memorable

So like how my many LDs start, I'm in my house walking, and then I do a nose RC, become lucid and I start walking to my fav spot in the LDs I have, my livingroom, I start showing my uncle me jumping and touching the top of the ceiling, my auntie was looking too, my uncle said I can reach it, I was like whatever haha, on my way to the kitchen, I was thinking of everything I can, I wanted to do the hand RC again so I did it, my hand was kinda blue, it worked, so I started jumping like always and I thought of spawning someone so I did, I can't remember anymore so I'll list some of the stuff I remember
-rubbing my hands to make me stay in longer
-breaking a black plastic bag
-not talking for awhile and being bored, continued jumping
Good thing I stayed up all night, I wouldn't of gotten this lucid,

I also tried thinking of ToTM and all that, but couldn't, I think I was most lucid in that one that the others.

July 6, 2014

Last night I had a bunch of wild dreams, i'm sitting here and details keep coming to me. At first I was dancing, dancing up the sides of buildings and i remember hanging from a chandelier. Not really sure where that one started or ended up. I work up in the middle of the night then went right back to sleep. Then I remember messing around with a cute girl, shoving her pussy in my face, fingering her butt and rubbing her clit she was loving it. I went somewhere to get a rubber, I think I also got some food or something... I remember going back to her and we had a little more fun. Like the last one, not sure where exactly I was, who was there and what everyone was doing, I was pretty focused on that girl. Then I woke up, it was light out this time. What did I do? Go right back to sleep. This time I remember being in my old high school. I remember doing a lot of running around, and I remember the dean, Mr. Negus, telling me to be careful. Thinking back i'm not exactly sure what he was talking about, because the last time he told me that in the real world was when i came in all banged for graduation because I fell on my bike the day before, some deer ran into the road and I ended up with a lot of road rash. Still recovering. However, some other shit was going on in the dream. I was fenced in with a few other people, we were building up this sharp fence. Not like a wood fence or a wire fence like your neighbor has, this fence was red it was made of steel and sharp as hell everywhere. I remember helping someone who might have been my friend Lu put up some more sharp thick sticks where there were some more open holes in the fence. Then it hit. A wave of birds, out of nowhere flew into the fence at insanely fast speeds very violently. They hit with such force, I would turn my head ducking for cover every time they hit. I remember this Lu character saying how he hates that they come out of nowhere. One second there's no birds, then the next you see a wave forming nearby and flying into the fence as fast as they could. Then I remember running back through the school because I left two hundred dollar bills just sitting in the cafeteria, and at that point I was just trying to leave. I ran outside and my friend Devan is pulling out in her silver volvo as I'm running out the doors, I remember running over and grabbing the door handle but she was still moving so I ended up on the ground. My boys Tim and Kyle were in the car as well, making fun of me because I just fell. I got up, told them to shut up, hopped in the back seat, then I woke up.

Pre-Bed
3mg Mel, 5 Htp
Bed at 1215 and sleep by 1245
WBTB at 430 for about 20 minutes
Activities: Read previous dream journals, do multiple RCs

I tossed and turned for a little bit when I went back to bed, I tried to WILD but was not successful. I had a couple other dreams on top of the lucids but wont log them here.

1. I just slightly remember this one which wasn't lucid but was noteworthy. I was talking to a couple other people who were sitting and we were discussing lucid dreaming. The idea of sexual relations in dreams came up and I said that is always too hard for me to do, I always wake up right away. Just thought it was pretty funny.

2. This dream is the blurriest of them all. I don't think I was with my daughter but I was at like a kids science center or kids museum or something for kids that was indoors. I ended up doing an RC and had multiple fingers. Lucid: I didn't feel stable at all and kept thinking about waking life. I did another RC and felt the floor and felt how the carpet felt then I felt the wall and it was rather rough. I never got incredibly stable. I decided to do the naked task but all of the DCs disappeared, I ended up getting my pants off I think and as I was doing this I was thinking of DCs being there and I was spinning in circles. Finally I saw an older guy and then a younger girl, before I could get to my shirt the dream faded and I woke.

