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Tuesday 6/25/13

Last night bed 12:40 - 9am I need to get back to my earlier bed time and WBTB schedule.

DR1 - I'm flying in the air, not high at all, just back and forth. Having an aerial fight with a witch. I'm troving fire at her and she is on fire. (played mgs sons of liberty IWL, I was gettin on fire in final fight).

DR2 - I arrived to Pittsburgh by train. Looking at the bus scheduals, which one to take to the DMV. I need to get some special travel document. I'm making a list of busses and asking a guy which one to take. He tells me that I need to take more than one and its not so simple. I ask him if wouldn't have time and take me there. He says sure. It turns out, he is a Kurd. He is talking to his other Kurd friend and that guy is asking me question in his language, but I don't understand. (Watching yesterday "No reservations" with a. bourdain and he was in Kurdistan, northern Iraq)

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid , Side notes.

Night Music:
So this dream i had last night, it was decently long and there was more to it then i remember. All i remember is the end, how annoying D: . Oh well, here's what i remember. I was outside on my farm, it was night and i was in a tent. I had headphones on and was listening to strange music, i felt that the music might have been to keep myself from hearing the sounds from my surroundings and instead, only hear my music. Which is weird, but either way, i get out of the tent and starting reading these stories and then i would cover them in some sort of sticky liquid and place them on some sort of stand.

Monkey D Luffy:
In this dream , i was monkey d luffy from one piece. Me and my crew were waiting by some shop. The shop eventually opens and i go in and have a chat with the owner and such, but before i know it, my crew has already left in the ship. Now i start running outside toward the shore. Between me and shore are pointy small mountains and the tide goes really high so it fills the gaps between the mountains. As i run over there, i get caught in the coming tide and i can't move because well.. i have the ability of the devil fruit and therefor cant swim. Either way, the ship comes back, and the next thing i know, we're all competing to earn black belts in some martial art or something.

I finally got lucid and got three tasks done.

I got up at 5:00 to exercise, but then changed my mind and decided to have a lucid dream. So I laid back down in bed with my head slightly propped up on pillows and willed myself into a dream. It wasn't really a WILD since I don't remember the transition. But I do know that as soon as the dream started I was already lucid.

I was in an apartment with Jeff. I decided to get started on the tasks right away. I walked up to him and started to speak gibberish. He squinted a little as if trying to figure out what I was doing. I stopped for a second, but he still didn't really react, so I stared right back up with the gibberish. Finally he pulled me to him and started kissing me.

Nice....speaking gibberish gets me a kiss.

After the kiss I ran to the bathroom to find a mirror. As I got close to the bathroom I could see in, and I already saw an image of myself in a mirror. I knew I shouldn't have been able to see myself yet since the angle was all wrong. So I went all the way in the bathroom and faced the mirror. As I entered I could see what looked like my true reflection follow me in. The other image was still three doing its own thing. I moved around, and the new reflection did what I did. In both reflections my face was somewhat in the shadows, I was wearing a light orange t-shirt, and my skin was very tan. Often my reflection in dreams is very distorted. But this one was pretty normal (except for the addition of the second reflection).

At that point I was satisfied that I had done enough to complete that task. So I decided to move on to the next task which was to get naked in front of people. I went to the window. I saw that I was at least 10 stories high. Without hesitating I flew out. Below me I could see people in a large open courtyard area. I flew down and landed next to some older ladies that were sitting on a bench. I briefly told them that I was going to complete a lucid task to get naked and get a reaction from people. I then took off my shirt. One of the ladies had an amused look on her face and said, "Well that should make people smile."

I then tried to take off my shorts. I got them down over my hips and down my legs, but had trouble getting my feet out of them. I struggled for a minute, then realized that I didn't need to worry anymore about it. I moved on to find more people to get a reaction from (and the shorts were just gone). I saw some men working to move some furniture out of a truck. They glanced up at me and sure enough, they smiled, and then went right back to work. I went up to several more people who were walking by and each of them smiled and then went about their business.

Hmmm....speaking gibberish get me kissed. Getting naked gets me a glance and a smile.

I got tired of doing that so I flew back up into the air. I flew up the side of the building that supposedly my apartment was in. The outside was brick with Boston Ivy growing on it. It was very pretty. I got up to about the 9th floor and I suddenly was slowing down. I knew I wouldn't be able to fly any higher. Before I started floating back down to the ground, I saw that the building at the point had metal bars that I could grab ahold of. I knew that my mind had put these here so I could continue to go higher. I started climbing up these bars like a ladder using only my arms. I climbed to where my window was and then jumped out and started flying again. The flying felt really good. I paid a lot of attention to the way the wind felt on my face and the sound of it rushing by my ears. After a minute or so of this I started to get dizzy. I knew the dream was fading, and I figured it was okay since I had accomplished so much.

1. grandma's coming to dinner
2. getting ready to highline/falling into the oakland harbor

We are going to have a huge family dinner at my grandparent's house. My grandma is dead, in real life, and she has been for 3 years. The most interesting thing is that she still shows up in my dreams, yet her physical body in my dreams tends to reflect the psychic attitudes we have about her spirit nowadays. She gets more decrepit and old-looking in my dreams as she fades further away from memory. Before, when she was recently passed, she would still show up in my dreams as a fully alive, talkative character, but she would fade in and out like a ghost. "Oh, I must be dreaming because there she is, and I know she is really gone."

