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Galantamine Dreams

I just had a series of false awakenings/Dreams that took me deeper than anything ive experienced before. I've recently been trying out the Galantamine/Choline combo from Dreamamins over the past week, and while I haven't become lucid while on them yet I always have false awakenings and intense Dreams anyway. What follows is the most intense series of Dreams and false awakenings I've had to date. What I've written is only what I could remember because by the time the last one was over, the first had already begun to fade from memory. I must admit that I felt a little trapped, like I was unable to wake from these Dreams but I kept trying, hence the amount of false awakenings. I liked it, It felt like separate lives...

In the first, I Dreamt that I was following Jeremy Renner around because he was some kind of secret agent. I don't remember exactly what happened anymore but I do remember that at one point he was being hunted by the Russian government, and at some point we walked into a room that had several people strapped to gurneys, all of them bled out and dead. There were two Russians in the room, I was given the impression that one was a doctor and the other was simply a killer. When I first walked in, i saw a larger man twitching on the gurney closest to me as though he weren't quite dead, but dying, and about six others who were dead. I also saw the killer Russian bent over a last victim slicing open their neck. As soon as they saw us, I became Jeremy Renner, or I should say, the secret agent. The Russian had two scalpels, but they were larger than they should've been and he came at me yelling and extremely intimidating. I found that at that moment I had two knives as well and we began to fight. He sliced and jabbed at me and I managed to deflect and protect myself rather expertly. This went on for a good minute and I began to think about the fight too much, and he sliced one of my hands forcing me to drop the knife. Then he tackled me and bit a chunk of my ear off, and the Dream went black, but I didn't wake up.

The next thing I remember is being in some kind of basement where people were working on something I'm still not sure of, but I remember there being farm animals there. I remember washing my hands with bloody plastic gloves on, and I remember seeing the smallest giraffe and gorilla ever. I mean tiny, just about a foot and a half tall, and they looked like they were made out of arts and crafts decorations but they were moving. I thought to myself how cute they were and that my girlfriend would want to see them so I tried to take a pic, but the other people there said that pics weren't allowed so I didn't take any, I just pet them. I was also warned that the giraffe bites, so I was trying to be careful with it, but every time I tried to pet his head he tried to take a piece of my finger off. Little bastard. Then I "woke" from this Dream.

I awoke to our bedroom and was a little disappointed that my Galantamine hadn't helped me to become lucid, again. I remember that I turned on the radio and started blasting P.O.D.'s here comes the boom out the window in response to our new neighbors being noisy jackasses. Then I remember my girl being in the next room and coming in to talk to me. Now, when I fell asleep before all these Dreams, my girls mom was supposed to come home for lunch while my girl is at work, this confused me because her mom wasn't home and she was, so I asked her what was up with that. She said she didn't know where her mom was and was carrying a pair of scissors in her hand. She was walking away from me and reached for something on the dresser, which I snatched from her fearing that she had done away with her mom and I was next. Tis isn't something I actually fear in real life but somehow was a concern in the Dream. When I grabbed it, it was the size of one of those poppers kids get that they throw at stuff, and it said TNT on it. The Dream faded and I was laying in bed.

