lucid

I no longer remember what happened before I became lucid and what tipped me off. But I remember realizing that this was a dream in a staircase, and jumping up and gravity did not pull me down (successful reality check), so I flew and I headed out onto a balcony and through a solid wooden balcony enclosure with my eyes open. I remember flying a bit outside before the scene changed and I lost lucidity, remembering I had just had a lucid dream though. There were some people at a loading dock and they seemed hostile, which tipped me off that they were just dream characters after all. So I regained lucidity, and flew up and started shooting at the DCs with bow and arrow. I again lost lucidity in a scene change, and this time I was sure I had woken up. I wanted to record my dream, but my husband kept insisting he had to finish reading a children's book to me. He read the final page, and wanted to start another, but I said no thanks. And my eyes opened in my actual bed (I checked).

Oh and all this happened after a WBTB after I woke up at 3:40 and got up for a bit and went back to sleep with intention to realize I am dreaming.

were all after the purple meth crystal and tryna understand by not understand me that were after the blue meth crystal now the blue meth crystal shy away from the red as it shy the purple meth crystal just flicks in perfect symmtery now the blue meth crystal has many users so does teh green and teh purple understand me not by understanding me now the red crystals shy away like a sly depth septor to cancle out the jedi scum if there even more jedi to be subdue

I was in my old house mom's bedroom...laying on the bed cut open to where I can see my insides. and this man don't know who he was said that since he has the organs that he needs he would kill me unless I could hide in the ceiling where the light is....first time where I was able to reliable I was dreaming and keep going....After he stiched me up he sat me on the floor for some reason I started opening the place where he stitched me up...at this time this guy is laying on the bed sleep and I start cutting him to get my organs back...weird huh.....after all of that is done I was getting ready to still follow what he stated and climb up into the space where the light is located but remembered he was dead...i somehow fix my body and began to hear a school bus...I immediately go to the front door to stop my nephew from coming in..just then my sister pulls in the driveway and he has to get groceries out of the car....i quickly told my sister to follow me to the bedroom. I told her he was going to kill me since he had my organs unless I found a place to hide while he slept.... but I ended up killing him...all she said was great...after all of that I remembered somehow doing the entire process that a friend gave me a card and told me to contact her.. who might I add I have not seen since we left college but stay in touch on social media. ...
I must say this was weird for a Sunday afternoon nap from 4 until 7:30.

Excuse the typos I typed this on my phone since I couldn't find my pad.

I've gotten better at WILD, although it took... what... 4 years?

I've found I have much more control over the dream and don't run into the "stuck in the dark" issue that plagues my lucid dreams when I gain awareness during a dream.

I've been horrible about keeping a dream journal, and today I only remember my 2 WILD lucid dreams and not much else. Very lazy of me.

My favorite method for WILD is to explore a specific environment. I have two main fallbacks, two different "home bases". I know a lot of people really want to create a home base. It has been very difficult for me - I had no luck even managing to arrive in my home base for 2 solid years. I think part of it was that my "home" really wasn't a good one and didn't reflect my true personality or needs, and I had to spend a lot of time rearranging and rebuilding it in my head. I have two different ones right now, depending on what I want to accomplish. One is a whimsical home in what looks like the rainforest of the Pacific Northwest, perched on a cliff over the ocean. The other one is a fortress in a rugged landscape that looks a lot like the Grand Canyon, although much more mountainous.


LD #1: Woke up. Had to use the bathroom. Went back to bed.
Began my visualization of home #1... I was on the sandy beach below the cliff. I walked up and down the beach in my mind, focusing on all of the sensations that would go with it - the sound of the waves, the sound of the wind, the feel of the sand beneath my feet and even the slight whisper it made when I walked. How my footprints looked. The sky and horizon over the ocean, and the smell of salt on the breeze. Eventually, the sound of gulls over the water.

I looked back toward my house. There are steep stairs that lead up from the beach to the top of the cliff - they're made from the stones themselves. I walk across the beach to the steps and start climbing upward toward the house. The stones feel solid beneath my feet.

