dream fragment

It was dark outside. I was flying low to the ground. Then my girlfriend appeared. I think she wasn't too impressed I could fly.

Randomly, not much recall today.

I was in some sort of weird surreal place made of many colors, and i was helping someone and then we were fighting with something while searching for an item of some kind.

I am at my grandmas house, mom and grandma are outside talking, my sister leans out from the living room window and tell them that there is someone behind them, we look and it's a young girl in a yellow and black uniform. Then we hear more people and look to the outside of the fence and there's a few more girls in uniform riding horses. Me my sister and grandma get into a van while my mom drives it, I can't sit in a seat properly for some reason so I'm sprawled on the floor with my lower half on the seat, and I have quarters that fall and roll around because my mom can't drive right. I suddenly notice that grandma is gone, I ask my mom where did she go, my mom says she was dropped off at the store to buy my sister stuff. I also then notice the van door on my side is wide open and my mom is driving pretty fast, I see her wallet is by me with her important cards and stuff, I think I hope none of her stuff fell out, but I grab her wallet and hand it to her.

DJ Log: March 17, 2013 – 9:30AM (USA Eastern)
• NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID •

I am at an military surplus store with a friend I haven't seen in a long time. We're at the register lane and are looking at all the things on the shelves near the front. There is an aisle end cap which has shirts and pants on it. As we slowly move along the line, we see another end cap which has some tactical vests on it. I pick out one which has some large pockets on it. My friend picks up a different one, saying that he wants it because it has a pocket large enough for a machete.

First time recalling fragments since my last lucid dream. I still have no idea what caused my dream recall to completely fail. Nevertheless, its seems to have come back.

So I had a couple fragments, but most of them don't really seem to mean much. They are really blurry, but I do remember them.

The Cat-Killing Demon.

So in my household, we have three cats. (In real life) Cash, an overweight cat with white and black fur. He is the oldest of our cats, I think he is seven or eight. Alana, who is about four years old has dark tabby markings. And Ti, who is less than a year old has a kind of dark spotted fur coat. All of these cats from my house were in this dream, as well as this new cat. (Specific to the dream, I've never seen this cat in real life.) I think it was a female with a sort of pale orange coat.
And the new orange cat had gotten its head cut off and we were looking at the scene. I wasn't really disturbed by it for some reason. This veterinarian came over and told me that there are sometimes these spirits that come into people's houses and kill people's cats by cutting off their heads.
He somehow reattached the orange cats' head and said that the cat would live anywhere from a few more hours to a few more months before it died.

Now one random note for this dream. The fact that I wasn't disturbed by this otherwise gruesome scene. I knew that this wasn't something right about it. Perhaps I was just a little bit lucid in this dream, enough to know that it wasn't real.

Fragment

I was playing the first world in the first pikmin game. The only thing different was that there was snow everywhere and all of the plants were dead.

Fragment

Something about me playing on a minecraft server. I was looking for a place to build, but people had placed signs everywhere saying that they had claimed land.

Fragment

Somebody was teaching me about some ancient tribe and relaying beautiful imagery of the tribe migrating through a mountain range that was covered in forests.

Fragment

Riding a huge cargo elevator down a circular concrete shaft.

I am thinking of arranging some goals for myself. I want to get into a more regular routine of lucid dreaming, make it more of a priority. I want to start lucid dreaming more often, perhaps once or twice a week, having a good lucid dream.
I will lay out some more specific goals in the days to come, but I know that I want to raise my skills.. I also want to do some more organized work with WILDs.

recall has been terrible the past few nights. thinking of taking up awareness-enhancing/LD-inducing techniques again but that's difficult when you're very busy irl

the dream began in the townhouse basement. it was dark. i don't recall what i was doing there. later i was trying to change the colour scheme on an ipod? then i was with my uncle in a version of my grandmother's living room. some other people were there but i forget who. he put on a blues song which i recognized as frog eyes - time reveals its plan at poisoned falls (i assumed that this version was a cover of the "original" blues song). i sang along to it. then it was very dark and i was sitting at a computer. i was trying to make a fake kickstarter for a tablet so that i could make money. i recall having significant difficulties with this.