The next Dream I remember was odd too but not so much. I had a false awakening and thought I woke up from the last Dream and that I was in bed. I even remember looking at the clock and seeing the time correctly, it was about where it should have been. The next thing I remember I was on the balcony of our apartment with the iPad, writing like I do, and our new neighbors were being jackasses again and he was messing with his truck for whatever reason. They like to do doughnuts in the middle of the night, but this time he did something else, he just peeled out and tried to take off but something, probably me, made his truck flip over. It landed on its top and was smashed to shit, I loved it. I loudly proclaimed YES! when this happened. I remember him getting out of the truck and he started yelling at me and I told him that's what he got for being a stupid jackass and that the next time it happened it hoped he didn't walk away from it. At this point he went into his apartment and I realized that I wasn't alone, there were people everywhere inside my own apartment. It was like our two apartments weren't separated anymore and every annoying jackass he hung out with was now sitting at my dining table, watching my tv, and standing on my balcony! My balcony was also smaller all of a sudden and I had to magically work my way around the other fools there to get inside. I even remember wanting to tell some dude to get out of my chair, but I didn't. When I made it to the kitchen, I saw my neighbor sitting there, crying. I went to go talk to him and I put my hand on his back and asked him why he was so upset, just to be nice, and he ended up asking me if I wanted to go outside and play racquetball with him to make him feel better. I said yes but that I would have to go put my IPad away and get my racquet. I stepped into the room that I thought was mine to discover a couple in there, under the covers, doing things.... I immediately told them to get out because I was certain I was in the right place and this was just too much. Then I took a look around and realized that it wasn't my room after all! I apologized profusely to them and grabbed my IPad before heading out. I was incredibly confused by this, I had no idea what was going on anymore, so i left the apartment completely to see if I was even in the right one. Turns out I really was next door, but the outside of the doors were decorated for Christmas... I knocked on our apartment and my girls mom answered in her robe. I asked her what month it was, and she told me it was November. She told me this as I walked into the apartment, and my neck was scratched by the wreath we had on the door. All at once I began to have trouble breathing, couldn't fathom that I had lost six months time, and dropped to my knees in disbelief at everything that had happened. This is when I finally awoke and realized that everything that had just happened, all four or five Dreams, had been just that. In less than 90 minutes.

I should mention that absolutely none of the reality checks that I tried worked, I did ask myself several times during the course of these Dreams if I was Dreaming. I was fooled every time. I think that since perhaps the Galantamine makes me more aware, my Dreams respond in kind. They are made more believable, to a point. If I was a master at ADA, then I would've had no problem becoming lucid, but for the level I'm currently at it was enough to trick me.

Dream 1(fragment):

I recall some kind of wooden boat or some other wooden water vehicle.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was in dark blue area, possible a cave.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was on the street and there was huge skyscraper nearby. I had some kind of a mission and i entered it and got to the roof, there were some bad dudes but i dealt with them. On the roof, i had sniper rifle and i was sniping some important looking person, possibly the leader of bad dudes. After it was done i got out of the building and i had to fight more bad dudes on the streets.

Dream 4(fragment):

I was visiting dreamviews and there was thread where CanisLucidus and paigeyemps were discussing something.

Somehow managed my first ever WILD when I wasn't even trying to. I was trying to nap during a really hot day and my face was sweating so I rolled onto my back and in what seemed like seconds my vision started to get fuzzy/blurry and my jaw locked tightly. I honestly thought I was going to break my own teeth so I took the chance and moved my jaw open slightly, which felt like forcing open a rusted hinge. Then stuff started to happen really fast. I started to hear really loud, clear music, and felt like I was being pulled upwards by a bunch of strings attached to my body. I started floating fast over waves or something, like i was a crowd-surfing plank of wood. I knew exactly what was happening at this point and was not scared or confused at all, I even tried(with some success) changing the sensations I felt as I floated. The transition into the dream was pretty smooth, as though the hands that were carrying me just dropped me off right outside the gym of my high school. right as i was being dropped off i considered stabilizing or calling for Radical Larry the Wizard(my favorite DC), but i was so excited that i just didn't. I ran and ran, flying through walls and throwing chunks of metal at groups of passing cheerleaders. The lucidity and the dream both ended pretty quick, as you would expect under those conditions. So the dream sucked, but getting there was HELLA TIGHT!

I started out my WILD on the balcony of a hotel room. I wasn't wearing very much, just a chiffon dress, and both my hands were on the railing of the balcony. My boyfriend walked out of the room behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist, making me smile quite a lot. We stood there for a while until I turned round and kissed the tip of his nose, telling him I'd be back in a minute.

