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I did a short WBTB and it got me a short lucid

Spring Competition 2024 Night 3 (DEILD) 04.01.2024

I started the dream lucid as the dream was forming. I was in a city flying around and I knew a nuke was going to go off in 15 minutes. I flew down and found a bunch of soldiers that I knew I was fighting with. There was a display case that apparently had a button that could stop the nuke but non of my dream powers were working to break the glass or use telekinesis on the button.

I give up on the button and explore a bit. I summon two glocks but somehow know they are airsoft guns. I want to shoot someone on full auto with them because it would be funny but I wake up before I get the courage to do it.

Fragment 1: Sinking Boat

Something about a small boat – maybe a toy boat – that breaks through some ice and sinks into some water. I think I try to retrieve it.

Fragment 2: Hillside and TV

Walking up and down a hill. Something about television. Lilly Munster is there, on TV maybe. Also “my mom”, who doesn’t look like my Mom.

Dream 1: Lab and Bathroom (Lucid)

In the lab. Dr. B— (I think) and I talk about my progress. He wants us to cover our faces with masks, or at least with some kind of material. I go to “my room”, or maybe my office, to try to find a t-shirt I can use. There is something about finding Easter eggs, and looking inside of them but putting them back for the kids or something. Then there is some glassware (beakers and test tubes, etc.) that I want to break. Getting back to the lab, I accidentally swallow what was in one of the test tubes. People are running tests, and I feel like I am falling behind.



I go into a bathroom. It is very large, and extends for quite a distance. I wonder if the other end is the women’s section. This reminds me of a recurring dream. I try counting my fingers, and have trouble. I try again a time or two, and maybe do a nose pinch RC, eventually realizing that this must be a dream. I levitate up into a corner next to a window, and then come back down. My lucidity is either a little low here, or I lose it and start dreaming that I’m lucid without really being lucid. Anyway, it seems to me that I still think I need to get back to the lab. But I want to try flying back. There is something about not wanting to try it and failing while some people are watching...

Somewhere there was something else about a small bathroom, and wanting to use it while making the people around (some sort of office suite or something) think that I’m one of them. It is very small, and the door doesn’t close all the way.

With how the website is at the moment, I’d like to respond to comments with the next entries. The raw dream toad was pretty nasty, not really having a taste but it had very wet insides. It would have probably felt worse if I wasn’t in the very wet swamp for so long before eating it. On the thrown logs, it would be cool if it was the Gator king but for now it still is a mystery who could have done it. I find it funny how quickly the dream went away from the fact that something extremely strong attacked the plane.

Also had this at the start of the night, but a shorter night along with the return to journaling made this easier to remember. I was in my shelter, sitting with the bones left from the frog and fish last night. I got up to hunt some more, grabbing a few rocks as I walked around. I was able to find a few toads this time, with my aim and strength improving with practice. I kept eating what I caught as I kept going, so I would have enough energy to continue. Eventually there were larger toads that fought back, using their tongues to grab my arms and teaming up to bite and scratch me. They were easy enough to defeat by kicking or whipping them around, so I did not consider killing them to complete the task of beating a deadly creature.

I also hunted fish, learning that I could slam sticks or throw rocks at the water to get them to jump up. Days were passing by and over time I increased the parts of the swamps I explored. Eventually I found the plane wreck, so I searched inside to check the situation. The pilot was obviously still dead since he was killed before the crash but the other passenger was missing which showed that they at least jumped off. I checked the equipment and there was not much of use, but the plane had some gas left in it. Turning it on I was able to check the radio, coordinates, and radar. I only had a little time with it, as I heard something running at the plane.

Whatever happened to the passenger wasn’t a mystery anymore, as they were the one running to the plane. They yelled to turn it off, so I quickly did. They were limping as they rushed at me, and they had an axe from the plane. We then sat down in a spot near the plane, and the passenger explained that he believes the sound or electricity gained the attention of whatever threw the logs, and he did not want to risk being attacked again. He broke a leg with the fall and made a splint with parts of the plane, and was surviving with the rations and snacks that were in the plane.

I decided to help him with surviving and brought him to my shelter, and on the way there he said how he could not do much with a broken leg but knew a good amount about how to survive in the wilderness. He made a fire using some of the sticks that were around the plane crash, explaining that they were dried up by the fire. He kept the axe but I was able to make my own sword and axe using metal scraps from the plane. I was able to hunt creatures with something more than thrown rocks now. We then spent a couple months together, with me hunting more creatures including snakes, turtles, birds, and more kinds of fish.

After enough time passed he was able to walk and hunt with me, and we headed deeper into the swamp together. He specialized more in survival aspects such as cooking and making equipment and traps, and we shared knowledge with each other to work together more efficiently. As we were walking I saw a tiny turtle far away in some water and tried out my aim by throwing a rock at it. A head rose out of the water yelling, the turtle shell just being the top of the head. Seeing us it dove in the water and shot straight at us. I tried cutting it in half as it shot out of the water but it blocked my swing with its palm. Now on the ground I saw it was a 3 foot tall kappa.

