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    1. My day log - 5th April

      by , 04-05-2013 at 10:19 PM
      Right now I am a bit drunk as I been drinking 2 irish coffee (me and my gf got one each from her mum and the dude that's here, but my gf didn't like it much, so I drinked her too), + 2 other drinks that I don't know what it is but it's good k.

      Today anyway, I woke up in morning. I packed gymbag, this time I choosed my backpack as I thought it might be better for my shoulders/back etc, as the other gymbag kind of put much pressure on one of the shoulder I lift it on during bike etc. Plus it have start to broke some.

      Anyway, I went off to gym in morning, did strength exercises. Legs, back, abs, shoulders and chest.
      Once done at gym, I went to the internship, last day there.
      Was there from 9am to 2pm. Got to write on a contract, start to work there at 22th April, my first real job ever where I got to earn money. Sadly though, it's not very great salary after all (15 400 SEK in month, before tax, and in Sweden we got high tax. Maybe I get around 10 000 - 11 000 SEK. Still better than the 3000 SEK I get each month for being unemployed).

      Well, after this internship I went to the store and then to my gf's mums apartment where she lives.
      Waited for them to get home, as they were in city etc.
      Then later, we made and ate home-made pizza, and ofc ate of it.

      I watched 9 episodes of 2 and a half mens, season 10 (latest), while waiting for dinner and while eating it (pizza).

      Then watched some other serie that my gf atm watching, some supernatural serie. Wasn't very great, so instead I am on the computer.

      I don't want to say it, but just höhö. that's a secret code that I only know as I consider it too personal to write out. I just write it because I will know more if I will read back in my journal.

      Now I just listen to music and being abit drunk and I hope I will get VIVID or LUCID dreams (I did get lucid dreams and vivid dream before when being drunk, which I am not very often, just a 2-6 times a year in average I believe, atleast the previous 2 years). Year 2012 I think I were drunk about 5 times maybe? if even that? Maybe it was only like 4.
      And when I am drunk, I am not wasted (meaning, so drunk that I wont remember sh-t). I am just that drunk that I still know what I am doing etc, and I don't feel like throwing up or anything, just that somehow it does feel that I'm alittle drunkie and it's fine and fun and great.
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    2. 2nd - 5th April

      by , 04-05-2013 at 09:23 PM
      Been lazy writing down dreams here in my journal on dreamviews. But here I write them from my physical dream journal.

      2th April
      Bedtime: 23:00
      First wakeup: 02:28
      Final wakeup: 06:00 (alarm)

      Rush morning (false awaking)
      I woke up in the morning and noticed on the clock that I've overslept. I started to rush/hurry with everything and thought that I'm fkd (as I would come late to internship/job).


      Filming with Pewe (dream)
      I was going to make a video with some dude called/known as Pewe (real name is Peter). We were outside some bar/restaurant and walked into it. The place was nice, it was red and yellow wood colors. Somewhat expensive restaurant/bar i believe.
      However, we didn't find anything great to film there. But we found some other place where I shot series of photos that matched great (idk how they matched though).
      Then I went home or somewhere, I laid in a bed and my gf called me and asked me when I will come to her. Time was about 10 o'clock.


      4th April
      Bedtime: 00:10
      First wakeup: 05:45
      Final wakeup: 06:00 (alarm)

      Fragment 1:
      Computers + internet + internship

      Fragment 2:
      The basic military education

      Sleep over at gfs dads house (dream)
      I were at my gf's dads place and we were about to sleep over there. At first we had some argument (me and my gf), but we got alright later. The argument started when me, my gf and my gf's mum watched a movie together and my gf got sad over something in the movie, but me and my gf's mum didn't care really and that made my gf mad and there argument started.
      Anyway, at her dads place we had a room where we gonna sleep in. I were told to make the room darker, take out all lights etc.
      But then my gf had fixed some movie that me, my gf and my gf's friend were going to watch at. But somehow, it was a sort of game that had to be installed before that.




      That's it.
      False awakings: +1
      Dreams: +2
      Fragments: +2
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    3. 5th Apr 2013 Dreamviews, Capturing enemy building, Pie

      by , 04-05-2013 at 09:05 PM (Scionox's Journal of Dreams)
      Some improvement since last recall i guess, still not much of detail.

      Dream 1(fragment):

      I was inside some wooden structure.

