lucid

I drew myself up from my body and I felt myself trembling a little... Everything was shining in grayish light in the darkness, even the air itself contained small particles shining in soft gray light... When I looked around myself, I saw no body, not myself, not my wife, nor children. I looked to other rooms but nobody was there. I didn't go downstairs...
Instead, I flew like on autopilot right through southern window into the night. With no target on my mind, I flew some 5 - 10 meters above ground, in general direction to the city about 8km away. It was dark... it was nighttime in real life after all (when I traveled). The houses of my village bellow me, silent... I left them behind. I left my village, I flew over meadows and small woods. I saw all the plants, trees, rocks, river... everything sharply lit in that grayish light. I felt to be tired, my consciousness wanted to shut down and sleep, but my will was keeping me conscious. It was tedious task. I crossed first stream of the river, and then I got to second part which has about 7 - 10 meters high walls- it is used to feed water dam to make electricity... I got problems with concentration there (it made the flying problematic), but I managed to overcome it and I shot high to the sky while crossing second stream of river. I sat on the few meter big rock and stopped looking around. I felt loneliness... there were no people, nor animal life there. Only plants, water, rocks... Weak emotions ran through me... Where are you? I called... There was no answer...
I flew again and into silent empty city... no light from windows... all cars still on the road. I held myself conscious by iron will through tens of minutes... It felt like hour long experience when I felt, that I was losing the strength to remain awake, so I willed myself awake.
I controlled the time- yes it was half past 1, about one hour passed since I lay down to the bed.

Remarks
I felt quite tired, wanting to go sleep, but once managing it out of my body, it would be pity not to explore surroundings a little.
There is no rock in real life close to that second river stream.
I hoped, that I didn't call that in real life- the connection between real body and astral one may be quite useful but on other side it may cause some minor problems... like waking people around myself
Strange how I'm able to feel emotions lately... without loosing balance of my consciousness and therefore stability of OBE.

Morning of May 16, 2017. Tuesday.



This dream shifts into apex lucidity with automatic but unintentional re-induction from an ongoing non-lucid dream. It is not scripted. (I do not yet post scripted dreams of most types and I usually do not post sexual dreams, at least more graphically, regards of numerous ones in a sequence on a typical night, which are sometimes triggered by the Tetris effect.) For the record, this is also why I never “answer challenges”. It is too easy and unfair to people who do not understand what dreams or different levels of consciousness are, since dreams can so easily be scripted (on at least three different levels - visually, situation-based, and core affirmations), especially when one fully understands both induction and waking symbolism (of the same type used in hypnosis and guided meditation). However, I have always held a greater interest in documenting non-lucid dreams even if they are mostly only induction, dreaming, and waking symbolism (other than the common day-to-day remote viewing and precognitive features).

My dream starts in a non-lucid form. I am with a young version of Zsuzsanna (who appears as she did in 1994, when we first met). I do not take conscious notice of this. We are living in an unknown second-floor apartment. For some reason, I have to go somewhere. I find myself carrying two suitcases (of the same color and design I had when arriving in Australia, that is, there are two copies of the “same” one). This is not possible of course, but I still do it. The two identical suitcases, I somehow carry by the handles in my right hand at the same time. I go down a staircase and through a door at the bottom.

Of course, going down a staircase (of about sixteen steps) in a dream is a common real-time re-induction event and automatically shifts my consciousness (just as in hypnosis and guided meditation). My conscious self identity starts to increase more and more (and going up a staircase often does the same thing, though going down is usually induction or re-induction while going up is waking).

Stepping through the door is an additional “kick” into greater conscious self awareness (though which more often serves as waking symbolism as the actual waking prompt itself). In fact, as I turn about to go into the (unknown) backyard, the suitcases seem to dissolve (though up to that point, I could still clearly feel them and I was even aware of them bumping together - again, regardless of how carrying them this way would not be possible in reality). I reach such an augmented level of conscious self awareness that I am puzzled (that is, I fully know that I am dreaming, but it does not seem possible for a dream to have this much clarity regarding real-life perception even though I have experienced it all my life since around the age of two). There is no difference in how I feel and perceive from waking reality, other than deeper, smoother breathing and less body weight. I remain puzzled because I am trying to decide what to do. It is nighttime and the area is unfamiliar. Our fictional second-floor apartment seems near the back of a building and is near a commercial area, although there is a field on one side.

For now, I start walking, amazed by how real it seems. I look across the unfamiliar street and see a Cat Excavator on display in a storefront window. Of course, this is a metaphorical association with “digging deeper” (that is, looking into old memories, which is really not that important to me at the time). I notice an unfamiliar man and woman walking by the front of the store. From across the street, (by mental will) I “wipe” the excavator display from the store window. I do not see anything to read (such as the store’s name) and then start to consider how much time I have before circadian rhythms start to kick in (as this is my last dream of the morning).