By the time I reach the top of the cliff, the dream has solidified into a lucid dream, although it still feels very fragile. I spend some time on the terrace at the top of the cliff looking out across the beach and ocean, and marvel at how beautiful it is.

I have a feeling that there are some friends nearby heading toward my house, so I move through the bedroom (which has a door leading to the terrace) and then the kitchen area. Things are fuzzy and I've made the mistake of not stabilizing very well because I'm anxious to greet my friends.

I open the front door. The rainforest outside is cool and misty. Wooden steps create a trail upward through the foliage. I can hear their voices in the distance, it sounds like two of them are arguing with each other.

Two of my friends appear at the top of the steps and start heading downward... I can still hear the others arguing with each other, although they're still out of sight somewhere further up the trail.

All of this is very distracting. The dream is too thin at this point, and it fades. I wake up.

LD #2:
I wake up naturally. It's early morning... light outside, but earlier than I'd like to get out of bed. I don't really remember the dreams I just had.

I lie back and begin another visualization; this time, I'm exploring the fortress. The fortress is a very new idea, interesting and a bit more grim. I wander around through some nondescript rooms... I haven't really developed the place much... and eventually become lucid in an area with ugly lemon yellow walls that really don't look very fortressy. I'm sort of irritated since I'd rather be somewhere more fitting for what I'd like, and more interesting. The hall I'm going down twists and turns but doesn't lead anywhere, and I'm becoming more irritated.

I run across a woman wearing a very old-fashioned maid outfit (not like a sexy French maid, think a traditional English maid) but she's very... zombielike. I think I said something to her, and she replied in a monotone. Her eyes were white and milky-looking. I don't like her and don't want to deal with zombies, so I destroy her (with a thought, she basically becomes a blood spatter across the walls and floor).

I run across one of the dream characters who'd normally inhabit this fort (he's a general) but everything is foggy so I don't recall any specifics about him... I need to work on him a little more... and complain about the zombie. He tells me that he and another dream character zombified all of the inhabitants and servants in the fortress when they took it over, so they wouldn't have to deal with any opposition by them but the fortress was kept running and in pretty decent repair. He doesn't care much about convenience and upkeep for himself - he doesn't need that stuff - but the way he sees it, it's more convenient for me. It's sort of evil and disturbing, but it IS something I'd expect that character to do, and he does have a good point.

This wasn't something I came up with myself... I was a little surprised by it, actually. I still don't really like the zombies, but I don't want to argue with that particular dream character very much - he's very stubborn - so I let the zombie thing slide.

As I head toward the main door that leads outside of the fortress, the dream falls apart and I wake up.

The light rail car speeds across the desert, its tracks raised high into the air. An attack helicopter closes on us, and the tension of the people within the car is palpable.

The train is carrying civilians, and we don't have any way to fight back.

The wind whips at me as I stand at the open door, the grounday speeding past far below. What's the worst that could happen? I think, This is only a dream.

I jump.

I reach out and grab onto the landing skids of the helicopter, grinning wildly.

(Later, I'm Harry Potter taking on an army of conventional weaponry.)

Sleeping: September 5th 2015, 10:20 PM (UTC +7)
Awake: September 6th 2015, 6:20 AM (UTC +7)

Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening

I didn't know why we were here at night. I was with my parents, along the streets. There was a car on other side of the road. I also got hold of a remote, which I knew it was bomb. We decided, I pressed the button. The time was set for 30 seconds, so we ran. We thought we were safe. Yes, we were, but bomb didn't explode at all. I was confused on why it didn't work. Picked up the remote and found that I didn't press it at all yet. I just pressed, and ignored that bomb I activated.

I walked along the street and saw all the situations. Groups were trying to stop the bomb from exploding. So much bombs were placed under the ground. After I inspected most enough, I came back and walked into a nearby forest. It was dark and scary, but I just got some bomb activators there. It was just a small snack bag, with suspicious cube inside. I torn it off, got the cube in my hand. There were police around me, so I tried to be sneaky. Threw that bag away and slowly put the cube inside my pocket.