It was reasonably very irritated after I threw a rock at its head with enough strength to kill a turtle that size. I tried talking it out with him but we eventually agreed to settle it with a fight. I was looking for something more powerful than the fish and snakes, so it was exciting getting into the match. I kept swinging at him with my sword and axe while he kept stopping them with his hands and striking back at me. Getting beat up this way, I threw my weapons to the side and it turned into a brawl with me punching him and him striking back with his palms. Each strike blew the surrounding leaves and plants back, shaking the forest around us. After spending enough months in the dangerous swamp, I was able to match this overpowered kappa in strength.

Still only being an equal against his fighting technique, I began to imitate him with his way of blocking and striking with palms. This gave me the edge I needed, and one of my strikes was able to lift him into the air followed by another slam that threw him into the water. It parted for a moment, showing him hit the bottom on the other end of the muddy stream. I was able to rest a bit and the friend helped to check on my injuries, and after a while the kappa came out of the water peacefully making it clear that I won the fight.

He was really happy after the fight and invited us to his home to rest. There we were able to talk about each of our situations, and we were able to settle on the decision to stay around this area for a while. The dream went on for a bit longer with hunting and exploring a bit more but I eventually ended it off with resting at the kappa’s place.

After being non lucid for a while, I escaped my own balcony, which, in my mind, was a literal prison. I did so by flying off with some kind of device that didn't really make sense. I ended up above a country road at some point and this is where I got lucid, mid flight. I decided to try and control the speed a bit, but the way this thing I was using was shaped made it difficult. Strangely, I never actually looked at the object, but as far as I could tell, it was some kind of bucket shaped object, with fire or air coming out of the open end with a lot of pressure. I was standing on the other end and there was some kind of pipe coming out of the middle, which I was holding onto while flying this thing. I tried to change the angle to fly faster, which worked, but it didn't make a big difference. I eventually decided to land on the ground. On the ground, I saw a group of people made up of former classmates of mine from real life. I was curious about what they were doing there, so I decided to go there. One of my class teachers was talking to a girl about something while the rest was kind of just there and talked to each other, not having any particular tasks to do. When I looked at their faces, it seemed to me that they were really accurate to real life, better than I could remember in waking life. This might have been a deception, not sure. There was a fence next to the group, a bit taller than me, which I jumped over with super strength. I woke up shortly after this.

The mental clarity wasn't perfect in this LD and I probably would've done something else had it been better, but there was still some stuff that gives points for the competition and I wasn't bored either, so whatever.

Morning of Mar 30

I am in my first grade classroom semi lucid.

Several students are sitting in the classroom or outside in the hall with bloody bandages on one or both of their hands. The shape of the bandages tells that they do not have fingers. I am walking into school with my father and I tell him I do not want to go to class today because our substitute is Mr. Fingereater. He tells me I have to go to school no matter what or I will be in trouble and urges me into the classroom.

Mr. Fingereater is a large fat ‘man’ wearing a white shirt. The front of which is stained with blood and unbuttoned to reveal a fat hairy set of pectorals. He is bald and has large cheeks and a mouth that is set out very forward. He has a large jaw and fat cheeks with very pronounced pearly white teeth. Like a bear trap but the teeth are not jagged or triangular. His ears are also very big and round and sort of stick out from the side of his head like an elephant’s.

Inside I sit down with other students. Most of the students seem to be nursing bloody bandaged hands. I intuitively know that Mr. Fingereater will only live up to his namesake if I get a question wrong. He asks me some sort of nonsense question like “What kind of Dinosaur is a Thesaurus?”

I don’t know the answer because the question is sort of nonsense, and I intuitively know that if I ask to clarify the question that will be counted as ‘wrong’. I'm lucid enough to kind of be annoyed by this, its sort of the plot structure and ofc the dream isn't going to 'play fair'. Being semi lucid I decide to run away. I run out of the classroom door and out into the hall.

There is a long sequence of being chased through the school. It seems to draw on imagery of several schools (my first and second elementary schools, my junior high and my high school.) It seems to largely be a standard dream labyrinth effect. At one point I find a window and look outside. The building I am in is a large brick tenement like building that is built in a very large flat grass lawn in the middle of nowhere. I contemplate jumping out of the window but decide against it.

Mr. Fingereater catches me and bites off my fingers on my right hand, leaving only the thumb. He takes all four fingers at once, but he does so by taking several quick bites eating up the fingers from the tips. (Probably for maximum pain inducement) This gives very intense pain and its very nerve-wracking to see four bloody stumps with circles of white bone where my fingers are. I scream and cry. But I can still ‘feel’ them and when I try to flex them I see severed tendons. I manage to get away from him before he can take another bite by sutting myself in a locker.

This changes the dream scene to the cottage owned by my father’s sister. I am in the back yard near the lake and Marcus is there sitting in a lawn chair reading a book. He sees the state I’m in and offers to transfer my consciousness to another body. He has maybe half a dozen scifi-looking cryo pods with bodies in them.. I put on a sort of VR helmet and he loads me into one of hade’s female bodies and thaws it out of the cryo pod. He explains that this is an earlier prototype and doesn’t have as many cybernetic or genetic modifications. When I get loaded in I walk over to my child self (waking self body) and it is now dead from the transfer and bleeding out on the ground, but I ignore this. Marcus says he made a hot tub time machine and wants me to try it.

