lucid

29.10.2016

(DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had a "Fake WILD", a WILD within a dream. This has happened to me before, but I forget if I usually consider it a DILD or a WILD. I think I'll consider it a DILD this time.

I was in a hotel with my girlfriend. We went to bed and for some reason I knew I would have a lucid dream. I closed my eyes and right away felt SP set in. Vibrations were not as strong as they usually are, but they were there. I waited a few seconds and then sat up in my bed. I was not in my dream bedroom, but rather in the hotel bed. I stood up and did a reality check by plugging my nose and breathing. Air didn't get in as easily as it usually does, but I figured it was just a bit stuffed. I rubbed my hands to stabilize and read something on the wall. I remembered the Task of the Month. I put both my hands in my pockets and pulled out a slingy from my left pocket, and a pair of dice from the right pocket. I laughed and then jumped through the window, I phased through it. I started flying towards space.
For a second I thought I was in the void, but then I saw stars everywhere. I started flying as fast as I could and they became distorted. I stopped and saw a blue planet, I knew it wasn't Earth. I flew towards it and entered its stratosphere and then decided to take away my flying, see if I could make myself invincible. I was falling fast but could sorta glide using my body position. There were several beautiful green islands before me, scattered in a deep blue ocean. I aimed towards one of them and at this point I was falling so fast that it became bigger and bigger exponentially. I landed on my feet, and there was an empty *POP* sound as I landed. I left a crater at the landing site of about 10 meters in diameter, I was unharmed.
I walked to the shore, and looked towards the endless ocean, into the horizon. The sky was a mix of blue, and purpleish vanilla. I put my hands stretched out in front of me, and started waterbending. I made swirls in the air, made the shape of a dragon and had it dance in the air. Then I shot a big stream of water straight up in the air and made it explode, it was beautiful. I thought of what I should do next, and had a FA.
The dream continued non-lucidly.

only two low level lucids where i, for some reason, remembered the advanced totm: walk with your head

i riding my bike thru a forest. i turn left and ride up a hill. there is more and more snow until its high as my hip. it dont feel cold tho. now i ride down the hill on the other side and i try to ride slowly and controlled so i wont trip. there is a turn and i try to come around slowly but i slide and go straigt ot of the turn and find myself behind a building holding something to not fall down. i notice that i am levitating a little and i get lucid relaxing myself. i do a nosepinch and float around the house and land on a stair and move down. for some reason first thing that come up in my mind is the totm. i do a headstand but in suddenly feel gravity shifting and kind of falling into the ground and i wake up.

there was a party? i have taken some drugs? i see a friend taking some and i enter a bus. i dont manage to get out at the right station and have to walk one. while walking i see some plants in a garden and they are beautiful. its more a bush and has some blue flat flowers. while moving calmly i get lucid again and do a nosepinch to confirm. for some reason there are some fries on the ground (i drop them?) and i pick them up with TK and thinking about to eat it but they are dirty so i tk them away. and again i thinking about the totm and so i slowly and controlled start do do a handstand, it feels very realistic and is a little shaky but then i manage to remove my hands and only stand on my head. i look on the ground and will myself to move. i dont feel anything so i imagine to see the ground moving as an indicator that i am moving. fair enough i start to see some movement and i feel the ground. but i dont feel like my head actually is "moving" but i stand on my hand and i seem to move so fair enough. i get woken by the alarm.

I woke up after another dream and quickly drifted into this dream, I assume it was a DEILD but I can't quite explain how I got into this dream, I suddenly just was in it.

It was pretty short and I don't remember very much either. I was walking on a street, outside, it was nice weather. The most notable thing was me looking at some street signs. I have a very rough image of them left but... I could hit my past self for not immediately noting down what was on them. There was some kind of explanation for something.

Don't read ahead unless you're an adult, I've tried keeping some of the descriptions to a minimal though.

Dream
It's sunny and I'm walking along a sheltered wooden deck outside, like a walkway you might see at the zoo. As I was walking I saw cute girls walk past in leggings, I flirted with one of them and it felt unrealistic which clued me in that it was a dream. I became lucid and immediately went cave-man mode, no stabilising or anything.. I just walked up to the cute girl and groped her, kissed her and many other things I managed to go all the way and even finish which isn't something I've ever had in a lucid dream. A weird thing I noticed was that she kept disappearing yet was still there, it's hard to explain but basically she went invisible or something..

May 2, 2013

Realize after sleeping in my body with phantom sensations of hands. Understood what is happening and began to struggle with rage like mad to go outside my body. The feeling that I was crawling on the floor in the dark quagmire and pulls me back, it seemed that crawled a many meters, but I ended up in my room when the vision came.
Next, I went to the window and pane at the top of the window apparently was open, began to climb out through it, climbed half and wanted to jump down, then I wondered whether not this is real world, think I'll break. Thinking, I knew that in real life it can not be that I got out of the window like this, and jumped down.
Was on the ground, I walk around the yard, see the trees, no people, came to the end of the house. Then I take off and fly smoothly at a height of 2-3 floors, along the house, flew on the same line one yard and fly into the next, where landed. All buildings were in the same places as in real world. Looked at my body, arms and legs, pants which are dressed in the real.
Drew attention to the lying stick and for some reason I wished to draw it by willpower, and turned out it flew into my hand. I throw it into the house standing in front of me, at first it fly at random, I see it can not reach, and send will to it so that flew straight and stuck in the wall.
Next moment, from behind, my leg gets an arrow, and pierces through shin. There was no pain, I pulled out the arrow, turned around, see a woman, dressed in red archer clothes, the bow, distance to her ~30 meters. To aggression my answer the same - throw arrow at her and directing it, she tried to dodge, but arrow fly like self-homing, hit it as well as she did, in the legs. She starts to run away. And dip in memory...
Then remember, I was standing with this archer, and there are men with us. They are talking, and I remember she said that I'm Italian and do not understand them, I said, I'm Russian and understand. After I returned back to body.
But I not woke and tried once again to get out, and get out of body through resistance, climb out again for a long way, I appear in the porch, it turned out that I climbed through two walls. I went down the stairs, there I see was very bright, hyper-realistic. Went to the window in the stairwell, open it, and jumped down. Then back into body and wake up.

