dream fragment

August 13, 2010

No recall from before the WILD attempt.

WILD attempt unsuccessful... got a little too relaxed Fell asleep listening to ninja's subliminal mp3

Back to bed by 6am, and mantra'd to myself: How does my body feel? <- Noting this because it seemed to have worked That or the mp3... not sure.

The mirror - Lucid - 4/5
It's night time. I find myself walking up to a line up of cars in a drive thru. I randomly get inside a car at the pick up window. In the driver seat, there is a chick highly reminiscent of Mimi from Drew Carey, except she was as large as Peter Griffin from family guy (and also lacked a neck).





The other girl in the passenger seat was fairly nondescript. So anyways, the order is somehow wrong, and we go inside the restaurant. The restaurant is a bit shaky, and it starts melding into a school. And now, we were in the girls' classroom. My friends started talking absolute nonsense. It sounded like their tongues got all swollen. During this bit, I gradually started getting lucid, and by the time they started talking in tongues ( ) I was fully lucid.

I leave the room and I pass by the guys' classroom. I see Darren in there, but I'm not quite ready to do anything about that yet. I have two goals to complete first. A mirror and a unicorn. I walk to the end of the hall, where I tell myself there will be a washroom. "When I open the door, there will be a person-sized mirror for me to step through in there," I tell myself. Believing it, I opened the door. The bathroom was deplorable (as they often are in my dreams), lacked toilets... and mirrors. Ugh... Alright... let's just snap my fingers and summon one. I tried snapping my fingers, but for some reason, it wouldn't work. My fingers felt all swollen and floppy, and they just wouldn't snap. I looked at my hands in frustration and found my middle fingers looked like carrots (skin coloured carrots, mind). "You're fucking joking!" I said, out loud.

The forcing of control caused the dream to deteriorate. I remembered Mosh telling me about using senses and I remembered my own experience about interacting with the dream environment, so I immediately touched the door to the washroom and started rubbing it. It brought the dream back. I continued to do that until it felt solid again.

I turned around, and there was a small mirror on the wall, now. It'll have to do. I took it off the wall and flopped it on my head. It didn't quite thunk, it had some give. "Perfect!" I thought. I closed my eyes and started bringing the mirror down over me. Past my head, my shoulders. Around my waist, I told myself when this is done, I'll be in an enchanted forest, for the unicorn. I brought the mirror down through my feet, and stepped out of the back side. Still in the washroom. I sighed. This dream is being ridiculous. I also had to rub the walls again, because it was being shaky again. I remembered Mosh saying something about using all his senses. I smelled the washroom. It smelled like cleaner. I licked the door ( :sick: ). It tasted like nothing, but had the same texture as it did for my hands.

I need to find some other way to reach the unicorn, but I got slightly distracted. I realized I was wearing my nightgown (same as WL), but my flannel pants and undies were missing. I thought, "Oh fantastic, let's summon Darren now, then!" I stared at a wall. "Darren? Can I see you?" I asked, using the same trick I used to summon Danny, my DG. I turned around. He's not there. This is some of the worst control I've had in a really long time...

Alright, well, I remember seeing him earlier... I left the washroom and poked my head into the guys' classroom. A bunch of faces stared at me. No Darren, though.

I went out to the common area... scan, scan... no Darren. I began to think any of one of these guys will do... But no! I firmed my resolve. It's Darren or nothing! I realized he wasn't going to be in this dream, so, lets go find the unicorn.

I left the building, and found it's still nighttime (hooray for dream continuity! Sort of). I started jogging and remembered, "Well, I'm dreaming... let's just fly." At my side, was my purse, from WL. Good, cos I was using it for stabilization. Oh right, at some point here, I was playing around with throwing an object in the air, cos it kept coming down slowly (which amused me, apparently ). Also, I remember seeing the supervisor vehicle from work, and a bunch of guys were piling into it like a clown car... Let's just ignore that. Anyways, I kicked off the ground, flew a bit and sank. I kinda figured this would happen, though, cos I'd been having control problems all dream. I rubbed my purse and remembered to set a point on the horizon to focus on while I fly. I kicked off again, and fixed my "point" on the stars. I felt it connect with my third eye, and flying was now no longer an issue. I shouted into the night, "I summon a unicorn!" My voice sounded like laryngitis. The dream also started destabilizing again, too. I do remember seeing a unicorn come at me, but it kept fading I rubbed my purse again. Nothing. I rubbed my hands. Nothing.

