non-lucid

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

A TV interview show, like Oprah, with two people on the stage. One of the people was a black-Latino man. The other may have been a black man. They both sat in swivel chairs on a smallish, slightly raised, circular platform. The black-Latino man sat on the left.

The black-Latino man had been diagnosed with HIV about twenty years ago. But he was still really healthy. In fact, I thought, he may have been even healthier than the other man on stage, who didn't have HIV.

Dream #2

I was in an office, sitting at a cubicle. I was kind of slouched back in my chair, maybe with a knee pressing against the edge of my desk. I could see the CPU for my computer on the desk. It was taller and wider than usual, and pale grey.

Somebody, possibly a pretty woman who was my boss, tossed a cardboard box on my desk. I opened it. Inside was some kind of pale grey device that looked like an electric label maker. It was long and narrow, with a keypad of yellow, red, and green buttons. It had some sort of rolling tape or paper dispenser coming out the top. I knew or learned, somehow, that this was a new device from Apple.

I knew that this device probably wasn't mine. But I figured I'd hook it up to my computer and use it anyway. I didn't even know what the device did.

I found some wires in the box. I then learned the instructions for the device -- somehow -- I didn't read any instructions or look at any papers or anything. I knew that the device sednt messages to the office printer. The printer then printed these messages out.

The device had to be connected by wires to the printer through a long, complicated process. I thought the process was too long. I didn't want the device anymore. I put it back in the box.

My boss, the pretty woman, sat down in the cubicle behind me. I realized the device had been meant for her. I said, relaxedly, as if it were true, "I was just looking at this new device you got. I was trying to see if I could hook it up to your computer for you, so you don't have to. I think I can do it."

There was now a view of Bill Gates, or somebody who looked like him, except, possibly, with no glasses and skinnier eyes. Bill Gates was surrounded by a group of people in a space that looked kind of like an office, a kitchen, and some kind of science lab, near a window on some high up floor of a skyscraper.

Bill Gates was talking as if he were the head of Apple. He was saying that he hadn't actually made a really big deal regarding some kind of copyright or patent dispute over one of his products. He didn't actually care too much about it.

Bill Gates now lifted up a device. It was like a water-pitcher. But it was as big as a CPU column, and it was shaped like the Apple logo. It had a grey-tan outline, and a body of clear, smoky-grey plastic. Gates was pouring out glasses of water for everybody.

But I was trying to get a better view of this device (as if I were watching onTV). The device, I knew, was some kind of computer device. It had some kind of mechanism at its mouth, where the water poured out. I just couldn't see what it was.

I was now standing before a desk, at which sat a guy I know from a Starbucks I go to. The guy was apparently trying to sell me works of art. The guy was flipping through the pages of a book. I had probably seen the paintings I had wanted already, as if I had already looked through the book. But the guy was flipping through the pages so quickly that I wasn't sure if we'd gotten to or passed the pictures of the paintings.

Finally I told the guy something about how I'd look for the pictures more carefully -- probably just by looking through the book myself. The guy kind of acted annoyed. He started talking with a friend of his. I got worried that the guy was getting bored with me. I wondered if I was being too specific with the pictures I wanted. I thought maybe I should just take one that I thought looked kind of like the ones I wanted.

But I also really liked the pictures, and I thought my choice would also be interesting and impressive to the guy as well. I remembered one picture, black and white, of a Millet-like painting of two people standing out on the field. I kept searching for this painting, but I couldn't find it.

But I found the second painting I was looking for. This was of a big shrub on a field of clumpy grass, possibly with a little cabin in the distance. The photo of this painting was also in black and white.

I was apparently going to buy the photos, and not the paintings themselves. Also -- possibly -- the photos I'd buy would also be the pages from this book -- like the guy would cut the pages out of this book and sell them to me.

This was almost like a film, it was playing before my eyes. Paying attention to just the right people at the right times. Maybe this is a little nightmarish too.

