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Had a dream last night I went kit-kat shopping with Abroad In Japan, Dogen, & The Anime Man, I think I acted as some guest star in a collab vid or something, maybe a camera man.

Date of Dream: SUN 20 MAY - 2018



Dream No. 337 - Separated Sections

Dream 337 A - Forgot My Luggage
I don't remember what happened at the start of the dream. From where I do remember, I was at some unknown camp site, supposedly in Canberra, with my high school. We were about to leave and people were rushing me to get out of my cabin. I remember throwing all my clothes around the room in a hurry, trying to get them to my suitcase but they never got to the suitcase.

The next scene was when we were actually at the airport and as soon as we got past the security gates, I started freaking out. I looked into the sky, as this was an outdoor airport, and I called out in a distressed tone, “Miss T! I forgot my luggage! Can you please being it here?”. The dream prevented her from responding again but a girl had walked up to me who had left my high school in real life in 2013. JSc said to me that I didn't need any luggage and she told me to come with her.

We got to this no-roofed, black car that had nine seats in it. My friend LA was there but she didn't say much when I told her I had left my luggage behind. I got into the back three seats and I was wondering who was going to sit with me. At first, I thought it was going to be my friend LA but then she moved into the middle three with SW and some other girl. JSc got into the back with me and there was also this other girl that I forgotten the identity of. That's all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 337 B - RPG Battle Rules
I forgot what happened at the start of the dream. From where I do remember, I was in some completely unknown indoor area. A small version of Super Mario was there; one that could run, jump and talk to me. Something dangerous was happening in the background but I forgot what it was. Murray was also there; and the energy that I was perceiving from him, it felt like he was a father figure towards me in this dream. He was wearing his blue crop top, white scarf, brown belt and black shoes but he was not wearing his mask and gloves. He also had a more realistic skin texture in this dream as well as his goggles being 3D and touchable, and then his top was out of actual fabric.

I was standing on some big empty beach, bright blue sky, really yellow sand and crystal clear water and waves; almost like it was an actual game, but at the same time it wasn't. There was this small enemy facing me that I had forgotten the identity of, I think it looked somewhat like a crab with a big pointy shell on it. Murray wasn't with me at this stage and so the sky turned grey and there was some writing in the sky. It said something like, “If your health falls to 0, you will pass out and be forced to restart the battle”.

Murray then faded back into vision, exact same appearance, and was standing on the esplanade, watching me. They sky turned blue again but not as blue as it was before. Eventually, my health actually reached zero and with Murray there, the command blocks popped up while the background of the environment went grey-scale to show that I was temporarily dead or inactive. The two command blocks available to me at the time were “Flee” which was the exact same icon and behaviour as in the Mario RPGs, or “Revive”, which was an icon with a gold crown and royal purple ribbon hanging from it. I selected “Revive”, which brought me back to full health and the battle continued from where it left off; the enemy keeping damage it had already received from me.

Back in the unknown indoor area, Mario, still in his small size and was saying something to me but I forgot what it was. There was an area that resembled this Mario 2D platformer level in the graphics of one of Bowser's castles but with no lava anywhere. Mario was going to traverse through it. I wanted to traverse through it as well but then I thought I wouldn't do well in this level, so I decided I couldn't. Murray came up to me, put his hand on my shoulder and said that he would go. So therefore, Murray was going to act on my behalf.

He shrunk down in size to be of a more accurate proportion to Mario, of course, his hippo frame being slightly bigger than Mario. Murray then encased himself into some sort of iron ball with spikes around it. The goofy feature wasn't necessary where this ball had had some weird looking blue eyes on it and a white grin with some chipped teeth; this made the ball look somewhat creepy. Through the blue eyes though, they were glass and so I could see Murray in it, tucked into a ball shape with his hands clutching onto some metal bar handle so he could control the direction of the ball.

Mario then raced off into the level stage set, he was running and jumping through with no problems. Murray soon came on following Mario and he was rolling around the stage set and making the ball jump where necessary. At some points, some of Bowser's spike drills would come crashing down but Murray would always get out of the way; Mario was already at a much later stage of the level, he was way too fast for Bowser's defences to even activate.

