side notes

2/13/15
325am wake from fantastic flying lucid dream. Starts with wife and I getting separated on these outdoor terraces and stairs in a nice setting somewhere overseas it seems like. I retrace my steps and try going where I think she ended up by going a new way and eventually find her with our fashion friend G who is having a show. The models are coming. We are inside this huge and busy fancy conference center wide hallway area and wife and G jump up on side wall to sit...no space for me so I stand. At some point I something catches my eye maybe this train carrying stuff for a traveling pro soccer team. We may be in England. I get on the train unknowingly and a guy comes delivering a slice of pizza like at a sporting event and I say not my order. Guy to my left claims it and I switch to a train going back the other direction so I can rejoin wife. I start swinging out from the train involuntarily at first but as it gets more and more fantastic flying and hanging on, I realize I'm dreaming and let go and fly. No longer concerned where my wife is I explore this huge conference center by air. It has different sections with different themes. Huge atrium. Huge auditorium. Big outdoor "Polish training" area on the rocky underside exterior (left side of complex). On same side is a parking garage and this is where I start to get the attention of security and start having flying issues where I decide I have a jet pack to assist and reach around my right back side to push the ignition button. That helps for a little while but I am now flying in a limited height area in the parking garage and security is trying to grab me. I throw a few bursts of energy from my hand but I feel a little tired of all of this chasing and let them pull me down and I wake up smiling. I am leaving a good deal of detail out (lazy, sorry) but the lucid section went on a good 10 minutes or more. Wow! Apple juice I think played a part in the vividness and wealth of visuals and scenes built after an early 3 hour WBTB. 353


*Jacuzzi threesome!! Walking past freshmen but big sports recruited freshmen and I convince a few of my group to call out "we smell (freshmen)!" (nothing like me to do this back in high school, much less now.) One guy with us says those guys will kick your ass. I think maybe they are recruited out of the ghetto and he probably has a point. Enough of that and we walk on. Memory gap and myself, wife and a sexy woman go into a separate hotel room from the rest of the group - this must be a dream! I head towards the big jacuzzi in our room get undressed and ask if anyone wants to join me. My wife climbs in and my hand motions to the sexy woman with us to climb in also. Their clothes disappeared in an instant when I looked back to invite them in. My wife didn't object and I held them each - wife on left and other woman on right and gently nudged them towards each other for a kiss. So hot!!! I think this went into an FA because I don't remember anything more after this.

I had one other sexual dream of a woman stripping bare in front of me but the memory is hazy I think I tried to go back in too many times and it was also a late late dream where I sometimes (but no more if I can help it) get a reduction of vividness and clarity. Not clear enough to mark as a 3rd LD, so I won't.


2/12/15
9am S has a little sister? No that's S (herself), her hair is just cut shorter. So cute in her bobbed haircut. Others here sitting in family room. Someone is performing or drawing attention and #deceasedFatherInLaw comes in standing tall and so much like I remember him. I almost say this is a dream out loud but I decide no need to. I am firmly lucid. I mess with a few DC's in the room and head towards the front of the house but that section is dark and the whole dream goes black. I stay calm and can feel I am still in the dream realm and decide to start to imagine my favorite water "rebirth." At first I get a slightly musty smell. Interesting. I start to feel the slight sensation of being in water and I wanted it to be significant waves but near shore and I started feeling it more and more but when I expected to see the shore I instead found myself indoors standing between a kitchen and family room. I see a door and am intrigued as to what might be on the other side. I open the door and it is dark and I don't want to lose visuals again so I keep one foot in the door and peek left and right. Visuals form down to the right but no DC's. It is 3 cubicle looking sections each with an old fashioned school desk facing a teachers desk in a very classic stereotypical scene. I look back inside the door where I came from and see a few DC's now including an attractive woman. I start to make out with her and lift up her top and while I am caressing her breasts her head becomes a boiling cooking pot full of some delicious looking beef stew. Weird! I then remember that I had some goals I wanted to do and I think about my memory pegs. I skip past peg 1 and 2 for some reason, perhaps because peg 3 was an older important goal I had forgotten about and hadn't re-prioritized until a day or two ago. The goal is to heal my back with a ball of white light. I decide two is better than one so I hold out both hands and just know and feel the white light in each hand and reach around to my back and place the white light on each side of my lower spine. It feels like it did something and I decide to reinforce the idea by bounding around the room pain free. (It seemed as if I hardly noticed the pain the next day, though I was sure the damage was still there based on less direct signs). After relishing my pain free back I pause to think about the next peg I wanted to do and seem to have trouble in the few seconds before fading all the way back to bed.

1045?Amazing dreamlets I continued with amazingly vivid clarity and very imaginative. Deep kitchen sink and swimming in clean water as a miniature.
Me tiny at my water fountain.
Me as a human looking at a tiny me to that me and then again down to an ant wondering into the nest through the tunnels and down to the queen ant.
Me in my bathroom downstairs. Enter toilet, nah. Sink drain, nah. Fresh water plumbing yes! House pipes to big main to treatment plant to aqueducts to reservoir to waterfall and river feeding reservoir to swimming with the salmon upstream!!! 1104 wake. (Not as good as an LD but amazing vividness for daydreaming).



2/11/15
sharing a bed with several people perhaps a hotel on a trip and I suggest laying sideways for more room for all. I end up next to #wifeSister #sisterInLaw and she doesn't mind that I see her in bra - I am dreaming - and we both get frisky. I touch her breasts and think about going downtown but not appealing to me. But! I stick my ahem in her mouth and she starts slow as if falling asleep then starts doing it how my very nicely like she is getting rather excited. Nice! Others on bed start moving around including wife. I don't seem worried. #GirlFriday is here also! She sits up on her knees on the bed and starts unbuttoning her red short shorts! She gets up and goes to corner just behind the door and finishes removing her shorts but just out of view. So hot! I think about shining my phone light over at her but have some doubt now.


Trippy elevator ride! Going up at angle again. Warpy feeling. We want to stop at 164th floor and we seem excited? Goes one past. stops several other floors before 165(?) picking up passengers.

Side notes:
Got a very bright white light at awakening in right corner of my right eye both 2/11 and 2/13 long before sunrise - completely dark!. Weird! Very strong hypnopompic hallucination. On 2/11 I noted: Bright light! I thought moon was shining through window into my eye but no! Even considered if a flashlight could have been weilded by someone. On 2/13 it was still fascinating but I had a better idea of what was happening.

