dream fragment

Dream fragment 1:I'm sitting on the floor next to my uncle, we are both wearing shorts, he shows me his thigh and armpit hair trying to make me jealous, it's all thick and in dreadlocks 12 inches out and dark brown. I look down at my legs and armpit and laugh and tell him "whatever dude", because I didn't want dreads coming off my legs and out my armpit.

Dream fragment 2:I'm just hanging out with my friends in front of my house, and suddenly I know I'm pregnant, I just know it some how, but I freak out because that's impossible, I didn't have sex with a man so wtf. I call my mom on my cellphone and tell, I tell her I would never get an abortion, but I also don't want it so I tell her either my sister has to take it or my mom take it and my mom says no problem, she'll take it. So I am now in the house staring out the window, I'm not aloud out for some reason I guess because I'm pregnant and I'm bummed. Then my grandma comes over and my mom just changes everything we agreed on, she tells my grandma that I have to keep the baby and raise it and I get angry because I don't want it. And I just felt left out from everything and I didn't ask for it

Woke up with a strong feeling of confusion for some reason...

I recall some kind of building, something about some secret agency and something about recording videos.

Dream recall from non-lucid naps from yesterday and today.

Yesterday's nap(fragment):

I was on my PC and desktop was all messed up and wallpaper was different, i rearranged it back to normal. Then i was checking dreamviews and i was randomly promoted to the dream guide rank( ), the forums suddenly became bronze colored and there was weird thread in news section that stated 'We are on fire'. There was also a star with sickle and hammer in the upper right corner. I went back to bed and decided to go for another nap.

Today's nap(fragments):

I was playing some Warzone 2100 map that looked like first transport mission of campaign, but instead i was controlling the scavenger faction, there were lots of new units that were not original, but part of them, such as some vans, trucks and tractors were from some mods, but other part was completely new, like some mechas made from broken parts and garbage.
Then there was this weird game, which in main mode was basically touhou but horizontally oriented, and cancelling bullets with boss explosion was one of the scoring methods, but i was failing at it. Extra mode of it was actually a fighter game where characters been changing form between Captain Falcon, Sonic and Mickey Mouse by using certain combinations of moves. Apparently there was also superextra mode which was like extra but instead of versus fight everyone was teaming up versus boss, which looked like Sonic in Iron Man suit that was also turning gold, and was really overpowered.
Later at home there were lots of pillows, forming literally walls. I almost fell over one of them.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some world that was split into sectors with limited movement between them, and i was exploring them. Transportation between sectors was happening from sector map terminals.
Can't recall much other than that there was sector at one point with video games. There was one arcade game which was about collecting some birds of different colors, last level of it was happening in some cave with big waterfalls and there was ending cutscene that looked like it was made random cut parts of pokemon anime.
There was also some kind of zombie game, i recall it was happening in some building and also there was some girl being chased.
Also there was multiplayer game about tanks which happened to have team fortress 2 characters driving them. I was controlling some artillery tank and then i was controlling tank with flamethrower and killing everyone and then spamming 'taunt', but during one of them i was ambushed by one internet person i know and dislike which was controlling some kind of chemical tank that sprayed some green acid or something. My tank exploded and i accidentally pressed quit button instead of respawn.
Can't recall much after that, i recall that i was talking with someone in forest or park sector then there was something about 'GAX-recording system', whatever it is, it was not used much.

Dream 2:

I was watching some video of Doom mod made by author of said mod, it basically added alternative versions of enemies that replace normal ones randomly when conditions are met, mostly making enemies stronger whenever player gets stronger, in particular i recall winged versions of most of enemies and some spire thing that replaced some cacos. Also author was showing the quick ways to secrets on new levels, but he failed to get one of hardest ones properly. Then i was playing that mod and it was pretty hard, at some point later i got into discussion with my friend LV about sonic games and about how new ones are worse than older ones.
After that i was looking through my YouTube account and decided to make twitter account for some reason, twitter looked entirely different than in waking life and it had cooler design. After i made account i suddenly got bunch of people subscribed to me already(I guess this version worked like YouTube) and i was sending random messages in response to theirs. I added bunch of stuff from YouTube and got lots of levelup points from doing that, which raised my stats to very high values, like around 8k, 10k and 6k if i recall correctly(This version of twitter apparently had some RPG element to it). I got access to some philosophical themed background and then got into argument with dad that philosophy and religion is not the same thing. Then i woke up with the sound of thunderclap(which was HH).

