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cant remeber much of this one only number 9 pink bunch of roses nicely wrapped choosing something and something to do with yin and yang

I don’t really remember how the dream started out since it was such a long dream. What I do remember is that in the beginning of the dream we had to make a task for mathematics as homework.
Me and my other classmates are looking out of a window at a shrubbery. The shrubbery had something to do with the exercises we had to make by tomorrow. I made my notes about the shrubbery and attempted to make the exercise. The exercise wasn't too hard so I completed it in a reasonable amount of time. I heard another classmate (Sam) complain about the exercise, he said he made it all wrong because he was thought the small bush on the side of the shrubbery was part of the exercise as well. “He should have looked better before he begun the exercise” I thought to myself.
At a certain point after this I realise I’m dreaming.
“I’m dreaming, so now I can fly”. I wanted to test that by jumping out of the top window of our house. At this point I am standing in front of the window and I look down through the window into the garden below. “Better be sure I’m dreaming before jumping out” I think to myself, because all of this sure looks realistic. I do the test by imagining there is a horse in our garden, I look down and sure enough all of a sudden there are two horses grazing, a brown one and a white one. I decide to take it one step further and imagine that there are now cows grazing in the garden, the horses morph into cows.
“I am dreaming for sure”. I get ready for the jump by crawling outside of the small window. Now my feet are the only thing holding me in place while my body is floating horizontally in the air with my arms down the side of my body. One of the horses, the brown one, launches towards me and when he is nearly at my height tries to bite my hands off. “That horse sure can jump high” I think to myself. He launches again but fails to reach me and falls back towards earth. I prepare myself mentally to make the jump and fly. I hope I don’t plummet towards the ground, since this is the first time trying to fly in my dreams. I push off and for a moment I’m dive-flying towards the ground, but I manage to gain control over my flight and navigate myself upwards. “I’m really doing it, I’m flying”.
I fly through the street that is positioned next to my house with my arms stretched in front of me like superman. Beneath me I see my best friend (Lieven) and his dad walking. “Hey Lieven, I’m dreaming, I can fly”. I land next to him and tell him again, “Isn't this great, I can fly.” “Ah, I wish I could do that” he said. “But you can, just do it” I replied. I’m still walking besides him and am looking at the forest besides the road (the forest that is positioned behind my garden). “Look Lieven, look at the castle that’s hidden in the forest”. I try to imagine a castle but that thought doesn't manifest itself in my dream so I just leave it alone. At this point a realize I ought to stabilize my dream, I rub my hands together and see what happens, but there is no noticeable difference in clarity so I yell “become brighter” but still no effect. Must be because the dream is already very clear I think to myself.
I leave Lieven behind and walk up the bank besides the channel. I want to fight a monster, like I read on the internet. So I imagine there being a monster on the top of the slope in climbing. And sure enough there is a giant armoured troll awaiting me. “I’ll bring him down with my guns” I think to myself. I start shooting at the beast with the gun that has now appeared inside my arms, but the gun doesn’t seem to affect him in any way. Besides me there is a bucked filled with a various array of weapons and I take another one but to no avail, so I decide just to kick the monster with my boot and that seems to do the job as the monster falls into the channel on the side of the road.
I continue walking down the road and on the left side of the road I spot a little digital clock. I walk towards it and see that it notes the amount of time I have left in this dream, which is not much according to the clock.
I just want to do one more thing before I leave, I want to have sex with Linde (a good looking girl from my class). I am now in a room by myself, “let’s try to summon Linde” I think to myself. I read that you can do that by drawing the outlines of the person you want to create in the air with your hands, but it doesn't quite work out for me and nothing happens.
At this point I think about the TOTM that I read about on Dream views. Being naked in front of an audience isn't going to work since I don’t have much time left and there is nobody here, so I should do the task where you look in the mirror. I leave the room and walk towards the bathroom. As I enter the bathroom I think to myself “I hope there aren't holes where my eyes ought to be like I read on Dream views the other day”. I bring my courage together and walk in front of the mirror. I am relieved to see that my eyes are still as they should be, in fact I look quite normal, but then I see the distortion in my refection. There is a strip of the mirror that is bend like a mirror in the mirror palace. Because of this, my head looks quite funny as I move around.
I begin to lose grip over my dream and stray into a non-lucid dream.
I tell my best friend Lieven about the wonderful lucid dream I just had, he is sort of jealous since he hasn't been able to have a lucid. “I didn't learn for my test I have from mathematics, but so what, I had an amazing dream instead.”
I wake up for real.

