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I guess i should be even more strict with the time i fall asleep at.

I was playing some video game, and there was also something AI War related, but can't recall what exactly.

Nothing too special.

Had a dream where there was a guy who looked like Dan from the cartoon "Dan Vs." but in real life. He even had the same voice as Curtis Armstrong. Anyway, this guy had to borrow money from the mob. But because he had to borrow money from the mob he performed as a clown to make the money back. However, other mobsters dressed up as clowns and always foiled his attempts to make money. The main mobster who did this was a very short man in a clown costume with a round belly. Finally, Dan considered skipping town but the mob found out and he ended up not doing it. On the day the money was due Dan brought a suitcase with some money in it to a school auditorium. He gave it to the leader, but it wasn't enough. He tied up Dan to a pole in a crucifix-like manner, and all the mobsters beat on him. Some with fist and some with blunt weapons. They broke his ribs, teeth, fingers, and had blood all over his head. then they force feed him McDonald's food (I dislike McD's and also am on a diet) so Dan was actually crying when they were stuffing food down his throat. There was fear of a heart attack and weight gain more than anything. Finally, he was in the doggy style position on a plywood table on the stage. The mobsters watched him as he was forced to stay in this uncomfortable position for several hours, the stage lights glowing on him. Finally, the leader told him to get off, and as he struggled to get down someone kicked him in the gut and he rolled over on the ground. The mobsters told him not to make the same mistake again, and they left him on the floor. A minute later, he got up and went home.

Charis my fiancée has been looking for jobs recently, which I assume spurred this dream on.

I was speaking to a friend named Beadle in the dream, I think in what looked like a department store/food department in a college. He was in front of me, I was on his right and he was up against the wall with what seemed like a thin desk with his laptop on. He works at Bedell Cristin and I think I was asking him about job opportunities there and what it's like to work for them.

For some reason, at the time I can remember him being on a laptop posting a comment or a status directed at Steve Chayni, a college tutor of ours (both left college now though) in response to a status he had posted 'dissing' Bedell. When typing out the comment or status, he tried to utilise the auto-predict however it failed and instead of writing Bedell, it stayed as "Beadle's" which still made no sense anyhow as how was that meant to translate to Bedell? This took place on either twitter or Facebook.

Carrying on, I believe we were talking in a job manor about work for Charis. Walking over to a circular table, in the same room I believe, we were discussing education for her, particularly IT and culinary arts I think. At the table, I removed a knife from the cutlery holder in the centre and put it on the table (I can remember this being somehow linked to the fact that I wanted her to do cooking - she's a good cook in life so this is where this all ties in). However, after that, I think I remember removing the knife or putting it away, either believing the knifes presence, or me wanting her to do a cooking course would come across either as insulting or sexist.

That's all I remember - had only slept about 2 - 3 hours (it was a nap from about 17:00 to 19:45, therefore got into REM sleep very quickly and I guess as a result of it being so early on in REM, the dream was both short and very vague (my vividness and re-call is something I'm working on currently anyway).

Fragments in my head: Kayleigh I vaguely remember being referred to in the dream somewhere (friend of ours). Blaize too (friend of mine). Both in the context of jobs as they both have jobs and we don't think they deserve them.

Times: 17:20 stated sleep. 19:45 woke up and re-called.

I was sitting at a table in Nicaragua on a mission trip with my church. we were all talking and socializing and having a good time. so a friend brought up the topic of lucid dreaming. I said "Yeah I can never tell when im dreaming in a dream. Ive been trying for years." Then my friend says (picking up his water bottle) "The way I can tell if im dreaming is when I throw the bottle away from me, it will come right back." So he throws it and it just acts normally as it would in RL.

nearly a dreamless night - luckily i barely pulled these back before getting up
sleep 1230/1am
wake 1030am

Watching a language learning show for children. It used a little dog and some other animals. The longer it went on the more cartoony it was. I was trying to guess a color in one exercise. a different one was flashing through different images of rain and other weather. I was supposed to pick one that was a certain level of wet. Instead I was trying to match the color of the overall picture to a word. The end of the show had the dog playing around pretending to pee on stuff (along with another dog). Then he pulled a bit of ground/grass over himself like a blanket and went to sleep.