My use of SSILD seems to have become too rote and I have switched over to dream control and dream sign based visualization as I fall to sleep especially at WBTB but it has also worked (resulted in an LD) after a seemingly too early WBTB after only 3 hours of sleep. Visualizations seem to be instrumental in creating DILD triggers. Some quick dream sign mantras the night of my most reliable dream sign (deceased father in law) may have played a part that night. I pretty much dependent on some form or length of WBTB to become lucid reliably.

Changing up RC triggers.

Before I start this particular journal, I haven't quit again, I was just loaded with so much homework that I couldn't touch my laptop for two weeks. I decided to buckled down and finish off everything, it was especially painful to not record any dreams this week because for some reason I was having a lucid dream every second night. The dreams were really short though and it seemed like I was being kicked out of the dream when I became Lucid. Last night however, I managed to finally stabilise the dream and actually enjoy myself for a little bit. I'm also going to add another colour for semi-lucidity because I got myself into a really weird situation while semi-lucid.

Non-Lucid
Questioning
Semi-Lucid
Lucid

Fragment:
I was infiltrating a building in hopes to gather some information about an enemy company. I was climbing floor after floor and sneaking past, or killing everyone to progress. I found my way to the top and found a glass container which I opened. I saw the hulk in the contianer and started to run. After a memory gap I was at the bottom floor and Bruce Banner was blocking my exit, there was an explosion and a huge piece of rubble hit him across the head. He began turing into the hulk and I knew I had to get out quickly, I ran up to him and punched him multiple times but he just grabbed me and threw me back. I grabbed ametal rod and hit him with that but it just made him angrier. He threw back his head and screamed and I took the chance to get out. The dream ended there.

I was at my school and Lucid for no particular reason, I prepared for everything to go blurry and wake me up but I didn't, in fact, everything became crystal clear and I saw a large group of people huddled by some lockers, I walked towards them but they began to disperse and break of into smaller groups, there were alot of people and I decided I would try to summon J. I tried my dream voice out and it seemed slightly muted but it sounded like me for the most part. I called out to J and turned around and she was there, I ran up to her to say hi but she looked disinterested and walked away. I decided to look for some of my other friends and found them at my locker talking. I walked up to I and asked if he wanted to hear something awesome, he said yes and I told him that he was in my lucid dream. He looked amazed and I decided to do something else. I walked back to the large group and looked towards the gates, I decided to summon an army and sure enough, an army of man sized flies flew out from the horizon and landed in the carpark. I ran towards them and decided I wanted to fly, my first jump failed, my second jump was higher than the first, my third jump was low gravity and I put my arms out to fly but came back to earth, I jumped higher than humanly possible and reached the fly-men before I hit the ground. I drop-kicked one of them and jumped again, punching another in the process. There was a memory gap and I found myself in a library giving a presentation on holograms to the fly people, the hologram looked awesome and I was playing around with it before I woke up.

I'm really happy with that, it was so much fun and I have no clue how I did it when I've been really busy over the past two weeks. I won't be able to do anything over the week now as I'm too busy but I can update my dream journal on the weekend.

A real "fist-pumping" ("Yes!") night, finally.

earlier:

+ restaurant: piles of ravioli, pop a frozen meatball into my mouth, spit it out as it thaws

+ amnesia girlfriend letter, we can start anew, move away

In a private house. My girlfriend's mother is warning me that my letter to my (ex girlfriend?) may have been discovered by my current girlfriend, who may want to break up with me over it. I'm trying to decide if I should tell the truth or make something up. In the end I decide to tell the truth. That's good because my girlfriend in fact found the letter. We sit on the couch to discuss it, her friend is with us. At one point I see one of their faces and make note of her pale blue eyes.

I say that I have amnesia, I honestly can't remember anything that happened before (trigger!), and I think this is great for us because we can now have a fresh start. The GF's friend says "You guys can have a fresh start", and I say "exactly!". I say "we can move away from here [it's expensive to live where we do," but then I think I hate moving, I don't want to pack all this stuff up in to damn boxes. "Maybe to Europe" (no, too expensive) "or Asia somewhere."

+ chinese restaurant counter: order rice several times, cancel them all, then they all arrive, chef offers sparzha-like thing on chopsticks, says "Jung Jie!"

I'm sitting at a counter at a Chinese restaurant (with a two-level shelf in front of me like in a sushi restaurant) in front of the open kitchen. I'm ordering rice and fried rice over and over again using an automated ordering system, and keep canceling the orders, something wasn't right. Then every single rice dish I ordered arrives, about 3-4 little round stainless trays of white rice, and a larger tray of brownish fried rice. Oops, looks like I got all those orders. Then the chef stands in front of me behind the counter and holds out a bite of some wrinkly looking thing like sparzha with chopsticks:



and he says "Jung Jie!" which I think means "eat this!"

+ shoot-out with seizure-faking, freeloading partner who wants to steal my wealth, both guns unloaded, the team gets back together and (runs along rooftops?)

I'm walking through my house, the rooms are full of soft furniture. I find my partner (in business? gang?) sitting in the bathroom, he is unresponsive. He is shaking like he is having a seizure. Foamy spit is dripping down him and covering his hands. I leave him. I then return, I'm angry that he's faking seizures, I'm sure he wants to steal my property, he's living like a freeloader now. I encounter him again, this time his whole (basically naked) body flops onto the ground and he has more "seizures", his body looks extraordinarily lean and gaunt.

We simultaneously present pistols and point them at each other, and pull the trigger at the same time, neither gun fires. We do this a few more times(?).

Outdoors, our gangs/teams are getting back together, I notice some of them are running along the edges of the rooftops of the buildings around us.

+(f) I'm putting my prized bicycle pump into the shopping cart, "it's a great pump," I hope I get it back

+ travel past street of childhood home, point it out to friends, continue through neighborhood becoming increasingly bizarre (property borders extended into streets), the streets become slick steep colored stone ("You can't even ride a bicycles on that!" I exclaim), the environment becomes psychedelic, acid-trippy shapes and colors, fairy-tale surroundings in wacky colors, mushroom statue, scarab temple, explode the scarab priest with my power. I'm astounded at the environment. [This is why I recall dreams, wow.]

