memorable

[Journal Entry on second paragraph]

This dream was pre-planned and was completely lucid. I had control of just about every aspect of the dream from beginning to end. I first thought of a person (a drawing I created) and then thought of a place (Japanese image). I meditated and had gotten this amazing result that I believe was out of sheer luck. Everything was just about to COMPLETE perfection. Minor details were askew, but it was life changing nonetheless. My initial plan was to arrive in the planned destination and then call out the person's name for her to appear. (she didn't have a name at the time) I gave her the name "Lin," (because she looked like a Lin I guess haha) and I needed us to have something to do for the dream to be more solid. So I planned to ask her to dance with me there since the atmosphere seemed fitting.
My entry below:


I had the most amazing dream of my life! I was in a strange black place that was difficult to figure out. Then appeared a lot of huge Chinese doors that I ran though one after the other. While I knew I was in the dream world, I tried harder and harder to imagine the place I wanted to go. With each door, the place started to form a bit more into view. I looked around and the place was a bit "lagged," as if I were in a game. I realized that I had to meet Lin and immediately called out "Lin! Liiiin!" My voice was so clear, I thought I was just awake and only "thinking," I was in a dream while yelling in my room which made me a bit nervous at first. I thought that I must at least be yelling in my sleep from the clarity of my voice. And then I saw her standing in the distance. I hurried toward her and was so surprised, it was so difficult to find the right words. I just then remembered what I planned to say . I said, "You must be Lin." She nodded. She tried to say something when I accidentally interrupted, asking her to dance. She agreed and we started a waltz on the deck. I looked a bit more closely at her and noticed her eyes were black and more like a humans. With just my mind, I fixed my dreams error and she looked more like herself. I also realized now after waking up, she was wearing a beautiful Chinese dress rather than what I had drawn to my surprise. She looked and me, smiling, and her voice was exactly as I had pre-imagined. A nice sounding voice with a Japanese accent since she was a Japanese based person. It was actually so strong, I asked her "Sorry, what was that?" Several times. She started talking about this guy there she wanted to avoid since he was driving 2mph or something (only in a dream that would make sense). I couldn't really hear her at random times for some reason. We danced around and she pulled me some ways to avoid someone. I started to realize it was time for me to leave and things were starting to fade away. Lin disappeared and there was a chair, or an erhu, or a bundle of giant spoons in front of me. I wanted to stay just another moment so that I could tell her I had a great time and we should meet again. I used my personal trick to stay in the dream and re-intensify it which was rubbing my hands together. A green bowl suddenly appeared in my hands and I fumbled around a bit to catch it and I figured it was a chance to focus on the bowl to get back the feel of this reality. Everything came back to a clearer view for another few seconds. I knew I was just about out of time and felt myself waking up. As everything started fading I shouted, "I had a great time Lin! We should meet again!" (or something like that.)

1. I was inside school, in my ROTC class that I used to be in(Im not in it anymore). The class was very active and filled with many students. I was sitting down near the middle of a row of seats when I noticed this girl behind me that ive had a crush on. Her name is Lisbeth. I turned around in my seat and talked to her. I talked to her about what she was doing tonight and about the outfit I was wearing. For some reason I was wearing two pairs of slim jeans in the dream, one red pair, and one black pair. I was wearing the black over the red. I asked Lisbeth whether or not I should keep on the red only, or the black. She said to keep on the red. So, I got permission from one of the instructors to go to the restroom to change. I walked out and went into the nearest one. Once I got in, I simply took off my black jeans, and kept on my red ones. I walked back out, and into my class and sat back down. Me and Lisbeth talked some more. As I sat down in my seat I realized I was also wearing a red jacket, and I asked Lisbeth, "Imagine if my whole outfit was purple". And she said it'd look really cool. All of a sudden, my entire outfit turned purple, right before my eyes. I thought it was just my imagination so I didnt pay much attention to it. Just then, I had to leave, but I dont remember what for. However, when I came back to class for the 3rd time I went to go back to my seat, but one of Lisbeth's friends, Gabby, was sitting next to her. I decided to just go talk to them while standing up(I was trying to get this girls cell #). I then asked the two what they were doing tonight. They said they were going to some Bible/church event. At this point I didnt ask to go with them yet, but I planned on asking them later. After that, I went to the back of the class with these other girls. Oddly enough, in the back of the class, there was a HUGE cave system, and it was one of those water filled caves. I looked into it and saw a girl swimming towards me and the other girls. I said, "Hey guys, who's that coming over here." They all looked and said it was Savanna or something(her name started with an S for sure). Once she got to where we were, we all just chilled and talked. I remember looking out into the cave system and being amazed by its beauty. It was so vast, and water filled it up to the point where it was a pool. It looked like it extended for a mile or 2. Somehow the entire room we were in got completely emerged in water. When it did, I remembered that my phone was in my pocket and that it couldve got ruined. I took it out, and then I suddenly remembered that it was water proof(it was a galaxy s3, so it really wasnt). All of the girls were amazed and I showed them that it also worked underwater as well. There was a small air pocket near the ceiling, and my phone had some plastic piece on it that made it waterproof. This came off for a second so I quickly swam to the air pocket to reattach it to my phone. Once I finished that I came back down, but now the water was gone. And everyone was chilling in a room that resembled an aquarium, but the cave was still where it was. However, now a glass wall separated the class from it. Later on, I remember being somewhere else. I had left the class and was straight up wandering in a ghost city it seemed with my close friends- dylan, patrick, and trey. We were just walking around in this city and it was also an overcast day. I still had on my red slim jeans, but I had lost my belt when I took of my black ones. I walked into a big open room in the city somewhere and just sat there. My friend dylan came in with a huge stuffed old lady and kept making it to where she was dry humping my you know what. Disgusted by this I told dylan to stop although it was quite funny. He did and we left the room and continued wandering. We came to the middle of the city it seemed as it was crowded. There was a bank, a system of train tracks and alot more. We went to the second level of this building/area. It didnt have a roof, and people up there were just chilling smoking something. We went over to see what everyone was smoking, but I dont remember what it was now. My friend Dylan took a hit off of one group. I didnt because I had stopped smoking for a while(I dont care for it anymore). After that I went by myself downstairs to that bank. I went over and asked one of the ladies working there something, but I cant recall what I asked. The lady answered it though and told me to wait here while she reimbursed me. I walked around the bank and the lady came back. She couldnt see me so I quickly walked into the bank again where she noticed me and gave me 20 $. Since this was a reimbursement I realized I was only getting money back that I had paid the bank before. So I was thrilled for the money. I left the bank and wandered around some more. I came to some biker and we chilled and I got a free ride around the corner. Then I came across Lisbeth and Gabby again. I walked over to them and asked, "Hey do you guys mind if I come with you to that Church event thing?" They both laughed a little and said "sure". I was glad now that I got to chill with my crush, but I still had yet to get her number.