3. I was at my house and I believe my wife was home. It began to rain outside and I remembered I had left some of my tools outside. I went outside where it was dark and then I slid my table saw under the overhangs of my house. I got a couple things picked up and then had to go to another area on the other side of the house to pick tools up. The water was starting to gather and I saw a bunch more tools on the ground. I want to saw a lawn mower, another saw and something else. I wanted to put these inside and at this point I think I had a moment of clarity and I did a RC, hands. Lucid: The rain had stopped and it was dark still. I wanted to look for a building for an elevator, i tried to imagine a city or building close to my house and tried to fly up. My first attempt was successful. I concentrated a little more on the flying and was able to take to the sky. As I elevated I started to think of my waking body and began to wake just as soon as I started seeing city lights behind my house.

4. This was my last, longest and most vivid. I was walking through a building, as I was passing I saw people looking inside and there was some smoke coming out from some of the rooms. This was an indoor area, maybe some small apartment type places but it was a narrow mall inside. Multiple people were standing out in the aisle, I could see wisps of smoke coming out. I had a feeling/knew that a fire had just been put out and they were trying to make sure nothing else was on fire. I got outside and I was on a city block, I did an RC for some reason (fingers). Lucid: I saw a tall building with blackened out windows across the street and knew there would be an elevator inside. As I headed across the street I decided to do the naked task at the same time since there was bound to be people in the building. I got my pants off as soon as I walked in the front door. I saw a bunch of DCs and they just looked at me. I really wante3d a reaction out of them but got nothing, just stared. There were several of them waiting in a central lobby and a receptionist when i went in. I really honed in on their faces but they just stared blankly. I was taking my shirt off at this point and also imagining an elevator as I turned the corner. I turned left a couple of times and there it was, a single elevator door which was silver and of course it was closed. The elevator was next to an area where they were cooking food, I had my shirt off but was still struggling to get it off my wrists, like there was some buttons that I needed to get off. But for all intensive purposes I was in the buff. I had managed to push the elevator button to call it down but it was on floor 27, so I thought I would be waiting for awhile. For some reason I woke as I was waiting for the elevator, I may have thought of waking life.

Next time I will be sure to picture an open elevator as I am rounding the corner.

A large dragon is terrorizing some of my friends, spewing oil everywhere, and breathing fire to ignite the oil. I realize I'm dreaming, and think this is actually a pretty fun situation to play around with. I start to fly after the dragon, who is less bold than earlier and takes off flying away from me. I tail it, flying faster than I've every flown before. The scenery starts to blur as I pick up speed. The dragon turns into a space ship and starts to go even faster while shooting lazers at me. I dodge the lasers and follow it for a while, eventually getting bored at the chase, lasers and all.

I don't know where I was, but I realized I was dreaming, and that I could do anything. I teleported to the center of the moon to see what it was like. On the inside, it is cool, but not cold, and very light gray. Satisfied, I teleported to the sun. It was a bright yellow. Pleasantly warm, not too bright or hot. For some reason, I was in a boat, surrounded by flames of light. Gently rocking with the tides, I got bored and teleported to Jupiter, inside the big red dot. It felt just like the sun, only not as bright, no boat, and a little more red than yellow.

I was thinking back to try to count all the LD's I've had. I don't remember a lot of them right now, but I do remember the first one. At least it's the first one I remembered upon awakening.

I'm 5 years old, standing in the street on a warm sunny day. Everything is bright and alive. Trees nearby, not much around but the road going through a vibrant nature scene in the summer. I know it is a dream based on an unmistakable feeling I have. "Very cool" I think to myself as I spread my arms to my sides and begin to levitate in the breeze, just feeling the wind pass across my body.

I woke up and told my mom about it. She said it's totally normal and she has dreams like that all the time.

I'm in my living room with a group of friends. One of them finds an old mirror and looks at it. They let out a yell, obviously seeing something terrifying in the mirror. She asks me if I want to see the scariest thing in the universe... Curiously cautious, I gesture for her to pass me the mirror and look at it.