I'm walking up F from the LH side (with the bicycle pump group?) and we pass HC on the left, I recognize it and look back to the left and point out my childhood home to the group. The house seems to be a bit like a castle with turrets, etc. We continue walking forwards and down the other side of F towards A. I'm observing the houses on the left as we walk forwards. It's like their property lines were extended. Reaching the corner of F and A, the house on the corner's property line has extended will in to the street and they have built up into this extended area, I think they somehow extended their property in to the street, the houses all look modified. I continue forwards, then look to the left down A street, and notice that it's too narrow now for cars to drive on it, it's just barely wider than a foot path now, and is cobbled in large chunks of jagged stone.

Walking farther down F towards the park beyond A, the houses and landscape are completely not like reality now, the land has become steeply rolling hills, there are houses before me and behind me, fences along the side. The colors have become dark but intense: purples, browns, greens, very psychedelic. Ahead of me is a mushroom statue/fountain, about 4 feet high. I'm amazed at this landscape. I notice the "road" F is now a path on my right, it is paved in slick strips of stone and is bumpy, I exclaim "you can't even ride a bike on that!"

Off to the left I notice a "temple" and enter. Life-sized scarab beetles are worshipping here. I extend my hand towards the priest scarab and will my power into its body so that it will inflate and then explode.

mid-late:

+ observing house down the hill below childhood home backyard which I can fully see into: pet escaped/not fed, woman with mascara

I'm in my childhood home's back lawn, looking farther down the hill to then next house which is 20 or so feet below the lawn, I can see inside and see the people and furnishings. A mother and a child are there, and a pet cage, did the child forget to close/feed the animal? The mother walks around and I catch a glimpse of her face, dark hair with a lot of mascara, I think I've seen her before, (she looks at me briefly?)

+ flight full at airport counter, "But I'm on a business trip!", agent tries to modify ticket so I can get on

I'm at an airport departure gate, I'm looking for the place where we enter the plane, it's beyond the airport counter so I can't just walk there I must go in the line. There's a long line of people standing to talk to an attendant, I go up to another attendant to find out if I need to stand in that longer line. I get out my boarding passes which are the standard rectangular "punch card" paper, and fumble for them to give them, the attendant looks at them and notes they are marked "GC?" (gate clogged?") she says that this means the airplane is overbooked. "But I'm on a business trip!" I say I can't be delayed. She starts talking about how they need to re-issue my tickets for another date (earlier?) so that I can then get on the plane. She says she has to call one guy but he plays by the rules (so it won't work?)

late:

+ (lucid #98) planning some "personal activities," door's open, close door at top of stairs, childhood home, there is no door there, get lucid, downstairs, enjoy the sights, affirm body in bed/waking world/dream-fantasy, take off blurring glasses, go to next room, super bright ultra HD, counter of clerks, tell the girls to come to me, all ignore me, I go back and "firmly encourage" one to engage, feels great, wake up in a few seconds

I'm in a bedroom kneeling before a bed, I'm thinking of performing some "personal activities," I think this is a great position why didn't I think of this before? I'm thinking about some "toys" which may be useful and think of some activities. I notice the door to the room is open, not good, better go close it. I step out into the hallway and recognize I left my sister's bedroom into the upstairs hallway of my childhood home. I reach forwards and close the door at the top of the stairs, I think about punching the lock, there's nobody in the hallway right now. I start to head back to the room and stop and look at that door. There is no such door in this house. The door looks sort of faint and transparent. I suspect a dream and do a nose plug and am now lucid. I head directly down the stairs.

I note that there is a white couch at the bottom of the stairs (false). As I turn towards the left into the living room I catch glimpse of a bright light in the dining room. I walk into the living room and do the Sageous memory-activating affirmation: "I realize my physical body is out there in the waking world asleep in bed and this entire experience is a fantasy taking place inside my mind." I turn around and for a second think maybe too quickly, but things are stable. I think "careful, don't want to think too much of the sleeping body" but the dream is stable. I do notice that vision has become blurred so I reach of and take off the "blurring goggles/glasses" and vision fully returns. I walk a bit back towards the stairs and think about TOTM, but I can't remember any tasks and so I drop it.

I move into the dining room and it is very very bright there, I see a large chandelier with many taper-shaped bulbs. The place now is a large bright room with people in it behind a counter. I note that the faces and objects are ultra-HD. I'm looking at the people behind the counter and notice a few cute girls. I mention for one to come out, but the people just sort of keep shuffling back and forth and ignore me with occasional glances my way.

I get annoyed and decide to go to them, I duck under the counter and go behind it, and walk up to a DC, grab its head and give it a command to perform an action, which it does begin, it feels great for a few seconds, and then the dream fades.

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massive night, multiple waking each with recall (though fragmented later), final (late) waking beyond my ability to remember beyond fragments, one short DILD.

early (3 hrs):
+ viewing a medium-sized suburban apartment/home complex while narrator discusses rebuilding projects and changes to the rules about rebuilding, I think it's a bad deal to buy there

+ friend DD's (stolen?) forbidden luxury (purple?) fancy sports car

+(f) the young (girl?) says the team has taken ownership

middle (6hrs):

+ transferring funds into dollars, at the outside ATM, angry at (mother?), Indian man "who makes everyone happy" in parking lot at park, turns out he abused and murdered a child, I'm upset that I shook his hand

+ guest (cousin?) in large family, girls playing naked turn out to be guys, go upstairs & view colorful constructions, closeup of car "guaranteed to win"

+ famous actor wanted the job, he kidnapped/locked up two children, they're filthy, poop on the trail, the boy dies, medical explanation with props on a table and petrie dishes

+ (lucid #97) strange eclipse/things in sky, stand up through roof in car and say "come take me away!", return to parking lot at park and replay the scene trying to calm angry guy (me?), lose lucidity, dead bird head in mouth between guy & girl during kiss

I'm sitting in the back seat of a car driving on a straight highway at night, it's dark. I'm sitting on the left side and looking out the window into the night sky to the left. There are medium-sized rolling hills looming in the distance, and above the hill line are two groups of celestial objects. I'm looking at them and there's something odd about them. One is too large for a star, too small for a moon. It looks like an eclipse of several objects taking the same place. It's just too weird, I think "what's going on here?" I may be dreaming, I reach for my nose to do an RC, when my fingers pinch my nose I'm fully lucid without having to try to breathe since my nose feels wrong, insubstantial. I'm continuing to look out the window and right when I get lucid two bright star objects swoop down a bit and to the left from the eclipse cluster, I think they're acknowledging my lucidity. What to do? I'm traveling in a car at night with nobody around. I decide to exit car by standing up and phasing through the roof, I will face no resistance. I successfully stand up on the back seat with my upper body outside the car in the night. I look up to the stars/ships and call to them "Come and take me away!" but they do not come. I look forwards in the direction of travel and see only an infinite expanse of empty, featureless gray, it "feels" sort of depressing.

