dream fragment

i was watching a scene from a movie where a female version of batman was fighting a redheaded woman in a red superhero suit. the dream would alternate between movie scenes and visions of two iphones, one with a grey back and one with a red back, moving around and colliding with each other.

there was another dream where i found a beautiful fur-trimmed leather coat at a thrift store. a strange woman invited me to her house because she had clothes she wanted to give to me. the dream faded before anything else happened.

Total sleep time: 8 hrs

Dream recall method: noted key words on paper pad upon naturally waking up during night. Next time will write a sentence instead of key word and try to write more legibly

Dream1 Keywords, 3 hrs after falling asleep: ballet, rain?

Fragment2: I am watching as a famous comedian gets to the stage. As he does so he stumbles and falls and everybody is commenting that. Apart from that the audience loves him. He is participating in a challenge game, where he has to match 16 large pictures shown on a screen to the word describing each, but the word is in a foreign language. There are a few pictures of animals like three pups on the pics. He makes a mistake in his first choice.

Fragment3: I am back to history class (DS) and the history teacher is angry with me because I am late again. One of my nerd classmates is ready just like in old times with a long paper which she is about to read in front of the whole class. I wonder out loud how she manages to do that, to prepare so well, now that she has a husband a son and a job to take care of.

Fragment4: I am in some apartment full of people. I notice that hardcore music is playing in the background. While I do enjoy it, I think it will be too much for my guests to listen to it for such a long time, so I decide to change it. I go to the strange music making device where there is place for like five CDs, and turn the music off. A strange silence follows...
In one of the rooms there is a guy that fixes electrical appliances and stuff like that, there is a queue on the door, people waiting for him. There is a lamp that he repaired so he will bring it out for people to collect. I kind of like that guy, so some almost innocent play starts to develop, but I interrupt the whole thing. He goes to the nearby room and I follow him. I look at him and I know he is an alien, because his shape begins to shift. This is very interesting to observe, very fast his facial features and body color change like on that MJ song, but he retains the same size and the facial features are always male.

Fragment5: I am with my good friend on the streets of my home town. We were supposed to go somewhere, but my mom appears and demands full attention and that I simply abandon my friend on the street. She tells me we are going to where grandma is waiting, a place my parents bought in the dream.
I don't want to leave my friend but still tell her that we are going somewhere else. My friend decides to come along.

We are in the place now, my grandma, mom and me are sitting on a table, food on the table, some delicious cakes. An old pensioner comes and tells me that he would like to eat cake so much but he normally cannot afford it, so whenever he has the chance to buy a cake he enjoys it so much. My grandma asks what the old man just said and my mom replies that he just said that he likes cake. That is so not true, and I become angry shouting that the old man has no money for the cake. My grandma does not care at all. This makes me even angrier so I spill the orange juice on her.

Dream recall from non-lucid naps, fragments.

Nap #1(fragments):

I was on some kind of island with volcano and i was racing with someone and there were some weird creatures. Later i was back at home discussing pokemon games with family, but then dad got randomly obsessed with the idea of turning off my pc for no reason, and as soon as it got turned off dream ended.

Nap #2(fragments):

I was playing some game where i was controlling various mechas to get through level, which looked like some kind of forest area. Then after that i was discussing with LV which mecha from that game was better, i voted for red mechacrab because it obviously had superior range and damage, even though it was slow, and also it's preupgrade form, which looked like green mecha grub, had good characteristics too. LV was voting for mechawolf, i can't recall why.

Even though this dream was about DV conversation, the characters appeared visually like real not just as text. However, I do not remember what any of the dream character representation of DV members looked like.

I just remember the last bit:

TiredPhil (speaking in animated anger to another DV member): "You know it's obvious who is going to help me take lucidity up a level, and help me achieve a higher level of enlightenment."

I was apparently teaching how to do WILD to a group of people and then we were adventuring somewhere and were in battle. I recall scene with crashed plane in some area with containers.

Total sleep time: 7hrs

Other info: My sleep schedule went overboard again. At least we have proven again that bad schedule results in more deep sleep, less dream recall and diminishing LD chances.

Dream recall method: None. I really felt like giving it all up and skipping the DJ today, but forced myself to write those fragments before they were gone.

Dream1: I am watching a show of some kind and am in the audience. Initially this thing was supposed to start late in the evening, but it got postponed so it began at 4.00 am. Towards the end of it, it is 11.00pm the same evening, and I find it a bit strange that it finished earlier than it began. There are a lot of parents with their small kids and they complain that it is getting really late and their kids need to be in bed. So the show is just about to finish. My mom is sitting next to me. Most of the audience at this point consists of black older women. There is a moderator kind of like Oprah. Music starts to play and everybody begins to clap hands church style. I am trying to move my body in the rhythm but something in me doesn’t wanna do it. I can’t do what they expect me to. Next thing, a song from the 60ies begins to play, a song which I knew in the dream very well. Once more, everybody including my mom knows the moves of this song. It is a strange sequence of finger moves around the head and on the face. My mom encourages me to participate, but again I just can’t do it because this time for real I have no idea what the moves are, so I feel a bit stupid.

