lucid

Background

Note: Keep in mind that this Journal is for me to record my dreams and look back at what adventures I've had. It's not meant for you to read, but you can still read if you want. Just know its not meant to convince anyone of anything, I don't care.

My little brother found a powerful spirit (we nick named him 'Mask' to protect his identity) in the spiritworld that he made a deal with. The deal was: My brother would go through 5 fucked up zombie dreams and Mask would give me full lucid dreaming abilities. Last night, I could sense Mask waiting for me in my dreamspace, but I had a bit of insomnia and finally fell asleep at 4:00. As the night grew later and later, I could sense that Mask was getting tired of waiting for me to fall asleep and had something to do. My assumption is that he slightly altered my dreamspace/mind and left, like a make shift bong (no I don't smoke).

The Dream

(This part isn't lucid) So I was at my cousins' house on the 1st floor. Apparently it's my birthday, so my uncle points to the sliding-glass door and says there's a surprise for my out there. Something about having sex with my step aunt (don't ask). So I go out there to see if he's for real and there's nothing out there. Just a hose and a mini pool. He starts to bolt for the hose, and I start booking it around the house. I vault over a small picket fence and turn the corner around the house. At that point he kinda sprayed me. I looked around the corner and saw him coming with enough cord to reach around the corner. For some reason I was tired, but I ran around to the other side of the house. Telling myself to keep going just like a Marine, even if Im tired. For some reason I jumped to the ground just as I crossed the corner. I had to force myself to roll over the backpack I was wearing. During which process, he sprayed me a little more.

I went into the garage and the fucker finally ran out of cord. But I know he was just joking and stuff. From the garage, I walked into a hallway that was in the house. I think I force jumped up to the second floor, next to the stairs. I landed laying down on a hallway, with railing next to me. Looking up, I saw the third and fourth floors. The hallways, doors, and family walking around, just what I could see from my vantage point.

At that point I realized I was dreaming. I got excited and thought of the real world for a second, but remembered that would wake me up. So I focused on the dream itself. Then I remembered to stabilize the dream. I said out loud, using will," this dream will last for 100 years." I acted quickly on the stabilization and said the first high time limit I could think of. I walked around for 3 seconds and woke up.

I went straight back to sleep and had another 5 second lucid dream. That process repeated 2 more times. Totaling about 4 lucid dreams with an average time span of 4 seconds.

Debrief

I was hella excited I finally got into lucid dream, but kinda pissed it lasted only moments. The lucid dreams toke place at about between 12:00 pm to 4:00 pm. Later, I talked to my brother and Mask in real life (yes I talked to a spirit). I gathered that Mask left before I fell asleep, but left me a little lucid-dream-juice, if you will. And that if I go to bed at a decent time tonight he'll come into my dream and teach me everything about lucid dreaming and fully activate my lucid dreaming so that I naturally have lucid dreams instead of regular dreams.

6/9/12

DILD

I wasn't able to record the dream for a few days, and I can only remember a fragment.

I was out in beautiful rolling green hills. It was sunny, and the color was stunning. I was flying around with moderate success. I noticed that I had better speed with my hands out superman style, which is unusual. There were power lines around that I had to worry about. But they didn't cause me as many problems as they have before.

I was standing in my bedroom. The lighting was very dim and yellow, almost like what you would see cast off a small fire. I remembered that lights and colors were subdued in my dreams, and became lucid. I don't think I did any RCs, I skipped to trying to stabilize the dream. My dream body felt like my real body, so I was initially concerned about moving or speaking with my physical body. I first rubbed my hands together, but I didn't feel or notice anything. I chanted, "Lucidity now!" a number of times, increasing the volume of my voice to try to force the dream to become more clear. I should have chanted something about vividness instead.

I think the dream was still dim and vague, I don't remember much about it anyway. I summoned a mirror to try to complete TOTM. I think I expanded the size of it. I tried pushing myself into the mirror, imagining my fiancee on the other side. I tried to imagine the mirror's cold touch as I went through it. I don't remember anything after that. Seems I didn't stabilize my dream well enough!

Dream Fragment - "Clavines (?), a warm drink made from strawberries. (I sure wouldn't drink that! ) Posting on DV, littlezoe."