When I woke up and looked at my clock, I realized I probably wouldn't have been able to save it anyways... I'd been asleep about 90 minutes, so the REM period was probably up.

I tried my mantra again, but I seemed to lack focus this go-around...

Hugh Laurie
A dream hanging out with Hugh Laurie. Not much else going on here.

July to August

I've dreamed of work at least three more times since the end of July and now. I hate typing out my work dreams, plus I don't want to mention names. This post is mostly for my tags and to yell at myself for dreaming about work.

I want to LEAVE work, not live in it in my dreams!

Me and my mother were at a thrift shop and I was looking at the vacuums to buy for a friend but they were all over one hundred dollars but when I looked in my wallet I had more money than I thought.

I dreamed I was swimming underwater. I can't remember using any breathing devices or anything. My friend Lawrence was leading the tour along with a few other people. Everything is tinted hazy blue.

We come to a narrow hallway with a large door at the end. The guys start moving towards it when I see a glowing parrot looking fish. I'm immediately told not to touch it because if I do it will kill me. So I evade it and we are helped through the gate.

Once through we are in an even larger area. There is a fairly narrow hallway sort of area that leads up s set of shallow steps and those steps lead into the wide open reef we came to see.

As we walk up the narrow steps I am stopped all of a sudden and someone points out a little hole in the base of the steps bi am told not go touch it because if I do it will come unplugged and suck me backwards and shoot me outta the room. That's good enough incentive for me to be careful.

With that in mind I continue forward and am constantly on edge not to touch anything. I see s semi large floating egg, about 12" long float by and I ask one of my guides If I'm allowed to touch the dragon egg even I'd just to save it from floating down the stairs and outta the room. The guide says no and as I watch the egg float by it flashes back and forth between the image of a fish and then back to the image of the egg.

For some reason Lawrence ends up getting way ahead of us and it's making the guides nervous. I tell them that I want to go back and they point towards the door at the end of the steps. I go to it and open it and then immediately I see the red parrot fish that kills on touch. It is alone in the vast blackness. I change my mind about leaving and turn back around.

I dream that a small group of people and I are heading down this steep forested hill. We reach the bottom and realize there is no true way out except climbing back up the other side of the bowl we climbed into. Before we do I take time to notice these absolutely gigantic trees that seem to tower over everything and while I do that I notice the spiders.

The spiders are gigantic and they have weaved a giant web around the entirety if the forrested bowl we walked into. I scream bur our leader ignores it and begins to climb up the side and past the enormously fat spiders. I'm frozen with fear and decide to follow too late. They take the spiders by surprise and manage to make it through a tiny hole in the web. The fat black and bulbous spider crawls over to the hole and seals it up. I am stuck.

I remember a fragment of a dream.

There was a party. It was at a pool. I did not know the place. My cousins were there, along with other people that I knew, as well as a lot that I didn't. It was crowded, but not uncomfortable. Everyone was happy and partying. Someone was tossed into the pool with his clothes on.

