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Yesterday morning I had some beautiful moments before waking with being able to watch the dreams forming behind my closed eyes - waves glistened reminding me of Clarity and wisdom with so much space - the description I heard stays with me and this picture was it. As I watched I am filled with wonder

I almost joined it fully ✨

I was special- there was emptiness in me and I needed to fill that emptiness. I had material/ethereal sky-blue glowing cluster of crystal where spirits of my victims(women) were absorbed when my emptiness called for filling, leaving only short time living empty husks behind...I had forces over light and dark. I could use instant transportation from place to place. Healing and telepathy. Matter manipulation, creation and destruction... I was able to see energy flow in things, i was able to see souls...

I worked in circus. The Director of circus was collector of special people. He made as to make performances... He wasn't good man. He was dark with greed. He knew what I'm able to do, what I do to women from time to time, yet he was OK with it. As far as I was staying in circus. Yet I didn't care about that. I didn't care for anything. It was like everything is far below me. I wasn't bad... I was simply unable to care. Everything seemed to be so insignificant... Like we don't care about atoms or molecules... I didn't care about anything... I felt to be above that. The time flew around myself. Things changed, yet my attitude remained the same. Only from time to time I felt the need to fill the emptiness inside of me... the process was simple... I got close to woman when I felt the need and she released her soul, painlessly... then that soul flew to me, but never was able to fill the emptiness, instead it crystallized as another crystal on that cluster of crystals I had.
There were other special people, with some talents... nothing like me. One older woman bleed from eyes every time someone lied nearby... An older man able to levitate himself, was making crazy shows on the rope...

I was in my room changing my clothes- clothes materialized and dematerialized directly on me. I didn't care whether I was naked or not but I knew that it was required for performance. I felt something significant will happen. I saw flashes of visions of radiant soul... glowing... its filaments reaching to me... There was black haired mute woman with me in my room. She was guarding me and especially the glowing cluster of crystals, even if that cluster couldn't be touched or moved by anyone but me. The Director feared to lose me. His circus would be devastated financially without me. How many women was absorbed to crystal to fill my emptiness? It didn't help, I was empty.

I took cluster of crystals and teleported to circus directly onto podium. And I felt her. My emptiness was calling to be filled. My soul reached with its glowing filaments across the void between us. She was young regal woman in white dress visiting circus- she was the right person to fill my emptiness. My emptiness was calling to be filled with her soul light... The director saw the change in me... My glow... My disregard to the performance I had to do. And I knew that he saw, I knew it instantly... director wanted to kill her, fearing I will be lost for him.

I wasn't about to confront the director when he called me, I lied to him to protect that woman special for me. And that older woman working in circus bled from her eyes through the whole time... and she held her hands trying to hide it... ineffectually. The director saw that. I read his thoughts. I needed to save that woman in white. I vanished, and reappeared by her. We were forced to kiss, like two magnets pulled together. Our souls intertwined in glorious harmony... our bodies were connected and controlled by our souls only by thin filaments, but our souls weren't located in our bodies anymore. We became one and yet remained two distinct souls... there was constant interaction making it look like constant movement of light filaments. The cluster of crystals vanished in blinding light show, making trapped spirits free. Director was crazy with hate. I see into your soul director... No more circus for me... no more matter bonds... I vanished together with my soulmate away from material world, to higher plane of existence.

Remarks
Very strange dream... I had to write it, it was pushing my consciousness to do that

I was in school. With my friend and three other dudes we were designated to a contest of some kind, but after sixth hour in school. People were anxious of biology and another subject with a strange and mean teacher. I was writing some test, then that teacher appeared and told everyone to sing.

I was left on some big long empty grass patch, road next to me, I was wondering where I was and how I could get home, I literally started to panic. I seen some signs but they weren't what I was looking for. I was back with everyone else, it seems that I have done something wrong and people are trying to take me away. I know I haven't done anything wrong so my friends tell them I haven't. I seem what at what looks like a party, everything is normal but the party was on a big field of grass. There wasn't alot of people there but I had mg eye on one girl. Next thing I know I'm with her on the grass, she starts giving me a blowjob, I notice how nice it feels. I get up and we start to have nice sexual inter course.