      Dream 2:

      I was on my PC but in some different kind of place, there was a war and discussing it with someone. Then i was visiting dreamviews and i apparently became a dream guide, there was two more people who became dream guides too: JoannaB and some dude with anime avatar and weird name which had 'demon' in it. We were posting around and there were some posting problems, then i was distracted from PC by dude that i had discussion with earlier. We went to fight some enemies outside and then assaulted a building which was apparently and enemy base. I think enemies were German and one of the enemies was actually helping us. When we finally captured the building there was an weird L-shaped pie, and the ex-enemy that joined us was saying about that it's tradition, then we started eating that pie, it was yummy even though looked weird. Then we were discussing something else and then dream shortly ended.
    4. Near WILD, and most awesome lucid yet!

      by , 04-05-2013 at 08:19 PM (The Erratic dreams of StaySharp)
      I was lying down in bed like usual and it was my 3rd sleep phase that day, I configured my smartphone alarm (Dream as Android) to skip recording 27 minutes, and I had my 56th lucid dream. I tried focusing on phosphenia as usual and fell asleep within very few minutes.

      I was in my home (which like usually wasn't remotely like my actual home, it was a big and complex building) and was only wearing underwear. I became lucid fast for no specific reason.

      I tried to fly and while that worked the windows and walls proved to be impenetrable, I even tried using a flame blast which materialized as a dark red beam, which however didn't leave a scratch, I guess my home is supposed not to be destroyed by me
      So I just went through the doors (like 5 rooms, the building was big and mostly blue), and when I was outside I could fly perfectly and with exceptional ease, it was easier than walking is in real life. It was night und I was looking at things from above, the house looked smaller and more normal from the outside. I applied some kind of invincibility nano armor scales and let myself drop to the ground, slightly shattering the ground.

      Then I went through a forest and tried focusing on details, with a lot of success, for the first time I can really recall that the details were absolutely like in real life, maybe even slightly better. After some time I had contact with some people and tried reading what was written on some chocolate, after just a second of focusing I was able to read, and consistently at that, things didn't change once written at all. I even noticed some false grammar which after waking up proved indeed to be an perfectly correct assumption from me. I also tried some but it didn't taste crazy or anything, just pretty weak like chocolate. Someone was offering me chocolate with hazelnuts but I wasn't interested.

      Then I was in some kind of weird building (nothing too fancy but I just can't describe it, there was a lot of stuff scattered all over the place) were I was talking with generic dream characters about jokes, I know I remembered one of them after waking up, but forgot it now cause it was not that interesting.
      I was constantly wondering when the dream would end and this time around it seems my REM phase got weak and I woke up (I think there was something in real life helping as well).


      I'll skip my improval notes because this dream was kind of like breaking my personal wall of sound that had be keeping me down for nearly 2 years! When I woke up my alarm just started recording so all that happened within like 25 minutes of me falling asleep. When resuming sleep I felt that the barrier keeping me from falling asleep conscious "took a serious blow", but after some minutes I fell asleep normally again. I may still take some weeks or months till my first real WILD but for the first time I feel I'm getting close!

      Updated 04-06-2013 at 09:22 PM by 48127

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      lucid , memorable
    5. 04/05/13 Nightmare Retribution

      by , 04-05-2013 at 08:08 PM (New Dream Adventures of Raven Knight)
      04/05/13