There was a policewoman who saw me. She said to nobody, but targeting me. "Heh? A kid found some suspicious things and didn't even help us. Lovely. Come here and get some rewards, boy." I was like "Freak. What do I do now?" and walked to her. Handed her the cube and tried showing my innocence. I apologized as much as I could and led her to trust in me. Although, she knew I was one detonating the bomb. We engaged in a long conversation about this bomb incident. She asked if I would even help her in their works. I refused, with reasons that I and my parents had to go somewhere else after that car exploded. She nodded, and acted like she didn't know the culprit 'me' at all.

I woke up afterwards. I was in my bed, recalling this thing. Due to how sleepy I felt, I continued lying there. However, the result from last night reminded me to not go straight into sleep yet. While it was super easy for me to sleep if I didn't get out at all, I risked forgetting about this dream. So, I just got out of my bed. Went out of my bedroom, got my phone. Came back, checked the time and wrote notes for this dream down. It was 4:40 AM. It took me around 10 minutes to fall asleep, assuming. Actually, I felt like I couldn't sleep at all.

I was awake in my bed again. Although, I felt weird this time. I didn't know what it was, until I took a look at my hand. Bang. Immediate lucidity from false awakening. Although, I didn't dare to move yet. I was afraid that 6 fingers I saw was just my failed vision. Actually, the room was dark. Things were quite blurry. So, I decided to try controlling something without my movement first. I was afraid I would wake up easily. I saw my closet, so I tried moving it with my mind. It worked effortlessly. I continued trying with other things in my room until I could be sure. There was nothing to lose this time. I had to get out of my bed or else I wouldn't be able to do anything.

I stood up, double checked my fingers. There were really six fingers on each hand. I was amazed by how things looked so real, comparing to my last dark lucid dream. I walked around my home. All the lights were on, though I remembered they were off in waking life. Subconscious did great job simulating myself waking up in the middle of night. This included seeing my dad falling asleep on the floor when watching TV outside. I accidentally stumbled upon him a bit. He woke up. I wasn't able to speak. He understood. "Sorry? That's fine." and continued being asleep.

I realized I didn't have to worry much. I opened the door with my mind. I couldn't remember what I was going to do. Only one thing popped up in my head: fly. It was bright noon, so great dream time to try. I opened my arms, ran a few steps out of my home and flew up. I was surprised I could do this effortlessly. There was one problem: I got my head stuck at the roof. Instead of having trouble flying up, I had trouble landing down. I used my hands to push the wall above so I could get down a bit and continued flying.

I was finally out of my home area. Flew up high on the sky, seeing the whole city. I felt amazed enough to point where I forgot I was dreaming. I landed down in a forest. I was in the wide area with no trees. Trees around this place were big enough to cover the sky. Found my friends there. I didn't know where should I fly to, so I just asked one of them. It continued to myself asking him for my other friend's cellphone number. Just to tell some people I was going to visit their house. Thanked him, flew off.

I woke up right afterwards. Checked the time, it was 5:51 AM. I quickly noted them all down happily. Continued sleeping on to late 9:30 AM. Well, that was my last night to have a long sleep. Until then, there comes another week of school works!

Just kind of put my main goals aside for a dream

Lucidity: 8/10
Control: 8/10
Vivacity: 8/10

I check reality for a reason I can't recall. I'm in a clan plaza under a bright blue sky, looks very touristic. In front of me in the distance is a White House/Sacre Coeur type of building. The dream starts to destabilize but I'm able to get it back. As I rub my hands together, I remember the my current main goal: to win a drinking contest against the Greek God of Wine. I feel like investigating that building, though.
Meh, Drinking can wait.
I'm about to take a Hulk jump to the monument but I pause; I feel the urge to fly there, almost like someone was telling me to. So, I take a run for a few meters and then jump in the air, holding my arms stretched out at the heigh of my hips and leaning forward, my chest pointing at the ground. I focus on the sensation of wind striking my body and in a second, I'm able to have a very nice, controlled flight. I arrive to the construction and take a few laps around it, before flying to a bunch of apartment buildings. There are three buildings, two parallel to each other and the last one at the end of the two, forming a nice court in the middle. I fly in between them before I land on one of them. I rub my hands get her and decide to check out one of those apartments. I jump off the roof and through a window from another building, shattering it on the impact.