I cannot remember the context of this dream, but I remember its general theme, as well as the feelings I had about the occurrences. In the dream, I was listening to an album I'm quite familiar with; it was probably a Genesis album. Anyway, one great thing about Genesis (At least '70s era Genesis), is that they often had themes within songs that would resurface in slightly different forms on later songs on the same album, either as like a reprise or just something to help give a sense of circular closure to the album. This is one of my favourite things about them; it can make for some really powerful stuff (Just listen to Duke or Trick of the Tail and you'll see what I mean). So, in the dream, my sense of familiarity with whatever songs I was listening to was clear to me. The song began, and of course I'd immediately recognize it and know exactly where it was going. However, what happened in this dream was something surreal, and I can only imagine what it would be like in real life. Basically, a song that I knew well would start, but at some point during the song, a theme from a song from a different album would come about and somehow work with the music. It was ridiculously strange to me, but the weirdest thing about it was that it worked, within the context of the song. Somehow my brain was able to come up with a way of combining two completely unrelated Genesis songs into one, and it made musical sense. However, it was still pretty disturbing to me in the dream. I think it would have made more sense if my dream self just accepted the weird scenario, as often happens in dreams. But I couldn't really accept it. It was surreal to me in the dream, as it would have been in real life. I only wish I could remember the song and how it worked; I now cannot even imagine what it would have been. I've had similar types of dreams before, but usually with film. A film I'd be familiar with would begin, but changes to the plot and characters would occur, which would be unsettling for me. What could these dreams be indicative of? Do they have some sort of meaning? I feel like recurring dreams usually do...

Bed: 23.30
Wake up: 08.20
Now: 08.20

Dealing
I'm at some guy's apartment. He's a drugsdealer and apparently a tad dangerous. My girlfriend is there as well. At some point he calls her a bitch. Not for having done anything wrong; that's just how he refers to all women it seems. I don't like the way he disrespects her. I take one of my soup bowls; white with grey and black flowery decal. I hit him over the head with it and he goes down. I keep smashing him, not sure what with at this point, but I make sure he's dead or else he'll kill me for this.

A bit later someone is at the door. A customer. I open up the door and I try to fake my way through it and start talking more roughly than I normally do. I throw in a 'motherfucker' every other sentence. I also start talking a lot of Surinam [a lot of Dutch slang comes from Surinam]. At some point the guy at the door starts talking about Sergio, an elementary school friend. I've seen him as an adult and he is quite a big guy. He's a few metres away and he's tiny and mentally disabled. I start asking the guy what happened to the motherfucker. He's got an "i know right" kinda attitude. It is something drugs related. I'm not sure what happened next, but shortly after there's another customer. I think at some point we're all in the house. Not sure what happened to the body though. I think I may have made up a horrible excuse. I remember that at the end of the dream the situation has evolved into a gun deal. Ok this is getting way out of hand.


I watched Drugs Inc. on NatGeo about an hour before I went to bed.

Fragments
» I don't remember my surroundings. All I remember is one of my teeth being wobbly. Eventually I break off a piece of it, cause it's annoying the hell out of me. I can already see (don't know how actually) that there's another tooth inside this tooth, like a Russian nesting doll. I consider just removing the whole tooth and be done with it. I'm slightly worried that it might not be a good idea.

» I've taken a train. I'm supposed to get to my mom's city, but I can't get there directly. Instead, I take a detour. I have 2 options and both of them will bring me 2 stops away from my mom's city. Somehow I feel like things are not going my way.

» I'm playing football at first. This changes into korfbal and later into basketball.

» I'm sitting at a round table with my friend's mom and 2 of my friends. We're eating (dinner?).

» I'm just about exiting a subway station. I'm going down an escalator and I see Milad going up the escalator to my left. I think we say hi. After that I'm distracted, I think by my phone. I've been walking for a bit, but not getting anywhere. This escalator is suddenly going up. Wasn't this one going down. Whatever. I hop down a few times and I'm down.

Physical
I'm at what's supposed to be my physical therapist, but the building is vastly different. There's multiple storeys. I go into the basement to go to the toilet, which is way bigger than in reality. There's a row of at least 6 urinals and then there are stalls as well. There's an older man in one of the stalls. I take a urinal somewhere on the left. There's a glass wall so you can see into the garden it seems. There's an oddly shaped pool there. Makes sense I guess. Some people have injuries that require swimming. For some reason I decide to finish up at another urinal all the way to the right. I then have the issue of not knowing which urinals to flush. I decide to just flush em all and then make a run for it, before the older man comes out and identifies me.

Still in the same building. There are signs to public transportation on every floor. So convenient that you can just take the public transport from inside this building. At some point my friend Wina goes down some stairs. A white dude about my age is following her, or perhaps she's already blacked out and he's helping her down the stairs. Either way I know exactly what's going on. I go down the stairs, damn near action hero style and beat the guy up for trying to rape my friend.

Somewhere in this dream my physical therapist tells me I still have an appointment for next week. This confuses me, as I thought this was supposed to be our last session. I already moved out. Now I have to come back specially for this?


