lucid

Started with me running near a couple of grocery stores, I began to feel more aware and told myself before running to the store that I am probably going to regret this.
I can sense a bad feeling coming from the store.

I ran inside and started zipping by so many people. I began to fly like superman inside the store as cashiers and customers look at me like I was nuts. I was lucid now and enjoy flying throughout the building in till I got stop by two guys who identify as cops.

I allow them to search me and they told me they found a gun on me. Confuse and panic I told them it's not mine and that this must be some kind of mistake. They didn't care and grab me by arms and said " you're coming to the station, we have a murder investigation around this area "

I thought about how many times I didn't want to be wrongfully accused and go to prison for the rest of my life so I tried to run and I was slow for some reason and they caught me and started beating me in till I lost awareness.

comment non-lucid lucid something else

11 am - accepting a package from a courier, using the bathroom
after 11 - MILD mantra, MILD visualization, continuing with VILD but my brain doesn't cooperate and I can't get it going. 2 fast cycles of SSILD but I can't focus anymore.
My brain continues to VILD on its own and doesn't want to go to sleep - there some part-visualization/part-dreams.

Formula1 racer
I am talking to someone who is a Formula1 racer.
I can't tell if this was a visualization/daydream or a dream. I think I was still active in it but the subconscious was doing a large part.

Very friendly girl
Suddenly a scene appeared. I was sitting behind a table and a girl with brown hair came and sat against me. I was holding a book and she asked if I didn't mind that the authors aren't lucid enough. I answered that I could understand for some of them but not the creative ones (or something like that, it didn't make much sense/was based on false knowledge). Then she got closer to me and started kissing me. I was screaming "this is a dream, this is a dream" in my head but nothing happened and it ended as suddenly as it started.
It felt more like a dreamlet than a dream. That dream feeling just wasn't there. But it was too sophisticated and too long to be a dreamlet. I don't know. Certainly not a fully formed normal dream.

I can't fall asleep.
Checking the time, it's 12 am.
Desperate, I ask my subconscious to just let me sleep.
I think there was some NREM sleep after this. Nothing conscious.

We miss you, Grandma
There is a scene forming around me. I see it forming and my first thought is "I am not visualizing this" and the second "this has to be a dream".
I sit on a bed in a room with the bed, a table and kitchen cabinets. It is supposed to be my first adulthood flat but it looks more like my childhood home. Everything is extremely blurry and quite dark but I can feel it is stable. I touch the bed and feel the texture and the vision gets slightly better, there are two very blurry circular spots in my vision.
There is my dead great-grandmother next to me so I think at least use this low-quality dream to hug her. I hug her and tell her "I love you very much and we miss you, grandma". She strokes my hair and says "My IndigoRose". I ask her if she liked how my grandmother (her daughter) refurbished the flat. She said she liked it but was worried about her. And we talk about my grandmother getting old.
Then I go to the kitchen sink (which is also a toilet?) and help with washing some vegetables there.
It gets blurry again and I touch a chair and feel the grain of the wood. It helps but my vision is weird - with vertical strips of blurriness and with gaps. Slowly, it gets better but I am confused, forgetting where I am. I say "this is still a dream", actually realizing that and clearing my confusion. There is my brother on the bed and because he has heard me, I repeat "this is a dream" but he stares at me blankly and says nothing. I show him a finger in the palm RC but it doesn't work, my finger doesn't go through. I laugh but I still know it is a dream. I do nose plug RC and I can breathe easily. I tell him: "You see, I can breathe" but he is not impressed.
There is a woman sitting on a chair next to the door, she is supposed to be a family member but I don't know which one. She has a big black spot on her face and I wonder if dreams do that.
I don't know what to do, I am thinking about jumping from the window and flying and I expect to fall and wake up and decide that this dream isn't good for trying it. I am also thinking "what if this is real?".
Then I hear my nose wheezing IRL and I expect to lose the dream but it is still stable. I try to clear my nose which I can do and the dream is still holding. But my real nose is still wheezing. I am annoyed by this dream and decide to wake up.
Which I wanted to do anyway in one of my dreams to prove my lucidity to myself. So at least this is one goal done.

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After waking up, falling asleep doing SSILD cycles.

I am still doing SSILD. I can see a little bit through my eyelids, just a little bit of light, blue sky with clouds and some grass. I am in my childhood town, close to my childhood home. I am afraid I am waking up too much, ruining the SSILD! I have the idea to use movement to transition to the dream. I imagine walking and then running to a nearby forest. As I gain speed, the forest around me materializes.
I stop and shout "I did it!" and the whole scene gets wobbly and slightly blurry. I quickly touch the ground, there are stones, dirt and leaves. I am surprised how realistic it is, thinking that people were right about this.
I remember my husband - I have to tell him when I am back IRL.
I am thinking about what to do and think of flying but I remember I wanted to try to do RCs in a dream, to see how they feel in a dream.
For some reason, I completely forget the RCs and continue through the forest until I am on the other side of it. There are some kids. I try to fly but it doesn't work so I change it into a sort of jump but it still looks embarrassing.
Then I am on a crossroad and the path I wanted to take is closed, probably because of covid and I suddenly have a bike. There are some locals and they look friendly. I 'remember' there should be a path under a house, leading where I want to go. I go there and there are more kids but these are not friendly and they tell their boss about me. I ignore them and continue but then the boss appears and I tell him that I wanted my bike (which was left behind).
I remember my lucid dreaming skills and try to impress the gang kids, I try to levitate a twig above my hand. On the first try, it doesn't work, on my second try, it levitates 5cm above my hand and it looks like I cheated, throwing it up a bit. The kids are not impressed.
I talk to the boss, asking him what he wants for the bike and for letting me go. I mention gingerbread from a secret source of it, deep in the forest (in my native language, gingerbread is slang for meth but we are talking about the baked type ). It's a secret location only I know and I supplied gingerbread to him from there before. It is a really good gingerbread, he can bake his own, but this one is much better.
He is unsure about it. Gingerbread on its own isn't enough, he wants me to show him the location. I agree to go there with him at night, so nobody else sees us. At the same time, I am scared because I realize that what I said was based on a false dream memory and I actually don't know where the secret location is.
Then he tells me something about lemon gingerbread from his grandmother that was almost as good as the gingerbread from Lidl.

I had my doubts about this dream. The lucidity was very low, at its minimum in the middle of the dream, maybe even not there for some moments. I was also worried that it could be simulated lucidity but I analyzed my thoughts in the dream (like remembering my husband or realizing about the false memory) and I believe this was true LD.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

In a post-apocalyptic zombie world. Clearly inspired by some episodes of "the Walking Dead: world beyond". I am traveling in a van with some friends I made along the way. Nobody knows exactly where we are going but we expect to stay together, until one of the girls says she wants to go to some university nearby and that she studied for the admission exams and wants us to take her there. We go. The procedure is a bit strange as each candidate goes to a booth with one person that interviews them and hands them the test and they do it all in front of the family and friends who sit in front at some row of chairs. Looks more like a trial. She is asked questions about her background. She is asked about her parents and she says they died because of the zombies. The examiner replies that's the case for the majority of the applicants, so being orphaned doesn't give her any real advantage. But then she tells about our group experience during our travel, hoping they'll be impressed with the courage she showed and the skills she developed. Instead, the examiner looks at us and makes some not so unveiled comment about us not being appropriate material to even enter the premises of such school and wonders if she is fit for the school. But eventually gives her the chance to take the test and she scores really high, so she is accepted. The whole group is heartbroken because now we need to leave her behind and we don't know if we'll ever see her again. We depart without her.