I'm back in the parking lot with the angry-at-mother parking incident, but now I'm standing behind my former self who was angry, (now my son S2?), and I'm trying to calm him down, "take a deep breath", I'm rubbing his shoulders, he's still angry , I lose lucidity, we reach the area of the parked car and there's a scene that replays once to show the detail of how a bird flew down to the upholstered bench where a guy and girl are sitting, squeezed through the seat/back down to the ground where a (cat?) chewed it up, and then the guy kissed the girl but he had the dead head of the bird between his lips and transferred it to the girls' lips.

late (8 hrs then 10 hrs?):

+ girl/woman has put the foot torture device on a man and is describing its features slowly turning up the pain levels as the man/they walk along

+(f) infrequently used jazz room at the top of the stairs, how will I sleep?

+(f) encounters on a stairway

+(f) pulling/pushing luggage around

+(f) someone pulls a thread on a costume, making it disappear (and burst into flames?)

+(f) lots of interaction with people (students?) living in a large home

Recall: 35 dreams
Lucid 5 times

In the old days when I used to train LD

Tuesday Night:

DILD

I became lucid while I was in some kind of prison. I showed these two enormous, mythical creatures with hidden, dark faces and giant hats some cool powers. I made them both levitate in the air for a few seconds.

They looked like that but huuuuge.
They thought I was pretty cool for being so powerful. I then saw one of my old friends that had been part of the dream before I became lucid. His body was distorted because he had been mutilated. I promised him that I could make him clones of his body to put his consciousness into, as many as he wanted! I followed the line of inmates into another room while I continued to talk to my old friend, his face slowly looked less mutilated the longer we talked. Woke up.


Wednesday Night:

Before this night, I practiced being lucid in a dream while I was awake. I noticed that I constantly had thoughts that the dream was going to end soon, I let myself relax and I reprogrammed my expectations. I began to believe that I could actually stay in a dream for a long time and that it didn't have to end, because I had been in the waking lucid dream for so long. I knew that I could relax and enjoy my dreams without any pressure to hurry. I felt much more confident when I went to sleep, all thanks to Dreamer's wonderful advice and wisdom

DILD #1

I was talking with Keannu Reeves and a couple other movie people when they all suddenly started talking about lucidity. They started individually saying to me that I was lucid. Then they all said it in unison, "You are lucid!"
I repeated back at them in agreement, "You're right, I am lucid!!"
They repeated it again, "You are lucid!!!"
I repeated back at them, "I'm lucid!!!!"
I got really excited and woke up into a false awakening.

DILD #2

I was in my parents' room with Dreamer, I was telling her about the dream that I just had. While I was recounting the details to her, she said something that Keannu Reeves had said, but I didn't tell her that part yet. I cocked my head to the side and squinted my eyes at her while saying, "How did you...wait a minute..."
I did a noseplug RC and realized it was a dream.
I grabbed her hand and she went limp. I picked her up with one hand, then proceeded to fly up into the ceiling. I went straight through the roof while I imagined that D.R. island would be on the other side. The first attempt failed and I fell back down to the ground. The second time I got through the roof and there was another roof above that roof to get through, I fell back down. I started to get a little bit frustrated but I tried again and got through all the roofs only to discover that this room was in a giant void. At that point I was super frustrated and I woke up. Upon waking, I realized that I had woken up because I was getting all worked up about my dream control not working. So I made sure that next time I would remember Dreamer's advice, "Don't worry about one thing not working because you can always try something else!"

DILD #3

I was visiting my parents with Dreamer. My dad had said something about how much he missed me and that he was going to make green chili. He wanted to know if I was going to have any and I basically said that I would if it didn't have any pork in it. I remember looking at my arms and seeing tattoos all over them, I thought that was very strange.

I don't remember how I became lucid.

In my earliest memories of the lucid part of the dream I phased through several walls just to make sure that I could. I was super calm in this dream and not worried at all about waking up, it was really nice.
I wanted to get outside so I tried to run through a window head first. I bounced off and fell on my bum. I tried to calmly walk through it, didn't work. I remembered that I didn't need to worry because I could always try something else. I imagined that there was a handle at the bottom of the window that I could use to open it. I reached towards the bottom of the window and slowly opened it, then crawled through it to get outside. It was a very windy day but I was really happy that I didn't have to wake up and I felt peaceful. I calmly walked through the dream and decided it might be good to farm some points for Sensei's competition while I ventured towards D.R. island. I imagined that gravity was pulling me towards the sky rather than the ground. I flipped upside down then started to float down towards the sky. I changed gravity back to normal before it got too strong. I saw several red bicycles in trees and on roofs around me. I made them fly through the air towards me and sent them shooting off with the wind. While they were flying away, I slowed down time and the colour of the world changed to have a blueish tint. The colours went back to normal when time sped up again. I then made a couple fire balls appear in my hands. I noted how incredibly realistic and beautiful they were before I threw them off into the distance. They exploded when they made contact with stuff.

I should also mention that while I was doing all of this shameless point farming, the world around me was slowly transforming into a lush, green forest. Trees were sprouting up and this incredibly vivid green grass began to appear everywhere.

After I did the fireball thing I tried to fly upwards into the sky at RIDICULOUS speed, didn't work so well. I kind of floated upwards really slowly then floated back to the ground. I remembered the super tasks that I could do for a few more points. I used my super strength to fling a really heavy table that was bolted to the ground way far into the sky, then I moved super quickly so that I left a trail of my image behind me as I was moving.

At this point I looked around and saw that I was at D.R. and I was really excited.

I did a little dance and then thought about summoning Dreamer and The Chocolate Cake Man. But first, I noticed this strange thing in the dream. There was a dark line across the ground and past that line it was night time and the trees were different. I went across the line to see what it was all about but when I turned around, there was a giant curtain. I opened the curtain and the beautiful D.R. landscape was gone, I had accidentally teleported to some dark, night time land. I closed the curtain then reopened it to try to teleport back to D.R. but instead I got to some minecraft looking land. But it was bright there so I figured that was better than this dark place.