Conditions:
Fell asleep: 2:00 am

COMMENT LUCID NON LUCID DREAM SIGN

Non-Lucid
Side Notes

13-08-10 Fragmented stuff only from this night. In one dream I was back at that dreadful marketing job, trying my best to spend as little time on the phones as possible. I was doing the best in terms of time spent on the phones per lead, but I was just not happy. Mark was leading the team and he was shredding people's performance, he acted like a dick. Although right after the shouting he invited the entire team for coffee on him, I sort of missed out on this as I had to explain a couple of things to some clients who loved my little acting. An old school friend of mine (who never worked with me when I lived in England) was stood over the setting really wanting me to explain the quality assurance procedure. After this I walked out into the streets realising that I knew not what coffee shop to go to, it wasn't the usual shop and none of them looked as they used to (I remember feeling a bit suspicious about this, but I managed to find my friends soon after realising this).
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Well after this hell hole, dreaming got a whole lot more interesting..
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I was in some weird house after a party and my family was hungover. My sister requested that I joined her for some Crosby (it wasn't actually that particular show, but this is what she said) Now thinking I am in for a world of hurt she flicks on the telly and they explain their intentions of not only showing the next 6 episodes, but also how they will integrate Lady Gaga's new album into these. Just great, 3 hours of agonizing family entertainment spiced with ear sundering attempts at music are my thoughts at this point. However I quickly realize that the episodes will be centred around a boy-scouts-meet-girl-scouts-camp, which indeed sounds horrible, until I realise that the only rules in the camp are: boys must wear moose hats (lol) and the girls (lead by a brown haired, short Lady Gaga, yummy!!) must wear transparent bikinis and make themselves 'available'. For a short while I shift and I am actually in the camp exploring it myself, which is thoroughly enjoyable, until I shift back. At this point Drew (a good friend of mine who worked in the marketing company mentioned in the previous dream) is also lying watching. We talk about a test I still have to do that he, completed some time back by reading six pages (!?!?). Anyway, dirty as I feel, I decide that I would rather watch this show alone, so I come up with food as a distraction, I go to the fridge and see that there are some sausages and tomatoes which I decide to cook. I ask my sister how many she wants (Neither her nor me question my intentions of eating hot dogs at this point, which is odd considering the fact I am a vegetarian) anyhow she wants six. I go back to the kitchen and realise I am a vegetarian and decided to just go for the tomatoes. I wake up.

On side notes I attempted to WILD last night, and reached a state where the hallucinations were many, but kept getting distracted by some sort of bug (I checked it, and it was actually in the room). I couldn't seem to get past the hallucination point, but I did feel my body slap into a completely relaxed state. At certain points my body would shake violently, but pleasantly (something I have experienced while stoned AND (not simultaneously as I never practice meditation techniques under influence of any kind) when having practised quigong) I can stop these shakes with conscious efforts, but I tend to take an observing role and just let it roll over me. However I had had no sleep prior to these WILD attempts which could explain why I was unsuccessful (I am an utter noob at this though, so this is just way of getting across that I have read the WILD tutorials ^^).

Okay, so the night before yesterday, I remembered some dreams. I didn't write it down yesterday and now it is almost entirely gone from my mind. I do have the keywords I wrote down right after awakening and they are very funny. xD First of all, considering the handwriting I think I was extremely tired upon writing them, lol.

Some guy was evil
Me rabbit form (I have vague images of me being half transformed into a rabbit. I could jump to the ceiling)
Beat the guy due to starcraft? (wtf starcraft)
Daniel move, walk with furniture (This is something daniel kinda wants to do irl as well. To move somewhere and walk there with the furniture)
Dog challenge
Talk with a wheel (okay, wtf. This takes the prize)
Edi make fun of animal planet

Don't remember a huge deal of last nights dreams.

I was dreaming of the simpsons and Mr Burns was really ill. Then it faded and suddenly my best friend Stuart was standing in my living room telling my mum he was going deep sea diving. He asked me did I want to come and all of a sudden we were standing on a dock with wooden slats, I could feel how cold the wind was and see the water all round the dock. At the end of the dock was a building with glass doors and I followed Stuart in while telling him that I needed a snorkel. He said that we could just share his. Inside the building I remember that the wall looked like it was made up of mostly green light, with pink and yellow at the top corner.

Then I woke up.

I haven't written anything down in my physical DJ in a few days since I've been lazy but I've managed to remember a few frags of dreams that when I woke up, I thought were the most vivid and lengthy dreams in a while.

1: I was in some sort of farm patch and was cutting lettuce off the groun (been watching too much travel channel) and then threw them into a truck behind me. Then it was carrots. After that I reached into a big bush and felt a pain in my right hand. I noticed my pinky was gone! (Should've gotten lucid. Oh well ) It was as if my pinky was cut off.

Spoiler for Kinda Gross:

It was all scabby and overflowing with puss. When I touched it, it felt as if my pinky really were gone and it hurt like a mofo.