Inside, it looks a bit like a hotel. I'm looking for a female partner, you know what for .
I can't seem to find anybody so I head outside on the patio. I hear children playing and notice that there's a birthday celebration.
Not what I asked for.
I look around for someone older but I can't find anyone so I just let go of the sex Idea. I jump down from the patio and prepare myself to fly off, but the dream ends.

I had my first semi-lucid dream last night, at least I think that is what I would call it.

I can't remember all the details, but I found myself doing stabilisation exercises, rubbing my hands together (although I didn't look at them), then looking at objects around me in detail and feeling them, and remembering to move quickly from one object to another. Then I remember showing someone that I could fly and trying to levitate myself off the ground. Then I became worried that I might wake up and started to become aware of my real body, and woke up.

It wasn't a real lucid dream because I wasn't really in control or fully conscious, more that I felt I was just going through the motions.

Is this a step in the right direction? I hope so.

My house have turned into a huge castle. I was inside it with my siblings. The living room has changed into throne room, and my brother was a king. He told me that I must leave, being banned by him from his kingdom. When going out of the house, the trapdoor to the attic opened, and someone jumped down, landing in front of me. It was a young female. She had red hair and she was wearing a blue dress. Looking at her face I saw that she is a vampire. I immediately ran back into throne room, and told everyone about the vampire. The king immediately ran after the vampire. I followed him outside. Everything got a film grain and browny shades. I saw my brother running after sister, and thought "Back in time?". I opened the doors to castle and went inside.

Suddenly I found myself in a city. It was a warm summer noon. I was in an alley surrounded by tall buildings. It was leading to train station. I recalled that I was in that city before. It was a city from dream "Siege", which I have visited at the date 2015-08-23. I have attained lucidity. I made a successful nose plug RC, and ran towards the train station. It was place near the sea. Having no idea what should I do, I decided to finally learn flying. As I started to fly, I had a weird feeling. It was like I felt gravity working upon my body. I thought about a good way to fly, and I've got an idea. Position of my legs was controlling the height of my fly. When I had the legs straight, I was flying forward, slowly loosing height. When I lowered my legs, I was flying up, and when I bended my knees I was flying down. I was also flopping my hands like a brid does with it's wings. I made a few barrel rolls, flips and other evolutions. The dream slowly started to fade away, and I have waked up.

So I had a few lucid dreams off WILDs early this morning. One of them I was not expecting at all.

I arrived into a gun battle with no clothes on. I think it was like Terminator style cause I was talking to Opheliablue about this the other day on chat. I got a fright because I was already in the middle of a gun fight and I was seriously vulnerable!

Gab was shooting with a serious looking photon pistol. She had jet black hair and was wearing black body armour. I got the feeling she actually likes these battles and is well use to them but that this one was no "walk in the park". She looked at me wondering what in the hell I was doing there with no clothes on and she took a moment as some bullets flew by and then decided to throw me a metal box. I felt confident she knew what she was doing. I opened the box and inside was full Robo Cop armour which just automatically fit to my size. This was going to be a serious shoot out and I knew there was going to be a lot of blood etc. Even though I could have caused some serious damage with this suit I decided better to wake up as I did not want to do or experience that. This women is serious!

