lucid

2017, 06-29

Off With His Head!

I am in what looks like a medieval city of some kind. The buildings lining the narrow streets are made of stone and wood and they look like something out of a fantasy RPG game. I walk along the street and I notice that everyone seems to be heading in the same direction. I figure that is probably the direction I should also take, so I follow the crowds. We move through the city streets and approach the largest building I can see from where I am. It looks like it might be some kind of church or temple. The crowd is tightly packed here, and it is hard to move forward to see what is going on. Finally I get closer and I see everyone watching has their attention fixed on what is happening on the stairs leading into the temple. There are numerous guards in mail and plate armor at the foot of the stairs to keep anyone from advancing farther, and more people up above. Whatever is about to happen begins.

There is a young boy wearing a crown who somehow seems to be in charge of things there. He stands and begins to speak loudly and with authority. "My mother wishes me to let Lord Eddard join the Knight's Watch... stripped of all titles and powers, he would serve the realm in permanent exile. And my Lady Sansa has begged mercy for her father.” He pauses here and looks over at a girl who is standing off to the side with a woman in a crown and some other guards. He smiles at the girl and she seems visibly relieved. After pausing, the boy continues. “But they have the soft hearts of women... so long as I'm your king, treason shall never go unpunished! Sir Ilyn, bring me his head!"

As one of the guards advances on the prisoner the girl off to the side is in hysterics, screaming unintelligibly, trying to pull away from the guards who are now holding her back. Another guard forces the prisoner to his knees as the guard approaching produces a large sword. I don’t know where the feeling comes from, but I am at once filled with the determination that this should not happen, that man should not die here. But I have to act fast. I get up to where the guards are barring approach to the temple, so I go off to the right and climb the side of a building with more agility than I knew I had. Some people are calling after me to ask what I’m doing, but I ignore them. I feel like I’m playing Assassin’s Creed. I’m almost out of time! I run along the roof and jump down on the other side, surprised I didn’t hurt myself at least a little… I’m not going to make it, so I focus on a force field around the prisoner so when the executioner brings the big sword down he hits an invisible barrier. He is stunned by the force of his own blow and stumbles back.

The boy gets mad when he sees the sword bounce back, saying he wants the man’s head and he wants it now. He’s a little boy having a tantrum. I come forward, and the guards immediately threaten me with their swords, surrounding the boy protectively. I tell them not to worry, I’m not here to harm the boy who wants to pretend he’s a king. That makes the kid even angrier and he starts yelling that he IS the king and now he wants my head on a pike next to the traitor’s. The woman in the crown is glaring at me. She says she knows who I am, I’m that magi that stole her wolf pelt from her before! She asks why I have to keep interfering with her. I tell her I’ll stop interfering when she stops trying to put the innocent to death. The prisoner is looking around, apparently confused as to what is happening. The girl that had been screaming runs over to the man. The guards are distracted by me so they let her get away. My force field lets her through to the man and she hugs him, crying on his shoulder. The boy is calling for all three of our heads now, though no one is paying him any heed. I am wondering what to do with Eddard and Sansa but I don’t get time to think. Everything fades to black and I wake up.

(Q says they are in my inner world, Eddard was in bad shape and is healing now.)

INT. CHILDHOOD LIVING ROOM - DAY

Another storm. I see downtown Dallas, Texas out the window. It is closer than in reality, perhaps by half the distance. All at once, the lights in every building blink on. Some of the lights resemble the mercury vapour lamps in the unfinished towers of the World Trade Center in Manhattan. Also, one or two of the buildings are being hoisted up and down, pivoted on their corners, by giant cranes. These strange sights downtown alert me to my conscious state: Dream!

As usual when lucid, I can think very fast and efficiently. I instantly remember the course of action I had planned when awake for my next dream. First, I rub my hands together and demand, "Clarity now! Stability now!" For the first time in a dream I can actually see my hands because I'm concentrating on them. I also attempt to spin around, which is supposed to aid in stabilizing a lucid dream and prevent waking up. But my dream body is unresponsive and does not rotate. Then I remember that my main goal was to try to persuade a dream character that she or he is dreaming too.