I remembered four dreams this morning, albeit all of them were relatively short in my memory. But still! I'm making good progress.
There were zombies! AAAAHHHHH... Yeah that's all I remembered about this one. Kind of pathetic.

I was at lunch with my girlfriend and a couple of other friends. A kid that I dislike IRL, James, came to our table and started talking to me, to which I was getting annoyed by. My girlfriend glanced at me. "Maybe you should just tell him," she said. And tell him I did. Basically I went off into a three minute tangent consisting of me telling off James. And it was VERY satisfying. I do remember later on in the dream a person I know named Alex agreed with me about his overall jerk-ness.

I was at my girlfriend's house, but for some reason, it was a mansion. It was only her mom there, and she told me to take a look at the place. I walked upstairs to see a giant poster of Bryan Cranston, the actor. "Woah! I want something like this!" I yelled.

I was studying to become a doctor with my friend, Aaron. We were both at my high school learning about it. At one point, I had to take down a bunch of villains from the show Breaking Bad by shooting them with a pistol. Eventually Aaron and I went to a classroom and started to learn about things that had nothing to do with being a doctor.

In my dream I dreamed of interpreting dreams and percentage correct. I had the sense that this was part of a longer dream, but it was gone.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was playing some kind of MMO with a friend, we controlled some characters from top down. I was annoyed by p2w(pay to win) system and then friend bought everything for both of us.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was in some game in 2D, that looked like Terraria. Screen was very limited and i and some people were fighting some enemies. Then screen expanded and some tree was misplaced on the level, ending up being in the air, which caused error that started spawning infinite wooden debris. View switched to 3D and now i was in the park. The infinite debris spawning error was in the sky and it produced bigger and bigger wooden debris which were falling through the ground. I noticed that sky is more like skybox in video games and decided to meddle with it a bit. I ended up creating some kind of... dark matter objects, hard to describe but they were basically geometric objects made of dark matter strings and they also were connected to the 'walls' of skybox, they were randomly moving and connection was 'dynamic' in a way that base of strings that was on the wall was moving with those. I was satisfied and then some artist with long hair showed up, he asked if he could add to it and i was fine with it. He added more detail to the constructions and now they looked even better. After that we were boasting about our art to random people that were around the place.

Despite my increased motivation to LD, the recent two weeks have not delivered to my perhaps unrealistic expectations, so I decided it’s time to analyze what has been happening.

Negatives:
- Sleep schedule disruptions: unfortunately guest stay-over during the weekends (on bf’s initiative) means having exhilarating conversations up to 2 am, then listening to bed preparations, and I fall asleep at 4-5 am. Obviously, this makes it harder to wake up early, and go to bed early, and this is spiralling into the week.
- Increased sugar intake: I have been very tired last couple of days, mostly like because of the above reasons, but I’m thinking that eating some ultra sweet desserts before bed in the last few evenings has contributed to this. Don’t usually consume that much sugar and this dehydrates and exhausts me.
- Reduced physical activity: have not touched dumbbells/jogging, etc., really don’t feel like moving at all! I probably should go back to exercising, this does help my sleep and improves my mood. Just do it!

Positives:
-RCs: after registering at DV, I have been doing a nice amount of RCs, including starting the day with a RC
-DJ: I keep the tablet near my bed, so it’s pretty fast & easy to jot down any dreams
-Sleep recall: I have been writing down dreams every day, even if it’s just fragments, and that helps me remember more
-Just let it be: I try to have a positive attitude, perhaps my body is tired and needs more sleep, so I just let myself recharge, confident that things will eventually align
-Dream Yoga: as mentioned before I was conducting the experiment, having to fall asleep, while concentrating on a white letter ”a” on the area below navel for seven days in a row. That helps me fall asleep faster, plus usually helps with LDs, so I think I will try to incorporate it into my every night routine.

19 March Dream Fragments

As mentioned, was really exhausted last few days, so I slept like a log, didn’t even wake up to go to toilet.  After waking up still tired as hell, I couldn’t remember anything. I was beginning to get rather pissed off, but did a RC anyways. I also repeated my DS – there are lots them. If not anything else, I catch the feeling that I dreamt 3 DS, I sit on the sofa and try to concentrate (got interrupted by a phone call and conversation in the process).