Of course, I instantly think of indulging in sensuality, as, in dreams, sexual acts transmute into high levels of spiritual awareness and blissful, expanding coalescence factors in addition to the increased sense of touch. (This of course is because the dream body is not actually physical - something many people seem to completely lack the understanding of, which is why many of my dreams switch back and forth in phasing, from being incorporeal to being in my fictitious dream body).

I decide, at first, to will numerous dream characters into the field and watch them walk around. There are probably about twenty or so. I change their age and sex for several minutes. (This is similar to the non-lucid beginning of apex lucidity in some cases, where a dream character will switch identities at a rate of two per second, until my conscious awareness kicks in, which I then augment by going through a door for full control.) I am doing it here at a rate of about two per second. However, I decide to stop messing around and bring the version of Zsuzsanna that was in the apartment up to me. She approaches and lowers to give me oral pleasure. It does not matter that twenty other “people” are walking around in the semidarkness. It is just a dream. There is no symbolism in this type of dream, as lucid dreams are made by the self (though instinctual dreaming is as well).

From here, instead of a climax, layers of bliss start to flow over me almost like layers of “additional skin”. I awake with no discernible shift in consciousness; just a subtle “wave” of “ghost skin” rapidly dropping away from my body. This is an atypical way to wake (probably my “softest” waking to date), as even in scripted dreams there is often a hypnopompic event that kicks more than in a normal dream.

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2017, 05-13

Realm of Dragons

I am in a place I don't recognize. It is someone's house, someone I know and am friends with, but my mind is fuzzy and I can't think clearly. I enter into a living room with a big flat screen television. There is a woman sitting on the couch with a man. She has her arm around the man. The names that come to mind are MoSh for the man and Asuka for the woman. I am thinking Data from Star Trek should also be here somewhere. I ask MoSh and Asuka where Data is. MoSh says he'll help me look. Asuka says there are fresh cookies in the kitchen, I should help myself. I go into the kitchen and I see a plate full of large cookies on the counter. I take a cookie and start looking for Data. MoSh comes with me. He says he knows where Data might be, so as he leaves the room I follow MoSh.

I follow MoSh out of the kitchen as I eat my cookie. It is a delicious and fresh and warm cookie. It must have been made recently. MoSh leads me down a long hallway to some stairs at the end that lead up. We go up the stairs and into what looks like a control room out of a Star Trek space ship. Data is in the room at the far side, working on one of the control consoles. I go over to Data and ask where he's been recently. He says he has been here most of the time, maintaining the defense systems. MoSh looks at some of the controls and says this place keeps getting invaded by that night stalker. Data says he's adapting the defenses to keep that guy out while still allowing for friends like me to pass through. He says that's harder than one might think.

MoSh and I go over to Data. MoSh asks where the dragons are, the ones we brought back from the other dimension. Data types a few things and brings up a picture on a monitor of a tall mountain that has a cave near the top. He says the dragons are in there and points at the cave. I say if the dragons have been there the whole time, why haven't they responded to the recent attacks? Shouldn't that night stalker be getting greeted upon entry by two annoyed dragons? Data pauses as if thinking and then types a few more things and brings a map up on the monitor. There is a map of the area around this house and then a separate area with the mountain and the dragons. I ask how the dragons are supposed to see and respond to an attack from a separate area? Data doesn't answer for a bit and then says that's not how it's supposed to be... he'll have to fix that. He goes back to work on the console.

MoSh goes back down stairs to a door that leads outside. We are behind the house, in a beautiful garden. I am looking at all of the flowers and the stream flowing through the garden. MoSh looks off into the distance where there's something strange happening. The area is looking like a scene in an Assassin's Creed game where a new area is being constructed and made ready for exploration. MoSh and I watch that for a while and I see that the scene forming is the one of the tall mountain with the cave near the top. It's the dragons' mountain that I saw on the monitor. Finally the formation phase is complete and it now looks like the mountain has always been there.

I follow a magpie from a cave to a snowy mountainside and a pine forest. I think about how high up they can survive, what do they eat etc. I find these magpies interesting. After following one of them to the edge of the forest, I manifest a body and start making my way through the snow. I look at my analog watch, which has blue and purple lights. It's 5 am. Explains why it's dark. I really want to make it back to the hotel before others notice I've been out all night.

Darkness.

I'm suddenly inside a building I don't recognize. I'm happy being lucid and start looking for a way out. I pet a dog on the way out and hum a song to keep myself calm. I think about a sunny yard outside and the dream takes me there. I see my oldest friend Niko outside, fixing his car I assume. The house is surrounded by pine forest and there's a couple on the vast yard. I go talk to Niko. I tell him we are in a lucid dream. He doesn't answer, but smiles faintly. I summon a purple baseball and throw it. I control it's flight so Niko can see we are in a dream. The ball makes a loop in the air. I decide to use vocal commands too. "Return!" The ball starts flying back to me. I attempt to catch it, but it hits Niko in the head. I throw it again and tell it to return, but this time I remove the ball's momentum before trying to catch it. It stops completely just before reaching me and falls down. Well, whatever...