PE lesson

I was in my old school, I left changing room and went to sports hall. We had a new PE teacher. I was just about to enter the sports hall when I noticed that I don't have one of my shoes on, and the other had an enormous hole in it. I passed by students from other class and entered the hall. The teacher took some old shoes from a cardboard box and gave them to me. I took them on and started tying them.

Failed WBTB attempt

A favor

With two classmates we were in a city, wandering around blocks of flats. It was a sunny but cold day. We were going to a house of some girl one of classmates wanted to invite to a prom. We got outside her flat, there was some dark haired girl outside, standing with her mother. Classmate asked me to do him a favor and ask her mother if her daughter will go with him to a prom. I went to that mother and asked "Could your daugter go on a prom..." She cut in and asked me about her name. I didn't knew it and stood there in silence. After a while I explained "Well, I'm doing a favor for a friend who is too shy to ask her out." She said "I see..." I went back to these two dudes and suddenly we heard a voice shouting through megaphone. Her mother was angry at us.

Waterslide DILD

I woke up in a bed in other room than usually, confused. I felt as if I wore a jacket, but when I moved my hand over my body but haven't felt any jacket. I started suspecting that this might be a dream and made a nose-plug RC. It confirmed that it was a lucid dream. I got out of the bed and moved towards doors. I used them to teleport outside. It was really early morning but it wasn't that dark. I was standing on the middle of the road, completely naked. Staring at the way the road led, I got an idea to make a waterslide. I jumped on the ground and created a wildly flowing stream of water flowing along the road. I slided across whole village, increasing or decreasing flow of water until I got close to my friends house. There was an enormous shopping mall in the middle of the road. It looked like it was just recently open for business. I entered it, it was really dark inside. In the darkness I could see all the clothes shops - there were only clothes shops with mannequins. I clapped my hands expecting the claps to turn lights on, but it wasn't working. I got a wild thought that these mannequins could turn alive and attack. I immediately got a feeling that I'm surrounded, that thousands of them stare at me at the same time, I felt lost. I managed to calm myself and stabilise the dream a bit, thinking "Wait, they can't even turn alive if I don't allow them to do so!" I continued along the shop. Suddenly I lost lucidity.

Mirror DILD

I woke up in a bed in another room again. Immediately I realised that it's a dream and made a nose-plug RC to confirm it. I got out of bed and moved to hallway, there was a huge mirror hanging on a wall. I waved my hand in attempt to telekinetically smash it, but it only made the dream much less stable. The reflection in the mirror showed the hallway in strong moonlight. I woke up.

Alright, I think this one my be one of my favorite dreams and probably my longest lucid dream right now. Some time before sleeping I took some melatonin (one tablet, this is the first time I ever used it) and I guess since it supresses rem sleep I had some kind of rem rebound after I woke up which gave me this long dream.

I was in the street in front of my house, at night. I remember opening the front gate and going up the stairs. Details are kinda fuzzy but I remember entering my apartment and going to my room. I suddenly woke up but managed to stay still (might have swallowed, but didn't move) so I tought I might as well try DEILD. Now, I've tried deild many times before but I just get a lot of popping in my ears and the feeling of a numb body, then I just give up and get up. This time tough, I persisted and tried to imagine things, like dream scenarios. My toughts started getting derailed so I tried to imagine seeing my room's ceiling through my eyelids. I think I also tried to imagine the sensation of flying. There was one point were I decided I should get up and check if I'm dreaming. I opened my eyes and stood up, everything seemed pretty real until I did the nose RC and found out I was dreaming.

I was pretty excited, running around the house trying to do some dream control. I don't remember very well what I tried to do but I remember not being able to control the dream with expectation and being confused because my recent LDs have had pretty good control. I went to my parent's bedroom and it was pretty dark so I imagined it becoming daytime outside. I looked through in the window and it was very early in the morning and still pretty dark, so I imagined the sun speeding across. Surely enough it started getting brighter and the sun speeded across the sky. I stopped it by shouting some command (maybe I held out my hand too) and I positioned the sun to the middle of the sky. I then told it to come closer. Closer! I began to try to pull it with my mind and it came closer and closer until it seemed to have engulfed everything. It was kinda like I was floating in space and I was now inside the sun which was blue now.