then i am hanging off the side of a bed and trying to get a pin that has fallen underneath. B---- is watching me and making sarcastic comments. there are two lollipops under the bed, one wrapped and one unwrapped. i cannot reach the pin. i recall that i need the pin for sexual purposes (what in god's name are those purposes? i don't know.)

finally i am watching a woman dance in an empty room (concrete floor and walls; dirty; colour scheme is desaturated, dark teal). she is nude except for a pair of pink panties and i am not able to see her face. on her lower back (left sacral area) she has many deep wounds, which are (insufficiently) covered by flesh-coloured bandages in the shape of bows.

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there's not much to analyze here, but a few things i found worthy of comment:

i often have dreams wherein my subconscious is able to replay a musical piece entirely from memory and it is always flawlessly accurate... in real life my musical memory is nowhere near this prodigious (i tend to recall only lyrics and vague ideas of the vocal delivery). i really wonder what about the dreaming state allows me access to greater musical capabilities & how i can come to harness this ability in real life.

in most of my dreams that have sexual content the sex object is female... in waking life i consider myself heterosexual, i'm in a happy relationship with a man and i don't really find myself attracted to women. it's interesting, therefore, that it's mostly women who appear in my sexual dreams and i find myself wondering why. i have a vague idea that i find male sexuality more threatening than female sexuality and thus sexual situations involving women are simpler/"easier" to dream about, but really i'm not sure.

2004-2005

1. I have been sleeping in my bed. I am five years old. I have a strange dream that a faceless creature is living underneath my bed, banging on the bed frame to get out. This nightmare continues so drastically that I have trouble distinguishing dream from reality. I frequently check underneath my bed for the thing.

2. I have a nightmare that the thing breaks out and strangles me, and then marches through the city. I spray monster repellent at it. Not understanding that it is a dream, I check underneath my bed to assure that it wasn't there anymore. I expect to have a good night sleep, but I do not. The incubus gets me each night.

3. I dream I am touring the preschool I am going to. My mom chats with the teacher while I go to play with the blocks, but I see it crouching behind a chair, shrouded in darkness. The next day I go to my real preschool in fear.

Total sleep time: 9+ hrs

Dream recall technique: dr1 – woke up, noted key words only, went to bed and played the dream 3 times in mind; dr2-dr4 left it entirely to chance if I would recall anything after final wake

Other irrelevant info: was supposed to wake up on time but turned off the alarm, and as I lay in bed I fell asleep, woke up two hours later and had a shorter Saturday. Well, you can’t have it all…

Dream1: I am looking at a building and can see a female politician . I am in some kind of garden where there is sand instead of grass, and cactus-type looking plants. The politician is going somewhere and I hide behind part of the garden construction, observing her. She has a beautiful watch, silver with tiny diamonds. I am thinking about the watch so I zoom in, in my mind. It then becomes a strange looking ring. There is a large gray stone in the middle, and the metal part looks like a twisted wire, like an old handicraft object. I am thinking about how people have treasured rings and precious stones even in ancient times.

I walk to another section of the garden, where I see small insects, like bees or flies, but hey, they are walking bypedally and have colourful armour. Next to them are small toys similar to kinder surprise toys. They are also alive and move. There a 3-4 different types and 4 of each type one next to the other.

Around the garden there is a race track, where Formula 1 cars usually drive. I start throwing small pieces of paper on the track. I later realize that these pieces may interfere with the driving, but it is too late. The cars cannot drive any more, they malfunction and get broken. I begin to worry that the cost of the damages would be really high, these are F1 cars. People would know it is me who did it, because the pieces of paper all have my name written on them. I start to collect them from the track in a plastic bag that I bring with me, and which I leave nearby. My collecting the papers is in vain, because somebody already saw one or two of these and they know. I am looking at a monitor which has information about one of the drivers. All I recall from what I read is that the driver is racing for Renault. I then remember that I left the plastic bag with the papers near the track so I want to go back and take it. I use an elevator to do so. The elevator comes and I press the 4th floor but don’t get in. The doors close, and I think “Damn, now I have to wait again”, but suddenly I find myself in the elevator and am going up.