A girl, 18, the main character, sees that her mother has fled the land, for doing something wrong and the kingdom wants to punish her. She wants to find her mother, she knows where she might be, there special place. Over the war-lands, where un-dead soldiers (in the form of skeletons) fight an eternal battle, never to be won, never to be lost.

As she runs over these 'dead-lands.' She gets hit by the explosion of the bomb, she'd been through the dead-lands a few times now and survived, surely this will not be the end? Before the story has even started? Apparently yes, because she awakes with only 1 arm. Completely disintegrated from the explosion, while it is been treated by the un-dead, with her concerned friends overlooking her.

Just as we are about to see if our fair maiden will survive this harrowing ordeal, I am woke up by my sister, so I am in quite a mood I didn't get to see what would happen next.

1) Companion of Tennant doctor. He was building a god tower (gold indestructible). And I was behind on getting the materials. Went to dino shape shifter (or lycandino. No joke) village. I dated the leader in the past, and had been a member of their community. They didn't recognize me until I turned into a velociraptor. The leader had furry forelegs and pushed me down kissed me.

Here I am watching an advertisement on TV. I was watching The Legend of Zelda advertisement. I noticed I saw an ad saying it was 3D and it was for Nintendo 64. I noticed and said "wait a moment?! Nintendo doesn't make N64 games anymore.

So here I am waking up in my bed in a FA "false awakening" it was pitch dark so I did a reality check, The nose pinch. And the reality check worked! I had a short lucid dream for a period of time but the lucid dream failed due to excitement. I remember it being petty dark in my bedroom when I woke up from the dream. Then I woke up from the FA again for real this time.

[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="royalblue"]Semi-Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Dream[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]This timer attempt was a disaster. I did my WBTB earlier so that I would have more time to dream, but instead I couldn't fall asleep at all. So I were fully awake through 3 alarms, then I gave up because it's was no point in laying still if I can't fall asleep. But when I tried to move I felt that I were in partial sleep paralysis, which means that if I could have endured one more alarm, I woul probably had come in full sleep paralysis! 3 alarms is 15 min + 8 + 4 = 27 minutes of laying still, and just focusing on falling asleep but failing. I did a reality check right after I gave up so it wasn't a false awakening.

At this time I didn't remember a single dream, so I turned the timer off and went to sleep to dream.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I don't remember exactly what I dreamt frst but I do have some fragments of it. I were in my cousin's house and he was moving out. So he offered me his gaming mouse, then he changed his mind. I then walked out of his house and to something that I think was supposed to be my home, but it doesn't look anything like it.

I was taking a cab and opened the left door and jumped out of it. I jumped high and almost reached the sky, but then I fell down on a grass hill that is outside my real house in my waking life. [/COLOR][COLOR="red"]From nowhere I realised that I was dreaming! For the first time in my life I remembered to do what I had planned in the dream when I get lucid, but for this time it was something totally different. The Lucidology workout said that I was going to wake myself up just to experience waking sleep paralysis, to do that I have to think of my sleeping body. So I started to think "Wow this is a dream, but now I want to wake up (thinking of my sleeping body). Everything turned black I had no weird sensations what so ever, but then I just found myself back on the grass hill again.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I was dissapointed and woke up, I thought... It turned out later that this was still a dream.
So in my false awakening I got out of bed and wrote down my dreams on a piece of paper near my bed.

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I was now standing in a grocery store, but this one only sold tapas and snacks. My friends were there so we were appearantly going to have this for lunch. I had problems with picking the tapas food up, and then I fell and hit my head in the table.
I were now walking around dizzy and I bumped into my friend Simon and he dropped his tapas on the floor...
When my friends were long gone, I now hade trouble with deciding what to choose. Then when I finally made up my mind. I didn't know where my friends were. So I started to watch some tv and I was watching Urban Legends, but the show was more like Myth Busters. On this episode they were going to see if they could determine if the water in a lake is shallow or deep by the temperture of the water, I saw a girl dive into the water. Then suddenly I was there!
I swam a few lenghts with her and there were 15 other girls and then I also saw my friends on the other side.
I started to swim my fifth lenght, but then I realised something embarrasssing. I was naked!
For a really weird reason I turn to the hottest girl of them all and points down and say "Ehrm I need to you know get underwear" and she said "that's cool you can come and change with me later" Relieved I then heard my friend pointing and laughing. Then I walked away with the hot girl and thought "HA jokes on you!"
...No I am lying I woke up and felt naked and embarressed[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]Then I was going to add this dream to the notes, and I saw that there was no other dreams added!
So here I realised that I had had a False Awakening.