I figured I may as well start my journal now. I'll post what I've recorded in my physical journal so far:

6/22/13
My first dream journal entry! I hope this works...!
I finally had a dream about my love, [name withheld]. Unfortunately, nothing good happened, to say the least. If I recall correctly, she basically told me to stay away from her. I kept following her around, though, listening to her conversations. The weird part was when they [she and her friends] were talking about how women are superior to men. I don't remember whether this was the whole time. I think this was caused by two real-life experiences: I tried staring at [name withheld]'s picture so that I would dream about it [her]; that seems to have finally worked. As for their feminazi conversation, I believe that was caused by me watching that Miller 64 ad where the women beat the men at volleyball. This was my brain discussing with itself. I hope more and better dreams involving [name withheld] will come soon!

6/23/13 [This was probably actually recorded on the 24th. I have a rather piss-poor sense of time.]
Second dream! It took place at school again forgot to mention that before. I missed the bus leaving. Missing buses, now that I think about it, is a recurring theme in my dreams. [Name withheld] was there again, so I think my efforts to make this happen are working. Only time will tell! (PS - My friends and I were heroes of some sort. The Elder Scrolls was involved in some way. I think people were coming after us in the end, though.)

[same day]
Third dream. This one was horrible. It partly took place at school (I've noticed it's rarely my current school in dreams). The bad part was when my mother told me that my baby brother, [name withheld], was dead [she said he was hit by a car]. You can imagine my relief when I woke up. [As a side note, I was a bit anxious afterward. I've heard of several people who dream of their relatives dying, then awakening to find out that it was not just a dream.]

I find myself at a UK station up north somewhere with electric lines and deserted as the trains just rush through loudly at High Speed. The thing is they are so random that I feel one will come yet it doesn't and if I'm on the Platform I fear the noise and sight.
A side NOTE: I don't fear trains in reality in fact I love them to death and appreciate their Hi-Speed!
So next I find my self on a path beside the mainline though it doesn't seem far enough so I turn towards a ditch. Then gravity reduces and I find my self in the air with the line below but the potential of Gravity increasing again. I try to pull away from the lines but as I float forward the lines bend towards me again.
Finally I pull away completely just as a Voyager 220 shoots north. Then I find myself miles across the countryside above another line, then following another and another then I force myself down as I find an abandoned route with torn track strewed over the place. But it still didn't feel safe!

1. [non-lucid] After 3:00 I Think
Was in a car with my step-dad (Ray) driving and my uncle (David) sat in the passenger seat, I assume I'm sat in the back in my wheelchair.
We were following Mum in the car ahead on an American highway, Mum turns off the highway but Ray missed the turning and so we carried on going, there's a toll booth approaching so David got the money ready to pay.

The car we are driving appears to be right hand drive which is odd because were driving in America and of course they have left hand drive cars.

So we drive up to the toll booth pretty fast, Ray throws the money, I don't know where it went because I couldn't see but we got let through. Ray decides to floor it and do a 180 to the other side of the highway, we hit a police officer (African American woman with dark hair) who was walking across the highway and to make things worse there was a green & white police car on the other side that saw the 180 and the collision with an officer, we got told to stop so Ray pulled over in the middle of the road.

The car is now gone and was left just me in my wheelchair in the middle of a highway, the police officer pulls out a gold shiny sticker wrap thing (like the ones they put on your bags in the airport) and put it on my chair.

Fragments:
I had an invalid passport.

2. [non-lucid] Before 3:00 I Think
I think I was in the game GTA: SA and at the edge of the map i climbed a hill and on the other side there was flat grassy land that had craters with sand in them on it kinda like holey cheese, was really weird.


Times:
Sleep: 11:00 Attempted DILD
Alarm: 3:00 Attempted WILD/MILD (Fell asleep I think)
Wake: 8:00 - 9:00
Got up: 10://

Only NREM from naps again, i need to fix my sleeping schedule.

I had a dream. And as I lay still upon awakening, I stabilized its recall. I remember it was short but significant I felt: a brief insight into consciousness or awareness. Then my head moved slightly, and the insight was gone right away.

