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I've just sort of given up on keeping a dream journal and attempting to lucid dreams but I wish I could get better dream recall like I used to have. So I probably won't write down dreams in here unless they are interesting or I actually remember them, which lately has been about once a month.

...and here is my monthly dream journal entry:
(since my dream recall has gone to shit, my entries are getting smaller and smaller . I did remember this when I woke up but was too lazy to post it till late the next night so all the details are gone)

Someone was after me, maybe trying to kill me, I don't remember. We were isolated in the woods and I was getting scared. Once in awhile I heard voices and other sounds, not knowing exactly knowing where they were coming from. I thought that I might have schizophrenia because I knew this wasn't normal. Anyway, I'm not sure how or why, but I turned the tables on this guy and ended up killing him. It was fairly easy, and afterwards the cops started coming. I wasn't scared of them at all. I was just sitting there, waiting on a patch of grass in the woods. I think I might have killed more than one person in this time. As the cops were on the way, I thought to myself that if they find out I killed these men then I would probably plead insanity in court because I was schizophrenic.

In another dream I was climbing down from this really tall mountain. There was a base camp at the bottom and a group of people watching to make sure everyone was getting down safe. They told us to be careful because the rapid altitude change could make us dizzy and disoriented. I made it almost to the bottom where this helper lady was standing and asked if I was okay. I said I was fine, but then started leaning forward off the face of another cliff. I couldn't control it and felt dizzy. I tried my hardest to keep my balance and I think I got it.. but then passed out again when I was back at the base camp because I'm a loser like that.

In another fragment, I was drowning in a pool, then I turned into the person saving another person drowning, but then the person drowning turned into a doll, which I brought to the surface and pushed on it's chest until water came out, "saving" its life.

I had a few dreams last night but I don't remember all of them, but one dream which was quite awfull does stand out to me.
I was with other people, we were just hanging out, my hubby was about in my dream but not directly with me. There was a girl, a horrible scary girl, this girl had a grey complection, black messy hair and wide brown eyes, she was attacking people, I knew this because I had been told. We are trying to avoid her but we come across her so I run and hide. ((dream skip)) I am now back with my friends, I go off on my own and I am walking through a hallway, next thing I know she is here, right infront of me then BAMMMM!!! She has hit me in the head with an axe, my god the pain is horrific. She is hitting me again and again, I am thinking to myself "I won't die because it's only a dream so it doesn't matter what she does" She has again hit me one last time and I fall to the floor. I can see blood everywhere, I put my hand to my head and feel a gaping wound I'm thinking "Ohh shit I'm dying, I need help" I can see a group of people that notice me and they come over, I feel dizzy and sick and i'm asking them to help, a woman is picking me up ((dream skip)) I am at the hospital and someone is looking at my head, my head is feeling very, very swollen and fat and also very heavy. I am holding a mirror and trying to take a look at myself, I can see the bottom of my face and it looks HUGE It is also very swollen. It is only a small circular mirror so i can't actually see all my face and head but, what I can see is scaring me. I'm feeling very faint again, I'm gripping onto something trying to hold myself up but i collapse onto the floor. I'm now unconcious but in my head i'm thinking "Just pretend to be unconcious because i'm meant to be" lol ((it's as if i was going along with the dream plot because i knew that was the plan for my dream)) People come and get me and put me on a bed. I'm now awake and my hubby is sitting beside me, I can hear him say "will she live" . I get scared again and i'm trying to speak but i'm feeling very groggy and just end up mumbling to him. A doctor comes and I hear him tell my hubby that he needs to put a drain on my brain to relieve the pressure, at that poing I really do shit myself but think "well if they have to, then they have to" ((dream skip)) I am now up and I am walking around. I have a large white bandage wrapped around my head and I have a tube coming from it, this tube has blood in it so I know that it's draining the excess blood and fluid from my brain. I can also see air bubbles in the tube. ((I see myself in 3rd person thats how I know what I look like))

I remember a few details about a dream I had before this about being roomates in college with my friend(will be doing this in RL in just a few months!) and we checked into our dorm but it was haunted and I kept freaking out as my friend was just sitting there like nothing was wrong. I kept hearing noises, like the door slamming shut and floor creeking and I would curl up in a ball in my bed when my friend and sister would leave me alone. I just remember that it was really really scary!