So we are taking my grandma home from the retirement home. She is very, very old. My whole family has decided to gather at the Palos Verdes house. We make tons of preparations---one family member is bringing the potatoes, another the meat, another the sauces and garnishes, etc. MY friends are also coming. This is gonna be great. So the dinner happens, and we have to split up into two groups to eat because there are too many people. One is in the kitchen, the other in the dining room/garden room. I am waiting. Everything is dull. My grandma comes in the room, and my grandpa (who has actually now just moved into a retirement home) says that her conditions is very, very fragile. We shouldn't even talk to her for more than four or five words at a time. Family feelings. I feel kind of suffocated and bored. This is something that usually tends to happen around my family....

All my friends are here, where the hell is ADAM??? I go to the other room---there's my guy. Feelings of recognition and relief. He's got a fresh new haircut. Erik G. is there too. We have smash setups, but it's "really not appropriate" so they turn them both off again. A time and a place for everything, I suppose. I'm feeling too morose and stuffy to play smash, to let my excitement out. We end up getting out of there, me, Adam, and another friend. We make our way to a small, kind of dingy apartment. Then the WHOLE THING starts to move. What the hell?!? Is this safe? "Yeah dude, it's a people-mover." The whole complex starts sliding around, running through piles of garbage, crossing streets and charging through chain-link fences on what I assume is a pre-determined track. I'm standing on top of a fence or an awning of a porch, wondering if I should be wearing a seatbelt or at least be inside somewhere. "Oh well," I think. Safe is a relative term. I will probably be fine. More intimations of what is "safe" and what's not. It comes from wondering if this area is safe, or ghetto/shady. I'm pretty sensitive about that kind of stuff, for whatever reason. I'm way afraid of other people lashing out than I am the environment, or my body failing me. At least in those instances you have control over yourself, and it's not another will imposing upon you.

We reach the destination and the dust settles. Here's the smash. I whip out my controller. We're going to play for a bit. Adam introduces me to his hispanic friend. Turns out they live together, and are now in a relationship. Whaaaaaat....? This is alienating to me. It's always kind of a blow (in real life) to me whenever someone who seems to be hopeless or otherwise sexually confused turns out to be just "gay." Well, good for them I guess. It seems like there's a sort of comfort in adopting that label, and I've definitely wondered before "Am I just gay?"---but the answer is a resounding no. Anyways, Adam is such a friend to me that it feels like a betrayal of sorts. The dream ends.

(another dream: getting really mad at an asian fratbro because he wants to score a pingpong game differently)

Other dream: We are setting up a highline in a construction yard. Someone has brought music along, and it lends the scene a nice atmosphere. We have two lines doubled up, really loosely. I suggest that we should make it a highline, and everyone else is down. There's like a hippie group commune sitting around. One guy has these AMAZING leather socks kind of things---not quite Vibrams, but more like socks that are maneuverable and give you some extra traction. We get the highline set up and I climb up the crane, ready to do it. (While i'm waiting I'm sitting on a brick wall. Everything is rusted, cracked, kind of sketchy and unstable. But such is the life. I'm sure it will be fine.) And here come THE COPS. Police cars roll up, and their mere appearance is enough to make everybody leave. The line gets taken down, most of the hippies leave, and I'm left there high and dry. Damn it all. I do some more climbing around out of boredom before I decide that it's time to go. I gather up my stuff, take off the cool leather booties and leave them by a bunch of sleeping bags. I trip over one of the sleeping bags and find that there are people inside. They giggle and two voices come out. Presumably they're doing some hanky-panky. "Oh shit, my bad." I pack everything up into my suitcase and start rolling on back to Alameda.

I'm actually DRIVING the suitcase. The traffic is kind of crazy, and there are a few close calls where I have to brake really really hard and swerve around in different lanes to avoid hitting stopped cars (with my little pink suitcase). Finally I come to the bridge leading into Alameda. It's a retractable bridge.
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There's a huge hurdle I have to clear, a really big swell in the road that I have to push my suitcase up and over to get ready to cross the bridge. I can't ROLL it up, so I decide to PUSH it up and over. With a great heave-ho, I overhead press it and try to roll it up... and no dice. It falls back down. I try again, still no luck. A bum on the side of the bridge offers to take it--he's on a platform that's higher up, a pedestrian path, and so i hand it to him. When I go over the side, I find that there's a whole group of people underneath the bridge. "You can just walk underneath it on this path," he says. It's a bit of sketchy scaffolding, but perfectly fine and stable. A nice metal walkway. So this is the underside, the seedy side of the area. There are a bunch of (semi-dirty) people, who actually seem to be REALLY enjoying themselves. They are waiting on either side of the bridge to cross, or otherwise just hanging out. They seem really good natured. I take my suitcase to the other side, being wary of the bridge alarms (which sound when it's about to retract). Aaaand I'm across. But I stay there, as I want to see it go up. After a little while I do a double check of all my pockets, my suitcase, and OH SHIT---I forgot my backpack on the other side! The bridge alarms have just started to sound, but I act anyways. I try to jump over the gap as it appears, and SWOOSH, I fall into the water. The current sweeps me away; it's much stronger than I expected. Thoughts of Alcatraz prisoners being swept out to sea flood me, and I know it's time to act. I trail behind a ferry for awhile, and then the current pushes me up against a wooden wall. The wall is made out of planks arranged vertically, and with all my strength I grab onto it, making a hard pinch on either side and holding on. I'm safe.