2. I was in my room inside of my house. I had just walked into my room and I entered to find Bob Marley just chilling on my bed with ALOT of weed. I was surprised. I said, "My god are you Bob Marley." He replied with a yes a we chilled. I turned on my xbox and we played it a bit. Some other guy joined us in the room and chilled. We all chilled for a while. I remember my sister coming into my room and taking my sub-woofer. Once I realized this, I went into her room and took it back and said, "Since you took it without asking, you cant borrow it." I went back into my room and the guys were still chilling, except for one thing, Bob Marley was now mexican and no longer black and he gained some weight. I realized that half of the weed that was on my bed was gone, and it was scattered all over my sheets. I decided it was time to clean it up and put it away for now so my parents wouldnt walk it and see it. I started grabbing the weed and I even stuffed some in my mouth(I know, nasty, but I was in a hurry. I put some in a white funnel for some reason and carried it over to my drawer. While doing so, a nat got in the funnel and I blew it out. I put the weed in my drawer and spit the weed in my mouth out as well. My bed was still very messy with thc crystals everywhere so I began thinking of how to clean it up without my parents noticing.

3. I was in some house that Ive never been in before. I was in a the shower room with two girls (lucky me) but we only made out, nothing more. But they were naked. Anyways, after that their dog walked into the room and I petted him for a little bit. I walked out of the room and did something else. I dont remember anymore.

Ive also found out that because I remember almost all of my most recent dream, its hard to remember the ones before it. But I will keep getting better.

Yesterday I came across the SSILD thread on the induction forum, and decided to try it out. Success!

Ritual: Slept about three hours, woke up with awareness of having dreamed though no recall of specifics, but figured since I had been in REM I might as well give the SSILD technique a try. Doing the sense-cycling delayed sleep onset more than I expected, even more than with my usual WILD technique of incremental counting, even though I kept reminding myself that I wasn't attempting to WILD. Interestingly, when I was starting to get closer to sleep I was experiencing much more vivid flashes of hypnogogic imagery than usual, which I attribute to having primed my attentiveness to it with the technique.

On the verge of falling asleep finally, when I sense that I'm in an empty room with plain white walls, and that it's substantial enough to enter as a dream space. "I can work with that," I say to myself, and close the door. The handle has a pleasing feeling of solidity and the door closes with lifelike sensations, so I know this is actually working.

WILD: What to do now? Well, I need traction, so I decide to just use my body a bit until I feel more substantial. Last night my husband showed me a video of a guy doing amazing acrobatic tricks on a pole, and that must have subconsciously inspired me, because without really thinking about it I start emulating him. It's fun because I could never do anything like this in RL (who could? It's real gravity defying stuff) and even in a dream it takes a bit of concentration, so it is a useful way to integrate myself better into this space. As I do it I remember to occasionally rub my hands in front of my face for more traction, and for some reason it occurs to me that it would be a good idea to feel my head, which I've never tried before, but the lifelike sensation of the shape of my head and texture of my hair is very helpful, they make this dream body I'm in feel more like "me." The vividness and clarity at this point is quite high, and I'm wondering what I look like. I see a mirror on the wall (the walls were featureless initially so the mirror seems to have manifested in response to my intention, though not before my eyes... it was just there once I decided to look for it) so all I have to do is position myself properly in order to see my reflection. I'm pleased with how much like me it actually looks, although my hair is different: loose, shoulder-length and with a layered, almost spiky cut. But the face looks just like mine, especially the eyes. It was remarkably like looking into a real mirror, which is not my usual experience of reflections in LDs.

Given how lifelike my body feels and my reflection looks, I decide to play with it a bit. A couple times in my LDs I've experimented with trying to create an extra set of arms, like you see on some representations of Hindu deities, and I want to try that again. I'm now standing on a sort of balance beam, looking at a second mirror that has manifested on the next wall (a little more conveniently positioned than the first) and I start waving my arms and trying to create a second pair. With a little concentration I have a partial success: I think I can see and feel a second pair, but they are moving in tandem with the first. To be more successful, they would have to move independently, all four arms moving simultaneously in separate directions. I try to get the second set to move independently from the first, but I can't figure out how to do it! I realize that I simply have no mental imprint of what this would be like. Perhaps with a little more creativity or effort I could get this going, but I sense that at this moment the strain might be close to disrupting the dream, so I give up the attempt, amused by how tricky this is, and re-stabilize.

What next? I remember my current task: "Creo vim." (I've been working through spell combinations from Ars Magica.) I anticipated this would be a fun one because I had no idea how it would manifest, and deliberately tried to avoid anticipating anything in particular, hoping the dream would surprise me. So I hold out my left hand and concentrate on the spell. Nothing happens at first. How should I do this? I wonder if I should be using my right hand (my dominant hand in waking life), but figure that since I instinctively started with my left, I should stick with it. "Creo vim," I murmur, since I've found that saying the name of the spell aloud can be an effective focus. A tiny bubble manifests in the air above my open palm. It looks like a soap bubble, and as I have this thought, it bursts like one. But I'm emboldened by the fact that something is happening, so I keep concentrating, and another bubble appears. It grows larger and slowly sinks until it is a half sphere sitting on my palm. From there it keeps growing, getting larger and lumpier and turning grey in color, but still completely weightless and seemingly inflated with air. When this mass is about a foot and a half in diameter, it lifts from my hand and sinks gently to the floor, and transforms into a small white goat.

The surroundings have changed around me while I was focused on the spell. I am no longer standing on a balance beam in a white room, now I am outdoors at night, standing on the ground, looking at this goat that has inexplicably appeared. My husband is lying next to me, asleep. Standing in front of me is a horse harnessed to a cart. I ponder the goat, wondering what it might signify. On the one hand, it is an extremely cute little goat, with long white fur and two straight horns that are only a few inches long. On the other hand, it subtly disturbs me for some reason I can't identify. I remembered a trial take of a commercial that I saw many years ago. The commercial was intended to advertise a financial services company, and was showing clips purporting to be the customers. The most memorable one was a dignified elderly gentleman who for some reason was accompanied by an equally dignified white goat. It was so random and surreal, elegantly and subtly satanic, that the image always stuck with me—though I learned later that the scene was cut from the final version out of concerns that people might be disturbed or distracted by the goat. So what to make of this little goat in front of me now? The goat itself was just standing quietly and not revealing anything, until before my eyes it abruptly transformed into a few pieces of ripe and runny brie cheese on a plain white plate. This was even more mystifying.

I wanted to ask someone's opinion about the goat and its transformation, but I looked around and couldn't see anyone else in this landscape. There was just me and my husband, but he was fast asleep and I didn't want to disturb him. Finally it occurred to me to ask the horse, as the only other creature around. I figured the question of the goat's moral status could be answered by how the horse responded to the cheese, so I picked up a piece from the plate and offered it to the horse to sniff. "What do you think?" I asked. The horse readily accepted the cheese and ate it with apparent relish. This seemed to speak well for the goat! "Want more?" I asked, offering the horse a second piece, which it consumed as eagerly as the first. I decided to try a bit myself, and found the taste and texture very much as I would have expected from a runny brie.

There was a cemetary nearby, surrounded by a low wall. I could see the tops of gravestones over the upper edge of the wall, and I instinctively knew that one of them was connected with the goat, so I should investigate it to find out more. The entrance to the cemetary was just across the lane on which the horse and cart were standing, so I walked around them and went inside. From my original glimpse across the wall I had made a mental note that the relevant gravestone was the fourth one in, so I counted the stones I passed until I reached the fourth. It was an old style of slab carved from reddish stone, only about two inches in width, about three feet tall, and with a simple curved top, unadorned except for the text that was carved on it. I knelt down and looked at the inscription. I was pleased to discover that I could read it easily, and one phrase that immediately caught my attention was "Ghast of Vail Light." I took this to be the title of the mysterious goat. It sounded a bit spooky after all, but I loved this phrase! I immediately determined to remember it. "Ghast of Vail Light," I repeated to myself several times, and even said aloud to myself, "Remember that." I wanted to get it just right. Was it spelled "Vail" and not "Vale"? I looked again at the inscription. The letters were remarkably stable, and the spelling was distinct: "Vail."

