dream fragment

Practices: ADA, Mindfulness, WBTB, DEILD
While falling asleep, mantra: "I am aware"

Dream #1 - I am with my friend, R__. She's driving a car - one belonging to one of my relatives, according to my dream-memory, but in real life none of them own a gray minivan. We're driving around a mall parking lot. We can't seem to find a parking space. She accidentally hits another car while pulling into a parking space, and I cringe at the sound, but she's more angry about it than worried. She decides to try to use a note left on her windshield to explain why she parked in one of the restricted parking spots, by claiming she can't walk that far, but I don't think that will hold up under scrutiny. She finally gives up and parks pretty far away from the mall entrance. We can see it from where we are, but it's quite a walk.

I briefly wake up from the dream and try to carry my awareness with me into my next dream, using my mantra.

As soon as the dream reforms, I am instantly lucid. I'm inside of the mall from the previous dream, but R__ is gone now. The lucid dream has the crystal clarity characteristic of my lucid. Since I'm not outdoors (unusual), rather than the usual sweeping landscapes and storm-swept skies, instead the architecture inside of the mall is extremely grand. Super high vaulted ceilings, probably 80-100 feet high, with graceful arches carved out of solid pale pink marble and golden inlays. Intricate carvings and sculptures. White marble floors. The whole thing looks more like the inside of a cathedral than a mall.

I look around and think, "This is definitely a dream". I inspect my hand - it's perfectly formed. I do a reality check by trying to push one hand through the other, but I can't. I shrug it off - I know I'm dreaming. I try to fly, and hover in the air above the crowds milling around the mall. My lucidity tends to fade very quickly while I'm flying, though - there's something about not having my feet on the ground that does that. So I land, and then crawl on the floor and inspect the marble tiles. There's grime between them and they feel a little gritty - this place needs to be swept and mopped.

I decide to go treasure hunting. I reach into my back pocket - for some reason, I'm wearing a skirt with pockets - and feel around for a map. I feel crumpled paper and tug. I pull out a sheet of notebook paper, folded in half several times, and unfold it. There is a map on it, scribbled in blue pen, but I can't read what it says. It also has little pictures. I decide that I need to go find a dream character who CAN read it, and if I'm going to treasure hunt, I'm going to do it in style - which means having a whole group of treasure hunters with me. I run my hand along the wall as I walk.

I walk toward the food court - well, an archway I have decided is the food court. The floor slopes downward between it in a ramp, heading underground. I can see tables in the distance. I decide that's kind of boring and want it to be something more exciting. As I approach, it morphs into a Viking style beer hall. I'm pretty satisfied - this is definitely more fun.

I enter the beer hall, which is smokey and full of warriors eating and drinking. There is an empty space in the middle with a fire-pit that looks like it's used by entertainers - wrestlers, musicians, etc. The benches on either side are elevated on steps, sort of like bleachers, so everybody can see. Nobody is performing right now, though.

I see a group of 5 or 6 Tolkein-style Dwarves over to one side. They look like they're having a pretty good time. I approach them and introduce myself. Their leader is a pretty buff looking Dwarf. He has long, thick braided brown hair and is wearing a sort of heavy brown leather harness that has what looks like a lion's mane stitched around the neck and shoulders. He greets me respectfully:
"I am Lokmin, son of (I can't remember his dad's name)." He thumps his chest (which is more Roman, I guess, but whatever).
I hold out my treasure map. "I've found a map to potential treasure, but it might be dangerous."
The Dwarves deliberate over my wrinkled sheet of notebook paper, making sounds of interest and approval. Lokmin looks like he's about to make the decision to follow me...

But unfortunately, we never got to find the treasure. I live near an airport - one of the EXTREMELY LOUD jets that I LOATHE flies overhead, waking me up and ending my lucid dream. I was pretty upset. Even now there's another really loud jet flying overhead. I hate those things, and the airport by extension (it wasn't always noisy here - they moved the flight paths).

I go back to sleep, trying to re-enter the dream, but I'm too irritated to focus.