Images of dinosaurs flashed before me for a few moments. Then the moment came: I've never been soo terrified and frightened before in my life! Without choice, I immediately let out a scream and threw the mirror. Then I realized it was just an image of my face. It was in a different expression than I had, but still definitely just my very own face.

Once I realized it was me, I started to laugh uncontrollably. How did I scare myself so much?

I laughed so hard I woke up, and continued to laugh in bed for a while before actually getting up.

July 04, 2014

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Animal Crossing

I was playing my Animal Crossing: New Leaf game, except I was in the game. I kept changing my clothes because I couldn't figure out what to wear that day.




Penises and FUCK THIS SHIT

I was at a fancy party with Zukin. It was on the roof of a really tall building, and we were all dressed up super sexy and elegant and whatnot. We were walking around, and I looked around, watching the faces... I had a target at this party.

I was secretly an agent. I was an assassin, to be precise. My target was a man at this party, and Zukin didn't know I was a spy... I saw the man I was to kill, and mentioned to Zukin that I wanted to go eat some pineapples. She looked at me, followed my eyes, and nodded eagerly. We went to the buffet and grabbed a plate of pineapples, and then walked over to my target.

"Care for some pineapples?" I asked him.

He nodded, and took a piece from the plate. We all walked around for about half an hour, chatting. We all became such good pals that he invited us to go someplace with him after the party. We agreed. I was thinking how easy this would be.

We walked past a giant fountain, and I slipped a bit, falling into his arms. He made sure I was alright and stood me back up, pulling some hair from in front of my face, tucking it back behind my ear. I smiled up at him, and we all kept walking.

We decided to pause for a bit, and I sat with Zukin in a little window-seat type thing. Even though we were on the roof, there was a wall on one edge, along which we sat. Then all hell broke loose; There was a siren of sorts, and an announcement that we all had to leave, because the party was over. Zukin and I stood up and got swept away by the crowd; I could see my target behind us, keeping his eyes on us so as not to loose us.

We filed down the stairs and into a wide, tall hallway. We ducked into a little cut-out where the girl's bathroom door was. Zukin said she had to pee, and so I waited outside while she was inside the one-person restroom. I also kept my eyes open for my target, hoping to catch him as he left and remind him of his offer to us.

Then, I got a call: it was my boss. They told me my target had changed. The man we'd been schmoozing all night was no longer a threat... the new target: Zukin. On the inside, I was screaming "FUCK YOU BASTARDS." But I said, "understood."

I knocked on the door. "Is it safe to come in, Zukin?"
"Yeah, just washing my hands now."
I opened the door and slid in without making much sound.
"Zukin."
"Yeah?" She was drying her hands.

I told her I was a spy, and that my new target was her. She stared at me.
"So this is what we're gonna do," I said.
After I explained the plan to her, she was so psyched.

We got in some kind of badass flying machine, headed for the Headquarters of my spy organization. I pulled a pistol out of a strap at my thigh, and handed it to Zukin. We busted through the doors of HQ, holding out the guns and shouting.

Then my watch beeped. In the middle of busting up HQ, I did a reality check, realized I was dreaming, and also how absurd it all was.

I decided that, since I was dreaming, and I already had this big-ass gun, I would continue to wreck shit up with Zukin. I let off a few rounds into the air, shouting and running around. Zukin was bashing someone's head into a table.

I wondered if this counted toward the bonus task for the month, but didn't dwell on it for very long, since I was busy spray-painting the walls with penises and things like "FUCK THIS SHIT" and your mother jokes.

I was in the gym with my cousin and friend, everyone was bringing chairs in so we did. we walked around to find a seat to sit and so we went across to this room where there was goalie nets and all that, there was someone there and told us to get out, so we were getting out and it endedededededed, it was random

I am listening to one of my favorite bands through earphones, and take the earphones off to do something else, but the music remains at the same volume. I check, and I am still wearing the earphones. I take them off again, being extra sure that I removed them. Holding them in my hand, looking right at them, the music is still at the same volume. I also feel them in my ears at the same time. I drop the pair I'm holding and feel another pair in my ears again.