I am in the outskirts of London, waiting for a tube that is never coming. I finally take a bus and I am looking at some notes to figure out where I am and where I am going, but can't really figure out. I check how much money I have and gather it and stuff it in some hidden inner pocket of my bag for safety. I am going through some shitty neighborhoods and people on board of the bus also don't look so friendly. Some weird crazy guy starts harassing people and a kid on his mom's lap his scared and says so to his mom, but his mom says to suck it up, because taxis are awfully expensive. She mentions a £96 cost to get home, which I find absurd, but makes me wonder if I could afford taking a taxi considering those prices. I find my phone on my bag and think I can use the gps and maps to find my way. Then I see an area that looks more touristic and I decide to hop off the bus and just make a plan from there. I go down some narrow street that has gorgeous view over a neighborhood by the Thames bank. Ground level brick houses with lots of flowers on the windows and doors. I want to take pics but I can't. The things I want to photograph keep disappearing from the screen of my phone and the camera always points somewhere else. I break the phone in half and start panicking as pieces start to fall off and the image on the screen fades away. Now I am lost and with no gps any more. I freak out as I see the evening coming to an end and getting dark. But then realize I am just dreaming and I don't have to be afraid. I tell myself to just have fun with it. So I keep walking to a very posh area of the city, with high fashion shops, fancy hotels and I decide to indulge. I go to a very high end mall and start looking for a dress worthy of a princess, but immediately everybody looks at me and says I don't belong there. I am wearing jeans and some shitty sweater. I don't care. I see an event where some lady full of plastic surgeries, is on some type of arena with spotlights and announcing they'll have a fashion show of the most beautiful and elegant ladies and outfits and I barge in and start walking around like a model in that arena. People are shocked and she is furious. She tries to push me away but I push her instead and she falls on the ground. I say I am sorry, that I did not intent to harm her and she insults me in every possible way, so I keep mocking them all by continuing to catwalk in silly ways. Then I decide to keep going. I don't get the dress I was looking for at first, as I am afraid will lose lucidity while distracted dressing and undressing. Also, I can simply summon some outfit. But I am no longer interest in that. Instead I go outside and see some kind of Carnival fair and I want to enjoy that instead. But it is so very dark, the sky is covered in black dense clouds that threaten to rain and besides, the darkness is making me lose lucidity. So I decide to make the sky blue and sunny. It doesn't happen right away, so I point my hands to the clouds and start pushing them away. It is getting a little bit clearer but is taking too long. So I project a vortex that sucks it all up and it works so much faster. The sky is clear in seconds and I feel proud of it. But then the vortex shatters like a mirror and all the sharp pieces come tumbling down over the fair. People scream in panic and all I can figure out is getting inside a mini car for 1 person, that I see parked in front of me. I take cover inside and hear the rumble of all the debris hitting the car. Then I get out. A couple of girls is rummaging through the debris and I check out what or whom they are looking for. Even they don't seem to know or don't want to say, but I find a bag with some dolls and clothes and ask if that's what they are looking for. Some clothes are damaged but the dolls look ok, just covered in dust. But their reaction is strange, they no longer want the dolls. I give up. Meanwhile not much to see here anymore, so I keep walking and enter some palace like building and rub my hands to keep lucidity going. It is all decorated like for Xmas and some gentleman gather in a circle chatting, with drinks on their hands. They also look at me like "who's this?" and some butler comes to me, very gently asking me to leave, as this is a private club. I declare I couldn't care less and that I am up to no good. I spot an hallway where they set up a table with all kinds of goodies and I go there. The butler is in panic and calls me "Please, please, you must leave. Don't touch that food." And I stop in front of it, defiantly, and stretch my arm to grab something and just watch his panic growing and also his inability do deal with me. I eat some hors d'oeuvres and I find it repulsive. It's some kind of pickled vegetables, but nasty. I say "How can people like this shit?" And then the butler goes from panicky to insulted. "This is a very expensive selection of fine Japanese pickled daikon and vegetable sushi." Then he tells me the names of each piece and that they must be eaten in a certain way and order. Then he goes on exemplifying. Eats a slice, by first removing a detachable part in the center and then the rest of it. He makes a face of delight and sounds of pleasure, like he is having an orgasm and I laugh. Then he challenges me to try it exactly as he says. But unfortunately I wake up.

Found myself getting out of bed and walking to the door as I could hear someone knocking. I check the peep hole and see no one. Once I open the door there was two men with construction apparel with something in their hands.

I tried to shut the door on them and eventually succeeded. Only for one of them to saw the door down with unusual ease. I began running to the window and thought "oh well, rather a few broken bones than to die"

I jump out the window and hit the ground hard. I was stunned to find out I had taken no damage. I then became lucid and started running fast, I could see I was in a different country. I could sense the two men as they were harassing another person who was living in the apartment complex.

I then found myself waking up in my bed. I assume I lost my lucidity and began to start my day. As I went to put my shirt on there was a knock on the front door. I immediately felt tense, I felt a feeling of familiarity.

I went to the door in the same motion I did in the dream. I check the peep hole and again saw no one. The door open by itself and I said "No! Deja Vu" I became lucid again and got tired of this and decided I wanted to wake up.

I wasn't much a fan for false awakenings and this would usually kill my excitement for LD's. I close my eyes and jump out the window with the intent to wake up. I felt my body hit the concrete and then my consciousness disappeared.

I then woke up in my bed , feeling paranoid.
"Am I awake?" I told my self. I look around and I could sense the environment. I knew I was still in a dream. I began to worry why I couldn't wake up. I knew my physical body was very exhausted from yesterday so may be I am in deeper sleep than I thought.

But at this point all I wanted was to wake up. I jump out the window one more time and kept saying wake up. I spin and went to the ground. It was difficult to open my eyes, but I woke up.

I'm in my room and start to count my fingers. The middle one is very short. I open the window and fly out. My flying is not that good and I fall to the ground but succeed to go back up slowly. A girl greets me and she drives in the city. She talks about how she does not want to be with me because of my gender while her friend is waiting outside the destination.

Notes: I was driven by a girl that looked much like the DC two days ago. We watched a movie yesterday that was about a girl that didn't like her body so she became a boy.

I'm in the bathroom upstairs and look at my fingers, they are not really right. I fly out through the window in my room and it's dark outside. I fly to school and see a big dog there. It's a golden retriever and I pet it all over. He is very happy and energetic. I ask him if he can fly me away. He seems happy about it so I sit on him and wait as he starts to fly away. He is a really good flier and has full control. He later goes on to jumping really long distances. I am wondering about what I would like to do more in my dream but think that this has to be something of the best and that I just want to ride this dog all day long. I see Eni with Rebecka, some meters away I see Eni with Natalia. I have to think twice before I realize it was Eni two times. I stop by the train pit by Rosenfeldt and talk with Eni.

I'm in my room and count my fingers. My middle finger is gone. I fly out and see the missionaries. I am happy they have joined my dream and tell them so. I am uncounciously thinking they are having a mutual dream with me. I ask them if they want to go flying and so we do. They can't fly so I instead go on my back while they sit on my stomach. The flying is controlled but not sensational. We keep on flying until we see some more missionaries. They join too. I'm worried they won't fit on my legs but they do and we fly some more.

I'm in my room and count my fingers. Something is wrong so I fly out. I'm outside and find a drying rack that I start to ride. It is pretty fast and almost flying. I come to the water by the bridge by Stumholmen but the water is much larger. A man in a kayak is riding in the river. I ride the drying rack into the water and glide on one of the support sticks lying against the water. I win against the kayak and keep on riding up. There is a big crowd here but I don't bother them. I ride to Rosenfeldt and notice that I've got a curse denier on me. Eni asks me how I got it and I tell him that I can get one to him too. I go home and look for something that can give him protection but find my cat instead. I try to pet her but she walks away. I walk out but see her again as if she would have teleported. I ignore her this time.

I'm by church and there is a big missionary meeting there. The missionary president is there with William. William seems to be in charge of something and has extra responsibility. I am by a pit with another missionary. I go to the president and talk with him.

Notes: I'm really happy that I have been able to get some lucids recently since I haven't been able to in a long time. I am also a bit sad that I'm trapped in my city and always become lucid in my house. I have read about guides about how to close and open your door to teleport somewhere else. I have been able to teleport by will and to teleport by walking into a mirror before. I have a big mirror in my room that I maybe should test out.

I'm on some sort of racing track that reminds me of Mario. I have cars on my feet and use them as roller skates. There is a big jump with a bridge that I successfully come over. On the other side there is a forest. I push my feet as if I was ice skating but it does not feel entirely right. Some other people are also racing with me. Some of my family is there.

I'm in my room and think about flying out the window. I'm about to open the window but I'm not sure if it is a dream. I count my fingers and notice that my middle finger is really short. I fly out the window and ask my self what dream goals I had. I can't recall and the dream starts to fade away.

Notes: I wanted to get a massage that night.