      Field of Nightmares
      I fall asleep listening to a hypnotic recording intended to help me achieve a lucid dream… and successfully WILD. I am lying on a blanket in the middle of a green grassy field that the hypnosis program has described. The field is filled with green grass and is very peaceful. At least that's what I am expecting to see when I open my eyes. But instead there are several people right near me and the rest of the field is filled with demonic looking creatures. The people right next to me are Templars, I can feel hostile energy radiating off of them. It looks like the one in front is about to say something, I really am not in the mood to hear it. He says all of the pain can be over if I just return what is theirs. No more attacks, they will leave me alone. I don't believe him. I use the song spell Battery by Metallica to call lightning from the sky to strike him where he stands. The Templars around me are all struck by lightning and disappear. A portal opens in the sky as all the demonic creatures move in to attack me. I hear Nomad yell a couple of loud expletives as he engages the demons in battle. I form Witchblade into a sword and cut down an enemy that tries to jump on me, as it tries to tear me open with talons. The fight around me escalates. There are more people there. When I fell asleep I felt so alone, but it is clear I am not alone at all. I see Spike, Q, Sephiroth, Vegeta, Bakura, Link, Altaïr, and I see there are numerous others but I don't get a clear enough look at them to identify them. A large explosion comes from Vegeta's direction, I look over and see he is powering up… and just his energy aura has incinerated numerous enemies around him. I use Damage, Inc. to call forth fireballs to hit the enemies. As the fighting dies down I see the field of grass is covered with disgusting stuff. Even though we won the battle the place has been destroyed. Nomad is playing a didgeridoo and cleaning up some of the crap. I use the song Full Moonlight to collect more of the crap and neutralize it. The field is beginning to look peaceful again. I tell Nomad we can go heal Winter, he has told me her fibromyalgia is bothering her again. He says he knows I need healing first, we could both use healing after the constant attacks from Templars. We go through a portal to the balancing pools on the moon. I focus healing energy through Nomad, aiming to heal the last of his sores. I slip into the warm water of the pools and it is very relaxing. I sink to the bottom of the pool and fall asleep in the dream as I wake up.

      Retribution
      I enter into a WILD in my room and I am surrounded by Templars yet again. I wonder where they keep coming from. How are there always so many Templars? The hostile energy is coming off of them in waves, they are all glaring at me, but it looks more comical than threatening. The energy coming off of them is not comical. I remember I had a goal for dreams… to WILD, then teleport, then manipulate the elements. And I can get payback on some Templars at the same time! I focus on one of the Templars, using psychic energy to read into his thoughts. Not getting much right now. I use the spell song Master of Puppets to clear the signal. He's thinking about punching the guy to his right in the face for some thoughtless remark he made earlier. But not now, later, he is thinking they need to focus on the enemy right now. Since I have a view of his thoughts I ask him where their base of operations is. He tells me to fuck myself, but the image goes through his mind even though he doesn't speak of it. It is located somewhere in the deserts of Nevada, mostly underground. I have a clear view of it. I focus on teleporting all of us… both the Templars and me… back to that location. At first nothing happens. I think it is because of the attacks. I use Whiplash to send their attacks back at them. During the brief time the attacks cease the teleportation works. We are now in a rather plain looking room with computers all around, the Templars look a bit surprised to be here. I tell them I didn't want them to miss out on what comes next. I drop an immortal fire right there in the small room, sending an explosion of flames out from my location, incinerating everything in its path. I hear that one of the Templars has a chance to get out, "Oh, shit…" before the flames surround him. The flames die away and the place is now in ruins. I feel considerably better than I did when I first fell asleep surrounded by pounding attacks. Much better. I am looking around at the ruins as I wake.
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      lucid
    6. frags for the day

      by , 04-05-2013 at 04:49 PM (Tales from the sun chaser.)
      I remember fighting someone, and having issues with my teeth. I rubbed my tongue along them and realized they felt different. Like they were more concave than usual.
      Tags: fighting, teeth
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    7. Nomage

      by , 04-05-2013 at 04:29 PM (Xanous' Dream Journal)
      #157 - 5:24AM - Alarm clock DEILD

      I hold still as my wife hits the snooze button. I feel a huge grin on my face as I get instant vibrations. I have you now!

      I try to transition out of bed but I find it difficult. I relax for a second only to startle myself with a loud gasping sound. It reminds me of "breathing in the chemicals" from a Imagine Dragons song. I surge forward and press into the bedroom wall. I see static like on a TV with 3 colorful blobs dancing in the center. Red blue yellow. Was that real? Am I having apnea? I can't worry about it now.

      I am standing in my bedroom in darkness now. I have my eyes open and can see just fine but it's just really dark. I wonder if it is my physical eyes or dream eyes. It feels like dream eyes. This is not SP. I clumsily fumble out of my bedroom. It's odd because I am walking out but I can hear the box fan and the sound doesn't "move". I try not to focus on it and forget it almost instantly. I feel the door, open it, and step out. For some reason I aimlessly wonder into the kitchen. I hit a light switch and see a fading glow of light behind me. I turn to follow it but its gone. I wish for light and my vision is over come with it. It was like a bright light filtered through closed eye lids. Then, more darkness. I wait.