3 fragments. Feels like they somehow belong together to one big connected dream, although they are independent situations.

• I meet all the friends of my old clique again. My ex-GF is among them also. I am happy to see all of them and we are walking to some benches in nature to celebrate, we drink alcohol. I have this weird feeling of being unwelcome, as if i had to justify myself and my behavior. They seem very critical and disapproving. Somehow I want to show them that I am still awesome, especially to my ex, and that I'm doing really good without them. There is an enemy feeling that I have never felt among them before. There are some new people who are joining us, I presume they are new friends of them. They are all gangster and have caps and smoke weed and although they seem happy, I feel that they don't like me and that they look down on me. I start introducing myself, they are polite, but they don't seem interested. I am pissed and I make no secret out of it. My friends tell me that I have to sign a gift card for one of the others, so I do that reluctantly. I feel sad and go to two of my closest friends, who give me at least a little love. I am tired and want to sleep, but I am scared that if I do so, the others might paint my face and do weird stuff, after all they are drunk and have been so weird all the time.
  
  First unpleasant fragment in a long while. Vivid with many details and strong feelings/emotions.
  
  
• I am with another group of friends, the ones I study with. We are going to have a nice evening at their house. It is a big house with stairs, many large rooms and a long way to the ceiling. I lose track of where I am, it's so big. I find myself in a storeroom in the cellar without windows, not even with a door, but it is only accessible through a small hole in the wall. I am trapped there, can't come out of the hole. One friend comes and helps me out and we go and join the others, I feel weird among them, as if they got it all right and I am a failure.
  
  The house is completely imaginary, nothing I have seen IWL. Also unpleasant, but not as much as the first fragment.
  
  
• I am with yet another group of friends. We are having a party (third one this night lol. But this time there are only happy vibes). It is a small room, we sit tightly together in a big circle and have fun. One of my old friends even brings his father, who is a mixture of the one he actually is and another friend's father. I welcome both of them and they are happy about that. There is free food and munchies for everyone, there are steaks and pizza all you can eat.
  
  Short fragment, but I liked it very much.

At first I looked straight ahead and saw a person on a platform floating low to the ground. I also saw a cloaked figure to the left of that person. I think I became the person next to the cloaked figure and I was able to look around. What I saw freaked me out. I saw an open casket

So this is the dream that kind of pushed me onward and upward hopefully.

I had it this morning and I was so frustrated at myself for my lack of focus and direction.

I became lucid suddenly, went from seeing nothing but black to suddenly sitting in an empty field. Just knew that I was dreaming, and then asked myself, 'Ok.. I'm lucid.. now what?' I honestly drew a blank as to what I wanted to do.

Well thankfully something within me kicked in, and I hear this growl behind me. I turn around slowly, ready to make whatever it is disappear, but then I see it's a dragon. A beautiful red/green/black iridescent one. I'm too awestruck at this point to do anything. Then it snorts at me and dips its head, kind of like how horses do to get attention, and I realize it wants me to ride it. But before I could I woke up. I think I was just too excited.

It was just frustrating because I had the world at my fingertips and ended up just sitting there without a clue, a purpose, a meaning. So I'm hoping the next time, I'll know what I want to do and attain it.

I was at my church, but it was extended. It was like Christmas only hotter, I went down the new hallway and saw rooms with names. I went to the middle of the hallway which had a collage of my uncle and his wife. It seems that she took over the entire church and everyone worshipped her. I went further down the hallway and saw a giant window and a door next to it. I closed my eyes and found myself on the other side of that window. It was like a locker room and all of my friends from middle school were in they locker room. They were fighting in the back while I was screaming and banging at the window pleading people to get me out. "Let me out please I didn't do anything I was framed!" I shouted. Nobody listened, so I went in the back and saw double doors. I went inside and it looked like a construction site room. I went inside and went through the door on the right, I saw a giant room that had a bridge of slippery logs with no railing or any protective hardware. I went back and told everyone about the exit. They then went inside the lockers and grabbed crowbars and bags of clothes. I went and grabbed my crowbar and clothes and we went to the log bridge. There were more than 100 of us and we all fell down the log bridge, one of my best friends had blue blood on his fave when I regained stability. I was pretty sure he was going to die and we worshipped butter. "Hey, remember butter forever!" I shouted, I put my fist up and he put his up. We all got down to the end and was on a platform made of concrete, I saw another construction style corridor. When we were at the stairs my friend stopped us and said "This is the middle of mumbo jumbo". While going up the stairs it was extremely hot, nobody else followed me, but I continued. Security guards came in an SUV, I ran passed and back in the church. I ran in a regular hallway when I saw a group of 3 people talking. One of them saw me and shouted "stop!", I ran and turned. I heard him call for help when a muscular security guard ran to me. I surrendered and found myself back in the locker room prison. The dream ended.

