non-lucid

Just when I'm getting back into the swing of things I'm off out for a few days again, it's going to completely throw me off my efforts to lucid dream, but that's the price I'll have to pay! My recall suffered these last few days as a result of being away from home for a few days before that. I managed to recall one dream last night... I remember it being more vivid then now as I write it up, I didn't invest a lot of effort in remembering. Damn it.

Time I went to sleep: 2:00am
First awakening: 7:00am (Natural)

Dream 1
The dream starts with a bridge to some town being divided, Brad Pitt is the protagonist for some reason and I watch him scurry off into the town that has been blocked off. No one in this town has access to the other side of the bridge now. It seems I'm in a zombie infested land of infected peoples. I can't remember much but suddenly I am walking through a wooded area covered in snow, it's getting dark and there is a group of savages by a fire about to eat a baby, and I go over and end them all. Then Walter White is my new persona, and I'm overlooking a vast scene of hills, various fires around in the distance (I think the ending of the new Game of Thrones episode influenced this scene). Now I'm in a pub, and some old friends are around, specifically one that I haven't thought about for a long time (but she posted a status on Facebook last night and I remember it standing out). All my friends were drinking. Then that scene merged into a new scene where there was a tent set up with a ladder inside it going underground, and I remember watching my nan (what the hell, dreams) climbing up and out of the tent, then Brienne of Tarth came and climbed down into the lower area. I went down and there was a lot of sexual activity going on, mostly homosexual stuff, I remember seeing it but thinking it wasn't for me. This underground area was like a dodgy brothel, you could see inside different doors and various things were going on. I moved through the halls and suddenly I was in a strange version of my cousins bedroom, with my cousin, and we attempted to make a huge joint, this joint was like half a meter long. Attempting to roll it together we eventually gave up, and he rolled a smaller (but still quite long by joint standards, I'd say about 15cm). I remembered being angry about this joint, but then the dream faded off into nothing.

Time of final awakening: 11:00am (Snoozed 5 times until 12 however, I really need to stop doing that)
Time slept: Roughly 9 hours
Total awakenings: 3 (1st - Natural with recalled Dream | 2nd - Went back to sleep with no recall or logged time | 3rd - Alarm to get up)
Did I do my waking journal the night before? Yes
Did I do my awareness techniques throughout the day and before bed? Yes

This dream takes place at night time, on what appears to be an empty airstrip, with a row of tal floodlights erected upon tripods which 100s of people gather around.

I can hear rave music, very generic, as i walk along this airstrip, and i can also see others behind a fence waiting to get in. I then get flashbacks of actual flyers that once advertised these rave parties waaaaay back in the early 90's.

The dream suddenly shifts a bit, i now find myself indoors, in an almost white room, with grass on the floor, UV lights which makes everything glow brightly, and there is one lone raver on the dancefloor waving his arms about but not moving his feet. There is an opening and i go through it, and naturally i see pigs, real pigs, snuffling about on the floor, but the pigs look strange, their actually covered in orange "cow like" markings.

Now i am outside again and it is an early summers evening, another airstrip, this time one i actually recognize from the waking world as a place where i once had a fab night out partying til the sun came up.

As the dream continues, i find myself milling with 1000s of other ravers waiting patiently for the party to begin. There seems to be cars driving about with no wheels on them, not only that but i soon find myself in a car at this dream location, just looking for somewhere to park.

I do not recall much more of this, aside from the fact that it felt so real, specially the first and last parts that i can remember, among the floodlights on an airstrip, as i did go to many parties on airstrips/airfields/hangers from 1989 onwards, the last one being 1993, a Perception all nighter on an airstrip, this was the last part of my dream.

In reality myself and my friend Arfur, arrived at like 5pm, joining about 50 or so others to wait, it was a lovely summers day on april 30th, so we head towards the marquees and sit on the grass to smoke some reefer before the party began. Some hours later this is rumour that the rave had been cancelled, and a little later more, we ran towards the marquees and had a gib party anyway.

In the dream i only dream about waiting during the early evening, when more and more were gathering for the same reasons as us. Its a shame that dream didnt go all the way to the actual party, as my memories of that night are fading fast now anyway.