I wait for a little while for the current to die down, and then let go and wade over to shallower area. It's pretty scummy and full of algae. Everything I've heard tells me that the water in the Bay Area is unsanitary, and you can contract a rash from swimming in it. Oh well, nothing to do about it now. Meanwhile, I get a "flashback" of a news report. This is how I've made my entrance into the community... somehow there's a bit of longing that is fulfilled here, one rung down the ladder of wealth (and hygiene??) on the social ladder. "A brave soul gets swept away by the current! Footage captured from the back of a dinghy." There's me, along with a lot of other people, struggling to keep my head above water in the current. My face wavers in and out of the frame. I look mad, restless, fierce. I break away from the rest of the people holding on, and there's another shot of me in the third-person holding onto the wall. "One thing is for certain, we know he is strong. At least 6 foot 1, he uses his strength to hold onto a tiny fence! ....." sensationalist reporting like that. Here is my ego well at work in the dream world. Interesting that I take so much pride in being strong, especially when it comes to first impressions.

I walk around the edge of the water now that things have calmed down. The light is coming down in a different way. Another person walks up to me. We get to chatting. There are oysters all around the tidepools here, yet everything is still scummy and green. I'm not sure if I want to eat these oysters, but we start collecting them anyway. Well shit.


Analyses: Feelings of fitting in are important. I feel alienated by my family. I dislike how focused on the past they are, especially when it comes to keeping my grandmother's ghost alive. I also feel very cloistered and unable to express myself. Practically, this means to just act a little crazier any time the family comes to town. It sucks, because there's a lot of hurt in my family, but it's gotta be done.

As far as the second dream goes, it's really starting to bug me that the way I was "introduced" to this community of people, which appeared really vibrant and open, was a standalone act of physicality. But in a sense I guess that's all that I reduce myself to in daily life. I was in the third-person, and let someone else (a newscaster, at that) make the introduction for me. Personally I've been aloof. Time to get out of the comfort zone and be more genuine while doing it.

Date: June 24, 2013
Bedtime routine: MILD & WBTB (No WILD attempts tonight, just MILD)
Total sleep time: 8-9 hours

Dream

I was back in the city I was born in and I was showing my current family where I grew up and how beautiful it was. The quality of life was much different back then...very relaxing. I was showing them the ocean as the sea gulls flew over, the old buildings still standing built hundreds of years ago, and explaining to them the meaning of happiness. As I was talking to my family (in the car) one of the sea gulls flew in the car and out of the back window. This happened several times, so many times, that we became use to the sea gull flying in the car as we would dunk our heads down in an attempt not to get hit .

Dream Frag:

Saw a boy put a gun to his little sister's head and pulled the trigger (Note: I saw a picture of this in real life this week on facebook, so it must have followed me into my dreams as it was terribly disturbing).


Dream Frag:

Someone singing "I remember mama," so intently, so focused, and so emotional.

Shamelessly copied and pasted from LMRhone's 30 day challenge.


Basic Requirements for the Challenge

- No techniques for WBTB

- Complete all exercises in EWOLD

- Get at least 6 hours of sleep

- Update my personal dream journal with the dreams for each day, if I forget to do this or wake up with full dreams but lose them throughout and only update a fragment, that day doesn't count.

- I will use nothing to aid in my lucidity, just my own mind. The only "lucid aid I will use is apple juice because I drink it all the time. No difference though.


Goals for The Challenge (Not In-Dream)

- To get lucid every night, preferably in every dream.

- To remain aware unless absolutely necessary.

- Find a reliable DS.

Goals for The Challenge (In-Dream)

- To get another lucid like the best one I ever had.

- To overcome a deep personal fear.

- All 5 TOTMs in one dream.

- Get back to where I left off in the RPG prologue, stop the tornado, and sail to Cardia, while hopefully picking up other dreamers.

- Have a fair amount of control. Not stressing about this.

Slept on the couch last night, with no self-hypnosis/meditation or really anything.

I'm on a bus for middle school but people from high school are there too. There is a girl on the bus talking about lucid dreaming, so I go on Facebook and see that she's a moderate beginner, meaning she isn't a complete natural but she's getting there, I see that she's asked her mom for a guide for lucid dreaming. I get really excited and all I can remember is trying to tell her that I'm a lucid dream too. But she won't talk to me because for some reason she thinks I would be a bad influence.

