Raven!" Vegeta said from off to my left, "You might want to try paying attention to your opponent considering that if this was a real battle you would have just been relieved of your head! What is this about Mzzkc?"

I told Vegeta that I had just remembered who was missing from the training session, I had been intending to go get Mzzkc and bring him back to join in on the training. I was asking myself how I could have managed to forget that considering I had told Mzzkc I would do it, but now I had screwed that part up… but maybe I could still go find Mzzkc and bring him back, it wouldn't matter if I was in the dream much longer as long as I managed to get Mzzkc back here. Completely ignoring Vegeta I opened a portal while focusing on Mzzkc and went through it. Unfortunately, however, I didn't find my way to Mzzkc, the only thing I found was my way to waking up.

Note: Another night with a lot of goals and not a whole lot of progress. My goals included training with Vegeta, bringing MoSh, Asuka, and Mzzkc to this training session with Vegeta, telepathically calling Pablo to come, viewing a dream MoSh had with don Juan, a DDO dream with Tigress, TotY… the list just goes on and on and on and on… Tonight I was successful at slipping into a WILD, which was helpful, and my first dream is that WILD…

I was in my own inner world, at the location right outside of Vegeta's house. Vegeta was right near me, looking at me strangely. He said he had expected there would be people with me tonight, which is what I had said before I went to bed. Vegeta reminded me that MoSh and Asuka were no doubt waiting to be picked up, as was Mzzkc, and Pablo had just wanted me to contact him telepathically to see if the connection worked and maybe if he could get in here. The easiest thing to do would be to send a telepathic signal, or it seemed like the easiest thing to do, so I focused on sending a signal to Pablo, a telepathic signal, "Hey, Pablo! This is Raven, you're dreaming! Remember this dream!" I repeated the signal a few times, focusing on it as best as I could until I heard Serena's voice say I looked constipated and she had a tea for that… so my last message to Pablo consisted of, "Hey, Pablo! This is Raven, you're… constipated? WTF?" It turned out Serena had just been making fun of the look of concentration I'd had on my face. So next I opened a portal to MoSh's inner world and went through it to bring him and Asuka back.

I stepped out of the portal into the usual spot where I enter MoSh's inner world, the place right in front of his house. I went over to the house and looked at the door, I was about to knock on it when it opened and a worried looking MoSh came out. He said something was wrong with Asuka, she was still not acting like herself. I said to Mosh, that after what she went through it might take a while and more healings before she was completely ok… MoSh didn't answer, he just pointed into the house towards the stairs and said Asuka was shut in the bedroom and wouldn't come out. I went upstairs. There was one door closed at the end of the hall, which was where I went. MoSh was right behind me, he knocked on the door and said Asuka's name, saying she needed to come out. I hadn't expected her to, but Asuka came right out. She looked rather tired, but otherwise ok. MoSh wanted to know what she had been doing in there, why hadn't she answered him before, he had been worried about her… She didn't really say much. Ok… go back to my inner world, heal Asuka, and then training with Vegeta… no… before training with Vegeta was the going to get Mzzkc… I had to make sure I didn't forget anything. I opened the portal and the three of us went through it… I wondered about the kids, but I didn't get a chance to say anything. I figured Data was with them.

All three of us stepped out of the portal in the meadow that surrounds Vegeta and Serena's house. Asuka sat down in the grass and started picking wild flowers that were growing around her… then she shredded them into a pile of purple and green mess… then she ate some of it, made a face that told me the stuff was all kinds of disgusting, and spat it out before trying again to eat the stuff with the same results. She picked up some more of the plants and looked to be about to try eating them yet again, but she was distracted by a fluffy red fox jumping around in the grass. She stopped playing with the flowers to watch the fox playing around, then the fox came over to her and climbed into her lap where she started petting it. The fox responded by curling up in a ball on Asuka's lap and purring. Hmmm… cat purrs have a very theraputic effect, do fox purrs also have that effect? Seems like it would.

While Asuka was stroking the softly purring fox, MoSh and I were doing healing spells. Basara showed up very soon and joined in, merging his song into mine and the one MoSh was playing, all three songs somehow came together in a perfect melody. Golden energy filled the meadow, golden energy mixed with some blue and white energy, all centered on Asuka, who still had a purring fox in her lap. The energies swirled around Asuka, all flowing into her. Asuka was smiling, she seemed a lot more relaxed now.