Eventually I exited the hotel and walked out onto the street below. It was a short walk to the empire state building (My dream self must be rich to afford a trip like that ) and I began the walk, realizing along the way I had no shoes on. I reached the bottom of the esb and looked up at it. This is my least favourite task so I was pretty reluctant to do this. I shut my eyes and concentrated on the fact that I wanted to transform my self into a giant primate (for... some... reason... :L) and stood there for a while, pretty soon feeling my limbs extending and growing.

When I reopened my eyes I discovered I was now a giant primate and even though I didn't particually want to be, I needed this task finishing. People around me had already started to scream and run away so I thought I might as well start scaling the building.

It took me a while but eventually I reached the top of the building, swinging round from the top of the spire whilst I waited for the task force to respond. They eventually did and some fighter jets came soaring through the sky and started firing some tranquilliser bullets at myself. It was quite a scary experience and I really didn't like it. A bunch of army people were surrounding the bottom of the building and trying to set up nets and stuffs. As the jets flew past I tried to grab out at them to complete the second part of the task. When I realiised this wasn't working I started to climb down, being hit by a few tranquillisers on the way down and making me a bit drowsy. There were tanks and other things on the ground so I picked one of these up and threw it upwards at one of the planes, causing a collision and a pretty explosion in the sky.

At this point people started to try and actually kill me so I decided now was a good time to run. I ran as quickly as I could to the Brooklyn river and jumped in it, transforming back to my normal size and climbing out, running past the army guys and into my hotel before climbing in the shower to wash the rubbish off of my skin.

i had a dream last night and everyone i know was in it. we all went on a trip and we stayed at this nice hotel. when we arrived at the hotel a man in a suit told us that there were about 10 ipads to give away outside our rooms. so i rushed to my room expecting to get an ipad but when i got there all the ipads had stickers with other people's names on them (also the spelling was really bad). the people that didnt get ipads got two ipod touches and some only got shuffles - but everyone got something apple. in the end i found my gift and it was some weighing scales that looked like they were made of gold but when i picked them up they were plastic.

O.K, last night I had a really bad and fitful night's sleep. The silver lining was, though, that with many interruptions and night-time disturbances I was able to try WBTB (or something similar) quite a few times

The result was that I had a lot of time with some great (and often quite beautiful or surprisingly clear) hypnogogic patterns/images. It seems that since practicing LDing I've had more and better pre-sleep imagery like this (another cool effect from greater dream awareness). A few times these patterns seemed to bleed into full dreams, and on a couple of these occasions I was lucid. The downside was that even though I was lucid I seemed weak and unable to control much, and that these dreams were so unstable that they lasted only a very short time (dreamlets?) before I woke again. I suspect this was because of the bad night I was having and how tired and stressed I was.

Oh well, at least I've learned that a) greater dream awareness enhances hypnogogic imagery, and b) that pre-sleep hypno stuff can be turned into LDs.

All I need now is a decent night's rest with unbroken sleep!

i was firstly at a family event at my grandma's house. my grandpa and rest of my family was trying to tell me the right route to take to avoid the quik sand. i didnt listen to their direftions or at least tried but oouldnt exete it and began sinking. my ydad tried to save me but then he starrted sinking to. evbneually we both luky got suked out.

then i was wakling by a baseball team some kid got hit right in the fore head from the ball and i laqughed. the coach later threw a ball to me

then i ended up with a movie where wes myself and cade were stranded in the water of the oean. they wree sinking and rowning so i helpd them survive by giving nthem some ofm y raft. we made it on shore and were bak in time like in th 2950s some how we had a skateboard and were grinding and all the statues.secuirt gots pissed and then we killed some kid.
]]later i met an irishman who gave me 10 dollars a nd a kis

I dreamed I lived in an apartment in a high rise, but still had the same roommates. The apartment was very dark the whole time, and the entire dream was oddly colorless. I wasn't feeling well, so my roommate offered me a smoke. We smoked out on the balcony for few minutes.

The apartment had several balconies that I recall, and one had a couch on it. I got my blanket and pillow and went to sleep on the couch. While I was sleeping, my roommate walked up to the couch chanting "murder or torture"... I pretended to stay asleep, hoping she was just messing with me but not sure. I very vividly felt something rustling the comforter. Finally I gave in to the anxiety and opened my eyes. When I opened my eyes in the dream, I opened them in real life and woke up.