It's dark and raining, and I'm running through the grass. But I get this bad vibe and look down and see that a snake is moving around on the ground. (I have a deathly fear of snakes) I'm running to get a weapon to kill it and I see my grandma running over towards it. It's going towards my neighbor's house but I guess someone kills it because when I look back it's dead and lots of others are dead with it. I'm running to stand on the porch. I look around and see a huge machine used for construction, I realize that it's a way to get back home, if I can only get on top of it. I can't get to the top of it because of all of the snakes on the ground, some are dead some are alive. I'm contemplating jumping in the spaces between the snakes but that's too much of a risk, so I don't. Then the rest is forgotten.

I get transported by some aliens (that look like humans) to their planet. But it's more like a "you'll have to fight for your survival" type thing. I'm in a room with another person I don't know, he's blonde and fit. The aliens say we'll have to fight to leave but I don't want to fight him and he doesn't want to fight me, eventually I realize that I'm going to have to fight him eventually, we both agree to fight but with no bad intentions, just because someone has to get out. So I pick up my weapon (like a boss) which I think is either a toy truck, a big toy truck, or a 2 by 4 board. He isn't as good with his that I am with mine so I easily knock it out of his hands, then I hit him again and his shirt is ripped off. I tell him I have no bad feeling and let him pick up his weapon but he's still not good with it and he's standing right on the edge of the room (because one side doesn't have a wall and just drops off. So I knock him off, and scream "Now let me out!" They refuse.
[Forgotten material]
Now I'm in a big grocery store. But I'm trying to hide because I ran away and they're looking for me. (And it now it's forgotten, I can kinda remember some stuff but not enough to write anything.)

25.06.2013

HUNK vs. The Village (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Another Resident Evil 4 type of dream where I'm playing the Mercenaries section, and that's because I've been playing a lot of Resident Evil Games lately. The character I'm controlling is HUNK, and he has the default costume setting with the major color being black. His goggles though didn't seem to have the red hue though, it was mostly faded out. It could be that the colors for them were shifting from black to red. And it would've been difficult to notice something like that in the dream to hopefully become lucid because of the situation he's in.

The moment HUNK (yes the name is naturally expressed in caps) steps into the village, there's already Las Plagas infected villagers that are coming after him, maybe 5-10 in frequent moderation throughout this dream. Of course, I had a sub-machine gun just like in the actual mini-game you play with him, and I also remember his neck-breaking ability that's essentially a one-hit kill.

The village was a pretty decent replication of the one in the actual RE4 game, with the mini-bell tower from the far left corner, the two houses that are about 30-80 feet apart from each other left and right, the mini-shed/barn at the beginning of the village to the left, almost everything is where they're supposed to be.

I wanted to use the neck-breaker to my advantage even though I most likely had unlimited ammo in the dream seeing as I wasn't so worried with how much was left. So I aimed for the enemies' head so that they would flinch, put their hands on the inflicted area that distracts them before I attempt the neck breaker move. It seems it worked pretty well for the first few Las Plagas victims, but then dream logic starts coming in to make things worse for me.

As I shoot the enemies in the head, as I'm trying to press the command to prompt the Neck-breaker move, it doesn't work as effectively as I thought it would. I think the Las Plagas hosts even brushed off HUNK by literally just grabbing his wrists before he could kill them. So in the mean time, I decided to just spam the unlimited ammo sub-machine gun, even though at THIS time of the dream, I now get worried about the ammo capacity. As the anxiety continues to augment, I started to notice more things, like this dream actually being timed.

Instead of the timer appearing on the top left-hand corner, it shows up on the opposite, and I noticed, at least when I quickly glanced at it, the timer was at 2 minutes and 30 seconds. Of course, with how time is interpreted in dreams, that could've been 2 pigtails and 30 Oldspice deodorant overlords from the 23-43 delta section of the Nova Universe for all I know. But I didn't bother with looking for ( ' ) or ('') near the numbers to see if it was in minutes or seconds, too much anxiety built up. I quickly made HUNK run through the village to collect some Hourglasses to extend the time like in the real game.


It was quite a challenge even finding any that should be in certain location, and then I saw a green hourglass, but I'm not so sure that I used it yet. I probably presumed at the time of the dream that it was going to give me a bonus, and I didn't want to use that until I was sure I could do a really, really, really long combo with the neck-breaker one hit move.

HUNK is moving considerably fast in this village, and the villagers themselves don't even become a problem to me anymore seeing as I was focused on extending as much time as possible (even though I could've just use willpower to create implied experiences of there being extended time). As I stroll around the village, I sensed someone completely different from the villagers, and it ends up being Krauser with a completely developed Las Plagas like arm-blade. Despite of my previous dreams with him basically just trying to instill fear into me only to probably get my attention and discuss something to me, I still didn't want to take the risk.

The reason being is that I was so driven up with putting up my defenses and focusing more on reflexes to survive the onslaught of Las Plagas victims around me that Krauser was no exception to this. He doesn't run as fast as he SHOULD though...





I started to go into spectator mode and gazed over the village to get a good estimate of how close Krauser is from me. It seems the villagers themselves don't see him as an enemy, and it seems he's personally using them as shields should we get into close encounters. I decided that in order for me to destroy as many Las Plagas hosts all in one spot, and hopefully Krauser as well, I would have to bait them into a location where it's tight-spaced. The first location that comes to my mind it to seek out the barn/mini-shed that would be located at the beginning of the village on the left. It had a ladder, which was the perfect tool for me to go on higher grounds and shoot enemies trying to climb up to me.

