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[Wednesday, 19th, 2012] [After Midnight- before I had fallen asleep]
I turned off the lights, turned on the LSD dose from iDoser (a binaural beat that induces a drugs effects), and lied down with headphones. I folded a shirt over my eyes and I zoned out and began counting down from 847. After awhile I became more and more relaxed, letting my mind become numb... I would recount numbers and forget where I was and restart at random numbers- this is when I knew I was in a trance. I felt detatched slightly... and tried imagining something.

I imagined myself in a blank white room. Suddenly a potted plant appeared in the center. It grew and grew and grew until it became a Venus Fly Trap plant of giant proportions. It ate "me". But it was just the body, the vessel, for my consciousness- I understood this and made a new one, and walked up to the plant. "You are simply a creation of mine and you cannot hurt me. I love you because I created you." The plant did not try to hurt me again. I walked through the wall to the left with such force, it shattered reality. The scenery outside the white room was a beautiful beach scene; the sun just setting a dark red velvet and vibrant orange against a dark navy sky and ocean. I was high in the air, far above the smooth sand or the water, but I was walking on air, on invisible pulsating steps. I walked a distance and then decided to travel along the pulsating steps like monkey bars. I dropped down so that my hands could hold on to the level where my feet just were and I pulled myself along as if they WERE monkey bars. Still pulsating a clear crystal light.

At that moment I reinvented the scenery. I was in a blank room again, but this time I was seated behind a table. I invited my subconscious and/or dream guide to appear and they did. Four figures walked in through the door instantly and each took a seat on the opposite side of the table. I made note of their appearance first... on the far left was a fiery feline female with fiery-colored hair, a mix of orange, red, and yellow. Second, was a huge muscular, black-iron-armorered figure with a fiery green skull with flames licking high into the air. Third from the left was a human walking-stick. Almost simply put, a bamboo man. Just a stick of bamboo going straight up into the air. Last, on the very right- I couldn't make them out very well. It was as if they were invisible, and I could only sense their Galka like presense.

I announced the reason for this gathering first, speaking in a pronoun that was mixture of I and We: "I/We are in a state of great confusion and despair. I/We are broken and must do something. We must become one, and work together to solve the problems we face." I stopped after the sentence and asked if anyone would be willing to finish my sentence due to how cloudy my conscious mind was. The 1st aspect chimed in and tried to finish, as my conscious mind jumped into her body- I saw from her eyes and began to talk... but trailed off, most likely because I, without meaning to, took control of her. Someone else chimed in right after, it was the 4th invisible Galkan aspect... I don't remember what he said, but it was full of force and meaning... and it made perfect sense. After he finished I stressed the importance of lucid dreaming: "It would be beneficial to US to lucid dream. We could solve a great deal from it and the daily link between all of us. We need to lucid dream." I was conditioning all of us- we all knew that I was hypnotizing the whole room. I was strengthening the importance of my conscious mind being present in dreams. After this I asked: "Okay, so who are you?" I was referring to each individual aspect of me. The first, the female aspect spoke up immediately: "I'm your female side, and I'm the one who emits light! I keep you on track and keep you afloat with joy!". I believed every word she spoke. I turned my attention to the stick. It radiated the answer: "I am your intellect. Your intelligence. The one who collects wisdom and shares it with everyone here." I couldn't sense a strong color from him. The next to speak was the ghostly presense of the armored man. He spoke something like this: "I am the one who keeps you alive. I know what you need- I make the hard decisions that benefit you, that you don't want to make." I understood. He was the line that knew when he was crossed. I looked at the invisible aspects seat- but never got an answer.

"Are you my dream guide?" There was no reply.

