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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]I’m following someone, a female friend, and she leads me into a restaurant and on through to the backroom. I was under the impression thatthey needed help and that it might be fun to give assistance. [/FONT][/SIZE]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]The room I walk in to is not a restaurant kitchen, but somesort of manufacturing warehouse. The walls are high but appear to be made ofclay or concrete, unusual for such a spacious room. Some of the equipment andwork stations appear like an old glass-blowing factory. In the ceiling there isa slow-moving vent fan that does little to alleviate the heat, though I see noopen flames or extreme sources of heat. I know it feels warm yet no one appearssweaty, though everyone is dressed for warm temperatures, overalls and shortsleeve shirts. [/FONT][/SIZE]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]The woman continues on past several stations and passes aman whom she speaks to briefly about me, then walks past him and out of mysight. The man, who is brown –skinned like a man from India and has dark hairapproaches me, and I begin to take off my shirt. I am not sure why I am takingoff my shirt but it appeared right at the time. The man is holding up a leadvest, and says, “The first thing we need to do is get the lead vest on you. It’llkeep you safe.” This is when I realize that there is indeed fire and heatinvolved in working in this room, and the vest this man is offering me will donothing to protect 85% of my body. [/FONT][/SIZE]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]I start backing away from the man, attempting to get myshirt back on. I become indignant and say, “No way! Who do you think you are?Do you realize who I am?!”[/FONT][/SIZE]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]I walk away from him hurriedly and the location shifts to alarge home, almost palatial, perched on a hillside. The building is white, butnot brightly so, and has multiple levels and terraces with terrific views ofthe surrounding countryside. I am inside and holding a drink, and I am royalty.I also appear to be masculine, an unusual role in my dream, but I am talkingwith someone who is perhaps an advisor. [/FONT][/SIZE]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]The man I am talking with is telling me about somethingmundane, an upcoming appointment or business affair which I must attend. I callhis attention to a woman standing among other people in the home, a beautifulwoman who appears in her mid-twenties, standing with her back to me, part of agroup of women who appear to be servants and various…guests? He tells me thatshe belongs to the Jade Dragon, and the mark on her back denotes that.[/FONT][/SIZE]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]The Jade Dragon mark denotes someone who is very importantand is a special mark. The person with such a mark is feared and revered, asshe can bring fortune or pain. My advisor doesn’t tell me this but somehow Iseem to know it innately.[/FONT][/SIZE]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]“Everybody leave!” I command. “Everybody out!” I have myadvisor and all the other women leave the room, and because I am king they allfollow my orders. “Except you.” The beautiful woman stays, and I come closer toher.[/FONT][/SIZE]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]This woman is naturally beautiful. She appears to be Asianin heritage. Her skin glows as it is illuminated by the torches in the room,which weren’t there just moments before. Her hair is dark and full, flowing butnot longer than her shoulders. There are hints of auburn in her hair, but shedoesn’t color it. Her skin is tan and glistens, almost like she has beenrecently wet or rained on. Her smile is natural and comes easy to her face, butdoesn’t look overly toothy or fake. Her eyes are dark, possibly brown, but itis hard to tell in the dim light of the room.[/FONT][/SIZE]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]She fills me with light. She is warmth. [/FONT][/SIZE]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]On the woman’s back is the mark of the Jade Dragon, visiblebecause her gown is open in back, low-cut but not so low as to be overlyrevealing. The mark consists of raised lines, almost like thick scars, in theshape of a serpent climbing up her back with its head near her right shoulderblade. Surrounding the serpent is the shape of a shield, or marker, a shapewhich denotes the crest of the Jade Dragon and symbolizes power that issupernatural. I can only see three-quarters of the mark as part of her gownhanging over her left shoulder hides part of the mark.[/FONT][/SIZE]
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[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3]I talk to her, and we get along instantly, and it hasnothing to do with me being king. Her face lights up as I talk to her, asthough no one has been kind to her in many years, and she doesn’t feelthreatened by me. Conversation flowsnaturally, and we end up lying on the floor and talking over drinks. A fire isburning behind us, and I can see the hearth over her back, slightly blurry inthe background of my vision. I am concentrating on her.[/SIZE][/FONT]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]I am no longer king, but merely a person trying to know thewoman before me.[/FONT][/SIZE]
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[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3] I want to kiss her,to touch her, and various erotic thoughts do enter my mind, but I do none ofthese things with her, and we are connecting on a deeper level even withoutspeaking. It feels like we both need each other.[/SIZE][/FONT]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]As I talk to her I discover she does not know what wordsare. She knows how to speak, she knows that language exists, but she has neverseen words, nor has she been exposed to writing. I promise to teach her and sheis genuinely pleased. I feel glad I can help her.[/FONT][/SIZE]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]She wonders why people treat her so, why people shun her andfear her. People turn her away from their shops and it hurts her feelings, butlife has always been such. I find it hard to fathom also, and clearly none ofthe local people have ever taken time to know her beyond myth. She is caringand compassionate, gentle in spirit, and happiness finds her easily when she isshown kindness. It’s painful to think she has been dealt such injustice, likecaging a beautiful animal in a prison that has no bars.[/FONT][/SIZE]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]Talking to her makes me feel warm inside, and even magical,like first love. I am aware she has special abilities but they are neverrevealed in the dream. I feel connected to her like on one else has ever mademe feel, and it has nothing to do with her stunning beauty, nor the wine wedrink, nor the visibility of so much of her back. It’s as if we should haveknown each other for years, centuries, perfect pieces of a puzzle made for two,only now finding each other.[/FONT][/SIZE]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]I want to know more.[/FONT][/SIZE]
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Here is is:

