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2017, 10-11

The Dark Tower – The Great Race

I am on a beach. I look around see if I can figure out how I got here. I see that there is a man nearby. There is also a woman in a wheelchair. They seem to be having an argument. I go closer to see if that might be why I’m here. I recognize the people. The man is Eddie, from the Dark Tower series. The woman must be Detta or Odetta. As I get closer I can tell she’s the nice one. She is not using long strings of shouted expletives. She and Eddie are arguing about whether or not he should leave a gun with her. She says that Roland will be angry. Eddie says he’s not leaving her without a way to defend herself. When I get a little closer Eddie turns and sees me. He asks if I can talk some sense into this woman? He seems to know me. I tell him that I can do better than that. I can go do whatever it is he needs to do, and he can stay with Odetta. He says he has to take the wheelchair back to get Roland. He points at a door that is standing on its own. I she words on the door, the pusher. I tell Eddie and Odetta that I will take the wheelchair back and get Roland. Eddie asks if I’m sure I can do that? He says that Roland and will be hard to push in the wheelchair. He is thinking I will be weak because I’m a girl! I give him a dirty look. I told him that I could carry Roland over my shoulder the whole way. But that wouldn’t be very comfortable for him. Eddie agrees finally and says for me to go ahead.

For the next part of the dream I am running down the beach pushing a wheelchair. I really like the fact that I don’t seem to be getting tired. It’s completely unlike how things are when I’m in the waking world. I have to go around some rocks and other obstacles on the beach, so that slows me down some. But it doesn’t slow me down much, and before I think it is possible I find Roland. Roland appears to be either unconscious or sleeping. I go over closer to him and he seems to wake up a bit. He looks up at me, he looks quite confused. He says my name, Raven, but seems unsure as to if I am real. I tell him that Eddie stayed with Odetta while I came to get him. He says that he will need to be pushed in the wheelchair, he’s not strong enough to walk. I am wondering why my healing attempt haven’t really work on him. I’m thinking maybe it is because of poison rather than just a physical injury. That can make a difference. Roland gets to his feet with much effort, and he sits down in the wheelchair. I focus some healing energy into him just to be sure he doesn’t die on the way. He seems to perk up a bit, but not enough to let him walk. He asks if I’m sure I can handle this? I tell him this will not be a problem. I get behind the wheel chair and try to push. I am actually surprised by how much harder it is to do, but that is just because I wasn’t prepared. I start pushing forward at a good rate.

I pick up speed as I am pushing Roland in his wheelchair down the beach. It is going faster and faster. A couple of times I have to make sudden adjustments to keep from running into one of the obstacles on the beach. There are rocks, Driftwood, and the hardest ones to see our places where soft sand has collected. But I managed to keep going at a quicker rate without getting in any wrecks. Once again the trip seems to go by very quickly. And once again I am liking the fact that I don’t seem to get tired. I wish I could just live all the time in the dream state. Soon we reached door. I see the door there, but I see no sign of either any or Odessa. I wonder where they could’ve gone. Roland is not in good shape, and I know he needs to go through the door to get medicine. I tell him that I will look for Eddie and Odetta. Roland says that he had intended to take Addy with him this time. I am wondering how that would work. Three people in one body? But that doesn’t really matter. Roland says Eddie still has one of his guns. He says hopefully he will not need to use it. Then he hands me the other gun. He says that when he goes through the door his body will be lifeless on the ground here. He says at that point, if the other has come back, she will be able to take the weapon with ease. I don’t need to ask the other is, I know he is talking about Debra walker. So Roland goes over to the door and manage just open it. I can see through the door, it is looking onto a busy sidewalk. I’m not sure what is going on there. Roland goes through the door, then his body collapses outside.

I start looking around now. I start calling out Eddie. I also call out Odetta. I call out Eddie and say that if the other has returned, don’t forget the song. You can bring her back. You can bring Odetta back. I continue looking for a while, and I am about to give up. I have no idea where they could’ve gone. Especially when Odetta doesn’t have her wheelchair. Hi come around a quarter in the rocks, and I stop when I hear a nasty sounding voice. It is a woman’s voice, and she tells me to stop right there. Stop right there, you home bitch. It is definitely not Odetta. I turned around to see her. She has a gun pointed at me. I am not worried about the gun. I am worried about Eddie. I ask her where it is? She says he’s around. She tells me to drop the gun Roland gave me. I told her I’m not going to do that. She says then she’ll blow my brains out. I tell her she won’t be doing it with that gun. I tell her there’s nothing she can do to hurt me, so I am certainly not worried. I ask her again where Eddie is. She says he’s just enjoying the beach. That doesn’t sound good. So I look around for Eddie some more, and I find that he is on the beach. Below the high tide marker. And somehow he’s gotten all tied up. I wonder how that’s even possible considering that he had the gun and data has no legs. I am figuring he must’ve fallen asleep, just like in the books.