However, even with that, I was a bit forgetful of the fact that Krauser just might be able to jump up if he suddenly has his near-superhuman speed back again. It didn't seem Krauser showed up as much, and I end up just shooting the villagers, but after that, my recall of this stops there.

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25.06.2013

I'm an Incubus Attempting to Hypnotize Women (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The dreaming environment's setting is night-time, however, with how the dream scene alternating between day and night, it's hard to make out where I really started in this dream. I did know that I was an Incubus with purple skin and a vanilla or tan-brown robe wrapped around my waist and hanged all the way down to my ankles. I don't know my overall ambition in this dream, but it seems I'm just after a set of women, any that I can kind.

I heard some giggling and decided to fly around a bit and found there were able 6 or so females talking to each other. I wanted to use hypnosis, the type that isn't really what hypnosis stands for in waking life, the classical stage one where people think a person is really manipulating someone, but they're not. It was weird how I was going to manipulate their minds, an on-screen white HUD shows up in the middle and shows a list of who I want to start manipulating. Of course, I spammed for all 6 or so females, and about 4 out of the 6 managed to fall unconscious.

Problem is, those other 2 ended up being a challenge for me, and I think pretty quickly they prevented me from getting the other women. So I had no other option than to run and fly away.

Oh and they giggled at me for running away as well, guess I'm not getting pussy with being scared.

Lol, so much for dream sex.

So I've decided to do a 30-day challenge of using the SSILD technique. I have experimented with the technique before with somewhat mixed success. So this time I'm going to use nothing but SSILD for the next 30 days and record how many LD's and FA's I get. So here we go:

Day 4

I went to bed at about 11:15. I woke up at 4:45, went to the bathroom, and came back to do my cycles. I honestly wasn't really focusing on the cycles that much, and I got more caught up in random other thoughts. I finally woke up at 7:50 (I had to meet with someone at 8:30). Nothing. Zip. Nada. I don't remember any dreams from that night. However, when I got back from my meeting, I went back to bed (about 9:15). I completed the cycles again, this time focusing a little more on the effort. I completed the cycles, but it took me a long time to fall asleep. I had one of the longest and one of the haziest LDs I've ever had. I don't remember a lot of it, but I do remember a few lucid fragments.

1. As I realized I was lucid, the scene went black. As I rubbed my hands together, I decided where I wanted to go (the lobby of my grocery store - see Day 1 of challenge). The scene kind of rushed in, and I was fairly close to where I wanted (outside in the parking lot...). I felt like I could still kind of feel my real body, so I went on a quest to separate from my body.

2. I walked by this restaurant where all the workers were friends from school or church. Like seriously, that was the name of the restaurant, Friends from School and Church. I went inside and asked for one specific friend, and the employee went to go get her. As I waited, I contemplated telling her that I was lucid and that this was a dream. However, as I thought about this, I still felt my real body in bed. I remembered that in OBEs, one can float out of your body, so that's what I tried. I grabbed a balloon that was next to me and sucked the helium out of it. Sure enough, I started to float. However, I still felt my body, possibly even more than before.

3. I was in my driveway. In one last attempt to become fully lucid and ditch my body, I decided to just walk around and explore, seeing and feeling how real everything was, hoping that the more lucid I became, the less I would feel my body. I walked around my car, feeling how cold and hard the metal was. I grabbed some dirt and felt it fall through my fingers. It probably would've worked if I had started earlier, but instead, I woke up.

It was really a weird sensation, feeling my body for the entire lucid dream. It kind of inhibited my dream control, and it was definitely distracting. However, an LD is an LD, so...

Day 4: LD - 1, FA - 0
Total : LD - 4, FA - 1

Date: 25 June

Pre bed: SJW, 2xdrops p.oil

Total sleep time: 8 hrs

WBTB: 1 capsule p.oil, some frap

Comments: The sleep quality was very nice, so if I was simply looking to get some great sleep with vivid dreams and a nice atmosphere, this was the combo. Unfortunately the frap didn't help me much during WBTB. Managed to get another of my from scratch LD pack just before final wake.

Fragments: the whole night was about me and my classmates, back to my hometown and meeting everybody, birthdays, calls, etc. I have enjoyed the set of dreams, the mood was overly positive. There might have been some short lucidity involved pre WBTB but I have little memory. (susp.)

There also were some attractive items in a store, cakes with cream on top, and interesting looking flowers. Later on, a man was in the ladies room with a camera, I found that strange, but needed to dream pee.

LD Pack: I experienced two blackouts during the dream and this I guess made remembering it much harder.

I find myself on the top of a building, in front of me is another building, some kind of balcony and kids are jump falling downwards. This looks pretty weird but as I move forward I see that they falling on the surface of another level. They quickly come to me trying to interact but I am not interested, plus I need to stabilize. I rub my hands and concentrate on the feeling, there is some numbness below one of my thumbs. The dream feels fine, so I turn around and continue to enter the building, some kind of store initially. It seems like I am wearing tons of winter clothes and am sweating. I think at this point the dream fades and I wait.