I dont know what the cow marked pigs represented, maybe the police, thats what we call the police sometimes, which is wrong i know, pigs are sensitive and intelligent animals whereas the police...

Anyway, not a bad dream in all, quite vivid, id say 11/15 for vividness, but i have no idea how long this dream lasted.

I also had fragments of american wrestler The Ultimate Warrior appear, not surprising as i read before bed that he had sadly passed away, i briefly watched american wrestling in the early 90s and he was my favourite, he just looked so powerful and striking, the best mullet in the business. RIP you giant.

Two friends and I dress up as nurses and persuade the concierge at Benedict Cumberbatch's hotel that we're here to take him to a private clinic for treatment. As we're waiting for Benedict to come downstairs, I try to sign the register using the name "Kit," which is obviously a fake name. Benedict quizzed me on whether or not Kit was short for something, and I came up with "Katherine Isabelle," which he told me was a very pretty name.

We went to sit down in an adjacent lounge while the other girls got our van-turned-fake-ambulance ready. I felt like something was off with one of my shoes. Looking down, I noticed that I was wearing combat boots that weren't fully laced. I took the boot off and discovered I also had an ankle brace underneath it, but it was also unlaced. I removed the brace to re-lace it, and found yet another ankle brace underneath that one.

Somehow, I find myself outside to see my parents getting into a cable car. I join them, but then a set of glass doors close over the sides of the cable car. They're inside the glass and I'm left outside, clinging to the car so I don't fall off. The cable car takes us to the airport. Dad and I talk about how complicated it is that I'm flying to one city with them and then taking a second flight home. We stop at the ticket agent to see if we can get me booked on a direct flight home. There are all sorts of complications and I'm not sure it can be done. Not sure of where I'll be flying to after all, I head for security. I put my suitcase on the belt to be x-rayed. On the other side, there are glasses of champagne coming out of the x-ray, but the belt does not stop when the glasses reach the end. I'm frantically trying to catch each one.

i was at a lake pillsburry type place and was in the ocean water for a long time. it was blue and cold but really nice. when iwas in there first i was in a plastic raft that was kinda hard to get on. then it turned into a surf board and i was able to ride it in but it broke which upset the owner of it.

my mom and i were in the ocean later and i saw a shark swimming right toward us so i got my mom and i out of the way. the shark left us alone. until we tried to get to shore. it came right at us an we escaped at the last minute.

then my grandma susie and dee dee were all hanging at the top of the campsite. i chased them up there cuz i didnt want dee dee to cast a spell on us. i threatened to shove a padel up her ass if she didnt get it together.

my grandma tried to light a ciagerete but all she had was matches.


earlier in the dream i was back in middle school and was so exciteid to put stuff neatly in my desk. to start fresh and to learn with my old class mates

NON LUCID
*Some how I had permission to sell this huge white house. I wondered how got the point where I was at selling this huge house. I did recognize the house to be worth millions. Next door to this house was a little one which had some of my mail there. There was also mail there for my dad. Somehow the mail and the huge house was connected to my dad. I thought could be actually be my dads house. On the mail it had my dad's name with also with other names added to his original. When I looked at the house it seemed to have quite a lot of rooms.

*I am driving on the highway thinking I really wanna smoke right now. I am aware that it is the weekday but I still wanna smoke. I thought I can't be a pot head this is to much. I am driving on 75 while I am thinking this.

*I am at patrick's house picking up some ganja. Then all of a sudden Kat Williams shows up and he is there to pick up stuff to. He was very friendly and joking a whole lot. I remember at some point he did something that revealed that he was not all there in the head. I thought wow show business really messed him up I guess. I thought why is he so tall, isn't he a lot shorter then this. Patrick said the name of the stuff he was putting the bags for us. He set mine up first as he weighted out one gram with this in little scale he had. I first thought why isn't this stuff green, must be some really exotic. Then I waiting in the kitchen to just hang out and be polite. As I was waiting in the kitchen I noticed that instead of ganja it was fried cat fish in my bag. I said hey patrick this is fried catfish! Why are you trying to scam be dude? If you need money you can just ask me bro. As I said all of this he seemed to snap, I thought maybe this guy is not all there in head. How can he just go crazy like this? He grabbed a knife, then I said please don't hurt me man I have a hundred bucks on me. He said that will do, I gave him the money and ran out of the house. This is happened in my apartment strangely enough.