Niko's little sister and a random female DC appear on the yard. I think about the DJ post I'm gonna write later and decide I should do something cool like magic. I point my finger at the random DC and yell "Abracadabra!". Her clothes change, she now has a short black skirt. She seems impressed by my magic. Then I decide to focus on my personal goal. I tell the girls and Niko that we are going to space. I ask them to get into Niko's red, futuristic car. The girls are vocal about getting the front seat, I don't care. Niko drives and I sit next to him. I touch the roof of the car and tell the car to fly. It starts to fly and after a bit of struggle we clear the treetops, but then Niko takes us down and follows railroad tracks. I ask why and tell him to fly up. We dodge an incoming train and clear the power lines. We talk about Niko's experience with flight simulators. Niko takes us down to a road as we chat. It gets really hot in the car, everyone is sweating. I do a quick RC by counting fingers and tell myself this is a lucid dream. I ask where we are driving. Niko says he's going to get fuel somewhere safe. So that the people looking for us don't immediately find us. I accept this and notice street signs are in Estonian. Apparently we are going through Estonia to Russia to get fuel. I start thinking about how I transform the car into a real spaceship once we make it to space. I worry about leaving Niko and the girls alone in space when the lucid ends. I tell them I'll make the spaceship good so they don't have to worry. Girls have some doubts about my skills.

And I woke up. Low level lucidity, but really stable. Should have just driven the flying car myself. Old totm is the only thing I recalled besides my personal goal.

Had another uneventful but still awesome lucid dream this morning. It was a regular dream and then it started getting suspicious and I manipulated it. I am in the bathroom trying to fix my tights. First they broke and my feet were hanging out, but then I hadn't shaved my legs and the hairs were poking out through the mesh. Then my dress was too see-through and you could see my underwear. Just a big epic wardrobe malfunction. They are tights anymore, now they are panty hose, I pull them up to try and squish the leg hairs down so nobody will notice back at the wedding I'm at. I hurry outside to the bedroom and proceed to put on red lipstick. I go to the next room, a living room and sit on a couch and look out a window but rested my head on my closed palm and messed up my lipstick, so I go back to the bedroom to fix it. I grab a small green gift bag and pull out the lipstick. I start to apply it but this time it is pink. I start getting suspicious and eventually after sharpening the lipstick I am lucid when what I think was a dog or a human dream figure jumps on top of me to kiss me. I close my eyes and grab the dream figure and focus so that it'll turn into a specific person (my ex; ugh), so that I can have dream sex. I works I can feel a naked soft back. I tell the df, you are my ex aren't you? But when I open my eyes, it's some kid I went to middle school with, Javier. Very disappointed I know my expectations play a big role so I tell Javier, okay you are going to take me to my ex in your truck. I doubt it though and when we are walking down a dark hallway to his truck the dream disintegrates and I open my eyes and I am awake. Ugh, so close! Maybe next time.

2017, 05-12

Return to Minas Tirith

I am in a place I don’t recognize, I look around and see a man, is demanding to know who I am and how I got up here. He says only his personal guards and those he has admitted are permitted here. I wonder who he is, then I see another man there is Gandalf from Lord of the Rings. Gandalf says he knows me, I have traveled with their company at a couple different times. More important now is that Denethor get a rescue force together or Faramir and his men have no chance of reaching the city alive. I ask what has happened. Gandalf goes to the edge of the outcropping that overlooks Minas Tirith and the surrounding lands and he points out at a rock formation that is surrounded by many orcs. He says Faramir and his men have taken refuge there, but they can’t hold off the attacks forever, which is why Denethor needs to send out a rescue sortie. Denethor says there is no way a sortie would be successful, he would just be sending more men out to die. Gandalf is frustrated and says Denethor’s son is out there as if Denethor wasn’t already aware that Faramir was out there and cornered. Denethor says it is the hardest decisions that fall to him, but there is no hope for success. I tell him to just stay up here and watch if he thinks the situation is impossible.

Denethor is asking me what I think I can do about this but I ignore him and run right at the edge of the outcropping. I jump up and out into the open air much to both Denethor’s and Gandalf’s surprise. I fly out over the city and then out over the fields beyond. The enemies are filling the fields beyond, they are doing double takes at me flying but then they start firing arrows at me. I dodge them and dive down to a place among the enemies, about halfway between the rock formation and the gates of Minas Tirith. This is a good spot for Dark Power of Abyss by Rhapsody, it’s time to drop an Immortal Fire! “And suddenly the unreal silence is broken by a lament... a lament coming up from the deepest darkest abyss. And from the seven gates of the dark fortress, the dead come back to life to face them... this is hell!” As I do the next part a circle of light energy erupts around me. “Immortal fire, now rise, light my heart, light my way through the darkness, the guardian of space and time!” A circle of light energy explodes out from my position, blasting enemies out of the way all of the way from the rock formation where Faramir and his men are hiding to the gates of Minas Tirith.

