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First thing i remember was speaking to DC. I spoke to him that i wanted to share a dream with this one person. I wanted to somehow send message trough a dream to certain person. I looked around and i was in this yard. I saw huge tower in front of me made out of building like temples,huts, japanese houses,skysrapers.....fused together in very messy way. It was like i was looking into mashed world of dreaming. It was really confusing and the clouds were all over the places. It just look like it was place beyond time and reality. That there was just all sorts of thing. The place beyond the tower and the yard was just blue sky covered by clouds all over the place. The weird thing though was when i flew around the place it had four invisible walls. I flew below,over,up,left ,right the tower until i hit invisible wall in all directions. I could see just endless sky trough these walls and this wasnt the first time i was in a dream like this.

In the other dream i became lucid and i created portal. I jumped into the portal where i appeared at this weird place were me and thousands of other people where were pulled by gravity to different direction. The place was colored by orange sun light and which painted the clouds there beautifully. As i was pulled by gravity to different direction ended up this path were i had normal gravity and could walk. Everything beyond that path was covered by clouds. As i looked up it was painted by clouds and orange sunlight. I just saw clouds and orange sky everywere i looked and there was on thi one path to follow. There were many people walking in this path. I asked one of them were i was he didnt know and said maybe heaven. I said to myself that im just dreaming and flew outside of this path and i was hit by gravity and i dropped down beyond the clouds and entered this dimension. It was same as the previous place it was covered by the orange sky in every direction i looked. I noticed that there was no gravity there and i was alone there. There were all sorts of object in the air all over the place.
I flew around and grapped this towel and tried to move it. It sretched really far and as i let go it snapped back to its original form and stayed compeletly still without any effect at all. I flew around and i saw huge skate ramp, weird objectss like toilet paper to rocks, clothing,small parts of land and things i didnt reconize. I flew around until i hit this invisible wall. I wondered why i couldnt go trough it even though i was lucid so i began to fly to other directions. Same thing there were wall every single direction. I tried to get out but i couldnt this place was without gravity and objects all over the place and all over the world just staying still in the air. When i tried to move the objects they just scretched and snapped back to its original form and place. I flew to the huge skate ramp and landed there. I began wonder should i wake up. I just thought it was even too weird for a dream so i just snapped myself back to awake.

#386 - DILD? - 5:48AM (2 of 2)

I had slight wakefulness but was really focused on WILD. I must have failed due to how long it was between dreams. However, it did feel like a WILD, but I am not sure what really happened. Either way a lucid is a lucid.

I am in my house and I head straight out the front door and recall my goal to fly into orbit. It is raining. The smell of it is vivid. I notice I don't feel the rain and discover that I am wearing a hoodie with the hood up. I take it down wanting to feel the wet precipitation on my face but there is no sensation. Oh well, on with the task. I jump hard while doing a mighty force push against the ground. This effortlessly propels me fast into the sky while I look down. The ground drops away, then dark clouds, then atmosphere. I get a brief glimpse of the Earth before the dream crashes.

Everything gets darker and super unstable. I put my hands out trying to focus on seeing the Earth from orbit, but I realize that I am back in my yard. Before me I see a large circle of red light with a ring around it. I notice someone getting in the car in the driveway in my peripheral vision but choose to ignore this. I focus on making the laser light show become a realistic representation of Earth but the dream quickly fades away.

1. I was inside of my house, specifically inside of the spare bedroom part of my house. As usual the lights were off and the only light source was that coming from outside. In the spare bedroom with me was my friend Lyric, a tall blonde that is in 2 of my classes at school. We started talking in the spare bedroom and as we did I noticed that her hair was no longer blonde, she now had purple hair, and it was also a bit shorter. Somehow we got onto the topic of height, and I told her that I was 5'11, so I was taller than her. "I'm 5'9 and I'm taller than you, so theres no way you're 5'11" she told me. I told her that she obviously didn't know how tall she was, I could easily tell that she was at 6 feet tall just by looking at her. I knew she was about an inch taller than me.
She didn't believe me and told me I was wrong, but I knew for a fact that I knew my height because I had been keeping track of it because I want to reach my goal of 6 feet. After our conversation we walked out into my hallway at which point the entire setting had now changed to my school, and the lights were still off oddly enough.

2. This one is more of a weird occurence:
I was inside of a dream and it just ended and I woke up. I looked at my clock and went back to sleep. Right as I was starting to dream again(about 30 seconds later) my alarm went off and when it goes off it plays a song. When the song started playing I heard it, but I thought it was part of my dream. I thought of how cool the song sounded and how it would sound really good in play(lmao, the song sucks). My mom came in a few minutes later and woke me up. I now know why I sometimes sleep through my alarm haha.