Just A DC [MILD]

I was at my old middle school, but I perceived it as my community college, and I was walking around in the hallways after a class with O. I saw this girl I used to know named AB, and then I became lucid when we were walking out of the front doors and I was asking O what he wanted to do. He said he would need to go home and take a shower before anything, and I realized that I actually still had a class to go to anyway. I turned around and waited outside the door with J, who was apparently in this class too. I lost lucidity around this time, and I don't remember much about the class except that I think it might have been an English class and it was over extremely fast. When the teacher let us go, it came back. I was walking out of the same front doors with J this time and laughed as I noted O coming back in. Still sort of in a transitional mindset, I turned to J and asked him "Is this our dream?"
"No." Well that was blunt. He started talking about something else, but I already knew I was lucid at this point and I know that J is one of my friends with the capacity for real conversation, so I wasn't putting up with this.
"Wait, why not?"
"Because it's your dream."
"Oh, so it's not a shared dream?"
"Nope, I'm just a... uh, D...C?" He looks at me inquisitively. I love that the fact that he doesn't know dream-related terms carried over into his personality, despite how aware he was.
"Yeah, 'DC'." I pause and look around. This whole time we'd been walking away from the school, first through the parking lot and now over a nearby field. I turned to him again. "Well then what do you want to do?"
He starts off a sentence with "Well, normally I...", but then the dream starts fading away. I heard more of what he said at the time and I'm pretty sure I even comprehended it (I think it was something to do with running?), but I can't remember it now. Everything faded to white, and I woke up.

i was in a huge, square room the size of a house. i was with two of my friends, and the room was filled with forest related items, such as trees, rocks, grass, and hills. We were just running around, finding things to do when it hit me. i was in a dream! i had almost waken myself up from the excitement. i rubbed my hands to stabalize the dream, and attempted to fly. i didnt get that high though, as after i went up 5 feet, i went straight back down. after i tried to sly, i went to the corner of the room and imagined a door. it led me to a house that was owned by my two aunts, and in the dominican republic. (i am dominican, and have always wondered what it would be like to visit the country, so i imagined it there.) i greeted my aunts, and went to my room. it was awesome. there was a huge tv, a nice comfortable bed, and TWO computers !!!!!! my two friends were also with me, so i grabbed a basketball so that we could go play at the park. before we were going to leave, i lost my lucidity and i woke up.

Dream; Semi-Lucid; Lucid; Memorable; 1-4 My Recollection;

I woke at 6am but slept till 11am.

1; Going back to sleep that long started the FA chain and it just kept going. "Oh I don't know I feel kinda dreamy," hand check, sure enough dreaming over and over. Don't remember what I actually got done in my lucid dreams, but it was at an enjoyed pace.

(DILD Low level Lucid, little control)(From last night, tried WILD earlier)
I'm with my sister, and were on a train to Auckland New Zealand, we've still got a while to go .
The journey passes (story jumps) We arrive at 'central station' and get off the train.
The station has a glass canopy roof, like they do..
I recognise the "GLASS" (dreamsign), I start to question my reality & perform an RC using the text on the train info boards
(They're the old fashioned 'split flap' mechanical displays)Low level Lucid!!

We walk into the city and explore it on foot for quite a while & see famous sights like 'the skytower',
the harbour with all of the yachts with there sails up, and in one of the side streets we get burgers from the 'white lady' burger bus.
<<Never been to NZ in waking life, flight too far & expensive, but would like to go & have read stuff about Auckland>>

We meet an old woman beggar, who waves a wet-wipe/baby wipe at us,
and mumbles something about it.
.. I reach into my day napsack and give her a large paper cup, and then she wanders off
<How random's that?!?>
Lost Lucidity during this encounter

After a short while, we've decided we want to do something else..
... So we find some transport to go elsewhere.. Soon we find a small terminus halt, which has tram track, and a very low platform (about 3-4 inches)..
At this platform, there is a queue of two seater'bubble cars' on the track, we get into the front one, close the doors and get transported away...

...We end up in the countryside, with rolling hills and grass meadows.
We get out and walk for a while, and find people riding quad bikes over a rough terrain course

A guy comes up to us and tells us we will have to wait 3/4Hr for the bikes, and we can wait over there, pointing to the edge of a desert (we didn't notice before)

I walk over to the desert edge, and walk on the sand for a while. (Don't think my sister joined me here)
I can feel the sun on my back & can see shimmering heat haze on the sand.