Since this is a common problem I have with accidentally ending lucids, I believe I subconsciously knew it would end the nightmare. The waking was quite abrupt, though, and I was confused for a few moments. The anxiety was immediately gone as soon as I woke up, however.

I took 100 Mg b6 and 1000 Mg taurine prebed and fell asleep around 10pm

At 12:13am I woke from a lucid but was so sleepy I only entered this in DJ

"Lycid. At least.sotbingto those am ppl"

Unfortunately I have no idea what that means. I do remember an indescribable blurred image the lucid feel. I was pleased with myself but failed to commit the dream to memory. Those early REM LDs get me all the time.

At 3:19 AM I finally forced my self to do a quick WBTB.

I recall a fragment of carrying my son on my shoulders through some over grown grassy field. We reach the top of a hill and I see a run down Family video. We go inside and make some purchases.

I didn't have time to make mugwort tea since I had to get up a 5 today. I figured the effect wouldn't have time to kick in with enough dream time left over. Maybe I was overly worried. So, on a whim, I took 300mg DMAE + 200 mg B6. I recalled no other dreams though I did make several DEILD attempts all to no avail.

I was inn some sort of casino or strip club, it was very exclusive. I was already drunk after playing poker and so I booked a room, put some cash in my pocket and then left the rest and my card in my room, there were 4 of us, 2 girls and 2 boys, I don't recall who. One of the girls was making out with another girl and so not to be outdone, the other girl in our party whispered a proposition to the waitress who nodded in agreement, she then proceeded to dip her fingers in her drink, put her hand up the waitresses dress and started to pleasure her, everyone was so shocked that the room fell silent as we all watched as she brought her to orgasm. I lost my room key and when I approached the manager, he offered no assistance, stating that I could just say I had a room, even though I'd signed a register and the 3 others iin my group also had rooms.

Scene change.
I'm walking down a riverside and as I observe, I see a large dark shape moving beneath the surface, I considered altering my course but it disappeared and so I continued on, I then thought that if I stood on a wasps nest and had to jump in the water, I'd maybe have that to deal with then, so I was at a loss as to what to do. I also thought that if I jumped in the water, the wasps would just attack Joy, even though she wasn't there and I'd have to climb out again to rescue her. I woke up to Joy asking me "Do you want one of these snickers?" She stated she never spoke, I was starving and so I went downstairs for a bowl of cereal.

Scene change.
I was in a snooker hall or at least some place that had a number of snooker tables, I was waiting for a game, Matty Walker was there and we were eating curry, hot curry. When a table became free and I started to get the balls out, I noticed that they were all brown, I went round the other tables and collected all the right balls for a game.

Scene change.
Joy and I were jogging (yeah right) along a sloping path with a high drop to one side, I'd decided that when it was low enough, I was going to jump down and get a lead on her, as soon as this occurred to me, Joy jumped down, it was way too high and she landed awkwardly on her ankle and fell, she didn't yell out or cry (yeah right), but she said "I think I've twisted my ankle. I told her to pull up her tracksuit leg and her bone was literally sticking out of her leg.

Spoiler for Broken ankle:

Similar to this, but higher up...!

She then proceeded to wiggle it about with her hand saying "Do you think it's broke?" I woke up proper.

On a side note, I've just noticed how my recall is getting better...!

Nonlucid where my family and Robin Williams' family hit it off. We just happened to all be eating at the same restaurant, and someone introduced us. So he told a bunch of funny stories as we laughed (wish I could remember the stories!) Somehow, by the end of dinner, I volunteered to watch Robin's new baby (he had a new, much younger wife, and they had just had a baby I guess). Was supposed to be for like, 1 hour 2 times a week, while she went to the spa.