Dream #3 - I dream that I am taking naked photographs of myself using my laptop camera and didn't realize the curtain across the sliding glass door in the living room was sheer. I figure either nobody saw me, or they didn't care.

Got to sleep later than usual due to some credit card stuff and thus had to use an alarm.

I recall being in cave system of some sort and later there was minigame where i had to control small sphere that moved around area and collected chess pieces, also there were pink chess pieces that automatically collected all other chess pieces on in the view when collected.
Then i had some kind of discussion with LV and there was video of an AI playing through ESP Ra.De.(a shmup game) , the AI's name was 'Queen ESP Ra.De.'.

BG INFO: I was calling the meteorite 'meteor' in my dream, which is incorrect.
Dream Start-
I started off in a school bus, where there appeared to be about five or seven other kids in it. I then saw that the bus had stopped (It was never moving, I think), and I got up and walked towards the front of the bus (Instability). When I reached the front, I looked out the doors, that were opened, and saw two, maybe three people (adults) standing there. The ones I could definitely see were female,but the other one might have been a male. The second women looked as if she was holding an object (Which was invisible, at least, to me) with two hands that looked (and she held it like) a football. She told me something (I don't remember what) and I seemed to react to it by saying, "Give me the meteor", which she then replied, "-I will,... wait." I repeated the sentence to her and she said, "I will, later, though," I nodded and the other women pointed the second bus (I was out of the first somehow) and said, "Look at... he's <fooling around?>", which made the blonde, skinny boy laugh and sit back in his seat, properly. I then started to wake up, still repeating the sentence, "Give me the meteor."
Dream End.
*Instability - When the dreamer (I) "lags" while moving or looking at something. (For example; If I were dreaming of watching someone, and the "screen" or vision "borders" expand or contract, that's instability. Or if I dream I am walking and I constantly "teleport", that's instability, at least I that's what I call it.
I still had that sentence in my head when I woke up, what was that about?

i was at my grandmother's house & my dad told me that the "liberty tank" had arrived in our yard. i went to look at it: it was a tank with red and blue stripes on the side, and the part where you sit was made of glass. there was a crash test dummy inside and at first i thought it was a real person: it was a young boy with striking blue eyes, slumped over as if dead. i remember thinking he looked russian. my dad removed it and assured me that it wasn't real. we climbed into the tank (the interior was just like the interior of a car) and began driving around. i noticed many people clothed in military uniform and i mentioned that i'd like one of those outfits. my father was driving recklessly and i remarked that he was going 80kmh in the middle of downtown; he disregarded this. we got out of the tank and entered an orange silk tent where there were many foreign people clothed in furs. i remember nothing else.

This fragment is very fragmented in part because I think it maybe from an earlier sleep cycle, anyway not from just before waking up:

...
Someone asks me: Why did you stop doing that?
Me: Because the emotions got too strong.
....

And that's it. It's kind of embarrassing that right after a long vivid dream yesterday, this is all I have today. Well actually not quite all, I also have the sense that I may have not quite been myself (distancing myself from the strong emotion and dealing with it?). Also out of some reason when I think of this dream I get the mental image of a very floppy hat, not on someone's head but just lying there (I wonder whether the hat is a metaphor for something in this dream?)

What could this dream be about? My stress level has certainly been through the roof lately, and even before that I have had terrible mood swings for months.

The question could be for why I stopped calling my father. I had mentioned that in a DV thread, and the answer is certainly appropriate for that question. Also the distancing myself from myself as a defense mechanism just in case would make sense.

I just now remember though that the question in the dream may have been job related. it could be: why did you stop loving your job? Why did you stop having faith that your boss will make it all ok? Certainly the answer would apply there as well. Our job has been too emotional lately, meetings which are ultimately motivated by fear/greed/unfulfilled ambitions/etc. And these meetings and their consequences have caused my stress to go through the roof.