My room mate comes up to me to tell me something, but I can't hear her over the music. I take the earphones out, but the music is still just as loud and I can't hear her over it. I focus really intently on reading her lips, but only get part of what she's saying this way. I take the earphones out several times as she is speaking, but the music never gets quieter.

Maybe I'm dreaming? I pinch my nose and cannot breathe. I look at my frame of reference, notice my nose is slightly visible as usual, as well as my face around my eyes. I try to put my finger through my hand, it won't go through. I look at my hands, I have the normal number of fingers: 4 and a thumb on each hand. "I guess I'm just going crazy then" I conclude, still unable to stop the music. I wonder if I am just unable to remove the headphones and am hallucinating my attempts to get them off, or if I am just hearing the music in my head without headphones....

In either case, the music is awesome, so I don't really mind it at all. I sing along for a bit, realizing I don't know the words, I let the song continue. I figured I would know the words if it's in my head, but I don't. I keep taking the earphones out, only to hear the music just the same, and to immediately find the earphones are still in my ears.

A large dog is sleeping nearby. Now it is a horse, the size of a huge dog. It has wedged itself comfortably behind some furniture and wants to get out. I move the furniture a little, and it squeezes through, now in dog aspect again. Turning around, it squeezes back into the furniture, between the frame of a table with no top. It is a large fluffy dog at this point, it lays down, completely comfortable and relaxed. I feel relaxed just looking at it curl up over there.

I wake up and realize I fell asleep with my headphones on, playing the exact same music. Complete continuity from the dream music to the music I'm hearing now.

Maybe I woke up briefly for the RCs, and due to the continuity of music, didn't know I was awake? A crucial element was missing from my RCs however: Truly believing this might in fact be a dream. Instead of this, I was merely wanting it to be a dream.

WILD
So, I awoke at 4:00 AM, I didn't move for a bit and found SP kicking in quickly, I entered the dream and found myself at my home lying in my bed, I opened my door and expected there to be a desert, I stepped into the desert and felt the sand between my toes and the heat from the sun. I quickly remembered that I wanted to try out this persona thing I've been thinking about, I wanted to take on the from of Vulture, the 17 year old bountyhunter girl. I morphed and felt my body change, my legs becoming more slender and the hair on them dissapearing, my hips becoming wider and my 'man thing' changing into a 'woman thing' (felt wierd actually) my stomach changing and my waist becoming a bit more slender. my breasts forming and my shoulders becoming more womanlike. I liked this body, it felt very graceful, now my face began to change, becoming more womanly and my hair growing and turning to black. I also already had my 'goku clothes' on. I became accustomed to my new look and tried to control the sand, I lifted my hand and the sand moved, I played around with that power a bit, then I thought about how I actually look, you know, to other DCs, I began to spin and teleported to a very crowded street, I went into the nearest starbucks and ordered my favourite vanilla latte. I sat down and looked around, I saw a woman and I wanted to talk with her, I got up, went to the woman and she said "hey", I smiled and answered "Hey, so this may be a wierd question, but how do I look?" (my voice sounded very womanly, something I hadn't thought of.) She just responded "You look like a cute girl, however I would not wear that outfit, every man is going to stare at you" I laughed and said "thanks, however I'm not into me, ok, I'll go now, bye" I went outside and thought about turning super saiyan, I ran to the middle of the street and began to shout like Goku does in the anime DBZ, I suddenly felt a surge of energy as I got a golden, blazing aura, my hair, though still long, it turned gold and became spiky, i just played around a bit and then I woke up.


I didn't want to do a DEILD, as I had to wake up early anyway.

Date: 03 July

Pre bed: 300 mg valerian

Wbtb: 1/2 latte (other, around 40 mg caffeine)

In this ld series, counted at least 3 DEILDs, memory not at best, many locations

I get lots of HI, some are very clear and I am able to hold a few for a while but not enter them, also some fake hand movements etc.