Dream1 [Fragment]: I am at my grandma’s apartment(DS). She is also there and plans on going to the city center with the tram. I tell her that she will be really uncomfortable in the tram, taking into consideration the way she is dressed. She wears a green sweater, similar to one I had but never wore in the past, and she has a semi-transparent red-orange blouse from a lighter material over the sweater, so basically these are reverse and I tell her that she needs to change, so that she is more flexible in the public transportation. [there was more I can’t remember]

Dream2: I am in my first school (DS) and a schoolmate (DS) from there tells me he wants to find our teacher from second grade. We go into one of the classrooms (I am always amazed IRL at how accurately I remember my schools in dreams!), looking for our teacher. She is behind the teacher desk, her hair has greyed, she behaves like a puppet. I tell her that my schoolmate was looking for her and wants to send his regards to her. While I am saying this, she behaves like a robot, doesn’t even look at me, but continues writing down on some document, which she signs, and perhaps tries to pass to me. We leave the room and I continue in the corridor, towards the school gym. In the corridor are two girls from my high school (DS). They are happy to see each other, talking to each other. I remember during the dream that they are good friends. I continue towards the gym and see some more girls from high school. A narrator’s voice is telling me something about the two girls, how the mood of the one was actually influencing the behaviour of the other all the time, or something like this.

Dream 3 [DS recall only] – I am sure that I dreamt the guy from high school, that I called main DC in the previous DJ post…

I went to work as usual and instead of working I decided to turn the lights off and go to sleep in the evs breakroom in my dream. I woke up in my dream in some kind of bedroom on the other side of the room. I was in a bed then and a white and ashy colored kitten jumped on the bed with me. I pet it for a little while and it got up and ran off I remember naming the kitten polar. (Hmm, maybe this if my dream sign??)

seems to have been a full-fledged dream but i can't recall all of it. at the beginning of the dream i was watching a video. the video focused on a brown-haired teenage boy. he was quite thin, very pale and had reddish areas on his skin that resembled abrasions. i understood that he was very ill and close to death, although he was acting normally. he was lying on a bed under rainbow sheets in a blue-walled room. the lights were off but a window let rays of white light through. his shirt was off and i understood that this was a pornographic video, although i don't recall ever seeing anything that would indicate that. there is a strange atmosphere about this scene.

at some point the viewpoint switches: i am no longer watching the video but inside of it. the boy lives in a large house (warm hues, oranges and reds) with many other people - i recall a young blonde-haired woman. there was some controversy over the fact that the boy had been in a porn video. some people hinted that he had other videos in which he performed very perverse sex acts.

edit: i have another memory, but i'm not sure whether it's a dream or not! i was walking from my bedroom to the bathroom and i was bumping into everything. very clumsy. the setting was indistinguishable from real life but the extent of my clumsiness makes me think it may have been a dream... also the fact that i didn't see any bruises on myself on the morning... but i took benzos on an empty stomach before bed, so who knows.

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rather odd dream, made me a bit uncomfortable when i woke up. a quick analysis - the theme of this dream seems to have been derived from a) a uh, porn video that i watched recently that involved a man who resembled the one in the dream and b) a documentary about a hospital for disabled vietnamese orphans. i am not sure why my subconscious decided to combine them, but there you are.

the "strange atmosphere" i talk about was an odd sort of calmness... i would define it as acceptance of, and contentment with, one's impending death.

i dreamt that i was in the bathroom at my old townhouse. i was sitting on the toilet drawing on my laptop while pouring a bath. suddenly i heard a loud beeping sound. i wasn't sure whether it was coming from outside or whether it was in my head. i plugged my ears to check. i could still hear it with my ears plugged. i became afraid that i was going crazy.

then i woke up... it was my alarm.

Hmm, I could have swarn I wrote a dream down at night. memory fooling me! Either it told me "you already wrote that don, so don't bother" which is something my mind has done to me before! or wouldn't it be amusing if I had dreamed of writing in the dream journal, and assume I did.

I remember some combination of previous dreams: the number 3, the name fluffy, and perhaps a few others, and to my sleeping fuzzy brain they all made some sort of weird sense about dreams of course.

Dream recall from today's nap, including very confusing false awakening and failed DEILD attempt(but i was close i think).

Nap #1:
Dream 1(fragment):

I was visiting some kind of sky lands.
Then i woke up with eyes closed and decided to try to DEILD.
There was hypnagogic imagery(i think) of my room as it was daytime, and some objects were missing, i tried to 'grab' into it but it disappeared, then different version of it appeared instead and disappeared shortly as well.