Detta seems to move surprisingly fast with no legs. I hear her calling to me that I had better leave him be or she will shoot me. I’m still not worried about that. So I go down to where Eddie is tied up, and I start working on removing the ropes. Data is pretty close behind me, and I can see that Eddie is trying to warn me that fact. Detta points her gun at me. She pulls the trigger. She gets a resounding click. I get Eddie the rest of the way untied, and Detta tries to shoot me again. She gets another click for her efforts. I have Eddie completely untied now. I tell him to stay behind me while we go back and take care of Detta. I tell him that her gun can’t hurt me, but it can still hurt him. I walked right up to Detta. She tries to shoot me again, this time the gun fires. There is a loud bang that actually startles me. But the bullet seems to bounce off of my body. It might have something to do with the Mercer virus. Detta is staring in stunned silence now. So is Eddie. I take the gun away from the stunned Detta. I tell Eddie he can go back to using the song now. He needs to use the song to bring back Odetta. He doesn’t need my help for that. He goes over in front of Detta and uses the song, My Last Breath by Evanescence, and I can see when Detta changes back into Odetta. So at least for now things are safe. That is a good thing, because it is also now that I wake up.

I am showering in a bathroom I don't recognize when I hear someone enter the room. I peek around the curtain and see a friend of my dad's that I've known my whole life. He notifies me that he is getting into the shower. I tell him he needs to leave. He is getting undressed and steps into the shower. I jump out and try to get away. I turn around to look at him and his eyes have turned black. He opens his mouth and a large, snake-like tongue reaches toward me. Suddenly I realize this is a dream and want to end it. I find myself laying in bed. I rub my eyes and in my left eye I see a diamond pattern with shapes within each diamond. I focus on the pattern and it seems expand all around me. Suddenly I feel myself flung downward through my bed and I am flying. I fly to a bar in another country. It is an artsy place with teal walls and ornate decor. It has a small and intimate feel to it. People are speaking a language I don't recognize. I am drawn to a particular woman with short black hair and bangs. I try to remember the sound of the words she is saying, but as I wake up they fade away.

1.

I am in a weird place, I think its London. It is half book store half preschool. There is an old woman watching the kids and I think she is a brittish cop "lorder" who cuts people to pieces and I think she's going to hurt the kids, so I cut off her thumb but there is no blood and I feel really bad but at least she can't try to destroy the kids. Then I am hiding in a bookstore by books wondering how to escape England. Stephen is there and we are frightened and then in Stephen's version of the dream (I think it was a shared dream, not sure), we walk to the woman and show them our fake badges (just by holding up our hands). Then I am lying on my bed my mom is on the bed too I get up and run outside and I jump and levitate and land/teleport from outside to suddenly being back in my bed.

I am at some college. I think its University of Pittsburgh (where I went), and I am standing on a tile floor asking a woman if I am registered. Its the "Im at school and don't have my schedule" dreams. All I remember is the person found my file and said I needed to reapply. That's all I remember. Had this dream a few nights ago. reocurring, but each time the setting is slightly different but always school.

I hope that next time I realize I'm not a college student and go and explore the campus and ask to sit in on classes. It would be a fun scene to explore. Anyone have any college or high school lucid dreams? Any signs I should look for to remind myself that its not even what university of pittsburgh really looks like and that it must be a dream?

I don't know how much I'll be able to recall once I start writing. I had an extremely rough night and actually "slept" for 11+ hours. I feel very out of it and loopy (and headachy) right now.

In one dream, I was driving and looking for something. I made a bad turn and ended up going up some courthouse steps, turning and going right back down. I felt like an ass. I stopped to ask for directions but 3 people were snubbing me for that illegal turn. One of them (the mayor I think), softened at the end and gave me directions to Hepzibah (where my bio-dad lived)

In another dream, I was at some place ordering food with my eldest. I was having a Strawberries and Cream Tea. Don't remember the food. It cost $120. for 2 people. My son was crying afterwards. I thought it was because he was broke. We were in the car and he was crying about cutting someone out of his life because he loved her but she didn't think of him the same way. I was trying to give a personal experience about how we can't make people feel certain ways but that doesn't mean we have to cut them out of our life.... but there was a song on the radio and my son kept interrupting me because he wanted to hear it and see all the colors (?) I became mad at him because I knew he just didn't want to hear what I was saying, so I snapped and told him to listen to it on the internet.