*I was reading a text on buddhist tantra and kaula tantra. Basically it concerned deity yoga and consort yoga.

I'm playing poker online.
The problem is that I'm not playing in my notebook and the keyboard is weird, there are just numbers and someone explained me that I have to learn ''combinations'' of numbers to write words.
I'm really slow at this and I feel really dumb.
And also when I want to write numbers the keyboard refuse to obey and the screen shows an enigmatic phrase which invites me to watch out of the windows and calculate the speed of the wind.
I look at my window but I don't feel like get up and go to watch out, as I'm feeling really tired, so I write ''I'm tired'' on the keyboard and finally the screen says that the password is correct and I have gained a bonus of 350,000$ to play poker online.
I'm happy, but suddenly I notice I lost the poker tournament I was playing, which was required to gain the bonus!!!!

Date: 4/9/2014 (Tue)
Total sleep: 6 hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Awareness, Mantras
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization
Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10 pm
Dream 1 Title: Strange trip to the Cape
Dream 1: I know I am at the Cape. I am standing in, what appears to be someone’s backyard. It is a large area of grass with a few large maple trees. There is a large garden, with no fence, just evenly planted rows of flowers and vegetables. One row of flowers look like low growing (about a foot tall) sunflowers, but they are a bright orange color. I see a large, old farm house nearby. The paint is peeling. I walk across the yard to a dirt road and begin to follow it. I can see the ocean on the horizon to my left. I walk up a small hill, and over the crest I can see an ocean front town. It looks like a typical New England ocean front town. There are a lot of grey cedar clapboard covered buildings. I walk down the road, which is now paved. There are buildings on both sides of the street. This area is looking more like Wells Maine. I see a building to my right which I know is a restaurant. It is an open area with red topped tables and white chairs, like a courtyard. There is a serving bar with a large sign above it with a list of foods. I see pictures of hamburgers, hot dogs, and fish and chips. There is text, but I don’t bother reading it. I am not going to eat anything on the menu. There are no people in the restaurant except a man behind the counter. He sees me and says, “Sorry we are all out of food.” I just shrug at him and walk out. I continue to walk down the street toward the ocean. I remember I left my car parked nearby and head towards it. I pass more buildings, one has many multicolored kites hanging out front. I find my car and get in. I begin to drive down the street. The ocean and town are gone. I am now on another dirt road in a rundown town in the woods. I can see tall pine tree covered hills on both sides of the road. I am passing an old auto shop (car/truck repair and gas) on my left. It has a dirt parking lot. Standing in the parking lot is a huge dog. I look closely at it. It looks to be about 5 feet tall (from front feet to top of its head). It is a dark brown color with a long tail that is tick with fur. It has a short snout, more like a bear than a dog. It must weight close to 250 pounds. It is watching my car as we drive by. My wife (who is suddenly in the passenger’s seat) asks, “What kind of dog is that?” I reply, “It’s a wolfdog.” I knew this was correct in my dream. I turn left onto a smaller dirt road. It is very dark. There are small one story houses on my left and right. None of the houses have any lights. My headlights are lighting up the road in front of us. This neighborhood looks abandoned and it is starting to feel like something out of a horror movie. I see a house cat lying in the road in front of me and have to swerve to my left to get around it. Then I see two more cats sitting in the road and have to swerve further to the left to avoid them. This road looks familiar. It looks very similar to a road I’ve near my childhood neighborhood. The road turns to the right. There is tall grass and cat o’nine tails growing in a small swamp on the left hand side of the road. On the right side I can see several three story apartment buildings. The yards of the building are over grown and the buildings look abandoned. There are no lights on. My wife says, “Look!” She is pointing to a mailbox next to the road. It is black and there is a number 13 painted on it in white (standard block letters). I see more mailboxes on the side of the road as well and they all look exactly the same, all have the number 13 on them. I move my headlights up (apparently I can control them like a flashlight) to the buildings and up at the peak of the building, where the wall meets the roof, is a number 13 painted in black. I move the lights to the other buildings and they are all number 13. My wife says, “Oh my God! They are all number 13!” She sounds very scared. I find the situation silly and am not scared. The dream fades and I wake up.
Awake: 3:58 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 8
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 6
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 12 min
Emotions: General contentment, annoyance, slightly amused
Dream Signs: Places similar to locations from my childhood, a dog that doesn’t exist in real life, abandoned buildings
Notes: Took magnesium last night. I read through some dreams from my journal before bed, did some meditation with visualization and mantras for waking after dreams, remembering dreams, and “I’m Dreaming!”. Applied positive emotions to all of these techniques. I slept pretty well but only woke up from one dream at 3:58 am. I spent a few minutes recalling my dream, wrote a few tags, and then rolled over and tried to go back to sleep. My hips were sore from working out yesterday (I am a side sleeper) and I was having trouble getting comfortable. Plus, I was excited because I knew this was a great opportunity for a micro WTWB which caused me to become lucid the night before. I repeated my mantra (I’m Dreaming) with positive emotion as I lay there trying to doze off. I kept a positive attitude about the situation. The discomfort of my hips and the excitement of a potential LD brought me too far out of my sleep state. I lay there quietly letting thoughts and images flash into my head until my light alarm went off at 4:50 am. I turned off the alarm and lay there until 5 am. Then I got up, worked out, showered and was off to work.