The curtains closed behind me and disappeared. I tried to summon The Chocolate Cake Man and Dreamer right in front of me by making them come through portals. The air started to get all wavy as though a portal was forming, but it didn't work. I reached behind my back and waited for Dreamer to take my hand, didn't work. I called out to the dream, "Where arrre you Dreamer?"
She didn't appear. I asked for The Chocolate Cake Man to come to me instead. He appeared instantly, along with several other random DCs. He had blue pants, a green shirt, and a black cloth over his face. He also looked like he was made out of legos. I asked him if he was The Chocolate Cake man. He nodded. The dream started to end. I asked him, "Why are you so special?"
He responded by saying something about absolute and unconditional love when it was needed but I forgot exactly what he said upon waking.

WILD

I had finally gotten into a dream after trying to WILD for about an hour. It started in a car with my mom, she was driving me to her house. I got really excited and said to myself, "I will not lose lucidity, I will not lose lucidity, I will not lose lucidity!"
By the time we got to the house, I had forgotten I was in a dream.
I wandered around the house and noticed there was green chili cooking in the kitchen. I went into the bathroom and saw my ukulele sitting in the sink with water pouring on it. I picked it up and looked at myself in the mirror. I had a huge vein on my forehead and I thought that was pretty neat, I like forehead veins for some reason. I started to walk outside with my wet ukulele when I woke up.

your boyfriend

*I had no time to post DJ entry yesterday. I've posted them today*

SWAT

I was in the toilet. When I did my job and left the bathroom I've found myself in the government building. With another guy we were wanted. I tried to escape throug the window. It was cold morning. Sun gave slight blur over the rooftop. I couldn't see the road due to the fog. It was too high, so we both surrenderred to SWAT officers. They told us, that their job was to guard us, as mafia wants us dead. We were moving ambushed by snipers and other squads of enforcers.

A village

I saw a village and its commoners. It was in 8-bit game style.

Todays dream fragment

I was waiting for my luggage to take it out of the bus.

comp night #10

00:11 bedtime

05:40

+(f) in best friend MR's house: someone has been tidying up, there are neat piles of magazines everywhere

+(f) in some place doing something(!!)

+ the bombs are falling and mortars going off all around me, I take cover in a small tough cafe to the left

I'm talking to some guy I say yeah they're going to bomb us. I'm outside in daylight on a street in between buildings, I'm looking up into the sky behind me while I'm running forwards, I see the bombs falling down, I can't outrun them. They land, I see a mortar on the ground, how can I avoid the shrapnel? Should I lie down in the fetal position on the ground?

I see off to the left a small rounded hut it's a cafe, I lunch for it, there is a guy there sitting on a stool just inside the door I reach out my hand for him to grab and pull me inside. I get inside and sit at the counter on a stool the roof is thick curved metal it should protect us, but the window flaps are open, I close mine. Everyone else around me is eating, unconcerned. I order lunch.

Busted WBTB (up for 3 hours), on the computer in the kitchen playing a dungeon crawl game
Fell reeeeally tired now, about 08:30? 9? back to bed, I'm so tired but it still takes a long time to fall asleep, my wife's alarm goes off several times, she finally gets up.

12:13

+ playing with doll baby

I'm heading down the stairs (waking realization: childhood home) with a small baby in my hands, it's so small it's like a doll. I'm reaching the bottom of the stairs and sort of swoop it around a little bit, it doesn't like this and starts to fuss, I get concerned that it will bother the mother upstairs. I cradle it's head in my right hand. It's more like a doll, I continue to move it around, playful flying movements, it has a strange open mouth with curvy lips like an oyster shell, I think of feeding it.

+ in party where everybody hates me, huffing out, calling them names

I'm walking in between people and furniture in a small room at a party, trying to find a clear place to step, everyone here hates me, they're making disparaging remarks about me. I say "Well you're all a bunch of hags and witches. And the other thing that starts with a B!" The crowd murmurs its astonishment at this statement, and I make my exit.

+ the amazing traveling guy at work

In a large indoor space, I see suitcases/packed luggage around me. This is a small company and we have only this one amazing traveling guy, he has sold our product successfully before, making presentations to groups of 20 people all on his own, maybe with the help of one other person. I make a comment about him going on yet another trip. I imagine his face, he's sort of middle-Eastern, looks a bit like George Clooney, salt and pepper hair.

+ shoot-out in the multi-level apartment/home with the fancy front door

DO from up on the higher level looking down, like watching a show. Two guys arrive into the ground floor, one looks like Seth Rogen, he's behaving goofy, like looking deeply into the security camera on a door and making gestures in front of it. The second guy is serious and is annoyed by this and stops him. The serious guy goes to another door, closer to me, which is very ornate and with a round, pointy top, like a medieval castle door, covered with rounded sculptures on its front. This door is locked, and the guy they're looking for is inside, probably upstairs. The serious guy knocks and pounds on the door. The man they're looking for emerges from a doorway across from me and walks across an open ledge towards me on the upper level. The serious guys turns and sees the man walking there and fires several shots at him from a pistol.

+ discussing the start-up with other work friends in a kitchen

I'm standing with guys from one start-up, <R>, in the work kitchen, standing close to founder J.E., talking about another company I worked for. "Yeah, I was there when it was nothing, I was employee #5 or #6, it was just like this" and I gesture around the kitchen to the small group of people standing there. "Now it's really grown, and has a ton of people, like 30 or 40 or maybe 100, and they're now in the facilities of that other company, <3>" Some (girl?) says they're not all that large or successful actually, I disagree.

+ the unattractive white-clad dancing girls: an expensive attraction for the party at work (ping pong table)

outdoors light, It's a big "friday" celebration at work, they've hired a big gang of dancing girls wearing white frilly/fuzzy costumes. I'm sitting on the ground. I look behind me and I see that a bunch of people are sitting on/under the ping pong table, and it's so bent out of shape from this that it is in the shape of a "U". The girls are dancing towards us and I notice that they are practically all quite unattractive. I think they're going to come and interact with the employees and I'm saying under my breath "oh, please, not an ugly one…"

+ trying to get to the burner, melting plastic, stuff falls down in back, annoyed butler, weird huge bottles of wine

I'm standing in a kitchen and want to warm something up on the burner, I turn it on. I'm trying to find the burner, the cooktop is standalone (no backsplash) and is so crowded with things that I can't find the burner. I notice a funny smell. I'm pushing the pile of things back to find the burner, something towards the back falls off to the floor. An elderly butler appears on my left, I think he's annoyed at how I'm just pushing around this pile of stuff. I notice finally the burner, I see a square bit of plastic wrap (like from cheese singles) on the burner, I think that's the source of the smell, I try to pick it up.