This turns into some kind of detective series, where I am the party who is at fault, I am also a man. There is a woman with me who is investigating what has happened, and a relative of whoever has suffered from my action. I have no idea what that means, but I have the desire to tell that relative that it is me who is responsible for this and so I tell her. She gets really mad and annoyed with me, and I have to flee to another room to escape her reaction.

At some point in the corridors of that place my grandpa appears. [I haven’t seen him for 15 yrs irl, divorced grandma a long time ago]. I am surprised that I see him, the image becomes quite vivid and on focus. [Maybe it’s a dream?] I just ask him how he is, and how his family is doing.

Dream2: I am going somewhere very far to throw away the garbage. I find myself in a basement like room where there are hats on the couch. I am trying to concentrate on throwing away things and I see in a box containing trash, how many things I have actually cleared out. I look at another box and recognize some books as mine that I don’t want to get rid of. Maybe I will just use the place as a storehouse then, I think to myself.

Initially, I leave the room and want to be on my way, but there is a bum in front of me, and his scary looking dog(DS), like a big hound. He is also out of his mind, he is talking to himself or people that are not there. I try to avoid him. Then I decide that I want to go back to the place, but he is in front of the entrance. The place is now at the corner of a building and there are two entrances. That does not make it easy for me to enter. This is a favourite place for bums who are everywhere and so are their dogs. The dogs try to enter the place and the bums are inside. I finally manage to get in. I notice lots of rucksacks on the floor. My own rucksack feels suddenly very heavy and I open it. Inside of it is another red rucksack. [Crazy, bit just a bit].
As I am leaving the place a bum woman DC starts talking to me and I pretend I am one of them.

I am going home, walking down the street. I pass some place where they sell food so I decide to buy some. The place is like Indian food, but is not Indian at all. Some kind of really exotic stuff I really can’t describe, like green looking pasta, and some stuff that is half-cooked. The DC that works there comes at me, he has dark skin but is not Indian I have no idea where he is from. I ask him what kind of meat that is and stare at one of the products he is selling. He says it’s buffalo.

Dream3: I am in a phone booth and I am looking at an advertisement of Heinz tomato soup. In the ad this guy tells the story of how this soup has changed his life or something of the kind. I look at the name of the guy, it is my friend’s name. [who really loves that soup by the way]. I find the ad very funny. I am in a room and am talking to the friend “So, you took part in the ad, huh?”. He confirms, and then complains that the room smells unpleasantly, and that he can’t sleep there. I am trying to find ways to bring some fresh air in.

Dream4 [Fragment]: I am on the level of the first floor and look down to see two DS casually lying on the ground. The guy has shoulder –length blonde hair and perhaps a leather jacket, and there is a girl lying next to him. They look like they enjoy living like hippies, all relaxed and stuff. Suddenly, my boot slips away from my foot and starts falling. I yell at them to watch out, but it hits the guy. I begin to apologize but he doesn’t seem to mind the boot falling on him at all. Then, wearing socks, I try to step on some kind of metal ladder to come down and get my boot back.

I napped. When I woke up my thought mas that lucidity is just around the corner. Was this my waking mind's insight or the subject of my dream? I do not recall.

Overslept a bit somehow, got up very quickly and still managed to recall some dreams, and one of them even had pretty memorable storyline, guess 'reversive' recall type that i have isn't really a bad thing after all.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was in Minecraft with my friend LV and had some mods installed apparently. We found out good cave to hide in quickly and were figuring out what to do, the floor of the cave was made of various ores for the most part, so we quickly got picks and started mining. There were not just ore blocks, but also a few ore crystals that dropped corresponding ore dust with each hit and could be hit like 10 times. Then night came and we had to fight loads of various mobs, i was using a bow but was really horrible at aiming it. I also recall that one of mobs was wraith from Mo's Creatures mod. A bit later we found an underground lake under the cave we were in, which had edible minisquids of some kind in it. We caught and eaten bunch of them to recover health.

