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Lucid Part
Yes, I most definitely lucid dreamt last night. It was so hazy though :/
Kinda funny because I could only stay lucid whilst near my bed. Like, if I went to walk off it would stop being lucid. Because if I went to walk off, I wouldn't be able to see myself in the mirror and realise that I was lucid (yay dream logic!). But this sucked because I couldn't leave to try and go to Sweden, which I seem to always try to do xD
It wasn't too exciting, I just did floating around things and backflips and stuff.

I kept on slipping in and out of sleep paralysis (being awake). It was really hard to control.
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I took IE's advice and tried to feel how real breathing and stuff felt. It felt like the real thing.

Non-lucid Part
I was buying cake donuts (wtf are "cake donuts"? xD) in Skellefteå lol on my way to see TW (!). There were lots of Australians at that shop and they were quite annoying :/ That cake looked so delicious though.
Music by Karnivool (a damn awesome Perth band) was playing in the background of the shop.
I was paying in Australian money, too. Wtf. I wanted four cakes and that would bring my total to $20.25. I gave the chick (who was also Australian) a $50 note (I gave this to her at the start, she wanted it first, and THEN i would buy the cakes) so then i gave her 10c so that she wouldn't have to get heaps of change. But for some reason she only gave me $10 change, as if $20 + $10 = $50.

Oh yeah, there was this weird cat trick thing. And it looked after your household if some criminal was going to rob it. It could detect loud music. The cat had to jump onto the windowsill but do a twist on the way (like gymnastics). Then it would grab the ledge and look through the window. Its eyes started glowing and it was scary. It detected loud music or something.
The cat was really cute and very well trained. It kept trying and trying to reach the windowsill, and I caught it when it missed. Eventually it grabbed it. Good cat :3 This part of the dream I associate with giants and other worldy houses for some reason. I also associate it with some map that helped detect the criminals.

6/6/10 - Crowbars
Dream Non-dream Lucid

I was outside of a large white house. I was in the backyard, and the house's sliding glass back door was open. Somehow I was lucid. I was just about to go off and explore when five or six guys with crowbars appeared. I figured fighting them would ruin my lucidity, so I tried to dream spin my way out of the situation. Nothing happened.

The crowbar dudes closed in on me. There was no escaping now; I grabbed a crowbar of my own out of thin air and lunged at the nearest guy.

After beating most of the men to a pulp, I was done; someone seemed to have punched me in the stomach, which would explain how I ended up hunched over on the ground, panting.

Three men left, one pretty hot(as in sexy, not sweaty), and they looked murderous. Somehow I talked my way out of it, saying that I didn't care if they robbed the big white house (it wasn't mine), and that I really needed to be somewhere so just leave me alone and go rob the house.

Sadly, I woke up.

After what seems like 4 years of not having a DJ or attempting to become Lucid I started back up again.

First new Entry in the DJ:

6/6/10
It takes place in my house. There was a Dog in the back porch for some reason, and my brother OT was dressed very similar to me, khaki cargo shorts and white t-shirts (we usually wear just black). And i remember something about big open field. I was told by my mother to carry down a bag of charcoal. Then there was this playground with monkey bars and towers and this girl was with the dog, and she was doing odd stuff with it (not totally sure) and so we made the dog run away and I was chasing after it. then the dog ran away and we were walking back through a hallway and everyone was really sad and as I was walking back I was handed receipts from my dad's restaurant.

Morning of June 6, 2010. Sunday.

Dream #: 15,875-07. Reading time: 20 sec.



I am in the lounge room of our present home in the evening. I am aware a stranger is in our house and had been in our kitchen and opened our refrigerator. When I am in bed, I notice Mr. Bean (Rowan Atkinson) had fallen asleep on our couch, holding a teddy bear. I am annoyed by the imposition. (The couch is in the wrong orientation. It faces south instead of north.) I consider it may be someone pretending to be Mr. Bean (though I remain uncertain).

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One recurring FA lately: I wake up and there's a fishtank next to my bed. One of the fish--a chubby, cartoony-looking orange thing--has escaped and is swimming in the air over my bed. I gently grab it (often taking several tries, since it's slick and I'm trying not to hurt it) and drop it back into the water.

Wow. Best dream sex ever. Raging 69 with someone I should pro'lly not be dream-banging....but what the hell, that was nice.

So I just had this long, strange dream. I was on some kind of Jane Leakey style mission to live amongst the animals in some kind of nature preserve (oddly enough, I think it was in Iraq, though the place itself had no connection to Iraq). There was lots of beautiful scenery with water running over colorful rocks and greenery spread around here and there. The thing is, though, the animals had developed this really involved culture within this nature preserve. The one thing I remember really clearly is this elaborate garden being built and maintained by squirrels, at squirrel-scale. None of them talked or anything, they were just engaged in this really complex group activity, like little squirrel-monks or something. The whole dream was really beautiful, while at the same time there was this sense that the place was endangered and I might be the last one to see it.

New LD!

