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Oct. 14, 2012
11:00-3:00

I remember being in school. Jy was in this one again. It was about how I like her and my emotions for her. I remember standing next to Jy when suddenly this tall person went over to me and confronted me for some reason. That's all I remember.

I was in school and I remember this girl from school named Ty.

There was some sort of object called "Pleasure Lotion" in the dream.

Something about set?

There was a group of people, i had to observe. And i should kill someone of them, which i did. After a while, a friend of mine, should kill someone to, and i met him, bevor he drove there with the drum, to tell him, that he actually should not do it. i wontet do pay his ticket as well, and as i tried to find a one euro coin i found only a two euro coin, that worried me a bit.

Then i directly observed my enemies, watched them from a hill, and thought about what to do with them, i droped my cellphone down, so the head of them would pick it up, which he did, and then i thought i would blow him of with an explosive charge built into the phone, but instead i blow his car and on the phone came a message for him.

and then there was the scenery, in which i, and two friends, a girl and a boy, had to hid from them, but they came very close too us, and in that moment i understood, that you should breathe very slowly, when you hide.

I am in a plane inside of a plane. On a U shaped track. The track ends back inside of the plane. Being John Malckovich style. It is the entrane to a man's mind. As I near his earlobe, I grow smaller, as does the plane.

I am in the same school as usual. The high school that I usually forget my locker combo, my class schedule, yadda yadda yadda...Only this time I have a new confidence. I impress a teacher in the teachers lounge with my big ideas and wealth of knowledge. The other teachers fawn after me as I leave the lounge to go dominate another day at school.

I am suddenly in the middle of the kitchen, watching as my mom bends down to grab something from the fridge. It is the glass jar of Essiac. She pours herself a glass and shoots it down the hatch.

We are at a big party. Amber C. is here and a bunch of other girls I know. It seems that most are girls but there are definitely some boys lingering. We are doing a loft of moving. There is a different movement to mimic/practice/execute in each section of the house. The secret room is here, at least "a" secret room is here. I open the door and there is a fireplace and big stuffy armchairs. It seems no one knows about the room. A second time I peer in, a woman gives me a sneaky smile and locks the door. I intuitively know I can get in though, whenever I wish.

Upstairs there are men feeding on girls like vampires. I do not spend too much time up here but I don't remeber feeling any fear. Everything seemed normal and not taboo. At one point I cannot find any of my friends. I fear that either
a) they have left early without me or
b) ther vampire like men have gotten to them.

I check the hidden room (reconfirming my aforementioned premonition) and they are not there. So I grab my shoes, which is somewhat of a dillema because at this point I am quite lucid and have to decide which shoes are the most logically fit for a quick getaway. I don't recoginze any of the shoes as mine but am confident that I can have my pick because afterall, I'm dreaming. I pick a pair of checkered tennis shoes that are multicolored and remind me of a pair Amanda C. has. I head outside to put them on, which is very difficult. Outside I sit on a curb to put on the shoes. I feel safer out here in the open. The curb is concrete, white concrete. Mid shoeing, I see my companions come out of the door behind me. I don't understand but I figure that I started loking for them before I as very lucid so I must have just missed them. I decide to ask anyway and find out that they have been in the basement. Amber tells me that there is a whole set of rooms down there. She was in a room working on her core strength.

In this dream, i shifted to two different areas. The first area, from what i remember, looked like a light-colored townhouse across from an overdrop bridge and a waterfall. The second area ocurred somewhere in a city of small town.

1) Across a curvy road, smoothly paved road with yellow lines, i noticed a classmate of mine from a college math class. There is a flash of trees, a boarder that is on the edge of the road facing the water. There was a space where people could stop their vehicles to turn around or pull over. I also visited Ma, sister and Dad in the area. Seeing him was interesting, considering it being a year since he passed into the universe (or passed away). Seeing him felt so real, like i was hanging out with him. It felt comfortable.

Next thing i remember, i had a visit with my math classmate. We talked about sexual orientation and at the time, i did not remember why, though i got a calm feeling.