I was thrust back out of my imagination and into reality. I could feel a slight tingling sensation all over and I felt slightly detatched from my body. Thinking about this re-inforced my attatchment and I was back in my room again, listening to the vibrations in my headphones. I lied there for awhile and until the crackling in the headphones that's ALWAYS there kind of made my neck-hairs stand and I had to sit up. I sat up slowly and looked around. I could DEFINITELY feel something. The room was dark, but I could see exceptionally well. The clock on the wall was stretching and breathing. The whole room was stretching and breathing! I put my hands up in front of my face and I can't explain how alien my movements were... I felt like I was viewing from far, far away. I looked down at my blanket and it resembled a tangled mess of brain. The light coming under the door pulsated gently a light green mixed with turqoise. The patterns on the pillow moved like vines- just like in Fear and Loathing's Casino Carpets. The wall to my right was Tiger striped; shadows dashed ever-so-carefully across the white. The entire room was a calming, breathing dark mess of storage- it was new to me, as if I had never been there before. I brought my hands up to my face again, not exactly sure what I was doing, and I drew a cross on my left palm with my right index, then drew a circle on my right palm- then I clasped my hands together gently.

The dose still going on- I got impatient and took my headphones off. I heard a noise that did NOT exist in real life. My computer was making it... it sounded as if it was some sort of alien technology... making vibrating laser beam sounds. Like a woobawoobawoobawooba, but much faster and much higher pitched. I knew it was just my brain being confused from the binaural beats, but it was still fun to listen to. I crawled across my bed and crawled into the computer's chair and turned the screen on... after a few seconds of another strange feeling, I sobered up and typed this.

[Tuesday, September 18th, 2012][6PM]
I remember another that day! It was the end of a dream and I was at a bay port at the end of the world. My crew had all packed up and started sailing off. I ran to the dock as fast as I could... but they were too far off. I jumped into the bay and swam as fast as I could to try and catch up. I screamed, "WAIT!" but no one heard me. I swam back in cold acceptance of the fact that I had missed the boat. Arriving back, I met a witch who was extremely attractive. She stared at me with piercing, cold eyes, but I shoved her onto the ground and kissed her. I slid my hand up her shirt and felt her breast and heartbeat. I didn't feel guilt because, in this dream, I was someone else... I wasn't me, I wasn't Austin, I was a lonely captain who had lost everything.

[Tuesday, September 18th, 2012] [Morning]
<dream recall starts here, despite the dreams before it>
I'm in an open magical world mixed in with elements of reality. I start my journey traveling along a straight desert mountain path with Me, Alex, and Nathan. There's a wild west theme to all of this. We arrive at a old stone ruin marketplace... the smell of food brings us to one seller's counter with 4 cowboys behind it. That's to the left of this path I'm on, and on the right is a walled off area for people to sit down and eat... there's an arch to get through to the inside. I think I have 5 dollars in my pocket and I look at all the menu's. The food costs about $1-1.50 each item and the drinks also $1... I should have enough for all three of us to eat and share a drink. As I'm staring at the menus still, I hear the 4 Cowboys joking about me- taunting me about being a girly boy and laughing and hooping and hollering. I ignore it at first and recount my money... I have a $5... a $2... a $1... another $1... My money amount changed on me. I look up to hear the cowboys teasing me again. I start to get pretty pissed off, which is surprising... I don't usually let this emotion get the best of me in a dream. I look at Alex and she motions for me to calm down. I don't. I think about getting up in their face... one of them makes a remark that I REALLY don't like and I raise my fist to slam it down in their face. I hear a "HEY! FREEZE!" and I let my fist go with the warm breeze just before it hits. My clenched fist's energy disperses and my hand glides slowly past his face. Smooth. Very smooth. Behind the trash-talker is someone on a horse, dressed in uniform. It's probably the Sheriff. The whole marketplace is suddenly ablaze with officers of the law, taking in anyone who is selling things illegally. The 4 we were just talking to were breaking the law too. I understood that anyone that had already bought something were okay, but the items had to be confiscated. I peaked over the wall to an area full of food and thought about sneaking some food off- but it might be a bad idea. People were scrambling every which way to get out of here, in quite the panic. Alex got seperated from us and me and Nathan went further down the path towards where we had seen the Sheriff. I glance to my right and see a Police Car collecting all of the food- good thing I hadn't tried to take anything. I also see what looks like a Gun Execution in progress. 4 cowboys standing in a row, and 4 officers in a row with guns pointed at the cowboys. Me and Nathan walk up just in time, and I pull him instantly back the other way to try and avoid us this dark sight. None of us actually "see" it, but its now in our mind. We hear the gunshots go off 3 seconds later. I turn to Nathan and joked, "Fuck, we're gonna be scarred for life now." In a way, I must have known this was a dream. We met up with Alex and then I woke back up.
<more dreams after this... I don't write any down and they evaporate...>