Dream 2:

I was playing some game, which seemed to be based on some anime, a group of heroes(one of which looked quite similar to Ichigo from Bleach) were fighting through various locations and i was controlling one of them. We have reached endgame and there were only six elite enemies left, which were based on colors: two blue, two red and two green. They were also super powerful and each of them had special unique ability that was really overpowered, and it was activated by an special shout, but we managed to defeat them all, then there was final boss of some kind, but we defeated that too. I was finished with the game, but suddenly some hidden mode was unlocked.
In that mode i was controlling one of the enemies, and he basically had his own storyline, to be exact, i was controlling one of the red elites. His special ability was summoning bunch of red swords that targeted enemies around. During play the story revealed that the colored elites were in close relationship with each other and weren't really bad after all! In fact, they were fooled by someone else. Later on, he had to fight the blue elites and it was pretty hard fight, but i managed it. One of the blue elites, before dying, told the truth to the red about that the whole point of their existence Is an experiment. Red was depressed.
Then there was level that was happening near some kind of circus and there were bunch of circus based enemies, like clowns and such, there were alot of them at near the end of the level too, marching across the street, and they had some weird creatures with them, i managed to destroy them all. The next level started in a white marble area with pillars, which made me recall level from original storyline, and indeed, the second red elite was there. He was trying to explain something, but the red elite i was controlling said that it's false and that there's no way that it could be not. Then after some arguing they started the fight. It was obvious that this was the last fight in this alternate storyline, and also they were not able to use special ability of them. At the end of the fight. the other red asks the one i was controlling why he could not understand, but he explains that he knew everything all along, they both came through same path(i assume other red killed green elites), but the reason he was doing it for was that the special ability, when near death, becomes much more powerful, and that it becomes even more powerful when both of the same color use it, and that if they have to end like this, it would be better to end with a bang. The other red dropped a tear. The heroes were approaching the room, so both wounded red elites were going to execute the plan, they were going to kill each other with special ability at the same time. At this point i had to get right timing to enter name of the shout, but i forgot it, so it failed.
I restarted from the last checkpoint and reached same point again and paused the game. Then i went to the other PC and had to use broken headphones for some reason, i closed like ten YouTube windows that were there and started up the game to look up the shout. As i found it(It had two words, first one was 'Maroon' i think, the second one can't recall sadly, also other red had 'Maroon' for the first word of the shout as well) i went back to my PC. This time everything went properly, both special abilities were executed and heroes entered the area at the same time, the red i was controlling said 'Everyone will remember us' and an huge red blast happened and did some serious damage to the area, leaving the mark that will stay here forever. Heroes somehow managed to survive though, and were confused why red elites done this. Then dream faded out.

1. i had stolen four pieces of chocolate from somewhere. i was in a bedroom with blue walls (distorted version of real life). i set the chocolate down on the bed but it was soon covered with ants. i put two towels on the bed and some sort of leather tarp to prevent the ants from getting at it. then i was in an unfinished basement and my mother was arguing with another woman? i think i traded the chocolate for some kind of educational children's toy -- it was a transparent model of a head with an open top, you could stick your hand into the "brain" which was a bunch of tiny blue gears...

2. i am at school and i am given an opportunity to study different ecosystems. i choose to study one with a chinese name. i am given a large petri dish. it contains murky green water with small white particulates swirling around the centre in a floral pattern. however, goopy orange and white organic growths begin to appear in the petri dish and ruin the pattern. i try to remove the slimy growths but they keep forming. at one point my ex starts working on the same project beside me. he is doing even worse than i am. i am angry at him and i get second-hand embarrassment at his failure.

I had the worst night. I could not for the life of me get to sleep. And when I was able to sleep a little bit, it was a very light sleep and never more than an hour or so. I'm really tired. I just can't sleep! I did have some fragments though....

Dream Fragment 1: Kurt Hummel and I are excitedly walking down a huge spiral staircase. There are tons of people, so I grab his hand. He looks down at our joined hands and then at my face, smiling the whole time. We then start trying every handshake that we can think of and crack up laughing.

Dream Fragment 2: I'm holding a baby boy in my arms. He tells me that he has to go to the bathroom. I raise him higher on my hip and start walking hurriedly to the bathroom. He falls asleep in my arms.