Tomorrow I will WBTB early again, but to make sure that I can fall asleep I will get back to sleep immediately.[/COLOR]

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I am what appears to be some sort of prison colony.... I am with josh. We are talking and i run into matte.... He gets angry and starts to chase me... It seems like hes 9ft tall and hes bombing it straight towards me. I laugh at him and dodge all of his attack, im too fast for him and this is only making him more angry... He keeps shouting at me to stop running and thinks like "come here!!!" and swiping at me. I am jumping onto really high platforms and rocks etc to avoid him and it seems he cant do the same.... I keep goading him and goading him whilst im running away.

For some reason we all have to line up, matte stops chasing me and starts talking so some other giant (lol). As we are queueing i see a guy with pink hair above me on some ledge of a cliff.... He gives me that "omg we have the same hair" look... I laugh and raise both my middle fingers at him. As we are lining up im getting cocky and taking the piss out of everyone around me, and i get into a few fights but i seem to be a lot stronger than everyone else. Matte keeps telling people "hes not worth it, hes a sneaky little bastard"

We get taken to a shop and me & josh start exploring. I walk up to a door and it opens star trek style... Behind it is a weird cyborg type... Thing. It has no legs, more like tank tracks... But the upper body is human... Integrated with metal. Its face is mostly skin but a few metal parts but it has a slightly opened jaw and a vacant surprised expression. This thing suddenly lurches towards me, i back away and realise i have a gun and suddenly im looking down a scope shooting it in the face while backing away. It stops moving... I move to the door again and another one appears... I run away and jump onto the tables nearby turning to start shooting again, but its not as effective. Josh kills the machine with one shot and says "Ben, this way."... I follow him and we walk through a different door it has two shops that we take out... There are many other ships flying about so me and josh begin to shoot them down.

I'm in Germany at a friends who's trowing a party.
There's a few people there I know, plus a girl I've just met.
Her first question after being introduced is: "Do you believe in god?"
This annoys me. If this is the first thing she wants to know about me, it has obviously got to be very important to her.
I reply with: "Which one?" thinking that she'll get the message and not talk to me for the rest of the evening, or at least drop the religious talk.

I don't mind religious people at all, as long as they aren't annoying about it, and I have a very strong feeling that this woman is exactly that kind of person.
To make things worse, she doesn't get it.

"What do you mean? Our lord an savior Christ of course! Don't tell me you're one of those atheists..."
"Yes, I am an atheist. But I could simply believe in another religion as well, you shouldn't generalize the term god like that. There's other beliefs out there you know."
"Yes, but they are all false, and you are a bad person for not honoring our lord."

You've got to be kidding me...
I roll my eyes and walk away.
There's no point in arguing with such people, I consider them borderline delusional.
I grab some food from a buffet when I notice the girl followed me.

"If you ask nicely I can teach you the way of Christ and save your soul you know... you can be forgiven!"
"Listen girl, what you're saying is terribly offensive. Being religious does not make you a better person than I am."
"I uphold moral values the same way you do and I need no religious teachings to tell me how to do so."
"You should leave me alone."

But she doesn't... instead she tells me that I'm going to hell.
I contemplate explaining the difference between beliefs and facts to her, and how what she's saying is being offensive but I quickly decide against it.
I've met people like her very rarely, but this is extreme.
I look at the balcony and think: If only I could just fly away. This party sucks!
If this was a dream I could just jump and begone.