I had several Jehovah Witness dreams, about being back with the congregation, but I've forgotten the specifics.

The last dream was of zombies lol. It was standard base building, parkour and fleeing stuff. Except one thing was odd. I had a little hidey-hole and was being over-run. I ran to it and realized I never upgraded it. Upgrading used a lot more resources and I was afraid I was going to run out. But as I went through the stages of wood to iron, clicking the doors and walls with my wrench, cartoon monster faces appeared lol.

That's it.

Fragment 1:
In this dream, I was doing something at my neighbor's house (I forgot what it was) and N was there. I was tapping my fingers on the ground and she said "Can you PLEASE stop tapping? You've been tapping since before I MET you!" I then went to an article on the internet about a man who made an entire movie with one tapping hand. After that, I went to someone's house to get something, and J's dad was involved. After that, I can't recall anything else.

Fragment 2:
Much later, I was at J's house. He showed me an old music video he did with his friend when they were in a band together 3 or 4 years ago. As soon as J started singing in the video, I started laughing hysterically. I then got myself together and said "this is actually a lot better than the other version." He replied with "Yeah, because it's not a cover." (He was referring to the terrible cover of through the fire and flames by dragonforce that actually exists in real life)

Fragment 1:
I was in the front yard with my uncle. I told him I needed a room that has a huge echo. He said he knew a place where echoes lasted up to 40 minutes.




Fragment 2 (a LONG TIME later...):
I was in 6th period with My friends Z and L. The teacher introduced himself and we got our first assignment of the year. We had to do an essay on our favorite book, so I did a song. Parabola by Tool. I called on the teacher to turn it in to him when he pointed out the spot I missed: the time frame. I wrote five hours because I thought he meant the time it took to read. My thought process behind this was "I figured since it's one hour long I would increase it 5 times because of the extra details of it being a book." I got the release date wrong on the essay. I wrote 1991 (probably because that's when tool formed). I looked to the right and I saw the teacher acting like an idiot and then I woke up.

Dream scenes begin to form of me on a bus like a few nights ago, and I get off to find people to have sex with which lasts a while, and I explore much until I remember my dream goal. I get back on the bus to a different town, and I am taken to a house party.

Enrique is there, and I ask him, "Enrique, tell me something about myself I don't already know," and he says nonchalantly: "You're dreaming." This confuses me because I already know I'm dreaming. He tells other people this too: "Hey did you know that you're just a character in this guy's dream" I wake up.

(T:45 min)

I WILD and am in my bedroom, and I go through the garage to get outside. The blackness makes the dream less stable, but when I get out of the garage I fly in the streets, and I jump over the houses to a new town. I jump again, and figure out that I can imagine a pressure in my feet pushing me up, and I fly high up near a building wall with graffiti. I fly over the night time city.

But the dream begins again in my bed, and I go up the stairs this time and out the door. I fly over the buildings again, but this time I fly so high that I rise above the clouds and fly faster than the rotation of the earth to get to a daytime timezone. I fly into the mountains, and I try to find hikers. However, the dream ends because noise from real life wakes me up.

I'm either playing or watching what seems to be a space ship video game. Basic graphics. I look outside. I'm on the second floor of a house or apartment. I see what looks to be a family of people. It looks like they are moving and having to walk. I feel sorry for them and I give one of the family members a hug and tell them sorry because I feel for them.

It's hot at the beach and I'm laying on the sand. Some kids nearby are burying people in the sand. I see Louise is there and we go for a walk to a concrete white building, to get some privacy we go behind it. We make out a little then head inside the building, it is very big with nothing much inside except a big red London bus. We get onto the bus and take a cosy seat but while on the bus someone starts driving it, they have to make really, really tight turns inside the building, going round and round. As the bus lurches were hanging onto our seats.