3. I was in school, walking in the hallways with my friend Richard. The bell had just rung signaling that school was over for the day. As we walked down the hallway we talked about something. We ended up walking really slow, and suddenly the announcements came on, "All buses are about to leave, all buses are about to leave". I told Richard that I had to catch my bus, so we could talk later. With that I ran through the cafeteria. I decided to take a short cut so I ran through one of the lunch table aisles. Right as I got halfway down the aisle the cafeteria lights shut off and I was now running in darkness.
Just ahead of me I could see 2 people that somehow fell backwards into the aisle. I jumped over one of them, but as I went to jump over the second person, another person fell so I ended up jumping over him first and then landing on the other persons head directly with my feet. It didn't seem like a big deal though because I just said, "Sorry bro, didn't mean to do that" and then I kept on running. Suddenly I got the urge to get some food from the lunch line(Which I havent done in a year or so). The cafeteria lights were still off, but I didn't care anymore. Nobody was in line, and on top of that no one was behind the register, so I could just take food if I wanted too.
Unfortunately there was only one thing of food left, and it was steamed vegetables. I didn't mind because I liked eating healthy, so I picked up the tray of food and smelled it. It smelled just like steamed vegetables. There was green beans, carrots, broccoli, and some other vegetables. I thought about eating the food, but then I remembered that I had a bus to catch. I sprinted out of the cafeteria and then out of the school. I noticed that Richard was also running with me. It was raining outside and it was as dark as nighttime. I saw all of the buses already taking off, and I spotted Richards bus which was already driving away, so he missed his bus.
I then saw my bus and started running after it. I had to sprint to keep up with it. I sprinted along the side of it and yelled, "Hey, stop the bus! Wait for me!" (Which is weird because I don't ride the bus anymore). Eventually the bus driver saw me out of her right mirror and stopped. As she stopped I came to board the bus, but the bus driver came out first. She said something along the lines of, "I hate my job!" and then stormed off into the distance. As she did so the bus collapsed out of no where, and all that was left of it was its frame. I noticed that there was also 2 people already in the bus, 2 girls specifically. Other than that no one else was inside.
I didn't know what to do now. I looked behind me and I saw my friend Brittany looking at her phone texting someone. What she was doing walking on the street and texting in the rain, I'm not sure.

4. I was inside of a room, and it had open windows and a nice carpet on its floor. Other than that, its pretty hard to describe what it looked like. I looked outside one of the windows and I something inside of me told me I was in another world. There was huge landscapes outside. Mountains, and all kinds of other huge structures, many of which i have not seen before. Suddenly someone caught my attention from inside the room. It was a cat, and it was staring at my foot. I noticed that foot was covered in some kind of transparent needles, I couldn't feel them though. I walked away from the cat, but it would keep following me. I did that multiple times, and at one point the cat got really angry and released her claws from her paws. This is where I stopped moving around.
I watched her, and she took one of the needles out of my foot and then ate it. I was scared for some reason, that she was going to claw my foot. I'm not scared of cats so I don't know why I was now. Out of the blue that cat started talking to me "Stop moving!". I asked why she wanted the needles, and someone behind me told me, "Its because they're horse needles, and they're really rare." I have no idea what that's supposed to mean, "Horse Needles" wtf? All I knew is that I needed these needles in my foot, and if the cat ate too many of them my foot would be messed up. After the 2nd time the cat took a needle and ate it, I suddenly felt like I got a huge increase of testosterone or something and I was no longer afraid of the cat. In fact, I actually wanted to strangle and kill the cat, and I'm not sure what held me back.
I hear a rumble, and it shakes the entire ground. I look out the window again and this time I see a huge, giant creature. It looked like it was made of earth, but it had arms and legs and was unlike anything I have ever seen before.
It looked really similar to this creature:
It walked over to the building I was in and looked inside and said something to me, but I forgot what it was.