I'm with my brother and we have hijacked a medical car for the hospital. It is not an ambulance but the same size. I'm sitting on the right seat in front of the car. My brother is in the back of the car. The car is driving but I don't notice if there is anyone by the steering wheel. I pull down some kind of touch-screen from over my head. A 4-digit passcode is shown. I remember that the code was 1234 and try it out. I successfully come in and look around. There is some kind of online shop with different kinds of cool sounds for music production. I look at the prizes and notice that they use the Fortnite currency. One music package costs about 4000.

i was sleep for about 2 hours then a bunch of dead zombies started running after there siblings then a branch on a tree falls over then cuts two picking up bags at the store when i pick up the bag there was a girl in front of me and her clothes were made out of the stuff i bought with glad bags then i suddenly see light while people around me were trap in darkness

I'm imagining a landscape. It is becoming more and more real. Snowy trees are created in front of me and the ground is like that of a forest. There are some houses present too. I am afraid that I might wake up if I try to reach my hand forward and that my real hand will grab my quilt. After some time I am certain it is a dream and I try to create my arm so that I can reach forward. I see my hand and I'm happy that it's a dream. The dream becomes unstable and I am not able to stay in it.

Notes: I think that I entered the dream as it was created. It was a memorable experience either way.

I'm at a restaurant with some people. There is a table 5 meters in front of me where a lightly dressed girl is waiting for a very big guy. She is doing some kind of gesture to him and he walks to her. New fragment. It's christmas and a lot of people are in a small room waiting for presents. Everyone is going to get one present each. I get some kind of white electronic device shaped like an L. A woman really wants my present and tries to convince me that she should have it. She bothers me for quite some time until the dream ends.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

At a high school, but I feel like just a visitor. Billie Eilish gave a concert there the previous day. Now I meet Claudia, the girl who kinda gave me the push to discover Billie, and I just realized she looks like her a lot and she even died her hair like her. She has a serious crush and I recall my own crush for Björk when I was her age. But I also like Billie and I have a song stuck in my mind and start singing it out loud. So Claudia joins me in it. She is also a singer, but like me, our paths took us different ways from a musical career and I think about how that is sad but also ok, because not everybody can be talented in the same way or doing the same thing.
I then meet Zilla, Licas and other girlfriends from high school and they join us. We talk, we sing and we do something like an homage or invocation of someone who passed away. Then we go to the cafeteria and while we are snacking, the girls look at me scared, saying that my whole face his covered in red scars. I look in a mirror and I look like someone burned my face all around with a flaming iron. But I don't feel any pain. Then the girl to my side also shows the marks and the others freak out and try to distance themselves from us, suggesting we did something that caused that. But I am sure I didn't. Then I see the lines showing up also on their faces and someone suggests it is the spirit of the person we invoked, and that it means she never forgave us for some event in which she felt abandoned by us.
We decide to leave and take a bus home, but as we go across the school I notice how strange it looks, like it is some medieval tavern inside a cave and I get lucid. I spot a slit on the cave ceiling through which sunlight shines in. I fly up and go through the slit, but I am taken to another cave, bigger, more open to the outside. It has a sandy beach inside and people having fun there. A dog jumped from a rock above and I worry that he got hurt as he fell in a zone with more rocks and not sand, but he gets up ok and the owners laugh and say he is fine. I fly higher up and enjoy the beauty of the rock formations. Then I get really outside and it is a canyon with really amazing shapes. Then I fly over a countryside landscape and I see all sorts of natural things but also crazy things, like 4 horses doing a tik tok dance, but mostly just beautiful landscape with mountains, small rural villages. And then I reach a barrier of clouds above me and when I go through it, there is nothing above, just the outer layers of the atmosphere and all of a sudden I feel scared with the idea of just floating in a totally empty space. So I go down. I land on a village and rub my hands to increase lucidity. I wonder what to do and I think about seeing my teacher. But when I do, I never get to see him. Still, I see a hotel and I go in to see if he's there. Someone does call my name but it is some old friend from Italy or France (not sure whom). He is gathered around a table with some people both in casual clothes but also some in navy and military uniforms. He asks me to join them. At the top of the table they have like a poster with a letter from the Queen of England, who is like their virtual guest of this lunch. They were invited and the food is all they can eat, paid by the Queen. I wonder what's the occasion, but I just say thanks and leave. Not my goal and I notice my strategy didn't work. So I go outside again, to rethink what to do, but lucidity fades and I wake up.


I am at some kind of event on a tent. Some familiar faces sitting on yoga mats and cushions and also on seats disposes in an amphitheater to the back of the tent. I go outside for a bit of fresh air and give back a mat to a girl who borrowed me hers. I think it was Alicja. But some other girl comes to me a bit upset that I mixed the mats and that this one is hers instead. I apologize and as I talk to them I spot my teacher at the end of the road leading to the entrance of the tent. He is being inconspicuous and he is wearing a mask, but I spot him. I think he sees me too, but I pretend I haven't or that I didn't make a bit deal out of it. Then I lose sight of him. I go inside the tent again and the organizers are asking people to sit at some empty chairs at the top of the amphitheater area, to distribute people more homogeneously. Then I spot my teacher sitting there and some empty seats next to him. So I decide to go seat near him. I pass in front of him and sit two chairs away, because between us there is one guy. I only take a brief look, when passing in front of him and take a small bow to acknowledge his presence. Then I sit there quietly, sucking a lollipop. He also plays it cool, but once the whatever shows starts, he keeps making quick stares at me, so I also look once and we cross eyes and we just lose ourselves in it.

3/2/20

I am in my godmother's house with her many kids
I am baking
She gets frustrated by my spilling flour
I tell her I will clean up
When I'm done I wipe it all up
The bread is a small breadstick someone asks me about
They compliment me
I notice the house is dirty
I spend maybe 30 minutes cleaning up their living room of debris and paper left from the kids playing
My godfather is very surprised and pleased at the end result
He mentions having a special time on certain days where we can clean like that, as the whole house is disorderly
I am fine with it because it's superficial cleaning and wouldn't take any time at all

Transitions to walking down a street with old highschool friends/church friends
There are several youth group bands set up all singing the same music along the street.
I have a rolling table stand I am leaning on and roll it over to watch the groups play in unison
Suddenly a band behind everyone starts playing their own music
It's not bad it's just not what other people are playing
The other bands stop and seem confused so they turn around and watch the new band play
I stand with friends and lean on my pummel horse type stand table while watching

I am walking down the street with friends again
My buddy Nate decides to hit on some girls we are walking by
He tells them he wants to show them something
We all get on a shuttle/bus that has a sound system
We all have headphones we plug into their sound ports
He is playing some song for them he wants the girls to listen to
I am confused because the music isn't that great
He then tells one of the girls that she looks just like the lead singer of this band and he thought she would think it was cool
People are somewhat impartial
We all now take turns playing music for each other to listen to
I tell the group it would be cool if we randomly played a song and had the group guess who was the one who selected it as a game
People like that idea
We only get a couple of songs in
One is apparent because it's a sappy hills CW type song that is definitely this helpless romantic girl sitting in the front who used to have a crush on me

I now notice that I have two small fuzzy very very newborn baby birds sitting on my head
They seem incredibly premature and I'm not sure they will make it
I carefully remove them from my head and place them down on a counter
They are both still alive but I gather they will need some serious care
I am in a run-down market like a dollar store with no attendant so I start rummaging around looking for materials to build a nest/make food/administer it to them
I've only seen a few videos of people taking care of birds this young and small
I get some soft towels and find some creamy soup I wonder how I will keep them warm and look for a hot water bottle
The attendant comes out and looks confused
I tell them the situation and show them the birds, they are relieved and sympathetic to my cause


3/05/20

Driving w mom in a smart car
She drives off the road, on a log, and almost over a cliff
I carry the car backward and turn it around by hand

I am driving through a winter storm with an older woman in the car
It is a 50's classic now
The controls are two levers
It is tricky but manageable
Highway speeds but tons of snow and ice on the road

I am kidnapped by a larger bald man with glasses
He takes us (myself and three siblings) to some old house in the middle of nowhere
He has an incestuous family
His kids don't wear clothes and they are all dirty
I escape with my sister
We make it a town over before he finds us
He takes me in a car to a meeting
The meeting is in an old dim looking pool hall/bar
They are having a sacrificial service
They are burning a toddler
I don't want to be there
It is a celebration for them they are all dressed up and communing like it is a holiday for them
I am disgusted and try to leave several times
Each time he walks me back in and forces me to watch
It is smokey in the room
I escape and make it to my car while everyone is leaving
I call the police to report what is going on
It occurs to me there were many firefighters and police there and They may be everywhere
The guy on the other end of the phone seems unphased
I hang up and key into my car and start to drive away