Fragment2: I am going back in some place where I see an old friend of mine. It looks like he has made a huge mess, there is lots of water and dirt on the floor and he is trying to clean it with a mop. I wonder if I should do something about it but it looks like he is finishing up. I take some cauliflower from the floor and throw it in the trash. I go back to look for my friend, wondering whether I should tell him about LD and what he will think about it.

Fragment3: Another friend of mine. I was wondering if he is really back. Don’t remember much, but I perceived him very vividly, I guess because I couldn’t believe it was him.

Fragment4: I look around and notice that I am in some German looking city. I say to someone that this looks like the same city I went to a concert a while ago. [I had a very long and vivid dream where I went to a concert in a small German city a few months ago. That dream concert was really cool!]. Then I look around and see that perhaps it’s not the same city.

Fragment5: I was reading a post on DV.

Note to self: “I am going to bed on time tonight. I will notice every feeling I have when falling asleep”.

i am at the "doctor's office" for a checkup. the doctor's office is a large circular mezzanine located in a tall cylindrical structure. everything is made of brushed metal and creates a sort of sci-fi atmosphere. a red and yellow cylindrical tower rises from the centre of the structure. my father is here also. i am naked. the doctor says that i am very underweight and my father is greatly concerned by this. to demonstrate how thin i am the doctor picks me up and begins shaking me around.

then i am in a house. there is a dog here, a small cream-coloured husky. i understand that i will soon have to leave here forever. there is a feeling of great sadness.

next i am "downtown" with a chubby teenage girl. we wander into an alleyway and open a door to a dilapidated corridor. there are three doors here, each with windows; from what i can see through the windows, this appears to be some sort of child sex ring. the rooms house a number of female children, ages 8-12; they are all naked. the girl and i enter one of the rooms and we're relieved to discover (by looking at a framed poster on a wall) that in fact, this is not a child prostitution operation: the children are just working for a cereal company! this makes complete sense to us.

we enter another room. this room is white and contains several young girls who are all clothed in 50s style blue-white dresses. they have various deformities; it soon dawns on me that this is an institution for the mentally disabled. one of the girls tries to bite me. we leave.

next, my boyfriend and i are attending a music performance at a coffee shop. we arrive after the performance has finished, so we offer to put a tv show on to entertain the others. i want to put on a show about a frog without a tongue, but my boyfriend is intensely disgusted by this. i decide to put on a show about dolphins instead. however, all the dolphin shows i can find are crappy cgi videos; we want to look at real dolphins. the song vox humana - deerhunter is involved somehow. (absolutely amazing song, listen to it).

I'm walking through the very crowded breezeway at my old elementary school. Though obviously visible, I'm trying desperately to not be seen. From head to toe my body is covered in black clothing. I stop walking when I see two of my cousins. They haven't seen me, so I run to the flight of stairs next to the office and don't look back.

Dream Fragment 1: I'm standing really close to a man who looks like John Barrowman (an actor). We're in an aisle of a store. He looks so upset and I feel really apologetic. He moves closer to me and smiles.

Fragment

Something to do with my hair changing. My hair (that is normally a brown color was now black and blonde. The black and blonde hairs mixed in sort of a spiral pattern and my hair was fairly long.

Waking side notes:

I'm on vacation right now, and the internet out here is REALLY slow. I'm not sure how this vacation is going to affect my recall. But I want to try to have a couple lucids between now and then, maybe i can finally build my dream base.

My sister and I came out of a house in the small village called Holme near our home. I somehow assembled the skeleton of a weird transport vehicle out of random pipes and other metal pieces, and just so, my sister and I got on board with me as a pilot. I pushed off in the direction of our house. Literally pushed off. I had to push the vehicle off the ground with my leg to get it floating, and not long after that, it sunk back down to the ground. Like many other supernatural things in my dreams, the vehicle used hope and belief as fuel, and apparently I didn't believe that it would fly, at least not for it to fly more than very awfully. We did cross a few rooftops however, even though it felt those houses were the size of dollhouses.

Fragmented recall.

