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03.05.2014

Dreaming 101 (DILD)

Forgot to post this a while ago. One of my favorite dreams.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

0040 - I'm rushing to my college class. (Note: IRL, I'm not in college yet, but I don't notice this) I'm taking 5 courses at a time, as my schedule says, and one is on the 10th floor. At first I go up to the 8th or 9th with my friends, but realize that my class - D--- 101? is in 1029. Someone else and their mother is looking for the room as well, and notices me going there. I go in - it's a tiny entrance - find a seat, and sit down. I find out that we actually weren't supposed to be there, and that we were really lucky. I don't know what the class is about. The people in charge tell us to form groups of 5 or so, and everyone starts mixing together. I start panicking. I look around and see no one I can ask. I go up to this girl and ask, but she's doing some homework and says no. I look around again and Emily waves to me from across the room. I am relieved, and go sit down next to here. I say something about her saving my life and she laughs. Even so, I am disappointed in myself for not having made new friends in college. The people start talking, and it becomes apparent that we're supposed to "take a hit" of this substance. Me and Emily have never done drugs, and we don't want to. (Someone I know, possibly Emily, is sitting next to me) We get cups of this liquid gas and the person next to me decides to drink it, which we're not supposed to do. I inhale the gas, once, twice, imagine dropping into the ocean, and feel water all around me. I am asleep, and dreaming, and know that I am.

I don't remember what happens next. I think I start exploring. Oh - the other person may have been Stephanie. I'm with her in the dream. We're in a city, and I keep jumping and flying up and up and up, and she grows really big. I reach this overhang/cliff and grab onto the building, but it's weak and can't support my weight. I notice the big drop down to the street below and the arrows pointing in a line underneath me and tell S that she can go through the tunnel underneath to see me do an awesome drop. She doesn't really want to, or doesn't care either way. Not sure. Anyway, I keep holding onto the building wih a hand or two and my body keeps jumping up or floating up - perhaps on its own, or I have to keep doing so for some reason. It feels like I'm in space or constant antigravity or something. Eventually I jump too far and my legs overbalance and I flip over the edge and fall down.

It was realistic, I think. Fairly vivid. I fell down but I knew I could fly up, and so I did. It was somewhere around this point that I really realized that I was dreaming. I did an RC and everything. Things became clearer, more vivid without me trying. I fly around the city, looking at the cars, which weren't rendered properly, and we get up to the point up there. All the while, I remember the college course, and realize that it's about being about to control your dreams and trips and all that. When I meet Snape and crack my eyes open briefly in real life - or was it the college class? - I close my eyes immediately and imagine a well in the ground. A voice says, "Hover, don't drop," and I think I return to Snape and all that. New Yorkin' 2 on a billboard in rainbow letters somewhere in a city. Across the billboard there is another big poster, where the words all fluctuate. Snape is there, rather scary. Had to somewhat DEILD back in. He made a potion and reluctantly gives it to me, but says that if i take it, my other class will not be something. I decide not to take it.

I decide that I've had enough of a cloudy, foggy atmosphere and fly up past the overpasses crowding the city. The sky is beautiful and rainbow and full of stars. For once I am truly excited that this is a dream. There may have been an airship. I looked at the cars, which looked wonky and all that. At some point, the dream ends.

Last night I had some difficulties falling asleep again and DR wasn't the best but I must say the dream that I had felt and still feels quiet important to me.

1. Stand and fight

I'm somewhere in California or just somewhere in America with large forests and warm temperatures, it's sunset and I'm enjoying a walk through the forest. I cross some small crooks using small bridges made of 4 logs. I feel like this is summer camp or something and I'm pretty young. (I never went to camps when I was younger IRL.) Suddenly the dream teleports me, I'm back myself and I'm in the same forest but a different location. As I look down the very long dirt road infront of me with at the end a road and buildings (Mabye 250 meters far?) I hear a growl behind my back. I turn around and see a large dark bear standing there, he stares at me with a hungry expression. For 3 seconds I'm frozen and thinking about the best thing to do, my rational minds tells me to remain steady and stare back cause that's what you're told to do when you see a bear, yeah? But my instinct is more powerfull and forces me to run the other way as fast as I can. After 5 seconds of running I realise I made the wrong decision and now the bear thinks I'm a prey, I hear his growling getting closer and closer and his footsteps smashing the ground beneath him. 20 meters further I feel my legs are extremely tired and I know I can't run from this thing, he will tear me in pieces!
But then the most important part of the dream happens, atleast what I think makes it so special. I turn around and see the bear storming at me and he's about 5 meters away from me, I quickly grab a pocket knife (IRL I've never had one.) and try pulling the knife out of the device. I think to myself "If I can't run away from you, then I will not give up without a fight." By the time I ready the knife the bear is just 1 meter infront of me and tries to attack. I dodge it and stab him in his upper neck, the knife barely pierces the thick fur and leathery skin but I see some blood. The bear keeps attacking and after several more stabbings the dream teleports again and I look down on the corpse of the bear, which is completly covered in blood.

Now the reason why I think this dream is so important is cause I just defeated a true nightmare, for the first time in my life. I don't have to worry about it returning or something cause I ended it right then and there. It also shows a bit of who I am as a person I think, I like to ignore and walk away from problems that aren't extremely important but when they do get big I usually solve them really well.