I missed my brothers party as we were exploring abandoned buildings and drains.We were in a huge tunnel complex,there was a guy there throwing tennis balls and bouncing them everyware.It was very clean down there no graffiti.We got back to where the party was,my youngest brothers rx7 was parked out the front,(he sold that 10 + years ago),my nana told me she wanted to live in Mumbai.

00:00 Thursday 2014-04-10

00:27 bedtime

09:20 out of bed

+ swimming in the foggy ocean with John Kerry and friends JT and DT -- John Kerry makes a daring head-first dive into the water missing a (barely) submerged boulder by inches. I'm changing into my swimsuit but don't want DT to see me, I tell her to look away for 5 seconds, I'm pulling up my suit counting to 5 but it gets caught on my feet and I tell DT not to look. I was trying to find a place to change but the shallow water (amongst boulders) was full of crayfish/lobsters.

+ in Church with JT and DT. There is a counter in the middle of the room with tall stools around it as I approach people fill the stools I'm looking for a place to sit. There is singing that is like but unlike what I know, I hear it and sing along with the familiar parts. I talk to the pastor and explain my different behavior because I'm part of another church. Lots of people/families are there

+ walking outside in nature with DT, looking at leaves on the trees.

+ playing video game asteroids-like, I see my ship and the controls I don't have perfect control but do a decent job. The screen fills my vision. The upper half of the screen are a couple of giant unmoving asteroids, the bottom half has my ship maneuvering around to avoid the moving smaller asteroids I think I should shoot some of them.

+ playing 3-d pacman style game, I fly in 3d as DO following game ship, it becomes lifelike 3d scene, I'm doing pretty well

+ wife & kids come home, report car accident nearby, I see car accident in the distance, flying colored sparks, I also see hills in the distance which seem to be lit a bit by the light of the accident area, it's dark/night outside.

+ pull large leafed herbs from inside car and will prepare a soothing tea using a french press after washing them. I wasn't sure at first how to get the leaves to my kitchen. I'm standing outside the front passenger window of the car.

+ observe daylight results of deadly car accident, bodies lying on the street, standing on the crowded sidewalk a tobacco chewer talks to my kids, I get in his face and chase him away by threatening to call the nearby police who will find his illegal chewing tobacco and get him for offering it to children, I think I'm quite a good man for standing up to this guy.

+ parking a car in a self-serve parking garage where you push your car manually on to a lift/elevator and then push it into its assigned stall, can't find my stall, lots of people there in cafes. People are thinking that "aw man that guy put his car in front of mine". I think my stall is number 21 (?), and I keep walking back and forth looking for it but can't find it, there are a lot of cars and motorcycles behind the glass walled little cubbies/stalls for the cars.