Eventually though, Murray had caught up to Mario and so they were travelling almost simultaneously near the end of the level; Mario was still slightly in front though. As they were approaching the end of the level, there were going to be two separate pathways. Mario was going to go and jump on his flag as usual, to turn into the classic M flag. With Murray, there was a goal set up, the poles being marked with two white and pink flags, with a purple K printed on them. Once Murray had rolled through the goal, the flags started sailing and the dream ended.

Dream 337 C - My Friend Has The Same Phone
I don't remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, I was at my old house, in the sitting room, talking to my friend Jasmine. I was checking out her phone when I saw that her battery settings were a bit strange. I noticed that her phone was the same make as mine and so I went into her settings and showed her how to make the battery percentage visible as a number reading. That's all I can remember about this dream.



Dream Tasks
- Re-stabilize in-dream performance from Dreamy WB; she hasn't been appearing lately (Achieved? Partially)
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? No)
- Investigate where my SML postage has gone (Achieved? No)
- Reach the Gyeongbokgung Palace (Achieved? No)
- Have Dreamy WB or Murray go to console an upset dream character (Achieved? No)
- Get the bottom of the cause of dream guide hindrance (Achieved? No)



Dream 337: Results (Competition #3)

337 A
Competition Night: 19
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: JSc (Not on the official Dream Guide Team though)
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

337 B
Competition Night: 19
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: Murray & Mario
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

337 C
Competition Night: 19
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 7.5
Calculation Details:
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- 5-Day Recall Chain (5.0)

+ Previous Total: 105.5
Total Accumulated Points: 113.0



Murray maintained the same appearance throughout the whole of Dream 337 B

Date of Dream: SAT 19 MAY - 2018



Dream No. 336 - You Should Talk To Him

I don't remember what happened at the start of the dream. From where I do remember, my brother, mum, grandma and my friend JO were at RC's house in Geelong; I was at home with my dad. When they came back home, I found out the reason why I didn't do. My mum said in a disgusted tone that RC didn't want to see me after she heard I robbed a bank.

In the next scene, I am on the freeway in my mum's car. My mum is driving, I'm in the front seat and my brother NB and a boy from my primary school called JSe were in the back seat. JSe tried to talk to me but I just kept ignoring him. My mum asks, “why aren't you talking to JSe?”, I didn't answer her but inside my head, I thought, “I don't want to be hurt again”.

For the scene, I am at some unknown shopping centre but when I walk through enough of it, I claim to be in Shopping-Town in Doncaster. I walk out of Kmart and into the undercover car-park and that's when some people that I don't know in real life came up to me and explained what JSe's intentions were. I felt bad and figured that I had to find him and actually talk to him.

I can't seem to find him for a while but eventually, I end up at a co-ed version of Salesian College that looked completely different that in real life; also in real life, it's an all-boys school. I see all these girls there and they become friendly with me pretty quickly, talking to me about a lot of things as if I was a part of the school. I ask where JSe is and I soon find out that he is supposedly in detention for two hours straight and when I catch a glimpse of these dream-teachers, I know why... They are not nice at all. The dream ended there.



Dream Tasks
- Re-stabilize in-dream performance from Dreamy WB; she hasn't been appearing lately (Achieved? Partially)
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? No)
- Investigate where my SML postage has gone (Achieved? No)
- Reach the Gyeongbokgung Palace (Achieved? No)
- Have Dreamy WB or Murray go to console an upset dream character (Achieved? No)
- Get the bottom of the cause of dream guide hindrance (Achieved? No)



Dream 336: Results (Competition #3)
Competition Night: 18
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 1.0
Calculation Details:
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)

+ Previous Total: 104.5
Total Accumulated Points: 105.5

(Man it's a long one)

My dream started with me on holiday, in this large house. One day on the holiday, I fell out with my mother after arguing with her on how to drink coffee. After some unrememberable and unimportant details about the rest of the holiday; We had to leave, and I had to wind up the ginormous grandfather clock in the center of the house. The clock took up an entire segment of the house, it took up a good chunk of the foyer the pendulum's weight was about as big as me, and I could only barely reach the chain so I could wind it.

