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+(f) (early) Walking with L through some open air seating area, I'm leading her to show her something, across some water there is a dock and we're heading there?

+ workout with Rip on a strange rack in a private gym room, weird rack don't understand how the barbell is unracked and reracked, Rip wants me to squat my first set at 85kg even though that's way beyond my current weight, I fail at even unracking the bar, so I pull the plates off each side and drop them by hand to get out of the rack, in the room everything's tagged with yellow post it notes, it's also a faculty lounge they come in ask me what I'm doing there, lots of people come in and I'm concerned they'll walk off with my stuff so I try to keep an eye on everyone.

+ getting help from colleagues setting up my blackberry-like device, they're moving icons around to sett up email, sit at desk in chair recline back against wall head hits something bumpy on the wall there's a direct view from my chair at my desk in my office of the boss in his office sitting at his desk, I think I should look more busy

+(f) running some sort of arcade for kids where the prizes are small little squishy balls (IWL ate some caviar with dinner) that they can trade in for prizes

+(f) looking at plates of prepared food, my mom has raw pork and she doesn't want it cooked for some reason

Morning of January 3, 2020. Friday.

Dream #: 19,373-01. Reading time (optimized): 1 min 30 sec.



Water and its essence remain one of the most beautiful and appealing factors of dreaming. That is because bodies of water signify the state of sleep and its dynamics and sleep is bliss (as the virtually countless commercial recordings utilizing the sound of water to induce sleep verifies). It also expresses the fluidity of the dream state’s imaginary physicality with its abandonment of defined muscularity.

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I instinctually enter a more vivid status of imaginary proprioception without drop anticipation (as a result of my vestibular cortex nuances in sleep-wake mediation). I fly slowly near Niagara Falls. The water is luminescent, and its flow is enrapturing. When I fly directly in front of the waterfall, there is a shadow that has more definition than it would in reality. It is not my body’s shape, but the longways silhouette of a helicopter. It tips to the left at about 45 degrees as I occupy myself with thoughts of diving into the refreshing water. I am not a helicopter in this scene (only my body’s shadow is), but a vehicle signifies the extension of imaginary physicality while in the dream state. A helicopter’s status in contrast to an airplane in a situation like this implies more cognizance in emergence.

The waterfall briefly becomes a curtain of turquoise and cyan silk ribbons, some swaying out as if with a breeze from within, as wall mediation initiates.

Looking to my right again, I see the helicopter silhouette has transformed into a hake (fish) silhouette of the same size and orientation, though briefly, ambiguity dictates that the shadow is both hake and helicopter. To oblige the illusion, I perform butterfly stroke swimming motions as I fly downward. Instead of entering the water, I become incorporeal and remain in abstract space for a time.

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A dream with similar sleep-wake mediation is “Helicopter Digger” from August 23, 1987. In that dream, a helicopter dives to the ground while a friend and I are fishing. Instead of crashing, it becomes a digging machine, the rotary blades churning the soil as if with a purpose as it enters the ground while tipped to the front at about 45 degrees. Typically, going underground indicates anticipation of returning to slow-wave sleep, whereas diving into water implies acknowledgment of REM sleep.

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Had some fun dream today.

Was lucid most of the time inside dreams last night. I did lose track of staying aware that I'm dreaming in the last dream though; I think it was the dream plot.

I did wbtb for 30 min. And just instead of wanting to be lucid or something, I just tried to focus on the dream goal more. I guess also I decided to let go of everything else when it's time to LD. To like forget about the daily troubles or whatever and just focus fully on LD after wbtb. I always woke up and thought about something unrelated. DJ helps, because you are thinking about dreaming right after you wake up or FA. But I guess the first thing you think about needs to be LD after you fall asleep and/or when you wake up. I suppose around 3 dream goals also helps to curb the unrelated thoughts in a way. Too many things at once might disperse your energy a bit too much though. Focusing on about 3 things? Maybe around 5 max.

I was very 'awake' so to speak in my dreams. I suppose not very awake during the beginning but I focused on my hands, and that helped to deepen the dream. And then focusing on the dream goal helped to keep my thoughts from wandering and becoming non-lucid.


Dreams:

I FA and decided to move to another bedroom since something was bothering me. I begin to hear sounds, sort of like ringing and it's familiar to me. When I heard it and focus on it I can usually get lucid or wild or AP or whatever you call it. Half the time I remember that it works, the other half, like today, I just have to keep doing random stuff and something eventually works.

I am in a wide porcelain hallway with sunshine brilliantly illuminating the whole place. I keep my hands in front of me to help stablize the dream as I explore the place. I remember my dream goal and thought whether I should teleport. But I thought I could probably just summon a DC to help me out. I just expected someone who can help me to be behind me? No one there, but to the left there was a blob of flesh with googly eyes and huge lips (no nose though I think). It had thin straw like legs and wore pair of shoes. I actually don't think it had arms. Just a pair of legs. Anyways I ask it about how to be lucid all the time or something. It told me to look for "omnicut."