Black: non-dream
Blue: non-lucid
Red: lucid

Dream 1 - Skating on water
I recall skateboarding around (I don't skate at all IRL) a platform of concrete stairs by the coast with a couple of people. The sky's filled with dark rain clouds and I see some viking-like boats by the nearby shore. I forgot most of what happened until eventually me and a friend come back to this area. We're in a hurry to stop one of the viking boats floating away. The sky is pouring down as I bolt down the stairs towards the shore, I spot a skateboard left by one of the people I had been skating with earlier (I believe his name is TK or TJ). I spot TK still skating around, he sees me snatch up one of his boards and follows to see what we're up to. I jump onto the board and bolt towards the shore. I'm still going forward even as I reach the water, which my board just absolutely glides across from the momentum of the speed I had build up reaching there. I see another board in the water and do a trick onto it.. But it failed and I kind of just slip and continue on with the whole waterboarding thing. In my head I think to myself that it's okay because my friend behind me will need a board to keep up with me on. We reach the ship and just start like.. Doing something? I don't know... We did something and everything was okay. I remember saying something like "oh no, I can see the gorilla, he's nearby so we have to hurry". Behind the boat maybe 50m away was a silverback gorilla just casually walking around. But now I noticed the sea level was rising so we head off. I should probably describe the shore a bit better, there are lots of rocky outcrops in the area which poke out of the water, it's a smooth red-brown hard rock too. We head over to some of these rocks following someone who seemed to know the way. What we end up doing is akin to some serious rock-climbing on slippery surfaces. We climb around the rocky area, I distinctly remember how detailed and vivid the place was. It was pretty incredible. I remember the pools of water rippling as the rain hit the surface. But at some point I saw that the gorilla was climbing with us at the back of the group (the guy in the front was some buff dude who reminded me of a martial arts master, then it was me, and behind me was my friend who was a bit slower. At the very back was the gorilla). I felt and saw the hand of the gorilla as I realized it was getting closer, but I ended up waking.

Dream 2 - Lucid in Waiwera
I remember just walking down a wooden walkway, my feeling was that I was in Waiwera. The walkway wasn't long (about 15m in front of me it ended), to the right of which there was a white beach house with a blue roof. To the left were a couple palm trees, beyond which was a mudflat during low tide. Ahead of me I saw my old friend Aaron, I don't know what was going on but in my head I keep thinking that he was on a tricycle but I just can't seem to remember it. Anyways...
As I was walking I just knew that it was a dream. I had the option to continue in the dream state or become aware and take control. I decided to take control and pushed my mind into an aware state, it felt like a struggle but the transition was interesting. I then proceeded to walk around, looked at my hands, clapped to solidify the lucidity and then walked again. I then tripped up and ended up in a crab like stance, trying to hold onto the dream... I then woke up pretty amazed I got lucid (since I haven't been able to recall any dreams over the past few days).

Continuing catching up using pictures, primarily for my own enjoyment/recall/reliving my adventures. I will come back to edit and add text descriptions next, since the pictures convey the jest of the dream only to me and won't tell anyone else reading enough about the dreams.


9/3/15 I see two co-workers (J and K) in the office wearing bikinis

I realize that this makes no sense, that I am dreaming and have a little sexual fun with J. She was not sitting like this and she had a floral print bikini on instead, but it was hard to find a picture so this will have to do. #373

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9/1/15 - non-lucid but vivid, up in a beautiful mountain pass



Another beautifully vivid non-lucid riding an ATV down a long stretch of beach with little streams rolling in from the land to my right. I am fording the streams as I ride down the beach. Awesome!



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8/31/15 semi-lucid sex with younger female politician in her chauffeured car.

8/30/15 -

Spoiler for sexual content:

G+C night. Lucid sex with wife and later with C from around the corner who wanted to have a threesome or foursome, bringing in J - the nurse and wife of N - she had a very firm butt. Later sex with Girl Friday who had her legs spread and her "ahem" looked odd but with some mental will I got it to look more realistic.

Counting 2 LD's in this series of lucidity. The only pictures I would use here would be disallowed. #371&372

8/22/15 - I am looking at a model of an old mining area

somewhere like Colorado and I think it must be beautiful view from up there at the top where the old silver mine was and especially from this tower like hill at the top of the mountains

when I get the inspiration to fly up there and when I start floating I fully realize that I am dreaming! I have such a joyful flight! I fly slower, then medium speed, then fast and faster using arm pointing much like Superman. I see forest areas below

then as I approach the top of the mountain a cool fog is rolling in over parts of the mountains.

I look for clearings and go to the highest clear sections and turn around for the view back down I was imagining earlier when looking at the model. Instead of a city down below I see long stretches of glowing mountains

and old lava flows...but there is warmth rising from them

as if there was a recent lava flow and also the glowing! What the mind comes up with is so beautiful!!! I am immensely enjoying this experienceand at some point get lost in it, turning toward the left and seeing some old town and becoming semi-lucid and eventually non-lucid as I make my way to a city and cars driving and a car having trouble with a parking garage gate hitting it...a taxi and then a convertible and then guys head. I make my way into a huge movie theater megaplex. One movie "4L" I had been wanting to see but was it any good? They had names for each theater and some were "Nationwide" as in the same theater was named the same name and had the same movie nationwide. Wake thinking about the theater and then feeling the elation still in my heart, I quickly recall my lucid adventure just before it!