I fall asleep, and immediately see a face directly in front of mine, maybe our noses are a full nose distance apart at most. A man is staring directly at me, sporting a big, regular mustache, and smiling happily. Looking right into my eyes as his wide face remains motionless. I scream in terror, completely surprised by this man, because just a moment ago I was laying in my bed, waiting for sleep.

I wake up with a jolt, then question why he was so terrifying for me? I think it was the surprise factor of going from being by myself, to having a face all up in my face.

"Yes!" I said to myself as Sleep-paralysis sets in "Now, don't think of anything scary... like the grudge...
fuck!" said I getting scared, but Luckily for me, nothing happend. Instead I left my body and felt myself floating
to the ceiling. I opened my eyes and looked down onto my bed, empty. "Jesus, my bed is a mess." I said.
I tried to floath down, but gravity had not set in, so I pulled myself down on an invicible rope.

"Okay..." I said happy. "... Gravity is setting in." I realized as I walked down the stairs. When I reached the ground
I looked up and saw, with horror, my mom sitting in the faraway couch. "Okay, Kasper, concentrate... Atleast you
can use your trick to spawn Constantine... Just use the script" I assured myself. My mom looks up.
"Hi! Mom! uhm... is Constantine outside?" said I, trying to be confident. "Yes, she is." my mom said calmly.
"Where you going?" She asked. "Grocerie-shopping with Constantine" I said, sticking to the script. "Shopping
for what, dear?" She suddenly asked. Dumbstruck I panicked, because this she never asked before. "Uhm...
Cookies!" I said. "Cookies... What...kind... of... cookies?" She began to say, in a robotic voice. I reached
for the door, ready to make a run for it. "the...salty ones?" I said quickly. "WRONG COOKIE!" She suddenly yelled.
I screamed, for my mom changed into a demonic nature. Eyes turning red and spinning... I shrieked, while opening
the door wildly. "Hello Ka - 'NO TIME TO EXPLAIN!'" I yelled, interrupting Constantine mid-sentence. I grabbed her hand
and ran away.

"What happend?" she asks confused. "Vincent's... favourite... monster!" I stuttered, running
at high pace. She looked back. "Your mom?" She asks. "No!... Cookie...monster". "How did that happen?" she asks me
in a confused tone. I stopped. "Things... tend to turn demonic if I panic. For some reason my mom left the
script and asked me something new, so I panicked. Cookie monster, for some reason, came up in my mind so I
said 'cookies' and... - 'COOKIES!'" Interrupted by my mom, still chasing me. I grabbed Constantine her hand
again and ran back in a wide circle to the house. Slamming the door shut behind us, I let out a sigh. "That was close"
I said. Suddenly the door started to open. With haste we held the door shut, with our back. Re-acting the scene
of Jurrasic Park. "Search for a shotgun!" I yelled, while wildly looking for a shotgun to blow my mom her head off.
At the end, there was no shotgun... "Keys" Constantine said and locked the door. "NOOOOO!" My mom yelled outside.
Feeling safe for a second, we came to the conclusion my mom had her own pair of keys. "It knows how to open doors!"
I yelled,still trying to re-act Jurrasic Park in a vain attempt to spawn a shotgun. As we were holding the handle,
a voice behind us spoke. "What's the problem?".

I looked back. "Who are you supposed to be?" I asked annoyed.
"Your father" he said. Getting angry for someone to impersonate my dad, I lost lucidity for a second and wanted
to punch him in the face if it was not for the reason I had my hands bussy holding my mom outside. Luckily, I came back.
"Do something!" I yelled. "Oh, your mother is in one of her periods again" He says, while shoving us away and opening the door.
"WRONG COOKIE!" My mom yelled at my dad. "I know, hon. I know, come with me" He said reassuring, while walking away with my mom.
We waited until the yelling of cookies was over, before we left the house and went to the opposite road.

"This is NOT what I wanted" I said angry. "The only thing I wanted was to spawn you, then we could just walk
and talk... Maybe about my dad or what Anne said. But nooo, I changed my mom into a monster... AGAIN!" said I in
a frenzy. "Do things turn demonic often?" asks Constantine. "I once punched my cat in the face... it turned demonic.
One time I came here and my dog was acting apeshit. He acts apeshit IRL too, but now it was, like, tottaly apeshit...
so I punched him in the face. And he turned demonic" I explained. "you... punched your mom?" she asks. "No, not yet
that is" I said back. "Thing is..." I started, "... I once changed the entire world into minecraft! Then I lost
lucidity and transformed into a mindless Steve... But I could do stuff! I once spawned a dragon, I did lost
control of it, but there are times I just can't do shit... I want to re-create a scene of Godzilla and King
Ghidorah from GMK and spawn Lars in it so he can see - 'is he black?' - intterupt Constantine me. "What? Who?
No, he is not black!" I said. "Why would you ever ask..." I began, but suddenly fell to the ground.