Mini dream: On a balcony, they are constructing a bridge over it, I have some awareness that this is a dream but soon wake up.

Mini-ld: We are in the middle of having a dinner and I find myself chewing on tasty lettuce. Bf tells me about people having these phantom limb sensations, I reply that this is because they were dreaming, it's the dream body moving. I move my dream hands to check if they fit comparing them to previous HI attempts. All in.

I'm sitting next to bf and see this glow around his head. Could this be real bf? No, I don't think it's him. I say something to him I can't recall and watch for the reaction. The scene devolves into a mildly creepy one where my voice turns into a dry ghostly whispering independent of my command. I also feel some part of my real body (like back or hands supposedly) as I'm about to consciously exist any moment. There are other disturbing noises and I'm so not in the mood to deal with this and wake up.

I take a mini toilet break then back to bed.

LD pack: My recall is bad on this one, I think I deilded at the end. Once again I find myself with bf in a dark room and this time it develops into a full blown Xanous like scenario, bf is quick to disappear and this eerie invisible entity comes instead.

This whole thing is probably just my imagination but I feel I can't control the entity. What it does is lift me upside down at the level of the ceiling and keeps me spinning and spinning in the air. Continuous spacial rotation is not pleasant and you get dizzy just like irl (without expecting it). I'm hoping that this would stop but it doesn't so I decide to attack the thing. I do my best trying to take it apart, it looks like some movie type of dark creature. Since nothing helps, I let go and leave it spin me around to see what happens.

Memory gap so not sure what happened next.

I appear in a dark modern apartment. Do I know this place, have I been here before? The arrangement is somewhat similar to a few old non-lds but not exactly. I'm a bit suspicious that the dark entity drove me here and the confrontation will continue. Just remain calm and continue exploring around, and there is indeed nothing out of the ordinary. I remember the basic task of the month. In what looks like the kitchen are two DCs male and female involved in some sort of activity/experiment and photographing barbie legs or whatever.

I tell them to help me undress and they do. I think they managed to get all clothes but there was a reappearing underwear top thing that I had to take off. Memory gap.

Most likely this is where I went for another deild.

Fragment. I can't recall in which room I appeared but now am at our old place, pass through my room, talk to mom, tell her to open the door to the balcony. She tells me the door is open, I think just like in the dreams of (Sensei?) the doors are always open. I go on the balcony.

The scene is extremely beautiful and vivid though a bit unstable. It's a magical late afternoon and and there are hues of orange in the sky and some buildings etc. I make a mental note about that and cautiously proceed to examine it in a bit more detail before rushing off for totm. I take the time to examine the colorful flowers on the balcony and the surroundings, can feel the wind gently blowing. Ok, enough as I start worrying that I don't have that much time in the dream after all.

The idea is to get down and continue with the naked task with some random DC audience on the street. Time to make that jump again. I feel a bit bolder this time, go to the side where I often decent in my non-lds and take a look at the street, yard etc. The amount of detail is simply amazing - it's as if every piece of the memory falls into place. How am I able to reproduce all that, I have absolutely no idea. The thing that strikes me the most is the grass. There are a few longer types of grass next to the fence with long grass florets that casually and continuously sway with the wind. The scene is perfect.

I am preparing to jump down or get down using any means. I think at this point I might have lost the dream though. There were some DCs on the street I wanted to interact with. Memory gap.

The next scene I recall is a place similar to my school and I head for the window again. Think there was more between those scenes. Feeling bold again at this point, I don't care if I will be able to open the window or get through - the frames change so it is hard to get out but I am determined to get out. In the end it changes so I am able to open it and look down. It's high again. This is so tiresome. I worry that if I jump and fall too drastically this may destabilize the dream and make it go away altogether. What to do?