The inside of the sun is kinda hard to describe. It was like it was empty and the outside of the sun was a thin blue forcefield. In the middle of the sun there was this little white dot which I tough was a blackhole. Eventually everything snapped back to normal and I was back in my parents' room. I continued trying to control things and failed, so I decided I should look for my Dream Guide again. I went into the hall and said out loud "Dream, I'm ready to meet my dream guide" but as soon as I said that, a voice said that I wasn't ready yet. I argued that I was and then I found out it was just the housemaid that used to work in my house.

I figured that if I can't find a DG I might as well summon Yuu (she is a dream character I created in waking life). I extended my hand behind my back and felt a hand. When I pulled it back it was a doll and I tossed it aside. Walking towards the living room I did this again and failed somehow. I tried it again, imagining the feeling of her hand and succeded. There she was. I don't think I had seen her in such a vivid dream before. Her hair was bright pink, brighter than usual. I told her that she looked prettier than usual but I don't remember what she said, but I remember she was "smarter" than usual, like it wasn't just some random DC. She had a sweet fragrance to her which I also commented on. I told her we should go to her house. She manifested a pair of fancy magical pink scissors which she used to cut up a portal in the dream. I didn't create annything like that for her but it was pretty cool.

We arrived in some kind of huge house (it looked like we had been shrunk) which kinda looked like mine. I remember there being some huge dogs which we played aroun with. The details are kinda fuzzy here. I asked her why this house was so big and she said "Because it's not my house!". She used the scissors again and we ended up inside a car in some street, at night. I remember there being some bright pink fuzzy dice hanging somewhere. The car seemed to be moving by itself. I told Yuu that I wanted to live here with her and she said something like "You just want the car!" but I said that I really meant it. We got out of the car and walked on the streets. I'm pretty sure there was snow. I really felt great at this moment, just walking around with her in this dimly lit street.

Eventually I woke up in some amusement park at night, walking on some kind of orange catwalk towards some attraction. I was feeling really drowsy and had some drool on my face. I tought that, somehow, I was dreaming while I sleepwalked around the park. There were two guys behind me, who seemed to be dressed as Dumbledore and some other character. For some reason, they were following me while I sleepwalked. I called some guards because I felt they were creeps and the guard pinned them to the floor and told me to go to an attraction (it was some kind of bullet train with a lot of people getting on). I went towards it and when I entered the train I woke up.

This was a pretty cool dream, I loved hanging around for the first time with Yuu. This dream is so long, tough, that I forgot some details, unfortunately.

After routine relaxation and concentration exercise before sleeping I felt my spiritual body to free itself off of physical body a little therefore I allowed myself to stand up from it. It was very easy. My surrounding was greyish but not dark as usually when I travel at night. I saw the inner light of things unusually bright. I walked through my house finding it empty. Then I left out right through the wall to the empty street. And I walked for some time observing my surrounding, feeling it. I felt deep sadness but at the same time I was well balanced, therefore the OBE felt stable.

I came to the city and it too was empty. The lighting was stronger, the sun was up on the sky, yet everything, every colour was greyish. I saw gravel down to sand size very sharply, each piece of grain, each rock... and I came to the big bridge over the river.

I saw there an angel, who I instinctively knew as angel of death. He brought an unknown young woman with dark bushy hair there and pushed her under the bridge into darkness. I felt pang of great sadness and love toward that woman. And I came closer wanting to come after her. The angel of death looked like he wanted to stop me, telling me that that woman deserves to suffer for eternity because she took her life. That nothing would help her. And I went toward him nevertheless... And angel ran away. I turned and went under the bridge.

There was darkness under the bridge. It was as if I stepped through a border between day and night. Light was not penetrating under the bridge as it normally would. But it was possible to see on the other side to the light. There were people there, maybe 15-20 of them. Many of them looked like homeless people. And there was sitting that girl between them, tears were dropping constantly from her eyes. I stepped toward her, and my inner light repulsed those people away from me. That girl too tried to go away, but I lifted her onto my arms like child, and I started to cradle her while I was walking slowly to the light. It was like she weighed nothing. She wept constantly, and she was trying to free herself from my embrace, but I was holding her fast. After short while she stopped to struggle with my embrace. I crossed the border between dark and light and she started to cry as if it was hurting her. So I went back to darkness with her. I tried to ease her, I was filled with unconditional love which I tried to infuse into the woman. And I was cradling her while I was walking through the mud and filthy water under the bridge. For some reason I called her with the name of my first love even if she didn't look like her. I persuaded her that she is loved, that she doesn't have to suffer... And I was carrying her closer to light for short time and then back to darkness so she would be able to accustom to it slowly. At last, I managed to bring her out to the light for good, but she was holding me and looked scared of light. She was heavier and heavier for some reason. Nevertheless, even if she was growing more heavy I held her fast in my embrace and I walked away from darkness to stronger and stronger light till I lost connection with astral world.

Remarks
This OBE felt great... but sad. I needed to write it out of my system. Even now that sadness is lingering around me... I don't know in this state of consciousness how can one feel so deep sadness and love at once and yet to be unattached to those feelings, but it was how I was feeling there.

Night 12

-If I remember I was with Tony the Tiger and Spellbee2 (portrayed as a full-size gray anthro cat wearing a green hoodie.) I think he carried a red device like a miniature laptop that also functioned as a cell phone. (I guess it was like the pokedex from that one version of his avatar.) We were all lost in the amazon rainforest. I remember the rainforest being very thick and impassable in some places, and in others, there were clearings full of a few short palm trees and tall grass.