+ going out with family from room to swimming pool area with lifeguard there (black female?) we're looking our door with a stange key / lock with shaped hollow regions, we lock the door then I want to check that the key will open it again, there were lots of people around, my vision zooms to the key and the lock.

Slept fairly deeply, don't recall any significant wakings. Also had 2 hour nap from 14:30 until 16:44, not recall

I'm busily running around a modular home, my home, cleaning here and there. I'm carrying a broom in my hands. Lydia says she wants to go to the dance and get dressed up. I smile and think it's a nice idea. Jackson comes up behind me and walks up to Lydia, telling her no and snapping at her. She gets a sad look on her face and puts her head down, walking into another room. I get really pissed and walk up to Jackson. I whisper angrily for him to shut up and stop telling her what she can and can't do. I threaten to kick him out if he keeps hurting her like that. He gets pissed and tells me to mind my own business. I walk up to him quickly and get in his face, pushing the broom handle into his chest. I tell him that I'm fucking serious and I will kick him out of my house if he doesn't do as I say. I tell him that he has no right to control Lydia and he needs to make her happy or get the hell out. He backs away from me, mumbling and kind of pissy, but he agrees and backs off. I then look down and notice that I'm wearing a new dress and I'm all dolled up for the dance. I grab a guy's hand and pull him to the backyard where we are all gonna play a game. The backyard is a huge dirt field with hay and many sacks of potatoes. We all grab a potato and three of us race down lanes. When we reach the end, we turn around and throw the potato to the next person. I laugh as the next person catches my potato.

LUCID
*I noticed a Theravada monk chanting by a stupa mounted right next to a road. When me and my brother walked closer to him he walked away like he didn't wanna be bothered. We continued to walk doing some other stuff. We walked across this highway enter pass then I realized a could fly and that I was dreaming. I had the urge to show off in front of some DCs, so I did. I walked away thinking why do I waste my time on this nonsense, do I really need to boast my dream ego? There were two people on the street that I were trying to show off for. I don't remember a response from them after a flew up to the telephone line and came back down. Me and brother ended up at this book store. I thought of the idea of that Alan Wallace said about shape shifting the dream through the power of conceptual designation. I tried this and it didn't not work at the time. I notice a Indian girl walking with her mom, she said a very nice ass. I tried to will her pants to come down so I can get a better look at her ass haha. Again this didn't not work. She did climb up this latter thing and yes I got a better look. haha Thank You subconscious.

*I remember talking to roberto on the phone about how high I was off cannabis. I think I was about to put some clothes in the wash.

*There was a vision of the holy of india were the Buddha attained enlightment. There something being said about tara ma and her mantra. I can't remember who was saying it. Someone also said that gayatri mantra was also I good one. I thought but wait this is a hindu mantra how? There was also a scene with the Karmapa.

i decided to be homless after getting in a fight with my parents. so im walking down down anita then i see bailey running around with out a leash. i herd her up the hill until we reach a park. its dusk and i can see silloutestes of dog walkers through the hills in the park. i contemplate taking her in hoping she doesnt attack anyone. we start running through the hills at night. its a lot of fun. we run into a ra ndom vape shop in the middle of the park with these two girls working their. i hit their vape once and blow vapor all in this girls face . i apolagiize. i see igor in their

later we are all just kicking it and i see bailey escape out the door so i try and chase her but she is chasing something. then out of no where this ugly cat attacks my leg and i run inside. it turns out the cat was an ipad which seemed to make sense in my dream but doesnt any more

then later in the dream im at the Bart station alone. i decide to lay down on the ground and take a nap. also i remember a man who could go into anytown..but he always knew somehow exactly when to leave before he would get shot. he one day runs into this kid who doesnt speak but is miming him to get like a cooler and stuf. the man being selfish uses the cooler for himself to set u p a beach house. the kid dies and later people come for reveng

I've been out since the 4th April, and I haven't been in very good conditions or mindsets for lucid dreaming, or even basic recall for that matter. My mind has simply been elsewhere, distracted by the friends and family I have been with. My sleeping patterns were all over the place.I got home yesterday and spent the day getting back into the swing of things, learning about different methods of attaining lucidity. I read quite a lot about WILD last night. I have been practicing my self-awareness techniques each day though, probably not as much as at first, but still keeping it going. I enjoy being aware even outside of this dreaming business, it opens the world up to you in a way you'd forgotten. I'm looking at old places I've seen many times and it feels like since my awareness has went up my ability to relate with what I'm looking has has increased 10 fold, it's like I'm reliving strong vivid memories when I look at old places I used to visit now.