In the aftermath of that massive blast the fields are left bare, enemies that were on the edge of the affected area are all fleeing in terror of a force they have never witnessed the like of. The way to the rock formation where Faramir and his men are is clear, I go over there to see if everyone is able to move towards Minas Tirith. I see Faramir come around the edge of the formation, with another familiar person right behind him. Altaïr is there with Faramir, his sword is drawn and covered in the blood of orcs. Altaïr says the enemies won’t stay afraid to approach for long, they’re too dumb to know their own peril. I ask if anyone needs healing before they can be moved to the city. There are a couple that are on the edge of death with serious wounds, so I quickly heal them and then we start heading for the gates of the city. Most of the enemies are keeping their distance, but not the Nazgul, five of them are swooping in towards us as we are making for the gates. From the gates of Minas Tirith now comes a man on a white horse, they are blazing with light energy. It’s Gandalf, the White Rider charging out to meet us, shining a bright ray of light energy at the approaching Nazgul. The wraiths veer aside and break off their attack, retreating into the night. We reach the gates and get inside, Gandalf following us in as the gates are swung closed with a heavy clang. The people in the city are all cheering us and the return of Faramir and his men, happy to see their safe return. I now have the time to heal the rest of the wounded, whether their wounds be small or great. Shortly after I finish healing the last wound everything around me fades to black and I wake.

Nothing I hate more than RCing all day every day for over a week only to have a lucid less than a minute.

Visiting

Just a dream of Asuka walking me to visit my cousin K. We go into her place, and half the room is blocked by a giant blanket. On the left I see she has a piano there. I am wondering why she has a piano since I've never heard of her playing any instrument. She closes the wooden thing over the keys. She opens the blanket curtain to reveal a couch and a large TV. I remember going to sit down.

Throwing money away.

I was in a dingy apartment, there were a group of people playing a poker game at a large table. "Texas hold-em?" I ask. One guy says no. I ask how much to buy in. He says $150. I pull out a wad of cash and pull out $100 dollar bill. I get mixed sorting out how much 20s to pull out. some seem stuck together. I throw it on the table and sit down. I am waiting for the current hand to finish when I look to a small kitchen separated by a small wall. I see Chris there over a sink boiling some spaghetti noodles. He moves them to a sink to drain them. "Hi, Chris," I say, and look to the table. "Huh?" I hear him grunt. But it's not his voice. I look again but it isn't chris, but some taller rough buy with a beard.

I look to the table, And realize it's a dream. "Well gotta go boys," I say and get up. I find the door to the apartment. I open the door and notice how solid everything seems. I think I just left 150 of dream money on the table.

I emerge into a dark corridor and everything starts to go black.

I wake briefly and stay still to DEILD.

I'm at the bottom of the stairwell at the apartment. But no doors lead outside. I find a large black room. I see a girl running into the darkness. I am about to ask her where an exit is when I wake up.

Then I discovered that my wallet was missing $150.... Just kidding!

Secret school

I am with some guy in a school. He shows me this secret passageway in the school that leads to a secret lab. For some reason we leave. But my glasses break and he says there's special glasses in the lab. We go back into the secret passageway and I see Robert Downey Jr. walking with another student. This scares me for some reason so I run really fast through the passageway. There's a part with some dark steps and twists and turns but I seem to know the place well.

We go into the lab and the guy asks me why I was running. I told him that Robert Downey Jr. spotted us. He said not to worry he's not to concerned with his lab right now. I find my new glasses. They are a pair of shades. I put them on and my vision improves. My friend says there's and VR Oculus thingy to put on my glasses. I take them off and get special lenses that clip onto the glasses. I put them on and a VR scene appears before me. It's a cartoonish green landscape. I wake up here.

Date of Dream: SUN 14 MAY - 2017



One Dream Combat Championship Challenger: DEFEATED!!! There are now 6 challengers remaining in this round... Do you and Dreamy WB have what it takes to get to them in time and reign victorious?



Dream No. 113 - Stick Strife
Lucid Dream 6

Although I've forgotten exactly how I became lucid, I do remember that there was a change of awareness in me. I was now consciously aware that I could change some aspects of my dream. I was in my house, in the front room, when I said to myself, “I want to find the area and fight that pot plant now”. That's when the dream camera shifted over to an image of a bowl with fuzzy, tangled vines in it, almost like very thick strands of knotted hair... But that's not what I was facing.