I was in school and it was about halfway through the day and I really wanted to get out of there, I think because I was just bored and wanted to go home. So I was standing at the back of the hallway where my locker is, holding my books and some loose change, and decided to just sort of.. fall over and faint. I dropped my books, trying not to think about all the people staring at me, and listening to the coins drop on the floor as I fell. I think my passing out was half real and half faked because I blacked out on the ground and woke up a few minutes later. Everyone had gone to their classes, and I found it weird that no one had stopped to watch or help me, except for one of my old teachers, Mr. Belan. He was the only one to come and he came walking down the hall with a wheelchair saying "Sorry it took me so long." 'Wow I don't think anyone cares that I'm laying on the ground barely awake right now..' I thought, slowly opening my eyes and trying to regain focus. He wheeled over to me and I was barely able to stumble up and sit in the chair. I don't know if he told me that someone told my parents or if I just assumed someone told them, but I was really afraid of them coming to the school to pick me up because I felt embarrassed. Mr. Belan wheeled me to my car, but as we went outside the scenery changed and we were in the beautiful mountains of St. Everest. But everything still seemed normal to me so he just kept wheeling me to my car(which seemed like I had been there in a previous dream and left that car there) and when I got there I realized that I had to tell him the truth, that I had faked(sort of) my fainting to get out of school. I slowly fished for socks in my car(no idea why) then turned to him and realized I was dreaming. (It took awhile for me to grasp the fact that this wasn't real and for a second or two I actually tried to wake myself up because I wanted to get out of there, but that failed and I realized this is a dream and I can do what I want) Wanting to get away, I told him "I just want to fly away," then turned to the face of a cliff of one of the mountains we were on to jump off, but instead I turned back to him and told him everything. I wanted to see what would happen, I guess. He got angry at me then started to run away from me down the small mountains. I was easily able to catch up with him though, as I took giant leaps and floated down each mountain. It was quite fun. Anyways, I finally caught up to him and he agreed to have a meeting with me to discuss what just happened. We went to this city and went in this white, old, run down, small building with only one room which contained an old rusty cheap table. As soon as we entered, I saw this strange character. It is hard to describe.. it looked like the cave dweller I had been drawing in real life(don't ask why..). Half human, standing tall, yet a dark green color with long ears down to it's shoulders. For some reason, I recalled seeing it in another dream and becoming good friends with it(though I don't think I ever really dreamt about this thing before as I think about it now) So I went over to greet it and then woke up.

I drew a picture of the creature just for fun

I start out driving around in my old neighborhood that I grew up in. I am alone, but I am supposed to be a stranger's car. The neighborhood likes weird, such as streets that are too small and doors in strange areas.


Next thing I know I am at work when my boss's sister, who looks like a darkerskinned version of my boss, comes in asking for me to fill a larger white container with flux. I go to the machine room and find an old ex of mine working back there. She gives me what I think is a container of flux but instead alcohol comes out of it, turning the flux into a thick, jello-like substance. We get nervous, but eventually I go to my boss for help.

She comes to the machine room with us and my ex begins to explain what happened, completely lying. I break in and tell the truth, and my boss leaves the room, going outside. I follow her and she tells me she is happy that I told the truth, and has me follow her into the building, but we end up in a parking garage that doesn't exist in real life. She tells me to look at the beautiful artwork on the ceiling, but I don't see anything and just pretend to admire it while she reads me a poem that's suppose to be there.

Soon after I hear someone scream, and my boss and I run to see what's happening. I find my ex standing over her unconscious friend, who is another co-worker. I kneel down and try to get her up, but my ex does and she wakes up. The girl gets up saying she is ok, but keeps slouching and can't walk straight. I help her walk but she keeps fainting, so I eventually I carry her to an infirmiry that doesn't really exist.

Inside I find 2 men. One is playing with a basketball while laying on a couch and the other is at a desk. I lay the girl down on a cot but at this point she turned into a boy. They ask me to check if he/she is dehydrated in a very indifferent manner. I do so by touching their hand. I tell them no and I wake up.