dream fragment

Head in my mommas lap. she was stoking my hair like when I was a child. View of myself in a pavilion by a river. Not my momma anymore but a beautiful woman. So comforting. Peaceful. I hear an Angelic voice whisper "salvation" over and over. I jolt awake.

09.08.2010

Soccer field (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

If yesterday was one of my worst night, this last night was even worse.
If you follow my journal. you know I got a golden opportunity for my selfemployement and the quality of my life will skyrock (in addition of the income) I have been doing (and I am still) online meetings. Every time I tried to focus on dreams, I realized my mind was wandering around the business stuff. This night will be better, for sure. I must have another lucid to stop this bad nights. One fragment only on the whole night! (It has been months I recalled less than 3 dreams)

- Soccer.
- Images only.
- On the soccer fields.
- I felt I was were I never was.

Missed dream signs:
- Unknown.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Unknown.

1. I'm attending the Cincinnati Bengals training camp as T. O. For some reason I slap my thigh, and the sensation is enough to send me momentarily aware. I lose whatever lucidity I have before anything happens.

2. I am browsing a massive flea market full of books. I find an Unknown Armies monster manual for a cheap price (so much text with failed RCs), but before I can buy it my Mom approaches along with several college friends.

3. I am trapped inside a crumbling barn. As it falls around me, I manage to peel out of the twisted wreckage.

I also don't remember some of this dream, which I had just last night. As I've said, I've been working heavy hours and pretty long days, so me getting a sound sleep with fully-memorable dreams is an incredibly hard task to do right now. But I'm working on it.

I remember that I was with a group of four other girls, and we were to meet with another group of four girls. They wanted something that we possessed, but it was going to be a showdown on who was to get it. So, oddly enough, we met them at a cemetary and as I stood there, feeling uncertain, the leader of the other group stepped forward and gave us a wicked, evil smile.

I'm not too sure what happened then, except suddenly I was on the run and seperated from the people in my group. So I ran, except they were after me, and I was scared. And that's when it felt like a switch in my brain flipped, and power flooded me. A girl laid her hand on me, and I smacked my hand against her - and light poured out from my hand and knocked her back. It wasn't strong enough to hurt her, but just enough to protect me.

I'm not sure how I knew then, but I knew they were after me. So i turned tail and ran again as she laughed, a mocking and really creepy laugh.

I don't remember much of this dream - it happened two nights ago, and it was incredibly short. I haven't been sleeping very well.

Anyway, I remember I was at the mercy of a very powerful man. He had money to burn and he wasn't afraid to flaunt his power and outright murder people for refusing his demands. I wasn't sure how he managed to catch me, but I was watched and monitored every hour of every day. And soon, he began to "acquire" more girls. It was almost like he was making a collection of sorts, but I just couldn't figure out what was happening or why. We all looked remotely alike, too. Brown hair, blue eyes. . .

This one night he assembled the girls out on the deck and dressed them in a uniform that was both revealing, and somehow flattering to a female body. He was kind that night, and despite ourselves, we found we were laughing and we suddenly didn't feel so lonely and apart anymore. A sudden wave of homesickness fell over me, though, and as I looked up at the sky (for we were out on a deck under a waning moon), and I rested my head against the railing and sighed.

But I saw a flash, and as I looked up, I saw that the moon was suddenly. . . Very appealing. And it went from being a sliver to building in size and shape, until it was a full moon. Once completed, there was a blinding flash, and suddenly I was falling backwards - and I was in a completely different place.

I woke up.

I had this dream (or series of interconnected dreams) this night, when I fell asleep from 6:00AM-5:00PM. I had used autosuggestion very loosely, so I'll call it a DILD.

Technique used: DILD
Length: 45 min

lucid non-lucid not a dream

I forgot a lot of the dream (I didn't write it in my RL DJ, and wasn't able to type this part till now, a good 6 hours later) but I do remember fragments. Also, it's good to note that I was starving when I went to sleep.

So, the dream started with a lot of my brother driving and a few of my cousins, we all hung out, and then we had to drive to get some food at my aunts. We got there, and there was a teleporter somewhere. I think I used the teleporter to teleport to my next dream scene.

This next part was all extremely vivid. I walked from my mom's car to a restaurant with her and my dad. My dad and I walked to the staff room (for a good reason I can't remember), which ended up being a large windowed room, with three layers of windows till there was the outside. I thought of doing a reality check, since that was weird. It was odd though, my reality check failed, but I still had the feeling I was in a dream. I tried two more times, and it sort of worked, but I realized I must be in a dream anyway.