I turn to my mother, sitting next to me on the couch. "Look, Mom! We're dreaming! We're in a lucid dream! Did you know you're dreaming?" She gazes at me with a quizzical expression.

Unfortunately the demand for clarity does not seem to have changed anything, nor the wish for stability: I'm waking up. "Mom," I say to her with a hurried hug, "I'll love you and Dad forever." Then I find myself slowly emerging into the reality of my bedroom, four thousand kilometres away.

Somehow ended up in a lucid dream this morning. I was riding around in my car wondering something until I realized I was dreaming.

I'm outdoors on a lush, green landscape. It's like a park that is being gradually infiltrated by warehouses, factories, barns, and public buildings.

Everything is very vivid. The light has a strange, beautiful quality, as if the light itself is full of possibility.

I know that I'm dreaming.

In the middle of the landscape is what might be a children's playground or what's left of an industrial plant. It's hard to tell, but I swing on a horizontal bar like an athlete, having fun.

I drop down to the ground, thinking that I was supposed to do something the next time I was lucid, but I can't remember what it was. I don't want to waste the entire dream trying to remember, so I decide to fly. Predictible, yes, but a great feeling and not only is it less effort than ever with more control, but I also feel no anxiety as I rush up into the air.

Ahead, there is a green hill with a tunnel going into it. Now there is some anxiety, as I wonder it was going to come out of the entrance.

A large bus/short train comes speeding out and I jump high into the air to avoid it. It is yellow and reminiscent of a child's drawing of a bus/train. It has passengers.

Then I recall that I was thinking about meditating in a lucid dream, which I've done once before and had a great experience.

I close my eyes and I feel that I'm inside a tower. Opening my eyes intermittently, I see the translucent skeleton of the building's internal framework.

Eyes closed, I rise up through the tower, hovering up what feels like about 40 floors. Hovering in the middle of this semi-visible building, I enter a deep meditation.

I feel myself in bed, lying beneath the covers.

I feel myself standing in the dream.

I feel myself hovering in the middle of the building.

I am the building too. I'm the structure, the beams and frames, stretching up and surrounding myself.

When I hear footsteps, I open my eyes and my friend is quietly entering a kitchen in a fluffy white dressing gown.

"I'm just making myself a drink," she says. "I can't sleep. You want one?"

"No," I say and close my eyes.

I stay in the dream, lucid, deeply meditating and just experiencing the various states at once for what feels like a few minutes, until my 'in bed' state feels very uncomfortable - I feel like all my weight is on one arm - and I wake myself up enough to turn over.

I’m on the sofa with my brother and some friends. I lay down on the sofa and after I stand up and naturally realize it’s a dream. I get out the house and go in the garden it is night, I watch my house and it looks so realistic that I have some doubt if this is real life or dream. I start shouting and the light in the kitchen turn off and I heard some noise in there. I say to myself I must find somebody, so I decide to go to the neighbor’s house. I jump the wall and go in their house, I see a woman. I start shouting at the woman and I start having doubt again but I see the decor help me realize that it’s still a dream. So I take the woman and put her down and start having sex and I’m starting to lose the dream and wake up.

Here's the summary:

Total:
Dream: 985
LD: 93
SP: 30

This (last) week:
Dream: 17
LD: 0
SP: 1

(That sleep paralysis wasn't scary or anything, I just couldn't move and that was it)

I finally got lucid dream again, and not just one but two and for the same night, too. I tried to do the bonus ToTM (flipping the world upside down) twice, but I didn't succeed. I'm dumb because I was supposed to do the others first, as they're easier and actually possible for me, but okay then... It was fun tho. Here are the dreams:

#1The dream begann non-lucid. I was in some underground cave. It was full of water but I could see and breathe just well. It looked like Minecraft... I was swimming (diving?) around and tried to find exit at some point. I started controlling my actions more and more until I just thought that yeah, this is a lucid dream now. I tried to do the world flipping thing but I got something horribly wrong because I flipped MYSELF, not the world. But the world seems to be upside down on my perspective, so it counts, right? No (or does it??). Okay, I guess it could have worked in some way actually, but it didn't. I tried to keep that pose for a while. It was interesting. Then I woke up.