5. This dream was one of those movie ones, where its like watching a movie:
A man and his wife were inside of a big van. The man parked the van and went into the back part of the van with his wife and started having sex. At one point the wife wanted her husband to give her anal, and this is where I suddenly become the husband(wow this sounds alot like a porno story or something lmao). I now spread open the woman's butthole and insert my dong(for lack of a better word) into her. This kind of went on for a while, but theres no need to post the entire thing here.
After the entire sex event, I get out of the van and walk down the road we are on. I can tell its early in the morning, and the sky is clear but the sun is coming up. Its also a bit cool outside. The road I'm walking down is on a big hill, so I'm up pretty high. Far ahead of me I can see a city and it looks pretty modern. Suddenly another van comes up behind me, goes around me, and then stops in front of me. My friend Caitlin gets out of the van and tells me, "Get in Cory! We're going to the concert!". I'm down for that, so I get inside of the van and sit in the back seats.
A few of my other friends are also in the van with me, but I forgot which friends it was. Caitlin then starts driving towards the city. About a minute or so into driving we see my friend Alex and he's hanging out with a girl named Kayla that used to be my neighbor. I roll down my window and say something to Alex, just messing around with him. "I'm coming in there to beat your ass Cory!" he tells me, but we both know he's just joking around as usual. "Come on bro get in! We're fixing to turn up!", I tell him. Alex and Kayla then get in and we start driving again.
As I'm siting in the back I pull out my phone and look at my snapchat. I noticed that Caitlin sent me a snap, so I look at it. It's a pic of the view outside of a plane window, except its really vivid and really really colorful. Outside of the plane window you can see the city we are going too. It doesn't occur to me that Caitlin couldn't be on a plane since shes driving right now. The picture looks so cool that I screenshot it. She sends me two snaps, I get them both but I only screenshotted one. If I could actually show you the picture you'd understand why I think they look so cool haha. I tried screenshotting the 2nd picture. As I opened the 2nd snap my friend Dylan says, "Dude screenshot that and send it to me!" and I try but for some reason it doesn't work.

#385 - DEILD - 4:21AM (1 of 2)

A couple shots of vodka just before bed for a little REM suppressant. I went to bed around 10:30PM and awoke naturally at 2:00AM from a super vivid dream. It was a little early for my WBTB but I went ahead and got up for about 45min with 8mg Galantamine and 400mg Choline. I downed the pills with a glass of home-brew Kombucha, then got got on Facebook for awhile.

I having failed a WILD, found myself waking from this dream:

I am about to go to sleep on the asphalt in a parking lot. I have my pillow and a huge comfy comforter. My wife is next to me already passed out. I have been talking to a work buddy on Facebook and decide to make a final comment then lay down. When I put my phone down I see him and his mom some feet away in their own pallets. His mom keeps making snide comments and says something about my top hat. I look over and see one next to me. It looks a lot like the one in "Frosty The Snowman". I tell her its just a top hat and not to worry about it. I lay down and flip them the bird with my eyes closed and smile. Then I get really hot and notice that I have a long black overcoat on. I take it off to reveal a while dress shirt. It takes effort but I mange to strip down enough to feel comfortable and go to sleep.

I wake partially and go into DEILD. I feel vibrations right away and let my self lucidly slip under. I feel real excitement with a racing heart and it takes a moment to calm down. Then I blindly make my way out the front door. As I feel the cool air hit me, I hear a loud sucking noise and am pulled back into my body. I am not sure if it is my physical body or dream body but I gasp for air as if I have been holding for a long time.

I wait a few seconds in the vibes and then get up again. This time I see misty swirling visuals as a dream forms in front of me. This gives a really cool effect as a copy of myself forms before me. Its a little odd but the dream is still really unstable so I grab my doubles arm and talk to him. This quickly fades as I am sucked back once again.

I realize its always my habit to rush this transitional stage so I decide to relax and just be mindfully in the moment. I enjoy multiple body sensations like weightlessness and vertigo. I begin to sing some old song. I am not sure of the name or even if the lyrics are right. "I-I-I-I-I... Get that feeling." (What's that song?) I have that moment where I wonder if I am singing out loud and I swear I think I feel my wife turn a bit in bed. I decide not to be put off by it and sing the line again though, it is noticeably softer.

Next, I use the feeling of weightlessness and start imagining flying. The feeling is real and I think I have a moment where I open my eyes and see a huge puffy cloud above my bed. After I awhile I feel like I am falling and blindly pull a parachute cord. There is a noticeable jerk as the air fills the chute and I glide softly down. I get a visual of ground below me then I land in a version of my bathroom. I immediately recall my lucid dare to find a story in the dream. I decided beforehand to either call someone to ask and listen, or find a TV and watch. I decide to look for my phone.

The bathroom is full of all kinds of junk like a tornado had hit my house. There were clothes and debris everywhere as well as all sort of cosmetic and toiletry items around the sink. As I search around it, I say out loud, "Where is my cell phone?" I have a thought to blind summon but for some reason it feels silly since I 'just woke up'. I see something under an empty Q-tip container; It's my phone, but when I reach for it I push it off into the floor. When I bend over, I feel air on my asshole like I like I am completely naked. Shocked, this causes me to pause and look in the mirror. I see a blurry and vibrating reflection in the mirror. As far as I can tell I am shirtless and probably naked with worried look on my face. The effect of the reflection feels unstable so I look away back on task. It's probably best not to worry about this anyway.