I wasn't very lucid, because of the shoddy RCs I think, but I was with my dad, and I knew that it could be the real him in the dream world, so I told him I was in a dream, that we were in a dream. He said he knew. I asked him if he realized that that meant we could do anything, and he said no we can't (I think). I tried to break a glass window, but it didn't break. My dad said something about it, and I told him I could cut it with my fingers.

I put my finger to the glass and did a very shitty circle, cutting it through. I broke that part off, then broke off the rest mentally. My dad tried as well, but instead broke it physically when he was done. For some reason doing this interested me a lot, and after talking to him a little bit about dreams, I kept doing this with the windows until I lost lucidity and found myself back in the restaurant with my dad.

It was a FA, I told him I just had a dream, and he was in it. I asked him what he did in his dream. He said he was with me, but he was at our basement or something, and we were making holes in the tiling. He added some other info, about us both knowing it was a dream, and I concluded it was a shared dream, but not a very good connection.

I woke up, and fell back asleep.

I was in a different place in the restaurant, and I did another RC. Shoddy again, but I still realized I was dreaming. My dad was with me, and we were atop a spiral staircase, all white, with a very interesting curvy railing. I saw a baby girl sitting at the very end of the railing, and I decided to go grab her, I was about to slide to the bottom, when I FA'd again in the restaurant with my mom and dad.

I don't remember what happened after that, but after a minute or so I woke up IRL. It was very interesting, and I felt that my dad was actually there. It seems to me that I kept switching from the astral plane into my dream world, and that in the astral plane, RCs don't work as well, or the vividness throws me off, and I only was with my dad in the astral plane.

I'll ask my dad what he dreamed about and see if we made a connection, and I'll update this accordingly.

EDIT: I talked to him. He said it happened. He remembered a great deal more than I did. We also got high together, had sex with some people and he said We fell right after the glass building thing. That was when I lost lucidity, so I was probably a DC at that point, otherwise I would have flown, or at least remembered it from terror. He remembered nothing about a restaurant, he said that never happened. I find it pretty probable that I met up with him in the astral plane, and that the other parts where I wasn't lucid was in my inner dream world or something.

This is my first successful (remembered) shared dream.

So last night, despite what they say, I smoked a fair amount of Mary Jane and I still had fairly vivid dreams and good recall. Fluke maybe.

The first thing I remember is a dream about getting dropped off at home. I was in a car with two friends--it was my car, but for some reason they were driving. We drove into my neighborhood and it was the middle of the night. I knew we had just gotten done doing something illegal (such as the aforementioned Mary Jane), and I was trying to get into the garage without waking up my parents, but as we drove near my house we saw my dad outside at my neighbor's house, laying cat litter underneath the tires of my neighbor's car, as though he were stuck somewhere in the winter and trying to get out, despite the fact that there was no snow to be found. I panicked and told them to just keep driving, hoping my dad wouldn't look to see what car was passing, and they dropped me off around the corner a little ways away from my house so I could walk around to the back door and he wouldn't see me. For some reason it was unlocked so I could get in, and for some other reason I also didn't seem to care that my friends then drove away in my car. Oh well. I'm guessing the reason for this dream is because I literally did the same exact thing last night, except I was driving myself and I had to call my brother to open the garage door for me so I could get the car in without waking my dad...same concept I suppose, but the dream version was scarier.

I know I had a lot more dreams last night, and some of them I can remember feelings from...one of them I know was a little scary, or at least just...stressful. I remembered feeling stressed or panicked, and not just in the dream above. Following that feeling, I remember being in my old high school with nothing on but my underwear, walking to class.

I end up in the class of a teacher I used to have, but I don't know exactly what she's teaching. I throw on a sweatshirt and sweatpants as I walk into the classroom, but I don't think anyone commented on my attire except one girl, who I'm almost wont to say was present earlier during the stressful part. For whatever reason she laid down on her back and I climbed on top of her with our uh...genitals in contact. Don't know why. I was trying to take notes from the overhead projector while laying in that position but it was sort of hard. The topic I think was something to do with King Arthur maybe? Which doesn't make any sense because the teacher that was there taught a sort of life management class for all the high school's seniors. Either way, the notes were entirely illegible, pretty much because it was a dream, but I remember turning to a classmate anyway (Trent is his name) and asking him what the hell she was doing. I thought the text was messed up because she was so old she couldn't write, not because it was a dream. After Trent and I shared a laugh over that, I looked back to the girl on top of whom I was laying and started talking. She seemed to be attracted to me but said that her friends disapproved of me because they didn't like a friend of mine. I seemed mildly disappointed by that, but she wasn't an extraordinarily attractive girl (kind of a cute blond, but her face was sort of funny-looking), so I wasn't terribly distraught.