The dream continues and I rub my hands again. There are little drops of sweat all over my palms, I try to find something to dry myself with and get some paper from my pockets. I go on with entering this store on top of the building and now find myself in some kind of a corridor. I decide it's time for my transformation, so go on all fours and pretend that I am a tiger. To my right is the glass of the corridor, dark outside, and I can see my reflection, the reflection of a tiger. I move around and try to behave like a tiger, roar although not as loud. I look at my paws but they keep shifting, the size of a tiger paw, and morphing between a fist and a paw. My reflection in the glass remains that of a tiger and that gives me some confidence. I keep on roaring and pretend now that I am fighting an invisible enemy so stand on my tiger feet and beat the air in front of me with my paws. At that moment some kind of a strange creepy mask flies out of nowhere straight into me/my face, but I attack/catch it with paws. The dream destabilizes and all is black.

I wait a bit and the dream comes back. More or less the same location but the surroundings have changed. I am happy because everything is much more stable at this point. It looks a lot like some kind of subway passage now. The way splits in two - stairs that do down and some other area that looks more appealing, but following the momentum I go down. Lots of DCs on their way as well. I have the feeling that I will get lost there, so go back up the stairs and to the other area. Some moment if enjoyment again because I was able to go back where I wanted to? It looks like a station and there is a sign with the name and of course I go closer to have a look because I want to know where I am. Dounut station? I concentrate but more letters are added. I realize that what I am doing is pointless, so move to the side. Maybe this isn't such a bad time to get naked, although I am really tired of trying and it not working out. I decide I will let my DCs undress me this time. Gosh I have tons of clothes on me. Anyways a DC woman in front of me is trying to take off my dream green cashmere pullover but stops before it covers my head. Another DC is working on my jeans and panties. This is very close to turning into a dirty scene. But that female DC is just so stuck dealing with my clothes, the dream fades and I find myself in bed. I wait but can't go back and maybe for the best.

Comment: OK, I really hope this is the last dream I am trying to do that. I really have no more interest in it, and my prospective memory should be concentrating on other tasks.

Opening Statement
Well, I'm back, and it's summer again. Yes, I know, not the most energetic opener, but can you blame me? After all, it's been an entire hum-drum year of school, which is painfully good at giving me no time to focus on Lucid Dreaming. Seriously, I've had to re-brush up on everything! But, more to the point, I'm back again, and ready to redo and relearn everything! Of course, you know what that means... Time for dream fragments!

Legend (Not that we need it right now)
Black = Dreaming
Blue = Awake (I've changed blue to meaning awake since being aware of dreaming is generally taken over by Lucid Dreaming.)
Green = Lucid Dreaming

Entry
I was in an odd city (think old British Architecture, with a sepia-toned light shining on everything), with a small group of people that I regarded as some sort of sqaud I worked with. One of them shouted at me to 'get ready', which I must of contemplated a bit before being interrupted by a Combine Helicopter blowing half the city up to crap. For no explained reason I suddenly left my body, and got right up behind said helicopter. Oh, quick note, if you didn't know, the Combine is a giant army of aliens hellbent on conquering everything, and are the main antagonists of Half-life 2. I had quite a good view of the copter, but I couldn't really do much else besides watch it. Of course, though, this didn't matter, because my mind got bored and decided to whisk me away to another dream scene.

In the same type of city, albeit a lot cleaner and happier looking, a group of apparent friends and I were standing around and doing people things. Amidst these people things was socialising, and socialise we did. Me and a particular female of the group (interestingly, I can't remember any of their faces in the slightest) connected pretty quickly, by which I mean we were suddenly intimate. Literally, just like that, we were in love. I can't imagine why, considering we didn't even exchange any greetings, but logic has no place in dreams, now does it. So, we walked around, I fondled her a bit, and then my brain realised that it was morning now, so time to wake up, and watch some more Squid Girl.

Ending Comments
Well, wasn't that... That. I think my favorite part of this whole thing was waking up and watching Squid Girl, because that's possibly one of the greatest shows ever. Wait, what now? I'm supposed to say something about the dream? Oh, umm... Combine Helicopters are neat, I like their shooty noises. There, happy? Anywho, I'm going to start looking for patterns in these dreams, maybe find a recurring theme to use for a Mantra, or whatever that diddley's called. Anyway, thanks for reading, and, as always, cheers!

Goals
[]Miracle of Flight! (Fly)
[]Bros 4ever! (Brofist a clone of myself)
[]Fus Roh Dah! (The title says it all)
[]Satisfaction! (Kill Adolf Hitler)
[]Kahbeeewwmm! (Blow something up)
[]Mewzickawl! (Make my brain compose a song)
[]Childhood Dreams! (Breathe underwater and explore the ocean)
[]Adventure... Yeaaahhhh! (Go on an adventure some where)
[]Decadream! (Have ten Lucid Dreams)
[]Chaos! (Take the role of Rico Rodriguez)
[]Let There be Realumpco! (Create a planet, galaxy, or universe)
[]Hero Worship! (Do something with a favorite youtube LPer)
[]Dual Chaos! (Cause a chaotic event with John De Lancie)
[]Sleeping Turkey! (Have three LDs in a row)
[X]Inception! (Have a False Awakening)
[]Screw Evil! (Beat a nightmare)
[]You've met with a terrible fate, haven't you? (Succumb to a nightmare)
[]Fooling the Mind! (Enter Sleep Paralysis)

Date: 24 June

Total sleep time: 9 hrs

Pre bed: 200mg valerian

Comments: went to bed extra early, took some valerian and planned to caffeinate myself in the morning. Missed my natural wake, it was really late to WBTB plus caffeine, so just enjoyed my sleep. Got lots of fragments, here the most interesting ones.