I cannot remember anything about this really. I remember other dreams from the night, but this was further back, and instead of writing it down I just went in for more sleep. What I do remember was that it was short, and I didn't do much. I remember thinking it was a dream, not that sudden realization I love, but more of just a transition into knowing. I felt my body and thought that I was only imagining it, but then remembered that wasn't the position I was actually sleeping in. I made sure I was in a dream, and that I knew it was a dream so I could count it as lucid, then faded out. I should start remembering what to do once I get lucid, rather than just hoping for a lucid, otherwise I will ruin the few I have.

Haven't been logging my dreams recently, and I have no real excuse for it
I had a bad time recently with LSD and the last few months have been very traumatic and uncomfortable, but I am almost completely better

Anyway, I'm feeling very positive, looking at life and trying to go on a spiritual journey.
I'm very interested in Astral Travel at the moment, and I'm experimenting in that at the moment, although cannot beat the fear barrier D:

So anyway, I should start by recalling recent dreams.

1) I was on holiday, I think in Majorca or another package holiday resort place in Spain. I was with my friends, by a swimming pool sunbathing. Some sort of stir was caused - I'm not sure if we were drunk or what, but people were being very open about their opinions. My friend Ashley, who I have a bit of a crush on, approached me and started angrily ranting at me, about how she used to like me so much and I treated her like shit when she fancied me, and how she had moved on. This kind of happened in RL, although I didn't treat her like shit, I just had a girlfriend. But I stopped her when she finished before she would start again, and told her straight up that it was because I really liked her, and couldn't find a way to tell her. She was very pleased by this, and it seemed to be an automatic indication that we still both liked eachother. I was very happy at this, and I woke up feeling love and happiness, but was very disappointed when I realized it was a dream

None of those were lucid,but gladly they were more vivid.

First Dream:
I was in a alternative Earth.The only continent was called "Asia Metropole".Once it showed up as a cartoon drawing,a huge pink continent with a sad face and blonde,wavy hair.The area I was looked a lot like Tokyo and Singapore,but with some modern elements.It was like random day events,once I was driving at night.

Second Dream:
I was at my backyard,there was a towel let to dry with a internet page.There was thumbnails for a video for some Tom Hiddleston event.Then,there was some hat caps too.It was a constest for the best one,although I though all ugly.The contestants were the cast of Suit Life(you know,that disney show with the twins,I loved that when I was younger).The background changed to a kitchen and living room that looked like from the 90s.One of the girls was arguing with the main boys,saying to the youngest he was not even supposed to be there.Then,it changed to a preview of a interview of another girl,doing a thumbs up.

09.22.2012

RE4 Garradors + Wearing Iron Boots (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside an area where there's at least one Garrador in the room.

To describe Garradors in RE4, they are blind beings infected with Las Plagas, and they listen mostly to sound.

So if you make some abrupt noises like running, shooting, things of that nature, these things will CHARGE at you with their long claws and possibly impale your face, gut, or completely slash in an continuous X formation until you head is cut off....OR, they impale your head, lift you up, and them pierce your gut.

Not exactly someone you want to hug.

Spoiler for 18+, See what a Garrador can do to you...:

Almost every room that I would go to in this dream would have a dark red carpet in the middle, and it was one of the few things that really stood out in this dungeon type of environment that mostly had shades of gray on the walls, floors, and ceilings. Another noticeable feature was the fire torches that would be contained by some metal object that would light the room a bit.

It seems the Garrador I'm facing is moving in slow motion, because I don't remember him impaling me whatsoever. I'm able to dodge his moves with ease, and each time he tries to strike at me, he mostly gets his long claw stuck on the wall from impaling it, which gives me ample time to go up to it and stab its back.