"What's happening now?" I thought to myself, when I suddenly found me and Constantine standing in a wooden house
with multiple floors. "This is so not going as I want it to go..." I sighed. I looked at Constantine and noticed
she changed faces again, but always keeps her black hair. "Why do you do that? Changing how you look?" I asked her.
"Because I want to look different sometimes" She said back. "So WHAT was the point of you taken me to shop for clothes
the entire time yesterday?" I asked baffled. "No point" She said calmly. I let out a sigh. "Constantine..." I began,
"... do you, like, hear me when I talk or think about you when I'm awake?" I asked nervously. "Yes, but not clear.
Like a radio with a lot of white noise. Words pop out, sometimes sentences." She answered back. "Oh... uhm...
about some of the things I think sometimes... You know..." I said in a little voice. "No problem for me" She said.
"Oh great" I said reassured. "You know, I found you as a kid..." said I. "Yes, but you asked me to take the form
of an adult" She said. "I only did that because we were thrown naked into a room and I didn't like the fact you
were a naked kid" I pointed out. "So, I changed" she said. "Yeah, you did" I said back. "I woke you up when you
saw me" she points out. "Yeah... you DID do that, yes" I said. "So... Why re-act our world with shopping? This
world is far superior!" I remarked. "You really think that?" she asked, frowning, in a voice that I felt slightly
offended by.

"So what do we do now?" she asks while we climbed the stairs. "I don't know... maybe I transform
myself into a woman?" I said suddenly. She stops. "Do it" she says. I closed my eyes and said "WOMAN" and opened my eyes again.
"Did it work?" she asks curiously. "I don't know... I don't see anything" I remarked. "Maybe I'm flat-chested?
wouldn't be a surprise IRL if I would have been a girl... Ah, no, that doesn't belong. No, still a guy" I said.
"Why not start small?" she said. "Small?" I asked back. "You know... wish IT away?" she said. "... and then
build it. I would show you, but you would just wake up again" She points out. "No, let's not do that at all" I said sharply.
"Why a woman, though?" she asks curiously. "'Cause your sex has it easier then us" I said unknowingly. She let out a sigh
and suddenly walked further on her own. "What? What is it? Constantine?" I said, following her. Suddenly I collided with a
person. A whole crowd appeared on the second floor and Constantine was nowhere to be seen. "Watch it!" Yelled a guy and pushed
me away onto another guy sitting on the edge of the balcony. "Watch it!" said this guy and pushed me back. I got
pissed. "No, you watch it!" I responded and pushed him with my whole body, causing us to fall over the balcony.

Luckily I discovered I had super-strength and with one hand I catched the edge and with the other the foot of the guy I made fall.
"Wow, that was close!" I remarked. I looked down and saw the guy I was holding looked rather lifeless... I saw his neck in a weird
position and it was dragging on the floor. "Oh Jesus..." I said. I let him go. A hand reached for me, I pulled on the hand, making
a second guy falling down and break his neck aswell. "Oh God!" I yelled. I pulled myself up. Suddenly every Dream-character
began to yell, making a hurricane of noise. I ran away, they ran after me. It was as scary as in the movie Inception. Suddenly
I was in a room and out of the other door, guys in white came in. "No, not you guys! I'm NOT GOING BACK! You guys captured me for 3
nights in a fuckin' row and held me in a looney-house before I could escape. And fuck the talking Taco-guy!" I said furiously, remembering
a past event. I said out loud "KATANA" and swung my arm, while grabbing an innocent Dream-character. "STAND BACK!" I yelled, while
holding my weapon against his throath. "OR I..." I began, realizing it was not a katana but a plastic knife you find in fastfood-chains
like McDonalds. "... slith...his...uhm, throath?" I stuttered. For a second I thought I was fucked, but the crowd seemed to take
my warning seriously. So I just went into it. "STAND BACK!" I yelled. "Easy, easy" said the men in white "Noone should get hurt". Out
of the other door, a cop-woman came in with a gun "Oh, no" I cried. I was so not in the mood for my brain to simulate what it thinks
a gun-wound would feel like. "What are your demands?" asked the cop. Now, from my experience with movies... and I watch alot of movies...
this was not going to end well for me, it never did in the movies. "I want Constantine!" I yelled. "Ok..." said a guy in white and got
closer. "But let him go, take me". I was more then happy to replace the two.

"No! My husband!" yelled a lady in the background.
A crowd formed around us. The cop holding her gun at me, the white men getting closer. A woman crying.
I almost began to laugh how absurd this situation was going, while all I wanted to do was talk with Constantine while walking
down a road. "What's happend now?" Asked Constantine, pushing her way through. "Constantine!" I yelled and threw away the guy to his
crying wife, making them stumble. I grabbed her hand and threw the plastic knife at the guy while yelling "take this with you!"
but rather then falling on the floor, it pierced the guy head and fell down dead. Everyone, like the cards in the world of Alice
in Wonderland, jumped in the air to get me. I fell down on the floor and yelled "Constantine, do something!" She bended over me and
created a bubble that defended us and suddenly a white flash appeared and we were in an empty room, but the same house.