3/06/20

Being given a tour of the space shuttle that is a mix of Saturn v
There are a few of us standing on the core up high
There is a screen that simulates the heights and I stand to the side because it is almost disorienting
Just then the top opens up and we are lowered down the sides almost like a ride
We each have a chest strap holder like a roller coaster and we line the inside of the craft facing each other
I wonder if Starship could hold people like this

I am in a classroom with people I went to high school with
The math teacher seems hip
He has long dark hair with some grey streaks
He also wears black-rimmed glasses
He has a unique sense of humor and the students like him
There is a note taped to the front board talking about how his wife left him
It seems like it's meant to be a morose joke
A kid I went to high school with is singing/beatboxing a song and everyone is listening to him
I have the sudden realization that I am too old to be here
It frustrates me
I say out loud realizing it is a dream
'why am I even here? I am too old to be in school!"
Everyone stops and the teacher looks at me
The teacher begins talking to me directly
I don't recall everything he says but he tells me something along the lines of "because you want to learn" it is true, I have been asking to be taught by my dreams
I just didn't expect it to be so literal
He explains a few things to me and his voice becomes jibberish
I begin to wake up
I remain still and focus on the dream and talking to him
The dream reappears around me exactly as before with fewer students in there with me
This happens a few times and I am able to reform the dream and reappear in the same classroom always with the teacher
The last time I reappear the colours are off in the room
I ask him why things look different now
It is almost night time and there are no lights
I manifest small flames in my right hand and intend them to go along the wall in the back of the classroom, with each one the room gets brighter
Once they line the back wall they begin to dim and flicker
I intend them all to be brighter at once and they do
The room is brightly lit now
Our studies continue

I am in the back of a department store mixed with a chemical facility it seems
There is an invisible person wrestling with me
I ask them to help me carry cans of a beverage out and they oblige
I see a girl I used to know hooking up with one of the guys in the bathroom
They are shocked I walked in but I don't care I just have to urinate really badly
I set up to pee and go for what seems like minutes
The guy looks over at me amazed that I am going for so long
The relief feels amazing
My penis hangs down past the knee of my shorts when I am done, I don't care

I am in a gas station/head shop
I purchase a large water pipe and a smaller rig for oil that looks like the nectar collector but more convoluted
For some reason, I throw a small weight through a Pepsi machine and it puts a hole in the front of it
Whenever someone uses water on the beverage station, pop spews out the hole
I find the water cut off and switch it off to fix the problem
I find the water hookup to the machine that was broken and unplug it
I am now able to turn the water back on and other dispensers work


3/07/20

There's a taco truck part of a cultural festival thing
The tacos are super cheap and we buy a few to eat
Like a dollar apiece
I have a backpack full of money

In a friend's house, it is super big with many gadgets and an expensive computer and a voice-activated shower
I am the rich kid doing some promotional tv spot
I am walking on top of a telephone booth and something else that is mostly glass
It breaks with my step and I crash through it falling to the ground
Broken glass is everywhere
I am bloody and covered in thousands of small glass shards
My stomach is cut up too
I can walk fine but everything stings
I go to the large house and tell the shower to turn on
It is a large walk-in room attached to the bedroom
The water is at the perfect temperature
I try to clean myself but some glass still remains
I am picking glass out of my skin the entire dream
I notice several cars driving down the long driveway from the bedroom which is on the second story
My friend's siblings have all arrived
They are all older
My friend offers me some shrooms to take for our trip
I eat one to microdose but never end up feeling anything
They are large like baby bellas not small like normal shrooms
He turns everything off in his room but tells me to leave his windows open
The screens are still in place
We go downstairs and meet his siblings who are all of various ages much older than us
One of his brothers has a hang drum he is playing on the stage in their front yard
I want to play it but never make it onto the stage


3/12/20

Driving see a circle of sunlight on the moon that fades in a minute or two
Parked at a campground that is also the parking lot of the spa
Kevin is giving me a tour of the new facilities
Everything is updated and newer futuristic looking
I am crying because I am back
I pack up and go to leave the parking lot
Drive down the street before I realize I forgot things on the ground by my campsite
A necklace and a few more things
Drive back and there is another car parked in the lot
I pick up my things slowly and a guy walks up to me and asks me if 73-year-olds can float
We talk about the tanks while I walk up to the spa with him
I tell him I was just leaving but I'm happy to talk to him
He is impressed with my knowledge and glad to talk to me
I tell him to tell the people in the spa about me
Mark is standing in the other room talking to other employees

Fast forward
I am in a camper/RV
I am looking at my body and it looks like someone else's body
My ribs pulsate and roll like a fish out of water
My elbow has an exposed joint like a puppet
I am made of a flesh coloured plastic material
My arm is many mechanisms
Someone is shocked I don't look human
I may be an alien
I say oh, those? Those are just my tubes


3/14/20

Some kind of political action event in a long hallway
People are lined up to hear different other people talk at certain intervals
There is a woman in a chair trying to talk to people but no one is listening because she isn't official
There is a man reciting the Hare Krishna
Everyone joins in and sings
There is a dance troupe of guys doing a pre-rehearsed dance routine
I join in for the fun of it but I don't know the dance
He tells me for the next segment I need a pair of boots
I don't have any
They have a special shoe with a brick on one foot
It is like a stomp routine
Later he asks me why I didn't dance as tight as them
I told him I'm not a dancer but I like to dance
I have no formal training
He is sitting at a computer
Upstairs there is a girl who has an amateur bakery in her room
Her oven is a wood stove made of plywood
There are tons of fresh baked bread rolls and sourdough in forms
Everyone seems to be really impressed with her
She is surrounded by older men trying to court her
I wait until fewer people are there and begin talking to her questioning about the oven and how it's constructed
I tell her I wish my parents let me have an oven in my room when I was younger
It is all a sort of historical reproduction now
There are hundreds of smaller birds that I thought were moths at first
They are tiny like the size of cicadas
They obviously are there for the crumbs
I ask her who eats the birds
And a cat appears and catches one on the floor
She says see, a perfect ecosystem
We have a conversation about historical reproduction and how someone a hundred years ago would never imagine that we would be baking bread the same way but then jump in our car and go a hundred miles an hour down the highway
She turns down many gentlemen callers
Our conversation is pleasant


3/15/20

Elon tells me to collect foliage
They capture a dinosaur and take it across the street
I have a special calculator that is an mp3 player for Victor
Nikki falls weird while trying to snowboard down a mountain with fresh powder
We rescue her and she is embarrassed

I'm in a large airport terminal/arcade like a futuristic dave and busters
I am taking a trip overseas with Guy with Ginny too
I realize last minute I don't have a clothes bag packed and go back to pack clothes
I'm walking through the terminal and can't find my clothes anywhere
There is a leak from the ceiling and a couple of small pools of water on the floor
A worker middle-aged woman tells me not to step there and I don't listen and slip slightly but maintain my step
She gets mad at me and tells me she is going to get me in trouble
I ask her if she is a middle school teacher because she's bad at ordering people around
A cop/guard comes over to me later and is annoyed the woman bothered him for such a stupid reason, he mocks her in front of me


3/16/20

Sitting at a four-top table with three other middle-aged women
They are silently bidding on fancy plates to eat pizza with a fork and knife on
The woman I am paired up with tells me she only puts one slice on a plate at a time
We all put our heads down to bid
I don't understand the process and they are all seasoned in it
I look at my phone and swipe away a few messages
The lady across from me chastised me for not paying attention and looking at my phone
I look up and begin to yell at her and tell them that they are all petty as fuck and this whole process is stupid as hell and I walk away out of the store

Down the street, I see Nikki by a large tree next to a river
We hang out and it is a pleasant rekindling
I am suddenly large and cut like Karl urban we begin to hook up but I am also watching it happen
As the intercourse progresses there is a power-play between who is in control
Her face gets blood red and pulsed like she is lifting weights and she grows a beard as she becomes more forceful
The me I am watching asks her why can't I just love you like I used to, and she shrugs

I am in a Halloween store with my mother and there are workers in costume just casually walking around
I go to the makeup section to browse
There is an upstairs loft that isn't too populated but has a guy sitting at a desk
He is selling laser-cut temporary tattoos that literally burn complicated designs into your skin but shed within a day or two
He shows me some demos and I am impressed
It looks like it hurts but he assures me it's quick and painless, he also shows me pictures of how quickly it fades, I think it's a great idea
There is a small snack shop connected to the costume store that has three mini sliders for sale
They have 3 of them put together to show the workers on a shelf up high with a mirror directed to show the reflection
They seem tasty but I don't try any
There is a drive-thru