Then I continued on with cutting the vegetables.

2: I was in a very large airport like structure and there was an alien spacecraft floating above us They said that if we did not meet their demans that they would burn us alive with acid. After a minute or two it started raining, only it was raining acid. A drop landed on my head and it began to burn. Then, another drop landed on my wrist and also started to hurt. I looked down and there was a small welt where the dorp had hit. All this acid went straight through the roof, but when I put my sweatshirt on it protected me form the acid. I noticed other people running away trying to get away form it.

I was then in another circular room with several people whom I don't remember. There was a T.V. on the wall of a past dream I had (it was a sex dream, lol). They said that they had been monitering my dreams. I asked them "Wait, so you can see all of my dreams?"
"Yes." one of them replied. I started to feel embarressed about them seeing me have sex in my dreams. But then the dream abruptly ended. I'm glad it was just a dream

Entry 6: June 2009

Mini Horse & Being Portuguese

I was at my old middle school but it was really rundown looking. I went to my locker while chatting with a friend and opened the locker with the combination 3,6,9. While talking to my friend Katie we discussed being portuguese. When I opened my locker I recalled putting a mini-horse and a snake in there(living ones). I decided to kill the snake because I could not keep track of where he kept hiding in my locker. But I took the little horse, about the size of a human hand, out for a walk on a leash. It was a chesnut horse with one white sock on its hind leg.

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Entry 3: May 2009

I fed some fish that I knew had been stuck in a building for 100 years with these two girls. I knew they were sisters. Then it flashed into a different scene. I was on a farm and could hear the thoughts of this dog. The dog's thoughts informed me that the farm took in kids without homes. Also he informed he the farm had recently adopted two pigs. Then there was another flash and I was at my elementary school getting a blood sample taken.

NOTES: I did not have very good recall for this group of dreams, they were all quite difficult to remember.

Well I decided that if I was going to really forcus on having LD's it was about time I started my own dream journal. My memory is still pretty patchy but that's what I'm aiming to improve!

I was dreaming that there were 2 neds stood at my desk in work. The first had that "you've been tangoed" look, indicating her complete lack of basic makeup concepts, such as match your skin tone. Anyway, she had dark hair tied back in a ponytail and a white tracksuit on. I don't remember much about her friend, other than she was ginger or blonde.

The dark haired one was asking if there was anything else she could hand in other than a sick line to cover being out sick. I started to tell her that no, only a sick note would do, but Dawn interupted me and told her that yes there was something else.

Can't for the life of me remember what it was she told her though! That's all unfortunately

Aug 11-12: I don't remember much. I remember two or three different fragments.
1. I was swimming in crystal blue waters in the ocean worrying that sharks would get me.
2. I realized that I was dreaming and again tried rubbing my hands together. I checked the time in my dream for some reason, even though I already knew I was dreaming. The dream started to fade out so I tried dream spinning, but it still didn't work. I don't think that I can control what I'm doing while I'm trying to get a fully lucid dream, I think its just instinct to rub my hands together. That obviously doesn't work, so I need to try something else. I don't think I ever woke up, I just think it went on to another dream.
3. My room at my dad's house kept getting set on fire. I also remember some witch lady would chant and randomly set stuff on fire. (Why have all my dreams had fire in them lately?)

Last night I decided to forgo listening to the binaural beats WHILE I slept and instead listened to them and THEN went to sleep. I slept much better. In fact I think I was so tired from my lack of sleep the night before I probably missed most of my REM cycle. When I woke up for my WBTB method I couldn't remember any of my dreams. So I did my WBTB method (woke up for a few minutes, checked email, and then turned on binaural beats and laid back down) and listened to the beats for a good twenty minutes. I then took them off and went to sleep. I woke up a good 4 hours later (quarter to ten, waaay later than I normally get up) and had this jotted down:

My wife and I are on an airplane that apparently goes to space. I'm excited but nervous and am not sure how to react. The plane takes off and then just as quickly Leah and I warp to the airport (what they say about speedy traveling in Dreaming is true, eh?) and we are walking around. We are in a big airport that sort of looks like a giant mall. It's really white and really open. We see a line of people at the suitcase rack and decide to head over. Along the way I ask Leah how long we're on vacation for and she says 'Two days'. I'm instantly upset and go, 'What's the point of a two day vacation. Let's go for five.'. We reach the line of people for suitcases and watch as different people run over to a guy handing them out and open the bags up. Dogs keep jumping out.