The dream camera then went back to the front room, which claimed to be my arena, although it didn't look like an arena in any way. There was now a stick laying on the floor, just laying there like a normal stick in a backyard would. The only special feature about this stick was its two, long-shaped black eyes on the top. I thought that to defeat the stick, I'd break bits off it until it came to nothing. The only problem is, every time I'd break the stick for the first time, it's “head” would keep “regenerating”! At the same time, my mum was sitting on the couch and she was trying to tell me what I should do but then she was also distracting me. It's like the dream was using her to break me out of my lucidity and the pot plant (stick) task at hand. I told her I knew what I was doing and so she eventually stopped and minded her own business.

I was frustrated and frightened because I was still breaking the stick for the first time and it was still growing back. And so I yell out, “Dreamy WB! What's going on here? Do something!”. In this dream, Dreamy WB wasn't physically there but rather, she was an invisible force. A subconscious message came to me that I had 30 seconds to break down as much of the stick as possible. In the dream, I found myself counting out loud to 30 and when I hit 30, the stick became rigid again. So the stick was about ¾ way broken when it decided it would now “attack” me.

The dream camera had showed a close-up of my eye and these was now a toothpick going vertically up it, like someone trying to keep you awake. The phenomenon was that the stick had put the toothpick there to cause a lump on the outer socket, intentionally causing injury. So I was in no condition to handle the stick. The dream somehow subconsciously suggested to get Dreamy WB and that she would place her finger on the lump to heal it. Once that idea was expressed, I had some sort of warm, fuzzy feeling surrounding me. I noticed that the lump had disappeared and so I continue to handle that stick.

I then thought to myself, “You are going to pay dearly”. I noticed I had control of my 4 elements. I used fire on the stick but that did nothing. Earth was next and that didn't do anything either. Electricity was the third try but had no effect. Last of all was ice and that's what ended the life of the stick, making it shrivel up and shatter. Surprisingly, that's the only dream I remember from that night.



There will be a "Behind The Scenes" entry for this dream.

#509 - DILD - 12:50AM

I am in something that I associate with The Matrix. There is some sort of leech looking thing that I somehow pull out of my body. I know that if I can hold it without breaking the membrane I will stay in the Matrix. I know my environment isn't real and it's a dream but I believe the back story.

I get up off the couch and am supposed to do a simple task of finding some teeth whitening mouthwash. I move into a bathroom that has a lot of items on the counter. While searching I break the membrane of the thing in my hand and know the Matrix will find me. I give up and go back to the couch.

Mary from work is at her desk. She tells me that I still have 15 min. Something about this makes me fully lucid and I get up off the couch again. For fun I go ahead and find the mouthwash. There is a small vial on a TV stand. I take it and taste the cool minty taste and then leave the house.

I am on some countryside and I want to be in a Skyrim environment. The dream fully fulfills this wish. I run through grassy meadows and hillside and take in the vivid detail. For some reason I think I recognize this part from the game and feel happy the dream is taking on so much from it. I enter a shadowy area with a few trees. I have a sword in my hand held up high. I wonder why there are no monsters to fight. Suddenly, a two headed dragon appears. It shoots fire at a tree. I hulk leap at it ready to strike it will a sword, but at that moment I wake up.

2017, 05-12

The Battle at Osgiliath

I am in what appears to be a meeting hall, I am near the back of the room. I look around and see it is filled with warriors that appear to be of high rank. I hear someone talking at the front of the room, he is talking about not giving up the outer defenses. I hear mention of the outpost at Osgiliath, and that more soldiers need to go there to defend. A man says they will not be able to hold it long even with reinforcements. I get a bit closer and I recognize one of the men speaking as Faramir, captain of Gondor. I assume that the man he is talking with must be the steward of the lane, Denethor, Faramir’s father. Denethor says Boromir can’t do everything, he is away on an urgent errand, but if any captain remains who will do his lord’s bidding… Faramir says he will go to Osgiliath if Denethor orders it, and Denethor immediately says he does order it.

Faramir leaves the hall and I follow him out, I don’t think Denethor even noticed me. Gandalf is out with Faramir now telling him not to throw his life away needlessly, he says Denethor loves Faramir and will remember that before the end. I go over to Faramir and ask if he could use a little extra help, I will offer my skills as a healer and a warrior. He seems hesitant, probably because I am a woman, but finally says he will take any who are willing to come, for they will need all the help they can get at Osgiliath. I follow Faramir out where he gets on a horse, and some other soldiers are also on horses. A Rapidash I recognize as my own Rapidash named Stardust trots over to me. The people around are staring in amazement at Stardust’s flaming mane and tail. I climb up on Stardust and we are ready to go. I tell Faramir that if I go ahead and use a healing spell on the attackers I am sure at least some will break off the attack. He asks if that’s why the company moving through Ithilien was so small, I say yes, many of them turned back. He says to go ahead, then. An enemy who turns away from the fight is worth two who have to be defeated in battle.