Somehow, I managed to wrestle Tiffany from work to team up with me on this. Only other scene I remember, is that Mrs. Williams had this really elaborate diaper genie that Tiffany decided to take apart and clean thoroughly. As she put it back together, there was a little plastic grommet leftover. She said "Shit, I don't know where this goes." And she just left it in the sink. I think it actually got thrown away. Anyway later on, Tiffany was helping the Mrs. with changing the baby. Tiffany suddenly ran up to me saying, "Oh shit I think we need that grommet! She said the genie isn't working right." I looked everywhere for that grommet but couldn't find it. So I went to tell the Mrs., and she was standing over the genie, which was whirring and smoking lol. I just said, "Ma'am, we can't find the grommet anywhere, so I'm taking the liberty of calling the company who made it, and either get a replacement grommet, or perhaps they can just replace the whole motor and I'll pay for it." (Note: I had a diaper genie for Chris when he was a baby, and there were no "parts" or motors to it, but this thing that Mrs. Williams had was like some kind of steam punk contraption from hell.) I told her that Danny would be home from work, and he could probably rig the thing up for now so it can at least function minimally until the new parts come in. She seemed happy with this. And laughing at the smoke for some reason, something like how it reminded her of a fart? Well, steam coming from a dirty diaper receptacle, fair enough.

Oh the Williams' ...

And as per usual, that's about as much as Tiffany contributes at work irl whenever there's a problem. She cusses and then backs away from an issue, and I go immediately for solutions.

Another short LD I had on my vacation:

Again, I was tossing and turning alot in the hotel bed. One time when I drifted off, I began dreaming that I was walking down the back hallway at work. Fortunately it's a long hallway irl, so I guess that gave me just enough time to think, "Hey, I was just in my hotel bed not 4 seconds ago!" So that got me lucid, and decided to wreck the store (didn't even think of any pre-thought-out goals or TOTMs, I just wanted to wreck stuff). I found a small square board with wheels (imagine a skateboard, only square in stead of elongated). So I sat on it, and rolled down the hallway, knocking things off all the storage shelves on both sides with my hands as I went down the hall haha.

Then I turned and went out the side door that leads to the floor. I started knocking down a display of glass juice bottles, when the store leader, Carmen, walked up to me. I stood up from my little vehicle, and decided I would finally give her a piece of my mind concerning the stupidity occurring in the bakery. As soon as I was upright, my vision got blurry ONLY where Carmen was standing. I could hear her voice, but couldn't see her. Before I even had much chance to be annoyed by this, I woke up.

This LD was so quick, that I didn't even remember it at first when I woke up for good that morning.

I'm in the underground floors of a building that's like a cross between my apartment building and a very large hospital. I'm in a room with a single metal bed without a mattress, a metal tray next to it and a semi- transparent curtain to go around it. It's quite dark, like the ground outside if the sun is high enough to light the sky but not the ground.
There are pills spilled all over the floor. I kneel down and start to pick them up and put them in a plastic bag I seem to have pulled out of nowhere because I recognize some of them as oxycodone, and I love oxycodone.
I've filled the bag about halfway when a dog comes in, it's like a spitz type dog. It has strange eyes though, they're like cat's eyes. It walks casually towards me and just looks at me. I shoo it away assertively and then it's eyes changed. They went from little slits to really wide, dilated. They turned red. And the dog started talking.
"Argh, now you've done it."
Then it started to attack me. And my alarm went off and i woke up.

It was 7 o'clock so I still had a while 'til I had to be anywhere. I turned off my alarm and went right back to sleep.

I went right back into the same dream. Except now I was on the ground floor. It looked less like a hospital and more like my apartment building now. There were people everywhere.
I still had my big bag of pills so I decided to go to my apartment and see what I had. I walked to the stairs but they had collapsed. I stood there thinking about what to do next if I couldn't get to my room when a woman comes in, she has eyes just like the dog from before. She doesn't look at me she just walks to the edge of where the stairs have broken and looks up. It reminded me of bad AI in a video game, she couldn't get where she wanted to be so she just stood there not doing anything, it was kind of creepy. Eventually she turns around and starts to leave, but she brushes against me on the way and suddenly she snaps her head around to look at me and her eyes dilated and went red. I knew she was going to attack me so I quickly grabbed her around the neck, here I noticed that her skin was all grey. I thought to myself, I don't really want to do this but I have to anyway. And I twisted her head around quickly until her neck went snap.