My vision was distorted. I heard a voice. It said "Hey, there. My name is Paula!" It seemed my vision was zoomed in, suddenly I saw
I was looking at breasts. "Ack!" I fell backwards and restored my vision. A woman was standing there, with a huge cleavage. "Holy, STOP
you going to wake me up!" I yelled. She laughed. "You are not used to much are you?" she responds back. I didn't like her tone. "Who are you?"
I asked. "My name is Paula Shefe" She explained. "Paula Sheevee?" I asked. "No, look" My vision zoomed back in at a necklace that
resembled a dog-tag. "Ahn, Shefe" I remarked "Wow..." I said, "You DO can read in dreams! it's even crystal..." I began, suddenly noticing
I was, once again, looking at breasts "Ack!" I fell backwards again. "STOP MESSING WITH MY VISION!" I demanded. She responded
with more laughter. Constantine was chuckling aswell. "Damn you women!" I expressed. I began to walk away and they followed me.
Suddenly a kid came up and as frustrated as I was at that point I said "I'm gonna punch the snot out of that kid". "Sure" says
Constantine. "Murder, treason... what is child-abuse anyway?" she pointed out. "You're god-damn right" I remarked. "Falcon...." I began,
suddenly I was in my room, "... punch!". I hit a brick-wall. I shaked my hand, suddenly realizing I woke up.






- Because this is my dream journal I made it like it was a story. All the actions that happend, happend real. 85% of what is said was said indeed, some stuff were from other lucids I put into this to fill in a long gap where
just nothing happend. I began with only "I said" and stuff without emotions, but this got rather dull to read, so I made some emotions into it that I think would fit best. In short this is a story closely based what happend in ly dream. The character Paula original had more lines in my lucid, but I decided not to include them, because most of what she said was perverted. Figures the way she looked.

My dream starts out with me as a mermaid (?) urgently swimming away from captors on boats. My hands have been cut off in torture sessions; leaving only stumps in their place. But even with this obvious handicap, I am moving at an amazing speed. My captors have no gender to identify and they dressed their faces with black cloth, leaving only their glowing yellow eyes to peer out. I had no doubt that those eyes had the ability to see through the deep, dark water––that they had the ability to see me. That thought alone made me want to vomit.

There was probably more, but that's all I remember.

Date: 8 July

Wbtb time but I feel so tired, decide to have 1/3 latte nevertheless and do the wrong wbtb - straight into bed. A few mantras but I know this will lead to no lds as I feel super sleepy. I quickly fall asleep and guiltily wake up couple of times to confirm this is the case but am too lazy to wake up more. I decide to experiment with the third eye as a focus point to see if this increases my wakefulness and focus for an ld. Not really increase in wakefulness but it did serve as a sort of anchor.

LD: The dream starts as I find myself staring at some furniture, while still in sleepying position. One of those moments where you are not sure you are quite in and I concentrate more on the forehead point to get a better grip of the dream, then a bit later start moving my hands, etc. In the beginning I'm gently floating and spinning, it's not unpleasant. I want to make sure that have fully transitioned to this dream.

I think shortly of the location and wonder whether to do a direct teleport but decide against it. I get up, it's grandma's kitchen and for some reason I decide to take the stairs to go outside. I open the door with tk and also close it and lock it with my mind. It's almost as I could feel grandma's presence doing that. I get down the stairs and tk open the locked building door to get out. As I'm on the street I have a moment of excitement and tk lift a car in the air. Also do very short skateboarding down the street slightly above the ground.

My mind is very blurry as I try to remember any tasks for the totm. I recall the DV goal and look around to see if Sensei might be nearby. There's an older teenage boy on a bike with a slightly longer hair that could do. But let me try to get Sensei here. It's a whole street full of DCs so one of them has to be him. I concentrate and think about Sensei, turn to the side in the opposite direction and to my surprise there he is - tall with browish hair, etc. He smiles happily.

We go up the street which turns into a gray building and I decide we will be learning superpowers. I feel that instead of me doing all the controling as in tk, I should try to give the DC more free will and let it demonstrate super powers, while I'm just saying what we are about to do. There is a a pencil like object and I throw it in the air, trying not to hold it with my mind and say that BB should try to lift the object. Before he can react, it falls on the floor.

"Ok, maybe you can demonstrate fire magic instead", I hint. Sensei takes the initiative and produces a large peach colored napkin, unfolds it, throws it in the air and tries to blow in its direction. I now understand what trick he had in mind, he was going to ignite the whole paper with his breath. Unfortunately, that doesn't happen and the object just remains in the air for a while. I feel a bit guilty because maybe I have sabotaged the demonstration by being slow to understand the procedure and didn't put my expectation into it. I'm saying something mid-sentence when the dream abruptly comes to an end.

Non-ld: I have an earlier non-ld where BB is on some other platform online and has organized a dream game where we have to gather pieces of a puzzle.

Pre Bed: 5htp

Did not really do a WBTB, I woke up and laid in bed thinking about dreaming for awhile to try to put myself in the state. I am not sure if this happened right after I woke or as I was falling back to sleep but I kept my awareness as the dream started so I guess this was a wile and I would have to say that this was my first WILD that I know for sure it was actually a WILD.

My thoughts basically got a little strange and then turned into moving pictures, I just had a seedling of awareness I kept. I felt a very short stint of vibrations as I transitioned as well. I think I actually kind of willed a dream to start in a way. I kind of flowed with the dream for a minute or two before I tried to control anything.