Eventually, after some time skips and days and days of traveling we made our way to the edge of a city. Unfortunately, when we got there, we found out we had to cross a river to get to the city, and the only thing on our side of the river was a brick walkway.

The city had a guardian, a giant four-legged robot pod that would stride around over the buildings. It had very long legs and could walk through the river, and it carried us across. I then saw a whole bunch of dreamviews members in a big crowd watching someone that I did't recognize climbing up the side of a skyscraper. I think the dream became very focused on lucid dreaming and this might have been the portion where I got lucid, and I'm remembering things out of order.

-I was driving to Wal-Mart to get the Skyrim Special edition and for some reason taking my dad's van. I was somehow able to drive from the back seat of the van, but I decided while driving that I should climb over to the front seat so I could have better visibility and work the petals. There was some construction and lane changes coming up and while passing some equipment I struck a very old looking red van.

We pulled over into a parking lot. There was no damage to either of our cars except a wheel had come off of my dad's van. (Front driver side wheel.) I figured we didn't actually hit but the wheel came off and that was what felt like a crash.

Two people got out of the van. It was a tall middle age guy with long snow white hair slicked back and a shorter woman with curly white hair. The woman wanted to just stay calm since it clearly wasn't a bad accident but the man was ticked and he started yelling about how young drivers cause all the problems. I tried to get him to calm down saying there wasn't any damage to his car and he might as well get back on the road like nothing happened. But he just kept insulting me personally so I kicked him in the crotch. Then the guy wanted to fight me and tried to attack me, but he was bad at fighting and I beat him up. When the police did show up, the man's wife took my side and said she was going to divorce him if he kept acting so easily angered.

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-I was trying to find the northernmost city in the world. It was some city built in Alaska. I wanted to drive there but someone said something about my car freezing. I got this vision of my car being buried in snow and that began to manifest itself as a dream, but I woke up.

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-Whenever/wherever I got lucid, I was in an underground cavern with buildings built into the walls and ceiling, and a sort of paved floor with a fountain like a large plaza. I remember the first thing I did was fly. I flew around the cavern in a big circle, and landed back in my original place.

I then thought I could get more competition points by doing mind control. I looked at a little DC boy and pointed at him, and told him he would do a roundhouse kick. He obeyed and did one, but he almost kicked someone else by accident. His mom got mad at me and told me not to mind control him anymore. I said I wouldn't, and she walked off.

I for some reason then thought to do a reality check, I knew I could get points for it. So I did a really long nose pinch. Then Proceeded to stabilize by kneeling over and pounding on the stone floor tiles of the cavern with my fist.

...

I was at a modern looking house with a big swimming pool in the back of it, still lucid. Marcus was there.

...

I was back at the cavern location, but I remember it feeling brighter. I summoned Manei and I saw a random girl in the crowd twitch, drop what she was doing and turn and come to me. She looked nothing like the dream guide I know, at least on the outside. Apparently she had decided to try taking over another DC instead.

I asked her if she could now shape-shift to something close to her usual appearance. She seemed reluctant to do so, but when she tried, she made a loud noise like computer static and I saw her become translucent, and her body parts detached and jumped to different positions before reforming sans the right leg, that was just a skin-covered stump. She fell over. Then her right arm became translucent, her fingers, palm of her hand, and elbow detached. Each one transformed into a black dice with white dots that fell to the ground.

She said she had made a mistake. Marcus said something about how you should never try to take over someone's body and try to shapeshift since normal dream characters' bodies can't shapeshift it will cause problems and destabilize them. Manei said there was a magical focal point 3000 feet to the north that I could use to repair her.

"Compass Now!"

I stomped on the ground and splintered the concrete floor of the cavern with cracks radiating in the cardinal directions. About 10 or 15 feet out the cracks turned 90 degrees and formed a circle with the NESW directions represented with their usual letter. I saw north was directly ahead through a door and picked her up.

I ran through a door and was in the hallway of my high school. It was crowded and I turned on my zero friction skates. I was able to skate along the side of the wall (ignoring standard physics) to avoid the crowd. I then went through a gymnasium. I got to the magical focal point that was inside of a small bathroom on the far side of the gym, and I got to the bathroom just before someone else did.

When I got in there I flushed the toilet and a purple beam of light shot out of it. I saw a white eyeball in the light. It was Ateria, the spirit guardian of one of my original characters in the dream. Manei said that I was fast enough for her to return to her form but not fast enough for the dream to not destabilize. I saw things get dark. She told me to come back soon and I lost the dream.

Night 12:

NLD x3=1
DILD x1=10
RC x1=1
DC interact x1=2
Fly =5
Mind Control =5
(Okay I'm putting the summon down as DC changing for 10. Figures Manei would find a way to make scoring murky.) =5+5 for DG 'summon'
Unspecified Dream Control (compass creation) =5
Super Speed =5

Night 13

I recall being lucid. I was in what looked like the doctors room you wake up in in the beginning of Fallout New Vegas. Manei came in carrying beers and she said that she wanted me to kill her father because he dressed up like a cowboy and she didn't like cowboys. I replied pretty annoyed saying (exact words I believe) "Im not killing someone for such a stupid reason." But I was thinking through what she was requesting. I've interacted with her mother at least one time that I can recall, but it was long long ago, and I think she also has twin younger brothers, but this is the first time I've heard of her father.