It started as an anxiety dream at work, with people piling up in the restaurant and nothing ready. Then I realized it was a dream (this kind of anxiety is a dream sign for me). A DC of a guy I knew in college walked in, and I spent much of the rest of the dream telling him this was a dream. I did use a technique from the boards: at one point I insisted so excitedly that I was dreaming, I almost woke up, so I closed my eyes, spun around, and thought "Higher level lucidity," and when I opened my eyes, everything was more vivid and solid.

I also had a dream that I was sitting at a coffee shop having a live discussion of last night's "Nature of perception" thread

I had another weird, dark, plotted-out dream, where I was a young guy who had just bought a house. It was a quiet suburban neighborhood full of plastic-looking landscaping and identical houses, but the neighbors would babble nonsense and shoot at each other with shot-guns. Another neighbor just filmed everything with a big movie camera. I was outside snooping around, and the former owner of my house appears, ends up stabbing me in the shoulder with this huge knife, and him and the camera guy take me back to the house, where they keep me as a hostage/slave for the rest of the dream.

I also had a dream set in my hometown at some indeterminate time, maybe seven years ago. I ran into this girl I haven't thought of in ages. She's probably in pretty bad shape in waking life...last I knew she had a degenerative disease that required the periodic removal of chunks of her intestines.

(Update: thanks to Facebook, I now know this chick lives an awesome life driving race cars and jumping out of planes in Colorado )

Just 1 last night:

I was hanging out with my sister and my mom's ex was there. I remember at one point he was passing a bowl in the other room, and the cat carried it into the room where sis' and I were talking, and tapped it out neatly in the ashtray. My sister and I laughed. "Now if we could just teach him to pack it," one of us joked.

A lot of herb in the dreamworld lately...this usually happens when I quit smoking in waking life.

Oh, I forgot this dream from yesterday:

My bedroom window is right by my neighbors' backyard. Their autistic son, Larry, must have been out there shouting nonsense (as is his habit) while I was sleeping the afternoon away, cuz I had a couple FAs where I looked at the window and he had climbed up my building and was trying to get in the window. It was kind of funny when I remembered later.

1. This one was long and detailed, covering several days of dream-time, with some on-the-ground action, some movie-screen views of other characters, and even some back-story. It all took place in the little town in PA where I grew up. It started with the story of Altrip Jones, a man from my town who went out and made a fortune in the city, then came back and built this weird monument of a public building, with huge, white marble gargoyles jutting from the corners. It was some kind of culture/community center. So I saw this as if in a documentary, then I was back in my hometown, but a weirdly prosperous version where this guy had infused all this money into it.

2. I'm attending a funeral in my hometown, and it's a big family gathering, but it's a dream family, not my real family, and pretty much a dream-town, too. Mostly I'm interacting with two little brothers who have never met me before, because I've been away that long, and I"m working to protect my little uncle (real person) from professional assassins, including a 40-something Gene Hackman. These guys really like to rapel down buildings. I'm not resisting them violently, just tracking their movements and evading them.

3. At some point, I'm taking a walk with some dude I don't know, and he lights up a j. We turn a corner and here we are at a big, sandy beach (nothing like this in my real town). We pass it around and a few people join us, then security comes sniffing around, so I have to evade them and end up alone way down the beach. I start running back toward the crowd (now leaving--it's night-time, and they're closing down the beach), then realize it would be much faster to glide over the sand, then think "Well, why don't I just fly?" So I'm flying down the beach, and I stop and think, "Wait a sec, am I dreaming?" The dunes and everything look pretty real, but I do an RC (my first ever deliberate RC--thanks DV), which for me is kind of a karma-probe to see if objects around me have history and depth--dream objects are more transparent, have less presence than waking objects, even if visually identical. So anyway, I'm lucid, but everything stays pretty solid. I walk around and come to a pliant barrier where the beach just stops, but recalling some stuff from the forums, I try to dissolve or push through, and manage to get my hands through, like pushing through saran wrap. I didn't get to do much else before I woke up. Still, that's two LDs in a 10 days, after many months without any. Whoop!

I was snooze-alarming before work, so I noticed right away when I went from laying in my bed to being in a room full of people. I looked around at all the dream characters, and decided to talk to someone, so I went up to the cutest lady in the room (who else?). She was very friendly, and shortly things got down and dirty. My lucidity was spotty from there on, then I woke up rather happy.

This was also last week. There was stuff leading up to it that I don't remember, but...I was on a freeway curving out over a large, still body of water with some trees growing out of it and lots of greenery along the banks. I didn't have a car, but was just gliding along the road at very high speed (a common dream sign for me). I was going so fast I flew off the road and was heading for the water, and for a second I flashed back to a childhood falling-off-a-bridge-and-drowning dream, and got scared, but then I thought "this whole situation seems familiar, I'll bet I can get out of this." So I slowed my fall, and looked around for a place to land. There was a stump sticking out of the water, and I aimed for it but missed, and I was still losing altitude, so now my legs were dragging in the water. I made another pass, and now there was a statue growing out of the stump, like maybe a statue of a saint in robes with one hand stretched out, and I missed again but saw a tree closer by, and got to that (waist deep in water) and climbed up out.