I hadn't done any tactile stabilization in a while, so I decided to run my hands over the face of the gravestone. It had the cool touch of real stone, smooth overall but a bit gritty in texture, like sandstone, and I could feel the indentations where the letters were carved in. I was still muttering to myself "Ghast of Vail Light." I didn't know how much longer the dream would go on, and wanted to make sure I wouldn't forget. But I concentrated so hard on the idea of remembering this phrase when I woke up, that it woke me up! I wasn't disappointed, though, because I had plenty to write about already.

1. I was inside of a pretty big house when it all started. I was just chilling when a guy in the house freaked out and said "theyre coming". Immediately I got up to see what was going on. I walked to the room where this guys voice came from, but before I got there I noticed blood oozing out of cracks in the wall. I continued into the room where the guy was screaming. I entered to seem him lying on the floor telling me, "dont worry about me or the food, just leave!". As I walked closer towards him i noticed some cabinets on the wall. I looked at these cabinets and noticed that each cabinet had an age on it, and they all belonged to the baker that was now on the ground yelling for us to leave. The first cabinet closest to the door had the age, I think, 30. As I passed that one, it continued going up, 31,32,33,34,35,36,37,38,39,40,41, and then it finally ended at 42. Also, all these cabinets had drawings on the, very wierd drawings, but I cant remember them. One had a drawing off an egg with legs. But anyways, I finally reached the Baker and looked at him on the floor. I turned to the cabinets and grabbed a cinnamon pastry. The Baker said it wasnt worth it and kept telling me to leave. I kept wondering why He was just lying on the floor, waiting to be killed by whatever was coming. Then I noticed He had an injured leg. The Baker was lying next a door entrance, and the door was gone. I looked inside but it was literally PURE black, I couldnt see anything. I turned around to leave and once I did I heard the Baker scream, I turned around to him getting pulled into the black darkness, which afterwards, several zombie/infected people emerged. I took a bite of the cinnamon pastry I grabbed earlier and walked out. I closed the door behind me. Everyone was freaking out and stuff, so I became a little freaked out and followed this group of people. Zombies started flowing in from everywhere and we ran into a room to hide. The zombies made it in the room. The lady I was with told me and the other dude next to me, "Come on, we need to get to the children's basement quick!" We followed her to the back room of the house which had a big cabinet that looked as though it could store 5 people in it. We got inside of it and locked the cabinet door and waited. Only seconds later a storm of more people and zombies came in. We opened our cabinet door for a second to get some more people in, and instead a soldier ran in with his gun. We closed the cabinet and locked it again. The rest of the people ran to our cabinet but could not get in because it was locked. The cabinet had a big window, but it was tinted to pure black, so no one could see us inside. While we watched the whole seen, the soldier that was with us started losing it and began shooting at me. Somehow I turned invisible and starting dodging his shots. He began shooting anywhere inside of the cabinet just to hit me. I slowed down time and dodged all of his bullets. After he was done shooting I took his gun from him and beat him to death. After waiting th rest of it out, and seeing everyone else getting killed by the zombies, we opened the cabinet door and walked out. Immediately I saw a screen, and it covered my entire field of vision. This Vision had Megan fox in it, standing next to the staircase of the house. I wrote on the walls of the staircase(I have no idea how) and I wrote "You can come now", but I quickly erased it after I realized what I was saying. I simply pressed the "back" button and it went away. I looked at megan fox to see what she was doing and it was like she was glitched because she was continuously dry humping a small table. I made her stop. After that, the vision stopped and I walked back into the living room, and everything returned back to normal. Everyone was socializing, and were starting to watch a movie they had just put on. I noticed my friends sister Emily among them. Out of no where my friend Dylan came up to me and said "lets go outside". And we did. Once we got outside of the house I immediately noticed it was storming and there was alot of lightning. We continued anyway. For some reason Dylan wanted to get on top of the roof of one of our neighbors houses. They had a wierd driveway. Their driveway curved like a swirl, and it led into their garage. But instead of a garage being there, it was their living room and it was separated from the driveway by a glass screen sliding door. Their car was in the driveway too. Me and Dylan didnt notice this until after we tried climbing onto their roof. In the middle of climbing up dylan said, "oh sh*t, dude they can see us". We climbed down and started running away. We ran back to what seemed to be dylan's house. We knocked and dylan's dad answered the door. We had a short conversation with him but I forgot about what it was about. He let us in, and somehow we became sitting down in an automatic couch that seats visitors as soon as they come in from the door. The couch led us from the door to the living room. And we started watching the movie as well. I got lost in that, and sometime after, my parents walked in a said we were going to main event/the zoo. Cant remember which one. I looked around and everyone else was gone. It was just me and my family. It was also pretty late to be going to the zoo, it was 8:00 pm in the dream. I thought nothing of it really and decided that I probably wasnt going to go with my family. My dad told me we were leaving in like 8 minutes. I just sat on the couch. I talked to my sister for a bit, but I dont remember what it was about. At this point, the dream ended.

2. I was pool side at my friend Lindsey's house. I was just chilling when all of a sudden, Lindsey and all of her friends came over and sat down next to me. I got up to get something and Lindsey told me to stay, I noticed they were all checking me out, and I was shirtless. I sat back down and we talked. Soon though the pool session ended and people began to leave. All these weird dudes I didnt even know came up to me and started trying to start something. I got up, seeing what was about to happen. All the dudes were jealous. But in the end they decided to leave me alone and left. I left as well. It was dark outside and there were rain clouds above me. As I left the perimeter of the house, all those guys came back. This time however they just wanted to chill. We talked, and I talked specifically to this black dude that had dreads, and was really short. Thats all I remember.

3. Earlier in the night I was falling asleep. I eventually entered the Dream World. When I got into my dream, 5 seconds in I realized I was dreaming and looked around. However, because I wasnt used to a simple transition into the Dream World, like what had just happened, it stunned me and the dream ended.

4. This was yesterday, but I forgot to record it so here it is-
I woke up around 2:00 AM, I realized it would be a good time to WBTB. I layed back down and let myself drift into sleep. As I was almost asleep and drifting into the dream world, I CLEARLY heard somebody whisper in my ear quite loud, "Its me". This freaked me out pretty bad, because I havent had Hypnagogic stuff in a while. But the voice sounded like a demon, so it kinda disturbed me. Any who I fell back asleep soon after, forgetting my attempt to WBTB.

I was walking around the apartments at night when a security guard pulled up to me. We started looking around for anyone that might be car-hopping and eventually found a fat nerdy looking guy. When I told him to put his hands up, he started getting crazy, which made the guard call for backup. We walked closer to the guy and he pushed the guard so I pepper sprayed him and took him down. Backup arrived, which was an older security guard, and as I'm cuffing the guy, he turns into a zombie. Me and the older guard start freaking out but we eventually cuff the guy. The younger guard got bitten. As we are walking with the cuffed man, we call someone and tell her what happened. We hear that the background is chaotic and stuff starts happening. The girl on the phone starts crying and whispers "Only a loving heart can cure them." I brought up a phone or tablet and touched it and wherever my finger touched, it turned a different color, which I knew represented love. I ran to my house and then into Rebecca's house, where Lucy was. Rebecca was on the bed sick so I went back to my house and the girl from The Ring was there. She went after me and I shot her but it didn't do any damage. I shot her a few more times but nothing, which caused me to remember what the girl on the phone said about love, so everything I try loving turns normal and pure. I tried it on everything but the girl wouldn't change. It turns out I'm playing a video game and I wonder If I'm dreaming. I look around and see Kristy and go back to the game. and say "If this is a dream, that girl won't be there when I turn around. When I turned around, she was still there.