I remember my sister coming to visit me and bring me back to the room in the town house that we were staying at. Mom and Dad were in the room and he handed her a present. There was a feeling of happiness from her as she received it. This reminded me of a photo of her when she was a kid and caught a fish at a fish hatchery. I cannot recall what he gave her, though noticed that she was opening a rectangular-shaped box with pinkish reddish wrapping paper.

Somewhere, i think my sister was deeply enamored in electronics. I got this feeling to stay at the townhouse. The thought was at the time, that my mom and sister did not want to lose me. There was a sound and maybe a sight of Dad talking, though the words are blurry or the energy is moving so fast.

Shifting to a different area...

2) In the middle of being in the first area, somewhere in that time period, i shifted to the second area which felt like a quiet, yet a twist of reality in a neighborhood that looked like it was in the middle of a murder mystery.

The energy felt rapid with what looked like criminal activity. I did not realize how dangerous it was, until i felt more visible in situation. I felt like i wanted to leave right away. During the situation, I was holding a baby in my arms. I did not know where the baby came from. With the baby in my arms, i saw a few men across from the house i was in, seeing them go into a small house, taking a gun inside and shooting at something or someone. All the sudden, i heard a scream. At the time, i was afraid the guys were going to turn around and see someone a bit terrified.

After that, the area fades out in my memory.

I am with a group of friends at a movie theater. I feel like we're going to see something special like Harry Potter, or some fantasy flick. My group needs to do something before we head into our film and I know that if I don't go now, I will not be pleased with my seat. So I make some sort of excuse to do something like go to the bathroom or I just ninja my way in the door before anyone has time to notice. Suddenly I am in a large mass of people all trying to enter the theater. I struggle around for a bit but eventually find a good seat. Staring at the screen I notice my vision is blurry. This triggers nistant lucidity (for I wear contacts and glasses in real life). This was the internal dialogue that followed:

Do I have my contacts in?
Of course I do I'm at a movie theater.
I wouldn't go see a movie without vision.
I can't see the screen very clearly so I must be in a dream movie theater.
If I'm in a dream does my vision need altering?
Does it dpend on my lucidity?
Wait...OMG...I'm dreaming!"

*wakes up

I am in a large building. I have a room there. Late in the experience I notice a door has appeard next to my room in the long gray hallway. I open up the tall gray metal door to a strange room with shelves and shelves of food supplies. I go to joyously exclaim my findings to my roomate when I get the sense of danger. Someone very bad is in the hallway. I might even see them if the door was closed and my blind spot were elimintated. They know I'm on the other side. A man in uniform appears.

I a m participating in some gathering. My mother is here. We sit on some sort of skateboard esque vehicle, on our butts. We slide down a windy forest highway, holding hands. My mom pulls me in closer to her, avoiding the traffic on either side of us.

I am in this house. I know it, but it's been a while. There are beds everywhere, as if the owners were accomodating many guests. I get the sense that this may be the last time I get to be here. Amanda C. is here. She is in a room that is failiar to me.
Two couches very close to each other.
Small room, crowded.
Low lit.
Electronics with their messy cords.
I lose my camera. Suddely it's night and I feel alone in the house. I'm not scared just anxious to know where everyone is. I walk around in the dark until I am upstairs. There is a large room just before two smaller rooms that are side by side. I don't think these rooms have doors. Only door frames. I enter the room to the right, and find someone is sleeping. I feel this is a young woman, one who lives here. The daughter of the owners possibly. I leave the room and house. I find myslef in a wooded area. I follow the sounds of talking, laughter and music. I find a crowd of people, some familiar. They all seem to be sitting on a raised platform of some kind. Like the bed of a semi-truck or a dock. My mom is also here. She is sitting on someone's lap, a man. She is glowing with happiness. I see my father and realize that this group is comprised mostly of musicians. It's dark and they are partying it up. I see Ryan H. up on the platform. I don't want to talk to him because
a) I dont think he'll remember me and
b) I just don't want the small talk right now.
There is a small black boy telling a joke. The joke has something to do with the 80's and the band New Edition. I pretend to laugh uncontrolably so Ryan doesn't think that I recognize him (oh dream logic).