#2 I got another dream right away (DEILD? Was it?). I was in the same world (I just knew) but not in the water this time. I tried to do it on ground. I didn't have that much control that time, but it was still a LD.

Storm

Started I was waiting at a bus stop with my dog. It was super windy out almost knocking me over. It was night time almost pitch black. I looked across the street to where the mcdonald's is supposed to be. I notice 3 big and black tornadoes in the sky coming towards me. I turn and run with my dog. I go around the corner and walk for a bit.

Suddenly I'm on the bus with my dog and we are driving through the storm.I become lucid because I don't remember boarding the bus. I walk around the bus for a minute but everything is too black and I lose the dream.

Jamie Returns

Dream about an old friend. We are in some dark back yard with a large dark green tree. She says she has to explain everything to me so I will understand. She goes to the tree and finds an opening I follow her inside. Inside is like another world. There's something strange inside. There are lines of white powder flowing down from the walls. Jamie starts snorting lines... ummm okay, then disappears and wakes up (She ways into some drugs when I knew her but not heavily.)

suddenly i'm outside the tree and it's on a high landing. i'm holding onto it because I don't want to fall. Some guy with a beard walks by and says something to me but I'm not paying attention.

This is a DEILD where the dream forms outdoors with not much around. I think about the alien task of the year. I confidently know the flying saucer is up ahead. I see it by a rock formation. The ship is somewhat oval shaped with rigid panels. I enter and sit and there are lighted controls above me that I press to get the ship moving. I explain to my copilot who is already inside what I'll say when we get to the planet as my way of reminding myself the points of the task. It is not long before we arrive. We stop and I get out of the ship. This alien planet is not very interesting. Its dark, I'm on ridge at a ranch-like setting with less around, overlooking a bland desert city somewhat lit up in the distance, below and well out from the ridge. The aliens are seemingly formless. I'm making out only a watery shimmer in the space I assume they occupy. I hold up peace fingers and say my line "I come in peace and I want to learn your ways" and then I ask them to teach me something…I am led to a small garden, up ahead near some possible living structure, growing something like vegetables and they telepathically tell me "food and family (are what it's all about)." I think more about their appearance as the scene fades and I get an image of a black draped and black crepe-faced or masked figure. The craft was quite cool but the planet was not very exciting. I should have let my mind run wild with all of the exciting possibilities for where I would land, which might have produced something more spectacular.

Gotta break out of the habit of changing my technique when I'm in a dry spell. I so wish MILD would work, because the setup seems pretty easy but it hasn't and it won't for whatever reason. Lying in bed with a "Clear,Quiet, in the moment" mind and waiting for sleep to overtake me has been my best entry into lucid dreaming. A notable thing I remember from the lucid dream was that it was very cold. I did my very best to stabilize the dream with hand rubbing but it only prolonged it another 5 seconds or so.

I think this lucid dream (it seemed a lot more like an OBE, but it doesn't really matter) also occurred when I was about five or six, a little while after the first. And for someone my age, this one was a nightmare.

I "woke up" in my bed. Upon getting up, I suddenly realized I could feel my body still sleeping in my bed, yet here I was, standing up and fully awake!

I walked down the hall of my house, heading toward my parents room to see if I could see them sleeping. For some reason, there was small patches of the floor that were on fire. Once I was in my parent's room, all seemed well, but their closet door was open wide. They had one of those big walk in closets, so I went inside.