The healing spell ended, and I walked over to Basara. I had been wondering if there was a possibility that I wouldn't be able to heal someone's heart because I have dark energy that I'm using. Basara actually laughed at that idea. He said he had learned enough about dark energy to know that wasn't even vaguely impossible unless I wanted it to happen or the dark energy was unstable and I got consumed by it. He told me I worry too much, so relax or the stress would be what might interfere with my healing. Hmmm… was I just being paranoid again? Most likely.

I remembered my goal of meeting up with another user from Dreamviews, BlakeE45. I had agreed to meet him near the koi pond in the biodome, so that was where I headed now. I also was supposed to retrieve Mzzkc… I would check for BlakeE45 and then go look for Mzzkc… My portal exited right next to the koi pond. I sat down on the bench for a while after I saw that there wasn't anyone there. My mind drifted away as I watched the fish. At this point the dream fades out, though I'm not sure if it ended or if I just don't remember any more.

Note: It turned out that some really nasty things happened to Asuka during the time she was with L, she was in serious need of healing. That was my first priority, to go help MoSh with healing Asuka. I figured I would definitely take Basara with me… I had my first goal in mind when I fell asleep, but I was not successful in entering a WILD. I'm not even sure how I became lucid in this dream… it just kind of happened gradually, so gradually that I'm not exactly sure when I became fully lucid…

I was in the front yard of my house, and I noticed it was cloudy. I wanted to go for a walk, and the clouds made it much nicer to walk than when it is fully sunny. I left the house and went to the gate, realized I had forgotten the remote to the gate, so I climbed over it instead of going back into the house to get the remote. I walked down the dirt road and up to the main street where I turned left. I followed the road for a while until I reached the new housing development that has been going in recently. I'd never seen the houses up close, so I turned into the housing area and figured I would take a look around. It was nothing remarkable, all the houses were basically cookie cutter homes that all looked the same. Or mostly the same, there were about three different models repeated over and over and over… Then I went up a hill and found a house that looked different. The first thing that came to mind was MoSh's house in his inner world. But how could I be seeing that here? It looked so much like MoSh's place that I went to the door and knocked. Much to my amazement, MoSh answered.

"Oh, good… you're here," MoSh said as he hurried me into the house and closed the door behind me, "Asuka really needs help… I'm not sure what else to do for her except for try to heal her. The things I'd like to do to that bastard…"

I told MoSh he could do whatever he wanted to L, or I could do it and he could read about it in detail, or we could both do it together and he could read about it in detail… or he could probably get Walms to have some fun with L then read about it when Walms posted his DJ… or… MoSh interrupted me at this point, saying we should focus on Asuka for now, L could be made to pay later. I remembered that Basara would be able to help with healing Asuka so I focused on opening a portal to find Basara, the portal opened and Basara came through as if he had been expecting me. Somewhere in here must be where I became fully lucid, but it was the end of a gradual process so I'm not completely sure when it happened.

Basara and I followed MoSh into the bedroom where Asuka was hiding. And she really was hiding. She was in a corner of the room trying to disappear into the wall, she had her knees pulled up to her chest and her face was hidden as if she thought no one would see her if she couldn't see them. MoSh went over to Asuka and touched her on the shoulder, I noticed a very concerned look on Basara's face. Asuka responded right away to MoSh, she reached for him and immediately put her arms around him as if she was drowning in the ocean and he was her life preserver. Basara didn't need to be told what had to be done, he summoned a guitar and began playing a song that I recognized from the Macross 7 soundtrack, the song entitled Love Will Save Your Heart. I focused on the healing song along with Basara, thought it looked like MoSh was having problems getting to his guitar with Asuka clinging to him as she was… As the song was playing golden energy filled the room, giving everything in the room a golden shine that came just from the energy. When the song ended, there was no pause in the music as Basara moved seamlessly on to My Soul For You from the same soundtrack. Asuka had let go of MoSh by now and was sitting on the bed staring off into space, which meant MoSh could also add to the healing energy in the room. As this song ended, all three of us were contributing to one more song that I recognized from the Macross 7 soundtrack but I don't remember the title of it… the title was probably in Japanese.