There might have been a dream later but I don't think so. That's about when my sister woke me up. I really didn't try for a lucid last night because...well, I just didn't have the energy. Interesting dreams though.

So I'm driving up to Sterling to see a movie. With my mom, I guess. And for some reason a few other friends are there: Lawrence, Austin, maybe Chris. We get to the theater and I don't even sit near my mom. It's a war movie, I think. Afterwords as we are filing out of the theater my mom comes jogging over to me and I go to give her a hug to say thanks for coming and goodnight. She asks if I want to go grab some dinner though. I can tell she wants to just to prolong our time together. I tell her that I can't because it's getting late. So she's sort of disappointed but she leaves anyways.

Then for some reason I suggest going to grab dinner to my friends. They don't really want to go but for whatever reason they say "Yeah, OK." Lawrence is reluctant but eventually caves and Austin seems gung ho to do it. So we split up to our respective cars and decide to meet at a restaurant. I get to the restaurant and realize that I'm still waiting for them. I don't know how I know but suddenly I realize that Lawrence got into a car wreck. And that the police officer on the scene took his sweet time taking Lawrence to the hospital, on purpose. And I'm furious that the man would risk my friends life just to be an asshole.

For some reason I'm pulling into a Wal Mart parking lot. I'm about to hop outta my car and run inside, to buy an ethernet cable of course, when I realize that I forgot the power cable to my laptop at work. I'm instantly annoyed (I'm super paranoid about doing this, in real life) and measure what I should do. Should I run back to work real quick? Leave it there until tomorrow? So I decide to run into Wal Mart real quick and THEN head back and get the power cable. I'm miffed but I go inside anyways and start making my way towards the cables. I hear over the intercom: "Is it OK to still sell it? Do I really have to buy it?" And I pass this guy in the pencil/paper aisle who was actually doodling on all of the sketch paper. And some Wal Mart employee was telling him he can't do that and he has to buy it. As the two guys are talkign I quietly pull out an eraser and start erasing all of his doodles. I remember thinking that I'm helping them but I realize I'm not erasing the doodles 100% so it probably doesn't matter.

And then I'm at the cable aisle. There's a heavier fellow there, obviously an employee--he is dressed in a blue button up and jeans and has a name tag on and is also balding, and a woman. The woman is looking for some sort of cable that has spider mite protection inside of it. For whatever reason the employee asks me if a certain product will work for her and I say, "Yeah, it sure looks like it." As if the item even exists. And then I ask the employee if he has ethernet cables and he rolls his eyes as if that's a stupid question and says, "Yeah."

I woke up this morning and walked around for a few minutes and could not remember a single dream or even a fragment and then suddenly the above all came flooding back into me.

I''l put the dreams from the last 2 nights in the same entry

8/9

can't remember why but I looked at my left hand and I had too many fingers, failed a nose RC then checked my hand again - still manky, became lucid. Was in a room which was supposed to be my parents it was very dark. I touched the cupbords and whatever else I could reach to stabilize the dream, it worked. I left the room and was in G's house I walked to the playroom but didn't see anyone, I walked back towards G's room to see if B was there as I approached the room the dream faded.

Later that night I had a non-lucid dream in the same house, this time there were lots of DC's including a beautiful woman who was totally into me. I felt like I was cheating by being with here and tried to hide what we were up to. We kissed in the playroom and them made plans to meet in G's bedroom, she wanted me to stay another day but I said no. I went through the kitchen on the way to G's room and B was making breakfast in the kitchen. Eventually I'm in G's room with the woman and we have sex, B is there and she is giving me instructions - LOL

Nap: I'm travelling in Africa and am in charge of some teams, Dad and me split the teams mixing them. S was there.