I feel the urge to try to levitate...
I look at the girl who's now staring at me, looking genuinely sorry for myself.
This makes me angry, I could slap her in the face.
She seems to have no free will, just an empty shell... like a DC...

Hmm... I look around.
Nothing's off, everything seems perfectly fine... still... is this a dream?
I try to retrace my steps... how did I get here?
I have no idea... I must be dreaming!

I approach the balcony with the girl pursuing me.
Just before reaching the balcony I try to RC, but as my hand approaches my nose I finally know that I am dreaming, even though I haven't performed the RC yet.
So I just jump off the balcony and fly away.

It is nighttime, but I can see somewhat clearly.
I fly over a forest, enjoying the nice and fresh air, and not being annoyed by that girl anymore.
Flying... it really never gets old, it's such an amazing experience.
But I feel like doing something different.
I feel like running. Running as a wolf! Just as I did in Dancing with the wolves, Dragon at Stonehenge - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

I approach the ground and shift into a big white wolf mid flight and enter the forest fully transformed.
As I run though the forest I quickly notice that it's not the same as last time.
Last time was a magical experience, but this time it is not.
It doesn't feel surreal at all, and the forest appears normal and boring... not to mention it is rather dark which is bad.

Maybe last time I wasn't on earth? Maybe it was because I was with Olivia?
I keep running faster and faster, trying to remember what it was like last time and hopefully teleport into the same scene.
As I reach higher speeds my fur starts to sparkle and my vision becomes distorted.

My vision normalizes and I'm certain that I've teleported back to the location I was in last time.
It feels magical yet again. The forest is beautiful and oddly bright even though it's the middle of the night.
The sensation of the air brushing through my fur is absolutely amazing.
I wonder if I'll be able to meet Olivia or whoever she was yet again.
I attempt to relocate the hill we were on last time and find it after about a minute.

But she is not here.


I howl into the night hoping that she'll hear me and come visit me...

~16/08/11~

i find myself in a theatre full of people and i am about to perform with some kind of school singing group (used to do chorale singing while i was at high school). I am mingling in the audience before having to go backstage and the person i'm chatting with (my flatmates boyfriend IRL) says: "bro look, it's Danger Mouse" (an awesome producer whom i admire).

Danger Mouse:


so i'm pretty starstruck but i'm also freaking out because i think this is my only chance to ever get signed by, or collaborate with Danger Mouse. For a while i panic and try to tidy myself up but my hair is way to messy.
At this point there is a gap in the dream (or recall) and suddenly i'm onstage performing. I appear to have forgotten about Danger Mouse because i'm just messing around and talking to other people onstage. I imagine my principal being embarrassed by how average the performance is and it makes me want to mess around even more
~wake up~

wish i'd been a bit more surprised at seeing DM at the show and had questioned the dream. Could've done basic ToTM so easy!!

I was super tired and didn't do any formal wake back to beds. I also did a half ass meditation. =/ I did wake up at some point and I remember that I had a long dream but was so tired that I couldnt get myself to write any of it down. All I have is some tiny fragments now...
- I was in a car with allen.
- I felt tension or anxioty.
- I was dressed in some type of business attire.
- I went into a grey building and was nervous but it is not clear to me why this happened.
- Color's green and orange somewhere.
This is pretty pathetic considering last nights well recorded dream adventures. If anything, this makes me more motivated to not be so lazy tonight.

August 16, 2011

Dream fragments this time.

Before I get to the dream itself I notice the past few days that I been waking up in the middle of the night without being able to recall anything. This was the case last night but I was lazy and fell back to sleep to quickly have this fragment.

Anyway:

Middle of a forest and there was a Blastoise on his back. He oddly enough didn't have a shell which I didn't notice til I woke up. I rub his head and he seem to enjoy it then I put my hand on his belly. (He lack a shell but the color was the same.) He nodded and approve it. I rub his belly and somehow I knew he was willing to grant a wish.