I was in a building, maybe an apartment building with a few doors on the inside. It was brown and pretty dim inside, maybe wood flooring. On the doors I noticed pictures of girls, I had a feeling they were ex-girl friends but no one discernible. One door I noticed was open and a brunette girl was half way out the door, she just looked at me. I was headed to the front of the building where the exit was and saw a brick wall in front of me. I decided I would try to jump through it (for some reason I like to try to go through stuff in my lucids, usually not successful though), I went full force into the brick wall and it stopped me like a brick wall, I slid down and was in front of the doors leading out. I was on some city streets, no one around that I noticed. It was dark outside and the streets were kind of dirty like it was not a great part of town. I did an RC to just make sure and it was of course successful. I took to the sky and went up pretty fast pretty quick. I even thought as I went up that I wanted to explore the dream world a little more and not just go go go, but didn't listen to myself. As I was flying up I wanted to stop in the air to see where I was and find somewhere to go to but it seemed I could not slow down, I looked up and decided to just fly as fast as I could straight up. So I sped up even more and saw the moon, I tried to slow down and change direction to go to the moon but couldn't. I decided oh well I guess Ill try for the alien planet TOTM since I am up here. I then flew faster than I had before straight into the starts. I looked up and imagined a red planet and saw a speck of one, I looked ahead again and imagined the red speck much closer and I looked up, I came up on about 5 or 6 planets very fast and again I could not slow down. As I wizzed passed them I realized they were our solar system planets, at least Mars, Jupiter and Saturn, not sure if there were any others. I decided to give up on local planets and continued flying into space to find a different set of planets. I was thinking that it was quite a ways away and even partially tried the same thing I did with imagining a planet coming up but nothing came. I flew for a bit longer but lost the dream.

22:00 3mg melatonin to help reset sleep schedule

23:00 pre-bedtime (intention)

23:20 bedtime (woohoo before midnight, an improvement)

00:00 Wednesday 2014-07-09

03:59

+ long early morning dream:"AED": fAtalistic Eternal Determinants: bizarre interactions with freaky super powered beings, including being required to play Mary Had a Little Lamb on the clarinet (and I don't play clarinet), and a creepy vampire baby/doll offering to make me into a vampire.

I'm in a deep valley looking up at a very high steep cliff where there is a straight-up-and-down-vertical stairway. I'm thinking that noble/royal people travel this stairway (on some sort of a beast like a camel) on their journeys outside of the castle.

Perspective shifts and I see more of the valley, rocks, trees, and this stairway from a different perspective.

Perspective shifts again and I'm hovering DO, I see a huge rocky mountain lake basin in between mountains, there is not much water in the lake, a narrator tells of the water shortage, and I see this is because of a massive artificial drain in the bottom of the lake basin. This basin is a very dangerous evil aware place, anybody venturing there is killed, for example by landslides.

I appear in a large room before 3 beings in white, 2 of them are Tony Randall, one is Jack Klugman, from the TV series The Odd Couple. These are super powered beings. A few others have been summoned with me, and we are required to play Mary Had a Little Lamb on the clarinet. I feel the instrument in my mouth and my fingers on the keys, I imagine playing the piece correctly with my fingers making patterns according to another instrument which I play. Sound does not come out correctly, I remove the instrument from my mouth almost all the way just the tip of the mouthpiece remains and I finally get a sound out of it.

I'm summoned again and one of the beings in white is now in two parts before me on the ground, slowly moving/wiggling, mostly like two large lumps of meat with some hair but is sort of recognizable as a body, I know that the boundary between the two pieces (the axis of the division) constantly changes/rotates, so that the two pieces are made up of different body parts all the time.

Moving in to the next room it is like a locker room but the lockers are screens looking into the world. The beings in white are commenting on something: a procession of some aspect of reality that moves from screen to screen, each time slightly changing and transforming according to their desires, they voice their approval of this process, I'm amazed at their power.

At some point I see a screen/sign with words against a white background, I think it's describing this place/experience, (is it a TV show or reality?), 3 main words like Fatalistic Eternal Determinants, and I think the abbreviation for this is A.E.D.

Back to the valley, there is a fight, a large military naval vessel is in the lake, I have a high hovering DO view, something attacks it and decimates it, most of the ship falls apart like it's been sliced in half, and a black thick stream made up of sailors and machines flows strongly and thickly out of the ship like blood.

Up close scene of one of the sailors, he's on his stomach with his legs crushed underneath a massive stone cube (20-30 feet on each edge), narrator says something like "it's better to be dead than crippled because when you're crippled they'll catch up to you and kill you." The stone block then grinds along the floor over the sailor and his head pops as it covers him, crushing him entirely.

I see clumps of thousands of huge long purple tendrils writhing (and pulling the ship apart?), this is the evil power in the valley. At one point I think you can battle this thing, but them millions more purple tendrils in multiple bunches pour out of the earth and I know it's hopeless.

I'm crawling along some sort of outdoor walkway alongside a large building, it's dark/twilight, I'm paralyzed and don't have the use of my legs. A small baby/doll/creepy vampire being with scary eyes walks by me and offers to make me into a vampire. I'm concerned that this is a bad deal, like it's trying to trick me into a horrible fate, and I ask it several questions like "if I am not happy with this transformation, will you put me back exactly the way I was before?" Each time the thing says yes, so in the end I agree, and I feel the fangs grow in my mouth, I run my tongue over them, and (as I was secretly hoping) I can stand and walk now. I ask the vampire thing if this means I must drink blood now, and I wonder if the white super beings allow the eating of meat.