Note: My father was a musician.

In the lodge of sorts. In my room I put too much stress on my red curtains. The section comes down. I hold the bar, attempting to fix it but soon come to believe it is a lost cause. A piece is broken/missing. I see a cat who I realize is Nala.

We come face to face and I begin to remember that she is dead. In my room I am in bed naked and Alexander crawls in next to me also naked. He spoons me and I can feel his smooth skin and th great warmth radiating from it. Suddenly I remember that his sweetheart is just outisde my room. The room with one missing curtain. I mildly panic, worried she can see us. Alexander doesn't seem a bit worried. I spot Kova. I pick her up and take her to the long couch where Alexanders' sweeheart sits. I give her the cat to play with and she seems very pleased.


Note: Kova is my cat, sister of Nala.

There was a nasty individual, a villain for the lack of a better word, who wanted to harness the powers of time to do tricks like clone people by sending them back and so on. I was assigned to the research of the field. There was a stone track, like a wheel, around which the subjects would travel. There were enough people to fill it, and a horse or two for some reason. They walked around and I would try and adjust the experiment and watch the effects of the phenomenon in the walking subjects, without even thinking about the morality of working for who I did. Those subjects, some would just merge or split in a flash of light, but a failure made one change out of control, a paradox creating a strange black whirl as it consumed them.

I am in the year 2215. yep. earth is still beautiful. humanity is still making cancerous growths we call "cities." I live in one of the tumors, called the Pacific-Plex formerly known as the Hawaiian Islands. fucking shithole. just want to make a few creds...

I wake up and stretch. My robot is telling me to wake up. "I know shut the hell up."

"I'd prefer if you didn't-" I grab the robot, and rip its head off. "FUCK YOU ROBOT."

Why am I in the movie, "Heavy Metal"... or am I?

missing time

I am driving a fare through the hilly streets of an old dump paved over. This fare's a GMO-cyborg chimera like most people nowadays.

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missing time

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I am going insane, destroying the whole fucking world. I have a machine gun. I run across the world, detonating a line of nuclear bombs behind me. I fly away from the earth, and shoot a billion nuclear bombs at it. The earth explodes. I laugh maniacally.

I wake up in bed, sweating. I am still in a dream. WTF?

Had a dream that I was at work, it was Monday afternoon and I just realised I'd missed a meeting I needed to go to. Was quite stressed as I needed to raise a few points at it.

Then I was in the meeting and raised said points. Boring dream but I woke up feeling really unsettled for some reason.

Had a dream that I was at the local bowling club back home. There was a final on but I was supposed to be going out for a game beforehand. Some presentation was happening, a guy was talking. All very normal.

Final dream was walking through / getting a tour of this army type base that had a prison attached to it, I was walking through it different rooms and sections, there were men standing with their hands and feet chained I had to walk through the middle of.

Then I walked through a room that had Chimpanzee's chained up. Made me feel very uneasy.

I recalled nothing, but right around the time I finished reading this post a little fragment surfaced. Reading the word "shadow" reminded me of a dream scene I had right before waking in which I was kind of arguing with my dad. I think I was trying to express how I could feel so many feels, maybe even all of them so that when I told him or someone I understood something that I truly did. He was pretty mad with me for claiming that and bitterly said it didn't count or matter anyway because "You're nothing but shadows" or "You're nothing but a shadow." In the dream, I was pretty taken aback because the comment was so unexpected, not to mention the magnitude of spite I felt coming from him.

Bad feel if I ever knew one.

• syd offered me chocolare i offered her a club
• brother was a member of my school, in there more than a year
• beat my brother for having my ipod taken
• was on the bridge with syd
• tarantula in room
• i asked myself if i was dreaming, i was
• got distracted by people arrested outside
• brought a gun didnt shoot
• chocolate was in shape of heart and delicious
• c'est tout