Fragment1: I am in someone's house and do something that causes lots of expensive looking plates to fall on the floor. As I am watching them fall they arrange themselves/land softly so nothing is broken, I feel relieved. A butler comes and starts examining the plates, and picks up one with a crack, then breaks it and blames it on me.

Fragment2: I see I young guy from rl (that I am calling from now on) "the preacher". I have some realizations about reality and dreams that I want to share with him because I know he may understand them.

Fragment3: My school teacher wants me to immediately fill out my bank details on a form that is printed on a yellow napkin. My best friend from school invites me to The Offspring concert as she has an extra ticket. I hug her, but say no because the concert is too late?

Fragment4: I am sad about declining the concert invitation and have second thoughts. Now at our first home, I am preparing to go out. The clock shows 8:50 pm and I figure the concert starts at 9. As I prepare the time is 8:20 and I am a bit more relaxed because I am not that late after all.

around 15 mins before final wake, I wake up with full bladder, but want to sleep so roll over

LD: I appear on the street of my hometown, still having some residual thoughts about my best friend, but hey this is a dream! I am truly surprised to make it to a lucid, since I decided to let it go today. Anyways, let's enjoy this. Unfortunately, my bladder is bothering me and it is very hard to concentrate. I rub my hands and the dream is stable. Trying to ignore the bladder, I look around, there are many DCs on the street going their way. The "lucidity DC" task comes to mind and I try to stop someone. First there is a black couple and I say a few words to them about lucidity, but can't finish my sentence as they ignore me and go away. I get another DC woman, and tell her. She nods her head, but I have doubts about her ability to find me in a dream and tell me to become lucid. Therefore I continue terrorizing DCs, looking for someone else to talk to about it.

I turn around the corner and there is the black couple again. I am thinking that it is very weird that I run into the same DCs that I just talked to, especially since I didn't expect to see them. They wear stylish black clothes, woman is with a knee-lenght skirt. This time they are much friendlier, greet me and we shake hands with both of them. Alright! I concentrate and say two-three sentences about them finding me, telling me this is a dream to make me lucid. The very last word of the final sentence was lucid, and I notice how I have just been saying the whole Ld speech with a different accent. Very cool and they like it too. Task done so I leave them and cross the street with many other DCs there. Very crowded today. I continue walking in this still familiar looking street as I run 3 other tasks in my head, but don't feel like I can do any of them right now. As I walk forward and contemplate what to do next, the dream fades and I am back in bed with a slight feeling of the void. I could have DEILDed today, but needed to peeee so badly plus there wasn't much time left.

I've been trying, mostly unsuccessfully, to incubate a Loki dream for a while now. I thought I'd try something different for a change... working WITH my Subconscious, which seems to have very different tastes than I do. For many years, I had a certain semi-annual erotic dream about Orlando Bloom...even though I'm not really (consciously) into the guy.

So, I wanted to see if I'd be more successful incubating a Legolas dream. To do this, I've decided to watch the LOTR movies over a course of three evenings -- last night I watched the Two Towers -- while telling myself, every time Legolas comes on-screen, that I'll dream about him. Here's the first result:

Bedtime: 11:50
WBTB: 5:00 (failed)
Aids: B-complex
Recall: Low
Vividness: Low
Lucidity: None
Awesome Factor: Low

Legolas was hugging me (to celebrate our relationship), but throughout some of it he was Megan Fox. I only reached up to his/her waist, and we laughed about that. Secretly, though, I was devastated that it couldn't possibly work, as I was just too damn short! I wondered if I could grow taller if I focused on it.

(Not sure if this is the same dream) We were on board some kind of ship. Water was leaking through, but it was supposedly being controlled by some contraption (that wouldn't, or at least I didn't believe would work for long). I saw an image of water rushing through this thing. The water was very clear. I think Legolas might have been in this dream, hence my suspicion that it's another fragment of the above.

Alright, last night the results blew my mind.

I can remember 8 dreams and almost everyone in detail (which I'm going to write here shortly) and I had about 4 FA's where I did ADA. Also, I got a feeling of how my dreams feel.
In the following I'm gonna write my dreams and also I'll try to analyze them.

1st Dream:

I only remember this dream vaguely because it was the very first dream I had. Basically this dream was a whole rehearsal of a video I watched before going to bed. It was about Pickup and I even knew that I was going to dream about this when I went to bed. But instead of fighting it I accepted the fact that I would eventually dream about this video and well, I did. I woke up after this dream (after about 4 hours of sleep) and knew that this knowledge was now memorized in my brain.