Dream 1:

There was bridge with some control systems and computers, and i was making some Doom looking game there, or possibly a mod. I was running a bunch of tests and some multiplayer playtests but many things were going wrong so i had to change a bunch of stuff. Some weapons were also behaving completely differently from what i was expecting, but people i was testing it with somehow knew that and were using them really well against me. Also one of the levels was some kind of temple with lava and traps.
When i was done i went through gate on one of the ends of the bridge and i was in some kind of forest or jungle now. My objective was to survive, there were some birds and there were zombie parts just lying around, which apparently were edible. Later i have reached swamp and there were more weird creatures. After swamp i meet a monk, i asked him to teach me something, and he agreed.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was on top of the high building in the city and below, on the ground level, there were three swarms of zerglings of different colors that were enemies between each other. I had control of the gates between them and was trying to make one of the sides victorious.

As I fall asleep, I meditate on my mantra and what awareness means.

#1 - Many dream fragments and incomplete dreams. I hover on the edge of lucidity during many of them, but they aren't cohesive enough and I never attain lucidity.

I wake up, and I'm very hot. I still have a fever. I peel off my socks and turn my thermostat down.
I attempt WILD. As REM atonia sets in - much more swiftly than I was expecting - I hear a great deal of loud static and what sounds like a modem dialing. I come very close to entering a dream several times but fail - for whatever reason - and lapse into regular sleep.


#2 - I have a dream about a castle that floats up in the sky. In my dream, I see a far-off view of the underside in a sunny sky full of puffy clouds. There is vegetation hanging from it. In the center of it there is something like a spire but instead of being like a castle it's like a skyscraper. I realize that this island is dominated by a small but elite group of people and everybody else on there toils for their benefit.

Then, I'm on the castle. I'm running around trying to get to the central courtyard or something, I'm not sure. But the whole thing is ledges with no railing and bridges that don't go anywhere. In the back of my mind, I think, "I wonder if I jumped over the edge, if I would fly or if this dream would end?" I realize that - of course - I'm dreaming. I immediately lift off and fly past all of the ridiculous fake bridges.

I land in an archway that leads to a hallway and begin to walk down it. I realize I'd like to visit the "home base", a location I've been trying to create. I see an archway that has heavy double wooden doors set into it with ornate handles, and I decide that I will use it as a doorway to get where I would like to go.

I pull on the heavy handles, and the doors swing open. Inside is my base - or, at least, a room that has many of its key features. They have been heavily altered, however, or some things are just missing. Part of it, I think, was to fit the castle theme - rather than my comfortable lounge, it looks more like a castle kitchen. I also notice that the fire in my fireplace is out. I try to light it by snapping my fingers, but it doesn't work. Not a big deal, I decide - I can breathe fire (obviously). I'll just start the fire that way.

I crouch down on the hearth (whose bricks are "wrong" but I decide it's nothing I can't fix with a little effort) and begin to breathe on the fire. There's nothing but air coming out of my mouth, at first. I focus on the sensation of the air passing through my lips and imagine that the blowing noise is getting louder. The air now has a yellow tinge, and the ash in the fireplace begins to stir. I focus on the yellow tinge in the air and it becomes brighter and glows more. Embers begin glowing in the fireplace. I blow on them harder, and they spread and bloom. The fire doesn't roar to life - it begins to slowly spread and grow like a real fire would.

I decide I would like something to eat. I'm not able to summon anything directly, so instead I call to a servant (they are there but I don't turn to look at them) and telepathically tell them that I would like some food. I consciously opted for telepathy because I was getting the sensation that the lucid dream was getting "thin" and if I attempted to speak to them out loud I would do so in real life and wake myself up. It didn't matter either way, since once they walked away, the dream began to fade. I wake up.

#3 - I dream about a group of high-schoolers, sort of Breakfast Bunchy, except they also have a little girl (a toddler) with them. Sometimes I'm one of them, and sometimes I'm just watching. They live in an apartment complex or condos or something and are wandering around outside in a storm. It's storming heavily but they don't seem to mind the rain, although they periodically lose the toddler and have to keep looking for her. They decide that they would like to go to the beach during this storm.

One of them, a guy with blond hair, says he needs to take care of some business first. The others don't know it but he's actually an assassin and has been working as one since he was 16, and he needs to check his secret base for something. While they're waiting, he gets completely sidetracked. His love-interest goes looking for him and stumbles across his base. Inside is a TV screen with another guy on it (he is hideously ugly) who is a rival assassin who wants to kill the guy... he manages to press through the TV screen and emerge from it physically. The woman starts throwing pottery at him, but stops short at a set of antique vases because she doesn't want to bust them.

The other high schoolers finally find the hideout. One of them is irritated because the storm is now nearly over. Blond assassin guy also finally shows up again. The whole scene ends up with all of the high schoolers in there, throwing pottery at the bad guy. Even the toddler.

