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Dream last night was about putting eight babies to sleep in one large bed. They were all snuggly wrapped up in a blanket. The babies' vary in sizes but all of them were infants. I gently laid each baby on the bed and put them to sleep. One particular baby caught my attention though. She was the tiniest baby and was wrapped in a pink blanket. When I held her in my arms she gave me the sweetest smile. I kissed her on the forehead and lay her on the bed along with the others to sleep. I remember guarding these babies while they were sleeping. I even looked at the wall clock. Time says 4:40

This morning I awoke still not remembering anything. Last night I was not as focused and had dramatically less effort was given. I felt the night before I was too focused and too excited I was not able to sleep. I was not surprised when I did not remember anything. This morning however. I haven't really fallen to sleep at any reasonable hours. After smoking marijuana several times a day this may also affect my ability to remember my dreams. We will find out. Also I plan on not sleeping until after my class tomorrow morning (14 May 2012). Also I have been taking vyvanse.

Notes:

-An alarm or sudden wakening may help to remember dreams.

-Television on have any affect on dreams? (haven't left on yet)

-Maybe fall asleep at a normal time. (have been around 4-6AM)

-Nap may increase chances of lucidity.

-Wake up early, after an hour go back to sleep.

-Start writing in dream journal right after awakening.

I figure posting this other entry of mine will give me motivation to REALLY find her and figure out if she can be my dream guide or not, AND to find what was inside of the letter.

And again, forgive how I was all lovey dovey with her.....I was really really really REALLY desperate to find my dream guide, like....REALLY DESPERATE.

This was probably before I made some friends here on DV, I think I was one of those people who only made DJ entries, and didn't really go into the off-topic section on Dreamviews

I was alone, so you can clearly see how desperate I was

Even now, I'm laughing at this a little bit. I did way better back then than I am now.

Here's the link, lol.

http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/link...t-my-dg-27260/

Sorry if this second post of an older entry annoys any of you, just making sure how things were set out, and hopefully, I'll incubate the same environment below when I almost found her.



Dream 3:

I believe I’m inside of some mini Asian house, it was temple looking like. It’s overall color was brown.



I was inside my bedroom in my apartment though, so the room was basically attached to inside the Asian mini-temple. This girl named Angie that I knew in real life was trying to tell me something.

I can’t remember what she said, but she was complaining about something, so I decided to record what she said with my voice recorder I had in real life. After she was done talking, I told her “Thank you Angie for letting me record what you said.”

I believe I did a RC to see if I was dreaming, but I knew I was dreaming. Instead of just running around like crazy whenever I get the chance to become lucid. I thought to myself “Okay, it’s time to meet my dream guide…I’m tired of this!”



I walk outside of the Asian room, and went into another one. I screamed out “EVA! I know you’re here somewhere!” As I go deeper into the other room, I turn left to another path, and I see an arm pass by quickly, and I could tell it was a person wearing a jacket, just like how EVA wore her outfit in Metal Gear Solid 3





(If by now you don’t know who I’m trying to find, I’m trying to find EVA from Metal Gear Solid 3, since I met her in a dream once, I’ve been fascinated in making her my dream guide, or at least, that’s what I want my actual dream guide to alter their form in).

I started to chase where she was going, and I’m going through various rooms, and every time I turn my head to go to another area, I kept augmenting my confidence that I will see her! But I just kept seeing parts of her body dash to more rooms. I can’t remember much after that though.



I you EVA! :3

Im in a govt agenty complex. Im on a bike and a yellow bus is chasing me,I have a gun in my hand 9mm i think. I fire at the bus one go's threw the windsheild in front of the driver and the other hits the left front tire and the bus.The bus rolls off to the side of the road.The drivers dead When i fired the gun. I cant feel my hand like its asleep so i cant feel my self shoot i cinda worry about that.I ride the bike right in to the building side entrance and run right into a lot of guards. I jump up into the air as the bike continues on and crashes into the guards. Whiel im in the air i fire off my my pistols i have too 9mm in my hand now i take out all the guards before i hit the ground,except on as i walk past a surviving guard on the ground he says DONT KILL ME--- I cut him off with a bullet to the head.The guards are in all black with black motorcycle helmets on visers down. As i walk down the hallway i become LUCID. I dont do a reality check i can just feel my real body in bed.I turn right down a hallway then go left instead when i look behind me i imagine it a dead in now and it is. I go into a door on my left and run into a guard in the doorway he has a gun like off the game army of too. I take his gun quicky and shoot him up i feel completely calm and invincible.I lose lucidity and have a last image of being completely surrounded by guards i go third person and see the leader smirking at me

I realized that I was in a dream around my office building area. I started to walk towards this building the wind seemed to blow me in all directions. I managed to make it inside the office building I felt that the dream was starting to fade so I began to use all of my sense to stablized the dream. I read something this morning about crawling on the ground and I tried it and it seemed to work quite well. Then I decided to practice mahayoga a buddhist tantra. Then I started to feel a overwhelming sense of compassion to the point were I almost cried. I started to walk up these stairs along with alot of people. The room we walked into was pure white like the color of chenrezik. I knew the color of the room meant the I made direct contact with chenrezik. The room felt very very pure and light. I sat down on the ground to practice meditation and it seemed that all these people around me just watched me quitely like they were waiting for me to transform. I started to meditate on the instructions. Then I my experience started to scare me. Then I woke up in my room but it was still a dream even tho I thought I woke up. My girlfriend was laying on the cough we went outside to talk about my dream experience. I tried to tell her what happened in my meditation and she said wow that sounds crazy. I told her I felt like I was gone and beyond time and space. I felt scared as if it was to much to handle. Then there was me outside and talking to my girlfriend and I thought I am still in a dream. Then a really woke up self up.