      I look at my hands. They are clear and bright. I want to taste them for TOTM. I lick. Bland. I start to bite and there is only a slight pressure. I bite harder trying to break a finger off. This ended up severing well as a stabilization trick.

      Suddenly, I am standing in my brightly lit dining/living room. (Our house more of an open floor plan and it's really just one room here.) I guess the light switch just took a little bit to warm up? I look around. And see a turned on TV on top of the bookcases. The image is blurry and I don't focus on it. The room is fully furnished with lots of oddities. I see some footed PJs that look like they should belong to my son. There is some sort of green and blue design on them. I stuff a "foot" into my mouth and chew. I feel like I have cotton mouth with a morning breath taste. Yuk. I feel I smack my lips in real life at this point and forget it. The PJs are gone. All of this almost wakes me up and the scene seems to jump at bit.

      I am sitting in the living room floor. I think about the advanced TOTM and want to summon some coal. I reach behind my back but come up empty handed. I try again and see a small ball of dark coal about the size of a marble. Good enough. I put my hands together and feel the coal crumble like dry mud. I wait a moment and sing, "Shine bright like a diamond. Shine bright like a diamond." I open my hands expecting to see a diamond but there's nothing there.

      I think about how CL sometimes asks for help from DCs but I never seem to have any. I look around and see my son lying sideways in the recliner. Hes smiling and cooing at me. I smile back and say, "Hey buddy." I mentally ask him if he has any coal and hold my hand out. Me puts his hand in mine but there is no coal. He seems confused. We try again but nothing happens. I give up and turn around.

      My parents old cabinet TV is setting were my entertainment center should be. I see that it is turned on and I hear Wade from sliders talking. She is standing on a dark street corner with Quinn and Rembrandt. I jump back, "Ohhh Sliders!" Without thinking I put both feet in the TV and the screen turns into a "Sliders wormhole". I pause and step out. Do want to enter that scene or make my own wormhole? I hear Wades voice again and I decide that I'd like to properly meet the Sliders crew. I kneel before the TV and slowly put my hands into the screen. I feel a little resistance but all goes fine. The screen is still displaying a wormhole and I can hear the electric noise of it. I am up to my elbows now. I pause, put my head in, and roll forward. There is darkness but I can still hear wade talking. I use my OBE technique and plant my feet solid. I feel like I grow from the ground up; from nothingness into my full self. I can faintly see the 3 of them. The professor is not there. Wade turns to me. I can see her face clearly now. She is surprised and says, "Hey! Who's that guy? The other two look at me in with mild curiosity. The dream fades to black.

      I DELID by rubbing my hands.


      I feel myself lying in bed with vibrations. I am not sure if I am really rubbing my hands because I am rubbing so vigorously that the bed is shaking. I have to assume it's fake. If it's not, then oh well it's about time to get up anyway. I listen and wonder how soon the alarm will go off again. I don't feel very grounded so I decide roll around in the bed. I smile and laugh at the dizzying sensation. Soon I can see something.

      I am lying in a bag of Fritos and I can hear a voice that sounds very much like a commercial. I think, "I'm in a Fritos commercial?" I laugh and start munching on the giant me-sized Fritos. Each one is about as long as I am. I note the crunch and the taste. My mouth seems a little numb like I've recently received Novocain and the taste seems very salty. I roll around in the bottom of the bag munching away until its empty. When I am done, I look up and notice the bag is sealed. I envision a giant plastic clip on top and wonder how I'm to get out. I am actually a little amazed at how tiny I must be and I begin to feel very claustrophobic. I have to force the thought away and I close my eyes.

      I begin to think about the time. I feel like the alarm is really close and don't want to be jolted awake. I fear that I will forget the dream. I start thinking back with difficulty but remember most of it after a few seconds. Doing this wakes me up and I open my eyes just before the alarm goes off again.

      Updated 04-05-2013 at 09:52 PM by 5967 (I really rushed typing this on my phone. Typos fixed. Reworded some places.)