Strange I don't remember having a dream with a red London bus before but today in class there was a kid fixated about red London buses (he was 4 so fair enough lol)

I was running around in the wilderness. Everything is green. A fat brown skinned man is chasing me and telling me he will rape me, and I feel creepy and scared. Then I am at a rainbow family gathering. There are tents in the woods and I ask if its really a rainbow gathering. I am so excited because they say yes. I've always wanted to go to one. There is a plank and a girl is standing on it, I sense she might do a back flip off of it but she doesn't, I tell her I want to telepathically and she jumps off and spins in the air. Not a flip. I jump off and suddenly I am being chased by the man again. I'm fast but I feel slimy. Then finally a gay man says that he will go after the man and so the fat man stops chasing me. Then my mom and sister and maybe other family members show up in a car and we drive to a very green, hilly front yard of a beautiful big house. I think it must be my aunt's house. Then the scene shifts again. I am in a clinic with a bunch of people who are raped and everyone is getting tested for STDs for free. I think the guy must have gotten me (it's weird, I forgot he didn't get to me) and that I caught something. I decide I don't want to know and I wake up and it's five am.

It was so nightmarish that I should have become lucid. It would have been a great dreamspace to explore, especially I would have stayed at the rainbow gathering longer. I fly in normal life so I probably would have flown and done cool gymnastics.

What do you think this dream means?

2017, 10-09

Woman of Shadows

I am in a house I don’t recognize. It looks like a haunted house of some kind. I also have the idea I need to find someone in there. I start exploring. Everything is creepy, there are strange noises all around me and I keep seeing shadows out of the corner of my eye that are moving but seem to disappear when I look right at them. I am also hearing strange whispering that I can’t quite understand. I’m not sure if the whispering isn’t loud enough or if it’s in a foreign language. I enter a living room with a couch and a flat screen television. The television has static on it with strange voices coming from it like some half received station. There is a couch there and I see a woman standing in shadow over near a doorway. She looks up at me and has a really strange looking grin on her face. In an instant she is then directly in front of me as if she’s trying to scare me. When I don’t scare she gets a scowl on her face and disappears with a loud shriek.

I know who I think that was… it has been Asuka, but either she was taking Halloween too seriously or something was seriously wrong. I call out to her, telling her to come back and I will help her. I get no response so I keep searching. I go down a long hallway with mirrors that do not reflect me, instead they show weird creatures crawling on the floors, walls, and ceiling of the hallway. I can’t tell what they are. I form a little ball of light energy around my hand and then use the mirror to reach out and touch the spot where one of the creatures is. There is a shriek of pain and it disappears as if it was burned. I continue down the hall and the door at the end opens on its own. I go through and it slams closed behind me. Now I see cloaked images all around me, floating around in circles around me. I think it’s supposed to be disorienting, but I gather a sphere of light energy and they all disappear as if they were nothing more than shadows.

There’s another hall, and there is strange writing on the walls in glowing paint. I don’t recognize the words or symbols though somehow I know it’s supposed to be a warning. I ignore that an continue, calling out to Asuka still. I enter an office at the end of this hall and Asuka is standing in the middle of the room… sort of. She looks more like a poorly received television signal or a glitched computer graphic. She doesn’t even seem to see me at all. She is looking around as if we were surrounded by something I can’t see. I go over to Asuka and take hold of her hand, now she notices me. I focus healing light energy through her and that makes the strange glitched effect go away. No she is standing here with me and really seeing me as if for the first time tonight. She says the demon’s name is Valek. When I look puzzled she says that’s the demon’s name, and having its name will give us power over it.

Asuka points to a black spot on the floor in the middle of the room and says that’s where the corruption begins. I call out the name Valek and command the demon to show itself. The demon appears above the circle looking really pissed. Asuka says he’s angry, but I can already see that. The demon looks a little like a bull with fire coming from its nostrils and it is glaring at me. I tell the demon to be gone from here and never return. Valek says I do not belong here. I say the demon is the one that doesn’t belong here… and now this ends. I use the song Enter Sandman by Metallica to create a vortex of light energy around the demon and ends with a large explosion of light energy that banishes all shadows in the room and passes through the walls to cleanse what’s outside. I look over at Asuka and she smiles before I wake up.

Dreams from October 8 to 9, 2017

This was one of my first Lucids of considerable length, toward the end. It was pretty exciting and encouraging.

Round 1 of Dreams

My Sister is over for a visit. I am trying to copy paste 4 columns. Something becomes too Satanic and I stop. I am in the downstairs bathroom deciding. Satan has a darth Maul face. Guy in T C G One-ish chat room asking me to play, and if I will eat these cookies. I hear I say no. I try to explain that I can't due to addiction. I hear the word "cigarette" and I see smoke coming in. It seems to be coming through a sealed door. What does it mean? Dream sign: Seeing smoke but not smelling it. I get upset. There are two faced Eckhart Tolle masks.