My attention is grabbed by two bottles on the counter to my right. They are large, 2-liter soda-bottle-sized bottles on wine, Dom Perignon-shaped, with bright yellow liquid / chunks inside (sort of like a lava lamp), and I'm amazed at these things, I think they're just the drinks we decided that we would never buy.

+ (lucid #96) packed party in a small room: waking life memory connection, command "brighter", it works!

This started out with basically no visuals, more just like HI, but I'm lucid from the start, perhaps was a waking moment. I try to put interpretations on to the shapes, like arms/people, and I sort of materialize a scene at a party, there's one girl who sits on my right knee and I kiss her a little. I think I need to disengage to stabilize and connect with memory. I do this, I stand up and turn the left and think "my body is asleep in bed, and this experience is all a fantasy." The visuals are basically gone to gray at this point, back to HI, I try to interpret them as people, I say several times, "Brighter!", "Brighter!" and I'm amazed that with each statement of the word, it's like somebody turns up the lights/clarity a little bit more, until I have full bright visuals. I'm enjoying the scene, it's a very small room at a party with people busy bustling around, all female . I'm checking out the adults looking for a cute one, don't find any to my taste, I notice things seem a bit "unstable" and try to clam down, and just observe. I notice that there is a conga dance line of about 20+ identical little girls in identical red dresses (with white polka dots?) moving through one part of the room. There are so many of the girls in such a small space that the line folds and bends around itself multiple times, at rectangular/right angles. I'm just looking around amazed, when I find another attractive girl and turn her to me, "this is my dream" I think I say, she does not object, and I kiss her a bit , and wake up.

goal was 45 dreams recalled and 5 lucids. Start date was 1/2, end date was 2/2.

results: 31 dreams recalled
3 lucid dreams


I need to scale back my recall goal. Things were going really well at the outset of this tracking period, but really came off the rails for the last week or so. I think I have been too uptight and pushy with my practice. I will update goals in the next day or two.

New dreaming result! I had significant (semi-epic) dreams *both* of my childhood home and my prior adult home, both in the same night (one after another I think).

Dream signs or oddities that captured my attention in the dream, funny/interesting moments in bold.

FM = false memory

This is but a taste of what I dreamed. I know scenes were forgotten, and details.

earlier:

+(f) college friend FG: hands me a piece of fish, then a piece of chicken, I take a bite of both, they're both slimy

+(f) I have FG in a headlock, I'm contemplating knocking him unconscious (editorial: serves him right for the slimy food!)

The location seems to be the doorway of my sister's bedroom in childhood home, looking out into the hallway. I see FG's face up close to mine.

later:

+ childhood home, neighbor tree with projectile-poop-shooting macaques, bathroom window, shower, visit neighbor & more macaque poop-dodging [it runs out of ammo]

I'm in my childhood home, main floor, I'm really happy to be here. I open the sliding glass door in the dining room and go out onto the deck. I stand at the railing looking at the view and look down to the trees/plants in our neighbor's yards down the hill from us. The trees look wrong, something's different. I see one of them (sort of thick, tropical looking tree, tall and skinny, with large fat leaves) is so tall that it has bent over and reaches all the way to the trees/bushes underneath our deck. This is not good, since I think that animals can climb up this tree to reach our house.

I notice movement in the tree, it turns out there's a "macaque" there about half-way up. It's attack is shooting a strong, tight stream of projectile poop+liquid from it's ass at high speed and far distances. This stream heads for me and hits me squarely in the chest / face. I detect a faint poopy smell. This is nasty. There is another macaque sitting quietly on top of the deck railing where it meets the house on the right, quietly.

I head to the bathroom upstairs to take a shower. There is a macaque on the roof, opening the window, I rush to close and secure the window. Macaque opens it again, I close it and try to secure it, I can't seem to lock it shut. I take shower.

I am now in the house/yard of the house below ours where the "macaque tree is." I look up and see the projectile-poop-shooting macaque is still there. It shoots a few weaker streams in my direction which I successfully doge, it's running "out of ammo." A few last nuggets of poop fall out of its butt. The people who live there are moving away. I ask "you're taking the macaques with you, right?" They say "no." I say "oh God these macaques will be unsupervised."

+ adult home [First time both prior homes visited in one night!]: floor uneven, neighbor fence reduced, garage stairs & hamsters, male being & genitals, outdoors and young men making out

I'm walking through the rooms of my prior adult home. I am thoroughly enjoying being back here. I look at the gorgeous hardwood oak floors. I notice in one room there is a depression in the floor, an uneven area like the floor has partially collapsed down there, a few feet long and a few inches wide, I look at it for a while confused, that wasn't here when we lived here. I walk past my kids old bedrooms and think how they'd like to see them again. I head to the master bedroom and go out the sliding glass door to the back/side yard. My attention is instantly drawn to the fence across from my, it's completely different from how it used to be. Instead of a uniform height, the fence at the point right across from the master bedroom door become half height (full height going off to the left), extending all the way to the right edge of the property. The neighbor's yard (M) is fully exposed and visible, I see the plants, trees, and a dog running around there. I also see into the yard of the house beyond them [FM, no such house], because the fence on the far side of M's yard is also half-height.

I walk along the fence to the right a bit, then two young girls, M's daughters [FM, M has only one adult daughter] are sitting there, (I get a no-panties up skirt peek at one of them?), they go running into the house to get a present for us they prepared for our return. I wonder where M is?

I go down the stairway (to a basement?) [FM, just short steps into garage], and while heading down I notice a small hamster cage on a high windowsill. It is 3/4 covered on top with a white cloth draped over it. I see one hamster clearly inside. I'm confused, I thought our hamsters died a long time ago, the new owners must have bought new ones?

Heading back up the stairs with a bunch of chidden, it's hard to get through the opening, I instead manage to pry open the door and the kids can easily get through.

I'm right next to a (young man? A male being, maybe not human) sitting in a (large hamster cage?) He's rubbing his genitals in the bark at the bottom of the cage, this will increase his power? He's rubbing back and forth, there's not much "down there". Then I look again and he has a large, erect penis. I think "uh oh looks like he achieved his power."