I was wondering around my village and at the edge of my hearing I could hear music. I became suspicious and RC’d, (RC - 2 Points) I could breathe! (Become Lucid - 5 Points) I immediately stabilized (Stabilise - 2 Points) and just as I was about to attempt flying again the dream faded out and I woke up Fragment cause it's so short - 0.5 Points)

So surprised I managed that much considering I’m still recovering from my night out. Can’t remember any other dreams though

Points:
RC - 2 Points
Lucid - 5 Points
Stabilise - 2 Points
Fragment - 0.5 Points

TOTAL = 9.5 Points

Dream One: I'm in Walmart shopping the clearance racks. I'm so happy because I find a really cute velvet feeling dress for my daughter with Mickey Mouse on it, for a dollar! I'm thinking this is too good to be true, look at the tag again carefully and it's $5, but that's still crazy cheap so I toss it in my cart. My daughter is so happy! Then she sees a Mickey Mouse Bikini and wants it, but it's way to big for her and the only one they have left so I have to tell her no. Then I think to myself while I'm shopping clearance, I need to look for some tights in a size 5 for her to wear in the winter next year since winter stuff should be priced to move right now. I grab a couple pairs and I am so happy with my haul! Then I wake up... at the house I lived in 5 years ago! I don't notice anything is off though, so I go to the bathroom, then on my way back to bed my husband's in the hall and I start to tell him about the dream I just woke up from where I bought our daughter all this stuff. Half way into the story, I realize wait... this is the wrong house! I'm STILL dreaming! I get excited because I'm lucid! My husband tells me to come back to bed, and I decide since I'm lucid I'm going to fly down the hall since I really would like to try flying. I starts o jump into the air, but I find that I can't move at all. It's like my entire body is shut down and I can't move. I freak out a bit, and try to wake myself up. I wake up, thinking everything's ok I'm going to give it another shot at going to sleep and getting lucid. I open my eyes and briefly note that I'm laying in the hallway on the floor. I think I must have slept walked or something to be laying in the same spot I was standing in the dream. Then my daughter wakes me up and I realize it had all been false awakenings! Guess I need to start doing those reality checks when I wake up!

Dream Two: I'm in a run down mountain like town. I briefly think it's Shelby (where the Hunger Games was filmed) because I'm thinking I'm supposed to meet a friend who I know that lives there. But really the area looks more like the mountains, like somewhere near Ap or in WV like where some of my family lives. I'm walking down some stairs, pass a building that seems to be a single room school house. There's a package in the door way of the school, I check, but it's not for me. I'm hungry so I go inside this little cafe to the right. It's really fancy inside, I ask for a menu, and it's all expensive food and apparently it's all hunger games themed food so it seems really simple and not filling. Definitely not worth what they're charging. I take a to go menu and leave to look for a Mcdonalds. There's really nothing much in this place, and I recall my friends boyfriend telling me they filmed Hunger Games there because it was such a dreary depressing place. I turn around and walk back the way I came. I go back up the stairs and look out over the town from the more elevated path. Nothing. I'm pretty bored, and hungry. I decide to try walking the street again to see if I might have missed a good place to eat. I reach the bottom of the stairs and see a house door open. There's a woman standing there with someone that has a face that looks like it's made of tree bark and a BIG nose with something bushy and green on the end. The woman is saying, "It looks like your turning into an Ent! Mommy loves Ents, but they're not very cute are they?" I think this is really odd and try to shake off the feeling that something's not right here by walking past the school house again. The package is different. Whats going on?! My son wakes me up, lol. I think I was close to getting lucid again, but I'll never know now! ha ha