There was still healing energy filling the room, although some of it looked now to be blues and whites instead of the usual golden energy, this energy seemed very relaxing, however, and it brought a warm sensation of comfort and safety, of love and caring… I continued focusing on the song Basara was using at the time, he had changed songs again. Asuka was still sitting on the bed, though she seemed to be paying attention to the three of us now as if we were giving her a private concert, which I suppose we were. The blue and white energy was centering in on Asuka and flowing around her in a manner that made it look like she was glowing… she looked more like an angel than anything, though she didn't actually have the wings… The music and the energy were so relaxing I thought I might fall asleep in the middle of the healing process… Basara played through one more song, I also don't remember the name of this one, and then the music stopped. There was still a bright glow about Asuka as the light energy was still surrounding her and flowing through her. I looked closer at her and saw she actually had a small smile on her face. Basara looked at Asuka and smiled himself, he said it looked good. He said he didn't know if that one time would be enough for her to get past what had happened, but he had to say one thing for her, she seems stronger than she looks. Now that the music had stopped Asuka lied down on the bed and fell asleep, though her sleep looked peaceful and relaxed. I told Basara that if she needed more healing, then she would have it. Basara agreed with that before opening a portal and going through it.

MoSh kissed Asuka ash she slept and then left the room, clearly meaning for me to follow him. I followed him into the next room where he had some pictures lying face down on a desk. He picked one of them up and looked at it only briefly before turning it face down on top of the others so that none of them were visible. He said that he needed to make sure Kanmuri knew how important it was to keep L away from Asuka. I opened a portal to get to L's inner world and the two of us went through.

MoSh and I exited the portal in the area of L's inner world where we usually seem to arrive. I wondered if it would be possible to enter at a different location if I needed to for some reason, this was the only place I could remember arriving. For this time, however, that location was just fine. I spotted Kanmuri not too far away from us, she was looking over at the guest house with a strange look on her face as if the building held some kind of unfathomable mystery. She saw us arrive there and said L was in the guest house again, she said she didn't know what he was doing in there, but she didn't think he had anyone in there with him, she was sure he hadn't gone after Asuka again… MoSh said Asuka was safe at home, but there was something he wanted to show Kanmuri. She asked what that was, looking at the pictures in MoSh's hands, which he gave to her.

Kanmuri stared at the first picture as if unable to comprehend exactly what she was seeing, then she looked at the next one and the third one before dropping the pictures on the ground. She had a look of total shock on her face, seemed unable to find any words appropriate for the situation. She said she never thought that would happen… she admitted she hadn't known L for long, but that was just so… so… and again words seemed to fail her. MoSh said that the things that had happened in those pictures showed clearly why Kanmuri has to make absolutely certain L doesn't get anywhere near Asuka again. Kanmuri stared at MoSh in stunned disbelief, again she didn't seem to know what to say, but that didn't last long…

"You don't actually expect me to stay here with that… that monster, do you?" she asked incredulously, "I've stayed here until now, and I was going to try to make sure he didn't go off and kidnap Asuka again, but that was before I knew he was a total psychopath! I'm out of here!"

"Then who is going to keep L away from Asuka if you don't stay?" MoSh asked.

Kanmuri was silent for a bit again, then she got mad, "So you expect me to stay here no matter what might happen?" she yelled right in MoSh's face, "So it's completely ok with you if I get tortured and gang raped and maybe even killed as long as your precious Asuka is safe? Well, guess what? I'm not going to stay around here as an outlet for that bastard's twisted fantasies! That was the only deal breaker, I don't care if he's a jerk, I don't care that he apparently hasn't even got the capacity to care about anyone, but I will not stay here and be abused!"

"You were supposed to keep L from hurting Asuka!" MoSh said, apparently getting upset himself, "You said you would do this, so you can't go and leave now!"