I ride with Faramir and the others for the trip to Osgiliath because the enemy still hasn’t shown themselves. The waiting when we get to Osgiliath is the hardest, and I am afraid I will wake up before the action even starts. Soon there are armies approaching from the other side of the Anduin River. That’s my signal so I ride right towards the middle of the group while focusing on the song Full Moonlight from the Devil Hunter Yohko soundtrack. The song plays, I am surrounded by light energy that spreads out over the area as I am spinning around, forming into an orb in the sky that looks like a moon shining bright. Light energy is spreading out from that orb, bathing all of the attacking forces in its light. Indeed, some of the enemies start turning back the way they came, but they don’t get far. The Nazgul are following up the attack and immediately strike down anyone who is trying to retreat. This really pisses me off because they are killing all of the enemies I have managed to heal. I focus a blast of light energy from my moon orb right at the Nazgul who are attacking, and it creates an opening for at least some of those who have changed their minds to escape.

There are still plenty of enemies attacking, however. And the Nazgul are attacking rather than following after the enemies who have decided to retreat. I leave the moon orb to cast light energy over the battle areas in hope that it might counter the fear effect of the Nazgul. I form my right arm into an Alex Mercer blade and start cutting up the enemies who I was not able to heal. The battle rages on for a while, I have killed many orcs and healed several injured soldiers of Gondor. But there are just so many enemies that before long they are slipping past and our group has to fall back towards Minas Tirith to keep from being surrounded. There are also more soldiers of Gondor injured than I can keep up with healing, so I break off and help escort some of the injured to a place sheltered by large rock formations where I can heal them without being attacked. I heal them but then I am feeling the dream slipping. Faramir has arrived with more injured men and I tell him I’m about to disappear, no time to explain, but I will come back as soon as I can. Everything around me fades to black and I wake up.

Had a lucid dream this morning after doing a mindfulness meditation. I had meditated for an hour before I finally went back to sleep. The sleep paralysis came on in 10 minutes. I didn't lose awareness, I just waited until I could feel my dream body move freely then I got out of my bed. The visuals were weird because I could feel my eyes opening over and over again so I had to wait a little bit more. I was getting anxious because I didn't want to fall fully asleep.

The dream world solidified and I made it outside of my house. Found Naomi and we walked down my street. The sky was dark grey and stormy. I reached up into the sky and parted my clouds revealing a beautiful fuschia color. We tried to get to the park but, either I woke up and fell asleep again or I lost lucidity. Must have been the former. That has been a problem. I wake up and fall back into a non-lucid dream.

I emerged into lucid dream with my wife, hand in hand... the place was unknown city, it was dark night, the sky was without stars or moon, but there were many shops opened and shining, lighting the darkness in front of them. I walked with my wife hand in hand down the street, looking around. My wife was more like sleep zombie then lucid. She spotted some beauty shop and insisted that she looked old and that she needs to look better and younger for me. I disagreed but couldn't do anything before she entered that shop. Firstly, I wanted to follow her, so I wouldn't lose her in dream, but then spotted something strange.

There was a tunnel a few tens of meters away, lit in darkness and some kind of a monster was at the end of it. I decided to investigate that. There is no fear in the high lucidity of experience I had. So I entered the tunnel. While tunnel looked a few tens of meters long when I was at its beginning, it was only optical illusion. It was only about 3 meters long and everything in it was painted... I got quickly to the monster, but it was only pixelated painting. I turned back to be quickly by my wife. I was back in the beauty shop under one minute, but my wife disappeared. I went away from the shop, into the city. I walked for long time without thoughts, without aim, without emotions... I was only observing my surrounding taking the information from it.

After many tens of minutes I decided that I should take more active approach and I decided to examine some buildings. So I turned to closest one, with very big double sided doors. I opened them easily... and behind those doors there was only about 1 meter space... but as I turned, I saw that in 90 degrees angle from doors direction there are broad stars up... everything was lighted in bright white light, but without visible light source. The stairs ended in great hall... there were sitting benches and a few dream zombies moving around without aim. Otherwise, the space was feature less. Wanting to go back, I turned, but those stairs disappeared- there was only featureless white wall at its place. I wasn't interested in those mindless people there. In retrospective, I could try to interact with them... maybe even try to have sex. But as nearly always I don't have such intentions when my lucidity is so strong. Not knowing what to do and not wanting to end the dream at that time, I decided that I will sit down and relax for some time. I was there tens of minutes of subjective time.