The government was after me for something - big brother dystopian government. There was a tracker jacker chasing me. We found out that this specific type of bird food threw their tracking ability off. Some guy in an outdoor class had some and was feeding it to birds in a feeder. After that, I always carried a little bit of the food around to keep the trackers off of me. I was in a bathroom one time with them outside it waiting for me to come out. Someone distracted them long enough for me to get away. They sent a boy after me - made me fall for him and used him against me. They had injected me with something that weakened my will - I was very pliable and prone to weeping after that. They boy I was in love with helped them take me captive. I believe he loved me too, but truly felt he was doing what was in my best interest by taking me captive. They used a boat to take me away from my old life and into their captivity area. I was simply depressed after this. Deep depression - the kind where everything means nothing - don't care enough to do anything. Was mostly naked in a common area - getting to my cloths in a locker of some sort. didn't care though.

Indoors basement like area in a huge complex building. some guys were playing video games in a common room. Maybe guitar hero.

One of the last dreams I had this day started with me watching a documentary of a man in his 20s who resembled the cartoon character Shaggy from Scooby Doo; Prior to this, I'd seen a photograph of a man who did resemble Shaggy but I don't think it was him who I saw in the dream. He in the dream was wearing a red shirt, I think, And a black coat and perhaps blue jeans. He may have had a cap, Too.

It started with him talking about something while sitting down. Then, I didn't realize it but it was as if I was seeing from his perspective or a perspective closer to him as he sat at a small round table in a restaurant with a man who I think was a bookie. The bookie said something like "So you're betting all this money on a candy bar? I like that."

Fast forward to a part with a shopkeeper at a counter. I first saw large wrapped candy bars coming out of a box with a hole cut out in the front and most of the candy bars were of the common variety but there was one particular bar that was different. But, It wasn't the one that the store owner wanted; From what I'd gathered, There was something akin to the golden tickets in Charlie And The Chocolate Factory seven years prior to the man getting the bars and some cases had a rare box of candy. Suffice to say, There were also some other cases with a more common variety which is what the store owner got. After this, The store owner commented on the matter and said "I don't get it." Thus, I knew he wasn't going to be paid. He then didn't say anything but he shrunk (Not literally) from the conversation and left the store.

Then once he left the store, Four short-haired blond men who were quadruplets beat him up badly on the ground. I think one of them was dressed as a medical officer of some kind; He was dressed in white. A police officer resembling a British one from the early 1900s was nearby and tried beating on at least one of the quadruplets with a cymbal or a small cymbal, I think, And he may have knocked that one out for a bit but then he himself was knocked out at some point, I think by what he tried to use to knock people out with.

Then once the men were done beating "Shaggy" Up, One of them said something about going to another part of town.

At some point here I know I was crying over the matter.

Then, I saw "Shaggy" in a hospital elevator in a sloped stretcher. Shortly after, He was moved out of the elevator. I may have seen another person in a stretcher and I woke shortly after that.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

I am walking a path up a hill, alongside others. Around us, on the hill, are scattered buildings. I am a visitor and they are students there.
I become semi-lucid when I look at the sky and realize how unreal it looks. The colour is super sharp, the clouds are moving too fast and there's something just mesmerizing about all that. The realization of the dream nature of things plunges me into a state of profound melancholy, bliss and hypnosis. The girl walking by my side says "Oh my god, you look like you are in love!". What??? No, she got it wrong. What I am is hopeless of ever being in love. What I am is ready to let go, because there's nothing holding me back. No hope, no illusions. And I remember Morpheus' quote "You have the look of a man who accepts what he sees because he is expecting to wake up." That's what I am. She doesn't understand.
Anyway, further ahead I see a tree and from the tree top falls a guy who is burning in flames. When he is contorting on the floor, I notice he is a buddhist monk on red and yellow robes. I scream to my friends to go and help him, while I run to one of the buildings to call 911. I find a reception where I make the call, but then I feel I should have helped to stop the fire instead, so I run to the tree again. My friends are there looking puzzled and there's no sign of a burning man anywhere. Instead, there's a couple of westerners, a guy and a girl, sitting under the tree, although they are also wearing the buddhist monastic robes. My friends say I allucinated and go away. The monk boy befriends me. He wants to know what I saw. Then I ask if I could possibly be seing him in the future, but he assures me he would not ever self-immolate. Although he feels just like me, ready to let go, he would not waste this life. He chose to be a very, very sad monk. We feel complete empathy for each other. We hold hands very strongly. I feel his warmth becoming mine. For some reason his hands are incredibly dirty and greasy, but I don't feel disgusted. We just can't let go of each other anymore.