His wishes was VERY limited...He can transform me to a Pokemon...That it. If lucid I would pick Haunter for his powers, abilities and looks. My dream self pick my favorite Pokemon though so it wasn't all bad. Spent a few secs being a Charmander then woke up.

- I was going to meet up with N because he came to visit. I was wearing a big fluffy black jsk wth shorts underneath. I had to stop at some store on my way there to use the bathroom. But they didn't have any toilets, just these weird public seats with a tiny hole in them you were supposed to try to use. There was a blonde girl with her dad at one, but then I realized the holes were taped over anyway, so I just left.

Then I met up with "N", but it somehow turned out to be E instead. He hugged me and then kissed my shoulder. He was wearing this purple lightning shirt. We went and did some sort of school thing even though it was still summer. I think it was an adventure but I can't remember it. At the end we were outside my grandmother's house, he had to go and I said "okay, wanna hang out tomorrow?" He was like "er okay" sounding like he didn't really want to. I started talking about what we could do and he was backing away slowly, then finally said "okay I wanna get to my home now..." so I let him leave.


- My mom was going to make me drive somewhere even though I didn't know how. I sat in the passenger seat and the car had some kind of semi automatic turning and driving thing, so I just had to steer once in a while. I soon realized I couldn't do it, so I turned around to drive back home, making several cars have to swerve out of the way, and drove on this really wide bike path. Somehow I made it home and was like, "I can't do this".


- There was this HORRIBLE bathroom I was supposed to try and use. It was so dirty, the water went right up on the seats when you flushed and more stuff would appear in it sometimes, all the toilet paper was soaked, and there were slices of roast beef in a bucket you were supposed to use as toilet paper. :| I somehow managed to use it, then came out and it was full of people. I started talking to someone and we both said at the same time, "that was the worst bathroom experience of my life!".

Then I saw a door at the end that said "ANYTHING-KEI" (I understood it was supposed to be like fairy kei) and went in. It turned out to be this nice, empty, clean bathroom that was covered in rainbows and furry things and everything was animal themed. I was annoyed I hadn't discovered it before.

I was in a dream, and I randomly became lucid. I was standing in the middle of a random open area with a few trees. It was snowy, and the sky was grey. I scream "CLAIRTY!" a few times and rubbed and clapped my hands together. When I looked around, I was just stunned. Everything seemed so real and vivid. I touched a few objects, and it felt so strangely sensual.

I had totally forgotten about any dream goals I had, but I was trying to remember them. I decided I should start by getting away from this area. I tried to jump up and fly but it didn't work. Then I spotted a giant fallen over tree. I decided I could use it as a broomstick like in Harry Potter. I hopped on to it, and then I was flying on a giant dead tree.

Steering the thing was quite a task. It was really hard to balance on it. Eventually my dream faded.

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I was at summer camp like I used to go to when I was younger. We were lined up against the wall of that gym and the counsellors were doing something. We were all wearing the orange uniform shirt and waiting for something to happen. I looked around and saw ZA and JU among all the orange shirts. I was really confused as I thought they were too old to go to camp by now. I wanted to go talk to JU but something was holding me back.

Suddenly I turned around, and this gorgeous guy was standing in front of me and smiling down at me. He had tanned skin (really tanned, the only thing I objected) and brown hair that swooped over his brown eyes. He randomly took hold of my hand, and I went right along with it.

Then we were randomly in some forest area on some sort of trail. We were climbing a huge wooden staircase that went up this cliff. The random guy was still with me the whole way. At some point I started making out with him, and he grabbed me and carried me up the stairs. Then the dream ended.

Dream - Lucid

I was in an airport I think. I saw Chris walking by, and we met eyes. We both couldn't stop staring at one another. I didn't think he was going to want to talk to me or see me, but he came up to me and hugged me. I hugged him back. I felt the old, familiar feeling of my arms wrapping around him, but not all the way because he's big. I was so, so happy to be in that moment! It was a beautiful feeling.