The surrounding changed and I found myself sitting in the bus driving to my village. The surrounding was familiar. It was night there. When the bus drove into my village I asked old woman which was sitting close by, where is the bus driving next. She told me that it is going to village where my friend lives. So I decided that I will not get off of it but I will try to visit her. Well the bus drove into unfamiliar surroundings, the place looked like one where I got often when I get lost in my LD and OBE experiences. I asked again whether this bus goes to her village, and the answer was yes. So I waited. And really, I saw the familiar scene- but there was marked difference- the right side of the road had about 80 degrees downwash, 100 meters or more deep, and at the bottom of that valley the shining yellow hot lava flowed. The left side looked like it should, but right side, where also my friend house stands wasn't there. Not even sidewalk was there. Parts of tarmac road was looking like it was running off to the valley. I resettled the dream not wanting to go there, trying to go to the right place.

Now, I was flying to friend's village. Everything looked OK. Till I got to her village- again, the right side of the road was deep valley. The difference was, that that valley didn't contain lava stream, but now it was full of trees. Even the steep sides. So I decided that I need to wake up to reset the dream properly. And I woke up.


Remarks:

* My wife wasn't too lucid there, more like typical dream zombie, but at least she reacted to me. Dream zombie is my term for people in lucid dreams and OBEs- those people look normal but are like automatons, or robots in their activities.
* My wife lamented about her age and looks night before, and I tried to persuade her that it doesn't matter to me and to our children and that we love her... this probably translated into dream.
*I went to sleep after long relaxation, so I wasn't tired... I was left with 4 hours of sleep left... and I was so focused that I decided to try the lucid dreaming or OBE if I would be able to. WILD came first here.
* Real time of this WILD was about 1 hour. I found that I wasn't tired being lucid for so long... but of those less than 3 hours of sleep I was left, I don't remember of any other dream. And I'm not feeling sleepy.

2017, 05-11

The White Rider

I am in a city that looks like it came straight out of a fantasy game. I look around and see a lot of people moving about, some of them stop to look at me as if they have never seen the like of me. I notice most of the people I am seeing are men that are decked out in armor as if ready for war. I’m not sure where I should be going, but I get the idea I should be going somewhere… I walk for a while and soon one of the men passing by asks what I am doing here. He says he doesn’t mean any offense, but he thought all of the women went to the shelter in the mountains. I’m not really sure what to tell him when I hear another voice call me by name, someone clearly recognizes me! I look and see Pippin from Lord of the Rings. Pippin says he was wondering when he would see me again. The man who questioned me says he thought all the women had left, Pippin says I’ve traveled with their company at times and I fight as well as a company of men. He says if I help protect Minas Tirith then the enemy will surely fail! I see Pippin is with another man, the first man continues on with his duties. Pippin introduces me to his friend who turns out to be Beregond, one of the soldiers of Minas Tirith. Pippin says they were just going up on the wall to see what they can see, maybe I should come. Beregond seems a little hesitant, but Pippin says he knows me well enough to vouch for me.

I follow Beregond and Pippin up some stairs and soon we are at the top of a wall overlooking the lands surrounding the city. I look out over the lands as Beregond and Pippin are talking about what is out there and what they know to be coming. I hear a faint noise out there that sounds demonic, and both Beregond and Pippin shiver as if a chill has run through them. Pippin looks over the wall and points to a place where three flying shapes can be seen swooping and turning in the sky. I look out and see it, too, and there are also shapes on the ground that appear to be people on horses. The flying shapes are firing blasts of dark energy at the people and horses, and I hear a horn blast from them. Beregond says that’s Faramir. Pippin is saying Faramir and his riders will never make it, won’t someone go help them? It looks like Beregond might be about to head out to help them but I have seen now why I am here. Much to Beregond’s amazement I jump right off of the wall to head out and help.

I see it is a lot farther than I had realized and I need a ride… I need a horse! As if called by my thoughts, I hear the sound of hooves behind me. I look back and I see a Rapidash quickly catching up with me. Rapidash slows down a bit beside me so I can jump onto her back and then she speeds towards the approaching riders as they are being bombed by the flying Nazgul yet again. Rapidash is fast, and in just an instant I am among them, using the song Battery by Metallica to call down bolts of white lightning on the attacking Nazgul. It doesn’t take much to make them back down, they immediately break off their attacks and soar back to the east, back to Mordor. I see flashes of white in the sky from off to the North, and two more Nazgul retreat from up there. Shortly after they retreat I see a white horse come into view with a white rider, Gandalf has come, but apparently the Nazgul had split up in order to keep him away from Faramir and the fleeing riders so they could not make it to Minas Tirith. Gandalf arrives and asks if everyone is ok, he says we need to get into Minas Tirith in case they return. All of the riders get their scared horses back under control and everyone rides for Minas Tirith. But I never get there because on the way I wake up.

Notes: I procrastinated on my goals. I suppose...I should leave the Japanese sauna for another time? I mainly want to do it cause I wanna relax in the dream but I found myself leaning more to the action side for these dreams. ^w^ I think I'll try and have a dream that's relaxing next though.Also, the ending for dream 3 was kind of mean but yeah, I wasn't fully aware of what I was doing.