Dream Three: My son is wanting to take my husband and I downstairs to play Mario. I follow him, and think to myself wow, I didn't realize the basement looked like this! Then he's showing us how this Mario game is like virtual reality, and he has portals all over the basement where we can actually jump into levels. My husband tries to jump into one, but it doesn't let him through. My son says that's the Halloween level, we can only go in on Halloween! I'm really blown away by this basement, and think to myself why are we worrying about finishing off the basement when it's already so freaking nice? Lets just move in now! Then I realize that my kids are already living in one room of the basement in a futon style bunk bed. I explore a bit and find stairs that lead to a sub basement, and then I find two preschool classrooms and for some reason just assume they're for church or something and wonder why we're letting them hold Sunday school in the basement. Man, my dream self was dense last night! I find some of my Grandma's family sitting in one of the sub basements. I walk in, they all say hey, but they're in a heated discussion about something and mostly ignore my presence after that. I listen in, and hear the words lucid dreaming. I jump excitedly and say, "Hey! I know about lucid dreaming!" One of my great aunts asks me, "Oh really? can you tell us more about it? I saw this picture on Facebook about it, and I'm really curious but none of us really knows what it is. Is it some sort of drug trip or something?" I tell her it's not a drug trip or anything, it's just when you fall asleep, you realize your dreaming and you can control what's going on in the dream! Then I say I've been reading about it every day for the last month, and have actually managed to get lucid three times! My other great aunt says, "Oh really? Now I'm interested throw me a bone here. What can you do when your lucid?" and leans forwards. I look at her, and for a moment I'm confused, that great aunt died a couple years ago. Then I just shrug it off and think to myself she's not dead yet, but we know she is dieing from cancer. -_- I tell her about my first lucid since I had really good control, and the other two are pretty disappointing in terms of control. Then the first great aunt says, "Well, all this is just too complicated for me, lets talk about something else." I feel a bit dejected because I think she's pretty much dismissing me as well. I walk back into my son's room, and notice a clear plastic bag that says "Skylanders" on it. I pick it up, and apparently it's the 3DS version of the game. The package is empty, but I see the portal on the night stand and know we didn't lose it. Then I realize I can just take all the advertising and cardboard out of the bag, and it's just a clear bag that says Skylanders, it would make the perfect carrying case for all his little figurines. I tear out the card board and start to carry it to the trash, but on my way I notice my daughter has a bottle of water and she knocks it over on the carpet. next to where my mom is sitting on the floor. I shout to mom to watch out, she's about to get wet! Then I'm upset because the water is making such a big mess and I can't believe that little bottle had so much water in it! Then my daughter wakes me up again.

LD 34: I was trying a WBTB in a hotel room. A very large cat started climbing up the wall and climbed across the ceiling to get above me. I was shocked back into awareness as I had almost drifted away during the WBTB. I looked up at the cat and realized I was in a LD. Not much happened after that. I made the cat disappear and spent a few moments trying to remeber what goals I had set for myself. I should have stabilized. I spaced off after only about 1-2 minutes in the dream. Dur~1 minute

03.22.2012

Parking Lot, Principal, Auron Passes Out? (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Parking Lot

I'm outside, and it's night time, and I'm just going around, but it seems all I'm doing is looking at all of the vehicles in this fairly wide parking lot.

Dream 2: Principal

I'm laying still in my bed, with my eyes closed. I notice that lights are on, and I hear some random song playing in the background.

I asked myself, "Am I Dreaming?" I do a nose plug reality check, and I am. I'm still worried about opening my eyes to quickly, so instead of opening them, I slowly get up by first starting to lifting the top region of my body from the bed.

And then I slowly moved my legs to the left off from the bed and as I'm getting up completely, my eyes open naturally.

I'm in a completely different dream environment, I'm not in my apartment at all. It seems I was resting at a room in some type of school building.

The first person I see to the right of me is a lady sitting on a small sofa chair. She looks like a ginger, with some orange to red hair, and I can tell she's fairly shorter than me.

I'm smiling that I'm lucid dreaming for once, without caring if I'll wake up, and she's smiling too.

I try to form words to talk to her, but things are a little bit difficult for me because I find that when I do speak, it's like I'm speaking through a fan, basically, my voice is distorted, and so is the lady sitting down.

She looks like she is around her 30s or 40s, and she looks like a fairly cheerful person because she's smiling at me most of the time.

I get closer to her a bit, and I go to the right side from my perspective, which would be her left side. I look down, and I try to talk to her again, and the words are sounding less twisted.

I asked her who she was, and before she starts to speak, things are going a little bit slow at the time. So in my mind, I was thinking to myself some negative things that she could be saying to me, like "Just randomly try to kill to me or something!"

I don't know why, it's just that I expected something bad to happen, but then I thought, "Nahhh, she's not going to do that to me," because she's obviously happy to see that I'm here.

The last time I met a ginger, she tried to suck my energy, but I could tell she was a cheerful person, despite her needing my help by letting her suck my energy. This one was a bit more stable.

I believe she tells me that she's the Principal or something like that, maybe "User Principal," but that's just pushing it a bit too much on presumptions.

She's walking with me down the hall, and before I pay attention to her (I'm still walking with her, just thinking about something in the meantime), there are glass walls, and you can see what's outside and everything.

To my left is a mini-pathway with a lot of plants, almost like a mini-garden, but I didn't pay too much attention to it.

The principal DC was telling me some things, but I can't remember all that she said, I think I had another dream scene split for a few seconds where she said she had sex, all forms of it, but I'm not too sure on that, because I was expecting her to say that.

I see we're headed for a dark corner in the path we're heading to, but I didn't mind, I'm just focused on the ginger short lady beside me. I see two people outside the glass wall to my left, and it's a boy and a girl.

The girl has black hair, and the boy, I can't really make out a decent image from him, I didn't pay attention to both of them, just for a few seconds, and then found myself getting closer and closer to the darkness in the hall way.

Suddenly, I can't freaking breath. Shit is getting crazy, what the fuck is going on!!?!? My chest is being pressed as well.

I almost fall on my back, but my leg supports me in time, and my hand is near my heart, and I feel liquid coming from my chest to my mouth. (Now that I'm awake recalling this, it could've been spit building up from resting on my backside lol, and I was probably choking in my own spit).