I decide to slide down the building or do the usual non-ld climbing down so scan the building for any frames, rails and similar items to hold on to. There aren't many of these on this building though, but I give it a try nevertheless. I start to slide down and immediately use the sticky fingers technique where my hands adhere to the surface. To my surpise it works really well and immediately slows down the sliding to almost a halt. This is great, so I will use this now to slowly slide down, but before I move too much, the building gets much shorter and it's as if I just teleported to the ground. Unfortunately, at this point the dream thins out and I'm back in bed

I hold still for a deild again while a bit worried about recall and whether I will be able to go back to the same scene.

DEILD:Back in the same scene! Ok, I decide to help stability a bit, there is a jar full of colorful sand and stones on a table near the building so I take it and pour some of the stones on my feet. They are gentle enough not to hurt but provide nice tactile sensations to hold on to. I also recall that other ld where I drank a glass of cold water and felt so much better. There is a glass and a bottle/bottles of cold water and I pour some on my head and (did I drink any?) and body and on my head again. The water is cold and absolutely refreshing. I think I will recommend this technique on DV.

I continue down the street and spot three possible locations to go to. It's nice and sunny with a feel for some exotic dream city. I stare at the three spots trying to feel which one is most inviting. In one of the places is an Asian guy dressed with cool clothes and a motor helmet. Looks like they are having fun there and I head in that direction but the guy is no longer there. Nearby is a huge head statue made of sandstone, it looks ancient and a booth where this lady is handing out free tickets for some event. I briefly wonder about this place. Then recall the basic totm, queue for a short while, grab the entry tickets undress fully and follow the crowd to whatever place they are going. People stare at me as I explain this is for the totm.

The place turns into some sort of a train/disco. I go further down the carriages of this crowded place. My best friend from school is now tagging along and I become really happy because she is the best companion to have in dreams. I feel a bit conscientious about my previous behavior and once again repeat that this was for the totm. "We just did the totm", I say. Let me see if this is correct. I try to remember what the tasks were, reaching for my memory while being cautious not to concentrate too much like that one time. Yes, that was one of the tasks. I also recall I wanted to look for Sensei. My idea was to teleport to him, but don't want to push my luck too far with that.

There are lots of DCs walking around and I scan them trying to see if Sensei might be among them. Nope. Ok, any of you guys good with teleportation? No reply. Ok, I guess I'll summon him then. *Thinking* There is a tall DC just round the corner. There!

A tall guy walks from round the corner and I begin to question him "Are you BrandonBoss?" He: "Huh? Brandonboss - you?" Points at me. Then points at himself. Me? No. He's got blue eyes and dark blonde hair. I decide to probe him again. He denies being BB and says something else I can't recall. Oh well. I leave him and continue down the carriages which is now more like I'm exiting a disco or bar.

There's a stand where they sell cigars and some of them are actually candy. I spot a really nice package of dream lollipops (under transformation) and feeling mischievous grab them. Yes, it's a dream so I can take this. Oh, wait, the other totm! I wonder if this counts, the lollipops turn into other appealing types of candy and chocolate before I start stuffing them in my mouth. They taste really good like a really pleasant chocolate and other fantastic sweets. I can't believe it but this time I chew all of them.

I'm wondering what else to do here when the dream comes to an end.

Part of the dream I had this morning:

I am at the barn with my dad and my friend D. I walk outside with my dad, as if to leave. We get in his truck, and he starts to back out of the parking spot. He backs the truck up so that it's facing the opposite direction we need to go. I don't pay any attention to him, assuming he's just going to circle around the end of the parking lot. We drive past another car, and we see the driver fall out of the car onto the pavement.

The man is thrashing strangely, his face blank. I get a bad feeling about it, and look around at my dad, expectant. He says something about getting out of there fast, and then he swings the truck around to face the curb of the parking lot. Before us is the steep hill that leads down and away from the barn, to a two-lane road at the bottom, and a forest beyond the road.

"Don't tell anyone," my dad says, and then he drives over the curb and down the steep hill. We reach the road, and the truck is bouncing and jerking around.

"I've had enough roller coaster dreams!" I say, but I am grinning, and my dad laughs. (I evidently realized I was dreaming, but it lasted for about 5 seconds, and I was maybe a 2 on the lucidity scale.)