More things happened, I walked somewhere with him and talked to some other people, but I can't remember any more details. The main thing I recall is the feeling of hugging him and the happiness it brought me.

~

I was sitting on the couch in my living room at my house in my hometown. I looked to my left towards the entrance to the room, and saw my friend Jase and some of his friends standing there. More of them started to come into the room. Jase was apparently having some sort of get together with his friends at my house. I felt a little irked, because he never asked me if it was ok for him to do that.

Then, I was sitting on the other side of the couch. Jase and his buddies were all in the living room. I remember Jase sitting on one of the chairs with someone else. Jase saw me and said
"Krista!" He then gave me a big hug.
On the other side of the couch sat my mom. I leaned over to her, pointed to Jase and whispered
"See that guy? He's my communist friend. He didn't ask if it was ok for him to do this."
My mom then started to talk to Jase and ask him questions. The one that I remember was
"Do you still keep up with your journal?" (journal=blog in this context). She said something about reading his journal.

Then, I saw something on the TV. It was some sort of indie political movie.
"Typical," I thought to myself.

Then, I looked at the coffee table, and there was a Scrabble board on it. It was totally full of letters; there were no empty spaces. I started to mess with the letters, taking some of them off the board, and then figured I should ask Jase if his friends and he were done with the game. I asked, and he said yes. As I asked, I noticed that I kept sniffling and my throat was sore. It was like I was coming down with a bad cold.

I then started to play with the letters on the coffee table. I was, for some reason, trying to spell the word "FULL". I couldn't find two L's. I thought I had at first, but realized I had two U's instead. I thought about using a blank tile in place of an L, but then thought that was silly, since I had all the letters right in front of me. I finally spelled it. The tiles looked something like this:

[F]
[ ] [ ] [U] [ ] [ ]
[L]
[L]

I then was in or playing some sort of video game where it was like I was in space trying to jump onto a swinging platform, and I kept falling because my timing was wrong. When I finally made it, I had to talk to some woman and show her a key. I showed it to her, and it looked like this ceramic knife my mom bought in waking life. She took the sheath off of the knife, which looked like a ceramic key now, and said that it was the wrong thing. She gave it back and I re-sheathed it.

I was in some sort of large building, similar to a mall. There were quite a few people around and I, along with several other people, were standing around a kiosk of sorts. Apparently we had signed up for a race, in which we had to write our names using various creative ways. The first one was using a code, but was in the what seemed like a store right next to us.

we all ran inside and noticed there were a bunch of trees. Not small trees like you might see in a landscaping project, but huge, full grown trees over 60 feet high. Some of which were turned over on their side. We started to climb up one of them and, at the top, were various letters and buttons. We had to spell out our name using the buttons, but it was in code. We were each given the translation of the code before, so I pulled it out of my pocket. I set it on the ground right next to me and started to press the buttons in accordance with the code. Instead of spelling out my name, i spelled out "herp mah derp" (Thanks IRC ) Apparently I passed and was able to move on, but the person in front of me, who looked eerily familiar, had spelled out Izaya. That was it! He was a character from an anime I had been recently watching.

Unfortunately, this didn't get me lucid, but the dream went on. We kept climbing the trees and eventually got to a group of them that were hanging outside the store. There were a few pine trees and platforms right below them. I instinctively tore off several branches, enough to spell my name. I was in front so I figured I was all set and could win this no problem. I walked up to a ver elongated branch that overhang the entire hallway of this mall. I figured that we had to spell our name by throwing the branched across the hallway and onto a sticky board on the other side.

I threw the first branch and it stuck to the wall just fine. I figured that would be one line in the B. I threw another, but it didn't stick. Then i noticed that izaya guy was right next to me, and threw a branch himself. It stuck, but he changed it somehow, to show "I <3" and then a window. Apparently he loves windows? I figured that just spelling "I" wasn't good enough to win so i kept going, but now matter how many, how hard, or how soft i threw the branches, they would not stick. Izaya just sat there laughing at me, and it was then that I woke up.