+ sliding down a super steep sandy hill to an ocean beach where I walk out to catch a glimpse of the special lobsters and get attacked by gangsters. I'm standing at the top of the hill observing the beach/ocean and wondering if I can get down this hill. I run/slide down and decide it's not so hard. I see the water and the shore and wonder if I should swim diagonally from the point near me to the far side of the shore, or just walk along the shore, which is faster, I see a diagonal path through the water. Out on the rocks in the water on the far side of the beach I see two special/prized old lobsters. Some thugs get angry and jump me.

+ jumping through windows in a restaurant avoiding/fighting thugs. I'm indoors and looking for a way out, I see a window with a screen door over a sink, I hop up open the window push out the screen and do a front flip out of the window.

+ the sterling silver tea set is on the ground outside the garage door where anybody could steal it, I move it inside the garage and make space for it. What was it doing outside, anyway?

+ a girl has the remote control for the satellite launch, it takes a few circles overhead before it's pointing the right direction and heads for space. It's about 1 meter square and full of tubes and space-y looking things.

+ (movie?) a guy is talking about the alien raining-fire attack, he hid under a low platform but his friends were only two wet spots left on the ground because they didn't make it in in time

+ The movie theatre interrupts the movie before the end to announce someone lost a watch, everyone in the theater has to help, I find it, I see a patron dressed up as an alien with boobs on her neck. It's a fairly normal looking and sized movie theater, it's still fairly dark inside when they interrupt the movie it's not entirely clear if it's finished yet, we're looking for the watch, I bend down and peer between various rows of seats, against the left wall of the theater I see a watch on the ground, it's a ladies watch with diamonds in the face and a diamond studded band, I hold it in my hand and look for an usher, I find one and give it to him. I see people sitting in the theather, including a woman with an alien costume which is a strange neck attachment making her neck look very tall and impossibly thin in places, she pulls this down to reveal two magnificent breasts, one on each side of her neck, I look at her a few times.

+ Standing in an outdoor area, I walk right up to the tall, beautiful star, who is standing to the side by herself, she is one of three beautiful stars (of some program?) and boldly kiss her for a while. I take her upper lip between mine and just feel it there for a while sort of moaning in pleasure, it feels absolutely fantastic, I wake up with my pillow between my lips I want to DEILD and just relax and re-enter the dream but non-lucid:

+ re-enter dream and now she's furious with me, she walks into an outdoor restaurant and complains about me to her friend, I see her yelling and pointing/gesturing towards me, when her friend glances back at me I give her a cocky wave, maybe I can get with her friend instead, they stay inside and sit down. I float through to the front observing a strange woman served on white cushions, she demands that everything served to hear is super sterile and clean. She is sitting / lying on a white couch to the right of a round table, there is a mirror image of her or another woman to the left of the table, a round white cushion with beige circumference appears and she moves to sit on top of that, I'm hovering above her looking down she stretches out on the couch with her feet towards the top and some pills appear on the couch in a pattern, she sweeps them up and swallows them.

I'm back in the outdoor area and encounter the tall beautiful star again, she's wearing different clothes (a nice tight clingy sweater?) she's not angry with me, I kiss her again lightly a few times and decide to move on before she gets angry again, and say "I'll see you later," I'm going to look for one of the 2 other stars, I see one with another guy she seems crazy/mad so I decide to move on.

+ I'm walking in what seems like a lobby of a movie theater or a casino-carnival, I wander into a room with tables of clear plastic-topped packages of food like caviar (orange and black, on bread), I pick a package up and keep looking around, I realize this is a corporate party and it's not my company, I'm concerned someone will notice I don't belong and kick me out but nobody does, there aren't very many people, I see a woman at the front seated at the table preparing some of the dishes, some of them look like big pans of beans and I say "mmmm". I eat the caviar. I'm walking around the lobby and see an advertisement for a "bourbon bar" and think that sounds good but I can't drink because I'm driving. Farther along I see a huge open carnival area with people playing games and making lots of noise in the distance (sort of like a Circus-Circus play area with lots of game booths). I hear/imagine a booth is a girl booth where you can win some girls to take back to your room.

Walking back I pass a booth with two pale naked Japanese ladies writing around and touching themselves, there is a totally white/pale man there he's the game organizer, I see long hair on the body of the girl to the right but realize it's just hair that has come loose from her hairdo and is lying loose on top of her body, I see the girl on the left is "wide open" and apparently using her fingers.

07.15.2014

We're Apparently NOT Going to Church (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm sitting on the front lawn of someone's house with my dad and a bunch of his friends. They're all drinking and acting stupid. It reminds me of King of the Hill, so to pass the time I assign each of the characters to one of these men based on personality.

Suddenly, an old woman walks up to the very front of the yard near the road. She pulls down her pants and begins to pee. "Oh, no," I exclaim, turning away and shielding my eyes.

"OH NO!" the men echo. They jump up and run away.

Shaking my head, I stand up and walk in the general direction they scurried off to. On the way, I come across my aunt. The tone of the dream completely changes here. Despite the fact that my aunt seems estatic about something, there is an unsettling atmosphere that I can't quite shake. "I just saw your father!" she tells me.

I suddenly remember that my dad is dead. How was I just talking to him? I have vague thoughts about it being a dream, but for some reason I don't seriously question it. My aunt tells me that she believes God has sent him here so that we can see him again. Since I don't believe in God, or at least not the one she believes in, I'm a bit more skeptical. "How do you know it's really him?" I ask. "What if it's the Devil?" I don't believe in the Devil either, but I do believe in dark spirits and I want my aunt to be cautious.

"Pfft! Why would he be the Devil?"

"I don't know. You said yourself that the Devil likes to try to hurt people."

We walk over to where my dad is standing and begin to talk to him. "So," I begin, "What's it really like out in the great unknown?"

He grins. "Oh, it's a real tea-bake," he says with a laugh that makes me think he's referring to something inappropriate to annoy me.

I stare at him blankly. "I have no idea what that is."

He laughs louder. "It's a lesbian joke!"

I have to refrain from face-palming. Is now really the time for this kind of game? "No, for real! What's it like?"

"Okay, okay. I'll tell you." He pauses and tries to look serious. "The Night Team and the Day Team run around shooting each other with Nerf guns!" He laughs at his own joke as I groan in frustration.

"Why can't you just give me a straight answer!" All of this seems exactly like something he would do, but I'm still not 100% convinced that this is really my dad.

We've been walking as we spoke. There are other people walking with us now, people I don't recognize. I assume they are my dad's friends. They're all crying at the sight of him. I haven't been paying attention to where we're going, but now I see we're coming upon a small white church with a long line of people outside the open door. I think I ask where we're going.

My dad says, in a weird run-on sentence that confuses me, "Guess where we're not going to the chur-uurrch!" The last three words he says in a somewhat creepy sing-song voice.

Bewildered, I repeat, "Guess where we're not going---?"