The phone screen is super dim, but I blindly tap random spots on the screen anyway, knowing it really doesn't matter. Its the object in my hand that is extending this form or dream control and giving me a mental boost. I put the phone to my ear expectantly and hear a ring then an answer. I try talking to the man the other end but it just sounds like I have tapped into someone's phone conversation. The dream blacks out here and I worry that I am going to have to start over. Luckily, the sensation of the phone to my ear is still very vivid so I just continue on in the darkness. I try to interrupt but they don't seem to hear me and I can't tell what they are saying. I stay persistent and finally get through to a very redneck sounding man. When, I finally understand the man, I find myself in some sort of auto mechanic shop full of colorful hydraulic lifts and tools. I walk around messing with items and flying around the shop as I talk on the phone.

Me: Hello?
Man: Who is this? Hello?
Me: Yes. It's me. Will you please tell me a story?
Man: Huh? Hello?
Me: I just really want you to tell me a short story. Please?
Man: Well OK...
Me: Yeah, go ahead.
Man: When I worked at the mill down by your place with the number one wire...
Me: Yes, go ahead.
Man: ...there was a sawed-off coffee maroon.
Me: Ok wait. (I am trying to make sense of this as well as remember) You worked at the mill down by my place with number one wire and there was a sawed-off....coffee...ma-ROON?
Man: Yes. That's right.
Me: Then what?
Man: George was like, 'What the fuck?'
I can take it any more I begin to laugh out loud at this. I notice my laugh sounds really different and I cut it off short.
Me: Dude that's really hilarious. You didn't ask George what his deal was?
Man: Yeah! That's what I did!

I was going to probe on but I suddenly wake up.

I dreamed last night that me and my parents were walking inside the mall where there was 1 store where they sold hookah and weed. So we went in and I asked my parents to buy me one and weed. He went flying in the air like thor and came on the ground exactly like thor xD. I ran through a hotel with my father chasing me. I ran through corridors and elivators. It was hard to concentrate but at the end It was a dead end with only a window. I had no other decision so I jumped through the window and woke up.

This one was a very short dream. I was in a room with a lot of people and there was 1 table. I said by the table and got a hamburger. After eating I felt hair everywhere in my mouth. I spit the meat out and saw the hair from the waitress in it. That's it xD

I have been practicing reality checks and WILD (I meditate, it's easy to focus) and I've finally managed to have my first lucid dream, pretty detailed too. I started off the dream in free fall through a pale blue void surrounded by a neon fog when I heard my mantra from earlier that night "I will be lucid!". Upon hearing the mantra I stopped falling and realized I was dreaming, so I decided to propel myself through the void. It was amazing, I felt the wind rushing by, the cold air, the breath in my lungs, but there was this loud ringing sound that was a bit disorienting, fortunately it didn't effect the dream. The void was host to a multitude of floating islands, each with there own fantastic climate: An island surround by a twisting vortex of green water with lava shooting up into oblivion; An island with three pink mountains, the apex of each breaking off into purple and pink striped moons before reforming, by my count there were 13 moons by the time I passed it; A tropical island surrounded by smaller ones covered in dead forests, each with a necropolis; A volcanic tropic chain with colorful birds slowly flying between. It was an overall amazing experience. I traveled to the center of the void where I found a large floating continent, another titanic mountain being the focal point. The land surround the mountain were hilly fields, river ways, lakes, villages, and forests. This is where the dream started falling apart, while I started off flying and had a pretty easy time, I didn't know how to land. I decided to crash land into the mountain, but the fear of impact made the dream destabilize. Hopefully I can manage to LD again soon.

Dream 1.) I was with my dad at a store that was selling weapons. He Bought this huge target that looked like a balloon, but it was made of rubber. Then he got this gun that looked normal. I tried to tell him that the gun would go throught the target, and it was a waste of money. He seemed to ignore me, then the dream ended.

Dream 2.) I was being driven to my school for something Important. Then while parking I hid from someone I didn't want to know I was there. However he saw me. Then I got out of the car and went in. The whole auditorium in the school was filled. I looked for a seat for a while, then found one right next to two of my friends. We started to talk.
Then I went home to work on an English essay. While writing it on my computer I was following a guide line. One said to write about a herd of sheep on a mountain. I tried to, but only the c and h keys worked. Then my school bus came to pick me up. I noticed that first graders were on, along with people I barley knew. Also when I looked out of my window there were a lot of cars in my driveway. Then this little kid was running around throwing a sticky note and laughing about it.