9/9

We're visiting houses from a news story? We go into a house that I know in the dream world it is a very poor area, the house has yellow and blue walls. We're invited to sit down and I notice 2 of those buzzy magnet things on a table. I remember someone mentioning them in the inception totem thread and realize im dreaming. Do a hand RC and fail but know I'm dreaming so I do a nose RC and I can breathe. I touch some things to stabilize and walk toward the kitchen where the old lady host went. As I get to the kitchen I start loosing the dream, in desperation I close my eyes and spin and fall, I get up in the living room again and head toward the kitchen the dream fades again this time I can't stabilize it .

Later I'm fetching L from school but the building is different as I get to the gate I realize this is a dream, I RC and become Lucid. I touch the gate to stabilize. I go into the classroom but there are no DC's. I decide to walk through the door to transition to somewhere else, I walk through the door without opening it and simply am outside the school. K is sitting outside and I decide to see what kissing feels like. I put my hands through here hair to help stabilize and kiss her. It feels ok - not amazing. I loose the dream - probably because I closed my eyes.

I lie dead still after waking and slide back into the dream, this time I'm fetching P. I'm lucid from the beginning but loose the dream waking up after a few seconds .

fragments: Africa again, S is there, Trip to Russian or Turkey?

I've been writing my dreams down but haven't been updating here so here goes.

3/8

something about a juvenile prison, that is just a deterrent and me and some other DC's trying to escape over the roof.

Hectic meeting with some people I work with about some stuff that they are doing wrong, everything comes out into the open and they both admit to wrong doing. One of them admits to having an a affair.

Can't remember the significance of the rest of my notes:
D watering his plants
neighbors flat - holiday
railing kid safe
gay guy
talk to guy about flat windows

4/8

Long dream about moving into a flat in Pretoria. C doesn't like the courtyard I'm explaining that the plants have just been planted and they need to grow, it's like a formal garden with hedges. The flat is in a really nice building and we can afford it but we're looking for a cheper place that's just as nice.
There is a strange bouncy walkway with red carpets, I think CT is there.
Later F and some others are sitting at chairs in the courtyard i go and talk to them.
Later there is a swimming pool in the courtyard and I'm swimming, staying underwater for very long periods. Suddenly theres acid in the water and it burns me. I get out and the burns continue to get worse E is in the dream at some stage.

notes that don't make sense:
flyers for church
bikes, new tire
watering grass
buildings

Later I'm chasing something with the help of a bloodhound

5/8

Playing golf with K at Unicorn golf club

I'm at a mall with T and W. We are in the part of the mall that is only used by employees. It turns into a factory/mall, we are spies. We are running away and someone goes through a "baggage slot". At some point we're in a bathroom and I p on T - LOL

Also at some point in the mall we are comedians and we are ripping on a group of people for coming to do something lame - to do with strangling a lady, only thats not a bad thing and the lady doesn't mind. I tell the group that they should "not be themselves" this was apparently a witty diss.

6/8

I'm teaching people about a healing technique which has to do about the other universe (too much fringe )

In a hotel room with sex stuff going on, S and V are involved as well as K. K tries to make a fool out of me. There is lots of alcohol involved.

7/8

Was in my old SL house with C and P can't remember if L was there. Played on the giant rock with P.
Tried to stop C from seeing me in the photos inside the house.

Nap: Parrot with a broken beek and metal prosthetic. Golf club Dad and L are there. Pool with Alex, Andre and Ant - LOL

Comment Dream Lucid Dream

Yesterday my recall sucked, today it blew me out of the water. I remembered up to 4 dreams (fragments). No lucids though, but I don't care (more or less ;p). This is progress anyway. Here goes:

I'm at a seminar of my old guitar teacher. He invited a couple of his best students to record a DVD with him and learn a couple of songs and techniques along the way. We all had to follow a certain course in which we could choose between two songs, play one of them and when we did so correctly we could move on to the next two songs. For some reason, he had decided to visualize the course outline like this, with two piramids:



We all started out on the right and could choose between song 1 and 2. Then you move up to 3 and 4, 5 and 6, and so on and so forth. I first tried song 2. It was an acoustic guitar song accompanied by me singing (song doesn't actually exist). My performance wasn't actually that bad, but the intonation of my voice dropped a bit at the end. I knew that, because halfway the performance I transferred to another version of me listening in the audience. Because my intonation dropped, the teacher said it wasn't good enough and I decided to go for song 1 anyway: Heart's Crazy on You.