I'm still wondering what the fuck is going on, and while I'm busy trying to breath, I look to my right and see the short lady there by my side still, I thought she was luring me to the darkness to fuck me over or something, but it seems she's supporting my back to make sure I don't collapse.

I think I turn around to the left to see the couple outside again, then back to the lady, and then I wake up.

It was another false awakening, but I slept it off to even care. I remember the alarm saying it was 6 AM or so.

Woke up seeing it was around 5 AM. God, that freaking dream, Kaomea, I swear, that better not have been a demon by my side trying to make me choke indirectly, but but....she was helping me not fall down though. Ugh...I don't know anymore...

Then again, it's easy for me to presume that it's just spit building up and me choking from it.

Dream 3: Auron Passes Out?

I'm riding my bike down a road hill near where I live. I decided to steer left to stop and think about something. I get a flashing news video clip that Auron was a college student who passed out, apparently he used a hammer or something like that.

I think he even made his own book, and is most likely selling it through the news promotion while admitting he lucid dreams.

Dream Fragment - Another good one ruined by not waking up all the way right away. >.< Literally all I remember about this dream now is that Linkzelda41 was there for I'm pretty sure the whole time, and there was lots of talk of OBEs, and I think we may have been having some too because I remember seeing the whole world reduced to some kind of energy grid. Then I woke up and thought delirious thoughts to myself for a minute or so, then just laid in bed all happy for another couple minutes and said "Wait, hold on a sec!?", but by then it was mostly gone.

#1 - Could It Be? [DILD]

I was at my house in the den having a small party with a group of people who I mostly don't remember, but it included this guy J who I haven't seen since middle school but we used to see every now and then, but he was really soft and sensitive (that's putting it really nicely, it wasn't exactly in a good way). There was also a female DC there who stands out in memory unlike the rest, she had kind of a badass style of dark clothes that looked like they were just meant to be worn as normal clothes but still had kind of a club look to them, it's hard to explain exactly but I think it looks really cool. (Aaaand just right now as I'm typing this up, suddenly something occurs to me. The last time a DC was this vivid in my memory, she was wearing the exact same style of clothes. The hair style was different here, but the face looked about the same from what I can recall. And that DC from before also happened to have super speed and could have totally kicked my ass if I didn't wake up from my lucid, she totally outclassed me. And here comes the interesting part....) The girl used a cloning ability to split herself into two bodies. Somewhere in the back of my mind I thought of this as a dream power, but it didn't make me become lucid. She starts making out with J with both bodies at once, and he's having a GREAT time, and I start taking pictures with my phone. Eventually she stops and the two of us head into another room and I tell her that was really nice of her to do given the way J is kind of fragile. She smiles at me, and suddenly I get the idea to head back to my room for some reason. As I walk past my dad's office, I hear O talking on the phone with his dad sounding like he'd have to be heading home soon. I decide to start looking through my phone to see if the pictures I took are any good, and I can't find them. But I do find a picture of a different J, a guy I used to hang out with a lot when I got out of high school, standing in some high school chemistry classroom. (Though it wasn't the one we had, we did have a chemistry class together in 10th grade, so it's not too crazy.) Suddenly the scene overtakes me and I'm watching it in third person. I become lucid, which is odd considering the perspective I'm in now, and the girl suddenly appears out of nowhere next to J. My falling-love-with-girls-in-dreams instinct takes over, and I jump into J's body to try to make out with her. Before I can, it suddenly snaps back to me in my own body in my bedroom at home, with me sitting on the bed and her sitting in my desk chair. I reach out and kiss her and pull her back on to the bed with me, but then the dream ends. :T

False Awakening - I get up and start thinking about making note of the dream, and then for some reason I can't quite remember now I get sidetracked thinking about OpheliaBlue. Suddenly I start having a panic attack, and I'm flooded with false memories about how I took a hallucinogenic dose of diphenhydramine at the party from the dream, which definitely didn't actually happen. I'm freaking out and thinking I must have overdosed, I feel my forehead and it's sooo hot, my limbs are all feeling extremely tense, and my heart is beating erratically and keeps having stinging sensations. I drink some water to try to cool myself off but the water itself is kind of warm, so I get up and turn on the lights (successfully!) to get dressed and go get some cold water from the kitchen, but things are already starting to look really bad, and as I touch my chest to feel my heart rate suddenly I feel a heavy sinking feeling. But then I wake up. Finally. :\

Dream Fragment - "Something about trains, teleporting, and a girl named Nelly...."

#2 - Candy Gift Boxes [Non-Lucid]

It's the end of the school year in high school, and someone who I can't remember now is teaching me how to make these triangular transparent two-sided candy gift boxes as a present, and then afterward O invites me to go get Chinese food with him, but I wake up before anything becomes of it.

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So now I'm really thinking about the female DC, she's really the only DC that vividly stands out to me, she's outgoing, she's recurring (totally odd for me with DCs), she totally overpowers me in lucids, and she can use dream powers that I'm not even close to having yet.

Could she be my DG...?

NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·


I am lucid and in my living room. I have a shakespeare performance coming up in real life and I think, 'Hey, why not practice here where no one can hear me?' I say my lines for the Duchess of York, like 'Bloody thou art, bloody will be thy end' and I bore myself.

NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

I have just moved to a new town, where my family and I have moved into a drab, grey apartment. I went next door to visit the neighbors, and to offer to babysit to earn some pocket money.
For some reason, I realised I was dreaming (Light switch failure?) and suddenly the world around me burst into colour, green paint lining the room and cyan skies above. Everything was so vibrant and vivid. I spin around to increase clarity as the scene changes and I jump out the window.
I attempt to fly, but fail and freefall to the ground. I land with little impact, by an abandoned warehouse by a lime green field and try to materialise a broom. One appears, but I cannot fly.

I give up and head out across the fields into town. I see hordes of civilians rushing somewhere, and I want to find out why so I run with superspeed to catch up. I gain tunnel vision and everyone else around me are blurs in slow motion. I join the crowd and run ahead to the front where a little brunette girl names pandora is dancing, skipping and selling her charms as the villagers follow behind her. I'm not too impressed and I hold out my hand with the intent to create some charms. Suddenly I feel as if weighted objects are tumbling out of my hand and into my hand, as long, lime and rose green tubes charms appear in my hand, almost jumbled masses before they form into charms.
I try to create something else, but black liquid oil pours into my hands and a bystander claims that it is liquid chakra.
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I am in a comfy, rustic log cabin with a roaring fire and musky green sofas. Some of my friends are there. I tell Skye that she is dreaming andshe looks shocked, mutters "oh crap" and fades away. Kyra doesn't believe me, even after I grow an extra arm and can see myself in the third person, almost ghostly.
I grow bored and soon find the world fading so i spin and walk into a grey room with machinery. Wake.

1. I was sitting on the floor in a dark and cold room together with maybe 30 other people. We all were looking on a huge screen, where a young woman was taking a presentation. She showed us films in dark colors and talked about psychologic stuff.. it was quite weird but also fascinating. At the end she suddenly startet to talk about dreams and lucid dreams and showed as a video where a man was flying through a dark valley. I startet to like it because I was happy to have found a person who also knew about lucid dreaming. After the presentation I wanted to talk to her but I couldn't fin her, so I left the room. Outside of the room there were a few people from my school class and they said we were going to have lessons. I recognized that I had forgotten all my school things in another room and wanted to search them and come to class after it. I startet to walk through the building but I couldn't find the classroom. The building got stranger with every step I took. Suddenly I was in the garden of a house and as I walked in the house I was in the attic of my school.. I got afraid because I knew that I was really late and my teacher would be very angry. Then I remembered that I told myself "always ask yourself if you are dreaming in strange situations". I suddenly was sure that I was dreaming and started to feel very enthusiastic.. Now it was easy for me to leave the building and fly down the street. I remembered my goal to talk to a person in my dream, who I had a dispute with a few days ago and resolve the conflict. Let's call him Q. I wished Q to there when I walked around the corner and he was there. I said "hello" and he answered quite friendly. I said sorry for what I did and asked if he could forgive me. He said "yes" and smiled. We walked down the street together and talked a bit about other stuff.. at some point I lost lucidity again..

3/19/12

DILD

The dream started outside around these old Greek ruins (like Assassins Creed). They were large marble white structures. I was battling this man that was my military space superior in a previous dream. He had taught me about space travel and using various weapons on the ship. We each had mortars and were fighting close range. I would hide, spot him, quickly fire, and move again. Eventually I reached the top of the ruin and leapt off. I tried to deploy my hang glider but it didn't work.

Once I was floating through the air I became lucid. I propelled myself upward and flew over some more ruins. Suddenly, ahead of me, there were these white dots shrouded in small fuzzy clouds. They looked like stars at a distance but were just 30 or so feet above the ground. I flew in the middle of them and it was beautiful. I was completely surrounded. I floated for a second and just took in the moment.

Eventually I landed and decided to sit and stabilize the dream. I sat cross-legged with my back on part of a ruin. Ahead of me, was this wall. I tried to meditate for awhile. At first, I had my eyes closed, but then I got worried that I would lose the dream. The wall had an interesting design. The center of it kept swirling on itself. I thought that I should try to make a jet pack so I could fly at super speeds. I imagined the weight of it on my shoulders. I put my hands up as if they were holding some straps. After holding this position for a few seconds I could feel it. I stood up and walked a few feet. I saw a mirror and thought, if I could see the jet pack also, it would help my mind believe it. This backfired. In the mirror I had a little battery taped to my back, despite it feeling quite heavy.

I decided to fly anyway so I took off. About a second later I spotted a hot girl from my school walking below me. I decided to go for that instead so I landed and we started making out. Then I spotted Heather down the way a bit. Sweet. I brought the girls together and eventually a third joined and we fooled around for a bit before I woke up.

Non-Lucid:
Oh, wow... I really wish I remembered all the details of the non-lucid part of this dream. I can only remember the part when I was with this boy and his grandfather in Egypt, and we kind of broke into one of the tombs. I can't remember anything else. T_T

Lucid:
Then, I "woke" up on my uncle's couch and glanced at the television.
"Hey, wait...I never fall asleep at my uncle's!"
After deciding to do an RC for once, I walked up to the television and tried putting my hand through it, then my fingers through my hand. Didn't work.
"See? This is why I almost never reality check."
I refused to believe I was awake.
Sadly, I woke up for real after that.