We continue driving along the road, but it's no longer the road I thought it was. It takes on a very roller coaster-esque look; there is nothing but blackness surrounding the road, and the road itself looks worn and broken in places. I watch it flash by under us, fascinated. (I must've retained at least some lucidity, because I was under the vague impression that nothing could go wrong.)

7/3/14

Last night bed 1:30am, same as night before. Got up at 6:40am.

WBTB 6:40 - 8am. Got up from WILD nap at 10am.

I knew nap is going to be a good one. Got relaxed in matter of minutes. Cats were asleep and I was at the gates of a LD. Then my cat jumped on me and layed on me for a few minutes. I didn't let that bother me one bit. I was incredibly excited and played out scenarios I would like to dream about. So many cool ones.

Not sure how I got lucid, if WILD or DILD.

LD:
I'm in a place with some people. I look down and I'm in underwear and a bra. I quickly pull off the undies, while saying sorry to those around and telling them that I'm on a mission.

Next I'm in a long hallway. It's rather narrow, like maybe on a ship. But we are not on a ship. Doors made out of shiny lighter colored wood are lining the hall on both sides.

I decide to go door by door and find someone, so I can undress. First door has a female in. I realize this is doctors offices and doors have patients behind them waiting for the doctor. I quickly close the door.

Next door has 2 skinny people with body piercings. I can't tell if male or female. I'm hoping at least one is male. Not sure why I'm thinking I should undress only in front of males.

Another door has a person with blond hair, sitting in a chair facing away from me. I say hi in hope it will turn around and I can see if male or female.

Next door has a freaky huge machine in it, which I recognize as Iron lungs. I quickly close the door.

Next is an x-ray room, or some lab, with lots of females in white coat. I don't find this room suitable either.

Finally, there is a lonely male leaning against a door. I ask him to help me take my bra off. He is doing it with one hand and I praise him for being a pro. Dream cutts off here.

Dream ended and restarted many times. I remember lots of transitions.
1. Just a regular restart
2. I'm rolling out, fall on my knees and I'm thinking I'm actually awake. But have 8 fingers on one hand.
3. Pushing head backwards to get the falling feeling
When I stop pushing, I come back to the bed, so I make it a swinging sensation. Push down, come back up and higher. Untill I was standing on the bed and just stepped off. This one I did at least 2-3 times.


Next dream - I don't think I'm lucid here, because the whole time I'm desperately trying to WILD.

I'm in a large, L-shaped room. She is in the other part of the room in a bed with white sheets. I think a medic is treating her, because at one point she says with pain in her voice "damn, that stings". But that's the only complaint I hear from her.

When that person leaves, I come closer and ask if I can help. Make some food or anything else. But she declines every offer I make. Nothing new, I expected that. Makes me feel sad though, that she won't accept help even from me.

So I sit on a chair next to the bed and trying to figure out how to at least hold her hand without her rejecting it or making it look like some mushy move. All I really want is to transfer some healing energy to her and make her more comfortable.

She says something about her kidneys giving her hell.

She gets up and tries to do some chores. I trail her while desperately trying to WILD so I can treat her aura in a lucid. I'm pushing my head back while walking. I feel like I'm WILDing a few times, but those are all fake, not real lucids.

Now I see through the window that we are in LA. For a second I'm happy that she lives here but then i remember that she is only visiting. I have a few suveniers from my visits in LA and I'm rummiging through them picking out the one I want to give her. But I know she wont like them, so I stop doing that.

An old man

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I meet a really nice old man. I find out he is being chased by soldiers. He tells me they killed his wife in the garage. Since that he is even more scared. I decide to help him with his stuff. One day I find that even his neighbours are evil when I have to run back into the house a hail of bullets. I grab some baskets on my way inside. They are filled with handgrenades und explosive stuff. There is a hole pile of grenades but its too much to grab. I cant find the old man. I panic and go to his room upstairs. The drawn curtains are blue and cast blue light onto the bed where I can spot the mens outline under the blankets. I touch the blankets to see if he is okay. But the moment I touch them the blankets collapse.