On the way back from the holiday destination, for some reason, I found myself in a weird version of Seoul in South Korea, in some nondescript shopping mall, after messing around in the shops for a bit, I realised I was dreaming, and decided to become the superhero, "Slime Guy",
based upon the various Dragon Quest memorabilia that was scattered around. After trying out a bit of dream control, I started exploring the place, only to realise that some bits of it were flooded. for some reason, and the dream characters were walking around in the water nonchalantly, like the water wasn't there. I caused a bit of chaos and stole a shopping trolley, quickly dashing into one of the lifts (which where like a miniature network of wonkavators mixed with trams). I picked one of the wrong destinations, and got separated from my group.

I ended up at one of the lift stations, unable to get back on the lift. I managed to get another lift that was pretty crowded, the lift had a tourist group, as well as a few locals. After trying to find a seat in the lift, I accidentally got sat on by one of the local girls. For some strange reason, she kept doing it, I was incredibly uncomfortable with this happening, so I attempted to get a Korean phrasebook up on
my phone, but like in real life, it just wouldn't connect. She was on my lap for the entire duration of the ride.

We eventually got off the train, the girl and her friends spoke some Korean which I understood as meaning "What is your name?" (For some reason, it actually did sound like the proper Korean for that phrase), I decided to fool around with them, and replied to them, "AMERICAN GUY!" in a perfect General American accent, before running off. All of a sudden, the supervillain "Iron Spinner" showed up and started attacking the bus. His whole gimmick was legitimately him being based around the concept of fidget spinners (I kid you not).

The girl then suited up in an iron man suit and started blasting Iron Spinner, after a bit of tussling and scrapping, I saw a whole load of RED stickybombs from the game Team Fortress 2, I decided to try luring Iron Spinner in to them, I succeded, and they exploded, I also saw who layed the stickybombs, Donkey from Shrek. At this point, the wierdness factor must have overloaded my brain, beacuse I can't remember any more of the dream.

I was in this 'segment' about different types of magic in various media. It went through the stereotypical stuff you would see in your
common-or-garden Tolkienesque fantasy setting, to the sort of stuff you would see in a magical girl anime,
with the specific brand of "crystal magic" providing as a powerup source.

Later on, I discovered this online anime series, which I myself described as "My early childhood's Television program lineup as told by
Hiroyuki Imaiishi" (He's a guy known for madcap animated productions). One of the clips involved one of the characters
(who I think was named "K-OK") from the show trying to intercept a person on the "Black Market Rail", a railroad network dedicated to
supplying the main villains of the show, the "Black Market".
The only thing was, they all looked like trains from Thomas the Tank Engine for the duration of the segment. Even K-OK.

After sparring a bit on the tracks, K-OK incapacitated one of the mooks, jumped up in to space, produced a sharp blade from his undercarriage,
and dived back down to earth, killing the mook.

I dreamt I was in this large story, where I was called upon by a mole-person named "Unbo" who was a friend of the moon princess, Kaguya,
(who had become a freedom-fighter against the tyrannical rule of the moon king) to find another old friend of hers
(who I think was called "Tsukuji") who aided her in a great adventure previously.

After wandering around for a bit in the previous section of my dream, I saw Unbo rooting around in a orange car, (which for some reason I know was Tsukuji's), fiddling with locks. He then told be that I was "Just in time" and explained the situation to me before giving me some "gold",
(actually just some copper coins which looked like updated tomimotosen in different shapes & sizes) which appeared to be from the car.
We then set off to find Tsukuji, which after a bit more telepathic exposition from Kaguya herself about how the moon-king is oppressing the people of the moon, we find him in a local hospital where he is bedridden and sick with some form of what I believe to
be some form of septicemic stroke (he had an IV drip, along with
an overly docile demean as well as memory issues). Kaguya teleported in and had a conversation with Tsukuji about how good their previous adventure was and how they bested the generals of the moon-king, and that they needed his help again to beat back the threat of the moon-king. I also gave him the 'gold' from earlier. I saw flashes of someone out of the window, then all of a sudden, Kaguya told us to "Get down!", a ginormous flash of fire came out from nowhere. After picking myself up, I saw the cause of the
incendiary explosion. It was "Jirath", one of the moon-king's generals, who was now standing in the room with us. (Jirath's general appearance & demeanor could be best described as a cross between Akira Otoishi from Jojo's Bizzare Adventure Part 4 &
Groose from The Legend of Zelda: Skyward Sword). After losing to him the first time, and restarting like a videogame, I eventually bested him
with the power of my voice. After going outside with a miraculously healed Tsukuji, we encountered "Leann", the next general, who commanded a crab, and was generally water themed.