I'm in an indoor small room with a smaller chamber in the middle of the room, I'm trying to walk through and around this to avoid all the white-clothed beings, because I know they like to cause trouble/mischief on lesser beings, but there are too many of them I can't avoid them so I just walk through, I have the thought that at these higher levels it's very perilous because there are so many of these troublemaking beings. At the other side of the room is a tray with beakers on it, one of the beings is doing something there, I go over and take control, mixing substances together in a small ornate beaker, creating some potion or something, the contents/beaker starts burning/cooking and gets a dark burned look to it, a being is standing right next to me reminding me not to forget something, I study the outside of the beaker and see a flakey/flimsy thing made out of a material like insect wings, I peel it off the beaker (and put it in?). These little things are of critical importance to levelling up, and I think the more advanced beings are blocked from progressing if the things they leave behind are not found, so they make it easy to find them.

05:30 out of bed, can't sleep

08:00 (?) back to bed

12:03

(earlier)

+ Chasing and destroying vampires, jabbing syringes of adrenaline into their eyes, the characters were from Friday Night Lights (Tim Riggins). A dog was helping us track them, we were chasing several of them and catching up to them on a hill.

(waking 12:03)
+ I'm ready to test some equipment in the lab with (Coach Eric Taylor?), my scripts are ready, but I haven't moved them into the proper directory yet. I'm typing at the keyboard and watching the command line on the screen change, I vaguely see the letters.

This morning when I woke up I think I remembered 3-4 dreams but I decided to take it easy today and not worry to much about it. However the second time I woke up I had the best dream I've ever had...

1. D-DAY

I'm in an amphibious landing craft a KM of the coast of Normandy, I wear a WW2-era uniform and see more soldiers in the boat waiting for the gate to fall open. Not a single word is said and then suddenly the gate falls open and the first soldiers storm outside and jump in the water. Some of them get shot right away and I can see parts of their brain flying back in EXTREME detail. It's my turn and I dive straight into the water as fast as I can and plan to stay under until I reach the shore to stay clear of gunfire. As I jump in I rapidly sink down as my equipment is really heavy, I see multiple corpses on the bottom and some floating above me. I quickly take my army knife and try cutting my backpack loose, fortunatly it comes off quiet fast and I make my way to the beach. Upon crawling out of the water I'm deafened by the sound of explosions and MG-fire, I take cover behind an anti-tank cross thing and look for the other soldiers. I focus on the defenses and fire my automatic gun at a pillbox, I see how allied soldiers are trying to climb in the bunkers but they get smashed with spades on their head and fall down. Next to me is a soldier who's sitting out in the open, I pull him in cover and ask him if he's crazy. The beach is really large and doesn't have that many barriers on it, the cover I'm behind is actually the only obstacle and I suddenly notice there are like 5 soldiers only on the beach including me. I'm confused, then everyone stops firing their guns and I'm like "What, a seize fire?". I look around and see Steven Spielberg walking towards me, clapping his hands and shouting "Excellent work men, we got it all on tape and it already looks amazing!. All the fear and stress goes away and he asks "And, how was it?", I respond with relief "Wow, I mean like when I got out of the water, I was terrified.". The other figurants laughed a bit but it was a friendly laughter, not laughing at me.

One of my goals in an LD was to experience D-day, looks like that task is done now but I do want to try it out again when I'm really lucid.

Long dreaming night, to bed late, slept late, got back to sleep, should have gotten lucid but too tired after trip.

+ skiing downhill at night in a group, at the top of the hill was a campaign sign reading "Americans: we're not as stupid as you think we are!" it's from a candidate whom I think I know

+ playing "hide the USB wireless mouse interface in your ear!" game in a swimming pool with a large group

+ I work hard to recapture our ball in the swimming pool, tons of kids are playing, later it is a flag, I finally get it and victoriously return

+ up close view of a spices stored in a store, mostly hot crushed red pepper, some strange individual slice packing I think is really clever (one of those "you mean *that* was a dream?" dreams, felt very real)

+ The origins of Captain America: at first he's (me) a guy who just likes the suit, I try the helmet/mask on and check myself out in a mirror

+ water is building up in a diamond-shaped cabinet, I rush to get some stainless-steel cook-pots to capture and reach it just as it begins to pour out, it fills up all the pots quickly, I think about siphoning it through a green garden house down to an in-ground water storage area, but there's a guy in there held prisoner

+ in a team of young people/heroes trying to trick the evil witch into appearing, I think she does but the team just stands around

+ I'm on a 3-wheeled motorcycle slipping and sliding on a snowy road, I run into a fence, I try to figure out the best position of the front wheel to counteract the sliding (turned 90 degrees sideways seems best!)