I didn't like the implication of killing someone supposedly related to my dream guide even though I was thinking deeply about lucidity and recognized that as a dream guide, she is just an aspect of me and therefore shouldn't technically have a family at all, but the dream can still symbolize it as such.

Apparently it wound up being one of her dream guide tests of character and I passed. Also the beers wound up being filled with water and she wasn't actually drunk. I also remember seeing her father (wearing the cowboy outfit nonetheless) come into the room. I don't remember too much of what he looked like outside of he was a huge man, but friendly.

I honestly don't see how these make any sense anymore. Since she is really just an aspect of me, I'm telling myself. No more dream guide tests. Ever. Unless I ask for more.

DILD x1=10
DC interact x1=2

Dream starts at a heavy metal concert, as the dream continues i'm at the front of the crowd. I'm lifted up by someone on stage and i prepare to get thrown off to crowd surf. With my back to the crowd, I then feel myself being tossed and during the free fall of that toss I have plenty of time to think that I should be feeling a bunch of hands catching me and moving me around. I feel nothing and continue to free fall. Since i'm falling in the direction of my back, the only thing i can see is a grey tunnel and in the middle of that tunnel is the concert dream getting smaller and smaller. Thats when i realize that im dreaming. I try to stay calm to see where this free fall would take me but since i'm falling backwards i felt like i had to prepare myself for an impact. I tuck my arms and legs in, like a fetus position and was so excited, i noticed i had my mouth open and i thought to close it so i dont bite my tongue off and thats when the LD ended.

I wake up and think about the whole dream and just write some key things for me to remember in my journal. I look at the cable box and see that 4-5 minutes passed by while i'm laying there in the dark and i start to doze off.

Dream #2 starts with me seeing someone in my bedroom looking out the window. The room is dark and is from my current home. I recognize the clothes that hes wearing from somewhere but i still cant see his face. He finally steps away from the window and walks towards me standing at the doorway. "Whats up?" he says as he passes and then i realize that hes the owner of the barber shop that i go to. I seen him a couple of days ago at a Quick Check wearing the same clothes. I said, "hey, i seen you in Quick Check the other day" and he replied , "oh yeah, i was getting a haircut". I remember mumbling to myself, "haircut, in a gas station?" and just like that i knew i was lucid. As i followed him through the hallway i realized the hallway led to the living room that looked like the one in the apartment where i used to live. There were 3 Christmas trees and presents all over the place. There were people standing around talking but i could not make out what they were saying. There was an old style tv that looked exactly like my wifes grandmother had before she passed away. There was nothing playing on it though. There was a sofa, love seat and a recliner. I went to touch the tv and the material of the cabinet transformed from wood to another material. I then went to touch the recliner cushion and to my surprise it actually felt and reacted like a cushion should. I went to touch it again to see what would happen when i noticed a buddy of mine from work standing there watching me, smiling. As i went to say something to him, i hear the sound of a creaking door and wake up to real life of my son checking to see if i was up to start getting ready for work.

Spring 2013

Dreamed that I see a beautiful girl on the beach. And in next moment I'm flying out of my body to her, she was an image before, it was a clear sense - separation of the astral body.

Fully lucid here, fly up to her and kiss, feel I kiss an animal, but rather why the otter, even was quiet growl or something, and she begins to disappear, and disappeared into thin air.

Look around, I was on the beach, near the river flows, about 100m wide, fast flowing and dark deep water. Looked away toward of river, see a beautiful sky, clouds tinged with pink, like the dawn, get inspiration from it. Looked at my hands, they are almost like in real life, only lines more clearly expressed. Sat down, touch the sand, feeling soft not quite same as in physical, took a handful, he pours through fingers. Look again at sky and river, and I could not resist so wanted to swim, jumped into it, but it seems I was not ready and caught awakening. The last thing I saw a man floating down the river with a very high speed.

(Here I'll say shortly about my practice of that time. I start to practice exercise of retrospection from "The Rosicrucian Cosmo-Conception" by Max Heindel in december 2012, and I do it everyday for about two years, to january 2015. This retrospection in my opinion is best practice to start lucid dreaming. In fact it is repentance. The concentration, second exercise, is the mantra, I do it from time to time, as it is written in text of exercises at the end of the book. You can find and read.)

I don’t remember much from my first dream, but I’m in some white, futuristic-looking room when I realize that I’m dreaming. Before I can do anything, however, this skinny bald guy walks in. He’s got an evil look in his eye, and I get just a really creepy vibe from him. He laughs like a crazy person for a bit, and then presses a button on a control panel off to the side of the room. This sends a debilitating electric shock through my body, and I end up on the floor having a seizure as the dream ends.

I falsely awaken. I stop and think for a minute of who this guy from my dream might be - some kind of dream nemesis? I (falsely) recall several other dreams where he’s been there to torture me, and vow that next time I’m dreaming (lol) I’ll find him and ask him who he is. I find myself in a hobby shop that mainly sells board games. There’s apparently a scavenger hunt competition put on by the store going on, with the final treasure at the end being some incredibly valuable prize. I solve the first puzzle by using a key I found on one of about 100 lock-boxes in a random cabinet in the store. I use the number engraved on the key to open the corresponding lock-box, and inside is another key to another lock-box. I open about 3 or 4 boxes before I notice a very large guy in a black suit walk into the store and start looking around. I know he’s looking for me, so I start running, which makes him give chase.