Rather unfortunately the dream ended here, with me reading a wiki with all the cool powers I could have gotten, like the "Drastic Teleportation
Arm" which looked like some lotus flower and the "Machine Arm", which was a Mega-man-like armcannon.

After losing the rest of my family after attempting to check in to a hotel, I decided to get a blimp back home. The blimp appeared to be in a sponsorship deal with The Wm. Wrigley Jr. Company,
as multiple of their products were plastered around the blimp's unusually large cabin. I missed my stop, so I decided to retreat to the arcade
section of the cabin, where I discovered a
small skittles alley themed on M&M's and multiple arcade games based around Wrigley products & brands.

For some strange reason, the blimp was Japanese owned, and had a significant neo-Japanese aesthetic to it. It's logo & mascot bared a resemblance to Jenny from My Life As a Teenage Robot

The blimp also a miniature rail system that allowed you to get to different sections, including the disabled toilets. The toilet system acted as the general-purpose waste disposal system also.

I travailed across the world, starting my journey in France. Despite it being France, no one spoke French. It was a long journey, stopping off at different locations (including a florists) until I eventually reached Japan, where we stayed for a bit. All of a sudden, a siren sounded and I could see
what my subconscious called a 'tsunami', as it was only a knee-high wave. Another wave happened, which knocked me off of my feet and presumably killed me. I woke up in a bed.

I explored for a bit before before finding some bits of a statue. It turned out that they were the pillar men from Jojo's Bizarre Adventure. I tried reassembling them, but I couldn't.

I dreamt about the "nature reserve".

I entered a shopping mall and found a game, it was a Call of Duty game, I played and went in to it. There was a mission where I had to kill people, a lot of them were innocent civilians, one was a child, a lot of them knew my name for some reason.
I think I remember them being Filipino (or a least hearing that they were).
There were multiple factions of people.

I went in to a Jungle after, where I met up with my father, who played an instrument on a wheelie-bin (the instrument was two sticks, depending on where
you struck them against something, they would produce different tones). I then found gigantic fossilised remains, which I explored.
After finding some interesting mechanical parts to the fossil, I discovered that it was a giant robot, which promptly activated and healed.
It was the "GIANT TOASTING ROBOT: RED STAR", as it could also function as a toaster (don't know why) it also had a human girlfriend.

Went to a house that friends had, there was a lot of people there (It was a sprawling complex with around six stories and hidden rooms, I like to call this section of my dreamscape, "the house", it usually stands in for any house-based location I visit in waking life).

When I went to the attic, I got spooked and found the goddess of night (I forgot her name, but I think it was Nyx), she was black-haired and had the appearance of a person my age. She had black hair (and blue eyes, but I'm not sure about this detail) and a black dress she had the most deadpan manner I have seen of anyone, and she threatened to push me down the attic ladder multiple times if I did not answer her quiz

UPLOADING OLD ENTRIES IN PROGRESS, NO NEW CONTENT IS TO BE EXPECTED.

Morning of January 6, 2013. Sunday.



In a mostly featureless field, there is a dead tree with sparse branches seen in early evening, apparently just after sunset, and in semi-lucidity. In touching the tree, I ground myself without a focus on the anticipation of vestibular system ambiguity. I am fully in my fictitious dream body for the duration.

I vaguely recall previous dreams of living trees reaching out to stroke my face with the tips of their branches, in seemingly expressing love as an essence of nature itself.

I notice movements across the bark on the side of the tree, a shifting of kite-shaped patches of golden “skin”, which sometimes feature a singular eye. I notice that part of the tree is breathing, a part of its bark moving out and back in with the same overall size as a person’s abdomen. Eventually, I become aware of a female Buddha looking at me somewhat blankly, perhaps puzzled by my presence.

There is a change of awareness and temporality, a “blind spot” of which I do not pay full attention, a very common factor of the dream state when full lucidity is not present. A female Beetlejuice modulates my dream from here, though she is not threatening in any way (as preconscious modulation sometimes is when the need to wake and attend to real needs is greater). For a moment, I consider how serious it seems, even with a link to the spiritual, though I eventually come to terms with how silly the scenario is. I recognize the waking transition as it is rendered as an outdoor wooden staircase (as relating to vestibular system autosymbolism), which does not seem connected to a building. I faithfully use the stairs without slipping or falling (or the staircase changing form or collapsing), noticing the steps are rendered rather well. It all comes down to the usual vestibular system correlation with the personified preconscious (and additionally in this case as the vestibular system personification as the female Beetlejuice accompanying my subconscious self at this point), an extension of RAS mediation, passively leading the way in a liminal space where the religious fantasies wrought by others, and the movie fantasies wrought by others, are ultimately equal.