From the 4th I tried to recall some dreams, but I only had one recall the first night, and it was extremely vague. I forgot to write up a detail account after I committed to waking up, and now my tag method doesn't help me remember much. The days that followed up until last night were dreamless, I probably had one or two vague recalls but I forgot them as soon as they arrived and now I'm not sure if they ever existed!

4th April Dream
I found myself watching some sort of fair ride from above, like the pirate ship that sways in different directions. There was no pirate ship however, it was just a floor instead. Other people were on it, and it only swayed enough in each direction to wobble us. It was night time, and the environment felt calm and fun, but suddenly it felt as if I had a job to do. I then appeared far away from the place I had been, looking at it from a field. I was sitting on a or against a car, and I fired a flare into the sky. The dream fades here, and then a new place appears, and I was looking at myself in the mirror, noticing that all the facial hair on the right side of my face was growing out of control.

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Last night

Time of sleep: 2:00am
Time of first awakening: Unsure (forgot completely to log the time!) | Reason: Natural awakening

Dream 1
I know there was a dream involving my ex, but I can't remember it at all.

Dream 2
I was in bed with one of the most beautiful red heads I have ever seen, though her face is faded in my memory now. I was having sex with her but the focus of the dream was not on that aspect, it was more about a passionate kind of exchange with communication, something genuine and pure. She laughed and made me laugh.

Dream 3
It seemed like me and some dude had been spawned into a place where we were under immediate threat from something. We were on dark streets, and the threat was of mindless thugs out to find and kill us. We quickly found ourselves in some building, and the terror of the threat was so intense that even with our handguns we still tried to hide. I suggested we just hide in the plain room we found ourselves in, which was old and packed with furniture that seemed to be held for storage. We climbed to the back past chairs and couches, stepped through gaps and hid at the back. I remember slotting down in between a couch and something else, and pulling a sheet over myself. My companion seemed not to invest too much care in his hiding, and was easier to see. I think I remember us bickering about it. We quieted down and waited, hearing noises that filled us with fear. After a while I realized I could stop the threat, and suddenly I was spawned outside the building. It was no longer night time, and I was heading towards some gangsters that were waiting by the road for some other gangsters to arrive. As they did, I casually walked over and shot them all in the back before they knew what was happening.

Time of final awakening: 12:00am
Total time slept: Roughly 10 hours
Total alarms used: 1
Total awakenings: 3 | Natural: 2-3 | Alarms: 1
Did I do a waking journal recall of my day before I went to sleep: Yes
Did I do any awareness concentration: Roughly 30-40 minutes of physical awareness of my entire body, on my back