This means normal dream
This means lucid dream
This means I'm loosing my lucidity
This means non-dream notes

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One non-lucid dreamlet that I can not recall.

It started as a false awakening from the no-recall dreamlet. I swear to God it felt like just any other time I wake up at night, i had no susspisions that it could be a dream. But, I decided that would do a few RCs. I did a finger-through-hand RC under my covers, which was a mistake, and it 'checked out'. But, I remembered that nose-plug is the most reliable RC, so I did one. I thought that I had done it wrong, because I could breath. So, I reajusted my fingers and tried again... I could breathe! It was a dream and I was lucid as all get-go! Let me tell you, I was happy. Very happy. To double check I watched myself take my finger and push it through my hand, a successful finger-through-hand RC, which I had never done.

I got out of bed and went to the steps to walk to the ground level of my house where the dream was taking place. The dream was fuzzy and unclear, but the more I walked the better it became. Half-way down I was confronted by a middle-aged black man whom I felt was of some relation to my mother. It shocked me for a second, but I remembered it was a dream and that as far as the NPCs were concerned I was meant to be in bed asleep. "I forgot to wash my gym clothes." I told the man, as excuse to why I was up. This was true in real life, so it felt like the best excuse.

The man accepted this wordlessly and left me alone. I continued to descend into the dining room and cross into the living room so I could leave through the front door. I really didn't want to command a location change, so just going into my yard to do some practice stunts felt logical. I went outside and saw two NPC men in a car buzzing by my house. The driver stared at me, dumbfounded, almost as if he knew I was lucid and that it was a big deal, then sped off like a criminal from a crime scene. I shrugged it off. NPCs and their crazy antics, and all.

I crept to the side of my house that faces the back yard of two other homes, trying to think of what to try and do that would have a minimum risk of breaking the dream. Last time I lucid dreamed had tried to fly from a running start and only managed to get three inhuman jumps in before face-planting and bursting the dream. I ended up settling on shapeshifting into a wolf, something I love to do in nonlucid dreams that I figured would be even better with lucid control.

I got onto my hands and knees, in the wet grass and the dark night, and thought "I will be a wolf now." It was only semi successful, in the fact that I was now slowly and unnoticeable trading myself for my wolf self, a still disappointing result. I suddenly felt so bare, so watched by the closeness of the houses around me, I couldn't even focus on trying to fully shift again. I control was slipping away, though I was ignorant to that fact at the time. I was becoming more instinctual and less logical from both lack of dream control and my slow, seeping transformation.

I crawled to the back of my house between the heater and the shed, the only spot in the entire yard with three walls of privacy. Settled, and more sheltered, I tried to fully shift again and as I did I saw a flash. I was losing my lucidity, but my curiosity took over and I forgot to try and regain it as I scanned the area for the flash's source. Another flash. Another. And yet another. They were blinding.

I located the source of them quite quickly; a motion sensor, still mounted camera pointed at me. I was not sure how wolf I was, or how clothed I was for that matter, but, I did not want it on film! I grabbed the camera, ludidity and logic gone, and began gnawing on the lens to no avail. I threw the camera on the ground, smashing it over and over. I ripped the roll of loose film from the camera's smashed hull and looked around as the people in the houses stirred to life. Film in hand (claw?) I started to run away in a fluid four-legged lope, scared of being caught.

I was full wolf now, and had lost my grasp on the film, leaving it behind. It didn't matter. They were after me.

I felt so fast, but never nearly fast enough. I hid under the portable classrooms in the school yard, every time I saw a pair of feet passing by my hiding spot I would bolt from under and be running again. Somewhere along the lines I switched from wolf to cougar. Some older man, I could almost smell the faulty small-town political status on him, was having some people push together two stone slabs together in front of the school. A place to put my body after he killed me, he boasted.

I grew panickier, and raced into a basketball court full of students. I felt as if I knew one of the boys there, and he seemed to know me too. Still, in this form it failed to matter. I lept over the chain-link fences, using my hind legs to springboard from the top. The boy pursued me as I raced into the woods, a wolf again.

Free. Not free enough. I ran through the forest, past a van full of more people I thought I knew and that knew me too. I felt my humanism tugging at my wolf skin, ripping it away. I dove into a ditch, claw hands pulling a thatched mat over me. I was safe, warm, human. And stark naked.

There was a scrap of paper, covered in doodles, in the ditch that I clutched to myself. I was human now and I was safe in my thatch. That was all the mattered.

Woohoo, broke my dry spell!! Well, sorta. They were brief, mini-lucids. But I credit lower stress and better sleep to my new health regimen. As usual, it was after 7am when I got Chris back to school, and I went back to sleep to try to DEILD. The supplements were making me a little to awake, so I wasn't sure if I could get back to sleep but I finally did.