Magic
This is a Harry Potter dream it seems. I am Harry, or I am myself and have taken over the importance of Harry. I'm in what seems like the University Library, somewhere near the top floor. I think Dumbledore is also there. He has given me command of a sort of army of students. They are all walking down the stairs. I'm having a bit of fun translocating even for the smallest distances. I'm not aware that I'm dreaming, but I'm aware that I can make anything happen that I want to happen cause I'm a wizard. I make a joke that I should go check out my army, as there are a lot of girls in it. At some point I allow myself to fall flat onto the floor, wanting to translocate at the last second. I fail to do so, but I do manage to float just above the floor so I don't hurt myself.

Something else pops into my mind. I'm not sure if it's a thought. It seems more like a commercial. It's about Harry Potter or some other wizard and going on vacation. It's about him not having to go to the airport early, nor having to stand in line, as he just translocates there. Man that's stupid. Just translocate to your final destination.

I'm outside. It's night out, nearly pitch dark with just about no lights. It looks as if I'm standing on a miniature island shaped exactly like Africa. There's a very dark skinned woman swimming west to east the whole time, despite there being land. She's doing so around the longitude of where Cameroon should be. I go to talk to her. She's swimming around a little buoy or something alike on both sides and then goes back. She's supposed to make this trip perhaps once every X minutes or hours, but she is doing it on an endless loop. Eventually she comes out of the water and walks somewhere. Woow. Quite a big woman. She has a bit of a weepy story. At some point I don't really feel like listening anymore and I somehow sort of delegate this task to the dude that's with me. While walking, I spot two girls in the distance. One is a black girl with glasses that I've met at a language cafe in reality. I can't see any defining traits of the other girl, but I assume that to be the friend who was with her. I look the other way. I'm not feeling conversations right now.

I get a message on my phone. It seems like whatsapp. I'm tasked with babysitting the army right now and someone has gotten themselves into a situation. This person has sent a picture of what seems like 2 barrels near a beer place where they're trapped and there's fire or something like that. I ask the guy that's distracting the 'swimming woman' if he recognises this place. It's just down one of the side streets. That particular street is glowing with green light because there are several beer companies next to each other; at least Grolsch and Heineken. I go over and make a quick entry to the 2 barrels, which I immediately try to extinguish by conjuring up a big amount of water. There's no fire to be extinguished though and no water appears. Still I persist. I try to start with a droplet of water, which appears, and add more and more to it. I've got a little string of water going now. Suddenly it dawns onto me that I should try harder, cause things in dreams only happen if you believe in them. I'm now thinking about whether I should just continue the water or solidify the dream. I choose the latter and try to push my fingers through my hand because that will give me a sensation that the water won't. The RC fails. I know that I'm dreaming though. I just shouldn't let go of it. The dream slowly starts fading. I believe that my hearing starts being influenced by the real world, even though this is not true.