Perched upon the top shelf was a strange looking dark creature that I considered to be a vampire at the time. It didn't do much of anything but stare at me, but seeing anything so hideous at my young age was utterly terrifying, and I willed my self to wake up by forcing my waking-self's eyes open.

I go back to sleep fairly quickly so once again I have an NLD before brief wakefulness and then DEILD entry with eye clench (to confirm strength of vibrations) then visualization to try to influence scene. Seems NREM visuals...an extended period of flying through odd visions mostly like space-scapes, not that different from those on Twin Peaks The Return episode 8 which was mostly trippy visions. There were voices; I couldn't make out what they were saying. Towards end my mind recalled some of the creepiness of Twin Peaks from last night and the little bit of schema poisoning teased and then dumped in a DV thread recently (I just remembered, among the last ethereal scenes included panther eyes in the dark, after seeing a cheetah on TV IWL) but I handled it well with a sense of my own power much like facing creepy spaces IWL. Weird scenes blur out, as part of my subconscious solution I'm guessing. Then exploring some darkish rooms and halls with DC's.

I want to do another TOTY so I spin while imagining a snow covered mountain for the sled task. I find myself in the snow at the top of a mountain with snow blowing and not giving me much to look at. I form my sled with my hands motioning the outline of a small one man sled. I get on and I go down at a medium speed. As I approach the bottom I imagine the earth opening up and I go down further which leads to calm endless ocean that I float above for a bit.

I want to do this again and see if I can make it more interesting by going down faster and I'll make it notably cold while I'm at it. I spin again and imagine being back at the top and feeling the cold and it works again. I notice the cold air and this time I just assume the sled is already in my hands and I hop on it in mid-air while aiming down hill. This time it feels fast, out of control and much more thrilling. I still didn't try to influence what I got at the bottom but after having the ground at the bottom open up it leads me to something different this time. It leads to shallow stream with lots of pebbles visible through the clear water that I float just above following the stream. Water both times interestingly, though vastly different bodies of water.

After flying a bit I find myself indoors. I explore.

Spoiler for sexual content:

I get some bj's and also I am back to intercourse this time, in a hallway. Going around looking for sexy DC's. One group sitting around a table and I choose one for a bj.

I wake after a good amount of fun.

Recall has been spotty at best in the last couple of days.

Apartment?

I'm in a large apartment building. for some reason I think I'm in Sweden in a no go zone (I was watching youtube videos of this the night before). I think there were people after me so I'm running down a stairwell for some reason shutting off the lights as they go. I think it's to scare the people after me? I spend quite a long time doing this.

I emerge outside and see my dad in a truck I ask him to give me a ride but he says no and leaves me there. I am frustrated not knowing where I am. I become lucid looking at the ground. I float in the air a bit. I go do time dilation by putting my hand on the ground. I forget something in the sequence but I try to stack the time dilation into 3 lucids. I start counting but as an effect of doing it wrong my vision blurs and I wake up.

Other dreams involved flying around semi lucid.

2017, 06-24

Nerimeno?

I am in a wide open green field. I look around to try to figure out where I am. I have no idea how I came to be here and I find that strange. I am thinking about doing a reality check when someone calls my name. I turn and see a man there with me, he looks Mexican and he also looks annoyed. He asks what I’m doing here. Without waiting for an answer, he says I’m not invited here, so I’d better get out before he gets really mad. I don’t find his threat very concerning so I just look at him. He seems to have an aura of dark energy, it looks like he is using dark energy. But what about his inner flame? I am seeing unstable dark energy that needs to be stable so I think I should use a song to help restore his inner flame and stabilize his energy. He asks what I’m looking at, then says my time is up. He’s going to kick my ass and he doesn’t care if I’m lucid!