He interrupts, again in his sing-song voice, "to the chur--uurrch!"

The unsettled feeling I've had since coming across my aunt grows even stronger. I can tell that something big is about to happen.

But suddenly my alarm goes off and it's time to wake up.

1. I was outside of a house on the corner of my street, I had seen this house before, so nothing seemed unsual. I walked inside the house and found myself in a theatre. Everyone was sitting down waiting for something to begin. I sat down next to some guy wearing a mask, from a movie. Then an announcer came in and told us someone special was among us, and that it was the actor guy wearing the wierd sci-fi mask. Everyone turned and looked toward him, at this point I became the guy in the mask. The announcer told me to talk in my creepy alien voice. I got up and stood on a seat so hopefully everyone could see me. But not everyone could so the announcer told me to wait and I could go around and talk in my wierd voice to everyone in a second. So I sat back down and seconds later, the real actor and owner of the mask came to me and told me he was going to be going around talking to his fans. I said ok and tossed him the mask. The mask was orange and looked like an alien for star trek or something, and it was also slimy. After I gave him the mask I decided to walk out of the house. I wasnt the only one who left, a whole group of people left as well. I stood on the sidewalk in front of the house and talked to the people outside for a minute. After that, they all left and I was on my way leaving as well. Upon leaving I remembered that I had left my snapback in the theater, so I walked to go get it. As I walked back I wondered what a beautiful day this would be if it were a dream. haha. I ran inside and found that the theater inside had turned into a regular interior of a normal house. I looked around, there were many rooms, each had a small staircase so you could get to them. I yelled out "Anyone home" because I felt intrusive being in someones house I didnt know. An answer from a man saying, "Yea who's there" returned and I explained that I came in to get my hat. I entered a room and found my hat and the owner of the house along with it, he made sure I got my hat and then made sure I did nothing else. I walked out and went back to my house to chill. When I walked inside a small black dog was there waiting for me. I played with it but then it started getting aggressive so I decided to leave it. I walked away but the dog followed me and continued biting me. I remember at some point asking the dog why he bited me, and he said, "Because I like rock music." [WTF??] But anyways, I tussled with this little dude for a while and eventually I pinned him down on his side after he gave me a good deep bite. I held him there and watched him squirm. I think I eventually let him go. But then he started biting me again. Just then I looked out the front door and saw an old grandma sprinting towards my back door. I became a little scared and waited until the old lady had opened up my back door, then I opened the front door and ran out. I ran to my neighbors house directly to the left of mine and just ran in and told them what was going on. I closed the door and explained how some old lady was on the loose and after me and told the girl I was talking too to lock the back doors. She went to do so. I glanced out the front door of this house and saw again the old lady sprinting towards the back of the house. I locked the front door and told the girl I was talking to a second earlier that the lady was coming and to lock the doors quick. I ran to the back of the house to make sure she did so. Once I got to the back door I locked one side. The back entrance was two doors wide. But the girl couldnt lock the second door. She decided that it would be a great idea to instead open the door and proclaim that she couldnt lock it. The old grandma ran in and seized me with her car keys. It was my grandma, she told me if I ever ran away again that she'd "have me". She even stabbed me once with her keys. Any who once that resolved I found myself listening to the girl and how she hated this house and didnt want to live in it, I asked her why. She said she was being forced to watch movies with these 2 old men, and then they came over to the kitchen where we were. The old men told me about how they were watching old vietnam war movies and listening to rock music. The one old man was tall and was wearing panties in see through spandex. I was disgusted but kept it to myself. The old men continued talking and I began eating these chewy gummy like candies while listening. This is where it ended.

2. I was following my dad by going through a secret passage to get into my house. I climbed in an opening in the floor and tried to get out but got stuck. I immediatly blamed my sister who walked over the door lock right before I emerged out of the floor. She apologized, but I was still stuck halfway in the floor. I decided to remove some tiles so I could crawl foward and get out, and I did so. However I removed too many tiles and took some tiles from underneath the fridge. I replaced them quickly, my dad noticing none of this.

3. I was in my room and was hanging out with my friends patrick, dylan, and trey. We were all chilling in my room and I was trying on some of my shoes. I had new shoes that I had never seen before, but it didnt occur to me. I was talking to patrick while putting on a pair of green high tops, and he was telling me about how something was fair. Once I tied on the shoes I stayed sitting down and talked. I remember going into my closet again sometime and seeing alot of new stuff.

4.I was in a dark alley, planning to save someone with the real batman, and batman beyond. It was kinda wierd really because Batman Beyond in this dream was old and crusty and was wearing a blue suit instead of a black one, and he didnt have a mask. We devised a way to save someone and kill these hostile guys. At one point I insulted batman beyond in a way I didnt mean too and he told me, "Hey, Im the batman that came out of a trunk with no parents." I didnt reply, but instead agreed with him in my mind as if, "oh yea thats how his story line went".

5. I was in Kroger with my mom and sister. I was quite hungry so I looked around for something good. My mom came to me out of no where and recommended that I get these spinach enchiladas with cheese. I told her I was good and instead focused on some fresh cut salmon from Private Selection<<< a company.

6. I was in an underground system of tunnels. I noticed my sister wasnt following me anymore. I looked ahead to the tunnel infront of me and noticed that walls were building themselves inside of it out of cement blocks. I ran inside the tunnel and jumped over 3 or 4 walls until I couldnt go any further because the walls completed themselves. I looked back toward the entrance trieng to see if anyone was there, but there was no one. I remember somehow making it deeper into the tunnels, and then my sister appearing. We re united and made our way down ward 90 degrees down ward in fact, so basically a hole. As we went down it an enemy attacked us and was about to kill my sister when I finally killed it. Once I did, I saw that my sister was extremely low on health, and she said that she wanted to leave so she wouldnt die, I said ok and we made our way out.

* Dream recall improving, Im starting to remember really early dreams that I had in the beginning of the night.

Dream - Lucid

My grandpa was still alive, but he knew he didn't have much time left. I was with him, my mom, and my aunt Marge, though I feel as if there were more people there too. They were all very sad about him dying, but he was at peace with it, and was trying to make the most of his last moments.

I was then somewhere else, though the situation had not changed. I opened a door, and saw my grandpa sitting in a chair at the head of a table. His hair appeared different than it ever was IWL, with streaks of red, some blonde and maybe brown as well, though the red is what I really remember. I then caught a quick glimpse of my mom and aunt, who were sad and not wanting him to go. I feel like they were asking him, pleading with him not to die. He looked at peace.

My aunt Marge closed to door. I wasn't supposed to be there for some reason.

~

I was at my old job, which was a department store. It was nighttime. I was in the building with a few other associates.

I was over by the women's fitting rooms, when I saw some lava leaking from a crack that it had caused in the wall. I remember going back to it a little later, and more was coming out. I started trying to cover it with clothing, but, of course, the clothing just caught fire and burned up. I felt as if we were trapped.

I then had another idea. I went to another fitting room with another associate, and we started looking for fire retardant clothing. We looked through lots of packaged pajama sets that normally the store receives around Christmas. I went through lots of red ones. Then, a supervisor, Charles, came up to us.
"Those aren't going to work," he said.
I imagined the fitting rooms slowly filling with lava.

Someone went back in the fitting rooms a little later to get something, and I was surprised when they came back out, because some time had passed, and I figured it was filled with lava by now.