The dream skipped forward to me on the top floor, there was one of the cat eyed people talking to me. A middle aged man this time. I don't remember what he said but I feel as though it was something meaningful. His eyes went red and I again snapped his neck. I dragged his body through the crowds of people up here to the top of one of the skylights, underneath the skylights were the staircases that went down a fair way. I threw the body through the glass.

The dream skips forward again, there's a bunch of people surrounding the skylight and my little brother is sitting on it, I'm not really too worried about this, I'm more worried that there's other cat-eyes out there who will attack people. I tell everyone to not annoy anyone who has cat eyes but they don't listen to me. Then I see one of the cat eyed people walking through the crowd. It's another woman. She's walking straight toward my brother. She steps onto the glass and I go to stop her but I realise that there's a lot of weight on that glass now, the glass that my brother is on. I can't do anything without risking him falling down. i just have to hope for the best.

She nudges my brother with her leg and her eyes change. She stops and turns around to face my brother. Then the glass breaks and she falls down. but my brother quickly moves to the edge and is safe. Then my alarm goes off again and I get ready to go to my course.

I forgot most of this dream already, but I remember getting a key that would allow me to telecommute in a new job.

I will choose to interpret this as my subconscious giving me the key to success in the job search: you can do it!

It's weird. After I started writing in this, I began to forget my dreams, rather than remembering them.

Part I: The Sinking Ship

I was at some sort of dock with a bunch of my friends and classmates I had met in previous years. I didn't really remember why we were there, but I could only assume it was a field trip or something of the sort. Still, as we waited at the docks, we soon saw a ship come in to port. It was a yacht, essentially, though it was still a bit small. Nonetheless, it could fit all the students as well as a few chaperons.

It was night, a lot of stars out as I idly chatted with some of the boat goers. It seemed almost peaceful, and we had no destination. We were doing just fine, until suddenly, the ship hit something. Something... invisible. Yes, we were now going to sink right into the dark, cold ocean.

The boat was beginning to submerge, I was near my brother, sliding down the sloped surface of the wooden floor, and as the ship peaked upwards, I look to my brother and said "Now we have submerged." and right after that, the ship fell under the water, which woke me up.

Part II: The Blood-Thirsty Doctor

After the whole ship incident, it seemed as though we never hit anything, and the ship was not only fully repaired and functional, but also even bigger than it was before. Now, the ship had about three floors. I went up to the captain's deck with a few other people, and we idly talked again, though out of complete nowhere, a girl with a white t-shirt and black underwear came in with a shotgun, shooting for no reason.

I pulled up a table and flipped it over, hiding behind it and dodging most of the shots, though eventually a few bullets got into my leg. The pain that came from that felt like a really bad cramp, which was more just uncomfortable than it was painful, but it was strange how it worked like that. The shooter disappeared, and I was soon in a hospital-like room, laying on a bed as a nurse came by. She gave me a few shots, which coincidentally numbed the pain a bit. The pain didn't just go away, I literally couldn't feel my legs! After that though, she just went crazy, stabbing me with the same syringe like she was brutally stabbing me with a knife. I didn't feel any of it, but I could hear the beeping from the Heart-Rate Monitor starting to beep faster and faster, my vitals dropping rather quickly, and the pain starting to come back. As I began to flat-line, I slowly woke up, until I was fully awake, as if my death had awoken me.

Notes:

I knew a lot of my classmates on the ship.
The water didn't feel like anything when we fell in it.
That pain was truly a bit of a shocker when I woke up, because I really did have bad leg-cramps in the morning.

Interpretation:

I've been rather social as of late. Perhaps, I'm being warned that I should expect the unexpected from people.