I run through the Employees Only door into this huge foyer. The walls, floor, and ceiling are all white and black, kind of like some of the testing chambers in Portal. Apparently this is the headquarters of a huge tech company where the grand prize of the competition is being stored. I have to make my way to the center room to retrieve the grand prize, but the company has an insanely complicated security system that I have to disable at least partially to get there. Until then, there’s huge lasers covering most of the floors and doorways, and a ton of armed security guards roaming the halls. I take off down one hallway with a grid of lasers on the floor and carefully step my way through the gaps. Unfortunately, I’m spotted by some guard, who tries to attack me. He takes a leap at me, but he’s almost moving in slow motion. I dive out of the way, taking care as I slowly float down to not hit any of the lasers. I turn around and notice he’s doing the same - apparently he can’t touch the lasers either. This continues for some time - the two of us gracefully tip-toe around like ballerinas dancing in low gravity, while making sure to get in a punch or a kick whenever we get the chance.

I somehow manage to defeat him and get to the central room. I open the breaker panel and cut one of the wires to disable it. This shuts off some of the lasers (but not all, since apparently they’re on separate power grids for added security). I grab the prize - a small slip of paper - and make for the exit again. Meanwhile, a guy is talking in my earpiece about how all the exits are surrounded by guards, so there’s no easy way out of the building. I just have to improvise, I guess.

I head through another door into a very large white room. I realize that this room looks very familiar - this is the room the bald guy electrocuted me in. I deduce that I must be still dreaming (though I’m not “fully” lucid and don’t think clearly). I think about flying out to escape, but I decide that the storyline is too interesting and I don’t want to break character. So instead, I find an elevator shaft and start doing Mario-esque wall jumps to climb higher and higher. My path gets blocked by a laser grid, however, and before I can find another way to escape, I wake up.

1 NLD - 1
2 DILDs - 10 + 5 = 15
WBTB - 2

Night 13 Total - 18 pts

Had another lucid dream this morning. Was in this gas station searching for and eating pastries that I love so much. I was going to pay for them but decided since I was dreaming I was not going to do a damn thing but eat the pastries. After a while, I figured it was time to stop messing around and complete my goal: Find the dream character named, "Naomi"

I went outside the gas station to find a vehicle that was going to transport me as fast as possible to the park where I expected Naomi to be. All I found were cars that were missing a wheel. This is significant because here we see another obstacle keeping me from finding Naomi. I find a car that had all its wheels so I stole it of course. I heard sirens in the background meaning out of the blue(no pun intended) the police were on my tail. Fortunately, the park where Naomi should have been was only down the street from the gas station. I swerved into the park and ran into a tree. I rushed out of the car and ran towards the park bench where I knew Naomi should be. I was getting excited to finally complete this dream task I have been planning for weeks.

I finally arrived at the bench.

Instead of finding a black/asian woman with long, black braids, I found my dad sitting on the bench.

NO, DAMN IT.

Mind you I was lucid at this time, so I tried to use my dream powers of expectation to sort of summon "Naomi". I saw my father morph and distort a bit but no dice. The dream ends.



RANT TIME: The Naomi Obsession

Why the hell am I so passionately obsessed with finding a dream character from several dozen non-lucid dreams ago? Because the mere act of finding Naomi, at a certain place, at a certain time, in a specific form, to have a specific conversation, vindicates my ability to control the dream scene. That will officially mark the beginning of all the adventures I aspire to have; all the adventures that are the reasons why I have spent 7 years dabbling, researching, fantasizing, and failing at lucid dreaming. I can't have these adventures and memories if I spend most of the lucid dreams I ever have doing mundane things in places I already have familiarity with in waking life.

I am talking about achieving Inception levels of adventure; at least 4 nights a week. This, in my view, can not be done unless through sincere desire, planning, and expectation as in the case of finding Naomi.

Techniques:

So the "Ambience Induced Lucid Dream" technique I was fantasizing about several days ago is garbage. However, the root of it, SSILD, still holds water and has yielded positive results. This morning, I got an idea about the effectiveness of SSILD. Perhaps it was not in focusing on a sense for an extended length of time - as outlined in the original guide - that increases lucidity. Perhaps it was the act of switching focus from sight, sound, and touch that created the conditions favorable to induce a lucid dream. So I quickly switched focus from sight, sound and touch in a steady cadence. I guess spending 1 second per sense would be an accurate statement. Sometimes faster. Sometimes I would slow down and focus on a sense for a bit longer. But I was trying to get in as many cycles as possible because I have been having a problem where I would fall asleep without getting much done.

But of course, this wasn't the only thing I was doing to induce this lucid dream. I was also using prospective memory to visualize me becoming lucid in a later time. I wasn't repeating a mantra 10,000 times. I focused more on the visualization of me becoming lucid with the feeling that remembering to do this was very important. Mind you, I wasn't doing MILD and SSILD at the same time. I was bouncing between the SSILD-variant and the MILD-variant. WBTB was longer as well. I was awake for about 35-45 minutes. It wasn't intentional, it was just that I had a hard time falling asleep again.