Then, I was close to the front of the store by the doors, when Ashley, another associate and my IWL friend, came back in. I asked her if there was a way out, and she said no, there wasn't. I imagined it outside, us surrounded by lava or erupting volcanoes. I knew we were doomed to die in the building. We all knew.

I then approached Jaime, a manager, and asked her if she had anything strong we could take. If we were gonna die slowly, may as well not be able to feel anything. She took a silver package of these big pills out of her purse. They were Percoset, a strong pain killer (never taken them IWL). She gave one to me, one to Ashley, and took one for herself. The pill was wrapped in another piece of plastic besides the silver packaging, but it was supposed to dissolve when you took it. I put it in my mouth to swallow it. It immediately tasted very bitter. I tried to swallow it, but it was such a big pill, it was proving to be difficult. I really wanted the bitter taste out of my mouth. Before I swallowed it, I already started to feel the effects of the pill. I figured it was a fast-acting pill for those who were in major pain. I remember Jaime chewing her pill. I didn't understand how she could stand the bitter taste.

I woke up for a little bit, then went back to sleep, entering the same dream.

The pill was in full effect now, and I went to the bathroom to pee. I looked down at the tiled floor, and the designs on the white floor tiles appeared to be oscillating. Yeah, definitely feeling the pill. I stood up, and then, even though I did not feel the need to pee, I kept peeing. I peed a lot.

~

I was at the department store I used to work at again, setting up some display on the endcap of a register. It was almost Christmastime. I thought to myself that it seemed so soon for Christmas; it felt as if we had just had it. I remembered the year prior with my husband, who was then my fiance. It seemed like just yesterday.

Then, Ashley walked by. She was wearing a black maxi skirt that was slightly sheer, but only at the legs, and a black top. She said
"It's been a year, and I'm going to be possessive of you, _____, and _____." I can't remember what else she said besides me.
Apparently, Ashley was my wife. She had some issues about Christmas; something about the holiday made her feel insecure. I understood this, and was not upset by it. I just wanted her to be happy. I "remembered" kissing her, and thought about how I never thought I would marry a woman, and how my family never saw it coming either. But I loved Ashley; she was my wife.

I then "remembered" driving to see her the prior year on Christmas, and taking pictures of the road on my way and sending them to her. I remember one in particular of the interstate in front of me. I was in the far left lane, and there was a metal chain-link fence on the divider. I think a semi-truck was also in the picture.

~

I was walking through a city in the daytime. It was sunny out. It reminded me of a video game. I was with my husband, Dallas. The objective of the real-life game was to kill the governor. I had a shotgun on me.

Dallas and I split up at some point. I was walking the streets alone, searching for the governor. I feel like I encountered some people and talked to them, but I can't quite recall. I noticed my husband's absence, and wondered where he was.

I then approached a building and entered it. It was a library. I was standing in the huge foyer. There was a service desk in front of me, and behind it, glass windows looking into a room with computers and books. The floors were dark wood, and the lighting was sort of a "mood" lighting, not too dim but just right. Immediately, I recognized this library as one from a dream I had years ago, and knew I was dreaming. The dream quality instantly started to suffer, so I concentrated on my hands so as not to lose lucidity. My hands were changing as I looked at them, turning into baby hands and sprouting extra fingers. I walked as I kept focus on them, and the dream seemed to stabalize.

I approached a young, tall, skinny girl standing at a podium. She looked to be in her early teens, and had dark hair pulled back into a ponytail.
"What's your name?" I inquired.
"Jaime," she responded.
"Jaime, are you a real person, or are you part of my mind?"
"Part of your mind," she responded with a smile. As she said this, she stepped out from behind the podium.

I then went somewhere else, up some stairs I believe, and into a very crowded hallway with a balcony overlooking the foyer. It was circular and stretched around the edges of the room. I approached a blonde boy, probably about the same age as Jaime, and found out his name was Josh. He didn't really seem happy. He reminded me of someone I met IWL at my old job. He had the same name as well. He looked similar too, though much younger. I was having trouble getting him to look at me in the eye. I took his shoulders in my hands and said something to him, though I can't remember what. I was trying to get him to see something.

I then was not sure what else to do with my lucidity. I didn't feel like I had much more time. I could not remember any goals I had prior to falling asleep. So I decided to do something I actually haven't done in a long time in my dreams: Fly. I took a running start, and people started to look, telling their friends to look because I was going to fly. I ran up and down the hallway a few times before I decided a running start wasn't the best way for me to do this. I leaned over the balcony. I saw all the people across from me on the other side of the hallway, and everyone below me in the foyer. I wasn't sure about this, since I had not done it in so long, but I let myself fall from the balcony. I then flew. Everyone was cheering me on. I was going very fast, however, and felt out of control of my speed, though I could rise and fall when I pleased; when I thought about going higher, I would, and when I thought about going lower, I would. I was just going so fast...

The cheers then started to slow way down, like when a record is slowed down. I had an FA in my bed. I kept my eyes closed for awhile, but finally decided to get up out of bed, because I was hearing what sounded like someone peeing, or water trickling into water. When I went to get up, however, I noticed that my feet were already touching the floor, as if I was half standing, and half laying down in my sleep. I got all the way up and walked down the hallway. I noticed my husband standing in the guest bathroom doorway. The lights were off in there. That's odd, I thought he went to work. I got closer and noticed his shorts were pulled down, and he was peeing. Is he sleep peeing?

Upon getting closer, I noticed he was peeing in my cat's water dish! My cat, Belle, was just standing there too, watching. I started getting really pissed at him (no pun intended), and yelled at him for doing that. I know that he and my cat don't really get along, but seriously?? I started yelling at him to stop, and asking him how he would feel if someone peed in his water. He said something smart-assy back to me. As I was raging, he started to walk away into the kitchen, which was much, much bigger than our IWL kitchen, which actually brought me to lucidity for a second, but I was so angry that I lost the lucidity in my rage. I noticed that the kitchen had chopped up potatoes all over it; the counters and every surface were covered. I knew he had done this just to spite me. I asked him if he was going to clean it up, and he shook his head no. I was so fucking angry. I went into the guest room, which also looked much different, and tried to slam the door, but the coat rack on the top prevented me from doing so (this does happen IWL). Ugh, I was so angry!

Then I woke up for real.

~

Ugh, I can't believe I couldn't remember what I wanted to do with my lucidity. Maybe another night. I'll just keep incubating my ideas, and hope that they come through into my dreams. Glad for the lucidity though! Woot woot!!

I accidentaly left George Lopez on TV. The episode was a rerun from the previous night. I woke up, remembering that the TV was on, but then instead of getting out of bed, I thought "I'll know I'm dreaming know" so I went back to sleep. I forgot for a moment, then I realized it again. I went beast mode. I was walking through the town, then I thought to myself "These are NPCs, right? Therefore, it won't matter if they die." So I saw my perspective slowly lift into the air as mechanical sounds were made. All of a sudden, my body was enveloped into a metal chassis. Flamethrowers were hitched to my arms, and my tongue turned into a machine gun. I started torching the town, the pathetic NPCs cried for help and safety. I thought that it would be cool to take on extra terrestrial beings, so I summoned aliens. Ate the flashy ships. Then I thought after the town was crushed "let's take on a deity" So I cycled through a list of deities, Aries, mars, venus, Aphrodite, Cupid, Zeus, then it hit me. God. He caused the death of my trusted guinea pig, Max. I summoned him into the world in his true form; a spectral representation of a human being much bigger. I shot rockets at him, and he threw bolts of lightning at me. I dodged it in a bullet-time like matrix. I punched him as I valiantly cried out "This is for max!" Then proceeded to wake up. I had some "lumber" I had to "cut down" when I woke up in the morning, and here I am. Like a boss. yay

7/13/14* Awesome! Finally one of my recent vivid dreams became lucid! Similar calm, highly lucid, exploration like my grassy sea lucid and right after seeing the closest thing I have seen to a grassy sea: I just watched Gravity for the first time last night and there is a scene where you see a grassy vegetation growing up out of a large body of water. When I saw that scene in the movie IWL my heart fluttered emotionally with the memory of the wonderful lucid dream it so much reminded me of and it must have inspired another awesome LD. I think it solidified the point for me to slow down and explore all of the wonder right around you. I have also had similar experiences IWL.