+ arrive on an extremely urgent mission to an important adult figure who just doesn't want to hear it, we should all calm down and eat our dinner first, we start singing in harmony

+ I'm in a small movie theatre as a movie ends, I'm surprised to see about 5 other people scattered around the theatre, we all start doing "raise the roof"

+ something about my parents and lots of food

...and much more that forgot

I rode my board over to my friend Nicos and we went to this hotel/elementary school
and we started walking around and shit and I went into this one classroom.
The teacher was cute so I was trying to talk to her and shit while she was teaching a class.
I ended up leaving to look for my board while my friend stayed. I was confused on if I brought my skateboard or penny board so I was looking all over until I found my skateboard.
After I found it I went back to the room my friend was in with the teacher. It was about to be lunch.
This was a 5th grade class also. For some reason my friend was drawing or doing the work they were doing and I was confused. I think so she would let him stay.
When lunch came around and all the kids left I tried talking to her. She said she was going to get food and gave me the key. I went into the room and waited maybe 5 minutes until she came back in. At this point I was eating Mike and Ikes for some reason and wanted to spit them out before she came back in. The classroom was no longer a class but a hotel room. I went to the bathroom to spit out the mike and ikes into the toilet only to find someone had taken a shit and not flushed it. I was confused for some reason but spit them out and flushed the toilet. I stepped outside for a reason I can't remember and there was someone at the end of the way. They asked me what I was doing in the room alone and I made up an excuse saying I was the teachers cousin and just waiting for her to say hi. Right after I said that she came walking down the hallway. I walked back into the room and she came in not long after. Since it was just me and her in the room I started talking to her different basically trying to get with her. When she came in the room I started flirting with her more since there were no children in the room. She asked me how old I was and I told her that i'm turning 18 on the 20th. She smiled and said okay. When she started walking towards me I woke up.

So normally I wouldn't post such a short lucid but this one is mentionable.

I was in the kitchen in the morning, nothing like my own really and I was making breakfast. I was going to make muffins but was putting them in individual muffin tin things and placing each one on a burner, I want to say the burner was coming from the top but I cant be sure. I was concerned in the dream that the muffins would burn or catch fire. I kept adjusting the flames to make sure this didn't happen. I looked at them all when I finally got them all on and some were really disfigured and flat while others looked decent. After they were done (I assume) I was scraping stuff off a tray and was amazed that there was nothing left. It all just disappeared and there was only a few burnt pieces of stuff left, looked like small burnt onions. I showed my mother in law who was in the kitchen with me and said how weird it was nothing was left. I then started to peel a banana to eat and then went to an area in the kitchen where my grandmother in law was working at making something else. I picked up something she was using like a bag of sugar and it dumped everywhere, all over the floor and counter. I was told I didn't need to help pick it up but helped anyways. Someone said something about me being late to work and I needed to eat and then my mother in law said I needed to make sure I was awake or wake up better. This prompted me to do a RC and I did the finger check, as always I was amazed this was a dream and did it several times, I had some wobbly fingers and more than 5. Lucid: I went to a door and imagined a city street like the one I had been on in my previous dream, as i opened the door the dream was beginning to fade and as I began to wake a saw some sort of field.

This afternoon I took a nap with my daughter and actually had a dream I remembered, this doesn't usually happen when I have a nap so it was really different. I was with a couple others in a room and we were going to fight some others. I was telling a guy next to me, who was a kid, maybe my son that he had to protect others from someone who couldn't control their powers. It seemed like last airbenderish if you will. I was going to show him that I could throw fire balls and I wound up but nothing came out. I woke up shortly after.

#334 - DEILD - 4:31AM

I have to say this dream is really memorable for me. Inspired by Dreamer, I decide before hand that I would devote an entire lucid dream to learning pyrokinesis. Not only did I begin to see a breakthrough in something I have been struggling to learn but did something completely insane. The amount of pain that I felt tops any dream pain I have ever experienced. It wasn't intolerable but it was definitely uncomfortable. To compare it to waking like I'd have to say it was close to the feel of a slight oven burn a few seconds after the fact. I know it sounds slightly masochistic but I really enjoyed the sensations. It was fascinating how pain can be so realistic in the dream state. It makes me wonder what the limits are.

I have a strange work dream where they got a new wire cut machine. It's in the old facility and everything is arranged all wrong.

I wake, move around, stretch, cough and get comfortable. I feel pretty awake so this time I focus on breathing meditation and body relaxation. After a while I am back at work but too focused on breathing to be lucid. I am standing at a computer terminal and a DC tells me that I am breathing too fast. I see a window on the screen with the value '100'. I am able to edit, so I change it to '70'. My breathing slows way down and I become self aware again.

Now, I am in bed still focused on breathing. I have a little trouble with it like usual but I try to maintain while I relax my body. I realize I was waiting for vibrations but understand it's not going to happen this time. I do notice my body feels oddly flat, so I try to move and get out of bed easily.
I am in my childhood home in Texas. I'm getting pretty used to this location so I just treat it like normal and make my way outside while still focusing on breathing. When I reach the front door and decide I am too excited and let it go allowing my breath to speed up.

Outside, I decide to walk the streets while practicing my ultimate dream control wish; shoot fireballs from my hands. I thought about this some in waking life and had decided to use some energy practices from AP before hand. It doesn't seem to be doing anything, so I go with something I am more familiar with like throwing rocks. I blind summon softball sized stones and throw. I don't see them leaving my hand but I see them hitting the road and rolling away. It's a start, I suppose.

Now I try to move on to fire. I think of how easily Dreamer uses fire in her dream and how she says it's all about belief. I think of a cigarette lighters as I try starting a flame by snapping my fingers, but I am only getting sparks. Still, this is really encouraging and I continue for about a minute. Eventually, my fingers get twisted up and I can no longer snap. Rather than getting too caught up in the finger issue I try to think of another way to go about this.