He attacks me with a dark energy blade that he forms out of nowhere, moving as fast as lightning. I form my right arm into an Alex Mercer blade and block the attack. I am thinking I had better get his dark energy stabilized before someone gets hurt. I focus on the song Iron by Within Temptation to try to stabilize his dark energy by giving him a dark inner flame. “You can't live without the fire, it's the heat that makes you strong! 'Cause you're born to live and fight it all the way! You can't hide what lies inside you, it's the only thing you've known, you'll embrace it now and never walk away, don't walk away!” A circle of purple flames surrounds the man, burning up high all around him. The fire is absorbed into the man and is gone. I am wondering if that did any good.

I am approaching the man to check closer when a portal opens in the sky. A creature comes through the portal, it looks like a humanoid dragon, or a man with dragon wings… I see that the creature is bigger than any human I have ever seen, and it looks pissed. It flies out of the portal and speaks in a growling demonic sounding voice, its eyes glowing a demonic red color. The dragon snarls that Hukif belongs to him and he won’t have some fool like me coming in and interfering. I ask who the fuck he is and he says he is the one who will destroy me for my interference. The song by Within Temptation is still going on, and I direct the next part at the dragon. “You need not fear me, unless you are a dark heart… A vile one who preys on the innocent. I promise, you can't hide forever in the empty darkness, for I will hunt you down like the monster you are and pull you into the very bowels of hell!” The dragon comes at me, attacking pretty straight forward. It is clear to me that he doesn’t consider me a threat at all. I focus on the song Enter Sandman by Metallica and hit him with alternating dark and light energy that explodes like a mixture of matter and antimatter. He shouldn’t have underestimated me!

After the explosion clears I don’t see the dragon any more. I’m sure I didn’t vaporize the dragon, I could tell he was more powerful than that. Apparently I took him by surprise, however, and he has taken off to reconsider his plan of attacking me. The man there with me, the dragon had called him Hukif, is still more pissed at me. He says I need to butt out of other people’s business. He says he has never needed my help in dealing with Nerimeno, and he doesn’t need or want my help now! He tells me to go home and mind my own business. I tell him that as long as he minds his own business, I will do the same. But that means leaving MoSh and his inner world and everyone who lives there alone, too. He scoffs as if he would have no interest in such things but then says fine, if I will go away. I say that’s all I needed to hear. Everything around me fades to black and I wake up.

(L)x3 - DILDx3 | Hands, Zelda Maps, Young Link, Fortress, Lake, Houses, Gorillas, Guns
-1(L)-First lucid: I successfully increased my awareness. I then in the living room commanded my feet to turn into hands, and it worked.
-2(L)-Second lucid: nothing of interest happened.
-3(L)-Third Lucid: I looked at the complete maps some Zelda games.
Time: 1-3 minutes

-4-I remember that the dream was centered around OoT’s Gerudo Fortress, and when I got captured, I jumped out of jail as Young Link and got immediately captured again. I told mom to not get caught as I jumped out a second time, this time slashing and killing all the guards and getting some arrows.

-5-I remember being at the lake’s west side and looking at the weirdly built houses in bed locations. There was a blue one where the garage was above ground, floating and facing the lake. Another one was brown and a lot of its floor was hanging.
[New Scene]
Me and some other guy were running from four gorillas were trying to kill us. They followed us until we got our guns, which included a shotgun, rifle, and a pistol. The rifle did no damage so I used the shotgun because they killed the other guy I was with. It appeared that all four of them were dead, and I had no ammo. However, I was suddenly downstairs in the nearby house, and the last gorilla appeared, which I quickly killed my remaining pistol. Then suddenly, a friend showed up, and I woke up.

Created Thursday 22 June 2017

Honestly, I should be posting here more often... Anyway, I've got a DILD to note, of which, as noted above, I bagged a basic TOTM. There's also a few fragments.

Dream 1 - June TOTM 2017 Basic Task II


Scene 1 - Falsely Delirious Tyrant Awareness
The visuals were pretty clear. I was watching Dragon Ball Z on a big screen. Overheard my sister, Andrea, and nephew, Euclid talking in the background as well.