<Recall and/or dream itself faded here>

Before falling asleep last night I decided to smoke some medium-grade weed to see if it helped with meditation more than the high-grade weed I've been smoking. The reason for this is because all of the high-grades around here are body highs, which means they have a good THC/CBD ratio rather than the mostly-THC head highs of the medium-grades. Since THC works through CB1 receptors which colocalize with and also indirectly stimulate D2 receptors, I figured this would be a much better bet for achieving a dream state; THC-dominant strains also make me hornier and trip harder in a psychosis kind of way, all evident of dopaminergic effects. The CBD strains have anti-THC action and then add their own serotonergic effects, which is wonderful for getting high and probably even for meditating in a non-dream-related way, but that's not what I'm looking for here. The outcome was pretty successful, I didn't achieve a WILD or OBE or anything because I'm inexperienced and it was right before going to bed originally, but the vibrations did get very strong, I felt warm and tingly all over and I had basically melted into the flat surface of my bed. I also used a light machine the first 10 minutes of it, and that created some pretty intense patterns that were pushing the high into complex visuals like cascading faces. After I finally pulled myself out of that, I fell asleep.

Dream Fragment - "Flying in a jungle with N, commemorative dollar coins with jokes written on them, school/mall food court, Facebook, talking about shared dreaming?"

Lucid Fragment IV [DILD]

I remember becoming lucid based on the fact that something I said didn't make much sense, but I don't really remember what it was now. This wasn't an "oh no, another lucid lost to a fragment!" dream, I was just really tired when I woke up and I didn't think it was interesting enough to merit taking the effort to write it down. Yeah, I was feeling lazy.

Jello Cubes And Drugs [Non-Lucid]

In an auditorium, I was in a new class with lots of confusing things going on, and my mom was sitting next to me in some kind of stadium seating. She had stopped talking after some red jello energy cube showed up next to us. I was pretty high and I started playing with it, unsure of what exactly it was. I was also talking to some really drug-dealer-stoner-looking guy about a new powerful drug I was planning to synthesize, and my description was complete with cartoony breakthrough visuals with bugs and galaxies and veins and blood vessels and etc., and I was saying it could basically either make you trip balls or it could kill you, we just don't know yet. The visual was pretty intense! That part of the conversation happened as we were walking through a hallway somewhere after leaving the auditorium, but I can't remember much after that now.

First Experiment [Sleep Paralysis]

After I woke up I got on DV and checked new threads for probably not longer than five or ten minutes. Upon checking the Post pictures of sexy hawt females thread, it occurred to me that I still hadn't officially reset my counter to zero for the one month of no masturbation challenge, and I was finally in the mood to do so. So that was fun.... Afterwards I thought about how long it had been since I originally woke up, and decided what better than now for a WBTB experiment? I got out my bong and smoked some more of my medium-grade weed, then positioned myself lying on my back in the bed, facing up.

At first I just felt extremely relaxed and zoned out. Then I started getting some mild hypnagogia coupled with delirium, i.e. thinking it was actually happening, but only a little bit. The first thing I remember is repeatedly thinking that I was walking into my bathroom and looking into the mirror, but still being faintly aware that I was really still in bed. There was more than that, but it's hard to remember now. After a while I got lazy and intended on giving up, so I flipped over to my side.

Suddenly, there was a large number of things going on in the room. First, the TV was on, I couldn't see it but I could hear it quite clearly. I don't remember what was being said. Second, my cat was meowing loudly in my room, and I couldn't see him either. Third, my mom was telling me something about my cat which I don't remember now. Same story, heard but not seen. And fourth, I was on DV talking to StaySharp about everything that was happening. Throughout all of this I was aware that this wasn't actually happening, except for the thing about DV. I was able to completely open my eyes and think at least somewhat lucidly. "Okay... I can't move.... So I'm in sleep paralysis? Alright then." With eyes open everything was dreamy and extremely distant, as if it was being perceived but not really processed. I looked at my laptop (which wasn't even actually there) and saw it start floating around the room, shrinking and growing in only one direction as it did so. There was a mild sense of "That's not right....", and then I closed my eyes again. I was back in my bathroom, looking in the mirror. This image wasn't completely solid, it was like 90-95% there, basically enough for it to be a fully structured dream sequence but with me still maintaining bodily awareness. I had a baby carrier positioned on me so that the baby would be in front of me, covering my chest and stomach, but there was no baby in it. Instead, there were two long, feminine, and beautiful legs protruding downward from somewhere in it that's hard to recollect now. I could also hear the voice of my cousin K talking about how I was going to turn into her or something, but I think it might have been more of my train of thought than something that was actually happening. This weirded me out a bit and, without fully comprehending the situation, I decided that I'd had enough of this. I opened my eyes again and just stared at the wall with the intention of ending the whole experience, and before long the dreamy feeling faded away, and I could move again.