I was watching some anime about mechas. There was something about different countries, alliances and ofcourse fights between huge mechas. Characters has some discussion between fights and there was one woman who really liked being in water, up to the point of having her mecha set up to be able to make a bath about everywhere.
At some point group of the main characters were assaulting some kind of prison which looked like huge area under a dome from inside. Also there was one really badass dude who was once surrounded by some big robotic enemies during one fight under the dome and he was able to deal with them with bare fists and get out of the fight without even being scratched.

LUCID

*The dream was lucid but I was just a witness and controling the dream at all. Mingyur Rinpoche a famous kagyu teacher was talking about after he completes the ngondro practice he asking khenpo karthar if he can practice by the name of karma????....something I forget the last word, but the it was does familiar. Then he said there is no duality, there is no subject and object.

*I am sitting in this place with a lot of women. We are all sitting in a big circle, I thought they all wanted me. I am lucid but I really have full control but I am aware this is a dream. Then I say something to make them all laugh.

*I end up on this back road in valley ranch, Tx. I am fully lucid and grounded in the dream. I thought let's try hick hiking and see who picks me up. I hold my thumb out and this huge bus stops in it's tracks, very dramaticly. I looked at the drivers seat to see who is driving. I hoped it was some hot chick. There was no driver so I looked in the bus so see if anyone was there. Then I saw jessica alba hot as hell sitting on a passanger seat on the bus. I hopped on the bus walked to her and said hey. Then my alarm clock went off.

6/24/13

DEILD

Again, I am stunned at how accurately my brain can recreate the sensation of petting my old dogs even though I haven't seen them in years. It really feels like that have been living on during the dream. RIP

I awoke briefly in my bed and thought to try and DEILD (there is a chance this was a false-DEILD also). I started to feel strange sensations fairly quickly. Like a general sinking or drifting of my body. I waited for this to fade and pick up again before I attempted standing up.

I was able to stand and open my eyes pretty easily to a stable dream. I walked out side and I was in the Chicago house. I went through the back door and around to the front gate. I saw Cassie outside and she was excited to see me. I pet her for a minute and then let her our the gate with me. She ran along side me and we saw another dog out front. It looked like some hairy white dog that was laying in the grass. My first instinct was the grab Cassie (like we were on a walk in real life) but I let her go realizing it was a dream.

She runs up to the dog, sniffs for a minute, and leaves. I go up and it looks like a golden retriever with half of its hair white and the other half light golden. I touched her and it felt just like Maggie. I knew it was her. She looked somewhat older with her white hair, but it wasn't the normal old-dog look. She looked more majestic. After playing with her for a bit I took Cassie down the road. I had a sudden urge to ride a bike so I looked forward and pretended to feel the sensations of a bicycle. I ran as if I were using pedals. It wasn't working too well and then I saw someone riding a green bike that had 2 small wheels. I decided that would be easier so I grabbed that bike and rode around with Cassie for a bit.

I had a FA and tried to DEILD again. Someone was in the room with me in my dream and it was disrupting my DEILD attempts. I soon wake up for real.

Me and my friend decided we were going to go on a road trip. So, we were driving down the highway, and my friend was driving. When I looked over at her, I realized that she was asleep. I panicked, and grabbed the steering wheel. I tried my best to keep the car in the right lane, but I was also trying to find some way to get the break, and she wasn't waking up. So, eventually, I lost focus of steering, and when I looked up, there was a red transport coming for us. I was too shocked to try to steer out of the way, so it hit us head on. Somehow, I wasn't injured, but I noticed the car was on fire, so I got out. I wanted to try to get my friend out, but I didn't know if she was okay, and if she was, she was still asleep. So, I ran away from the car. Once I was at a safe distance, I heard a loud boom, and turned around to see that the car had exploded.


Right when I thought my dreams were getting normal again, this happened xD I guess that's what happens