*I am in a busy restaurant setting and I'm surprised to see L from Texas - E's sister and suspicious I'm dreaming. I look at my hand unclear...want to make sure in front of family before doing anything crazy. At some point I convince myself sufficiently and let her

Spoiler for sexual content:

give me a blow job but it is almost out of view under table so later I decide to lay on the table and continue getting the blow job in full view as a challenge/proof to self. At some point becomes a different person giving a decent blow job.

Spoiler for sexual content:

*BTS w/same intention but toyed with "As soon as I start dreaming"
I got lucid in a restaurant again and I see a young female sitting by herself and I float up to her and I offer

Spoiler for sexual content:

up my "ahem" and she gives me a nice blow job

and when she looks up I notice how gorgeous she is and very innocent looking

and I just want to kiss her. I give her a nice big kiss open mouth kiss and then move towards

Spoiler for sexual content:

intercourse taking off her clothes. we have intercourse for a while and I am making noises while I enjoy it

and she giggles a little bit so I give her a little playful slap on the cheek and she bites my hand. Not wanting it to turn bad I ignore the bite and tell myself that she's biting very softly , just a little nibble. I then work my hand out of her mouth and move on and either wake up or move into another lucid dream.
*Later we are at some house needing to take off before these bad guys come and me and my son get out of the truck and get it started but my wife is taking her time but the bad guy hasn't noticed her yet. She's taking her time jumping in the truck and the guy catches up my first thought was to back up over him but then I might hit my wife so I stay patient and eventually she hops in and we peel out and get away just in time. As I'm going up this one street it looks like it's dead ending but I figure I'll just bust through the gate and keep going in case they're following us in a car. but as I head up toward that dead in the car jumps a small hill we go unrealistically airborne and I realize I'm dreaming again! I take the truck and fly through the air for a little while before waking up. #367-370
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8/21/15 - Strange image flashes on computer screen and think this must be a dream and look at my hand - 6 fingers. Float around throughout house then outside and get frisky with a cute female. Later get lucid again and thinking wow, this is my 3rd LD but I can only remember 2 so just counting 2. #365&366

8/20/15 - Became lucid twice from unrealistic sensations of being out of control. One was out of control on a bike and the other a backwards free fall. Also semi-lucid racing down three huge ramps at mall. #363&364

8/15/15 - Mantra "As soon as I enter a dream, I realize I am dreaming" + visualization of realizing using previous non-lucid dreams front the night. I find a gorgeous brunette

in this big indoor oblong arena.

Spoiler for sexual content:

We have intercourse

and after a while I see a pretty, unassuming blonde

and motion to her.

Spoiler for sexual content:

I put my "ahem" in her mouth. It feels good but she doesn't seem very experienced.

Later LD, the shorts I still can't forget

The shorts were slightly looser than this but just as short AND she pulled them up to highlight her gorgeous shape as we

Spoiler for sexual content:

have foreplay on the bed. Then oral.

It may be hard to convey, but this dream was super-hot and is sticking with me weeks later as of the time of creating this online entry. #361&362
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8/9/15 - Become lucid exploring an abandoned house looking for a cute female to fool around with. None found. #360

Using the "If I were dreaming (I would)" mantra or mindset a lot during this period IWL.

I'm looking for a place to stay for the next few weeks while I take a course in a new city. I know that a certain motel/hostel/dorm has spots available for students, but they also fill up fast. So I head over there as soon as I'm in town.

Luckily, there is a place available. Unluckily, it's haunted by the victim of a mean-spirited (and presumably lethal) prank by members of a fraternity or something. We don't actually have those here, but it was a group of guys and they were terrible people.

So now the ghost violently murders people who stay in the dorms.

There's a woman screaming.