I'll certainly be using this weed for more experiments in the future!

I decided to create my Lucid Dream Vlogs on my youtube channel. These dreams are taken from my journal. I hope you enjoy!

In this Vlog I had Telekinetic abilites....It was awesome.




http://youtu.be/XvGk6FnHJN0

from my mouth got of two dental prosthesises and i remembered that i often had this situation in dreams, so it might be a dream. made RC and go for a walk, then remembered about TOTM. In real i thought about to jump to the train from something higher. It was night. i went to the road and there were high-voltage cable just on the road. I found rope ladder which led to the cable but it was difficult to climb and i was in gorisontal position. I saw the train. It was white and transparent a bit. I jumped and fall on my bottom just on the top. i stood up. the speed was like on the car - 60-80 km/h. i even stood a bit on one feet then jump on the land and awoke. it was falce awoking and my parents ask me why i didn't eat the toy of my son. I made RC , understood that its a dream and answered gently that toys are not for eating and awoke in real.

I finally did it.

Basically, I was in school, which seems to recur in my dreams, and as I was walking between to lessons, I thought, "it's the holidays, there is no school" my dream self performed an RC and I could breath through my blocked nose. I then thought, I'm dreaming. at first I had little control and kept walking to my next lesson, then I kept repeating, I am dreaming, I am in control, and I eventually gained total control. I couldn't teleport, but I wondered around the school, and because I had no urgency to get to lessons, nor did the others.
I discussed with one of my teachers about the fact that I was dreaming, and then he pointed out the floating island directly above us. I explored the school and even spoke to some friends, but I can't remember what I said, nor what they said.
The dream ended when I saw the floating island flicker, disappear, then reappear until I woke up.

A very strange, yet rather fun experience.

08.06.2012

7th lucid dream, losing control and ..Spiders? (MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Tonight, I had alot of false awekenings (if you can call it that), where i would wake up in my bed, and just go back to sleep, unless ofcourse, I do a reality check.

I woke up in my bed, and imidiatly noticed something seemed "off", I then counted my fingers, plugged my nose, and boom. Lucid!

I got up from the bed, and quickly gathered my thoughts.
I remembered that if I got over excited, I would wake up. So I chilled out for a sec, and then looked at my hands again. I tried clarifying, but it somehow didn't really work as intended. It got clearer, but nothing like my other LD's. I then remembered, that I had heard on DreamViews, that some people through them self out of windows, if they want to "kickstart" their LD, and it seemed like a good idea. I went over there, and opened one of my windows. I tried going through the open window, but the opening was too small. I looked out of the open window, and stared at the sky. It was fucking amazing. The sun was getting up, wich made the whole sky kind of orange/red. The garden was also wird, and even though I didn't seem to notice in the dream, I remember now. It was Not my garden, and I don't think I've ever seen it before. It was a little area with grass, and a nice fluffy hedge around it.

Anyway, I then opened a new window, and tried climbing out of that, that was too small too. I then tried opening a THIRD window, but when I got it open, guess what I saw. A giant fucking spider, sitting right in the top of the window opening. I was noping pretty hard, and I think this is where I lost control.

I then tried several other windows, but they where all filled with spiders.

funny thing, even though the dream was filled with spiders, I wasn't scared at all, I just found it annoying, because I wanted to go out the window. It wasn't a nightmare, just a little annoying, wich is weird, because if it happened in real life, I'd be noping so hard...

I then looked around, and was suddenly in some basement. It was a mix of my dad's basement, and something I've dreamt about before. I was still trying to find a window to jump out of, but I got lost in the basement. Finnaly my brother came by, because he needed to use the toilet, and he showed me the way back to the room. When I got there, there was spiders on my bed, and I just kind of stoof there, thinking "wtf do I do...?". So I woke myself up, and started writing this .