Sci-fi Weapons

I was looking at a television where someone pointed out that adventure time had a monster hidden inside. It was time for us to sleep though so I decided to not pay much mind to it. After going to the bedroom and laying down I noticed that my brother's friends were sleeping in the room as well. "Why are they wearing all black?" I asked myself than started hearing a tapping noise from within the walls."It's okay. Just fall asleep". But than I heard a man's voice say to break down the wall and to put in the gas. This made me think of hitler but when I moved and they broke down the wall I saw what looked like a firefighter.

I ran a bit than let him catch me. But than I got the urge to challenge myself. Pushing him back than leaping from wall to wall I managed to go through the ceiling. After that I flew through the wall and into the night sky. I turned to see my opponent and saw a distorted dream character who had a huge violet/dark blue sci-fi gun that blasted electricity. Taking a sci-fi gun from someone else in the air, I lunged forward towards my opponent, hitting it in the face. I than let go of the sci-fi gun and grabbed a black gun handed to me by a anime girl with short orange hair, when I got closer to the ground. Her tall mysterious guy partner stood next to her as she told me that they were going to get in on the action.

I'm Someone's Ghost HW

I was in what seemed like a huge hotel on vacation. There I went into a room to see my brother's friend and him playing a Zelda game. It looked cool so I took the controls and moved link from the bridge and onto the ships." What town is on the next map?" I asked. I was told that I couldn't get there yet though so I lost interest and left the room.

However, my brother's friend followed me and started annoying me. I felt him push me though so I hit him. His body than twisted in a strange manner as he taunted me with his so called snake move. "I don't care what move you use, I'll break through" I replied to him than hit him hard. It started to feel like a pointless fight though. Before going into the next room I became somewhat aware it was a dream because of a strange picture of my cousin.

When I was in the other room I decided to check out the place secretly and went through a white door. I ended up in a hall than looked to the ground to see a wooden latch door. After opening it and falling through, I touched a plastic bag filled with garbage than looked around till I found myself back in the room I was in. Except this time Eye was present with someone else,playing games.

I decided to sit down next to Eye as I pondered what to do. I had met with Eye like I wanted to but what was next. After looking out the huge rectangular window I asked him where the interesting stuff was at. He told me on the third floor. Going through the ground twice I ended up on the third floor where I saw third graders. One who looked like my younger brother from the past grabbed my hand than asked me if he could show me to his teacher. I asked him why and he said cause his teacher wanted to see a ghost for his homework. I said no but after seeing him cry I picked him up and hugged him. Since it was a dream it wouldn't matter.

After his teacher saw me, she commended him and I said goodbye to them both. Next I found myself in a strange place with what looked like homeless and drug addicted people in a cave. One of the hippy woman approached me making me jump with a scream though. I pushed her onto the floor than got curious how loud I could scream and screamed the loudest I've done in a while in a dream.A guy said that my vocals were good that time than I heard kids singing and saw words coming down as if it were ending credits.

The Light Of Our Forefathers

I walked through a entrance and saw fruit stands layed out near a door that led you into a supermarket. The place was also big, wide and surrounded by clear glass, giving the impression of a supermarket within the mall. Looking at the limes I decided to pick one up but than a tall slender tan man wearing a white t shirt, took the lime from me and placed it back on the stand. "O.k...."I thought than slowly turned to see his serious face as if I made a mistake. I walked up and around it to take another after others were picking but he took the other lime I had too. "What's wrong with this guy? Ah, well. I don't really need limes"I thought than watched as he placed the lime in a clear green bag that was than placed on a shopping cart filled with bags of limes, onions and bananas."That's....actually a smart idea". I assumed he was just packaging the items nicely in bags and that he worked there but than another man approached him and told him that he understood him. They than gave each other a friendly fist and the guy who took my lime said "My brother. Just taking back the light of our forefathers. This place is a mess. Someone has got to do something about it". I thought he may have been an extremist when he said that and cause he rolled the shopping cart out without paying for what he took, exiting with the other guy.

But my thoughts were interrupted after I walked away. A crowd running and screaming began to pour in after they exited.I became lucid from the dramatic event and flew through the forming mall that began to look like a bowling place. I went through the walls and appeared outside where it was raining and dark. Than flying some more I went through another wall, came out and ended up in a sunny park where families were seated on benches and others were sitting on the grass enjoying their picnic."This is a nicer setting"I thought than hopped onto the ground and began to run around playfully. A boy interrupted me though saying something I can't recall.
I than became semi lucid and told him not to touch me in a rude way because the catholic forefathers he had killed innocent chickens. I than took a chicken that randomly appeared and smeared it on his distorted face. After a glass version of my bird appeared I began to cuddle it and observe the number on it. It looked like a bar code. 4170... were numbers in the code I think.


(Pic doesn't belong to me)

Had one. Saw a woman ride a bike from past me. I need to prolong lucid dreams. I only remember like 30 seconds of them.