Outdoors in the backyard, I'm talking to someone but my attention is caught by a sight I see through a window/the walls inside the house, two young men making out. Better not to disturb them.

+(f) preparing to question guide about equipment in large indoor dock

+(f) trying to access bank account with banker, keep entering access code wrong, 90-degree left rotated "c" (is is a "u"?)

I ask the banker "will I be able to access my <my bank's name> account through this system?" He says/nods "yes." Can't enter the code correctly. Funny "u" character that looks like a "c" rotated on its side, or an "o" with just a small bit of the top missing"

+(f) long narrow walk-in shower with ex-GF SB [non-sexy]

I'm maneuvering past SB to get to the water.

WBTB insomnia continues, BTS at long last, for a lucid and some decent competition points

01:00 pre-bedtime
01:30 (?) bedtime

06:23

+(f) at the dentist?

+ epic: gassing the truck: trying to find the gas station (north north south south), dodging cars in the road, go the wrong way & get mugged, dodging trains (they dodge me!), football & racists, cup at the picnic, meatball on exhaust pipe, gas tank adapter, skanky gas station alcoholics, "You think I wouldn't recognize the truck where I got half-pregnant 2 weeks ago?!", water-filled replica sex dolls of one of the skanks are very popular, they line the shelves

Settings: a drab mostly industrial semi-suburban dilapidated neighborhood with long narrow streets laid out on a rectangular grid

I'm driving a big-rig and cars along narrow roads. Daylight/outdoors, I see but miss the exit to the gas station, the street is long and narrow. The streets are laid out on a rectangular grid, there's no where for me to turn around. I pass a street and look to my left, it extends a long way along a channel of water, my lane is broken and spans an open channel of water. I pass this by and return to it, I think I have to take this street.

I drive up the left-hand side (oncoming traffic side) because the other side is dilapidated and broken and I'd fall in the water to the right. A truck comes around the corner at the end of the street, I try to maneuver as far as I can to the right but there's not enough room. Suddenly, the truck swerves and tilts to the left onto its two right wheels and I pass by underneath.

I'm getting closer to the corner (bends to the left), I'm hoping nothing else comes. Then a TRAIN LOCOMOTIVE turns and comes right for me. It's huge, no dodging it, uh oh. Then it, too, tilts to the left and goes up on its two right wheels, and I pass underneath it. Wow that was close, I got scared. Reach the corner it's a tight turn to the left and turns a full 180 degrees to go back along the next street over. Standing on the curved portion at the tip are two guys. I need to get across, but there's water all around. I guess I'll have to jump?

Driving/moving on roads, the path to the gas station is "north, north, south, south." I'm trying to get to the gas station. I'm on foot outdoors at night, a very small car turns the corner and almost hits me, it swerves to its left just barely missing me, I see the driver in the car.

I've taken a wrong turn down some dark deserted street. A thug comes at me and swings me around by the hood on my jacket. I'm trying to run away, this is the wrong street! Another thug comes up though it doesn't look good.

Indoors, the train engineer who pulled the magnificent stunt of tilting the train to miss me is there, he's a young man. There is a large long horizontal stick connected to a control vertical rod, and he maneuvers the rod to the correct position and then cockily walks away, that's against rules, you can't leave the throttle unattended. Someone notices this and he gets in trouble.

Outdoors, daylight, in a parking lot. I'm playing catch with a football. I have the football and I'm trying to fancy-pass it to my "quarterback." I hold it behind my back with two hands and flip it over my head at him. Then I do a around-the-back throw to him, I'm having trouble aiming but I make it. He then tosses the ball to me several times. Each time I catch it and pretend it was a touchdown in the end zone, like reliving memories of our past victories.

Group of football players: there's a new player, a black young man with an afro. He's really fast. Will he be the quarterback? He's describing a play, some players are racist and don't want a black teammate and are ignoring him with earphones in. He tries to get their attention, calling to them to listen. The play involves setting up a pass through a gauntlet of arrows, he sets it up and passes the ball which flies through the arrows to the receives, it was a great play.

Still in the parking lot/field: A racist guy has quit (a mechanic) because a black guy was hired. One guy decides to leave. The racist comes back, he has red hair and blue eyes. His "resignation bag" a large white bag filled with his "stuff" is in the parking lot. He's trying to get the leader's attention so he can give his resignation, I'm standing there on the border of the lot and the sidewalk next to this guy, also waiting for the break in the conversation so he can resign. Racist guy asks me "So what was that guy doing [the black guy he passed on the way here]?" I said "he quit." Racist guy: "ok, then I'm back." [not quitting].

Outdoors at some meal/picnic, I'm trying to think if I should clean my cup?

Back looking for the gas station: "north, north, south, south," I'm going really slowly and moving block by block, counting off the directions, the streets are narrow and closely spaced. I pull up to a gas station, I've found it, but I don't like the look of it.

I go inside, there's some question of where to put the gas nozzle in the truck. I'm looking at the tailpipe (indoors!) with one skanky alcoholic woman who hangs around the gas station, there is a dome of raw hamburger meat covering the tailpipe. We dig through the meat and find the adapter: a small red cylinder. Some discussion of whether they have a tool to connect to this adapter. The skank pulls out a collection of small nozzle adapters and chooses one and attaches it.

Skank #2 looks outside at my truck and says, "You think I wouldn't recognize the truck where I got half-pregnant two weeks ago?" Then I have a vision of store shelves filled with water-filled sex dolls based on skank #2, she must be very popular.

WBTB, up for several hours

+ sex at the pool, "you've had enough of this dream," sex with imaginary/invisible girl on chair; (lucid) enter beauty salon picking the prettiest behind the counter, banish the beefy naked hairy guys, "we need to rehearse our lines"

I'm underwater at the pool

Spoiler for sexual content:

checking out hot babes. One has a great a$$, another great boobs. I take the a$$-one in my hands and pull down her bikini bottoms and rub my face in her stuff, rotating her around to get to her front. I then go looking for the nice-boobs one. Then I'm out of the water and looking for more action. Right next to me are two extremely hot naked girls standing together (intertwined?). I jump right in to the mix and concentrate on the one of the left, forgetting the other one. Move for intercourse right away. Trying to get things to fit (mostly works), I'm at first trying an upright angle to get things to fit, then pull her down on top of me. We're up against a semi-reflective wall and I lean forwards to see the view back there. Going at it a bit and I get even more bold and decide to stick a finger "up the rear." I'm feeling around and can't find it, then I do and put it inside. After I do this, the girl immediately stops and gets up (guess she didn't like it!) and says something like "OK, that's *enough* of *that* dream!", like what was before was OK but the finger up the backside was a step over the line . I'm confused about what she said and say "what?" She repeats pretty much the same thing again. She's gone, I let her go. I'm still horny. Semi-lucid at this point, I realize I can just imagine a girl. There are people all around and I know it doesn't matter, I can just ignore them. I imagine a girl face down on a chair next to me and I start "intercourse". I have to imagine her, there's a girl fading in and out. Older woman walks by I say "Don't bother me, I'm f%^&ing this girl!" I know my "wife" is in the dressing room and could come out any second, but I realize this doesn't matter. I look down and there's a large plastic bag (like a clear dry-cleaning bag) and I'm pumping it, looks like my imagination needs help.