I have been walking quite a bit and notice I have been walking my usual path to my old high school and have arrived without even really trying. We used to live really close so this never took very long even in waking life. As I take steps closer, the building morphs into the inside of the school cafeteria. I see a rack with small bags of Lay's Plain Potato Chips and something in the center with a flame like a pilot light. I get an excited idea to start my fireball by first setting my hand on fire "externally". When I touch the flame I feel a sharp, intense, constant pain. I loudly whisper, "SHIT! THAT HURTS!" Stubbornly, I keep my hand in a little longer. When I feel that the tips of my fingers are holding the flame I move it out and lift my hand up like a torch. The pain is still there but has lessened a little. I see cafeteria workers milling about in white uniforms in my peripheral vision. They don't seem to care that I am lighting my hand on fire and I mostly ignore them. After a moment, the flames seem to be dieing away and I look for the pilot light again. I find a pot boiling cut up potatoes but instead of steam rolling from the top I see fire. This time I put my entire right hand in. The pain is way more intense this time. It's probably the worst dream pain I've ever experienced. I just keep my hand in muttering, "Shit that hurt's."

After a satisfactory amount of time I withdraw my hand seeing it fully engulfed in flame. The pain is still really bad but I do my best to ignore it. I stare at my hand enjoying the beauty of the flame and doing my best to take in all the little details; I want a strong visual for when I actually summon fire later on. I enjoy the realness of the vivid colors; yellow and orange/red ending in blue. But most importantly, my flesh is unharmed in spite of how bad it hurts. It almost looks like really good, but really bad CG. I begin to think about trying to shoot flames or fireballs but before I can try it the dream fades and I return my physical body awareness.

Woke up out of this dream yesterday. I can't recall the beginning of this dream, but I ended up in my high school, a camera in hand and a nerdy, annoying friend at my side. The school resembled a museum; it was full of strange and awe-inspiring artifacts. I was supposed to be taking pictures, but my friend kept reaching over and knocking the camera out of my hand, forcing me to repeatedly pick it up and fix it.

We started at the top floor and worked our way down. When we finally reached the bottom floor, I saw a security guard standing beside a strange, glass door. The glass was double-paned, and there were hundreds of tiny little bottles with even tinier model ships in them, all fit perfectly into the glass door. Some of the ships floated on sand (mostly white sand, but there were a few ships that rested on colorful sands; one ship in particular was on purple sand, and it reminded me strongly of a pirate ship) while others floated, seemingly unsupported, in the middle of their bottles.

"What are they?" I asked no one in particular. The little glass bottles and their caged ships were beautiful. They each seemed to have their own essence, or aura. I wanted to look at each and every one of them.

"They're spirits," my friend told me. (He meant ghosts, I thought.)

The security guard started to speak, but I woke up before I could make anything out of it.

Recorded at 6.30am

I'm inside a complex with a couple people. I think one of them is Loki Mc.

I hear a bang sound and I quickly look to the skies and notice that a jet plane looked as if it had caught fire. The jet starts to descend toward the ground and I think the worse, but somehow if recovers.

Shortly after I notice more jets are flying in the area, which are flying very low near the complex I'm in. They're shooting missiles from low to the ground to avoid detection.

I start to wonder what the hell is going on and think maybe I'm witnessing something classified. I try to keep a low profile and avoid being seen at all. I can see a man through the window, he's dressed in some kind of uniform and seems to be giving orders from his command post.

I notice that some walls are shutting a little. They're remote controlled to shut and close. I start to freak a little, expecting someone to enter the room.

We decide to bail while in the clear and reach an elevator. Myself and 2 others are in the elevator until a women decides to join us. She is a bit all over the place when the elevator starts moving. It's as if she was drunk but I think she just wasn't used to the feeling of elevators. I try and calm her down and hold on to her to make her feel safe.

As I get off elevator I walk into a closed in area which is like a wild life play ground. I see a jaguar just chilling out on a platform and at least 50+ lions laying down around the room. They're extremely tame and allow you to do what you please to them. I feel great being able to pat these animals without getting my head ripped off. I give a few lions a rub on the stomach, face, neck and they're enjoying the attention. I get a sense that one of the lions wants me to give the other 2 lions some attention. I think she's the mother of the 2.

I walk around the room and see that there's 4 platforms forming a square. There floors are controlled by a remote, it's as if the floor is simulating a treadmill.

There's a girl on one of the platforms and she is standing on a ring, the size of a basket ball. While the floor is moving to the right, she's walking the opposite way, keeping herself in the middle still. She added a front flip to the mix. It was quite impressive.

It's now my turn to get up on the platform and I struggle to keep my balance at first. I see a creepy man, pretty scummy looking. He definitely looks the part of a trouble maker. He is giving me a weird look and avoiding my personal space. I think he wanted to get on the platform. He leaves me alone and heads over to the other platform and annoys the other man. The man on the platform has a note next to him and the creep helps himself to reading it.

Creep heads back over next to me and he puts down a can of whipped cream.

Loki enters the room and comes over to see what I'm doing. So I give him a bit of a show and try to impress him.

I eventually give in, and ask the creep if he wants to have ago on the platform. He isn't very talkative and gives me the impression that he doesn't want to have ago. He sees a small petite girl bent over and he walks over to her and gets up on her platforms and gets behind her as if he is doing a sex act.