1. I had just left some neighborhood park. It was nighttime and the sky was clear. I had been riding a scooter around the neighborhood park when I realized how late it was. I rode my scooter out of the park and found myself on a random street. All around me there were houses and cars in the driveways of these houses. It was completely silent all in this neighborhood, and everyone seemed to be asleep. I looked above me and saw a relatively bright orange street light, and these were all up and down the street I was on. I looked in front of me and noticed a bright white light. Seconds later I look down at the scooter I am on and realize that there is a flashlight installed into its frame.
Suddenly, two guys on bikes come from around the corner and ride over to me. They stop about 4 or 5 feet in front of me and start talking to me. I don't remember what they said, but I knew I had to be getting home right now. After we talked for a few minutes I looked behind me for some reason. As I did so I saw my bike and longboard just laying on the ground. I went over to them and picked them up, but I had no idea how I was going to bring them, and my scooter all home at the same time. I walk out onto the street and stop for a moment. "Could this be a dream?" I ask myself, "I heavily doubt it, but I'll do a reality check anyways." I counted my fingers, and something was wrong with my hand but I don't remember what. "Holy shit I am dreaming" I said out loud in a neutral voice. I then became lucid.
I hear someone approaching me from my left, and I as look over I see my friend Gigi walking towards me. She is wearing a pink tank top and pink short shorts along with white shoes. "Lets see if I can fly" she says. She then jumps up and starts flying on her stomach very low to the ground. She seemed to be only about 1 or 2 feet into the air. Seconds later she flies into a large open dark green shipping crate and I don't see her again. "Aright, time to check out my flying skills" I say out loud. I then ran and jumped into the air and immediately after that I found myself flying, however, I was flying really low to the ground just as Gigi was. I moved my hands a certain way and this instantly increased my altitude by launching me up into the sky at an extremely immense speed. I could feel the Positive G force acting on my body; it felt as though I was riding a roller coaster that was going straight up. Within seconds I found myself way up into the dark night sky. It was too high for my comfort at the moment so I lowered my altitude.
I remembered my dream plan; I knew what I had to do know. "I have to create a time dilation watch" I said to myself. With that I looked for the nearest house and started flying towards it. The first house I saw was a two story house made of mostly wood that was painted white. It looked like a normal house by all means. As I got up to the house I increased my speed and flew straight through one of its second story windows which caused the window to break. As I got up off of the floor that I had crash landed on inside, I looked around. This room had off-white walls with a thick curly brown carpet and dark brown furnishings everywhere. I remember the room fairly resembled my parents master bedroom in my waking life house.
This led me to believe this was my dads bedroom, but I was still lucid. "Aright, lets find one of dad's watches" I said to myself. I could've easily just manifested a watch or made one appear in the first drawer I opened, but instead I decided to look in all the drawers to find one, and so I did. I went through all of the drawers in one dresser, but found no watches, so I went to another dresser and opened 3 more. On the 3rd drawer I opened up, I found my dads old watch. "This would work, but I want one of his new watches" I said out loud. Just then I did something that caused the dream to destabilize and I woke up. I laid motionless and within seconds entered the exact same dream and am still lucid. I'm now in the same room as before, but I can see through the window I broke through that it is daylight outside now.
I looked behind me and the doors to the room were now open. "It's time to wake up!" I hear a man say from downstairs. I walk out of the bedroom and see a man of indian descent standing in the foyer downstairs. I turn back to go back into the room to find one of my dads new watches, and as I do so I notice that outside of the master bedroom I was in, the entire house closely resembles my waking life house. As I walk back into the room thinking about her(The DC girl I've been trying to find forever). I'm not sure if I saw her or what, but something happened that involved her.

Note: I made huge progress in this dream because I for once focused on creating a time dilation watch. In my next lucid, tonight, I will complete the watch. This has been one of my dream goals for over a year now. This will be the beginning of something huge.

Dreamed Chris Ballew was climbing a face of a mountain with a native of the land. Literally the part that Chris was climbing, was a human face in shape. He got to the top with help while I was seeing from his perspective, then at the top for some reason a tornado and suburban area comes to mind.

7/5/16
Dream 1: I was out on a small yacht in a massive storm, with lightning striking the ocean and waves rearing up to 5 metres tall.

Dream 2: I was training these 3 pet spiders I had found to dance, getting them to do a little shimmy and rewarding them when they got it right.

Fragment: I was in a building in Krokotopia.

Dream 3: I was with a friend on the street, having just bumped into him, when he told me I should stay to meet up with his other friend who I hadn't met before. I was a bit nervous but decided to stay anyway.

Dream 4: I dreamt that I had remembered other dreams and were writing them down. This tricked me into not recalling as much, missing out on like 2 dreams, because I thought I had already written them down lol. I did have a bit of latent awareness that I might have ben dreaming though, but didn't seize the opportunity.

6/5/16
Dream 1: I was sitting on a bench in a garden at university, enjoying the wind and sun.

Dream 2: I was discussing with my brother the different rarities of yugioh cards from the original sets.

5/5/16
Dream 1: I was at the MCG with a friend and we were trying to steal some huge some of money. I got the money from the safe I guess and we started walking quickly to get out of the stadium. An alarm started sounding however and we started running. We almost ran into a team of security guards but hid in a corridor before running down the stairs. We got right to the ticket gates but A guard stopped me and made me go through a scanner. As I went through I knew I was going to get caught so I burst through, pushing over a guard and started sprinting out of the grounds.

Dream 2: I was measuring my spaghetti bridge for uni, making sure it was the right size to fit.

Been having trouble remembering my dreams now that I've started working, when I'm really overtired (I was extremely fatigued all of yesterday) my dreams become more random. They seem to change scenes more often and have more abstract stuff going on that makes little sense, often with characters changing unnoticeably as well.