I'm outside in a car, I realize I need a "real" / "bright" girl in order to stoke my imagination again, I get out and enter the first store nearby. I see behind a wall/counter a very beautiful girl. I move forwards and see this is a beauty salon, with a long counter with hairdressers and receptionists behind it, at least 10. On the far (left) end, I see hair dressers who didn't seem that attractive but had wild huge hair-dos. I look to the right to find the most beautiful girl I had seen before, I see her and I move quickly towards her, behind the counter
I pretty much already knew I was lucid, but I do a quick nose pinch, "yup, lucid." I reach the girl she has long blonde hair and gorgeous boobs, she immediately moves away from me through a door. I pursue her. Through the door there is a large crowd of naked (topless at least), hairy, muscly guys. I think this must be a porn shoot. The girl is lost in the crowd of guys, I think they could be trouble I must get rid of them. Partway down a stairway in this crowd I "tell" / think at the guys, "You go on ahead and start the shoot" willing them to be gone, they vanish, leaving the hot receptionist behind. I go up to her and tell her "We need to stay here and rehearse our lines!" and as I approach her the dream fades…

I realized I am condensing my DJ entries down too much recently making them a bad read so going back to a more free flowing entry here. ~610am Wake from longish LD string. Work meeting scene. The board member shouldn't need to take video. CW there. I have a headache (bleeding through from IWL?) and massage my temples. Next memory is FA caught by "record skipping" FA. I am arriving to the wake up sensation at least 3 times in quick succession each lasting about the amount of time it takes for a vinyl record to rotate once...and repeating like a skipping record! I get up out of bed happy to have received this gift in this FA. As I make my way through the house with visuals not perfect I get the partial visual of my sleep mask covering my face as I walk, and I rip it off and throw it behind me. As I get to the front door I see there is a note on an index card by the door. I pause for a moment thinking if I'm awake I don't want to open the store and leave it open or unlocked putting my family security at risk so I better RC. I start to do the finger through palm and as it shows I'm awake I realize how inconsistent that one is and just look at both my hands but focus on my left one where one of my middle two fingers was noticeably longer than IWL . I grabbed the note by the door and start to read it but then look down what looks like an apartment building hall and the note is narrated to me in what is supposed to be my wife's voice saying "today is the day to bring out the garbage."(which it is!) I float fly through multiple halls and it is completely barren so far. I quickly peek over an overlook down to the floor below me hoping to catch a DC down there but it is also barren. I fly down to the lower floor and explore a little bit finding what looks like a door to the outside and when I open it it is a bright sunny summer day. I look across a big grassy open park-like area and see a building on the other side of it with lots of DC's gathered inside but starting to come out. I dump off all my clothes feeling free and fly their way thinking about what kind of reactions I might get. I approach a couple of young women and start to interact with them telling them it's time to remove their dresses but I seem to be too much inside my head thinking about something and the visuals fade but I do not fear waking up but rather hang on for the visuals to come back. (Something I am getting better and better at and following Sageous' suggestion to avoid following the more common path back to your sleeping body-NREM thread, possibly NREM reality check thread). During this quiet time in a void I reflect on the fact that I didn't get to any competition goals. The visuals eventually come back and I soon have a vivid sunny summertime scene again but this time it seems like I'm at of family reunion. I'm looking around at all of the DC's enjoying this vivid beautiful world and I look over to my right and see my grandmother who passed away several years ago sitting down and I go to greet her. It is so wonderful to see you I tell her as we each clasped the others hands facing each other. It's so feels like her hands warm and wrinkly! (I am choking up while reliving this lucid moment while transcribing this dream!) I asked her to hold on a moment and I release her hands since I use a certain motion of my hands as part of my recall of goals. I think of my mnemonic (memory) pegs and peg number 1 brings me to time control, stopping time. I know my trusty pocket watch with amazing time control is in my right hand and I start clicking it while looking around. At first it is not doing anything very much like the very first time I used this. I eventually get the DC's to freeze in time!..and they unfreeze as I release the "clicker." I play around with it a little bit more and then think about peg number 2 and decide to skip it and go to peg number 3. Neither 2 nor 3 are part of my 3 step task anyway only peg 1 then peg 6 and 8. I grabbed a football that is being thrown around and say check this out. I punt the ball with super strength way up into the sky and out of sight! Cool! I look back over at my grandmother and just behind her and to the right is my grandfather who passed away quite a number of years ago and who I thought about last time I thought about my grandmother and how I haven't been seeing him in my dreams. This time he is there!..but he starts morphing a little bit maybe looking more like his younger self when he was a teenager and then a boy! I grasp my grandmother's hands again realizing I should have spent more time in the dream with her asking her questions I'm saying what kind of responses I might get. The dream starts to fade. I hold on again and I arrive outside of a room indoors it's a little bit dark, dimly lit. There is a young black boy in the room and I walk in there and ask him what does he represent? He only says there's someone over here and I follow him around and out of the room and sitting on the bench is a short humanoid creature that looks like a weird boy, a little bit stocky with a large-ish head with dark short thick hair and black eyes. I asked him what it represents and try not to get freaked out by his unusual appearance and I realize I can wake up if I want to but I don't remember making the decision to. Either way I wake up for good this time. I think reading a couple of dream journals of other competition participants may have helped me recognize the false awakening at the beginning. One person, I forget who, was talking about some kind of incongruity being a common dream sign as a dream tries to adjust and readjust to fit the situation. Also maybe the same person or someone else mentioned how they handled a false awakening by quickly getting up and doing an RC when normally I would try to do a motionless RC but maybe I need to be more aggressive like I was when I noticed my FA and immediately took off.