I am suddenly in a Mexican restaurant of sorts back in the kitchen
I gather I am a server but hanging out with the cooks
I see one of the cooks eating his lunch real quick
There is a paper towel dispenser which is full of long flat tortillas rolled up
His burrito is half hanging from the ripping part as he eats the remainder
I take both hands and pull out the last bit and ask him if I can have it while it's already in my hands
He shrugs and I realize I should have asked before grabbing the food with both hands
I apologize and begin to eat it.
It's dry but flavorful

I am a cowboy in the western 19th century
I am with a troupe who take over some ritzy plantation with force
We threaten with guns but aren't overly violent
The slaves are all worried at first but I assure them they are all free now and don't have to worry about anything
They are all african american women in their 20s and 30s and they are surprised and happy to be freed by us
The plantation owners aren't very pleased but go along with it
We all sit down to have a meal and serve ourselves family-style dishes
I have huge portions on my plate of coleslaw green beans and potato salad
It all tastes really good and I talk to the people around the table about how southern food tastes so much better when you're in the south
There is someone in my troupe who is severely prejudice against army soldiers and there is a soldier who is in the room too
He tries to fight him and wants to kill him outside
More army shows up and there is a large explosion


3/17/20

There were several episodes to my memory recall. But it picks up. And I am in a homie warm large cottage, that seems like it's at a summer camp or something. Surrounded by people that are there at the camp and they are familiar to me like festival.

There seems to be a kind of war. For the battle between the two sides, one is a red side one is a blue side people are dressed like pirates, but also like festival ware.

I talk to a guy who has multiple large sticks/logs, and one of them looks like a didgeridoo. I ask him if it's a didge and he says, I don't think so but it might be and I ask him if there's a hole in the center. I take it from him and begin to look and notice that the log is larger than I thought it was at an off angle and there is a hollow hole through the center of the trunk, but there are many cobwebs and debris inside of it and I don't feel like putting my mouth on the end to see if it reverberates like a didgeridoo.

At a certain point, there was a female companion with me who felt very warm. We were connected in a way that we knew each other prior to this experience. We spent time alone away from the group, we were inside of almost like a hanging woven wooden egg-shaped chair we sat in together and there was a spell put on the chair so that no one else could see that we were in it even while standing next to us. There was this overarching theme of magic. Like maybe we were magical creatures or we were hanging around magical creatures.

There are some memory gaps and it transitions to me exploring the outside area and there are multiple buildings all connected with a flat black asphalt pathway, that is almost as wide as a road and is very smooth and glossy. To move quickly. I put rocks under my feet and I'm able to slide down the hill very easily almost like I'm ice skating.

I see someone else pass me on the other side of the walkway only they are riding a flat disc-like sled. They look at me laughingly and are curious at what's on my feet as they pass me by going the opposite direction. I go to the far edges of the area and there's an older building that doesn't really seem to be used anymore, but there is a small family out front and I gather that he is making fake bigfoot plasters imprints And they are worried that I will catch them in what they are doing, but I pretend not to notice and ask them questions about the building. They say they will open the doors for me but no one is in there, so I don't really care. I end up walking through one of the glass panes into the building and it's like a science museum child's education center. With cartoonish graphics on the walls amongst other things but it is barren and no one is in there. I walk out and tell them what's the point of having a lock on the door if their windows are open, I continue walking around the campus.

I am suddenly in a theater/arcade area where everything has neon lights. They are low lit like pink neons and green neons and everything feels retro almost like from the 80s. I don't recognize anybody anymore and there are many older games that are being projected on a movie screen in a theater that people are playing. I ask a guy sitting upon a stool playing an old box arcade game what year it is and he says, it's 1980 I say, oh shit I must have time-traveled again. Now realizing that I am stuck in another time. I can't figure out how to get back, so I just wander around and explore the area trying to get to where I came from. Every new opening seems to lead to a new area. None of which looks like the place I was in before.

There's a big open midway. That seems like the opening of a movie theater with many different doorways going in different directions, it almost feels like a science museum. But more like a theater and everything is still retro colored and the people even are dressed in the style that was popular in the eighties.


3/18/20

I am in India
There is a strong current river next to the town I am in there is a long tube wave down the length of it
I befriend a young girl who identifies as a boy but she looks more androgenous
We venture around the markets of the town and they seem quaint and simple, yet familiar
I have one day left in India before I have to travel back and I am trying to figure out where to go to spend it
I have a conversation about which part of India is more Muslim and which is more Indian traditional
We are taken to an Indian temple that hosts pagan rituals
There are several guys in the group who seem like posers to me
They want to be baptized in pigs blood
They are lowered into aquariums full of blood and act super affected by the ritual
While this is happening the temple is lit with a green glow, it is night time
I begin coughing hard and a long bloody hairy mess comes out of my throat
I cough up this bundle of blood and hair and feel incredibly relieved when it is all out, it takes a minute or two to drag it out
I am annoyed at the white guys who paid to have the faux ceremony and gather it is a service the locals provide to tourists who don't know any better

We are at a convenience store and the guys are being rude and rambunctious
I have painstakingly baked a cheesecake from scratch and one of the guys found it and ate it all
I am pissed off because I have to shave
I grab his mouth and press the remaining cake out of his mouth and smear it on my face to shave with
I wipe it off with napkins
We find a snack dispenser that has reusable plastic bags under it of different sizes to our snacks in, I am trying to do the bat conversion to figure out if I have enough money left over to buy some

There is a large overweight man who comes into the store and pushes over a girl in our group
I start hitting him with pipe pieces on the floor and he is shocked
He claims innocence and was just trying to get her attention
He walks back into the kitchen and asks for hours to work, they put him to work


3/20/20

Cooking school under one chef she is female
We are in blue and red teams
She asks me to make chocolate ice cream with thousand island
I spend time walking around looking for the recipe folder
My friend from my last restaurant job is in the crowd and wants to talk about aliens but I am busy trying to put the recipe together
It ends up looking like a hamburger bun with ice cream in the middle
I ask the chef if they are macaroons
She says no that would be cream on cream
we take a field trip to Tel Aviv to sample traditional food
I am excited because it looks very authentic and the restaurant is filled with locals
We file into booths along the wall
There are mostly females and I am one of the few guys
We look at menus and I order a coconut shrimp appetizer but don't remember ordering my main course
The restaurant seems to be meat-based
After we place our orders we are ushered next door to a warm springs spa where we can relax and get massages and general pampering
It is very relaxing and the water feels great
We are all in our bathing suits
After some time we finish as a group and begin to congregate in front of the restaurant next door for our meal
One guy in the group is trying to complain/make a joke that we should all be in our trousers to relax, but he is wearing a long traditional dress and so am I. He says "everyone is wearing their trousers come on", I reply slyly, "Oh really? Everyone huh?" Sarcastically, people giggle at me and the teacher next to me laughs at my observation that he is not in trousers
We sit in new tables this time that are rectangular heavy wooden tables with wooden chairs all around
There are maybe a dozen such large tables in the hall
Just as people around us are getting their food a very large crowd of maybe 50 Muslim men arrive in the open-ended restaurant all cheering clapping and singing
They go from table to table one at a time lifting every chair and table up to shoulder length while chanting a certain prayer or blessing very loudly
When this happens I notice the women lean backward and throw their heads back and the men lean forward and bow over their table
I want to watch but an obese man at the table next to me grabs my neck/head and holds it down during one of the blessings
When they get to our table the food is already on it but we all stand up and let them lift our chairs and table while we stand by and attempt to sing along with the blessing
Once they finish the whole crowd departs as quickly as they arrived singing and clapping getting quieter as they leave the area
The whole experience was energetic and mystical almost otherworldly
We are now sitting at our table looking at the food which has been sat in front of us. I don't remember what main I ordered but I am sure I don't have the right food, other people's meat looks really good but I think I may only have an appetizer
The dream fades as I look around the table at everyone's entree, wondering if this is family-style or if we are only allowed to eat what we ordered.