Its back had a glowing object, like a heart if you will, though it's slightly different than in the game where its weakness on its back that you can shoot off is really just an exposed interior part of the Las Plagas in it. I noticed that eventually, I'm at a dead end because both doors to go back to previous rooms and to the next are completely locked down, at least, that's what I thought at the time.

The left door, which would've lead me to the previous room, was chained up in all directions, but I could still see what was inside the door through the small rectangular hole on top. The same hole had 3 mini bars going vertically, structured lik a prison cell. The whole environment in this dream itself has a Medieval vibe to it, and as I'm killing Garradors that keep coming one at a time, I noticed a particular sound my feet was making.

I wondered why the Garradors were able to hear me without me doing much, until the same clanking and pounding sound finally came to awareness. I started to move slower, but was still able to dodge the Garradors' attacks, probably because I made the whole environment and entities in it operate in slow motion. It felt weird though, having these dangerous monsters look easy with this slow motion ability.

I looked down on the shoes that I'm wearing, and then noticed I've been wearing Iron Boots, the Twilight Princess model, most of the time during this dream shift. So I had an "Ooooooh" moment and jumped to make them magically disappear, kind of like the animation Link does when you take off the Iron boots.

While I was jumping, I noticed I took the dream body of Link from Skyward Sword, though he had a mix of Twilight Princess' model of link with a darker blonde hair. It seems he was twirling for a few seconds mid-air after jumping. The Garrador in the room couldn't hear me so easily, since I'm now able to take lighter steps.

I can't remember what happens next.

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09.22.2012

Hey! Wake up! (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm resting on the floor, dream eyes closed, someone is on top of me and shakes me a bit to try and wake me up. I get annoyed, and for some reason, I had this sort of implanted memory. Maybe it's from a previous dream I can't recall, but whatever it is the person trying to wake me up is saying, I thought it was absurd.

Wow, a dream character takes the effort to try and wake me up, and yet I still think what they're saying is crazy. *facepalm*

After I grumbled about a few things related to whatever it is, I realized it was something about shared dreaming. Then I went to sleep.

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09.22.2012

Want Sex? Sure (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm outside somewhere, the atmosphere is light yellow, and it feels weird. Anyway, there are two women who ask me if I wanted to have sex, and I said,

"Sure."

And I said that in a passive manner, like it was boring or something....


WhAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA?

Shopping seems to be a recurring theme in my dreams. This time, I was in a large grocery store with my mother. I remember getting lots of sweet bakery things, like cakes and jelly rolls. I also recall getting powdered-sugar coated pita chips and cinnamon-sugar pita chips. (That would be awesome.)
By the time we got finished, my mother decided that she didn't have enough money to cover everything, even though she said she had a lot. She ended up putting most of the items back, only buying a couple things for herself. (She is dishonest and selfish in real life.)
After this whole debacle, there is a blank space where I do not recall anything. At some point, my mother turned into my fiance. He was driving, I was in the passenger seat. I was angry with him for using all of our grocery money, I didn't understand where it went or what he did with it. He ended up confessing to me that he used it to take another woman out to dinner the night before. (An old friend of his that he used to be obsessed with.) Eventually we arrived somewhere, there was a lot of snow and it was cold. There were several people there, but I only specifically recall one in particular. He went over to my fiance's window to start talking to him and then he noticed how upset I was. He asked me what was wrong and I told him to come over to my side of the car. He did, and I got out of the car and threw myself onto him, crying my eyes out. He hugged me back tightly, and just stood there. I also remember him smelling really good, strangely. (The guy is someone that I know in real life. I have a bit of a crush on him, he's a stone-cold hottie!)

That's really all the more I remember from this dream.