I get in and see there is a small touchscreen control panel with cyan blue displays. I say without really thinking “I want to go back as early as possible to change everything!” and spin my hand on a large circular dial on the touchscreen display.

I arrive in a house. The structural layout feels a lot like my childhood home but the decor is different. The house is also in my childhood neighborhood but it is one of the houses near the entrance to the neighborhood on the left side of the road when you come in. Where in our house was the front living room is a dining room. In what was the dining room of my childhood home is the hot tub time machine.

There is a very elegant dining set made of dark stained wood with tan/golden cushions on the dining chairs. I specifically remember seeing the patterning on the fabric where everything is a lighter tan with diamond-shaped golden embroidery that is just a little bit inset on the fabric. A crystal chandelier hangs over it. My parents are there talking to a couple of other people and a younger me is meandering about looking at the details.

My consciousness seems to alternate between inhabiting my own younger body and the hade body I pulled through. My WL body is very young in this, I feel like I am just learning to walk and I go down on my hands and knees to crawl at times and this feels natural.

When I transfer into the younger body my fear of Mr. Fingereater re-manifests but when I alternate into the adult body it goes away. Mr. Fingereater comes out of the hot tub time machine like he is hiding under the water. While the female Hade body is small and slender and ‘only a prototype’ its still pretty much pure muscle and insanely more capiable to a normal human body. One roundhouse kick to the face instantly takes him out, its like hitting him with a cannonball. His jaw is broken and he falls over, breaking the drywall into the next room and bleeding quite a bit. I know he is dead. I executed this kick with the hade body but presence extended to my own child body.

My presence becomes fixed into my child/toddler body. I see the Hade body now inhabited by who-knows-what consciousness. I notice for the first time that body is naked, it has rather large breasts but not a vagiana. (So its probably one of the later prototypes as I only saw hade bodies with this anatomy later on) She (??? pronouns are a PITA with these, but they are technically my bodies so I say anything goes.) waves and gets back into the hot tub time machine. The machine ripples and fades out. I feel distressed and saddened by this like a friend is leaving. I also notice that the fingers on my right hand are missing but now the wounds seem to be healed over.

I start to cry. My parents and whoever they are talking to seem to have completely ignored the events and the dead mutant teacher in the next room. They don’t understand why I seem to have randomly started crying. There is a very strong rise of sadness. I’m conscious of it being ‘artificially induced’ on and I’m fairly lucid by this point. But the emotion is still very strong and I can’t help myself. I am crying because the more mature and capable body left and because I know that it is a dream and I haven’t actually accomplished anything because I didn’t actually travel back to my younger self. But simultaneously I’m distressed because I’m stuck back in my childhood body without the fingers on my right hand, and because its a mortal body they wont regenerate. (Also this is another point in the consciousness-body dualism in dreams. The body you take on can influence emotional and physical responses.) It feels good to cry and my parents come over to comfort me.

I woke up. This has been a distressing dream since I’ve had aches around the fingers on my right hand for most of the day. I keep checking that they are still there.

Morning of Mar 31

Dreams were very fragmented and sludgy, none of them lucid sadly.

I was playing minecraft. This was one of my old worlds which I played for quite awhile as a child. (The world had a very large pyramid made of red clay bricks and stone bricks which was my base). There was a large birch tree farm and I had several stacks of stone bricks and there was a large quarry pit which I put a glass roof over. But the world changed to a more recent world and I was in a mangrove swamp biome with mountains in the distance.

Semi lucid. I am in the basement of my childhood home standing by where the bookshelf was and everything has a red tinge to it. I remember I am in my WL form but am undergoing a transformation into my dream form by way of an injection. This has caused me to take on a weird mix of features between the two forms. Manei is there. This is a reference to a very early dream I had. If one follows a strictly materialist/psychological pathway for the formation of a dream guide she arose here. In a dream I had some time before I even properly discovered lucid dreaming, I had a dream of Katara attempting to teach me waterbending. I was bad at it. I'm still bad at it.

Some dream about my old factory job. There is a subway (resturant) inside the workplace.

Also need to put down 2pts meditation 0.5pts RCs for this day.

Will tally up points and post to comp thread when I have time.