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      lucid , memorable , task of the month
    8. In bed with Cal; DILD & ToTM- bread

      by , 04-05-2013 at 04:18 PM
      During day: (RCs + DS)x10

      Total Sleep Time: 7 hrs

      Dream recall method: D1-D4 – keywords in notepad; tried to recall D3-D4 somewhat when going back to bed; D5 –straight to tablet after final wake

      Dream1: I am back to our first home and live with my parents again. It is late night and I just came back from somewhere. A former classmate has organized a meeting at 12:10 (evening), so I want to go there. I tell my mom that I am going out, although I know she won’t let me. She doesn’t say anything and I take this opportunity to leave as fast as possible. But instead of that, I start preparing to go out and it takes me a very long time, I go to the restroom two times, and it’s 12:50 already. I finally leave and hope that my friends are still there. They are meeting in some kind of a bar where they serve sea food. I head in the direction of the place and try to call the organizer of the event.

      Dream2: I am in our first home again, this time in my room. It is dark outside, a few lights are on. I am in the bed with Cal Lightman. He looks terrific, there is not a single wrinkle on his face, a perfect radiant complexion. I feel attracted to him. Since the light is on, the neighbours can actually see me, so I go to the window to block the view of whatever may take place in my room. I can see that there is someone in the nearby building that may actually be watching, so I try to adjust the curtains. That’s not easy at all because the curtain is constantly changing and does not cover the entire window. Once I am satisfied with the result I go back to the bed to Cal, but he is not there anymore. I see an inflatable boat on the floor. It starts to self-inflate and I try to hold it back from expanding in the whole room.

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      Fragment3: I am in some kind of disco bar most likely with my boyfriend and some unknown DC friends. I start mixing the drinks. I order twice an “amaretto” drink which is more like an alcoholic chocolate mousse. I pay in banknotes that I lay on the table: 20, 10, 10. I have left 2x10 for me, which should be enough to cover another round.

      Dream4: In some house with my bf. My mom is there as well. The agreement was that I can sleep over in my bf’s place, but instead I change my mind and decide to spend the night at my parents’ place. My bf is somewhat disappointed but I tell him I will come by in the next few days.

      I am in a large building that has been made to accommodate a museum. I am wondering which floor to go to. I see a large painting on the wall and the signature of the artist or some kind of title. I read it out loud. My mom corrects me and pronounces it with two different accents “Exhibition of the composiccion”??? [end]

      The alarm wakes me up, 1 hour before my final desired wake time. I visit the restroom, note key words, and have an average desire to lucid. I go back to bed, trying to review the last dream but I fall asleep.

      Dream5 [DILD, ToTM]: I am in my old place and am looking through the window. I see some guys carrying a strangely shaped case, I am almost sure that there is some kind of weapon in there. I look back to inside of the room and suddenly become lucid. My bf is sitting on the bed behind me, but I pay no attention to him. I feel a bit as if everything is submerged in invisible water. I look to what is in front of me and a small dog appears in the room. It looks like pug breed type and it moves around really fast. I find it hard to follow it with my gaze. It transforms and is now another kind of puppy with brownish fur. I remember I should try to interact with the dream, grab something, so I grab the puppy and caress it a bit. Then I remember that I have to eat something for ToTM. [IRL I thought it would be easier to lick something, but completely forgot it in the dream] I look at the puppy, which is quickly transformed into some strange kind of meat left-over, and I wonder if I should eat the puppy? No way I eat that puppy, or whatever it is now! I get slightly distracted as next to the ex-puppy leftover is some wool thread and I have a strong desire to thought-lift and make it twirl around. I focus my eyes on it and try to move it, but I feel some resistance. I manage to move it a bit but not the way I wanted, I give up.

      Still with the eating ToTM in mind, I look frantically around, I need to find something to eat and think of going in the kitchen to look for something. At that point I turn around and I see my bf eating bread. I think, bread ? Too plain, but whatever! He holds the very last piece in his hand. I tell him not to eat it. He mouth-feeds me the piece of soft white bread and I chew it slowly. It tastes like bread. I become very suspicious because of the intensity of the flavour and start thinking that while I am dreaming, my real boyfriend could really be feeding me with some bread and laughing at me. I ask my dream boyfriend if that is the case, but he denies.

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      Since I am still not awake I decide to do the only other thing I remember – try chanting Om. I go into another room, this is a completely different place now. I am by myself here, there is something wooden and green maybe the window frames, 2 lamps hang as low as my chest. I try to chant omm, but some shriek-like sound comes instead. I feel like this is not going to work. I hear another sound and then see the door to the apartment moving by itself and banging as if moved by the wind. Perhaps I should close it? But then my expectations start to build and I know something or someone is behind the door. Some DC quickly enters through the door, initially the shape of my bf, but it is not him. I don’t want to have another chase ruin the LD, so I try not to pay too much attention to him. At that moment 5-6 DCs enter, behaving a bit menacing they are walking towards me. I try to change my expectations and their reactions. They kind of slow down a bit and are somewhat more manageable so I am pretty happy with that.