Bed @ 2245
Woke @ 0120.
Attempted BTB @ 0145 /w MILD & SSILD
Meditated, got up, went back to bed, got up, had a drink, listened to a book, back to bed, etc. Fell asleep past 4.
Woke @ 0440

Meeting with my boss
I'm in my (old)boss's office for my every-other-weekly meeting. She's finishing something up and has a few papers on her desk. They're up-side-down, but I can see long lines of highlighter on them. I have a brief thought that maybe it's paperwork for a raise, but I squash that - I got one recently from "my other boss." I have a moment of confusion, since I just had a one-on-one with "my other boss," but "remember" that he's actually her boss and I meet with both of them. She's listening to some really weird music that's making it hard to think, and I hope she'll turn it off. I see her move what looks like an ipod, but I have the odd feeling that the music isn't actually coming from it. She starts saying something about duct tape, how tempting it is, how it needs to be controlled, and I'm really confused. I think I must have missed her opening sentence and that, if I'd caught it, then everything would make sense.

She keeps going about the duct tape, and I suddenly I realize that none of this makes sense and that I must be dreaming. I do a confirmation nose-pinch and am able to breathe. I have almost no "did I do it right?" hesitation and am extremely confident that this is a dream, and I have no qualms about doing weird stuff in "my boss' office." I stand up and walk over to the wall trying to decide what to do - I consider trying to phase through it, but I know that that's a good way to get somewhere totally random, and I don't want to lose lucidity in the transition. As I'm considering, I notice that my head is closer to the ceiling than it should be. I decide to see if I can grow further, and I do - I actually get my head within a hair's-breadth of the ceiling. Everything in the room looks a bit smaller, a bit further away. I remember a task of the month, to reach into my pockets and pull out whatever's there. I do so and find only my usual setup: my right pocket has my keys and Swiss Army knife, and my left pocket is empty.

Now I recall my 3-step goal. I've done steps 1 and 2 in a previous dream, and I kick myself for not posting a new step 3 - I've never successfully banished something from a dream, and I'd intended to update it to something simpler. Oh well, I'll give it a shot. I look around for a good candidate and see some baby toys on my boss's desk, including a small blue tower filled with marble-sized balls and a couple of plastic keyrings. I decide to banish one of the keyrings. I turn around, concentrate hard on making it disappear, then turn back. They're still there, though I have the feeling the contents of the desk shifted slightly. I decide that trying to remove something when there are two of them is a bad idea. I decide to do the little tower instead, but I don't want clutter around it in case that makes it harder. I walk over and rearrange things, moving the tower to the center of her desk and leaving a large space around it. I face the wall, focus on making the tower disappear, and turn back. It's now a tiny fraction of its original size, but it's still there. I decide that if doing the behind-the-back trick won't work. I'll just forcibly will it out of existence. I stare at it, willing it to vanish, and it starts vibrating madly; then I wake up. I check for an FA, but I'm back in reality.


BTB @ 0445
Woke @ 0630 /w alarm


Fiddling with a Steam Controller
I've just received my new Steam Controller and I'm showing it off to my kids. I'd heard it was large, but it's much larger than I expected. I'm also a bit disappointed by its appearance: in photos, it was always a dark shiny black, but it's actually a kind of matte light gray. I take note of each of the inputs, noting that something right in the middle also seems off, though I can't put my finger on what's not right. To the left is the fake D-pad - I try it out, and it feels like a normal D-pad. I look again, and it's not circular but is actually D-pad shaped, and that confuses me. Right in the middle of the pad is a tiny clickable Steam button. There's a circular pad on the right and another one in the lower-right, partly on the grip. A trigger button just to the right of the D-pad surprises me - I have no idea how you could press it without really contorting your hand. Triggers are all over the back, both on the main body and on the grips. Now the D-pad has changed, and it's a large layout of tiny red thumbsticks laid out in a three-tiered pattern: the outer tier has them in up/down/left/right positions, the middle tier has them for diagonal movement, and the inner tier is back to up/down/left/right. I note something in the software controls which allows each thumbstick to function independently, or you can lock each one to send only the direction corresponding to its position (so the left stick could only send 'left,' no matter which way it was being pushed). So far, I haven't actually plugged the controller into my computer, but I do so now so that I can finish its configuration and give it a shot in a game.


Watching a skilled player
I'm watching someone playing a game. Right now, he's in some kind of top down view of what I assume to be the game's galaxy, showing many planets, solar systems, and other astral objects. His ship is just a tiny dot currently orbiting a planet. Now he's received a mission to deliver something quickly to another planet which is on the other side of the galaxy, and I'm curious to see how he'll manage it, whether he'll try to use any kind of subspace gate or some-such or whether he'll just fly there without using any shortcuts. There's a lot of movement of the planets and systems, and he brilliantly uses gravity assist after gravity assist to fling himself to the other side of the map faster than I ever thought possible.

Now the game has switched to 2D side-scrolling action. He's not strong enough to fight the enemies here, so he's just running to the right, jumping over enemies as he encounters them, never stopping his movement. Now he's reached the end of the level, and he's got quite the crowd of enemies following him. There's only one enemy left between him and his goal, and it instantly kills him. He's a bit disappointed, but he's not really concerned, saying he'll get it next time.