Night 2

Fragment:

…/we’re sitting on the table, possibly having dinner or some. It’s night and it’s a very narrow place. The table looks like theirs but smaller. I’m sitting in front of J, E sits to her right. I’m telling some story about somebody else who I think it’s J. I get confused because if that person’s name was J. I don’t remember what’s J’s name then. It’s an embarrassing situation. I feel very confused/…

WBTB

NL fragments

…/it’s a known dreamscape inside a sort of school. To this side, the rooms are connected to each other with a door on the corner. Every room has only two doors except for the last one that has only one. It’s more than five rooms in a row. We get to the last one with a group of friends from school. I see JG, W and O among others. We’re sitting on the places. The classroom is dark. Somebody comes to tell us we must leave for some reason. Possibly the same reparations that are taking place at home in WL. Maybe it’s was just the time to close the school because it’s late. Not sure about it. This dreamland has a lot of branches around and inside this school. Everybody starts picking their jackets hanging on the chairs and stuff put all around. We are in a hurry/…

…/we’re traveling around the city like we were on a roller coaster. We make a big open turn to the left. I start talking using a friend’s particular voice accent, making fun of it. I realize I don’t know much about him since long ago. I turn to my right to ask E what happened with CH. He clarifies CH has gone to sleep. He couldn’t go along with his illnesses, operations and stuff. I get uncomfortable knowing many people from that time of my life is gone. It feels weird to know he’s gone/…

…/the same works that are taking place at my place in WL and get more complicated. I see one of the guys carrying a Tupperware that I specially interacted with the day before, filled with electronics or some similar stuff/…

There were some other details of this last fragment that I was recalling before I noticed I wasn’t using the voice recorder. Lost them :/

Fragment:
I’m staying somewhere in a swamp-like area. Like a hotel.
There is a patio type spot with a bed so low to the ground that it is nearly level to the water.
I tell my girlfriend that we should have stayed in this room, but I know she wouldn't have wanted to deal with the water.


Swampland Hotel.

Firelord Putin:
Two Fire Nation brothers are coming towards me, leaping over tall buildings to get to me.
They want me to come see something.
They've invented something to find the Avatar.
It’s a big ATM-like machine. It beeps and boops and makes a confirmation sound, printing out a receipt.
Then another group of guys appears and questions what we are doing. We try to keep the info secret, but they know.
…
The Fire Lord and Zuko are giving a speech to the Fire Nation on a stage in front of a large crowd.
I’m in a large group including people from every nation. Tenzin from Legend of Korra is part of it.
The Fire Lord is talking about loyalty and exceptional individuals.
My group slowly sidles onto the stage and fills in behind the Fire Lord, catching him off guard.
I notice the Avatar is with us too.
When we come into the crowd’s view, the speech stops abruptly.
The adults are sent off to a room with the Fire Lord to discuss a treaty.
…
I’m now back in a regular hotel room, with J from high-school. I notice she has a small mustache.
We are sharing a bed, but more like a field trip way than a romantic one.
I start to unpack and setup the bed. There are about six people in the room.
…
Some of the group returns from the war room, and the situation has instead changed into us being the United Nations, and the Fire Lord being Vladimir Putin.
Somebody is telling us how the UN was grilling him about things like Area 51 and similar, and how he danced around the questions.

Waves:
I’m watching somebody play a modded version of Mario 64.
There is a central town square. It’s circular and has tall buildings all around.
Mario has been modded to be Crash Bandicoot.
He has a hammer attack and the sound clip he makes when attacking is from a meme.
The player goes down an alley and arrives in a large flooded lake area.
We are discussing some seams in the edge of the rockwall keeping all the water in place.
It looks like the beginning of the second water level in Mario 64.
…
Later we’re in a store from the town.
I’m physically there now, no longer watching somebody play the game.
It seems to be a convenience store, but it is all messed up.
There is a flooded section, where a wave of water repeatedly is knocking over shelving and causing chaos.
An employee is blaming me for it.
I tell them they should move product away from that section. They get angry with me.
…
We’re upstairs in the store now. This doesn’t seem to be meant for customers.
Daylight beams in from a window.
My coworker B is here now, and somebody else.
B is talking about something he is most proud of me for achieving, but I don’t recall doing it.
I admit I don’t know what he is talking about.
The other person claims I abandoned the people I supposedly promised to help in B’s story.

Fragment
I'm in a game resembling Banjo-Kazooie. I'm flying around a neighborhood, exploring.

I didn't really wake up during my 5am WBTB. I might need to make my alarm later in the morning. My dreams have been very challenging to dream journal lately from forgetting it all at the last minute of waking up and the dreams being very unusual. This time I will do my best to journal the whole dream. Maybe if I journal more for the comp my dreams will become more logical.

SpringCompetition 2024 Night 2 (NLD) 03.31.2024

I am visiting Japan with one my nephews, two friends, and a DC girl that in the dream I had a crush on but doesn't exist in my real life. We have a really nice AirBNB. It has Japanese style achitecture. We make ourselves at home and find that the shared quarters have a Karate dojo in the middle of it. There is a retro style video game that is somehow connected to the plot. Like maybe we are there for a tournament or confrence for the game and the AirBNB is paid for by the game company. We play the game for a while and it is a side scrolling platformer. It's pretty fun!

An official person comes to our AirBNB and says we did something against the rules in the game. They say that they are there to punish us. There is a long conversation where I try to figure out why they are here interspersed with scenes in the future of us being tortured! My nephew then finds blood on the floor at the corner of the dojo mat. I tell my nephew someone probably got hurt sparring but he things we are all doomed.