      I walk out of the apartment, through the door and find myself into something like mall or maybe inside a big store. I see a section where they sell semi-precious stones, some one-piece bracelets made of stone, like jade. I really like what I am seeing. I am starting to lose control over my own actions, perhaps being too happy with the dream. The DCs are following me now as I make a few steps while staring at the precious stones section. My subconscious turns on the music and I start singing a song cabaret style “Lucidity, the dream is fixed, lucidity” and joyfully march a few more steps.
      [end]

      The dream collapses and I find myself in darkness, closed eyelids. I remain still and try to DEILD but can’t reconnect. I begin to feel sleepy so I decide to wake up before I forget everything. The dream memory feels more evasive that usual and I barely manage to hold on to it.

      Final notes:I am confirming the best time for my DILDs so far is the last hour before final wake (with 7-8hrs sleep). Today I allowed myself an hour sleep to possibly LD instead of my somewhat successful snooze DILD experiments.

      Another thing I find important to note is stabilization. My DILDs last long enough and there is really no need for me to rush like a crazy monkey, compromising dream stability and later recall. Next time: take it slow!
    9. TofY Part 6 - Colosseum - Doctor Who Style

      by , 04-05-2013 at 02:45 PM
      I was waling along the street of Cardiff Bay thinking about my boyfriend. His hand appeared in mine and we walked together for a while. Then I had an idea and pulled him into 'my' T.A.R.D.I.S and we time travelled back to ancient Rome. When we arrived I grabbed a sonic screwdriver from the control and we exited the blue box, walking the few feet into the Colosseum. I sent my boyfriend up into the stands, thinking of the task of the month and made my way towards the arena. A fight was just finishing so I slipped my way to the front of the little waiting area thing that was basically a cave underneath the stands seperated from the arena by a metal cross-hatched gate.

      The fight finished, massive cheering occured and these gates lifted, signalling that one of us was required to enter the arena. I took my chance and grabbed a sword on my way in, placing the sonic into my pocket for later use. Our fight started and I remember sighing deeply, the guy I was against was massive and had it been a normal fight I would have been dead within 10 seconds. I raised my sword to meet his attacks, our constant to and fro-ing going on for about 5 minutes, one of us always countering the other's attacks until I got bored and pulled my sonic out of my pocket. recieving a blow to the arm in the process, and pointed it at the guy, freezing him in place.

      Putting the sonic back into my pocket I jabbed him with my sword before slicing his head off, causing a massive uproar to be heard from the crowd as I hadn't waited for the emperor's blessing. Dropping my sword I sprinted over to where I'd left my boyfriend and dragged him towards the exit, both of us running like mad to avoid being caught by everyone chasing us. We quickly got back to the T.A.R.D.I.S and shut the doors. Setting her into flight mode and returning to modern day.

      Updated 04-05-2013 at 02:49 PM by 58686

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      lucid , task of the year
    10. My eyes!

      by , 04-05-2013 at 02:37 PM
      This dream took place in school again. Except this time it actually was my school. A few changes on the layout of classrooms, but it was more or less an accurate depiction of the place. It started in math class, not really learning anything, as per usual, because my teacher is incompetent. Just sitting there, talking to one of my friends in that class, and my eyes begin to hurt, and my vision ever so slightly worsens. Then I went to chemistry. Talk to my two friends in that class, and look in a mirror for some reason. My eyes are bleeding. Not like, blood pouring from my eyes like tears or something, more so the veins were leaking. What the actual fuck. I need to do something about it, tell the teacher so I can get the fuck to a hospital or something, but she doesn't care. I'm freaking out by this point, I'm not sure what the hell is going on or if I'm okay, or if it's even that big a deal. Either way it's terrifying, and between classes I freak out to my friends. Then back to math class. Accepting the fact that I'm not going to be excused from classes to go find out what the hell is wrong with me and do something to fix it, I put my head down on my desk and sigh. Then, for whatever reason I didn't want to fall asleep on my desk like a normal person, I decided to fall asleep on the desk behind me, so I leaned back, got into an awkward position, and woke up in the same position. It was a rather scary ordeal, but I wouldn't necessarily classify it as a nightmare. Or maybe I would, who knows? Also, another dream with no appearance of either tulpæ.
      Categories
      non-lucid , memorable
    11. Another experiment with galantamine