Mad scientists
I'm watching a scientist in a lab. He's recently been exposed to a mutagen and needs to focus to keep his body from 'pooling' - but despite his constant attention, his gut is still very distended. Now he's overheard a junior scientist talking about revealing what's going on to their superiors - who have been kept in the dark - so the scientist manages to expose him to the mutagen. His skin ends up turning red and bumpy all over, and another scientist starts to permanently close his mouth by fusing another mutagen-infected <something> onto his face. I'm horrified, but thankfully another scientist convinces him to pull it off before it's too late.


Another vacation
I'm strolling through a beach town with my family and in-laws.

Now we're at the vacation house. My father-in-law needs some kind of charger. I run through the list of what I have, and he says he's already got the right cable, so he just needs my charger with the standard female USB port.

Now we're watching video provided by our management company showing a family touring the duplex we have up for rent. I can't believe how much stuff is left over from the previous renters - we're going to have to get over there and deal with it ASAP. In particular, the living room is full of baby toys and baby furniture. Now I'm looking at an application from a lady who'd like to move in. It says that she's requesting assistance to pay the rent - I've never seen anything like that before, and I show it to my wife. Looking more closely, we see that she's requesting a 3rd party source to pay $90 of her monthly rent. As we continue to look at it, we realize that the listed monthly rent is wrong; it's currently listed at $600 which is way too low. I can't remember exactly what it should be, but I think it's somewhere in the $700 range. In fact, the management company controls the rent and recently bumped it up due to market conditions. I'm going to have to contact them to find out what's going on. I'm frustrated that we can't probably change it for people who have already put in applications, but they really need to fix it immediately before any more applications come in.


Watching kids
I'm helping watch some kids who are all fairly young; I don't know any of them. One of them in particular is poorly behaved and doesn't want to go to bed. We end up doing something weird with sofa cushions and his crib to make a bed that he's willing to sleep in, and we're very relieved when it actually works. Some of his siblings are in the same bedroom as he is, so it's important for him to sleep so that they can sleep too.

finally a long night of sleep.
after wbtb i didnt allow myself to get too awake and did the ssild cycles a little faster and clumsy to get sure to fall asleep again. got a lucid but a little later than usual and the awareness was not too high.

i move by foot and seem to want to go back to my town, i look at the signs to find out where to go. i go straight and there is a blind end with several military stealth fighter jets. i am in awe and feel like i should not be allowed to be here. i look around for security cameras but i cant see any. i notice that the ground i am standing on is not asphalt but something more soft and flexible like the ground for gymnastics. i notice a neon yellow paint at the downside of one or two planes. i look away and back again and get the thought "if this would be a dream i could expect what there is" and i get instantly lucid. i do a nosepinch and approach one of the planes.
i look straight at the yellow paint and imagine/expect that it is a vest of ground working people. and fair enough when coming nearer to the plane at the beginning one then 3 guys move around the plane and enter it. i come closer and am a little scared that they might get hostile so i tell them "hello there i am the pilot" and enter the plane saying it one or two more times. i enter the cockpit and see that two girls are sitting on the seats and obviously have the intention to fly the plane. i am a little disappointed because i wanted to fly but fair enough. They seem pretty tired so i ask them where they are from and if they had a long journey to get here. the one says she is from a place in germany. i dont get it and ask again and she tells again but all i remember its a small town somewhere^^. the other girl comes from paris. but she took the magnetic train or something and where here pretty fast.
we didnt fly at all because while we talk the scenery changes and we move thru something like a school. they move up front and i follow. a girl with a blurred (like censored) face cross our way and i am puzzled why that so i follow her into a classroom and ask her why her face is censored but while we talk it seem that her face is not censored but very flat and pale and therefore maybe a little unusual but not that strange. i turn around and want to leave but a girl that reminds me of one girl i had an affair with approaches me and flirts with me but i dont want to and start leaving fast. i dont want to loose the two girls and i only see them shortly moving around a corner so i speed up to follow them. we are outside again and i look for the girls while the other girl is still following me relentless.
i come to a small crossroad where both ways move down a hill. shortly i don´t know where to go and decide to turn left and again see a glimpse of the girls. we reach a door at a scrap which seems to be the door to the plane again and we stop. the ex-affair reaches us and i punch a bottle with another bottle i have in my hand to her. then i reach for some stones and repeat it but she seems not to care. i wake up. but this time i dont want to be lazy and just give up so i focus on previous dream and keep talking to her and try to imagine the scene [which was pretty dull...] and fair enough after a few seconds i find myself back in same scene but without the two girls. i try to make peace with my stalker [dont know the exact phrasing]. i also tell her she might have nice breasts (and for some reason she reaches them and pull them out) i look closely at them and even touch them but i dont like them. she tells me one/she can drink from them. i wonder how and she says she gave birth and since then she can have milk. i enter thru the door and find myself again in something like a cockpit. even though the girls were not there anymore i expect them to enter the door behind me and they do like nothing changed. also my stalker girl enters. its getting strait. i see a guy i was diving with sitting at a computer and typing something. i wake up for good.


after several hours of sleep i was more napping than sleeping anymore and seem to think about previous lucid because i seem to "wild" and i suddenly find myself not far away from the place where the planes where. i see a parking lot from a car sales and get lucid. i do a nosepinch to confirm. i see several cars, some with short wings and a big spoiler (mix of a car and a plane) and some bigass motorbikes and i strongly "remember" to be here before and drive with one of the motorbikes. i see some guys around and i think about if i want to take "again" the same motorbike or maybe on of this fast looking cars. while approaching i wake up again