I'm running towards her as she's being dragged into a fluffy duvet or pile of pillows. I really should emphasize that they were unabashedly evil pillows, with the electrifying reek of corrupted darkness emanating from them. I grab the woman by the elbows, and she tells me No, it will get you, too!

I can't hold her, and my arm ends up dragged into the rift. Excruciating, electric pain arcs up my right arm (the kind of pain that you only feel in dreaming, where it overwhelms everything and it hurts but doesn't feel like pain in waking life). I try to pull my arm away, but there's resistance, sucking me into the rift.

I rip my arm away—

But the bleeding, rotten darkness is still everywhere and there's nowhere to go—

I wake up. I reality check, tapping my fingers against the sheets. One-two-three-four-five. Genuinely awake. Damn ghost thinks it's gonna get the better of me, huh?

I slip back into dreaming. I'm back in the dorm room, and it's quiet. Shadows whisper along the ceiling and in the dark corners of the room. I hold out a hand, and the shadows still.

The ripping, tearing thing leaps into me, but I'm ready this time. I channel the pain, force the thing out of my body until it faces me, forced to its knees on the floor.

Let's solve your problem. My terms.

FUCKKK. JUST HAD 4 INTENSE ASS TERRIBLE FUCKING NIGHTMARES... LITERALLY GOT BRUTALLY TORTURED, AND THEN MURDERED WTF DOES THIS MEAN... I JUST WOKE UP SHAKING WITH SO MUCH ANXIETY...
2 OF THEM WERE CONNECTED TOO.
1 OF THE WORST WAS IN THE MALL, AND IT WAS TOTALLY FINE AT FIRST BUT THE LIGHTS ALL SHUT OFF 1 BY 1, AND IT GOT PITCH BLACK AND THERE WERE MULTIPLE SERIAL KILLERS JOINING TOGETHER KILLING PEOPLE BRUTALLY IN THE DARK BY LIKE THROWING GIANT NINJA STAR LIKE KNIVES AT PEOPLES HEADS, AND TORTURING THEM. THEN I WOKE UP FREAKING OUT, AND CRYING, AND SHAKING, AND THEN 20 MIN LATER I FELL BACK ASLEEP, THINKING IT WOULD BE OK. THEN I WENT BACK TO THE SAME MALL. THIS TIME, I WAS GETTING BRUTALLY TORTURED. AS SOON AS THE LIGHTS TURNED OFF, I LAID ON THE FLOOR BY A COUCH TRYING TO HIDE, BUT THIS SLIM GUY WITH LONG HAIR IN A BLACK TACTICAL OUTFIT GRABBED ME BY MY HAIR, PULLED ME INTO A STORE, TIED ME AGAINST A POLE AND STARTED THROWING NINJA STARS AT ME TO SCARE ME, PURPOSELY MISSING EACH TIME, AND HE KNEW MY NAME, AND I SCREAMED AT HIM ASKING HOW HE KNEW MY NAME. HE TOLD ME HE KNEW ALOT ABOUT ME, AND MY FRIENDS, AND WHAT WE DO ON OUR FREE TIME. AND THEN HE TOOK A BLOW TORCH OUT HEATED UP METAL CLAMPS GRABBED PARTS OF ME AND STARTED CUTTING THEM OFF, WHILE I SCREAMED. I WOKE UP SWEATING AND FREAKING OUT CRYING AND SHAKING LIKE CRAZY.
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHY THE FUCK I'M GETTING THESE TERRIBLE DREAMS. I'M TERRIFIED OF FALLING BACK ASLEEP NOW.

Not too much detail for this, but this one involved being in either a dark room or an alleyway, and I remember it could be an alley because there was a police car circling the area. Maybe police being in my dreams is a representation of guilt? But I don't feel guilty about anything super important, so that's strange.

Another fragment of a dream from last night is where I seemed to be in a dark building's entrance, passing by my parents, and going out into a big bright room with other people I know. ...This one ended up getting a little sexual, but that's not the point. It appears that the sexual portion was a result of mild lucidity, so that's a good sign I suppose.

Both dreams from last night weren't very memorable and were small, but I need to write them down here regardless.~