I dreamed that death had to come on a journey with me, at first all i saw was a hooded figure in a white cape with a scythe, he tells me he is the grim reaper, but for some odd reason i wasn't scared. he walks by me and takes off his hood, then i get this feeling like i know him from somewhere, i just cant shake the feeling how familiar he is. he was beautiful...tall, fair skin, jet black shaggy hair, toned, i asked him to look at me, and he wouldn't, so i grabbed his face with both hands to make him look at me, and .....those eyes...those deep blue eyes............i feel in love instantly. he hugged me as if it had been a hundred years since he last saw me.... a warm embrace and i never wanted him to let go. i felt this strong connection on like a spiritual level with this guy, a deeper connection then i ever thought i could hope for. it just felt like id known him my entire life and then some, like a past life

Dream - Lucid

I was in some kind of Minecraft world mixed with the real world. I remember the sun being out. I then wanted to drink blood? I think I must have been some sort of vampire. I needed to go down to some basement dug into the ground to get the blood. I was talking to someone about it. They seemed upset about me wanting some blood. They suggested I get something else, like food, but I insisted upon getting the blood.

I went down into the basement, and some people from my old job were there, managers to be exact. I was trying to avoid them seeing me, because they weren't supposed to know where I was. It was almost impossible to do, however, because I had to go through them to get the blood; they were standing behind grey steel desks. They started talking about how I had to make my own glass eye and have one put in for some reason. That isn't what happened at all, but that's what they believed. I then saw a picture of the glass eye in the socket; it had a red iris. I hoped they didn't notice that neither of my eyes were glass, nor were they red.

I remember getting the blood, I think from a chest. It was in little bottles, like in Minecraft. I remember seeing the bottles on the floor.

Remember being at the okanagan college. I was sitting with a couple of friends. I was upset because I was going to have to go there to be able to afford my next semester. We were in a food court type area. I explained why I had to quit my job to the people I was sitting with. Christophe from earls was working at some fast food place and he kept calling my name. I went over to him finally. He was pissing me off. I asked him what hed been doing lately. I asked him if he went there. He scoffed and said no. He said he was going to some university. I went back and sat down. This made me feel even worse about my situation. Somehow, I wound up getting in a fight with an elderly Japanese man. He looked slightly Spanish or Portorican as well but he was from Japan. He had developed a style of martial arts in his family. He was very good. I was holding my own against him but he was clearly the better fighter. The thing I remember most was how solid he was. I was using moves I knew and he was countering them every time. I did land a few punches to his face but they didn't even phase him. After he took me to the back area of the restaurant he and his family ran. All his sons we back there working away. Somehow we got on the subject of aliens. I think he intentionally got in a fight with me because he knew that I studied ufos and aliens and had an opened mind. He told me that he and his family were all aliens and they had taken human form. He went on to say that the entire government of Japan was run by aliens and that an event was going to take place soon. He said the western world was run by aliens as well, only those aliens were very malicious and trying to dominate the world. He said he needed me to come back to Japan with him because they needed everyone they could get. I sat down and ate with him and his family as he told me all this. All that I was given was some white rice but it tasted amazing. I tried to scrounge for something to go on top but in the end it didnt need it. His sons food they had made themselves was very delicious looking. There was shushi and stir fry and other deep fried foods on their plates. I decided to go with them to Japan. I was taken aboard a vehicle that could both fly and drive on land. It was full of people. I kept running into girls and having brief sexual encounters where I would finger them. I saw my friend Phillip on this ship. I expressed how horny I was and how I kept having these encounters with girls on there. When we got to Japan we were now just driving on the streets. We came to the end of a road at the base a big rock face that looked more just like a bunch of large jagged rocks piled on one another. There were a bunch of fibrous and colourful vine type things hanging down and we were instructed to climb them. I was feeling like this was just a cult more and more as time went on. I began to climb them anyways. Me and phil were some of the first people to go, like the 3rd and 4th. The face was big enough for us to climb beside each other like 4 at a time. Some of the vines felt a lot looser then others. It wasnt very hard to climb. I looked down at one point and got freaked out. One man fell down. A man shouted its a trap, these vines aren't secure! He was mistaken though because only some of them wern't secure. These ones were attached to rocks at the top and not roots. When I finally made it to the top the rocks apexed over and a gradual slant of the same style of rocks led to a beautiful field and compound. It was fenced in by high fences and there were roads with houses and cars on the other side. They explained that everything up there was owned by them (the aliens). The aliens showed us pictures of what they looked like. They resembled deformed or misshapen greys. We discussed plans and such on this compound.