Date: 4/8/2014 (Mon)
Total sleep: 6.75 hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Awareness, Mantras
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization, Reading Dream Journal
Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization, Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
Dream 1 Title: (Fragment) Bike Ride
Dream 1: I am riding my old BMX bike along the main street of my town. I am with a friend (but I don’t know him in real life). He is wearing a white t-shirt, blue jeans, and dark blue Converse sneakers. He is riding in front of me on a red BMX style bike (the rims have regular spokes). It is a warm summer day. The trees are covered in green leaves. We swerve off the road onto a dirt path which leads behind a chain link fence on our left. I can see tall green grass on both sides of the path, and taller grass around the fence. The fence is old, the galvanized steel has grown gray with spots of rust. We peddle up a slight incline and I can see a sharper incline (about 10 feet high) in front of us. We stop at the bottom. I know the incline leads to rail road tracks. I know we are trying to get to the high school and the tracks won’t take us there. I say, “I think we should go back and stay on the street.” The dream fades and I wake up at 4:15 am.
Dream 2 Title: The Moon Makes Me Lucid (**Lucid**)
Dream 2: I am in my old house, the first house where I lived with my wife and daughter. I am lying on a mattress, under a white comforter. The mattress is on the living room floor near the large front window. The room looks very similar to reality. I can see the yellow painted walls, the white painted steam heater in front of the window, the light colored wood of the hardwood floor, and the large white framed window. I can see the reflection of the moon on the shine of the hardwood floor. Something doesn’t feel right to me. I roll over onto my back and see my wife next to me, on my left (which is the wrong side of the bed for her). She is snuggled under the blanket so I can only see her wavy blond hair and her face from the nose up. Behind her I can see my daughter laying on the floor under a white blanket. Beyond her I can see the fireplace. I turn back to the window. Outside I can see the large maple tree and beneath it the low stone wall. I can see the neighboring houses beyond the tree. I look upward and see a brilliant moon between the bare branches of the tree. I still feel that something isn’t right. I stare at the moon. It is very bright and much larger than I have ever seen it. I can clearly see the craters on the surface. As I stair I start to wonder if I’m dreaming. Then the craters begin to shift and swirl. The bottom section of the moon begins to disappear. Then I remember that I was back at my real home, in bed, just a little while ago. I am lucid without a reality check. I throw the blankets off of me and stand up. I am no longer in the living room. I am now out in the front yard, but the mattress, my daughter, and the fireplace are all there as well. My wife and daughter are sitting up and looking at me. I say, “I’m Dreaming!” Neither respond. I remember my goal to fly into space, but I don’t remember to stabilize the dream. I also remember that last time I tried to jump to fly it wake me up. I levitate off the ground and float up into the tree branches. I’m annoyed as the branches poke me and I worry I will get tangled. I float away from the tree and begin to fly upward. I am feeling such joy at being lucid again. My eyes are on the night sky, which is now overcast. I will myself to go faster, I want to hit supersonic speed and leave the atmosphere as quickly as possible. I can feel the wind on my face and the g-force increase as it pushed the skin on my face back. I can still only see the clouds and darkness above me. I worry that the dream is going to collapse so I decided to look down at the ground so I have something more upon which to focus. I awaken. I am back in the front yard of my old house laying on some blankets. I am no longer lucid. I can clearly see the yellow vinyl siding, the white framed windows, the stone steps leading up to the white side door, the large front window, and the bushes. My wife and daughter are there and are picking up blankets and clothing off the ground. I get up and begin searching for my notebook so I can write down my lucid dream. I am looking under cloths and blanket, but just can’t find it. I’m very annoyed because I don’t want to forget the dream. My in-laws walk out of the door of the house and into the yard. I say to my mother in lay, “I just had a lucid dream.” I start to explain the dream to her, but the dream fades and I awake. It is 4:47 am.
Awake: 4:47 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 5; D2 = 12
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 5; D2 = Lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 2 min; D2 = 10 min
Emotions: Joy, Annoyance, Worry
Dream Signs: Riding old BMX bike, Being a kid again, Back at old house, laying on a mattress in the living room/font yard
Notes: I took magnesium before bed. I read my dream journal, meditated, visualized being lucid in a dream, stated my intent to wake up after each dream and remember my dreams, and repeated my mantra before I dozed off. I did wake up several times after 4 of my dreams, but couldn’t recall the first 2. I did not get frustrated by the lack of recall. I reminded myself that I am in the early stages of learning and I will continue to improve. I stated my mantra each time I awoke until I dozed back off. This LD happed exactly like my recent ones. I woke up after 4 am from a dream. I made some mental notes about the dream. I stated my mantras as I dozed off. Then, while I was dreaming, my awareness was much higher. I could “feel” that something wasn’t right. Then something trigged me to remember being back in my RL bed shortly before the dream. I do need to work on stabilizing the dream. This particular dream hasn’t left me with as much of a “high” as other recent LDs. I feel it is due to the false awakening. The lucid part of my dream doesn’t feel as vivid to me because I didn’t come straight from lucidity to being awake. I have to work on RCs after all awakenings.
I am going to change my goals for LDs. My #1 priority is to get lucid as often as possible. The experience of being lucid is the best way for me to have more LDs. When I am having them more often then I can start setting goals for what I want to do in the dreams. For now I just want to stabilize the dream, explore and do what I feel like at the time. I just want to gain more experience.

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Lucidity


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