Dream 2:
Then i suddenly lost awareness and fallen into non-lucid dream without noticing it, i was in some hill/forest area searching for something and then talking to some bald kid. Then there was cutscene in cave with asian dude in black clothes, he had two curved yellow energy blades and he was preparing for something. I was back at hill/forest area and i heard battle sounds coming from direction, i quickly went there and there was some kind of japanese temple with red roofs. The fight was going on between some dude who was in full metallic suit and group of people who were protecting temple. The metallic suit was black and somewhat resembled some kind of humanoid lizard, also he had two yellow energy wings. He quickly defeated opposing group and then started flying away. The bald kid that was with me quickly reacted and threw dagger into that dude. He managed to hit him exactly into base of the left wing, it transformed into yellow energy blade so it was obviously dude from cutscene earlier, but he was still able to fly after that, and he quickly flied out of my field of view. I ran to pick up the blade.
But then i woke up back at my room, items in the room were misplaced, there was weird anime doll on the ceiling and on monitor of my PC YouTube was playing last part of the let's play that i was watching before, i have absolutely no clue how, but that somehow convinced my dream self that i was sleepwalking(which i don't do IWL for sure) and thus i forgot to do reality check, i got up still looking around, i closed eyes and that automatically moved me into 'classic hands forward' sleepwalking position against my will, then i opened them and everything was fine. And then i was thinking 'Wait a second, why there's this weird doll on the ceiling', and then i woke up.

#1 - Don't recall the dream much, but recall thinking, "If I were lucid, this would be more vivid." d'oh! That's close, though... my near-lucids usually indicate I'll have a dream-induced lucid dream within the next night.

#2 - I dream I work in a store. We are selling $20,000.00 coffee cups, and a whole row of them got broken (not my fault). I get into an argument with my boss, who treats all people with disabilities as if they are stupid, which infuriates me. I call my friend M__ and complain about it because I know she'll understand.

#3 - I am going up a river bank with a bunch of other people. I don't recall why, I think it was a picnic or social gathering or something. It's getting close to dusk.

I suddenly hear gunfire and see the muzzle flash of automatic weapons. Naturally, everybody panics. We weren't doing anything violent and obviously didn't expect to be shot at. There's nowhere to run - we can go backwards, away from the river, for some reason (I don't remember why).

Now we are being shelled as we scramble along the river bank. There's smoke everywhere and everybody is panicking. Up ahead, through the smoke, I see a bunch of soldiers. From their uniforms, they're friendly toward us. They're returning fire across the river and indicating for us to move toward them so they can get between us and our attackers, but there's a whole stretch of bank to cross and it's under fire. In addition, the bank is very crowded and it's difficult to get everybody to move in a specific direction instead of running in random directions and flipping out.

#4 - I am renting a room in an apartment. The room is very small and I'm putting my furniture together and thinking about how to arrange it. My friend Z__ wants to meet up since he heard I moved back to town. I am thinking about how much money I need to make before I can rent my own apartment. I'm putting trash in a trash basket, but it's made of plastic mesh and all of the trash keeps falling through the spaces in it.

Didn't sleep the greatest last night and I kept waking up, but I still remembered a few things.

Dream 1: The setting was possibly a cave-type place. There was something about a mission where one had to dress up as a girl and pretend to be distraught, until a monster or something heard you and dragged you away. In this case it was Harry Potter, I think.

Dream 2: Setting was my grandma's house or something like it. Me and a girl with long, darker hair, possibly Indian, were lying on blankets or something and talking. Either she was my moirail or she mentioned something about one. This part is a little blurry, but there was something about spawning or generating a creature, and how the one I got was named "Dogg", which apparently had been a name I had gotten in the past.

[Gap]

I was in my aunt's room? and there was a dark man there talking to me, and he held up a really small dried up/dead baby snake and was telling me how you have to take care of them or this happens, and I was thinking about how it was 5 A.M. and I was busy doing something important so I couldn't take care of that too.

Dream 3: Two? people are listening to Kankri and Karkat from Homestuck talk, and they're being sarcastic and joking, and they banter about something off-color, and one of the watchers turns to the other and concludes that Kankri must have done something inappropriate to Karkat? o_O

Fragment: I think this might have been apart of around the #2 dream: I spit a wad of gum out of my mouth and was picking pieces of it out of my teeth. (Side-note: Gum is one of the items in my memory palace, so it might have come from that.)