Kanmuri was so pissed off she was momentarily unable to speak, it also looked like she might cry, from rage? Sadness? It was more rage that she was expressing. "You are… you are…" Kanmuri finally found her voice, though she didn't seem to know what words to use, "You are such an ASSHOLE! If those things had happened to me, it wouldn't matter to you at all, would it? Well it's not happening!" She did something and then dropped a nasty expletive. She was muttering something about not even being able to open a fucking portal to get out of this hell hole. I asked where she was looking to go, I figured it wouldn't do any good to try to keep her here against her will. She said she wanted to go somewhere that she wouldn't be gang raped by a bunch of mindless drones and the king of all assholes… um… my inner world qualified for that… so I opened a portal to my inner world. MoSh told Kanmuri she couldn't just leave, she flipped him the bird and said watch her, she was already gone. She went through the portal to my inner world, and about the same time I woke.

Note: Tonight I fell asleep with some very ambitious goals including checking to see if L will leave Asuka alone if she goes out, dream view a dream MoSh had quite a while ago where he was speaking with don Juan, sharing a DDO dream with Tigress, finding and doing another healing spell on Xildron, tasks of the year… the list of my goals just seems to go on and on… I fell asleep with my light / sound machine and successfully slipped into a WILD…

I found myself in a very familiar setting standing in the front yard of MoSh's house in his inner world. I went right up to the door without any hesitation, I wanted to get going on my goals. I knocked on the door and MoSh answered it. He was smiling when he saw me and he opened the door to let me in. When I looked around the room I saw Asuka sitting in the living room watching something on television. I walked over to Asuka and looked to see what she was watching, there was nothing actually on the television and I wondered why Asuka was staring at a blank screen. As if on cue, Asuka got up and came over to me, she said she was ready to go out and see that L had gotten the picture that he needs to leave her alone. I asked her where she wanted to go this time, it really should be somewhere she would be likely to go on her own. She said she knew of a mountain spring that was very relaxing. She said it was a place where she hoped to take MoSh someday so they could relax there and have some time to themselves. She said she was waiting until he started remembering her more consistently, though. After fusing with Asuka by using the fusion amulet she opened a portal and we went through it as one person.

The other side of the portal was a beautiful place. There was a crystal clear pool of water with colorful flowers growing on the surface of the water, numerous lily pads dotted the surface of the water as well. Colorful butterflies were flitting around near the shores of the pool, and there were even some butterflies out on the lily pads farther out in the pool.

It really was a very peaceful scene. I could see why Asuka would want to spend some time alone there with MoSh. I just let Asuka go where she wanted to go since she knew this place and liked it, and she waded into the water a bit. The water was very pleasant, and there were small fish tickling my feet. We spent quite a bit of time there wandering around the place, exploring all the hidden areas to find what wonders might be found there. We spent so much time there that I was beginning to wonder if the dream was going to end without L showing up… that would be a good sign that he had learned something from the last time he had kidnapped Asuka. After spending a bit longer there, Asuka said she was ready to go home… but first she wanted to go into the water in her own body, because the water here is so wonderfully refreshing and she couldn't feel it as well when fused with someone else. So we separated right there. Asuka swam out into the water still in her kimono which floated out beside her in an ethereal way. She sank beneath the surface of the water.

I had turned away from Asuka for only a short time to take a closer look at some of the beautiful flowers, to go over to them and smell them. The flowers were beautifully fragrant, and their fragrance was also very relaxing. I was smelling the flower when I heard some sounds from behind me. I turned around just in time to see there was a pair of tendrils were reaching through a portal and wrapped around Asuka, pulling her towards the portal. Wtf? I chased after her as she disappeared through the portal, jumping out over the pool of water and reaching to grab hold of Asuka's leg as she was disappearing through the portal. Then the portal was gone. I was yelling at an empty sky to give Asuka back right now, you yellow bellied bastard. My first thought was that L had come after Asuka again, well he would pay for that… I focused on opening a portal to follow Asuka to wherever she had been taken, then I flew through the portal ready to kick the ass of whoever I found on the other side.

I emerged from the portal in a world that looked like it was entirely made up of crystal formations. There was a sun shining brightly in the sky and rainbows were reflecting off of many of the crystal formations that made up the landscape. It was really a very beautiful place that I wouldn't have minded visiting if I hadn't been following after Asuka… Things being as they were, however, I didn't take time to notice the beauty of the place. I looked around for any sign of Asuka having had been through there recently. The fact was that I didn't see any sign of human life anywhere let alone Asuka… some very shiny butterflies were flitting around the crystal formations just as the ones near the mountain spring had been flitting around the flowers there. I called out to Asuka a couple of times, scanned for any trace of her, and I found nothing. I was in the wrong place! I wasn't sure how I had managed to get to the wrong place, but I tried the portal again.