3/21/20

At a rodeo wearing a long tan coat
There are many people there
A native american girl keeping giving me weird looks
A guy tries to sell me his run-down jeep cherokee for $400
Jake Neely runs around like a wild beast chasing a cow
I have a sniper rifle


3/22/20

Purple electrical storms
5 tornadoes/dust devil's
Eat waffle house to go
At a school after hours hanging with a teacher

A large america festival with thousands of people closely packed in
Run by a company that sells fake underwater experiences using fish tanks and backdrops

At some underground party/festival and hear a band playing in the basement
I see a guy who looks like weird al there is no one downstairs watching
The band sounds awesome like electro-funk and they are wearing costumes like cybertronic spree
Lasers and light effects and smoke, it is an entrancing show
I watch and groove for a while and a couple of people show up and are super surprised that I didn't come specifically to see the band and don't know their names
They both are wearing cybertronic spree t-shirts
they go back to the band manager and tell them I am living in 2015 and don't know anything but that they need promo people and I might be useful

Something about Bin Laden coming down a river in a boat to see me
I have two books I take with me
We sit in the boat, it feels Egyptian
We talk for a while
Afterward, a guy who works for him tells me he is impressed that I talk to girls every day


3/23/20

Going to Wayne's house for shamanic group
There are many people I don't recognize
A lot of them are young
Gin is with me
We watch a pixar movie about a dragon that changes colours
There is a balloon made of glass in the room
The shamanic practices never start
I gather he doesn't practice anymore
His wife left him and he lives alone

I am trying to get to Wayne's house and driving the car through some shopping mall that is also a restaurant
People are shocked I have a car on the walking path
I ask a woman how to get to a certain address she tells me to follow her
She leads me to another woman who starts to get a table for me
I tell her I asked the other woman how to get to the address on this paper I have
She rolls her eyes and walks away
I decide to use my phone and google it
I was close, his house is through a shop at the end of a corridor

I leave Wayne's and walk down the block
I am in Kettering by a large field
I see Jack with his drum and many others showing up for an event
There are maybe a hundred people there
Jack tells me it's drum day, he asks me to move a garbage bin to the edge of the road so the smell doesn't blow into people while we play
I am amazed there are so many people gathered.
I am suddenly upset no one has masks on and everyone is pretending it is like before with no precautions
I decide to go back to Wayne's to tell him about the drum circle
He has no idea but is surprised by the coincidence
He doesn't want to leave the house

There is a cafe in the mall outside his house with a stage
There are many musicians who gather to make music
I have my guitar with me in its soft case but I don't play
One of the musicians has a rattle that is many hands that clap when you shake it
He has some monologue about how making tools to congratulate yourself stunts progress when you self reinforce without external checks
A larger vehicle drives by that he made with dozens of the same rattles automatically shaking and cheers playing through loudspeakers
It's like a mobile cheering and clapping crowd. But no one is clapping
I am missing my guitar and go around the stage looking for it, I see several cases that are the same as mine but have other equipment in it
I realize I left all my stuff in my car
Someone has my possessions in a felt purse they put aside for me
I jokingly ask if I can keep the bag and they say no
I walk back to my car, a child asks me if I am looking for younger people, I say no I'm leaving now, everyone says bye to me

I'm in a classroom that feels like a mix between an art room and a cafeteria
I look at myself in the mirror and I am a younger blonde girl with odd shapes painted on my face like Bowie
I get into a verbal argument with a table of obese african american girls sitting in front of me
They were making fun of someone close to me and I began questioning them and telling them off
One of them got up and started walking towards me
I mock their actions asking them if they were going to hit me because they disagree with me
I am on a roll and they don't know how to respond because everyone around them is astonished they are being told off by a little girl
A bigger girl who looks trans begins to get an attitude with me, I tell her off just the same
People are on my side because I am standing up to horrible people who are known bullies
She eventually gets fed up and walks away
People are happy for me
I make a comment about something big as she walks away because I notice she is a head taller than everyone else
People go ooooooooh and I feel like I have won the day

*NSFW*

Spoiler for NSFW:

I am at Alyssa's house on the front porch
I buzz the door because I know she's home
She comes to the door but doesn't open it
I hear her moaning through the speaker box
I can hear her pleasuring herself and her little squeaks of joy, the sounds of her body
She rubs herself to climax while I stand at the door
She then slowly opens the door and I see she is completely naked
She looks up to me with a sultry wanting lust drunkenness look in her eye
I confirm she is alone in the house by glancing back
I reach down and run my fingers through her slit gathering some of her juices
I bring my hand to my mouth and taste her while she bites her lip watching me
She tastes like sweet nectar
I step into the house, the door shuts behind me as I feel her naked body against me
The dream ends

3/26/20

Road trip south to Florida w family
Get there and realize Gin isn't with us
They say she's not invited and I get angry and yell
It's a white house kinda run down I think it may be my uncle's second home
We stay on the first floor
I go to the basement to explore
It is dark and cavernous like a dungeon
Cody is with me as we venture from room to room
There is water under the floor
There are tons of red jellyfish looking creatures in the water
I Google them on my phone
I slip into the water once but they don't bother me
Cody helps me up
We go into a larger room that has metal bars all around the windows like a prison and a very large almost statue-like dagger/feather hanging diagonally from the ceiling through the room
The whole room is musky and rank with cobwebs all over and vines hanging from the ceiling
My mother's brother shows up and flips on the light switch to the room
The lights flick on and everything looks normal now, flat white walls and tile floors
I am shocked that it looked so crazy before and wonder what the effect is
I pull out my flashlight on my phone and turn the lights to the room off again and shine it
I see now the effect, the light shines through the thin walls and shows the bars in the other side of the windows and such
The large feather dagger hanging from the middle of the room is gone
I try to describe it and mention I have seen it before, I've been here before

I am with a group of friends in a post-apocalyptic scenario
Many people are migrating at once and there is chaos
Large crowds of people walking down the street congregating at certain waypoints to meet with others
At one of the waypoints I see a girl I used to know, only she looks slightly different
I glance at her name tag and it says Elizabeth though I know her IRL name is Savannah
I say loudly, Elizabeth eh? As I walk out of the crowded room with her to my back
She is with one of her friends and calls out to me when we get outside
I go back to her and we talk
She looks different but still familiar, slightly rougher as if life has been tough for her
She mentions she has a place where we can sleep for the night if we need
My friends are very interested because we are nomadic survivors now and will take anything we can get
It skips to the house where she offered us to stay
We are all in one room and there are three beds in it
The sheets are made but it feels like an old person's house
I realize that people have died in these beds and there are towels on the floor at the end of the beds with fluids on them
There is that stale putrid smell in the air
I ask if it's true and she says yes, the place she works at deals with body removal and she gets to use whatever is leftover
I am immediately bothered by the situation
I cannot sleep in a bed that someone just died in
Someone in the room questions me as to my hangups and I tell them
"The fabric of space-time, the literal three-dimensional space is torn or altered by the transition when someone dies. This place is tainted by death"
The person struggles to listen to me and kind of rolls their eyes at me
I don't care and leave

There is a fragment where I am with a large hispanic family
One of them has started a food truck and is catering a party they are having
Everything is free and laid out like a cookout
People have their fill and there is still plenty of leftovers I pick through
Some 7 layer taco dip
Some chips, some tacos, and a tres leches cake with white icing
It all tastes very good but I don't have any utensils and eat with my hands
The icing goes everywhere

I am on some gameshow with several over thieves and criminals
We all take the same tour bus around town
I gather the theme is something about who can steal the most without getting caught
We are given nothing and no help
But everyone must be secretive and no one really talks to each other
At the store, one guy tries to take a large pallet of rolled quarters but is immediately caught by security
I bend over to help and hand the stack of rolled quarters back to the guard
While doing so I skim two rolls of the top with my fingers without anyone noticing
Sweet I am broke and hungry as hell
We are all walking around a grocery store trying to figure out what to buy to eat
Everyone else is looking for packaged processed food
I go to the fruit isle because it is the cheapest and best nutrients for the buck
I buy some lemons and avocado with my change
I go back to the RV we are staying in and make a pitcher of lemonade and eat the avocado
Someone else was caught trying to steal something
I go back out and attempt again
We are by a casino that has large golden letters on a sign
I take one and wrap it in a towel and barely make it back to the RV
It is then revealed to me that I have been caught and the whole show was secretly being filmed about us, not about what we were told
I manage to escape in a bathrobe with my pitcher of lemonade in my hand
I am with someone else who is older and reminds me of my mentor Doug
We steal an armored RV which belongs to the security following the show
They are not pleased and shoot at us as we drive away
We crash through a gas station and stop for some reason
Doug asks me if we want an assistant
There is a younger asian boy who wants to join our adventure
I am appalled because it is dangerous and I don't think we need to have a child involved with this
He asks the kid if he wants to come and he says yes so we let him on board
We drive away speedily while being shot at by the pursuers
The windows and the car are bulletproof
I find an assault rifle loaded in the back, I cock it, take off the safety and proceed to try to shoot back, all the windows are barely cracked but not open really
As one of them starts to drive up close to us on the back right I stick the nozzle of the gun out the crack and shoot out one of their tires
We are on the highway going very fast and they immediately wreck into the sidewall
We lose our pursuers and continue driving along
I begin searching the RV for any supplies
It seems brand new and not stocked at all
I find a mini-fridge and go through it
Nothing but an empty lunch bag in it
But I pull a cover from the back and discover a boatload of cookie dough of various flavors
I hand some off to Doug and the kid
We munch on cookie dough while driving away to freedom, the dream fades