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Additional notes on the cause and meaning behind this dream: Way back when I was four years old and vowed to myself to understand and master the dream state, I came to realize that seeing eyes moving in a dream, especially when isolated, is primarily based on liminal awareness of being in REM sleep (though was also influenced from “sleep watching” the “Outer Limits” episode of “Don’t Open Till Doomsday” at age 4). There have been many dreams with this detail. In the eyes being on the tree, the tree in this case, especially in being in the mostly featureless field, represents the static (unmoving) status of my physical body during sleep.

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I went to bed around 9 and probably slept within a half hour. I got up once and remembered a dream or two but fell back to sleep.

In that dream I remember this thing with Spongebob, Piglet, Winne the Pooh, and a cast from both of those shows. Spongebob stepped out of an invisible house. Maybe Gary was there. I remember seeing Piglet gobble some honey.

There was something at the end, maybe about circumcision trauma. Not seeing the trauma itself but reading about it or talking about it.

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I fell back to sleep and had more dreams. At first I remember dreaming of going on a website. It needed to be translated. Something about statistics on kinds of beers maybe. Not quite sure. (I don't drink.) Then trying to fall asleep, but in my previous room at previous house. I was setting some kind of timer thing on my cell phone as well as another audio, not sure why. Something about 10, 20 or 30 minutes.

I remember getting up and going to the kitchen. In the fridge, there was some food, I took out and ate. It was the kitchen at my previous house, and house I grew up in. Someone on the phone or online was talking about his lucid dreams but it seemed like he only posted dreams once every 2 weeks. I wanted to ask him if he posted dreams only then, or if I actually only did dreaming practices once every 2 weeks, for competition.

Then I guess some other stuff happened I'm not sure of or it shifted. Next thing I remember is being on a beach. There was also a forum icon of (C) with a guitar. She had brown hair. It was interesting to actually see her. I wondered why she wanted to put up her photo on her avatar in that setting.

Next, I was at a beach. A young woman, pregnant, asked my friend and I if we wanted to talk towards the shore. The ground was dense with cigarette butts. I was even holding a long cancer stick with yellow and white, but trying to throw it away. i hadn't smoked it and I didn't want anyone to think I had. There were black rocks and sand.

My friend didn't want to go with her, but I did. So I guess we started walking there. Then it kind of shifted to walking into this dormitory or college house thing. (RK) and some other guys from that house were talking about smoking weed, and offered me some. "No thanks, I've been clean a long time and I want to keep going," I said. It seemed like a tough choice but I was clear on it. They went to smoke more.

Something about how I went upstairs. And walked around. I don't know who else was there, maybe (MC). I'm getting a flash back of (DF) in a dream scene but only a "tip of the tongue" thing. Some stuff happened upstairs. Maybe (JA) was there.

I remember to go back downstairs, the only option was a really steep drop. It was like a 3-4 inch wide conveyor belt at an 80 degree angle from the ground. Someone easily went down it so I did, too. It worked fine and I was on the ground. I had felt a lot of fear before that. There turned out to be a wooden ladder against the wall.

We saw that the orange door had been shredded at the bottom. Kind of like a cat door had been made by shredding the bottom of that door. Uh-oh! Now people might break in. (MC) and others (I think) said that it was okay. They had four people on as security guards all night, with guns. So no one could successfully intrude.

There were some boards they considered boarding it up with. I figured, why even let someone have a chance to crawl in like that? But it didn't seem like it would line up right. One of the boards was all water logged and wavy so we threw that to the side.

Then there was this thing with an older man cartoon character showing everyone how to heat up a special kind of rifle and launch fire balls. He demonstrated sliding the bolt action (I don't know exactly what kind of gun its called) back and forth repeatedly, which generated friction. Then he rapid fired bullets out and every bullet became a bigger and bigger fire ball. I remember watching and wondering how they did that. The bolt action was circular and went around the whole barrel.