      by , 04-05-2013 at 01:29 PM (Experiments)
      took:
      - no 5-HTP before going to sleep
      - 0 dose galantamine + choline
      - no Piracetam when I got up
      lucid dreaming: 0 lucid experiences
      note:
      - had a problem with the ZEO headband slipping off last night, this is the first time this has ever happened, so no chart today
      Tags: galantamine
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      Uncategorized
    12. Entry 20 RCing like a maniac...!

      by , 04-05-2013 at 12:39 PM (Ramblings of a mad man...!)
      Ok, so last night was a weird one, I fell asleep listening to binural beats, when I say fell asleep I was actually trying to WILD and I was experiencing hypnagogic imagery, I kept myself on the border of sleep and consciousness for quite some time until I found myself dreaming, but aware of the fact, however no matter what reality checks I performed I could not get lucid, I guess this may have been a false lucid, I was running through corridors with the feeling of being chased, no so much by people, more by hands in the dark and a feeling of dread. I tried the finger through the hand, trying to fly, holding my nose and breathing, even reading posters on the walls that appeared as soon as I thought I needed something to read and all the time I was aware it was a dream, but I knew I wasn't lucid, at one point I woke trying to push my finger through my hand IRL. I don't understand how it is that I knew I was dreaming, but didn't become lucid or if I was in fact lucid, it's nothing like what I expected, it was poor quality pirated VCR at best -
      Spoiler for Spoiler for you youngsters:

      Finally I fell asleep proper.I dreamt I'd gone to see my aunt, who passed many years ago, I had to stay in a hotel or hostel, I put all my belongings in my room, including my cash and cash card and left to go to the bar. I met a young girl and we hit it off straight away, the dream turned erotic, I wont go into detail, use your imagination, but for some reason, my aunt took offence to this fact and started to kick off that I'd come to see her and all I wanted to do was fuck every girl I could find, which I found amusing to the point that I couldn't stop laughing, she rallied a large group of people up against me and we both had to leave in haste, we jumped on a bus thinking it would take us out of there, but then it turned out it was going right back again. I decided to take control of the bus and entered the cab, there were no controls whatsoever. I figured it out that the true cab was above the one I was in and proceeded there. The door was locked and when I tried to gain entrance, the driver stopped the bus in the middle of a roundabout where the police were sat, not doing anything in particular, just chatting to some people. They saw the bus jerking back and forth as I tried to work out the controls, but did nothing, just sat and watched. Once I figured out the controls and started to drive away, I realised I'd left my cash and card in my room and stated to all on the bus that we were going back - apparently it was a hell of a lot of money - to which the girl I'd enjoyed earlier had objections to. The passengers weren't happy either and so I had to go it on foot.
      I don't like to disappoint you, but the rest has gone, just remember waking up to my alarm.

      I went back to sleep as I'd set the alarm for my partner to get up early not myself and I dreamt again, in and out of conciousness, but I have no recall.

      I wanted to get the first part down more than anything, if anyone has any opinions about what I experienced, I'd love to hear them, as I said, the whole time it was happening I knew I was dreaming, it was almost like a successful WILD and falling at the last hurdle, getting up and falling again and again etc.
      I've tagged it as both lucid and non lucid as I really don't know.

      Cheers,
      Nicho...!
    13. 05/04/2013 - fragments - internet nostalgia, weird bath

      by , 04-05-2013 at 12:20 PM (vignettes from a different world)
      in the first dream i am logging back into the neopets account i had when i was like, 8.