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In my second dream I stood behind the counter at a restaurant and I was supposed to pass out french fries to anyone who would want to have them. A gorgeous lady walked up to me. Red dress and lipstick, dark hair, big brown eyes. Stunning. I looked her in her eyes and repeated a mantra in my head. I remember kicking myself in the head (figuratively ;p) because it should've been "I am lucid dreaming", but I kept repeating "Don't pay attention to the floor". Weird. To make matters worse, the lady was apparently a psychic and able to read my mind. She asked my why she shouldn't pay attention to the floor and I told her the floor was dangerous because of its colour (I genuinely believed that, though). I gave the woman her fries and she went away. And I didn't become lucid.

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I was waiting at a hatch with my instructor. We're in an old building made of metal and steel, rust and algae are running up the walls. It smells a bit. The instructor tells me that at the other side of the hatch are ghosts. It's the garbage dump of wherever we are and the ghosts are attracted to the trash we dump there daily. I have to go in though, so the instructor gives me some pills that are to make sure the ghosts don't come for me as soon as I enter, they apparently love human meat. The pills only work for a given amound of time, though.
I take some pills and climb through the hatch. The other side looks just as metallic and rusty as where I just was. I can indeed see some zombie-like figures wandering about, but they don't come after me. Whew. Time to go search for what I am initially here for: a lost Zelda II cartridge. After I've looked around I was able to find only a couple of cartridges with parts of the game on it, but not in it's entirety. I remember that was obvious, because the cartridge had been split up in several parts, because it was just like a zip-archive.

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In my last dream I found myself again at the garbage dump. This time I was much deeper in, together with someone else. This part of the dump looked like an old, neglected city, but still as rusty as ever. We were in trouble. The pills would almost lose their effect and to top it all: Voldemort was coming for us. We hide, but Voldemort still manages to find us and kills my friend. He doesn't even look like Voldemort, by the way; glasses, brown scruffish hair and a bordeaured polo shirt.

Obviously I am more than happy with this amount of recall . I do wonder where my mind gets all the references from though. I haven't read HP in 3 years now and never even played Zelda II O_o

08.08.2010

More admin (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

One of my very worst nights within the last several months! I went to bed super tired (due non sleeping my last nights) I was able to have a rested sleep and my fingers did not hurt, but I did not have a lot of good recall. I have been focusing the entire day on my new self employment all they, did not focus on dreams and I dreamed about the work lol. Two fragments

Second:

- Corporate site.
- Computers.
- Training.
- All workers OK.
- Trying to do some research.
- My trainer helped me.
- All was going well.
- I felt good.

Missed dream signs:
- Unknown, none recalled.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Maybe try to improve my skills on this new job.

08.08.2010

Administrating online (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

One of my very worst nights withing the last several months! I went to bed super tired (due non sleeping my last nights) I was able to have a rested sleep and my fingers did not hurt, but I did not have a lot of good recall. I have been focusing the entire day on my new self employment all they, did not focus on dreams and I dreamed about the work lol. Two fragments

First:

- Online
- Working in the management.
- Managing new users.
- Someone explained me how to find workers.
- They told me how to filter and limit my search.
- I was happy about the search and I was told there were more options.
- I navigated around a few admin pages.

Missed Dream Signs:
- Unknown, no one recalled.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Maybe try to improve my skills on this new job.

08/07/10

I hum a little bit, smirking as the crowd of terrified DCs shrinks away.

"Look at these people," I sing, walking down blue-lit steps, "Amazing how sheep'll show up for the slaughter..."

I hit the wrong notes. Annoyed, I start over.



Slipping. Scare Factor: 2.

This was probably inspired by the conversation I had with Mzzkc the other day, saying I couldn't remember lyrics during dreams. Apparently my subconscious took offense.

12.07.2010

What Should I See? (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I became lucid after I entered my house. The trigger was that I wasn't sure which of my houses it was. As in, I couldn't tell if it was my current or old house. I thought, "This is a classic dreamsign. Now which house is it supposed to be?" I looked around, trying to take everything in- to identify my surroundings. At the same time, I was half thinking about what both houses looked like. I got kind of a visual overload, with barely any focus on any scene- and I went into blackness.

Now normally, this is wake-up material. But I paused and kept a sense of my dream body, and pondered for a minute. I decided to be totally passive. Just look, and see what was there- not what I thought should be there. The hall of my old house reformed around me and I was back in.