Three times in a row I went to sleep and never lost awareness. They weren't even DEILDs this time, just a bunch of mini-WILDS. After a loong WBTB (sorry for all the acronyms, I've been studying ). So each time, I opened my eyes in bed, and realized immediately I was lucid. So I hopped out of bed, and went immediately to the bedroom door to begin my journey. But I felt sooo sluggish. I couldn't even open one of my eyes. Before I could even get to the door, my lucidity faded back to awakeness. Really smooth transitions though. It happened 2 more times, and each time I tried to get to the door faster, push through the sluggishness harder, but same ending. I realized well after I woke up, that I should have done the opposite: relaxed, look at my hands, slowly go to the mirror. Oh yeah, in one of them I looked in the mirror on our dresser, but it was too dark to see my face. Oh well, I'm happy nevertheless. I had some FAs too, where I though my cell was vibrating, and I kept checking the time.

Anyway, in the non-lucid, it was present day, but we all lived with my parents, along with my childhood best friend's older brother, Michael. Only he was still a teenager. He was living with us because (just like IRL), he was getting into alot of trouble. Even been in jail. The weird thing though, oh yeah, besides the fact that I was pregnant again and due any minute, was the fact that the last time Michael had gone to jail, some kid karate chopped a thick nerve on the back of his neck. You could actually see it (looked more like a tendon), broken under the skin. This severed nerve caused a phobia of the dark for him. Long story short, my mom and Danny's kids took Michael to the hospital to get the nerve fixed, while my step-dad and Chris stayed to take me to the hospital in case I went into labor. The last part of the dream was me fighting with my son, Chris. I was calling him over to tell him thank you for deciding to be one of the ones to stay with me. But he was being a tool. He finally walked over to me, but I gave him the hand. "No no, nevermind. I was just going to thank you for staying." "But mom.." "NEVERMIND." "Waaah."

The End.

Of course I have fragments that I can barely remember about the dreams, but I actually had a lot of dreams and can remember two in really good detail... and one of them I was Lucid for the second time! It wasn't impressive because I was significantly less confident this time around, lol.

Dream One (Fragment): I was fighting, with a sword, I think practice fighting though, not a serious battle. I'm pretty sure that sword was a Zanpakuto, and my opponent was Ichigo, lol. Don't remember anything specific about the fight though.

Dream Two (Fragment): I was on a road trip with my grandma. We were talking, and I could see the mountains out the car windows.

Dream Three: My mother in law had a little pet pot belly pig. We wanted to take a nap, but we had to put the pig in a cage or something first so that it wouldn't get hurt or make a mess while we all slept. We put it in a plastic tote, and my MIL said it needed water. So we started to water it, but end up filling the whole tote with water and it's little snout just barely extended over the water if it raised it's head. We freaked out and drained the water out, and put in a little dish of water instead. When the pig had water and was contained, I was ready for a nap, but my MIL said we couldn't sleep because we had to watch the pig. I asked her how she planned to sleep at all if she had to watch the pig 24 hours a day, and she seemed bewildered for a moment, but I woke up before she could give me a solution!

Dream Four: My friend was buying a new house, and it was like a sims game, complete with the drop down premade houses and green squares, lol. The house changed several times before it made my friend, her grandmother, and me all happy.

Dream Five (LUCID!): The dream starts off with me and my kids visiting my cousin. My kids wander off to the back of her house and I have to go back and run them out of her daughter's room telling them it's rude to go into someone's room without being invited. Then I see the neighbors daughter walking into my cousins room and I run her out, briefly wandering how she got all the way over to my cousin's house and if I'm supposed to be watching her. Then there's a broken candy dish that's filled with melted chocolate and I can't help but think, "Mmm Chocolate!" ha ha ha. Then my daughter has to go to the bathroom. I take her to the potty, and notice that my cousin has the same bathing suit I just bought, and I wonder if it looks better on her than me. Then I notice the bathroom has a microwave and a mini fridge in it. I think for a moment that's weird, but I bet this whole area could be a little apartment. Then my logic finally kicks in, "Wait, There can't be a kitchen in the bathroom! That's too weird, I must be dreaming!" To test that theory, I run towards the counter and jump over it in a single bound, landing in the middle of my cousin's living room. I think for a moment, I shouldn't have left my daughter alone! Then I realize, I'm in a dream, she's not my daughter, it's just a dream character and it won't get hurt, it'll just disappear! I decide I'm going to leave, being at my cousins house is pretty boring and I want to do something cool. I walk towards the door, with no destination in mind, and think I'm going to just walk through the door since I walked through a wall in my first lucid. Then self doubt kicks in, and I think, "But I don't know where I want to go, what it if doesn't work this time?" and of course I smack into the door face first, ha ha. The I try to just open the door, and it's locked and I can't get it open either. I stop to think for a moment and I'm finding that even though I know I'm dreaming and lucid, my mind is pretty blank on what to do, it seems harder to think, ha ha. So I recall confronting my husband in the last dream, and think maybe I need to tell someone I'm in a dream for the control to work properly and the door to open to let me out. I look at my cousin and tell her something like, "This is a dream, your just a dream character and I'm getting out of here." Then my cousin morphs into a MAN with a pointy face and small slit like squinty eyes, and he replies, "How so you plan to get out of here? None of my escapes have worked. You can't make a portal, you can't walk through the door, you can't even open it! You don't know how to teleport do you?" I get annoyed and feel like he's trying to keep me trapped. So I tell him flat out, "I'm going to close my eyes and spin, and I'm going to imagine the scene changing around me." So I close my eyes, and notice instead of seeing black I see gray, and I start spinning imaging the floor being tatami and apparently Renji from Bleach laying on it, ha ha. But then after three spins I get dizzy and fall over landing on top of Renji, but the room still hasn't changed! I stand up and dust myself off, Renji asks me if I'm ok, and I say yeah, but the pointy faced guy is still looking at me and laughing like he thinks it's sooo funny that I'm having all this trouble with my dream control. Frustrated I ball up my fists and decide to try the back door, maybe it'll open. Renji jumps up behind me and yells to me to wait up, but I'm ignoring him because I didn't mean to drag him into this dream anyways. I reach out and grab the door, and it's opening and there's a white light spilling into the room that I didn't even realize was so dark. I'm glad I'm finally getting out of this weird house! But I end up waking up before the door opens all the way!