So, I figured out I was in a world where I could slow down and control a fall, but didn't figure out it was a dream world.

Nightmare (1st vivid dream after I joined this forum)

This was last week, and I didn't dwell on it, so my recall is so-so. My nephew (he's 3) was kidnapped, and I was communicating with the kidnapper through this guy at a pharmacy-window. Dude let me know that my nephew was being held with a bunch of other kids by a pedophile ring with one guy in charge. Somehow, I managed to find the guy, and turned him over to the cops. I was feeling all frantic, like "How bad was this for my nephew, how are we all going to deal with this?" Then I was with my sister, and when I ask how my nephew is, she very calmly tells me that on the way back from the pedophile place he crawled out the car-window, and she tried to hold onto him, but he flew off and died. My sister was really calm, but I totally broke down, reviewing the situation and thinking maybe I should have killed the pedophile-guy when I had him, but that wouldn't have helped anything, and OMG my nephew's dead, his life got so bad that he killed himself at age 3...etc.

I woke up just numb, and it took a minute to realize that this world where my nephew was dead was not the world I was now in, and I wasn't even relieved, just numb. This is how nightmares are for me on those rare occasions I have them: here, have some intense emotional trauma, no wait, ha ha, it was just a dream.

Ok, i haven't journaled in here for a while because i've not had many Lucid's lately, a few here and there but not very many. Mostly due to lack of sleep and being overworked but anyway here's the Lucid i had last night that blew my mind.



I began the dream sort of floating through a very colorful nebula in space. I started to notice a large black dot in the nebula and i thought that surely this wasn't a planet in side of a nebula and started to question things in my mind, one being if i'm dreaming. After a glance at the brightest star (which always seemed to be behind me)I became fully Lucid, probably the most lucid i've been in a very long time. I spoke aloud "I am Dreaming, Increase vividness, I am in full control" and the "Universe and all the stars and space debris and solar winds and everything answered my commands by attaining an increase in sharpness and contrast and clarity. I then focused on the planet in the nebula. It was small, probably 5/8 the size of earth. I flew down to it and landed on it. The surface was a grey color with whites and dark browns. I noticed it had some small hills around me and nothing larger than a couple large plateaus, no mountains. I declared "This is a new world and i will it into existence!" i closed my eyes and felt a powerful wind sweep around me, and then accompanying the wind i felt the ground get extremely hot under my feet, and i opened my eyes and i was standing in a valley that had been shaped with hills to the sides, i could a waterless riverbed running through it ending in a large lake bed. I looked up into the sky and raised my hands and began slowly closing my hands, the more i closed them the harder it became, i noticed that small wisps of clouds began to form in the sky and they slowly gained in size and the sky went from a clear night sky to a blue and purple tinged sky but you could still see the nebula through it. The cloud wisps turned into cumulus and stratus clouds. The cumulus clouds began to turn grey and my hands finally clenched tightly closed. I opened my hands quickly and as they did so did the clouds release rain onto the land. I lowered my arms and a grin crept across my face, i was creating a planet and giving it life. I then laid down to rest, the ground was wet and muddy but it was soft and now malleable. I laid there on my back looking up into the sky and saw that there were three bright stars in the nebula that gave the planet it's light and the nebula itself was visible through the sky. I laid there and waited for night to come, i watched the river fill with water and then begin to fill the lake. In the sky you could see this large "Dust and debris" cloud move in front of the stars which gave a "lighter" version of night to the planet. The material was debris orbiting the small planet. By the time the debris had moved away from the sky the river was filled with water and the lake was a beautiful color teal. I looked at the ground i was laying on and noticed small blades of grass growing in patches in an outwards direction from where i lay. I touched a single blade and it grew into a flower, and budded right before my eyes. I smiled and looked up to see the entire area was covered in grass, and flowers with different types of flowering trees here and there. I stood and walked over to the lake and saw small, very tiny creatures swimming in the water. I knew these would some day be fish and there would be other animals amongst the trees and grass of the ground. I tilted my head down and saw a pile of dust at my feet. I grab a handful and let it sift through my fingers, as it flowed through the wind it began to come together and create a female like humanoid. The skin was grey and cracked like the ground and she didn't seem "real" she looked just like what she was, a pile of dust, a statue made from it. I thought to myself of the things man had done to earth, and how much more wonderful earth could've been without man, and a tear ran down my cheek for this thing, but i knew it would do the same here, so i leaned in and blew on "her" cheek and the dust slowly blew away into the wind and settle amongst the grass. I knew the planet could sustain itself now and decided i needed not stay so i shot my eyes to the sky and with a thought i shot into space and away from the planet and into the the darkness of space.

I awoke pretty ecstatic about that dream, and jotted down as much as could come to my mind.