Lucid / Non-lucid

I'm definitely dreaming every day, resolved to record whatever I remember of today / past few days.

[OLD] Non-Lucid ~ 5:50 A.M.
Cat Father

Standing at the back door, which is closed. I'm talking to the father of a kitten I'm currently 'raising'. He is outside the house. The light seems to be fading. The cat looks somewhat like Captain Claw does in cut-scenes. He wants to check on his ward or something. I feel that cannot be done. For some reason I remember being really scared of the him, I also vaguely recollect that I was using English to communicate I walk outside and begin to explain...

Suddenly, the ground shakes. I was scared I would be attacked(by the cat or something else), nothing of that sort happens. He frantically asks me, "Where is (the kitten)...?". We begin to mourn the kit. We search by digging up the soil. Suddenly, a shape emerges from beneath the mud. I lose it in the dim light, but then find the kitten with his father. The dream fades.

Dream 2
Whales and deja vu

I remember seeing the result of an election where *something* became a President. Scene shift. There is an yellow ball bouncing along the ground, before it is attacked by a fast moving something-else. I catch the ball. Suddenly, I get the image of a whale. I'm looking into a pool filled with what seem to be remoras. I drop the ball into the pool. The fish dart away but return to attack the ball, bloodying the water.

The steel blue scene shifting to rusty red, really vivid and awesome. Also, there were light reflections sort of like a swimming pool. I could visually identify each blood particle.

(They could have been...) piranhas! Then, an epiphany. The whale is evil. The whale is no more. The previous president comes to power again. And the dream will loop...

... atleast, it would have. If I hadn't thought, "Oh! Truman Story!"

[OLD] Dream 3
Beta functions

The math professor(who teaches me IRL) is explaining a new concept to us. I look at the board, but my dream self cannot understand what this means. Dream fades.

A few days later, I recalled this dream while I was in math class. As a result, I knew what my prof was gonna write before he finished! (Had no previous knowledge of subject).

Today I had sort of of a lucid dream. Or was it a dream about a lucid dream?

Anyways,
i suddenly woke up inside the dream and everything the surroundings etc became very vivid.

I jumped from the balcony and flew around a little bit.

I tried stabilisation techniques like saying "100% lucidity" (said it in german: "100% Klarheit") or rubbing my hands together.

The sort of lucid dream lasted a felt 10 minutes.

It was quite fun.

Waking Thoughts/Dream/Lucid

I am finally getting my sleep schedule back to where I want it. Hopefully I can keep it this way. Had a fairly successful night of recall and focused on two mantras while falling asleep. Those are "I wake up after every dream." And "I remember my dreams." I have read that avoiding the word 'will' in mantras are more effective.

I have recalled two dreams:
The first one was a bit foggy. I was at work again helping get rid of a huge cardboard display that was left in the rain overnight. I remember it being quite a drudgery.
The second dream I was in my house watching TV. For some reason a cartoon I watched as a child was on. It was an episode of Ed Edd n' Eddy that seemed to be mostly the main characters looking back on their past. I recall it was quite entertaining. Later the cartoon changed a bit and turned into a mixture of DBZ and other shows I used to watch.

Despite my totally crappy dream recall, I've managed to remeber two dreams I had. Yay!

In the first dream I was Spider-Man, or was playing a Spider-Man game (doesn't matter really).

So, I swung around the town to get to my objective, which was apparently, an Oscorp building. So, I crashed a glass panel and jumped through it to enter the building. What happened from there is hard to recall, but I think I fought seveal rows of enemies. Then Hulk came from nowhere and I wanted to leave, so I jumped back through the glass I'd broken before.

Yep, pretty dumb, I know.

And I've also had a dream where I was playing a game on my ipad... And that's it...


Oh well, at least I did recall something