One of my earlier dreams was very vivid. At the end there is a squirrel that got into a house with a gathering or party. After trying to lead him out an open door, I was able to catch it but it reached back and bit my hand. I moved my hands further up his body to the base of his head to keep him from biting me again. All I could see from the injury was what looked more like a bloody scratch. I woke with the thought that the squirrel biting me should have made me lucid.

I am on a trip again, a common theme. My family and I are heading to quarantine area where they are going to apply some treatment to everyone via spray in the room so that no one carries any diseases into this foreign country. In a seemingly semi lucid moment I put my arms around this beautiful woman who takes to it kindly at first but then pushes me away. I sit on the floor apparently wearing a baseball cap as my view is slightly obscured looking upwards. Two cute kids are playing with me as I sit there. My wife is sitting on a ledge above on the perimeter of the room and a guy next to her is apparently stinky and she makes a face. I asked my wife where our son is. She didn't seem sure and didn't seem worried. Doors to the room opened up to let everyone out and transport trolleys are coming in and I'm the last one still in there and the doors closed but I'm able to scurry my way to the door and open it and go out. It is a beautiful countryside with
green hills reminding me of where I was in 1993. Lots of people hanging around outside but no wife and son. I just wait knowing they would know where to find me. People are sitting at an outdoor table talking while most others mingling much like a party but it is daytime, outside and of course in the beautiful scenery. I see a group walking down the road maybe they are with them up that way. I pass a place that raises collies apparently, the dog breed. I strain my neck to see and a dog runs up to me to jump or bite me...ah dog dream sign (One of the dream signs I thought about during WBTB...I'm dreaming.. fades and I clench my eyes to try to reenter the dream. It probably never ended, probably just the void, it's hazy but I can see a little bit and I think of the task of the month and I start to visualize an elevator...nothing at first but then a big red button appears and I press it and at this point it is more like I am visualizing an elevator door opening and seeing the elevator car and stepping in.
I can feel myself going up up up in what feels more like an open-air elevator car and still hazy. I am not satisfied with experience due to the lack of visuals. I think that I wake up but wait remember always check when waking up. I do feel that I'm still in a dream, an FA, laying in bed. I get out of bed. I'm in a hotel room with strange striped wallpaper. I end up face down on the floor and struggle to crawl up to the wall to lift myself up. How tricky the transition is to an FA. Try to stick my finger through my palm and it indicates that I am awake. No! I am sure that I'm dreaming so I look at my left hand and there are five fingers. But, I have a small appendage or extra little finger sticking out to the right of my left index finger going out from a spot about 3/4 of an inch down my finger. I think again of the elevator task...a hotel should be perfect. I go through two sets of doors to exit my hotel room but before I close the door I take one
more look at my hand and it looks just like before surprisingly...five fingers with a little extra one. The hallway of the hotel is awesome it looks maybe 1920s!! The walls are adorned with a beautiful rich dark wood paneling up and down. I go down to one end of the hall and there's a short flight of stairs up straight ahead, maybe 5 stairs and I start to go up and I think this wouldn't be the way to an elevator but at the top I see there's a small opening or space and there is a small door not more than a foot and a half tall . I go back the other way down the hall past where I came out and circle around to the right and I see a man and a woman in an open area with curtains that are opened. It looks like an opium den and/or a brothel. I keep going then I come to an opening in the hall there is a weird creature or boy sitting on the floor with his back to me. I decide to turn my back to him...out of sight out of mind. I continue down another hall and
walk past this man who had first looks like a guy in a suit and tie. Still not seeing an elevator I decide to go back to the man who now looks more like a bellman , an old fashioned one. I asked him if there's an elevator here. He says that the elevator will be ready in 1 to 2 weeks. I then think perhaps I can teleport to one of the neighboring buildings it seems like I'm in a big city downtown with lots of buildings back at the early part of the century from everything I see in this hotel and the way that guy is dressed. I'm amazed how vivid this dream is and how beautiful everything is. I ask if there's another building around with an elevator. The guy says that actually I can ride their elevator but I just have to sign a waiver. I ask him where will it take me. He says it will take me up to the top. I ask him what is there? He says the tree. I say the tree? Is this construction, unfinished? No he says it is solid. It used to house our Communications
department(?). I follow him towards the elevator down the hall that looks like a maintenance corridor and I'm having trouble standing up straight. I am leaning heavily as if I will fall to my left down a stairwell but I am hanging on to some bars or pipes that line the right side. It seems like the guy I am following is growing impatient at how slow I am. I'm in a dilemma. I'm not sure if I should let go and have faith that I can walk straight or keep going while holding on. I think it's okay if I fall it is just a dream but I might lose the scene and my path to the elevator. I also I think that I could teleport. I got probably 20 feet down this hall hanging on before I finally woke up for real. Still very cool lucid scenes and I wake up smiling. My day practices up until yesterday were focusing on doing the elevator task next for whatever reason. Yesterday I thought I started incubating the idea that I should meet up with Dreamer first, but next need to incubate that a bit more. Might have gotten to that task if I had ever completed the elevator one! 173

Another lucid dream, once more proving to me at least some parts of me seem to be regenerating. Or not decaying further. Either way...

...the first part of the dream I can recall begins with me being in some kind of 'mall'. While it felt and was treated like a shopping mall, it much more looked like a home, that was maybe a little bigger than an average house. The interior was largely gray with some white, relatively normal I'd say, it didn't look fancy but acceptable by my standards. I remember the living room, there was someone I didn't know, a Playstation (1) and a staircase when walking through the room, which felt very spacious as it was connected to the other rooms, no doors or stuff that made you feel you changed the room.
I eventually walked up the stairs, and remember a more white kitchen like room, with an silver oven placed at an convenient height to work with. Somehow I felt and noticed that the dream played during a different time than reality, I was somewhat in the past, and first upon realizing that planned to make use of it to change things for the better.
I'm not quite sure what happened, or how, but then I'm standing on a small ledge, outside of a building, 20 m above the ground or something. The view I saw was... absolutely amazing, apocalyptic and dark. A feeling emerges I couldn't describe, a more valuable experience than I could ever get from watching even the most emotional movies in real life for hours. I'm falling down and I realize I'm dreaming, I feel relaxed and fine.
I'm in a big zone, I don't even know what it was, a train station, a building, maybe just an open place with some constructions. I was testing around with gravity, and again I also was flying a little. My girlfriend was there as well, she asked me if I was still dreaming, I did an reality check and replied that I was of course still dreaming. After some more time of being lucid but somehow doing nothing fancy I felt my focus fading for a moment, then I woke up.