This starts in a dirt road cutting through a plains. Kid Trunks is walking down the road, when Master Roshi (noticeably lacking his shades) dives in from nowhere and attacks. Fast paced sparring ensued. Goten soon arrives with a most unusual package on his back: the tyrant Frieza! His alarmed peers questioned if he'd any clue whom that was. Turned out an accident caused Frieza to lose his memories and most of his sanity. Between maddened rambling, the villain mentioned of going to a certain place. And so, Goten elected to take him there.

Cut to them walking around a suburban area. Once there, Frieza revealed he'd faked his insanity, though he assured no hostility. Still, he urged the others to bring him where requested.

I manifest at that point, and take a good look around. On seeing a familiar nearby, I realized this was my neighborhood, and so quickly gained lucidity. There were some differences, though. Namely, a forest replacing both the shopping centers and homes immediately across the street. I fly up to get a better look, and find an empty plains in the horizon. Very curious. I start making my way there, only then, things begin deteriorating into a blue void. No prob. All I needed to do was remain calm, rub my hands, and wait til a scene formed. Immediate transition.

Scene 2 - Rock Nut
The visuals started hazy, but became progressively clearer. I was in a beach, standing elevated above the shore during a sunny day.

People were abound, but it seemed that despite the clear water and weather, no one was swimming. When I went down for a closer look, I soon discovered why. After only getting ankle deep, a 12ft+ tall rogue wave immediately formed ahead of me, sending me tumbling off the ground a good 10 meters back. Stranger yet, the water overlapped over me without leaving even a drop on me.

Woozily, I made my way back uphill and to an unkempt forest. Soon, I found myself in the middle of a party within a rickety picnic area. Just remembered some TOTMs. Perhaps Basic II would be a good start. I looked around in the sand, finding some shells, conches, and pieces of glass. Not solid enough, probably.

After some digging, I finally found a rock, definintely a winner. My brother, Crispin then appeared behind me. He was in a chatty mood, a typical distraction. I told him I'd be with him shortly and commenced the task, ignoring his confused gaze as I bit the stone. Noticed my teeth felt especially brittle and plastic. Still, I chomped on. The rock eventually gave way, where I found some kind of nut inside. A raw almond, specifically, as I soon realized by eating it. Besides a bitter aftertaste, this tasted and felt as the real thing.

After that, I thought of some other tasks. I remembered TOTM task II, though without visible stars, that didn't seem likely. Advanced Task I, mayhaps? I headed back down to the water in hopes of seeing my own reflection. But then, the scenery faded, and I awakened.

Scrap Group 1
Alone in an empty room within an unknown home. I'm imagining having shadow powers for a later dream. When I entered the bathroom, I realized such abilities were already in my grasp. And so, I commanded the inky darkness to sweep through the walls and sinks of the house to melt any verminous insects dwelling there.

In the bedroom of an unknown home. I overheard Euclid and Andrea talking about Ed Edd and Eddy. There was an unusually funny (within the dream) joke where Ed utters the line "I have the soul of an echidna." Later, I sit down to watch TV along with Crispin, my nephew, and my sister. There was an ad for a made-up D&D 3D cartoon. Just from that brief glimpse, I already knew the show was going to be lackluster, its generic action/comedy backdrop as uninspired as its characters.

Driving on the highway and to a city at night. Mom, dad, Crispin, Andrea, and Euclid were there as well. On our way there, Euclid noticed a poster designed as Bash terminal. Some forgotten meta-humor was printed on it, which I had to explain to my nephew. We stop and walk around for a bit. On returning, we find Andrea was still somehow still inside the vehicle. An accident had occurred beforehand, and she was ticketed heavily for such. What's more, she'd sustained a serious injury on her left foot, then mangled beyond recognition. So we rushed her to a local hospital. While checking her in, I noticed I hadn't any shoes, of which I was oddly more concerned than the previous horror.

Vague memories of being in a museum, where expensive copies of a masterpiece were being sold. Then something of walking down a dirt road, and later, playing a keyboard.