I'm sitting on a couch, my wrist held out in front of me by Castiel. He is wrapping up an ugly wound. I watch him work and I'm glad to see the wound disappear underneath the white cloth. I smile, looking into his eyes. And I ask, "Why are you so sweet on me, Clarence?". He carefully finishes his work and looks at me, still holding my wrist in his hands. "I don't know...", he says quietly. A small, almost sad smile comes to his face. "I'm sorry.", he adds, and slowly he casts his eyes downward. I shift forward and closer to him, reaching out to lift his face in my hands. I smile and kiss his forehead. I close my eyes and say, "It's okay... you're my unicorn".


Dream Fragment: I'm in one of the high school outside hallways. Michael is stupid and I'm really pissed off. I launch myself at him, pushing him back towards one of the green beams. Super Mario music is playing. And when he hits the beam with his back, the Super Mario death music plays.

Not much today it seems.

I recall fight of some kind in outdoors place and there was some sort of puzzle indoors. I also recall something about experiments on dream recall or something.

very busy, haven't been able to sleep much - ruining my dream recall. some fragments tonight:

1. i was in a distorted version of downtown (bright colours, very sunny) with my boyfriend who now had massive dreadlocks cascading from the back of his head. i found that very unattractive but i decided that he is my boyfriend, so i should deal with it. we entered an empty furniture store. it was hexagonal with large windows on every side; the carpet and most of the chairs were green. we sat down on a couch. we wanted to kiss but we were afraid people would see us through the windows, so we just cuddled a little. suddenly the room started tilting from side to side. we heard the store owner coming in and we ran away -- but he was actually glad that we visited his store and he gave us smoothies.

2. i am with friends (the only one i recognize from real life is M-----) in a huge department store. we are wandering around and i was stealing things. i recall spotting a stick of men's deodorant that was selling for 80 dollars, so i decided to go to the women's department and steal a similar product. i never found the womens department but i stole some books.

then it is night and we are downtown. we want to go to a bar (i don't drink irl) but the only way to enter is through a third-story window. my mother is wearing a red shirt and lying motionless on the sidewalk a few yards away; her body seems shrunken. we pay little attention to this. i try climbing up the building's many roofs (roof-awnings? what's the architectural term for those) - dead ivy vines cover the building - but i can't make it to the top floor. at one point my mom gets up -- she's acting normally, wants to join us.

3. i am at a public indoor pool with a lot of other people. there is a young girl in a wheelchair there and a fat middle-aged woman is saying rude things about her. i tell the woman off and people applaud me.

4. i am reading a website about a spa. the company is from quebec and much of the website is written in french. i don't recall what the text said now but i remember that upon waking i remarked at the fact that it was sensical and grammatically correct -- strange because text in my dreams usually makes little sense in terms of content or syntax -- especially strange because french is my second language!

one part mentions that they have special tools for relaxation or something to that effect. the text is a link, so i click on it. it brings me to a page that displays various styles of bongs (they're all blue and silver and quite elegantly designed). there are also prices for "asian massages" for women and men. the prices are all in the 1-2k range. so i come to the realization that this is a brothel where you can smoke weed.

i decide to visit.

the spa is an outdoor pool. it is very sunny and bright outside. the geometry in this scene is odd - i think i'm floating above the water or something. a girl arrives, but no sex acts transpire, at least that i can remember. i wake up.

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quick analysis:
i've had many similar dreams about department stores. my dream-stores are always massive, labyrinthian, with blank white walls and floors and an eclectic assortment of items.

the image of my mother lying on the ground probably comes from the time i saw a hipster girl lying face-down on the sidewalk in toronto (with her ukulele of course). she wasn't drunk or sick or anything, i think she was trying to be artistic or protest something, but it was just silly. the police made her get up. there's also another dimension to this image i think - my mother was an alcoholic while i was growing up and to this day i have a strong aversion to being around any drunk people... especially her.

almost all the dreams i've catalogued so far have had something to do with sex. generally, dreams with sexual themes are very rare for me. i haven't had any changes in my real life that could trigger this... maybe my subconscious is just trying to embarrass me.