I should be upset I didn''t remember much but, honestly, I'm just glad I got a good nights sleep. Two more days of Infinity. Knock on wood and let's hope for some developments.

Okies so,

This is the first entry for me here so be gentle, should probably work on shorting down the descriptions a bit, but as I am only getting back into dreamworks (clever ey!) I find it helpful to increase the level of detail I notice, I might start shorting down the forum posts and keep the detailed descriptions to a private journal.

Non-ludic
Ludic
Notes/reflections

12-08-10 Attained lucidity after waking from a dream within a dream. In the first dream I was hearing routine scraping sounds from my living room and I feared these a bit. In fact i feared them so much that I would not go to the kitchen in order to get some water or milk (I knew I had no milk). I decided instead to go to the toilet which was a hotel style toilet (even though it was right next to my room and I have no such toilet I didn't spot the hint) I was sitting in this toilet looking at the details noticing the increased space, but also that there was a sign right next to the toilet that explained what it was in different languages. I returned to my bed and noticed that my duvet was a bit too small that I could somewhat not fit under it and hide from the ghosts of my flat. At this point I woke up (within the dream) and the scraping sound was now louder from the room next door, but this time it was accompanied with a whisper clear in my head and I looked around and saw a transparent face. Now I suspected I was dreaming so got up, confronted the ghost and told him ”you are a spirit, I am dreaming” he tried to talk me out of it, but I tested my thesis by trying to fly, successfully. I landed snapped my fingers and said ”I am dreaming” I awaited a bit to see if the excitement would wake me up, but this waiting a bit seemed to stabilise the dream. I made the face my spirit friend and told him to come along for the ride, saying ”you are created by me”. I went to the corridor of my flat and tried to fly straight through the door, but everything became black as I tried to do so and after another unsuccessful attempt I decided to try the window instead. Here at first I banged my entire body against the glass (without it breaking) and I took a step back, focused and flew straight through the glass without breaking it. My spirit friend was at this point a bit behind me, but since he wouldn't keep up (or I couldn't be bothered keeping creating him) I flew high and low and saw some people on a spot of grass, and landed in front of them. I told them I was dreaming and that they were projected by me and that we should relish the chance to have a party. The scraping sounds had now turned into a full on funky house background theme song that stayed till the end of the dream. I flew down towards the university and a mass of people where gathering, again I told them they were just in my head and they accepted this and things turned riot like, in a good way. A car with some people in it and an angry driver Jacob Kliver, an old football coach of mine approached. He looked angrily at the people in front of him so I flew straight towards the car (to give him the surprise of his life ^^) put my feet first and kicked the window (without breaking it. The car emptied and I picked it up, to the amusement of the crew around me and tried to throw it in a top floor window, I couldn't quite get it to fit although I tried 3 times, but they seemed happy enough that I could throw a car around. However determined to prove that I could achieve some proper stuff I summoned a leather/metal sofa (now getting reminded that telekinesis was also within the realms of reality) picked it up with my mind and planted it halfway through the top window of the building across the road. I flew onwards and decided that I wanted some sexual/romantic action too and wanted to kiss the first girl that turned up, which happened to be a delicate good looking friend of mine reminding me of Sarah. I kissed her, but it was just too wet and I had some fun explaining to the girl that it was probably because I was kissing myself and in an attempt to stick my own tongue down my throat I was drooling all over the place. So I wiped my mouth and flew on without much happening till I got to a night club where I saw Sarah and a guy that had been on a street earlier. The funky house music was now coming from the speakers of the club and we decided to hang out a while. The guy I decided was a pain in the ass and I wanted to erase him, which I couldn't. I had a conversation with the guy about it saying it was funny that I couldn't because in reality he was a projection of my mind (not sure he thought it was funny) they left, after I insisted on getting his name, which he had to tell me twice (Jay 100) and I went to the window and decided to do a full on telekinetic exit I shattered the glass outwards with my mind (explosion style!!) jumped from the window in a huge arc and landed on a radiator on the outside of an adjacent building, to great amusement of some random people passing by (yes it seemed perfectly logical that a radiator would be placed on the outside of a building, at least at the time!). I decided to practice a few dancing moves, but at this point I had some trouble breathing. I took some time to focus and regain my breath, which I did (although I have no idea as to how, when I woke up later I was face down in my pillow). I danced a bit and did some heavenly parcour (spelling?) until I had some trouble breathing again. At this point I became scared thinking I might not wake up even if I was dying because my conscience was not with my body. I demanded to wake up without success, until I decided to close my eyes and focus on my breath (I have only recently tried WILD techniques, unsuccessfully, but apparently they are great for stopping a no longer wanted dream too =P) and woke up, drawing a deep, DEEP breath (after having pulled my face out the pillow).