After he's defeated, the whole place is full of clothing racks and everybody begins trying on clothing. I'm watching but I'm also the love-interest girl and I am trying to fit into a sweater but the sleeves are too small to fit my hands through (I highly suspect I was trying to punch through my blanket at this point). He helps by unbuttoning the sleeves and helping me work my hands through them.

I wake up. I'm still hot. I turn the thermostat down more.

Continuation of the previous dream - I'm with blond assassin guy and we're driving a very long distance to his family's home in the countryside. I'm talking about getting a Master's degree and a school I would like to attend in France, but I'm worried about the cost of tuition. We arrive at the house and see that it is perched on the edge of a canyon. I run down the steep incline to see what's at the bottom. When I look up, the guy is gone.

I don't know where he's went, but 2 people (hunters) are approaching me, and one of them has a ridiculous "hillbilly" accent. The girl (I've gone to 3rd person again) seems worried that they will try to ask her out and tells them that she can only interact with other people if she has won some clothing. They agree to help her win something.

Clearly, the way to win a prize is to hunt a bear, and the way to hunt a bear is to bounce up and down in a giant net. The 2 hunters tie the net to some trees and use it to propel the girl up into the air, where she waves at and taunts the bear. This pisses the bear off to no end, so it charges at the net. The bear gets tangled up in the net and they vanquish it. Once defeated, the bear transforms into a small pile of First Aid kits. They rifle through the kits looking for clothing, but only find an inflatable bed and a bunch of nonsensical instruction booklets.

#4 - I dream I live in an apartment complex but also a hospital. I live on the 6th or 7th floor, and all of floor 4 is designated for heart attack victims and full of nurses. The maintenance staff has deposited a bunch of bizarre looking furniture outside all of the apartment doors except mine. I'm irritated that I didn't receive any furniture so I run around stealing everybody else's.

Goals:
- Continue ADA and mindfulness on daily basis, as energy levels and attention span allow
- Daily journal updates, in particular, also seem to help
- I need to engage with my environment more

i am with my boyfriend and some other people in a deserted warehouse. the room is vast and light is streaming through windows far above us.
there are various items scattered around and we are browsing for things of interest. i find a strange object with rounded corners, shaped like a laptop, with a dim LED screen: i understand that this is a PDA from the late 90s. i find this interesting but my discovery is quickly overshadowed when my boyfriend finds an intact vintage arcade cabinet. he calls this a commodore 64 although it clearly is nothing of the sort.

the setting switches to a dark room. we are all seated around a table. the arcade cabinet has changed to a small laptop and i am still holding my laptop/pda thing. my boyfriend starts playing on the "commodore 64" and as usual my viewpoint switches so that i am in the game, observing. he is playing some kind of shitty mario romhack. the background is all black, the characters are neon and they appear to be wearing strange masks. then i begin playing a game on my laptop.
in this game i am an angel flying above an amusement park (very bright, green grass -- looks a lot like rollercoaster tycoon). there are brown platforms in the air. at first i can't figure out how to control my character properly: but then four white rings appear around my character signifying the vectors in which i can move, and i am then able to control it.

there is another dream that involved a country backyard and dogs? i do not remember anything else. i recall that at one point i approached lucidity, but i did not fully realize that i was dreaming.

Stream

I can only remember a small part of this dream. I am with a big group and we are walking on a stone path with grass on one side and a ledge on the other. It is very beautiful where we are. The sky is blue with white fluffy clouds, and it is very sunny. As we walk the path, the stream can be seen down the ledge. I remember wanting to go swimming in it.

Department Store Haircut

I am in a store which appears to be a WalMart or K-mart. I am with my mother, sister, and brother. They are shopping, and I want a new hair style and color. I go to a cashier and tell her what I want (I can't remember what that is), then pay her $30. She begins to curl my hair, which is red for some reason and layered very weird. She is chomping on gum and talking to me. Then she gets a customer so tells me to wait. I sit there with half of my hair curled while she rings her customer. She begins to do my hair again and her line increases again. Another lady goes to a register, but only a few customers leave the line I am in. I get very annoyed because I just want my hair done. By now, my family is outside. I see them going into a different store. I tell her to not to worry about it and want her to refund my money. She finishes cashing someone out, then does something on her computer screen and prints out a long paper. It only says $27.71. I tell her I paid $30 and ask if I need to swipe my card. She says no swiping is necessary, and not to worry, I will get my full refund. I am annoyed and stand to run to the back of the store. I can't remember exactly what happens here. I just remember running through the isles and flirting with an Indian guy as I run pass him. I just kind of give him a look and smile as I pass. I go in circles around his isle, like a freak.... Then I run outside to find my mom, brother, and sister standing by my car. That is all that I remember.