Total sleep time: 9 hrs

Prebed: 1 glass of soy milk

Special HI: somewhere between a few mins-to about half an hour after falling asleep, I wake up as I sometimes do and stare in the dark, seeing a grid of hexagons that is everywhere. I get special HI maybe once a week or every two weeks always when emerging from deep sleep and whatever I am seeing is always imposed on the room. It mostly has to do with the fabric of space.

Dream1: I am looking at the lower part of a door and break it up a bit so that whatever is behind is slightly visible, initially it looks like a corridor with other doors. As I pass through it, I find myself on the roof of our old home, or something similar. I enjoy the view, but it is rather high and I almost fall over the edge. The roof platform is supported by a thin wooden beam which moves as I am there, the roof is not very stable. I try to fix it, the beam is actually the foot of the bed? A friend of mine comes and I ask him for help. While he is too heavy to accompany me on the roof, he can at least hold my legs so that if I lose balance, he will catch me.

Fragment2: My mom is making promises she cannot and in my opinion should not keep. She is also financially supporting her best friend who now expects me to deliver some toothpaste to them. I go looking for this special toothpaste, but I can't find the particular color that they want.

PRIMUL VIS(LUCID):Am facut metoda FILD si am reusit iar cand m-am trezit din pat am facut un RC (cel cu nasul) Iar am reusit sa respir.(Cand am facut RCUL era foarte vivid visul) Apoi am zis:Hey,timpul sa fac chestiile pentru vis.Apoi mi-am frecat mainile si m-am invartit .Apoi am incercat sa fac ziua afara dar nu am putut,asa ca am incercat sa fac sa apara ciocolata (a aparut o ciocolata MILKA de caramel(sau portocale).Apoi am tot mancat si m-am saturat sa mananc ciocolata mi-am zis ca vreau ceva mai sarat asa ca am incercat sa fac sa apara o punga de chipsuri(lays cu sare) am incercat de mai multe ori pana am reusit .Dupa aceea am visat ca am stat cu mami in pat si am vorbit cu ea despre Astral Projection si FILD si lucid dreaming si de toate.
Al doilea vis:Am visat ca m-am dus in baie si faceam video chat cu o fata de pe facebook: (CARLA DIANA BODEA,sau ceva de genul) iar eu mi-am spalat bretonul(era pe marginea cadei un sampon foarte mare cu un ambalaj colorat si aveam ca si la sapunul lichid capacul.Iar eu am incercat sa il iau dar il gandul meu era: Hey,oare ce o sa zica fata cand o sa imi spal bretonu cu un sampon asa ieftin? iar ei i-am zis ca ma spal cu acel sampon pentru ca nu vreau sa il consum pe al meu)Iar dupaia nu stiu ce i-am spus ca vreau sa fac sh nu am mai facut video chat.Apoi m-am dus pe hol(creca mi-am uscat bretonul nu stiu sigur) si am vrut sa ma dau cu placa,placa mea de obicei are 185 de grade dar de data asta nu se putea da mai tare de 60 de grade(ma gandeam : Ce naiba,placa mea are mai multe grade) iar atunci am primit un super self-awareness in vis dar pana la urma nu stiu ce am facut si mi-am zis OO daa asta era problema.
Al treilea vis:am visat ca am fost pe banca in fata blocului si erau niste baieti(erau cu bicicletele.) iar nu stiu ce tot facea CARLA DIANA BODEA(pe banca din dreapta)(bancile erau foarte apropiate)(era imbracata in niste pantaloni negri spre gri si un tricoul alb) iar langa mine era un baiat cu un tricou negru si cu niste pantaloni gri(creca baiatul era inalt) si nu stiu ce tot ii spunea lui CARLA si apoi mi-a spus el:Ce fraiera.(apoi m-a apucat un sentiment :El o uraste pe ea.Creca ma place)
Al patrulea vis:Treceam cu mami pe langa perete(acolo langa banca de pe motorului(margelanului) (simteam ca mergeam la ora de ed fizica) iar eu glumeam si radeam cu mami iar cand am trecut de aia nu stiu cum am aparut sub podul de pe strada(cel de acolo de langa saormarie unde a lucrat gabi serban)(inainte sa ajungem acolo m-am uitat pe mana daca am elastic sa imi prind parul si nu aveam iar apoi am gasit unul rupt pe jos si nu l-am luat iar mami a gasit altul bun si l-a luat de sus(pe langa ala bun mai erau si altele de culoare galben(nu toate))iar ea mi la dat si eram ceva de genu:Serios de pe jos?Si eu radeam si ea nu zicea nimica era poker face.(in timpul ala seba si cu bunica lui treceau (seba avea in cap palaria lui verde si el se tot uita la mine si eu am observat asta doar ca m-am uitat la mami si radeam ceva mai ciudat(dar frumos) . Iar apoi M-am trezit. (Inainte sa ma culc i-am spus la mami sa ma trezeasca la sase iar creca am visat ca m-a trezit mami la 6 pentru ca mi s-a intamplat de 2 ori)