I exited this portal to find myself about five feet in the air over a pool of rancid water. I wasn't ready to be in the air, so I fell right into the disgusting water which reminded me of sewer water. It was disgusting! It smelled bad, it was covered with a thick layer of slime, although the area around it didn't look contaminated or anything. It was just a typical stagnant pool of water. I paid about as much attention to the foul water as I had to the beautiful crystals, I flew back out of the pool and scanned the area for Asuka, for any trace of Asuka. Once again I could not find any sign that Asuka was there or that she had ever been there, at least not recently. Whoever had taken Asuka, I was on a wild goose chase, somehow they were making it so my portals weren't getting me to her! I was getting pissed at ending in the wrong places. I landed on dry land, felt like I was going to wake up when I didn't want to, so I dilated time. Something was keeping me from tracking down Asuka, and the first person on my list of suspects was still L, so instead of focusing my portal to follow Asuka I focused it on going to L's inner world. There was a bit of resistance when I tried opening the portal but it was nothing I couldn't easily overcome.

This time when I exited the portal I was in L's inner world, near his pool where I usually appear. I scanned the area for Asuka again, and I knew right away I had found the place she had been taken. I approached the house to see if they were in there, Asuka's energy frequency was still around the place from her last visit so it was a bit harder to tell which signals were more recent. When I headed for the house, however, Kanmuri came from around the corner of the house and pointed towards a building I hadn't noticed before. She said if I was looking for Asuka, L had taken her in there and insisted on being left alone, and when she had just peeked in out of curiosity L had gotten so pissed off at her… she said she didn't know what was going on in there. That was clearly where I had to go next, though.

I followed a path to the building which appeared to be a guest house, and though the path was very pleasant and beautiful with trees and flowers around it, now it seemed like a path descending into a nightmare. I didn't want anyone to see my approach so I used the song Of Wolf and Man by Metallica to change my form into a small blue bird since there were many similar birds around the area. I flew over to the guest house and landed on a window sill. I looked in through the window and I saw both Asuka and L, and I immediately wanted to kill L slowly and painfully. Asuka was sitting on a couch with no restraints or anything to keep her from leaving, but she was staring off into space with a blank expression on her face. She was also quite bruised and she was crying.

L was sitting beside her with his arm around her, had he been the one who had beaten her? He had wanted to take Asuka with him so he could beat her? Or had he done that out of anger over the torturing she (I) had given him last night? An unforeseen backlash of that tactic, making L want to get revenge for the pain she (I) had put him through.

I no longer cared about being unnoticed, instead I changed back to my normal form, my Assassin form, and kicked the front door of the guest house open, it slammed open with a loud crash that made L jump about three feet in surprise. Asuka didn't respond. I used telekinesis to slam L against the wall hard enough to put cracks in it, I asked him what the fuck he had done to Asuka, why was she like that, what had happened. He sniffed the air and said someone sure stank… I said it was him who stank even though I was pretty sure he was referring to the stink of the rancid water that was still on me. I demanded again to know what he had done to Asuka. He said he had just been playing games with her, those games that she seemed to like so well, it seemed she didn't like them anymore. He was laughing the whole time he said that, so I pounded the laughter out of him by slamming him around the room some more using telekinesis and I ended up slamming him right through one of the interior walls into the bathroom where I made sure his face landed in the toilet, actually he hit the toilet hard enough to crack the bowl… the icing on the cake was when raw sewage backed up from the pipe below and washed over L…

I looked over at Asuka, who had still not responded to anything that had happened. She seemed to have not noticed L getting thrown around the room, she hadn't noticed me yelling at him, she hadn't noticed him going through the wall or getting covered with sewage… I went over to Asuka, who didn't respond to my presence, but when I went to help her stand up she was very compliant to that. I focused on healing her injuries, I would do more healing on her once I had her somewhere safe. If she would snap out of this strange trance for anyone, that person would be MoSh. I opened a portal to get to MoSh's inner world and led Asuka through it.