Notes: This is the second time the presence of a ghost gives me the hint of the fact I am dreaming. This was in fact a wake back to bed attempt as I had been sleeping most of the day after not having slept much yesterday and getting called to work this morning by my dad.

Regarding the content of my dream, the meanings can be interpreted in a standard Freudian manner about desires, fears etc.

Also at some point there were some old school knee pad protectors (brown and fluffy) and I somehow knew I would need them, although they don't figure in the later stages of the dream(s). However I am not sure what dream they figure in.

12-08-10 Fragmented series of dreams. I was somewhere with some friends of mine Kaiser was there. As the end of the trip approached he told me he was looking forward to going to a long planned event with me that I had totally forgotten. Even as he reminded me of the contents of this event I had no recollection of what happened and how I got involved. He later tried to sway me me by having Dukakis on a call and a friend of Duki's asked what and what was happening to me, I believe the place I was supposed to go was Bulgaria. Later on I even took out my calendar flipped through the filled out pages (I should kill myself for not realising this was a dream here, as I oppose diaries and calendars with a passion) and did indeed find the date in mention with a note called “focus fuck” referring to my intentions of participating in this event. I still couldn't remember a damn thing, and although now I was actually getting convinced I had agreed to it, I was sure I hadn't agreed to anything that took place foreignly. When I in the end refused to go, Kaiser was severely disappointed, in fact he was in tears and this touched me. We departed at the train station, actually a hell of a lot of train travelling took place, and I ended up in bulgaria although Kaiser and Duki were not part of this segment of the dream. I met a girl, not a very attractive girl (in fact with a female mustache) but I felt connected to her and I liked her in a non-sexual fashion. We were not able to communicate a lot and therefore we decided to attend a language school together and at this language school the teacher asked who was serious and actually intended on learning something rather than being there to get credits for something. Both her and I decided that we were going to learn the common means of communication. However this never occurred as a demonic (seemed goblin like) police officer turned up in a car outside. He shot the girl in the throat, a fatal wound, and I never managed to catch up with him. I returned to the home of the girl and decided to remain a little longer in the company of her brother. Her brother introduced me to an older brother of his, who had experience and an underground network of people, in fighting supernatural beings. One of these ended up being a warewolf, also a police officer and I was riding a bike with this older brother who told me the gun I had was loaded with silver bullets. I shot this man who was chasing us from the back of the bike, I hit him in the shoulder, but because of the silver bullets this was enough to kill him. As he was dying I noticed that he started to shift (he grew a mean ass set of teeth!) and I also noticed that from the bullet wound a silver coating appeared engulfing the man's shoulder starting from deep within his veins. We returned to the house of the siblings and we went to a field to play some football the two brothers and I (after having ventured on yet another train travel). I somehow had a ticket that would allow me free roaming transport on any train, after having checked this with a controller. In the end I departed and explained to the younger brother of the girl that despite the tragic circumstances I was glad to have gotten to know him better and had a good time. I woke up.

Notes: This is not the first time I have experienced (and missed) trains as a clear dream sign.