Then it showed Master Roshi in the sky, on a cloud, with a halo. There were some other DBZ Style characters in space. One was like Mr. Satan but he had some purple coloring and a halo. He was on a cloud, too. It was more surreal, so my memory is blurry. They were in a blue sky.

I remember something about Goku catching two villains and detaining them. Two other villains seemed un-caught. I was thinking to myself what Dragon Ball this must be. "Dragon Ball Cosmic?" And what kind of dragon balls it would be, now that they already did Super. "Cosmic Dragon Balls?"

I think that was all I remembered of that part.

Then it shifted to where I was watching a family of monsters. They were at a circular dinner table, in a kind of dim room, and they seemed to be sitting to dinner. There were three child monsters and one big adult monster. The child monsters forms varied but they were the same color, kind of a Plankton Green with red stripes usually. The dream showed the 3 child monsters turning their expressions into glares, one by one, at the big adult monster.

I forgot how the big adult monster responded. Maybe glared back. Not sure, but it got really tense in the room.

I dreamed of trying to put on my grey winter coat to go to school. It was going to be cold out. I had a shoe box with my stuff in it. I thought I'd wear the grey coat all day in the building. But then remembered how much they crank the heat in there, and decided I probably would want to take it off.

The last thing I remember is dreaming of being on a phone meeting. I talked about some things as if I was explaining what happened last time, then asked if I could share about my particular trauma. No one seemed to answer. I almost did but held back, not being able to tell what was holding me back, or what I really wanted to say. Then I woke up, and recalled the dream, staying perfectly still a while to think it through.

After solidifying it in my head I typed all this out. Now its probably 3 AM so that's 5-6 hours of sleep I got so far.

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Another interesting set of dreams. I feel groggier so I hope I get them right.

I think the earliest I remembered was being in my room with some other people. A younger guy was asking about how to write songs. I told him that if he really wanted to write like me, he would have to get clean and sober. I told him I write like 20,000 words a day and if I drank alcohol or smoked anything or whatever, I definitely wouldn't. I'm not sure if it helped him.

I found myself watching Youtube clips of various things, wondering if I had relapsed on that habit. Then I was like, "No, its just one video, I'm okay." But I felt worried. It was a Spongebob music video. However, I couldn't close it or turn off the volume. I was freaking out, yelling, cursing, wanting this thing to shut off. Also it was around 4AM and I wanted to go back to sleep.

Eventually, it shut off. I was hungry so I got my jar of peanuts and put some water in it. I figured the water would make them softer. Then I would brush my teeth after eating them. But I wondered what I was doing, and didn't want all that water to keep me up. The water had peanut-dust floating on the top.

Next I went out of my room for something. There are some details I forgot. There were raccoons. I remember a raccoon's tail poking out of a drawer. It was nestled in there. I thought of dogs that would protect us from the raccoons eating all our stuff.

Oh, there was one interesting part, not sure when. But I drew an optical illusion thing that could have been waves in and ocean and a sky with clouds, or it could have been a grassy field with trees. I felt happy with the drawing. Maybe I will try to draw it in waking life.

So I headed back to my room. Then I went out again to make sure that raccoon wouldn't eat all the clothes in the drawer. Two more raccoons were out. They were very aggressive, and chased me. I ran back to my room, narrowly escaping them. Fear!

Once I was back in my room, the dream showed a black background with white lines, drawing of me climbing up the loft bed while raccoons still chased me. But in cartoon form.

I feel unsure as to what comes next. Well, I know I was on the computer again.

Then I was at this wedding thing. I asked someone to speak. They said they don't like to speak in front of large groups. Their assistant (female) agreed.

Someone spoke up front. My friend (MM) had put a website online where he sold snack foods at high prices. He wanted people to buy it from him but it seemed to me that no one would, because it would be so much less money to get it in the store. We talked about how something like a one dollar item might have a higher percent mark-up than a ten thousand dollar item, so selling one dollar items might be more profitable overall.

I remember walking through the church, going down stairs backwards. Wondering about all this religious stuff in the church. But afraid to comment that I don't like all the religious stuff, since most people seemed all into it, and they would be against me.