Out of some weird reason I had the thought that "Why did you stop doing that?" Could be about introspection self-evaluation. This maes no sense, since I never stopped doing that. However, what if this is about my dream recall. What if my dream recall is not good nowadays and I stopped doing as regular dream journals, because I am self-distancing from the emotions that are too strong in my dreams? We know that dreams tend to have stronger emotions than waking life. I know that I have had some emotionally draining dreams. What if I am forgetting my dreams now as a defense mechanism to protect myself?

Some fragments from non-lucid naps, looks like i got little bit unlucky with recall today, but as usual it should get better.

Nap #1:

I was trying to do WILD but family was interrupting me.

Nap #2:

I was attempting to do something, but there was a rule that it should not be done more than 7 times at same time. Also i recall some centaur-like character with four arms.

Last night's dreams weren't very remarkable. I have a cold or some sort of sinus infection, and kept waking up with a fever.

I dreamed that my back molar was completely rotten, and every time I closed my mouth, it shoved the tooth out of place. The tooth was extremely loose - I was able to pull it up and see a pool of brown gunk beneath it. It didn't hurt, but it felt extremely uncomfortable and weird.

I really don't remember much else, beyond a vague dream involving the characters of Avatar: The Last Airbender - a show I haven't watched in year. My brother and a friend were discussing it earlier in the evening, though, and I think that may have influenced my dream.

I had ok recall, but stayed in the bed for too long without realizing it

I recall some sort of FPS game with kinda mazey levels.

So, I'm really excited right now, let me lay it out for you, before I do though, I must warn you, it's nothing special.

On Friday, after a couple of nights with little or no sleep, I decided to take some Valium, my partner gets them as a prescription, so I 'nicked' a few of hers - don't tell her - and off to bed I went. I slept like a baby, as you can imagine and I dreamt of an old friend named Clint Diaso , I woke up and attempted to DEILD, but as I lay there I became more and more clear headed and so I got up to try my hand at WBTB. Neither worked.

Now, this is where it gets interesting, I don't know if it was the remnants of the sleeping tablets and I can't for the life of me remember what the dream was about, but what I do remember is at one point, the scene changed, right in front of my very eyes. I didn't need to do a reality check due to the fact that as soon as it happened, I asked myself if this was normal or was it a dream, then BOOM, I became lucid - I think - everything turned super, mega, hyper HD and I remembered the hand rubbing technique, unfortunately I then woke up rubbing my hands together.

Now as you can imagine, this excites me no end, I thought the lucid dream was something that would elude me forever, I'm older than I imagine most on here - maybe not, but the profiles I've read all belong to youngsters - and I always wondered if it's possible to teach an old dog new tricks, if you get my meaning.

So I'm reaching out to you folks for any encouragement and/or advice. Is this something that is normal, has it happened to anyone else, can I count that as a lucid dream, do you think it may have been a result of the valium in my system - no I'm not going to steal all her tablets, lol, she'd kill me - and is it usual to wake up still trying to stabilise your dreams. Any advice and pointers will be greatly received and I thank you all in advance.

Nicho...!

Dream recall from today's non-lucid naps.

Note: I was trying to DEILD in a few places through the naps where i woke up, but it was unsuccessful, though it was continuation of the dream, in those cases i am counting it as same dream.
Nap #1(fragments):

I was at home and there was bad weather and i was feeling somewhat sick due to it for some reason. I with a few family members were testing some computer fans and changing some hardware. There was toilet in my room, and it should have not been used, but i used it. Then we were building some kind of supercomputer from various hardware and arguing about that hardware. Then dark clouds came and there was very heavy wind, everyone but me was happy.

Nap #2:

I was at home, family members were still testing fans and there was big hole in the wall leading outside and there were a couple of rather unstable fans in it, they radiated some kind of waves that were annoying me and disrupting my WILD attempts, i went to the kitchen and i saw rather large dragonfly but haven't paid any attention to that.
I went back to my room and started watching some let's play of Syphon filter video game, there was weird level in buildings and at the start of it there were bunch of weapon boxes with gun named 'IC1000' that looked like mini SMG and let's player said that it's pretty weak, also there was a couple of boxes with HK5. Then level was being set in some big multifloor building and there were enemy agents, it looked very hard.
Later dream switched to some movie like story about some female character that was at first with some rich dude that was getting more than 1mil$ per day but then she went to another dude who was working in some kind of organization like police.
Then dream switched back, i went to the kitchen and was surprised to see pretty big green dragonfly, it was somewhat more in size than my palm, there were also two blue ones and they were smaller. I was catching them and trying to figure out where they came from.
Later there i was getting to do some hardware upgrades and figured out that internet port got broken, so i had to move hardware to the different computer... which looked like dark-red metallic spherical thing floating in the middle of the room with smaller spheres floating around it. I got some of it done and then dream ended.