Round 3 of Dreams

There is lots of nasty water on the floor. Cleaning loads of nasty dishes with (removed by me). Stack of lost cell phones. (removed by me)So tired now. I think something woke me up. I feel some terror. Tired.

Round 4 of Dreams
(removed by me)Dream sign: Mom and Dad being together.
(removed by me)Something so scary, I can't pay attention.

(removed by me)


I am awake now. Dammit, I am awake now. I wonder if I should try to D J or just go back to sleep. I am so tired. I hear the noise of a plane overhead. I am angry.

Round 5 of Dreams: Justified Timetude, L D

I become lucid by paying attention to some written words. In my physical body, I am laying on my front. I start to have a dual body awareness of being in my bed, on my front, but also eating these chicken drum sticks at the same time, laying in my front. I worry that moving my arms will wake me up, but then I realize it is actually a dream. (removed by me)

I am eating chicken drum sticks out of big yellow and green bowls in the kitchen. There are thighs and wings in there, in a brown sauce. I am enjoying them. Eventually my Dad says they are old and I kind of throw them out or move on from eating them. I am eating the ones in the green bowl even though it is tipped over. I realize they could be months old.
(removed by me)

I'm at the kitchen sink, trying to do reality checks and stay lucid, and not wake up. I am worried about running out of time, or the dream ending. I affirm, "I HAVE INFINITE TIME!" while looking at the brown counter top. This seems to help.

Mom's Milanos are on the table. Woo hoo! I am excited about all this dream food. I am eating some. They are very soft. I want to save some for her.

I decide to make more of the dream. I picture the local market in my mind. I figure I will walk around the block, and go eat anything I want.

My Mom is in the living room. She is standing near the couch. She looks sad. I am pretty driven to get to the market, so I don't interact with her much. (I felt bad about this upon awakening.) She has a part of a pop tart in her hand.

The ceiling above the couch near the bay window is dripping. I am worried and want to fix it. Then I just let it go. I do move some stuff out of the way of the drip though. There is one orange vase I do something with.

Even within the dream, I have a sense of only having limited money. I want to ask if my Mom wants anything, but I think that will limit me from getting what I want.

As I think of leaving the house, I am aware that anything could happen in the dream. I could run into someone at the store. It could be a wild dinosaur world out there. That makes me hesitate to leave.



I also wrote that the bed changed places at least 3 times.

I think the idea of going to the market gave me a lot of anxiety within the dream.

In my room, I see an app on my phone called Justified Timetude. It has a battery icon but one of the sides is slanted. There is a percentage full bar in there that shows it being about half way, with half being green and half being black.

I think I remember seeing my desk underneath the window in my room. What I definitely remember is opening the window, punching out the screen window, and kind of rolling out to the front of the house. Then, I guess I got scared and ran back in through the front door, and back around to my room. Some of the sequence seems jumbled. I used to do the dream journals in more of a stream of consciousness format, without as much regard for the sequence. Now when I think through it in my head, I sequence it in my mind, before recording it.

I wake up saying, "I am still..." Because I think I was saying, "I am still dreaming", to myself in the dream.

Notes

It seemed like my Fii Write file cut off in the middle of a word. Was some of the original document lost? I hope not. It was only 4:15 A M when I finished that D J entry so there could have been room for one more.

Don't recall much about my dreams last night. The pup woke me barking his head off so I jumped out of bed

I remember a terrifying yet mesmerizing spider/alien creature. I kept trying to take his picture, but he vanished. Then a narrator came on, saying the creature prefers jungle habitats. So then the dream takes me to several cities. Someone with me commented that the cities looked exactly the same. I told him that city planners tend to copy ideas and plans from cities that work.
The last city was surrounded by lush jungle. I ordered some food. It was Oriental- noodles and rice and other stuff. They messed up my order and was giving me a surprise dish to take home as compensation.
Then I saw the spider creature. He was huge and had double or triple the amount of legs. He moved more like an octopus.
As I snapped his picture, his legs then body hardened and crumbled to dust.

Another dream had the spider creature in it too, but it was mostly about animals- cats and dogs. I set a cat on to "mate" (a reference to a video game called Ark), but I realized 5 hours later that I forgot to turn it off and the poor cat had been "raped" nearly to the point of death. A puppy got loose and I was afraid the spider creature would eat him.

Bah!- I had another tidbit but forgot it while recalling those other 2