      in the second dream i am taking a bath, but the bathroom and the adjacent hallway soon fill with several inches of water. on the floor of the hallway is writing in finnish.
    14. Massive Water Park 04/03/2013

      by , 04-05-2013 at 04:36 AM
      I've visited this place before. It's a vast water park, it is all you can see in any direction for miles, and is so large that there are hotel rooms on every level. I'm following another girl around the park, we reach the water slide that goes down to the next level. I think of how nice the cool water will feel. She's standing on a platform next to the slide, there's a swing bar that you can use to give yourself more speed going down. She gestures for me to follow and smiles.
      "Wait...I have to go to the bathroom." I turn to the wall behind me and there's a convenient bathroom nestled in the corner. It's on a swinging door, there's grids of 1 inch tile in random patterns on the inside hall. There's a really confusing twist. I thought I'd gone into the women's bathroom but straight ahead I see a door with a wooden sign that says Men's Room. I back track and see a hall branching off to the left with a sign that just says "YOU" on it.
      "Me." I agree, and take the hall, and the door at the end. I can't decide if the room I find there is a bathroom or a hotel room. There's a bed, but on the left-hand wall the carpet meets straight with white tile. On the tile is the strangest toilet I have ever seen. I can't even figure out how I'm supposed to use it. The bowl is flush with the floor, and the handle is also on the floor ten paces in front of it.
      My friend comes into the room and decides that we're here to rest. It seems that this is a hotel room after all.
      "There's someone bringing our bags, we can head back out in the morning."
      I really need to use the bathroom, but I don't want to while she's lookin' at me. That's if I can figure out how to use the toilet. I turn around and examine the contraption again. With the lights on it looks dirty. There's a crusted mess of what I will kindly call mud on the back of the seat, and cobwebs are strung all over it. Maybe I don't want to use it after all.

      I remember another part where we were picking up our bags. A long dim hallway, an orange-pink rolling suitcase. A brown toiletry bag. Hmm. Now that I think about it the hotel parts were familiar too. I guess I have a 'hotel' set in my brain to go along with the amusement and water parks I've visited.
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    15. 5th Apr 2013 Wheeeeee, false awakenings, four lucid dreams in two naps

      by , 04-05-2013 at 01:30 AM (Scionox's Journal of Dreams)
      Definitely improvement there, even though three were rather short, i got lucid in each dream, 1 WILD, 3 DILDs.
      It also was pretty confusing with the number of FAs and i couldn't recall non-lucid parts in much detail.

      Nap #1:

      I wake up in bed, knowing that i am dreaming, furniture placed differently and my bed is much closer to my PC apparently, before i can move i wake up properly.

      Nap #2:
      Dream 1:
      There was some stuff going on in my room(can't exactly recall what), interrupting my WILD attempt, but i eventually go back to doing it.
      I wake up in bed, the room looks different and i know i am dreaming, i take off headphones and binaural beats still playing, confirming that, but then i wake up, but go back to nap after memorizing recall.
      Dream 2:
      Again, family distracts me from my WILD attempt and i was fixing some machinery, which we had a whole wall of(not IWL), then there was some video game and i went back to WILD attempt.
      I wake up in bed, the room looks different once again and i know i am dreaming, i take off headphones, binaurals beats still playing, i get up and look around, the room is not just different, but positions of some furniture and exits are mirrored, i go to the balcony while rubbing hands but dream fades out and i wake up, memorizing recall once again and the going back to sleep.
      Dream 3:
      I am still there, attempting the WILD, the room is different but i don't notice it in dream, at one point family coming through the room and talking about something, then i just fallen asleep.
      I go through a number of weird sensations and then
      i wake up in bed and i know i am dreaming, but for some reason dad is on me and tries to stop me from getting up, i take off headphones, and i am still hearing binaural beats, confirming the dream. I shout 'Get off!' at dad a few times, each time in more commanding tone, and eventually, on fifth shout, he gets off me saying something along the line 'Yes, yes, goodnight' and i thank him for letting me go.
      I go for the door, and open it, but then realize that this room is not mirrored and that i opened the wrong door. I go for the balcony door while rubbing hands, not working well, i shout 'Stabilize!' and dream gets more stable and i can see very clear. I ram the balcony door, but i unexpectedly end up just phasing right through it and gravity gets low. I start flying and i feel wings. Everything looks weird, like, dreamscape just don't gets 'rendered' after certain distance, but my sight is very very clear. For a second i kinda forgot what to do, but then shortly recall that i need to practice transformation into a dragon. I shout to get more confident, and my voice echoes around the dreamscape. I fly near one of the clouds, which were pretty low down, and i can see my reflection, my wings big and black dragon-like and i am happy that i finally got them right, i attempt transformation but dream starts fading and i
      wake up.