I asked what is omnicut and he remained silent and wouldn't answer me questions. I just thought that I'll just find someone else to help me and another blob person decided to pop up behind him to the right. I asked this blob bob about omnicut and he said that he knew about it and can take me to it. I wanted to go. I awake but was determined to get back into the dream. I was back into the dream but was at a very narrow cliff. We were barely not falling off from the path that was about the half the width of a hand. Some time had passed from the previous scene and I was with blob bob and his friend, who was also not human - to find the omnicut.

Behind us was a beast with 6 legs. It was also a blob head with 6 spongebob legs growing from the bottom. It was much taller though, like 3-4 meters tall? It was chasing after us, trying to eat us.

The dream tells me that the blob bobs hunted this beast and extracted from it a substance called the omnicut to induce lucidity amongst themselves. Sort of a rite of passage for the blob bobs. They would thread this dangerous path and lure the gigantic monster down this narrow path until they fell into their demise. I awake though, once again determined to get back into the dream.

about 15-20 min had passed from the previous scene. They were celebrating by the cliff and blob bob handed 'it' to me. A obsidian black rectangular cube. Size of a large thumb. It felt like the lead of a pencil. Blob bob looks at me and tells me that "it will make you omni."

Didn't look like it would taste good. Tasted like charcoal, or like pencil lead I think. Dry kind of not food taste, very brittle. But it worked. I awake again.

I focus on my hands and keep on walking. I am now in a large wooden hall. Second floor, there's some small lunch table around and people are dressed in old fashioned clothes. Maybe timeline is like 200 years back or something. I walk passed them and they all begin to look at me. Their eyes were asking me what I wanted, as if trying to fulfill my wishes. I thought about it... What did I want to do in this dream? I thought that ESP was cool so I just said "ESP." They opened way to the back of sparse masses. And an old man with cowboy hat and a very nice moustache and a younger man approached me. The cowboy told me to follow him, and the younger man trailed behind him.

To the left was a somewhat non conspicuous door entrance. I enter inside it and there is a small bedroom, with a man lying on a bed. Like a hospital bed that Curves upward in the middle. It was an asian monk, he had hallow eyes with pitch black underneath his eyes. His stomach bloated while the rest of him being him. He was dying. He reached out with his right arm towards me and I grabbed his hand. I began to feel a slight tingle as if he was pushing some sort of energy inside me. It didn't feel very strong and as if sensing my thoughts, he began to surge much more energy inside me. Didn't feel painful, perhaps it should have, or would have for most people. It just felt more tingly and sort of numb from all the energy rushing in. His death was neigh and was transferring all his powers to me. Wake up.

Maybe this monk is the little monk in the little monk dreams.

I am inside a different bedroom. Still lucid and notice there are mountains of legos, dark blue legos piled up in heaps. They weren't really joined together, just pushed together in piles. I walked to the right and there were alot of fans there. It was nice as I felt the freeze from the fan cooling me, because I felt sort of hot. A window behind those fans. What do you call those, shutter doors? A window door leading outside. I went outside and climbed up the stone stairs that were worn and black from corrosion and use. Kept my hands in front of my view as I walked to maintain my consciousness.

I am inside a school, being directed to a class for special or gifted kids or something. I had some candy and gave to other little kids and the teacher there. There was a puzzle on each candy piece and we played with that.

FA into a DJ, trying to DJ but I didn't like my writing so crossed the words. The ink smeared the pages behind it. Realized that I wasn't awake.

I was once again heading outside. I saw the life of a blonde lady who was babysitting some kids. She talked about gender inequality about how men can't be babysitters. She commented about my DJ. Lost lucidity towards the end. May have regained it slightly when she mentioned DJ.

The memes continue! Now with my third best dream.

I’m at this futuristic choo choo station and this robot voice is all like WE WILL TAKE OVER—ER I MEAN THE NEXT TRAIN ARRIVES IN. My crush arrives hot and nice but for some stupid reason I choose my friend over her. That's right. I chose my friend. Whatever. Dream self is weird. And now I have to save this dumb penguin from being too hot even though I’m too cold. Okay that’s great. And now I can’t really fly either. Surely it couldn’t get any worse — AAAAAAA NOW YHE SUN IS IN MY EYES, and dammit I have to pee in real life. WHAT IS GOING ON IN THE SKY-- DAMMIT thunder almost struck me! At least no one's here to see me scared -- OH NO MY CRUSH IS HERE, and WHY AM I HEARING A VOICE THAT IS DECLARING MY PRESENCE!!!

Thank god it’s over. Worst. Dream. Ever.