Interpretation: Well, you dream about what you've seen that day (especially if it was right before going to bed). I'm kinda glad because dreaming about something you did during the day strengthens the knowledge.

2nd Dream:

This dream was pretty weird. At first I was in my car with my mother and we drove around in a nearby village. Suddenly the water level rose and there was water on the street. We tried to drive away but the road to get out of the village was blocked by water. Everywhere I could see people trying get away or trying to block the water. In the dream I remembered how I've seen this before (IRL) and I parked the car at the highest place in the village. Suddenly the water level rose again rapidly and all the cars on the road were flooded. I told my mom that we are lucky to have parked up on the hill. For some reason I was now at the road standing in the water up to my knees.
My mom told me to get to the car so I started walking. Suddenly the water rose even higher and I had to swim. The water looked like a swamp and it was really really deep...just like swimming in a lake. While I was swimming I woke up.

Interpretation: I actually drove over a flooded street some days ago so I guess this dream was just an old memory getting mixed in the dream.

3rd Dream:

This dream was some kind of nightmare. I was the dude from the game "Postal" (which is extremely brutal and scary sometimes) and I was walking along a huge hallway. I felt like I was in hell (which is a place where you go in the game at some point) and I had a sledgehammer and a revolver. Suddenly some mutated hell-dogs attacked me. They were huge, red, bloody and extremely ugly. They tried to jump me but I could hit them with the hammer and just smash their skulls. Then I took the revolver and shot them but they took about 3 shots to die. Suddenly one of them got me and tried to bite me in my face. I managed to throw it off and just destroyed him with the hammer.
I reached some kind of door and woke up. The whole dream I had a negative and scary feeling.

Interpretation: I don't really know why I dream of this game, haven't thought about or played it for many months. But I was always kinda scared of it so maybe it's a unresolved trauma.

4th Dream:

In this dream I started on a huge field of grass. In the distance I could see some kind of tower made out of dirt. On top of it was a platform. The sun was shining and the whole atmosphere and the environment reminded me of Fairy Tail anime. I approached the tower and there were 2 people which I didn't know. One of them was standing on the platform always falling down and climbing back up, the other one was on the ground looking up to the guy and screaming something like "You can do it!".
I just jumped up the platform somehow (I don't remember) and when I was standing on top of it there were 2 new people. They were both characters of Fairy Tail (Erza and Natsu I think) and I hugged Erza. Somehow I felt like the Natsu was Lmrhone and I was like "Wow, we're in Cardia!". I didn't recognize that Fairy Tail has nothing to do with Cardia lol
That's about all I remember and I woke shortly after.

Interpretation: I got no idea what those 2 guys earlier were doing. I only laughed about how he tried to constantly get up the tower. Maybe something about how I laugh about people who try too hard to do something IRL...
And the other thing was my wish to have a SD and go to Cardia I think.

5th Dream:

This is a compilation of multiple FA's but I'll treat them as one dream. It happened after I went to bed with the intent to be aware and do ADA. Well, in the FA's I woke up and did ADA but I didn't realize it was a real dream due to False Awakening. That's why I switched my ADA routine to do a RC at the end everytime.

Interpretation: Not much to say about this, usual FA after going to bed with intent.

6th Dream:

This was a Parkour Dream. I was in some foreign city walking around in my usual parkour clothes. I reached a park and some jerks were trying to climb up a roof and yelled "Parkour, Parkour!". I was like "Whatever" and ran up to a different house. It was perfect for parkour so I climbed up and after some actions I was on the roof.
After that I got bored and walked around the city. I then met a girl I know from class and we talked. That's all I remember.

Interpretation: My usual ego trying to brag when I see people doing things not the way they are supposed to do

7th Dream:

I was now at a huge beach. There was a gigantic ship that resembled the ships the vikings used. I walked to the ship and entered it. For some reason all my classmates were inside trying to row. They wanted to sail across the sea to the other side of the beach (which was completely stupid because it was just like 50 meters and the ship was so huge).
I sat down and helped them to row. We talked about some stuff I can't remember and when we reached the other side I got out and woke up again.

Interpretation: Memory of meeting my classmates.

8th Dream:

It was night. I was in some kind of huge garden. I was able to use magic and I walked around looking for something. Suddenly some enemies appeared, they looked like small wizards. I ran away and got to a graveyard. I don't really remember what I did but I think I fought using magic and the whole area reminded me of Fairy Tail and Tera Online. At some point I woke up, very short dream.

Interpretation: No idea at all. Lately I like the thought of being able to use magic thanks to Fairy Tail anime


Alright, that's all about my dreams.

My plans for today/tonight are to keep doing ADA (actually I'm doing it right now and I can't really stop anymore) and meditate when going to bed. And well, I'll just go to bed without any intentions other than to keep the awareness up.

Can't remember much. For some reason I was able to handle a centuries-old roman scroll because I wanted to learn more about the ancient romans, or because I was doing a research project about them, or something like that. I sat in a little coffee shop with the scroll drinking earl grey tea, but for some reason I was separated from the scroll. A lot of the dream had to do with everyone looking down on me/disliking me and I wasn't able to prove my worth, and I had to keep trying to get the scroll back so no one would damage it.