IN CONCLUSION:
I need to read some tutorials on how to take/keep control of the dream, once you are finnaly in there.
This is the last dream I've ruined, because I couldn't take/keep control. My next dream will be so god damn awesome, just wait!

Non-Lucid part:
I'm a professional football player and I'm in a street near from the place where the players of my team stay. I'm walking and speaking with two of them. A helicopter passes over us and we start to smile to the camera. I say something funny and we laugh.
The dream scene changes and and playing soccer in a hall with a lot of DC's and one guy from a tv show that I like, he is known as "Bolinha" and he is wearing a jacker exactly like one that I have.
I make some wrong passes and lose some opportunities of making goals and Bolinha starts to complain to me. He continues to complain and do that for a lot of time. I get very angry and think "I know that I'm dreaming, I'm gonna punch Bolinhas' face right now".
I become lucid but the dreams starts to fade very fast. I wake up completely still and remember "my technique" of imagining my dream body moving in the first scenario that comes to my head, it works once again

Lucid Part:I "wake up" in "my bedroom" already looking to my brother's bed, but it's not there, there is a mat in its place. I'm always sure that I am dreaming, I decide to look at my hands and bingo. My right hand has about 15 fingers, like three little hands stuck in it. Now I'm sure that I am dreaming, I shout "Stabylize" and it works.
My room is on a strange house, the house is completely dark and my window is made of wood and is blocked by a wall.
I decid to pass trough the window, I can't do it at first, but I try again saying "pass trough" till I pass the half of my arms.
It was the only time that I felt so hard to pass trough a solid object.
I start to pass my head trough the window when it is half passed I start to fear the possibility of something coming from behing me. When my mouth gets covered by the window I feel like I can't say "pass trough" anymore and get stuck. I pull my right arm breaking the window and give up on passing trough it.
I decide to go to the other side, I start to fly fast and pass trough the other wall of my room, I see a window and finally get out from that house.
I'm flying over a soccer field that is near from my church in Catuji (Catuji is the city I used to live). Some kids are playing soccer there. For a while I think about taking their ball but I don't. I fly very fast now passing near from some eletricity wires. I see a big killer whale dead next to the field, its mouth is a little strange. I start to fly more erect to lose speed till I start just hovering in the air, then I wake up.

Dream Stats:
Went to sleep: 00:00am
Duration: ~20min (10 non-lucid / 10 lucid)
Woke up at: 8:30 am

Non-lucid Chain: W-vacuum-noodlephoto-funeralnotice-Claudia-$5buttdress-Rammsteinspikedhair.

Non lucid part:

Came back to add the non lucid stuff based on that ^^. It's my new form of remembering dreams when I'm still in bed, waking up now and then, so I don't have to actually get up and write in a jjournal, whereby waking myself up too much. I call it "Linking Dream Topics."

Ok the first and worst, the vacuum. I dreamed that I was at work, and I went to the meat department. I was looking for the ATL from seafood, oddly enough. And he was there. So I found him and followed him to the back of the meat department. Looked much different than in real life. It was huge and dark and deep and cavernous. As I followed behind him, I saw all kinds of strange devices, including a vacuum type apparatus that was used to suck out the eyeballs out of the lambs before processing the rest of the carcass. I remember seeing some eyeballs still in the clear tubes attached to the vacuum. They still had eyelids and some were still trying to blink somewhat.

Later, I had a dream that really seemed to be in Red River again. I remember walking to the end of one of those mountainous, dusty roads, and there was a huge trailer. It was a film developing studio. For some reason, I thought it was extremely cool that it was what it was, and went inside. It was full of asians, and one offered me a bowl of noodles while he developed my film (that I didn't know I had). Best. Noodles. Ever. I remember them being egg noodles, the lo mein kind that I saw them make on Sesame Street once. I remember tasting toasted sesame oil, and there was thai basil and other vegetables. The whole dish was reminiscent of thai curry. I was just going at it with chop sticks until the dream changed again.

Margaret from Highland Park finally kicked it, and I was supposed to write the eulogy. I kept procrastinating it until I saw other TLs at the graveyard, all complete with eulogy papers on their tombstones. So I stressed over writing one.