ok before I start off with this DJ, I'm going to tell you that I'm taking an anti-depressant called Remeron, but apparently it's more of an anti-histamine than an anti depressant but one thing I realized while on it (and I'm not the only one) is that my dreams seem much more vivid and they are not like regular dreams where it's full of incoherent images, no these dreams are like full on movies at times. anyways

in this dream I'm partly watching a movie and I'm partly taking part in what's happening. ok basically while the dream is going on, my dream self is believed to be watching battle star galactica (no episode of BSG was this intense I must say) apparently in this dream, the backround story was that 33 years ago aliens from a far away galaxy invading earth for some reason, humans won the fight and now are on a voyage to collect information on the aliens to help prevent and get prepared for any future conflicts with the aliens. Now the humans are using the aliens technology who were far more advanced than the humans at the time of the first war and are now fighting smaller units of aliens along the way collecting as much information they can find about the origin of the aliens and the technology they possess. the battle has now taken place far away from earth. ok to be honest I'm not exactly sure how relatable it is with the details I'm about to explain but I remember making that detail in my head during the dream well anyways

A fleet of galactic ships have surrounded this (I forgot the name that was used in the dream so I'm just going to call it) artificial power cell star that is absorbing energy from a near by wormhole that we are apparently going to go through. We landed on the base of the star and one of the character explained that whatever energy the star held was energy that could not be contained artificially, so they had to use natural means of containing it then he exclaimed the power cell they contained charged right away as soon as it got there. The collection of ships we were on looked like giant versions of the ship in the video game called descent, only their were 4 giant rings at the top end of the ship which I suppose were jump engines. many of the characters in this dream reminded me of the characters from A secret life of an American teenager but I'm not exactly sure.

anyways A black hole had appeared on the out skirts of where the fleet were, and one of the guys were telling us to move to the extraction point. People soldiers and civilians alike were panicking and trying to get off the ship. the female who I think were the Christian mother and daughter from a secret life of an American teenager were trying to get to where the rest of the guys were but they were blocked from all the civilians trying to get onto this one pod. They had some object I think they needed in order to jump or go through the wormhole, (not exactly sure what was going on since I only remember a portion of it). at first the woman tried telling them what they needed to do to get out but they wouldn't listen and just kept panicking trying to get on this one pod. the woman said alright and then pointed a gun at the civilians so she could get through, I'm not exactly sure if this happened or not because my recollection of this dream is a bit foggy, but I think she shot the gun at the ceiling in order to scare away the people covering the passage way. anyways time was cutting close and one of the ships found itself lost in the black hole and then our ship was next. after the woman cleared the path to the pod which the civilians were covering and trying to get in, her and another girl got in and transported to another part of the ship. when they got their more civilians were trying to get on the exit pod but the soldiers already on only allowed the woman and the girl on for some reason I forgot. after that they transported off the ship before it drifted in the black hole.

Now the woman and the girl reunite with the other characters and they are about to take their ship through a wormhole. at this part I think this is where they enter the artificial power cell star where the one guy mentions how whatever energy the star was holding was unable to be contained through artificial means or whatever technology they had at the time, I don't know but anyways the action pretty much ends around here, I don't remember everything but after that I remember rewinding the part where the 2 woman were cutting g things close trying to get of the spaceship before drifting in the black whole. I remember thinking this is the most epic episode of battlestar galactica ever and I just reminded this part over and over. anything that happening after my constant rewinding is lost tho.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1(fragment):

I was visiting dreamviews and then was trying to WILD.

Nap #2(fragment):

I am walking around the home, and while walking around one of rooms i did spontaneously realized that i am dreaming. I could not move, but after a second i could. I went through the door and to the left it was dark and i tried to manipulate shadows into summoning something. I saw very shadowy and small pterodactyl looking creature, but then dream faded out.
I woke up but i kept eyes closed, i saw the room with closed eyes but i thought it was HH, there was an board with an word 'SPECIAL' on ti. I tried to DEILD but then i got interrupted by someone entering the room, i opened the eyes and it was someone from family, then shortly i woke up properly.