BOB Token

I'm after a magic token buried in the lake. It is called a "BOB token" (maybe after Twin Peaks?)
It grants the user unlimited power.
I work at some pizza joint kind of place, and the founders were the last folks to use it years and years ago. They made their business, then buried it in a warded section of the lake in town.
I go at dark. It's easy enough to find. But I have to perform some kind of ritual to unlock it. Don't remember the specifics, but I'm busy underwater for a while..
Too long. Birdie, my wife's IWL coworker, swims toward me, trying to get it as well. Fuck.
I grab it and swim away. My wife is waiting for me and I tell her to SWIM, SWIM! THAT WAY! Not our planned route, just the most direct, easy way away down the river.
It is Easter tomorrow, and this town celebrates by sending Norwegian flags down the river on little boats. They're all over the water and we crash into them. I'm on my wife's back as she propels us through them and I hope they don’t hurt her.
We get to the shore. Birdie is not far behind us.
Then I realize.
My wife is against me. She's with Birdie. Fuck. They both want the token.
I pretend to not know and we go into a convenience store through a hole in the side of the building, thinking we're hiding from Birdie.
She comes in, then I run.
I have the token. I don't care. I'm invincible now.
I have no shoes. It is winter, and night out. I run through town. Some town, not real, but in the dream it is where we live. The streets are old cobblestone, full of mud and shit and snow and I get it all over my feet but I keep running.
Eventually I find our dog, Goose, and grab him and bring him with me. They're the enemy now and we are going to get out of this together.
I run through town with Goose and eventually stop to breathe. I've lost them. I have the token.
I'm outside a building. Record store / radio tower. We need a place to be, maybe they..? I look at the window and yes: apartment for rent. But it's scribbled out, already taken. But…
I become lucid, knowing suddenly that I can just decide to make it free if I act right.
We go in. The folks in the record store eye the dog, and my dirty feet, but whatever. I go up to the counter. One side is record store, one side is the radio tower dude. Their vibes are so different: nerdy vs punk. A customer in front of me finishes and I inquire about the apartment.
They say yeah, it's empty, the last person just left all their shit in there so you're free to use it for now, no charge if you want to help empty it.
Fuck yeah. They give me some keys. But where's the door? I wander the store, eventually find a stairwell near the entrance.
I go up… (The dog has disappeared from the dream now, lol)
It is very sketchy. Super low, unfinished ceiling. Attic vibes. Terribly ugly carpet. A set of washer and dryers are stashed in a corner. A super old jukebox. I marvel at the detail for a sec like I always do in dreams… my brain inventing this shit. Neat.
I find another small stairwell and then the apartment. It is a single room, no kitchen, no bathroom, insulation walls, no windows, yellow carpet, scary, ugly.
No thanks. I wander around instead, get lost in a maze of similar rooms. Kind of scary. Eventually find the way back down.
Outside, Taylor Swift is giving an interview.
I wake up.


Glitch World

I'm in a place similar to the last dream.
Cartoonish maze-like, video game-like world. Circular looping roads rise up through the sky, land on brightly colored platforms, repeat around. Many folks are doing this, like it is a museum piece. Not amusement park vibe, though.
I'm on one of the cars. It hits a huge white cartoon building and falls from the tracks, down into cartoon cloud sky abyss… my dream fear. Abyss, falling.
Oh. But I'm dreaming! It's ok. I'm still afraid but talk myself into confidence and just hover, then fly up to the buildings again.
Flying! Yes! My goals. The comp. Let's do it. I can remember my 3 step goals.
1. Flying. Got it.
2. Eat dream food. Ok!
I land on top of the structures, which on the very top are covered in sparse vegetation. From this height, I can see they all go on for infinity in this massive white space. I look at the little flowers growing… that doesn't look edible, lol. Small purple lavender-like buds, dandelions. Umm. Hm.
Oh! I'll try to manifest something. I put my hands behind my back and think "APPLE!" and.. Nothing. I do it again, nothing. Ok. I'll just eat these weird flowers.
I keep walking and find something that looks like a huge radish pushing out of the ground. Perfect. I pull it out and it is actually an apple growing out of the ground. Funny how dream intentions work.
I take a bite… Ew. It is mushy, like a super soft apple but no sweetness. Well, at least the task is done.
I keep walking, looking at the flowers and enjoying the weird cartoon dreamscape. Then on one of the building tops I see an ancient machine, kind of like a retro car but covered in neon green spaceship lights. Super derelict and run down. Cool! I begin to fly over, but then I remember my other goal, and my current personal goal.
3. Teleport!
I don't really know what to try now. I failed just trying with what makes sense to me, kind of imagine-running-starting toward it, close my eyes.. Some force of will… But I do that again. I almost feel something push, but I open my eyes and haven't moved. Damn. My other idea is to summon an item, a staff maybe, or find something to help me.. But I really feel pulled to keep trying the blink/push move. And fail again.

PA Again

It was dark out and ominous feeling, I was in the front of the PA house. I'm not sure what happened here but I feel like cars were being moved around, reparking.