Then some stress about getting a dress. I could only use $5, but the dresses were $100 or more. Then Claudia was wearing one and her normally fat squarish butt suddenly looked really round and bulbous. And I thought on the fact that I never noticed the bouncy bulbousness, which was REALLY apparent under the thin fabric of the dress. Hoppity hop hop hop..

Dream changes to the Rammstein concert I went to in 2001, just 1 month after 9-11. I was amazed they let me fly from my El Paso gig to Dallas for the concert. In real life I met them, and in the dream I did too. Only this time, Til didn't cover his 'do. Me or someone said "Oh your spiky hair looks like a porcupine." And he had a gruff remark.

So I set my alarm to go off at 11:15am, because I had #DVA at 11:30. When it went off, I resigned myself to not having any lucids, and just hit snooze to sleep stress-free for 5 minutes. Then I had an FA and got up to go to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror at my teeth. There was an unusual gap in between them, like the tooth had gotten chipped a little. I have a tiny filling there in real life, so I thought maybe the filling got knocked out or something. I thought, damn.. I really need to make a dentist appointment and get this fixed. I touched the gap and little flakes of tooth(?) wiped away. I got worried, like maybe I was losing a chunk of tooth or something. But when I wiped it away completely, the gap was gone and my teeth were normal again. I was relieved, and stepped back from the mirror a bit to look at my whole reflection. My lips looked really weird now.. like just, not mine. Not the same size or shape or anything. So I said, waaaiiiit a minute, this is a false awakening! I looked at my eyes really close, and sure enough, the irises were milky green, and no pupils. So I left the bathroom went to the bedroom door, where Daisy and Bella were sitting there, looking up at me. They are NEVER in my room. I just said "Hey doggies" and they wagged their tails. So I left the room and started down the hall. I knew at this point that I only had a few minutes, because I knew I had hit the snooze button in real life, and it was only for 5 minutes. And I had no idea how long I was in the bathroom. As I went down the hall, it got darker, and one eye went blind. I lifted my hands and the other eye went dimmer. I just kept walking down the hall, waving my hands and clapping, but everything looked like a big brown out. I wasn't waking up, so I just kept going. FINALLY, I ended up in a livingroom that wasn't my house. But Chris was there, playing and watching TV. Everything was much brighter and stable. I knew I didn't have much time, and I was feeling randy as usual, so I started to leave to look for an adult. I felt for my stuff as usual, and at one point it turned into a foot temporarily, but I fixed it lol. Then I woke up from the alarm before attempting anything.

I should have just utilized those 5 minutes to attempt the TOTM, since I was right there at the damn mirror anyway. But I forgot about it. Balls.

I was trying to WILD, I fell asleep, dreamed of being at my relatives' place, woke up, rolled over and soon found myself in this dream. (A DEILD, yes?)

[COLOR="#2e8b57"]I'm walking from my room to the living room. I know it's a dream, but I want to see what my mom would tell me. The furniture in the living room is placed differently. I see her sitting on the sofa, watching TV and knitting. I ask her "Am I really here, walking around in real life or am I dreaming?" and she answers with "You're really here". Gurrrl, lying into my face. (I actually kind of expected that answer, she is a bit pessimistic about lucid dreaming)
I look out of the window, it's dark outside, and check the temperature. I can't see the thermostat, because of this weird reindeer sticker on the window. I ask mom what's that all about and she shrugs.
As I'm heading to the kitchen, I walk past the open door to the parents' bedroom. In one corner, there is a giant Christmas tree, it lights up the whole room. There are also a lot of full coke bottles all over the place. (O__o)
I'm now in the kitchen, the furniture here is placed weirdly as well, I speak a bit louder when I ask mom if she'd like some coffee. I get a positive answer and instead of water, I put coke in the coffee machine. I turn it on and go to my room. [/COLOR]

[I'm not sure if I can call this a dream, I lost my sight and I don't know if this is still the dream or what I imagined to happen next (while already awake)]

[COLOR="#2e8b57"]So, in my room I teleported myself to some small island with nobody else but me. I was sitting on the hot sand, trying to get my vision back by playing with the sand. Then I dived into the sea, the temperature was cool. I'm not sure if it was day or night...>.>[/COLOR]