I dreamed that I got these pets for our kids: a miniature King Kong (real one), a couple kittens and a lizard. The King Kong was hugging the kittens not gently enough. My husband wanted to know why this choice of pets, and I explained that I thought they would keep things lively.

I at least know why the kittens. We went to a dinner party last night, and the hostess was telling us about a cat she was watching for friends who used to menace a fish in a bowl (the fish was also those friends). When they came back for their pets, they said they had in the meantime adopted three kittens.

I dreamed that lots of kittens had gotten into our living room (which was nothing like our actual living room) through the balcony. There was also a stranger there who acted as if he belonged there. He was disturbed by all the kittens which were causing havoc, and he wanted to know whether they were ours. It turned out that our housemate (don't actually have one) had invited him to stay in her absence and had advertised our home as a quiet place. Then the owner of the kittens came also through the balcony to try to retrieve them.

So last night I was trying WBTB WILD again, I imagined my dream scene like I always do:
The very cliche, tall pale grass, horizon-less meadow with a single tree to one side. Instead, I wake up in my room -___-. But oh well! I was LUCID, and was so happy I forgot to stabilize, which I think has something to do with why it ended kinda fast. I tried teleporting, like people I've seen have talked about before but when I opened my eyes trying to get to my cliche dream-scene I was in the middle of the desert, so I flew around for maybe 5 minutes, or what felt like that anyway which was beast. Then I was really eager to try this shape-shifting technique that I've seen talked about on the forums a lot, I began to sprint along the ground, and was so excited(The feeling of just sprinting along freely with 0 stamina in the dream-world just feels immense) and then I began running on all fours thinking about becoming a Lion/black panther but then the dream just faded and I woke up. Tonight(If I become lucid again, hopefully will! ) I'm going to follow some steps in the Dream stabilization thread I've read on here.

Either way, I'm glad after a few nights failed experiments it worked haha.

We had let our kids go out in the woods alone, and I was tracking their GPS on my phone, and could occasionally zoom in to look at what they were doing.

At some point I noticed that my four year old had become a proficient swimmer. I knew he had it in him! I thought proudly.

However, then the GPS signal of my four year old started to get confused and when I zoomed in a different kid would show. I could see my seven-year old climbing a tree, but that was not my younger son beside him.

My husband said that it was ok, just a glitch, but I told him that I had a feeling of dread like something terrible had happened.

We reached the woods, and found a group of kids tied loosely to a tree with some cable. They lay there as if in a stupor. I still had not found my son. I heard the voice of the evil man who had done this saying something over a loudspeaker. I don't remember all he said, but it included "it does not matter." I could somehow know that the tree cables or something there was boobytrapped so I could not free the kids. I also somehow knew the evil man could see me.

I still also had not reached my older son yet, even though I had seen him on GPS phone video, had not lost him.

I woke up from this nightmare after this, quite shaken.

I had to look in on my sons, and found them safe asleep in bed of course. Despite risk of waking him up, I kissed my younger son on cheek - I would have kissed my older one, but he was harder to reach not being near the edge of the top bunk at the moment.

In hindsight, even before my conscious self was aware of it that this would turn into a nightmare, the setting was clearly there. We are watching kids over GPS and phone while they are alone in the woods! They are engaging in potentially dangerous activities such as swimming unsupervised without lifeguard or lifejacket for my younger son and tree climbing on very high tree for my older son.

It is interesting that the nightmare again goes to kidnapper theme. I thought I had successfully vanquished those kidnappers in my previous dream, where I felt so much empowerment due to having rescued my boys and preparing to fight bad guys using my superior martial arts skills. Well apparently they are back with a vengance and this time there is no empowerment for me. Of course, due to the GPS and leaving them alone in the woods, it is all my fault this time. Also i do not even get the relief of seeing my boys before the dream ends, making sure that they are alive and well in the dream. Fear of kidnappers in waking life is one of those cultural irrationally blown out of proportion fears: I know that in reality the odds of boys being kidnapped are miniscule, and I did not think that I really feared this in waking life that much to give me nightmares (perhaps it is not so much the likelihood as what would be worst case scenario - fear of kidnappers and boogieman), but of course I am as a good parent worried for my sons safety, and that of course is the cause of these dreams.