I was visiting my most recent old job, leaving notes on people's desks and meeting with old friends I see someone is there from two jobs ago, the one who was in my hiring interview who later because my boss and almost a mentor. She and a couple other people and I exit the building and walk across the street, talking about someone's kid that needs to go to this private religious school.

Across the street is a beautiful church! It's many stories high with beautiful trees with flowers dangling in chains from the highest branches. Like a sanctuary. It was so beautiful it moved me to tears. My old boss walks through the door at the "reception" area and the person at the desk asks something about digital photography and my old boss gives some sort of snarky answer and a man there was not too pleased with that, but lets us enter anyway.

Not sure what happened once inside - cut to being outside. There is a median in the street outside and on it are tons of suitcases. I walk down to the end and now I'm in a gross downtown area. There are steel barrels with fires in them and it's like homeless city. I don't remember much else because this dream happened a couple months ago, just needed to finish up writing about it.

+ [vivid, long] I'm hiking on a steep hillside in a mountain range in South America (Venezuela?). I look along long dirt pathways heading in different directions, and imagine that some sort of grader/bulldozer had / will be making these paths. Up ahead I see the ridge line, and I think once I get up there I'll be able to see the sea on the other side. I get to the top and I do see the sea, but it's more of an inlet/bay, with the mountains extending around both sides with an opening to the real sea beyond, I wasn't expecting this view.

Now I'm down at the water's edge standing on what I determine to be a diving board extending out over the water. I'm standing on the edge looking down into the clear, blue water, admiring its clarity. I think how I'd really like to have a diving mask and go snorkeling, how it must be very beautiful. I'm trying to gauge the depth of the water and looking for obstructions to see if it's safe to dive. I'm decide I'll jump to be safe. A friend I'm with goes ahead and dives headfirst off the board into the water. I do a jump and gain some height and head into the water, as I'm descending towards the water I control my direction with hand movements and my will, I see there are shallow rocks which I want to avoid. There doesn't appear to be a completely deep/safe place as I enter the water, but I don't hit anything.

I climb out of the water in on a very small sandy opening among rocks. There are lots of sand creatures swarming around, like sand fleas/crabs. There are many of them and I'm brushing them off of me as I emerge from the water.

I'm on a hidden path to the right side (when facing the water) of the main diving board area. I think this is the "real" path. It can be used as a place for concealed shooting? Even though it's in the open, I think I can't be seen from the diving board area. (There is a flock of birds in the sky?)

+ Disembodied Observer, floating (1000 ft, fairly high) over landscape which transitions between dense city and rolling hills with roads cutting through. I'm mentally discussing the IT work situation in (Venezuela?) with some guy (not seen). He's saying there is lots of server-side work there, many companies.

+ (f) close-up view of the curb in a parking lot(?), there are fallen leaves there, I imagine cleaning them up?

+ Standing outside a McD's there's a (woman?) worker inside taking orders, I'm with somebody making an order and I think about adding an order for 4 large egg burritos. I imagine chewing on one and encountering a large chicken bone which fills my mouth, it is an unpleasant sensation.

+ I'm standing/floating over a road, on the right hand shoulder my son S2 is on my motorcycle (facing me) and he's trying to back it up to the shoulder and park it. It's going very slowly so I tell him to put it into reverse gear. He does this and then modulates the clutch and the gas and moves backwards in quick bursts, the process is going faster now, but I see he is very inefficiently using the gas and clutch. He starts rolling the bike forwards and it falls to its left side. "Great," I think, I'm frustrated that he dropped it.

+ In some hall filled with people (like a protestant church), with the benches sloping down towards the front, I'm walking towards the back of the hall up the aisle, there is seating to the left and right (it's divided into 3rds?). I find some spots on a bench to the left with enough room for my family. I'm standing over my kids and discussing how important it is to be a responsible person.

I only have faint memories of one dream from last night.

I have been worried about my sister lately due to some unfortunate RL stuff. But in my dream, my mom came to see me, along with my sister (don't know where my brother was, or if my dad was there).

There were two copies of my sister there -- one from the present, and one from the past. Both of them were acting differently, but they were both clearly my sister. The younger of the copies told me that she was from the past. She had time traveled to get to our present day.

Kind of freaky honestly.

I had fun with the last one so here’s my next best dream as a dank meme

So I’m fighting a ninja and it’s all like stabbystabbystabby and I’m like haha I’ll use my powers but this guys like nope the river has your powers now get stabbystabbystabbed so we just keep fighting and I keep getting stabbystabbystabbed and finally I land one hit but I end up in this stupid step class and I have to steppysteppystepstep and it’s stupid so I try to marry my crush but the classic song plays and some old guys like, you wanna get married and we both say YEET and we get all mushy and flower petals get in my face.