3/28/20

I am in a bigger white house sleeping in a bed with gin and another couple
They are older and the woman looks kind of washed up
I had seen another couple in the house cleaning that looked just like the other couple and the woman told me it's her sister who is now with her ex. He looks like the other guy but they are not related
I gather we own the house now but they still live there as cleaners
They also have kids who are running around
I am not very amused and find the whole thing rather unprofessional

I am suddenly in another house which is like a small studio
There is a guy with a shaved head and hair on the front of his head only and glasses
He is showing a custom washing machine he built which fills itself with a container of soap and starts itself at a tap, he is proud of it
He leaves and his girlfriend begins to give me the tour/introduction
I am in an Airbnb of sorts but it is very small
It is rustic and in the middle of nowhere in the forest
The bed I will be sleeping in is in the same room as their kitchen/laundry room and she tells me she will be coming into the room to do things but she won't bother me
I am fine with the arrangement because there isn't a lot of space
I venture around the land and it is very green
There is a small stream running parallel to the property and there is bright green moss all around the base of the many trees
I see large spiral snail shells in the moss and amazed by their size

I am suddenly in a post-industrial landscape with a large cathedral-like manor that houses an orphanage or church I am unsure
I was once part of the community but now gather things have changed and I am different
They have a prophecy of a dark one I may be fulfilling
I begin flying around the many rooms in circles high in the air
I am dressed as Santa Claus
I continually shout Merry Christmas as I fly by people
The kids all point and laugh but the adults are cautious and lead them away
I feel several loose spiral shells in my mouth and spit them out to look
My hands and face have gone dark
I am eating a slushy from a paper pack and slow down by an adult, they take the trash from me
They make a comment I am acting like a child now and laugh though most of them still fear me

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

Spending some vacations abroad, staying at a hostel. The room is pretty basic and has a futon on the floor. I am undressing and snuggling in the sheets and I slightly touch myself, not even a big deal. But the manager barges in my room, yelling that I can't masturbate in this hostel and I have to leave now. Then he goes around the corridor, where all other guests at at their doors with curiosity, shaming me saying he has video and photos of it and I am like "how?". And then notice there is a camera in the ceiling in front of the bed, as if it was ok to film guests undressing and all. I refuse to g«be embarrassed and I confront him with his brutal violation of the guests privacy. Now, all the guests are looking at him like "she has a point". I admit what I did and that there is nothing wrong because I was alone in my room and he is the creep who is watching people in their rooms. In the end he does not kick me out, even brings in workers to attend all my needs and allows me to stay for as long as I want and I demand he shows me and deletes the tape. But I don't want to stay anymore. I actually saw the guy getting an erection while I confronted him, so he is nuts, but I need to stay one more night at least.
Then I meet some friends at a sightseeing point, just outside the hostel and I am totally amazed how the landscape is a perfect mix of the view from my mom's house to my hometown and some totally different town somewhere in Eastern Europe with gothic bridges, palaces and gothic churches. The superposition is so perfectly done that I marvel at my own brain capacity to come up with such brilliant construction. I am half-lucid at this point. Then there is some heavy rain and flooding and I lose all lucidity and wake up.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

Some avant-garde show or ritual where some guy goes around defying the audience to dance inspired by what they are watching. Many on the audience seem to be professional dancers by the way they move. Then someone starts passing a lamb head as a prop. But the lamb head is alive and I feel horrified, but not like scared, but worried for the "animal". So I kidnap the lamb's head and run away with it. Take it to the vet and they say it needs surgery to survive. After we get some more info about the origin of the animal, the vets tell me I need to go to Africa and get something that will heal the animal. Once in Africa, in some remote village, I need to pass a door with two guards. I try seducing them, but they don't flinch. Then ask me for a million dollars to go in. I explain the situation and say it is to save an animal's life and they reduce to half a million, which is still ridiculous but I agree to and they let me in. I then steal whatever was inside the guarded house and return to the vet. The lamb is now able to get its surgery and regrow a body. Later I get a call from the vet saying the animal is doing great.

I married to some rich family, but I have this feeling I did it against my will and feel unhappy. I am walking with my family through some hipster area of old docks now turned into restaurants and bars. By the other side of the river I see Manhattan. I am walking ahead of them, making a little dance waving a white shawl in the air, feeling empty inside. Then I encounter Zilla by chance and she walks with me. She spots some vegan fast food and invites me to come along. I do and let go of whomever I was with before. Riverstone is there too and although it's mid morning, they both wanna eat lunch. At first I say they are crazy but then I give in to the idea and ask for an Impossible Burger. While we sit at a table, I get notified that I have an exam to renew my driving license renewal in a day or two and I panic because I wasn't aware and haven't studied shit.

I am dating Seth Rogen. I am half lucid, so at first I feel like "Why didn't I chose some hunkier guy to fool around with?". But he is extremely sweet and I actually start feeling the hots for him. We're sitting on a bed or couch, making out, and when I kiss him he gets really excited, in a very adorable innocent way that makes me want him more. He starts reaching out to his pants and I am totally into it. But then I notice that there is another bed to our side and two girls are sitting on it, watching us and that disturbs me. Worse, I spot a red demon under their bed and see that he is about to snatch one of the girls, so I jump to grab her and rescue her. The demon gets pissed and starts projecting long arms, claws and tentacles and weird heads coming from under the sheets, without ever leaving the bed area. I beat him as hard as I can until he kinda retreats and I sunk into the wall.

My mom is with her friend Paula. We are at an ice cream shop and I look for a vegan flavor. There is one for the stupid price of almost 25€. I complain a lot to the seller and he seems not to understand my complaint. Then I realize that's the price for a whole bucket of like 5 to 10 lt and I apologize and ask how much for a cone with a ball. I then follow my mom and Paula to a car. They didn't get ice cream so Paula is offering something else like crackers to my mom and ask if I want some to. Then we go get my dog Hachi and Paula goes get some other dog like animal on a leash to accompany us on a walk, but it is some dog-like alien with green body parts. I insist that she keeps a good distance from me and Hachi, because Hachi already reacts bad to other dogs, let alone alien dogs, but she keeps forgetting and getting to close for comfort. One time they almost get into a fight, so I give up on this walk and we take the dogs away. Later on I accompany them again to some kind of old garage where mom is talking to the owner and some guy offers us crackers and cheese. I am giving it a try when my Sensei enters the place. First he pretends not to see me while he talks to the rest of the people, clearly nervous about approaching me. I also pretend not to have seen him in the first seconds, but then gather courage and I say hi and give him a hug. He feels relieved and actually a bit overjoyed, so then he gropes my breast and pretends it is by accident, but I know it wasn't. I ask about the classes, he says it all stopped because of the pandemic, but that he misses it a lot. I say I do to. I wonder why he doesn't ask me why I left the classes way before the pandemic started.
Music starts playing, some Latino rhythms like salsa and he and everyone else start dancing. I don't want him to invite me to dance, so I leave through a back door into a backyard and I see my mom is already there with some new age "kumbaya" group. They seem harmless, so I let her be. Then they invite us to go on a boat trip and I start drifting from the dream. Probably had a very brief episode of FA and felt my bed shake like there was an earthquake, but that brought me back to the dream on the boat. I laugh and tell my mom that when the boat started the engines, it coincided with me feeling my bed in RL shaking and she laughs.