I'm now inside of the PA house and there's a sports car in the living room. V is in the driver seat and I'm in the passenger seat. L is in the living room and he begins playing some music. V turns on the radio in the car and it immediately drowns out what L is playing. L kind of looks over unhappily but leaves it at that.

The car has a very long rectangular screen that stretches from the driver side all the way across the passenger side. V is now playing some game on that screen, using the car's steering wheel and other controls to play the game - it involves aircrafts shooting at eachother.



I feel like I have mainly two types of dream themes. One being that I'm sort of just watching things happen in my dreams, often silently observing and just going along with it with minimal interactions - or mainly acting reactively. I don't feel like I'm in the driver seat often (or in this particular dream, literally).

And the other theme is where I’m very engaged trying to figure out something novel or puzzle-like and I’m really absorbed in understanding the oddities that are in front of me.

Looking at my day to day life I can see why my dreams are like this and I can pinpoint some changes I can make that would help with increasing my awareness with these scenarios.

daytime:

all day lucid presence

night time:

voice memo22:
+ gathering room, salad at the counter
Earliest dream in terms of sort of a room that's going to be a gathering party there's a provider of food and refreshments I go up to the calendar with a womum's aren't concerned that there won't be enough fresh vegetables the third will just be no industrial crap and there is the amount of the clerk across the counter and up against the wall to the clerk's right across from us I see a bit stacks of containers and bins of fresh grains And I say Hey look I'll go over there it's okay you know there's gonna be the possibility of fresh silence and there's like 2 or 3 layers levels tall and they're like rooted some of them but there's a lot of different different from fresh greens like a standing out like even sprouts and silence and things and then sort of the next the major thing you say here is that the room is full of naked men and women having sex and II think that this is actually a video playing but it's happening you one right in front of us and I feel that my wife is next to me and I'm very embarrassed by this scene and I want adjustments to turn off and go away

+ work group ice cream?
Number 2 later probably maybe a fragment with a group of company D contractor friends maybe like the serious brothers are standing around and I think we want to go get lunch or go get ice cream or something I think we'd be a Rus. P. is there and we want too yeah even his name like we were gonna name our groups of flubs or somethand yeah we're like I think we don't really want to name our group Next is or evaluating some computer code in a class there is Ata or an instructor who is reviewing their supreme outs in front of us I don't know if I'm a participant or I'm is sort of helping grade or helping my friends I guess maybe mark wrapped and we're looking at the pronouncement we're reading the statements library's line and the gist with this is that my friend has written code that's not going to work and it's crashed in the whole system and I'm kind of trying to really understand what's going on and there are little phrases and things that catch like VD or VD or anything of thing click this number imagining what these is stand for for Later dreams like along the dachshund along the puzzle ordering you know that we're the between theories yes

+ baby wild pig at the country home
it's dark it's twilight mostly dark outside and then I see what do you think is a Cuban chick and I call it Cuban chick and I'm trying to see if it's like a dog or a pig and I think I see it little flat snout and the walking along the path towards home dot your front yard it's like the old Doctor nothin Newman and I'm concerned about this thing following me and it does follow me I'm really still trying to look at it and see what kind of A face or whatever it has is it a couple of years is it gonna get into our Yand coming around to the front side I'm looking at our fence and thinking about the fences different kinds of fences there's new metal holes and then there's just a kind of nylon netting and I'm trying to see if an in this cabin took a still walking around and I wonder if our dog is gonna come app and start barking at it cause they have to go crazy if they see the couple and then they're gonna around like to the front and I'll call my wife Hey come over to the Caban check And I'm looking at it and I'm wondering is it gonna get in and looks like it has looks like it is squeezed and too between the fences and gotten to the original my wife comes out and she's not impressed and she's okay now and you're gonna have to get it out and you know build app the fence and let me know the next couple of more thoughts or meals imagining stringing you know fencing around the whole perimeter of the property and there's something with another scene where it's also sort of the same area dark and when I'm riding a bike with big wheels a large diameter mountain bike and it's going slowly but I'm maintaining my balance and it's going up over some like a Bumpy log hill with her these logs and But it's rolling pretty smoothly and I make it in front of the house I sparked the bike there and I'm concerned about leaving it there because I might get stolen

+ [f] crushed fiesta roof There's a There's a fragment about the crushed open roof Ford fiesta it's and apparently my old Ford fiesta and it's missing a roof and the and it's passe you're Kevin's a frame it's sort of like a the whole frame is crushed like it's been really severely ruined rolled over and totaled and it's like how to mechanics or something and the guy I'm running around what can we do about this and guy gets in somehow a car and from inside he pushes just with his hands and muscles the frame out undoing basically all of the dents and I'm watching this and I'm amazed that I'm looking at just all the different components and things that are visible I'm wondering how can you do this