It was dark outside. I was flying low to the ground. Then my girlfriend appeared. I think she wasn't too impressed I could fly.

Randomly, not much recall today.

I was in some sort of weird surreal place made of many colors, and i was helping someone and then we were fighting with something while searching for an item of some kind.

I am at my grandmas house, mom and grandma are outside talking, my sister leans out from the living room window and tell them that there is someone behind them, we look and it's a young girl in a yellow and black uniform. Then we hear more people and look to the outside of the fence and there's a few more girls in uniform riding horses. Me my sister and grandma get into a van while my mom drives it, I can't sit in a seat properly for some reason so I'm sprawled on the floor with my lower half on the seat, and I have quarters that fall and roll around because my mom can't drive right. I suddenly notice that grandma is gone, I ask my mom where did she go, my mom says she was dropped off at the store to buy my sister stuff. I also then notice the van door on my side is wide open and my mom is driving pretty fast, I see her wallet is by me with her important cards and stuff, I think I hope none of her stuff fell out, but I grab her wallet and hand it to her.

DJ Log: March 17, 2013 – 9:30AM (USA Eastern)
• NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID •

I am at an military surplus store with a friend I haven't seen in a long time. We're at the register lane and are looking at all the things on the shelves near the front. There is an aisle end cap which has shirts and pants on it. As we slowly move along the line, we see another end cap which has some tactical vests on it. I pick out one which has some large pockets on it. My friend picks up a different one, saying that he wants it because it has a pocket large enough for a machete.

First time recalling fragments since my last lucid dream. I still have no idea what caused my dream recall to completely fail. Nevertheless, its seems to have come back.

So I had a couple fragments, but most of them don't really seem to mean much. They are really blurry, but I do remember them.

The Cat-Killing Demon.

So in my household, we have three cats. (In real life) Cash, an overweight cat with white and black fur. He is the oldest of our cats, I think he is seven or eight. Alana, who is about four years old has dark tabby markings. And Ti, who is less than a year old has a kind of dark spotted fur coat. All of these cats from my house were in this dream, as well as this new cat. (Specific to the dream, I've never seen this cat in real life.) I think it was a female with a sort of pale orange coat.
And the new orange cat had gotten its head cut off and we were looking at the scene. I wasn't really disturbed by it for some reason. This veterinarian came over and told me that there are sometimes these spirits that come into people's houses and kill people's cats by cutting off their heads.
He somehow reattached the orange cats' head and said that the cat would live anywhere from a few more hours to a few more months before it died.

Now one random note for this dream. The fact that I wasn't disturbed by this otherwise gruesome scene. I knew that this wasn't something right about it. Perhaps I was just a little bit lucid in this dream, enough to know that it wasn't real.

Fragment

I was playing the first world in the first pikmin game. The only thing different was that there was snow everywhere and all of the plants were dead.

Fragment

Something about me playing on a minecraft server. I was looking for a place to build, but people had placed signs everywhere saying that they had claimed land.

Fragment

Somebody was teaching me about some ancient tribe and relaying beautiful imagery of the tribe migrating through a mountain range that was covered in forests.

Fragment

Riding a huge cargo elevator down a circular concrete shaft.

I am thinking of arranging some goals for myself. I want to get into a more regular routine of lucid dreaming, make it more of a priority. I want to start lucid dreaming more often, perhaps once or twice a week, having a good lucid dream.
I will lay out some more specific goals in the days to come, but I know that I want to raise my skills.. I also want to do some more organized work with WILDs.