Dream
I remember having some random conversation with a bird and a snake, and someone else might have been there too. The bird was a bit like a pelican, and the snake wore a skin that changed its appearance. We were conversing about uhh.. Oral sex. I think someone said the pelican has the perfect mouth shape for maximum range to perform oral on the ladies, this didn't seem to make sense until I looked at its face. Its beak was practically in the shape of a vj so I was like 'hmm ok well I guess that makes sense?' (like I said, lots of random shit in dreams where I'm overtired). Eventually the pelican and snake do a sort of 'fusion' technique, the snake is sitting inside the mouth of the pelican without its skin on making him transparent. When the pelican opens its mouth it can unleash its poison attack (literally just a snake in its mouth that bites people, it's not even attached). I think there's the ocean next to us, we're inside a big room though, with a high ceiling. Something happens and now we're facing this huge giant, he reminds me of Groot but he isn't a tree at all. It keeps on growing bigger and bigger, sucking the energy out of this person who we were apparently with the whole time. It's a girl and she has a huge mana source in her, she seals it off with these bracelets to stop the world around her from absorbing her powers (from a story I was reading before bed). The Groot giant stops growing, it's a little late though since he's already like 15 metres tall -.-... We're running around trying not to die, there's something else about a crocodile that was similar to what Archer said: "Gee, I don't know, Cyril. Maybe deep down I'm afraid of any apex predator that lived through the K-T extinction. Physically unchanged for a hundred million years, because it's the perfect killing machine. A half ton of cold-blooded fury, the bite force of 20,000 Newtons, and stomach acid so strong it can dissolve bones and hoofs." I have to run up a hill (that's inside the room we're in) to get away from either the giant or crocodile. There's a lot of dinosaurs around me now, but they're super tiny. I kick one. It shoots off and hits a door on the other side of the room, I think the girl with the mana is hiding in there otherwise the giant will be able to get her mana or something. I'm at the top of the hill and I jump down back to the floor, my friend is in front of the giant now (my friend is a human that I don't recall being here before but was apparently in the story the whole time.. dream logic?). The giant attacks him, *SLAP* *SLAP* oh no! Two slaps to the face, but my friend is fine. I guess it's because the giant is smaller now? He must be running out of magic, my friend seems unphased. At some point the giant chases me, except now it's a skeleton zombie thing that apparently had both of its arms ripped off during the fight with my friend (I don't think he actually did though). He's shambling around dangerously trying to whack me with his head, mouth agape in his undead stupor.

I was in this house with a man I wasn't married too but we had a bunch of kids. The house was all kinds of wrong which is a common thing for me in my dreams. A was tucking a couple of the kids into bed & the room wall all tilted to where there were slanting windows at the foot of their bed. Like they could fall right through the window in the middle of the night. I spent a lot of time in this house & became lucid do to the increasing oddness of this house. I would walk down halls that were like a fun house, all slanted & not normal by any means. Outside didn't seem much better. We were near exaggerated slanting hillsides.... Meesha woke me up first so I kept my eyes mostly closed & gave her some food & peed & went back to bed to try & get back into the dream. I slipped back in pretty easily but now the kids wanted us to get married so we were making preparations for this & my parents came for the wedding. Right after they showed up, my real life husband woke up & it made me realize I needed to pee again. So back I went into the bathroom w/ my eyes only slightly open & managed yet again to get back in. This time the setting for the wedding had changed into a cemetery & the wedding process began, right there in the cemetery. It was all gloomy & weird while we mingled & talked in the cemetery. It was just as if it was a funeral setting not any kind of beverages or food, just milling about & talking. I was still lucid during these dreams & I could also simultaneously tell my husband was awake in our real house because of the sounds. I had to get up at this point because of a previous engagement for today.

I know this is chaining so I guess you'd classify it as a kind of combo of a Deild & Wild which basically means chaining.

Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple

I was subwaying around the city when I found myself at the stop near Arshia's new house. There were a bunch of hughschoolers in the line with me and they all had those little rope bracelets form summer camp, but each one was designed to show off how many times you've had sex. The kids kept asking me why I had no notches, and I said that my school didn't wear those bracelets which made everyone laugh at me. I ditched them and found Arshia's place. There I met Susannah, and I promptly asked her out. She said yes and we passionately kissed before I had to go join Arshia. His house could only be reached by walking aruond the edge of a skyscraper like the scene in the matrix where Neo climbs out on the building. The living room was all grass floor with tall white walls and the whole was was ancient persian tomes restored in brand new covers. There was another room that was like a pearl white gymnasium with a grand piano int the center, and there I found Susannah. We made out again, and then I had to leave as the apocalypse began.

Dream signs:
Arshia
Impossible structures
Susannah
Social awkwardness

Dreamt I had old boss and we were at work, but then something happened and we all had to go down a lift shaft of a building that was a very narrow tower with lift at its centre (had a dream about that before).
We went underground, all that was there was lots of wooden crates. It was weird what were we supposed to do?
We had no work to do. What would our new roles be? It seemed that we were unable to adept to our new situation...