I went to the cafeteria thing to get food. There was a metal thing that opened and closed where the dirty dishes went. I put my dirty dishes there. One of the men from the kitchen came to the dish place and saw that hot cocoa was spilling. He took a dirty cup and caught some of it to drink. "Chocolate!" he said. He happened to be Hispanic but I am not being racist, just mentioning the dream detail, for completeness sake!

I was thinking of how to get a cup of decaf men's coffee. In my mind there was men's coffee and women's coffee. (A) was talking to someone. I overheard their conversation, but now I don't remember what it was about.

Next I remember the wedding almost going to start. The actual ceremony, not just speakers. I went out to a car and there didn't seem to be a drivers side door. Then I found it. It was a little sports car but I could stand up inside it when i went in. I put something on the back dashboard thing by the back window, maybe a mirror. It seemed to go far back.

I was changing my shirt and putting on a suit. Some older people walked by on the way to the wedding and saw me changing but I didn't care.

There was something about how (A) married someone but something was different about his wife's reproductive system. So there was some difficulty having children. However it showed three kids in a driveway, near some cars, playing. So I'm not sure what it was saying.

I was cognizant of having eaten. So I couldn't put on my retainer without brushing my teeth. However I didn't want to be late to the wedding for brushing my teeth, so I thought that I would just go without my retainer. But I kind of wanted to be seen with it in, not without, so I was torn.

How did the rest of that go? I think that was it. Now its 5:16 AM so I must have slept from 3:30 to 4:30, maybe a little longer, making me at 6-7 hours of sleep. This is perfect timing and its likely I will get one more sleep cycle.

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Cool! I got one more sleep cycle. However, my dream recall was not as thorough. I remember dreaming of a guy with a grey/silver sports car. Something about the car caused back pain or something like that. He wanted help with it. I drove something else. I remember pulling through a gas station, on the right hand side. making a left onto a road and then a right back onto the road I was on. Not to evade a light. Not sure why. I remember still seeing the silver/grey sports car again. We got to the woods and the road ended. Also we were walking but I think the cars just dissappeared, we didn't get out of them. As we walked through the woods, I noticed the pavement come to an end. Some guy in the woods might have been aggressive toward us or something I'm not sure.

Next thing I remember is being in front of a TV in my Nana's living room. I remember something was playing on the TV or on my laptop that was kind of disturbing, something I didn't want to see. However, I closed my eyes, and still saw it.

I had a rack with Pokemon card packs in it and other things. Something about playing catch. A cartoonish thing. I had taken one Pokemon card pack, opened it, and stuffed 3-4 more unopened packs in it, as a surprise to someone. It was noticably thicker though. A reddish and bluish color. There was another kind of pack on the rack. The rack was clear plastic with compartments.

In another part I was supposed to move my stuff out of the room in my Nana's house. It was Saturday, Sunday, Monday. They expected me to do it by Sunday but I said it could wait, since I don't have to work Monday.

In the last scene I remember, my sister had got home from a field trip. Instead of going straight back to school, my parents wanted her to stay home for a debriefing. So she could process the trip before being put right back into more activity. I remember her writing on paper, each line at first, then skipping lines.

I woke up from that and kind of drew a blank. I managed to latch on to a few details but I think there was more. It's okay. I got alot of dreams tonight. I must have woke up from that at 6:30-6:40 so it makes another hour of sleep, putting me at 7-8 in total again. I guess that's alright.

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Another thing I did was 3,279 words of waking life recall. As thorough as possible. If I can keep up with it I want to see if that boosts my dream recall word count.

Morning of January 3, 2017. Tuesday.



In my dream, I am living in an unknown residence. I am only vaguely aware of my family as they are now. I am in a cold indoor environment in the wintertime (even though it is very warm in real life). To my right is a large hot water heater of an unrealistic design and which nearly reaches the ceiling. There is also a furnacelike feature near the top.

I have an object that resembles a circuit board. A few wires are sticking out. By rubbing two wires together I can start a fire and make the room warmer. There is a ramp along the wall. After several attempts to get a fire going, a small fire finally starts. The entire circuit board is soon ablaze. I am enjoying it until I notice a couple of additional flames higher up that may or may not have come from my activity with the circuit board.

There is an unfamiliar young male present at one point. He points out that the hot water tank is now releasing sizzling water. I unplug the hot water tank and the water stops squirting from various areas of the tank, especially near the top.