+ swimming pool
Inside a swimming pool a Stark there's a lot of people around and a lot of kids jumping and splashing and then swimming around and I'm bumping up against everyone it's very crowded [MEO] next result for a little there's a scene kind of outside of that where there are some people like a family of no standards Middle Eastern family or I'm older and there's like a man serious man Liking you with a terrorist face and the conversation is life caught some guy and they're saying well yeah if you had touched my sister in some way you like like a kisser or something like that held her hand that would be one thing but you comparatively grabbed her boob and the her kid in the pool this has become a huge problem and they're gonna be like this guy's the attacker is a mother is there and there's like oh yeah we're not gonna we'll be here we're not gonna flee the country and then there's something about a guy for the run saying how I knew yelled the people of his ethnicity they run all the restaurants along the street and yeah we say that we basically control the whole place

+ business meeting
There's a business meeting dream I'm talking with call like apparently we're in a corridoutside of a meeting room there's a meeting room on one side and then there's an office on the other side and the conversation goes you know what I'm saying what is the CGI no court what is this company there like a problem for us and our business dealings I say I could understand someone like shell or Chevron big oil company I'm gonna understand that I'm not causing a problem but what is the CK what what are they and And I'm in the meeting room looking for a long narrow meeting room filled with the meeting table and people are sitting down on the table I moved to the kind of the far corner of the room away from the entrance door and everyone else has taken their seats all around this table like 14:15 16 people and they all put their bags up on the table and I think like their lunches are in these bags as well and I'm trying to find a spot on that the far corner have a lot of the round overall table because like a Woman on my right and a man on my left and I'm Running to Find the chair and I think how man am I going to have to stand up for the meeting that'll be embarrassing

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I find the couple chairs and I squeezed in the spot at the corner of the table and they're passing around handouts for the a meeting on the table right in front of me are the kind of the note taking tools of the people sitting around me I'm gonna wear several pads of legal you Know small size legal paper and pencils and pencils and things there are 2 handouts going around that are getting passed around there there are no Staples presentations and I get your presentation that I take a pen and I'm recording the topic and the date I think it's like CGI or CGA C and I write these letters and I write the date I don't like you on the month/the day don't remember maybe it's March something I write down In the sort of

final scene of dream is when I'm entering a room it's sort of like a business interview or a business dealing where I'm kind of like a contractor and the guys I'm dealing with are like a snack contract managers of a how's uh uh how's the place where you know companies come to them and they supply the contractors and the Russians I'm coming in and the guy says you're coming come in and extend up against the wall how tall are you and I answer 63 and says well we're gonna say you're 6 too and I say why is that is are the clients scared of tall people and the guy kind of laughs or smiles and his Big Beaver buck Keith and Betty doesn't really answer the question I'm a little annoyed by this and then the question of salary comes up in Israel we can probably get you 98 I think that's low That's very low for me you know I was thinking my head over there and over 200 before and then I say oh well it's the idea that we're going to severely underbid the job and then I'm going to quit you know if to get the client to accept it and then I'm gonna quit because I'm gonna be so dissatisfied with the low salary I said I'd like my lucky gwhile in Virginia in the foreign language and he gives her the smiles and nods but doesn't answer and now he's got a call accessing next to Hermosa as big buck Front teeth like beaver teeth and they're smiling and kind of looking very sly like the other trying to like they know things and they're not telling me and I'm getting annoyed by this Possibly back at the scene where importance of bicycle after going over the logs I'm looking at in the distance at a house I don't know a woman inside the house I'm not sure

1. Volume (LD)
I'm laying in bed and notice that Bran is sitting up next to me. He appears to be voice recording his dreams, yet seems to be sleep talking. This doesn't make sense Nose pinch. I'm lucid. I head from the large bedroom and into the hallway. I see that I'm in Meadow main house. I fly over the balcony and slowly descend to the floor below. I decide to explore the back area as opposed to the front and turn to head through the main hallway. I decide to go for a cat transformation and shrink down. I quickly shrink down and begin running on all fours. I revert to humanoid form head down a bit further, then decide to shrink back down even smaller. I see my field of vision shrink down once again, I begin running on all fours, and hear a can meow come from me as I run into the kitchen. I jump onto the counter top ahead of me next to a what appears to be a slat shaker, then jump back down, reverting to humanoid form. I figure I'll basic summon a chocolate bar before exploring. I turn to the cabinet next to the fridge expecting it to be in the usual spot. I reach inside and quickly find a pristine white Lindt bar. I grab it and walk toward the lounge room. I see mom and dad lounging on the couch and hear the volume to a show turned up. I figure I can use some electronics, but don't hear any music I can adjust. I figure I can just expect it to be playing from the computer. I head closer, hear some coming from the computer, then crank up the volume with the dial. I reflect on how I used to avoid family in lucids, but feel like interacting. I walk around the side, pat dad on the shoulder
"How are you guys doing? Want some?" I ask showing him the chocolate bar. I begin to eat a few bites of the Lind Bar
Dad "That's not yours"
I'm about to explain that it's a dream and it doesn't matter, yet don't know how he'll react. Instead, I just tell him that I bought it. He seems to chill a bit and takes a piece. I then turn and fly through the sliding glass into the back. I consider where to explore, and decide I should teleport. I take another bite and go to mass TK a large tree. It doesn't work on my first attempt however. I fly forward and go to teleport by phasing into ta wall. I wake up.