I am again semi-lucid, back on land at some ground floor mall at some private condominium, but the atmosphere is dark and heavy and I see no one around. I also feel watched by agents or demons whom I know to be present in the dream, ready to attack me. I walk through the corridors and sense a presence following me. I do evasive maneuvers until I find an exit and run around the building to try and see me stalker. It is some shady guy who disappears again. I see a lady walking away with the alien dog from Paula. I fly upwards to assess my surroundings and then land in some university campus, which I find lovely. Each faculty seems to have a theme, for instance, literature classes take place in a mini medieval village, where each house is a classroom and people gather around communal tables to debate topics, instead of facing a teacher. I walk a bit through the narrow streets, the houses are all ground level timber-framed and feel very cozy. At the end of one of the streets there is a bigger building, like and open hangar, but it is a tavern or bar, and the decoration changes completely. It is 60s and cinema inspired. It has the colors and the furniture typical from the 60s and posters of old spy movies on the walls. There is a door leading to the parking lot with a toll booth. A vintage car from the 50s just stopped at the booth and when I approach, a bunch of gangsters come out of it and point guns at me. Turns out I also have a gun and also drop it on them. For some reason they stand down and leave. My cat Yéti comes out of nowhere and I pick him up. Once on the normal city streets, I see my mom's apartment building or a very similar one, but with a few more balconies. I see the details like the tiles on the walls and feel extremely nostalgic about it, to see how detailed it is engraved in my memory. Then I fly upwards and take notice of the rest of the buildings around, think about getting beyond this and do something interesting. I fly higher and higher, until what I see below me is an African plain at sunset, as far as the eye can see. I feel free and relaxed, but my cat Yéti who I am still holding, is getting pretty nervous and wanting to jump, so I look for some place to drop him safely. There is a house floating in the air, no front wall for some reason, so I just go inside. I am planning on resting there for a while, see if Yéti can be left there safely, but the house starts tilting and everything in it slides through the open wall and falls into the void below us. Some old Asian lady comes in from another room, looking surprised to see me and in panic. I only have time to grab Yéti again and I jump into the void to fly away on my terms instead of falling.

I am in a room talking with BTS and I find them all very nice and smart people. I decide to become their fan and wonder if any of the guys in the band is single, so that I could hang out with. I sit between two of them and one, I think the youngest, immediately leans on my shoulder and gets really close. I was fantasizing about dating one of them, but all of a sudden I feel like he is pushing it a bit too much too soon, so I tell him nicely to back off amd take it easy. The others laugh.

Got up from my bed and immediately realize I felt very lightheaded and felt dream like. I knew I was dreaming and began to open the front door in the room. I went downstairs and phase through the wall near the door.

I could see it was morning as the sky was starting to lit up. As I was making my way up the road this car I presume a Toyota was racing towards my way. I move to the sidewalk to evade the driver as he plunges in to a nearby apartment wrecking the car.

I look back it and thought how random and continue my walk. That's when I see 2 white puppies and a big orange dog with leashes. I nod as I walk pass the owner and pet one of the puppies.

I smile and thought to myself "Nice Addition" to my dreams as I recently started thinking about getting own pet someday. That's when I notice a person on the floor in need of help. I went up to her and saw one of the puppies running to her as well.

Another person came and seem as though he called an ambulance. She got taken to the hospital as the dream scene changed to me at Domino's pizza. I haven't work here in forever I thought to myself.

I look around observing the workers attend to customers. I ask one if I knew her before but she simply look at me and shrug. My dream ended soon after.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

At a house which appears to be Carla's home. There's my mom and my grandpa along with a bunch other people, as if they all live together there. There is an earthquake and I suggest we get out while it is happening, but my mom points out that grandpa can't get up and walk on his own. So while we're doing our best to lift him, the earthquake stops. People feel like it is ok to stay, but I go check the house and some rooms look dangerously affected, with awful cracks on walls and ceiling. I insist on evacuating everybody and I manage to grab my grandpa on my own over my shoulder and take him away, but then mom and a friend remind me about all the cats that live there and especially like to gather on the rooms that are most damaged. I tell them I will get them all to safety, and I start grabbing them two at a time and putting them in improvised boxes and containers to a safer area of the building, and closing these rooms shut. But there seem to be more and more cats popping up. At some point the corner room that was more damaged, is really coĺapsing and the cats are just there hanging out like totally oblivious of the danger upon them.

At some modern house with glass walls and straight lines over a grassy hill. There is a bunch of kids that come over for activities and I am somewhat responsible for them. We are playing with a radio broadcaster or similar and I am thirsty so I go drink a glass of water. It tastes horribly and I notice it is orange like it has rust in it. I go check our water source, some kind of well, and it is poisoned by two kinds of dead processionary caterpillars, one of them which is orange and black and I've never seen before. Doesn't seem very safe. Meanwhile I spot a bunch of them on the ground and before the kids or dogs touch them, I rush to pick them all and put them on a bucket. But on doing so, I grab some soil that is infested with different bugs and worms and there are some thin long ones that I think are baby earthworms, until one gets between my fingers and finds a way through my skin. It is so thin and slimy I can't get a hold of it and it enters inside my hand. I can feel it moving and it is exasperating and painful. I go to the doctor immediately and she gives me really grim news saying I just drunk water with a deadly toxin and have inside me the worst parasite that grows the larger of all. She says I have also been bitten twice by a black widow and I'm like "when was that, because I didn't complain about any of that?". She starts me on treatment but says the prospects aren't the best. I cry like a baby and say I'll never again even step outside the safety of a city.

Me and Riverstone run a little shop with everything from new and used clothes to a books and antiques and we also have a few boxes with stuff for free that people can just take. Some lady is interested in used baby clothes as she can't afford brand new clothes and I am having difficulty in finding it in the middle of the mess the shop is in at the moment. She asks if some stuff she likes can be taken for free and Riverstone says yes, because he is overwhelmed by the excess stock we have, but I think it is very sellable stuff so I say no to her. Meanwhile the lady is waiting regarding the baby clothing and I tell her to come back the next day and I'll have the stuff she wants. That's when I notice she is a little person.
Then I see some other customer sitting on a stone slab outside where some slug like creatures are sneaking behind him and because of my previous dream with worms, I panic and warn him about it. Still, one of them hooks itself on his back, like a leech. Fortunately we manage to unhook it. Then some stupid ass idiot comes by with a bunch of these worms in a jar, throws them at me and runs away. Everybody freaks out and helps me shake them out of my hair and check if any has latched on my body, but we think I am in the clear. I then get possessed and chase that mf down. Turns out it was a girl, she teases me like "so what? what will you do?" and I go full "Kali Ma" on her (Indiana Jones ref) and plunge my hands in her chest ripping her organs out and then to finalize it, I intend to project flames from my mouth, like a dragon, but instead I project hot green vomit on her, like the possessed girl in the Exorcist.
When things calm down a bit, I sit with Zilla, Vera and a couple other friends at some outdoor café to drink something and relax. There are familiar faces around from my school past. I hear some music that makes me smile. And Vera interprets that I am smiling because I saw a guy on the next table, she assumes I have a crush on. So she takes a photo of him with her cellphone and goes around telling everyone he is my crush. He actually is a guy who bullied me a lot in middle school, his nickname was "ass-bomb" because he once farted in the classroom or something. I am fully aware now and tired of silly games so I explain to her what I was smiling at and whom the guy is and decide to go for a walk and do something with my lucidity. The area is like a kasbah, very tight streets with earth-rammed houses and vendors' tents. I soak in the diversity while thinking what to do. I see a few more familiar faces from middle school, another couple bullies for whom I actually feel tenderness, not so much from what they did but just to see them as they were back then, kids who haven't aged. I find it precious that I still keep their faces stored in my memory. Then something odd happens.
Superman falls from the sky onto some iron structure like the entrance to a train station or something. He seems to struggle to get on his feet, then he is attacked by what seems another superman who looks more like a super butch superwoman, way more muscular than the original, but with a female face. And she beats the shit out of him. Then comes an emo superman, very pale and skinny and scared. He doesn't really do anything, just watches, confused, I am also confused. I decide to fly up where they are, to watch it better and maybe help the real superman, I don't know. But they kinda stop fighting and look at me surprised, like "and who the hell are you?". I feel like they now might pick a fight with me, so I just let go and fly away and let them sort it out.
I keep flying but now I am actually on a plane over Florida. Instead of landing in the airport, it lands on water but not as an accident, apparently it is an hydroplane. The sky is so bright blue, no clouds, sun is shining bright, wonderful weather and beautiful light. When we land on the water, people are then taken to some water taxis and escorted by jet skis who are there as a backup (they have rafts for taking in people if necessary). I find it a bit too much of a precaution, but I am impressed with the organization. Some kid is looking at me and I smile at him. Most people are families with kids and I feel they are going to Disney World.