I grab a white plastic bucket and fill it with water from the faucet. I fling it upwards but see that I will have to climb up to make sure all the flames are doused. When I get to the top near the ceiling I notice the top of the wall opens into another room. It is like an attic with a low ceiling. An older woman (of perhaps sixty) is sitting close to my side and an unknown young girl is sitting on a couch across the room and reading a book. The fire seems to be going out.

I apologize to the unknown female but she does not seem angry or annoyed. Looking down at a table in the implied doorway of this unlikely room (though I think it is some sort of open vent that is not meant to serve as a door), I see a Gold Key “Star Trek” comic book (which is a real-life cover of a comic book I have not had in years). The top of the cover’s image is nearest me so is upside-down. There seem to be a couple of burn marks on it and it also appears mostly in grays.

I say, “Oh, I have this comic book,” and the woman says, “I know, I gave it to you”. This puzzles me at first, but I do not say anything else about the comic book.

“I had my gloves sitting there,” she says, indicating that she had a pair of gloves sitting on the “Star Trek” comic book. She seems to be implying that the fire had burned them up completely. I tell her that it is unlikely as there were only a few small flames which had gone out quickly. I slowly wake while wondering what else to say.

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Dream state and waking process autosymbolism fully explained here:

Lucid dreams are not the same as controlled dreams. You can be lucid and not in control of either the dream environment or the dream body. You can direct and modulate the dream without lucidity. Dream control is a separate state than maintaining self-awareness in the dream. Lucid dreaming is not a “skill” (and for me has always been a natural state since earliest memory). Neither is dream control, though it does become fundamental upon understanding dream state autosymbolism and how RAS (reticular activating system) mediation works.

My dynamic and transient subconscious self in non-lucidity, because of isolation from both my unconscious mind and my conscious self, does not usually possess viable memory of waking life or reasoning skills. The rendering of the hot water heater is a thread of the liminal awareness of my physical body being too warm in my real environment, and is rendered to my dream self’s right as I sleep on my left side (my right more liminally aware of the real environment as a result). The cool fictitious environment is a result of a liminal thread of the conscious desire to be cooler. Additionally, water is autosymbolism for the depth and dynamics of sleep.

Liminal dream state awareness is inherent (a liminal realization of being in the dream state, yet without being lucid; a result of synaptic OR gating; my conscious self being aware I am dreaming while my dream self is not) and liminal dream control (the circuit board as autosymbolism for RAS mediation). Synaptic gating is triggered from the liminal awareness that water is sleep and fire is waking (achieving consciousness). However, I non-lucidly sustain and control my dream at this point before the preconscious factor renders a young male to caution me on modulating my dream due to my real-life environment being too warm. (This is a “primitive” but very important biological mechanism, just as the autosymbolic call to wake and use the toilet is). “I unplug the hot water tank”. I moderate my intent of dream state sustainment and reinduction, though I still have a tentative desire to sustain my dream by throwing water from a bucket.

I decide to enter the waking space willingly. I liminally seek out the RAS bulwark and find the liminal space divider (that otherwise separates the dream self identity from the conscious self identity). This is rendered as the unusual opening into what is implied to be an attic and is a form of sustained doorway waking autosymbolism. The attic relates to higher thinking skills (and also has an association with the thalamus in contrast to RAS) that are only viable when awake. RAS personification (as the old woman) is rendered. The usual vestibular system autosymbolism becomes the focus but is rendered in static form as a “Star Trek” comic book cover, which additionally signifies the sustainment of the liminal space transition and the lessening of waking start anticipation (which is typically experienced as the falling sensation of which is solely biological). Additionally, I am in the timeless transpersonal stage where it could be said that the old woman and young girl are both versions of my wife Zsuzsanna on opposite sides of the timeline.

Personified RAS (transforming into this dream’s emergent consciousness factor) talks about her gloves having been on the comic book. (The fire had gone out, as the waking alert factor is no longer needed.) This is subtle autosymbolism of the knowledge of dream state modulation, as hands and gloves represent potential control of the dream state. There is also the implication of the control of vestibular system dynamics in this case as evidenced by the gloves being atop the static flight symbol imagery. Gloves additionally augment the illusion of physicality. (The dream self does not have a real physical body, and a practice that some lucid dreamers utilize is looking at their hands as a “reality check” to see if they look unusual or have the wrong number of fingers.)

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