2. Cherry Ice-Cream (LD)
I become aware as the scene of an outdoor shopping area forms. There's a large three story building with tan walls far in the distance and a couple people walking in front. The scene doesn't feel fully stable yet. Time to engage the dream to stabilize it I rush forward and care to my right, quickly making my way up a large stone staircase. I begin to take flight and soar higher up above the staircase as it turn to the right. I notice a massive structure with purple walls - a mansion of sorts. I consier some dream goals. I should to the teleport for the three step. I'll grab something to eat first. I soar over a set of metal bars to my right, into the area beyond. There's a room set into the side of the structure via an open doorway. I make my way inside and it's seems dingy and deserted - it's essentially an empty concrete room. I expect to find some ice-cream on raise concrete platform in the back of the room. I don't find any there however, yet quickly spot two small appliances that seem to be freezers to the side of the room. I figure I'll find ice-cream inside of one. I open up the one to the right and notice a couple of small Styrofoam dishes with lids. I grab one from the bottom and head back toward the entrance as I take the lid off and scoop some of the frosty ice-cream with my hand. I taste it and it has a mellow cherry flavor to it - it's really good! The dream begins to feel a bit hazy. It's a good time for a teleport. I fly right into the concrete wall to my left, phasing inside. I begin to imagine Haven, yet wake up.

Ambulance brain fart
I was with two people, and they were my friends, I can't remember who they were. One of them got severely injured and we called for an ambulance. Sitting in our vehicle waiting I realized that we were in an ambulance and could just take him to the hospital ourselves. Our injured friend was now in a bucket, and we took him around to the back of the ambulance to see if we could treat him there or something. I had no idea what we were looking at as the ambulance we called for arrived. "How are we going to explain this..."

Mom and Dad's pistachios and debt
*This was a scene from a longer dream and before this point I remember eating some pistachios from an enormous bag*

Walking down the hallway to the kitchen for some more pistachios I notice a bag of Stacy's salt (This is a recurring imaginary product from Stacy's pita chips) I turn it around and see they used shitake mushrooms. "yuck" I put it back down, continuing to walk to the kitchen.



As I arrive in the kitchen I find the pistachios, but there's even more gigantic bags of them and they're a different flavor than the ones I was eating before.



Instead of eating them I started thinking about how expensive this must be.
A cut scene of my mom and dad's bank statements and purchase history started to play. There was a narrator explaining that the reason they were spending so much is because they were going to die soon.

I started wondering how credit card companies deal with this.

Dark YouTube video
I remember seeing many thumbnails of a man wearing a plague doctors mask, I clicked on one of his videos to watch.
The Youtuber started to explain how he captured another Youtuber, the scene cuts to him and the other Youtuber fighting, the plague doctor guy bashes the other guy in the head, knocking him out.
It cuts back to the plague doctor guy and I can now see the other youtuber in the video, suddenly I'm in a first person perspective of the plague doctor guy and I can see him wondering his house looking for a container large enough to hold some type of chemical to dissolve the other Youtuber.
"This is insane, how is this on Youtube." I think
Most of the containers he found are too small or have holes on the bottom of them. He grabs a small container with the intent to dissolve the other youtubers body parts one by one.
"This is torcher, just kill him!" I think as the dream ends.

*The guy I was dreaming about was probably PlagueDocPlays, he does skits where he pretends to be a serial killer sometimes*

*I'm going to bed with the intent to watch a YouTube video in a lucid dream, but it seems to be leaking into my regular dreams. This wasn't too disturbing to me, but this was the first time I had a dream that dark.*

Nether escape
*This is also just a scene from a larger dream, before this point I remember going to the nether and building across a large lava lake.*
I was travelling around the nether with a friend when suddenly we began to levitate.
"There's no way we can make it back to the portal!" my friend said floating to the ceiling of the small cave we were in. I hit the ceiling soon after, I was trying to brainstorm how to get across when it hit me, I could grab the floor and crawl my way down to the bridge I made earlier, and if I can get below the bridge I can use it to stop me from floating all the way up and travel across.
"That will never work!" a disembodied voice shouted, it wasn't from my friend, but it was a third person from outside the game."
Unbothered I continue with the plan and make it all the way down to the bridge I made. I destroy a few blocks, clearing the pathway to the bottom of the bridge when suddenly many of the blocks I'm standing on turn into entities, much like an activated TNT block, allowing lava to flow into them. "I have to hurry." I begin floating under the bridge as fast as I can, it now looks like I'm in a long hallway, lava is to my left and right getting ready to flow but I don't hesitate and continue onward. I see the end of the hallway and there's a water elevator, I get inside the elevator and when I look up the water looks super realistic compared to the blocks, it forms a whirlpool, and it pulls me all the way back up.

*This is a water elevator*


I make it to the top and I'm now in control of the levitation. "I knew it would work" I was telling my friend who was Infront of me now. I began flying up and down in a circle to show off and landed straight on my neck, I was okay and started doing better circles.

Note: It seems that Minecraft is taking over my dreams, maybe it's because I'm writing about them.