Man, if just for once I would actually start doing something relevant upon becoming lucid...

I was in a gloomy and snowy place, and was following a group of kids who were sledding down a snowy hill. They were following a snowy road. It was cold and everything seemed as though it was covered in snow, and it was still snowing lightly. Anyways, I got a sled and followed the kids, quickly I noticed that a tall white, evil looking elf dude was also on the childrens tail. As I got closer to them and finally right up on them, we started turning a corner. The Tall elf guy pushed one of the kids and ended up killing him. I remember thinking "my god what the hell is going on" as the kid and his sled flew directly past my face. A deep curiosity filled me and I continued following the children. As the road straightened back out I some how lost my balance, and seeing that I was about to fall off my sled I slowed down and regained the balance I lost. Right in front of me I noticed that the Elf was nearly stopped. I decided to help him out and I shot some sort of fire at the back of his sled and it fueled him and he went foward. Seeing that I helped him, the elf helped me and made me go faster. Soon I was quickly nearing a water puddle, but near the water puddle was tile, like the type on kitchen floors. And to get to the puddle you had to cross a thin beam on your sled, it was like an obstacle course. I gained alot of distance between myself and the elf and with caution crossed over the beam. After I crossed it my sled landed in the water puddle. I went to go pick it up, but it disappeared, "it was just there", I thought, "where did it go". I frantically searched for it, but it was gone. I looked back and saw that the elf had fell off the cross beam and he had start over the entire obstacle course. Upon his return he came back and started shooting arrows at me. Frightened, I hid behind a door, but it was see through. He shot at me and the arrows would go through the door but would stop halfway in. Somebody saw what was going on and killed the Elf. I was safe for now. I was in some sort of hallway, but it wasnt complete, it was only a small hallway in the middle of a snowy wonderland. I decided to go check out the Elf's body and when I got to him I noticed his head fell off. I picked it up and it started talking. I told him he was going to go to hell or something like that and he disagreed. He said he wasnt going to suffer. Right after he said that though some sort of helmet type thing covered his skull and it started turning bright orange, and it looked like he was literally burning up inside. I could tell that he started suffering and something inside of me told me he was going to hell. At this point the dream became a nightmare. I turned around and walked through the hallway and saw "satan" himself behind me. I got a little scared, I didnt want to go to hell(I dont believe in it in real life, it was just in this dream). I acted like an evil person around him so he wouldnt think I was some good guy and so he wouldnt kill me or anything. Just then a huge soldier dude came by and it was either me or him, but one of us asked satan if he could give us a pair of headphones that had 4 headphones instead of two, and that they would have the greatest bass ever. Satan came up to the soldier and put some head phones in his ears, and I remember him putting some in my ears as well. I listened to a short song and that was it.

2. False Awakening- I woke up out of my bed, got up and looked in the mirror(as usual). I turned around to see what time it was and my digital clock had the word "no" on its screen. I turned around and saw another digital clock with the letters "THC" or "HTC" across it, I dont remember which one. Here I am, looking at 2 digital clocks, and both arent working and I dont become lucid. A missed oppurtunity. After that I woke up for real and noticed what had just happened.

3. I was in a them park along the coast with my family. I was wearing shorts, a shirt, and a snapback. I had on no shoes or socks, I just walked around barefooted. Me and my dad were looking for my sister and my mom because they had walked off without telling us where they were going. We spotted them in the distance and walked toward them. We caught up to them and my dad asked them what they were doing and then we all turned around and went to the middle of the theme park. When we got there my sister wanted to ride this Water Log ride where it just swings you around in a log on the water. My parents said ok, so I had to go as well. Another family wanted to ride it as well, they were mexican. Luckily there were 2 of these logs so each family could get in each. My sister got in the opposite log while me, my mom, and my dad got in the other one. I asked her what she was doing, and she simply said "getting in for the ride". I got my phone out of my pocket because this was a wet watery ride. I asked the manager of the ride what we do with our electronics. She said to put them in the container next to me. I turned around and sure enough there was a drawer with some shelfs and was about to put it in there, but the lady corrected me and told me to put my stuff in the top container, which was a really small plastic container. I put my ipod, headphones, and two cellphones that I had in my pocket. I noticed that I only had 1 cell phone so why did I have two now? And the other phone wasnt even the type of phone I really owned. I soon realized that I had my sisters phone(even though it really wasnt hers) and just put it in the container along with mine. With all of my stuff in the container there was no room left for my moms phone, and so we couldnt fit it in. Thats all I remember of that dream.

4. My entire nuclear family was in my room with me. My dad was going around my room taking pictures( I thought he was doing this because he was trying to sell the house). Upon noticing what he was doing, I decided to fix my bed so it would look nice, and my mom decided to help me. I straightened up the sheets and my mom ended up messing it up by making it hugely uneven. And I also noticed how extremely small my bed was. It was only about 1 foot in length, but I thought nothing of it because I thought it was always that way.

5. Me and my friend dylan were in school. [small fragment]

6. I was in a car and I think my grandma was driving. We were near her house and out of no where a blue insect/worm got in the car. I watched it and it started laying eggs in its own body and half of the eggs it was laying were missing the insects pouch and falling onto the ground. After it finished laying its eggs, it went into its own body like a hermit crab and stayed there. I looked at my sister and suddenly she had a huge spider on her head and also a centipede. I told her and she quickly tried shaking them off. I told her not to get them on me. The spider flew onto her leg, and the centipede disappeared. As we continued driving me and my sister saw more of those blue worm things and decided to smash them because they were really gross. We did so and we killed 3 or 4 of them.

Standing in a rather plain room. Empty walls, beige carpet. I begin hearing the intro music for "Turn Down for What" and start acting like the character from the intro to the music video. Before any lyrics start, I realize I'm dreaming, and want to combine it with the TOTM. The first one I think of is to get naked. I think about how I'm going to do both, and wake up before doing either.

// I was thinking rather introspectively, to the exclusion of everything I was doing. Maybe that woke me up?

>> Next time: Try thinking while still interacting with the dream.

This dream was months or perhaps a year ago, not really sure, but it was a while ago and I still remember it, so I've written it down and would like to share it.

(Spoilers for Deathly Hallows - but you probably already have read/watched/heard it by now and WARNING: mildly violent)

I was at Hogwarts and it was the Battle of Hogwarts. I became a dragon at first but decided against it because I didn't want to steal the spotlight of the dragon that had already appeared in the book/film previously. I returned to human form but remained with flying and fire magic. I was flying and ended up in a fight with some student (not sure if he was in Slytherin) who was on the side of the death eaters. He was armed with a bow and arrow (despite it being a magic school, where he could've avada kedavra'd me to death, but no.)

I deflected the arrows with a fire barrier I conjured, but the archer managed a special technique (can't remember what exactly) causing the arrow to fly at a higher speed and pierce through the barrier which got me shot in several places and I should've died, but I didn't. Instead I let my fire barrier weaken with the sudden blood loss, walked over to him with all my strength (didn't feel any pain, just weakened), ripped the arrow out of my chest and stabbed him with it.

I then flew around, before losing energy to fly and begged people passing by me to take me to the hospital wing, soon it was forgotten and I discovered Fred Weasley's death, went to comfort George who was in his dorm bed crying but some random old man told me that I shouldn't disturb him because he was quite upset. Then I woke up.