Dream Six (Fragments): I'm in a car driving through the country, seeing mountains in the distance. There's a house that someone tells me was in a TV show or something. We pull up to it, and they're filming a cop drama, but all the actors and actresses playing the cops have weird hair and make up. Their hair is shades of dark plumb, forest green, royal blue, and blonde and black. Their makeup reminds me of a rock band, like maybe Kiss or something from the 80's with Stars and stuff around their eyes in the same colors are their hair. They're also covered in colored glitter and glittery clothes, glitter right down to their fingernail polish! It's so crazy and extravagant, I wonder how this could possibly have good ratings!

Dream Seven: I'm at my Grandma W's house (she actually died in '05) and she's going to watch the kids while my husband and I go to Walmart. We're going down the hill to the car, and I notice the neighbors kids are playing basketball at my Grandma's house. They are far from home, lol. I climb in the car, but my husband starts driving before I can even get my MP3 player out of my pocket and get buckled in, or even close my door! I yell at him to wait a minute, and he tells me to stop taking so damn long. I counter that I don't even have my seat belt on, and he argues that I'm being slow and pulls forwards. The door closes, pinning my leg against the seat in a very uncomfortable fashion and I yell at him to stop the f-ing car. I fling the door open to get my leg unpinned, and he yells at me to just get out of the car he'd go by himself. I do and slam the door about to cry. I walk past the neighbors kids, then realize I'm in a housecoat and pajamas and I feel like everything's falling off. I am really embarrassed and run to the front porch and sit on the swing. I cry for a few minutes about getting kicked out of the car and about my clothes falling off and being embarrassed that everyone saw it all. Then my grandma is on the porch, coming out of the shadows and scaring the crap out of me! She tells me to relax, It's all ok, no one will remember any of it in the morning. I nod, and decide to go ask my son if he wants to play outside. I yell at the neighbors kids if they will be out for long and if we could come out and play too (my kids a lot younger so they can't play as rough with him as when it's just them) they tell us to come on out, so I go inside to get changed. My son is at the computer, and I ask him if he wants to play outside with the big kids. He refuses, and I feel frustrated because he'd getting so fat playing computer and video games all day and not outside! I wake up.

Dream Eight (fragment): We're at a hotel, at the end of an Anime Con. A friend of mine has a room beside ours connected by a door. He's already turned in his key at Check out and asks us if he can borrow our key because he forgot something in his room. We let him, and I start freaking out that we need to pack and get out of the room before we charged for another night. My husband just wants to lazy about and not do it, so I'm packing it all up by myself and feeling so desperate that I'm not going to get done in time. I even start crying.

Dream Nine: I'm looking at skin, I'm not sure if it's my hand or someone else's skin. There are these little dark spots on the skin, and looking closer I can see they're wiggling. They're bugs swimming under the flesh. It's really gross and creepy and I wake up.

I got lucid night before last...and it was the most pissed off I have ever felt when becoming lucid...haha.


Dream:

I was in a gym and I saw a pull up bar. I decided to see if the new workout program that I started was helping with my pull ups. I grabbed the bar and started pulling myself up. I was amazed at how I was able to pull myself up so easily. I completed my first pull up and lowered myself back down. The bar was sort of low, so I bent my knees back so I wouldn't touch the floor. I decided to give a second one a try. Again, I was able to pull myself up with ease. I felt this huge surge of joy.

I continued to do pull ups. I could feel my muscles working hard, yet the pull ups were still coming. I went to find a few people I knew to come watch me. I continued my pull ups. I counted....17....18....19...

Suddenly I had this horrible fear.

No...


No no no no no no.

I wasn't dreaming. I couldn't be dreaming.

But I started to wonder why I had improved so quickly. I mean, really...how many people suddenly can do 20 pull ups...20 easy pullups?

But I didn't want to think about the fact that it could be a dream. So I didn't RC. I hoped that I could somehow make this reality.

I continued doing pull ups. I called more friends over to watch me.

47...48....49....

I knew I was dreaming. How could I deny it any longer?

It made me mad. I didn't want to fly. I didn't want to do any cool lucid things. I just wanted to be able to do pull ups in real life.

I went over to Daron. I sort of jumped on him. I wasn't sure what I was doing. I didn't want to make out. So I climbed up to his shoulders and jumped back off.

I knew I shouldn't waste this LD, but I couldn't think of anything I wanted to do. I was mad and sad and frustrated.

And I think that was it.