I carefully helped Asuka out of the portal into the front yard of MoSh's house. I led her up to the front door with ease, she was offering no resistance, but she was also not reacting to the change in location. What the fuck had that asshole done to her to make her this unresponsive? We reached the front door and I opened it to find MoSh was right inside, he had been about to open the door. He asked what had happened, what was wrong with Asuka, who had done that to her, what had they done to her… I said I didn't know what had been done to her, but it was L who had done it. I told MoSh that L had shown up and kidnapped Asuka to take her… MoSh interrupted, asking how could I just let L have Asuka? I continued to tell MoSh that she had been taken, I had tracked her down to L's inner world and when I got to her she had been like this, worse in fact, it looked like L had been beating her. MoSh said something about a picture being real, and it had happened because I had let L take Asuka… what picture? He took Asuka into his arms and said something about so many men… so many men? I had only seen L… I told MoSh that Asuka needed healing, and he said any fool could see that. I said I would help him heal her, but he just glared over at me, he said Asuka didn't need any more of my help, I had clearly 'helped' her more than enough. He said they didn't need that kind of help. He slammed the door before I could say anything else.

I paused, I wanted to go inside and try to explain things to MoSh, but he was right… I was supposed to have been protecting Asuka, not just letting L walk off with her to do whatever he wanted to her… if I'd just been more careful she wouldn't have gotten taken, L wouldn't have done whatever it was he did to her… Maybe I should send Basara back over to do some healing on Asuka, who clearly needed it. How was she doing now that she was with MoSh? I walked around to the side of the house and peeked in through a window to see if I could find the two of them. First I saw Asuka's clothes tossed carelessly aside in the room. Then I saw Asuka was sitting naked in a corner of the room and I could see MoSh trying to get her to come out. Asuka wasn't responding to him, she had her knees pulled up to her chest, making herself as small as possible, and she was crying. That was because of what L had done to her, whatever he had done it must have been pretty awful to leave her in such a state. Seeing her like that made me want to hurt L, and hurt him bad, really bad.

So now it was time for L to pay, and the price was high. I opened a portal back to L's inner world and went through it looking to draw some blood. Kanmuri was standing near my portal when I got there, I asked her where L was, where was that foul piece of shit hiding, because I had some business to discuss with him… Kanmuri asked what was going on, she asked what had been wrong with Asuka when I had brought her out from the guest house? She had figured L was in there trying to coax Asuka into bed with him and probably epic failing at that, he wouldn't have hurt her, would he? I scanned the area for L and found him in the main house, I headed straight for him with Kanmuri following after me. She wouldn't shut up. L didn't hurt Asuka, did he? She said she knows he can be an ass sometimes, but she couldn't see him actually doing anything to hurt Asuka… he's too crazy about her… I told Kanmuri, focusing a bit too much of my anger on her, that I didn't know what L had done to Asuka, but he had definitely hurt her, and he'd hurt her bad. Kanmuri stopped and had a shocked look on her face as she watched me go into the house.

I found L in the living room kicked back on the couch as if nothing was wrong in the world, and that just pissed me off more. He looked up at me and smiled, he said it was so nice to see me again. He said if I wanted him all to myself, he could have said so instead of coming in and stealing Asuka. That was it, I was much too pissed off for words. All I could feel inside was unstable dark energy, but I didn't make any effort to control it, I just let it do what it wanted. The shadows in one corner of the room came to life as a swarm of scarab beetles each the size of a golf ball.

I used telekinesis to hold L still long enough for the bugs to get on him. The scarabs didn't stay still long enough for L to get them off, they immediately burrowed their way into L's skin, tunneling through his flesh as he was screaming in pain. I could see the moving bumps of the scarabs underneath L's skin, and he was apparently desparate to get rid of them as he tore through his own skin to get to one of the scarabs and pull it out. He threw the bug on the floor and stomped on it. So he had gotten rid of one of about ten bugs that were now tunneling through his flesh… several of which were in places he could not hope to reach. He was yelling at me or someone else to get those things out of him, get them OUT! While L was writhing on the floor in pain I was kicking him as hard as I could, anything to make him pay for what he had done… I'm not sure how long he was writhing and trying to reach the scarabs under his skin, how long I was kicking him before he was finally still, there was blood coming out of his mouth… and finally I woke, not really wanting to remember the events of this dream…