My dad was driving me to school. I kept urging him to go faster. We were already late but he said he was hungry. So he pulled into a McDonlads drive though and ordered some mcnuggets or something. They gave him his food and he ate it really fast.
I told him that he had his food and he needed to get me to school or I was going to be late. But right when I thought we were going to leave he drove around and went though it again, ordered more food and ate it.
After he did this a couple times, He told me that I didn't have to go to school he was taking me to see some artist guy that he knew when he was younger or something. He started driving, and soon we arrived at this house.
It looked sort of like Falling Water but was really big and had a huge porch with this big party going on. I'm quite sure several other family members of mine were there.
Then someone introduced me to a dream character that I remember vividly. He had black hair, thick square glasses, pale skin, and was probably around 20-ish.
He was very smart and happy and someone told me that he was an artist who owned this estate and wanted to throw this party.
For awhile, me and him just sort of talked about life. I told him that I was practicing to be an artist just like him.

This dream does reveal that I am a huge art nerd. I draw comic strips, write stories, paint, etc.

Also, I am really looking forward to getting my drivers license in a few months. I am tired of these anxiety dreams. Then again, I'll probably still have them, I'll just be the one making myself late.

4/26 Fragments:
Something about being in war with the Nazis. Robots were involved. I had a discussion with a sentient robot about war and the civilians that died. Then I had to prove to some lady that I was engaged.
Note: I didn't sleep well, so my recall was terrible.

4/27 Fragments:
I was at my grandparents house with a bunch of my friends. I found a friend of mine to chat with, N. I took N by the hand and tried to find a private place for us to talk. I wanted to explain to N that I was very fond of flirting, and that I didn't mean to lead her on. The entire house and hard was swarmed with people, so I gave up on talking privately. I apologized to N twice without explaining why I was apologizing. Then I ignored N to play with another friend's hair.

I was in class, and I realized that my final grade was 43%. I was informed that I could redo an essay to bring my grade up. I tried to calculate how my final grade would be affected by rewriting the essay, but found it impossible to do the math in my head.

4/28 Fragments:
My grandparents were dead, yet I could see their spirits. My sister and I stood in my grandparents' house, and my grandmother was standing by us. My grandfather was giving my family gifts to remember him by, and my sister was getting the house.

My sister and I walked to a park, then went out to dinner with our father. My grandfather followed us, but I was the only one who could see him. My father wandered off in a trance, and began eating an invisible object. He was eating one of my grandmom's cookies, apparently his gift from my grandfather. Shortly after, my grandfather approached me and informed me that he didn't know what to give me, so I would not receive a gift. I sulked for the rest of the dream and thought about gifts I would have enjoyed.

4/29 Settlers of Lion King Catan:
I purchased a couple of birthday presents for my friend E, namely a game that was a mix between the Lion King and Settlers of Catan. E opened the game for us to play, and suddenly my vision was sucked into the game.
In Lion King Catan, a small hippo decides how to gain access to the throne. His father is king, but the king is dying. Someone else, C, is vying for the throne though, and is much more experienced than the year-old hippo. I have no idea what sort of animal C is. C bribed someone to have the ailing king brought out before the hippo. The king was a fish, and looked pale and lifeless. C took out a knife and cut open the fish king along his spine. C spread open the fish king, and began scraping out the meat inside the king fish. C ate the meat he carved out, the king fish still alive. The king slowly died an agonizing death. The hippo was too traumatized and frightened to lash out at C.

4/30 Heavy Rain and more war:
This dream reminded me of the game Heavy Rain because of the colors and scenes. The beginning of the dream was pretty fragmenty, with people running around a dark building trying to not die.

The next part I was in a class. I was waiting for a professor so I could take the final exam. The professor entered the room and announced that the test was cancelled, we were being taken to become soldiers for the war. We suited up and were driven out to a battle field, watching the destruction pass by as we approached the action. The truck arrived at the center of the battlefield, and I was handed a metal detector and flamethrower. We were given metal detectors so that when we ran out of fuel for our flame thrower, we could search for more fuel cylinders or a new weapon among the dead in the field. I swiped two extra fuel cylinders, and walked into battle.

i was in a class room with other people and a friend of mine i dont know who he was i just knew he was my friend. The room was full of photos o the wall and next to me was 4 cameras my friends said pic on up and look through the lens i did and everything beacame more clear. Then i saw him in another chair and he said take a picture then i woke up. Does anyone have an idea what this dream means or represents if you do please tell me.

This isn't really a dream but...

I've posted in the rant thread twice already. I feel whiny today.

I had a dream the other night about a friend of mine from a few years ago. We became good friends the first day we met and slowly but surely went our own ways and I guess I'm really sad about it. Like, really sad.

She ended up getting into coke with some other girl we worked with and she knew I wasn't a fan of her habit. I was worried, you know. I feel like since then she cut me off, especially when she became pregnant.

Anyway, on occasion we run into eachother. Probably twice a year it feels like. Usually I say something like hey, how are you, but she usually acts like she just ran into somebody she didn't want to see.

I don't understand why. I loved her (in a very good friend way). It breaks my heart to know that I will never get to hang out with her again.

Today, I walked right past her on my way out of the store. I don't know if she saw me, but I kept my head down because I just sensed that she didn't want to make small talk or get back in touch. Just a feeling I got.

I feel really sad about it.

I don't have any friends like that anymore. I guess it just made me think of how lonely I am....