Dream 3.) I was in this strange island that had a large volcano in the center. While ther I was supposed to find a missing person. After searching around for a bit I came upon a small encampment. Then this crazy guy came out of nowhere. I noticed that he was eating strange berries. I told him that he was crazy because he wasn't eating the berries correctly. The way to eat them was to eat the white one first, then the colorful ones.
After teaching him about that he became normal. Then I straped him on a palne to bring him back home.

Early evening of November 30, 2014. Sunday.



Ever since I was young, I learned how certain recorded affirmations in a loop (and altered in particular ways, which must be done correctly but would take hundreds of pages to clarify) - and at a fairly low volume using headphones - placed me into altered states fairly quickly (sometimes within less than three minutes or so). This is more effective with at least two different “streams” in two different locations of the stereo field (although one stream can be centered or monophonic). I never needed anything else and in fact, had been able to duplicate any kind of perceptual state without any drug or commercial product (which seems moot as dreaming is already a totally natural function anyway, but which is greatly enhanced through education, sharpening the mind, and real-life experience).

Sometimes there are drawbacks, but fairly inconsequential. This one was the “falling back into myself” event. This was caused by the fact that the sequence was only 22 minutes long and stopped suddenly, causing me to shift consciousness too rapidly (I did not intend to fully shift into this other state but sometimes it cannot be helped as it is often automatic at one point even if I am otherwise fully awake up until then). I had fallen into a deep altered state while sitting up in a chair (head slightly tilted to the right) and this is the second time it had happened recently with the “falling” event. It was so vivid and intense, I was nauseous for several minutes (much like car sickness but a bit more powerful), but then in a more focused clarity at this later stage.

Entering this other “realm” or mental location, whatever it is, had always been (for over forty years) preceded by the exact same “imaginary” sound pulsing. This is always the sound of what seems like a small stone falling into a shallow amount of water, but with various frequencies over time, and in differently oriented areas of my perception, and similar audio effects, which are mostly fluid-like. (However, there are sometimes stages where it sounds similar to someone flicking the tab on an empty soda can.)

Falling sensations “from greater heights” (seemingly) during actual normal sleeping times has been very rare for me over the last twenty years or so (other than when I deliberately do certain flying maneuvers).

During the session as I was otherwise reading here and there and looking at a couple web sites, I started to realize I was shifting and thought it might be a good idea to lie down, as I do not really like sleeping or being in a trance in an upright position when I do not have head support. I started to become aware of vague sketchy patterns - somewhat comic-strip-like, but then seemed to be very aware of a girl (wearing blue jean shorts) walking over to me and placing glasses with lighter blue lenses on my face - not only did I see this, I also felt a change in my awareness once the glasses were over my eyes. After this, I am trying to focus. I am quite aware of the imaginary sound pulsing, which at times, seems to have audio “tendrils” emerging from the stone-into-water effect coming out into intricate higher frequencies in an almost ecstatic way, almost musical (bordering on the nuances of an intricate chime effect). Another typical sound in this state is a sound somewhat like the single shuffle of a bird’s wing, which sometimes seems to cross over through either ear.

Eventually, after being who-knows-where for about twenty minutes, I find myself suddenly fully conscious “too quickly” and falling rapidly into myself (from a seemingly great distance) and am aware that all sound (both real and imaginary) has completely stopped. The nausea is a bit much but short-lasting and inconsequential.

I left work early because I was sick, so of course I came home, opened my window (it's a nice day...) and took a nap. I shift restlessly, occasionally jerking awake, worried that at any second the wind is going to finally knock the curtain from my window.
During this nap I had one of those weird lucids. I saw my room but it was different in a few ways, the electrical box on the wall was missing, and in its place was a hole. I focused on it and tried to will it to change "I think I see light on the inside." I said to myself, focusing harder. "I do, there's light." But there wasn't. I gave up, considering my intention had been to turn the hole into a tunnel, by which I would leave the room. Instead, I turned my focus to the window. *eye roll* You know, because I can't use a door. That's just crazy. I flop over, but my body still feels heavy with sleep. I claw my way up to the sill and manage to look outside.
"Come on, you're going to have to do better than this or the dream will fall apart." I thought, trying to will the heaviness from my limbs. Nope. Still not working.
Then, of course, the wind knocked the tension rod out of my window and across my legs, shattering my delicate lucidity, the room suddenly awash with sunlight. Damn it.

Part I
Setting: Earth. mid apocalypse. a city.
Characters: Me, Father in law, Wife, people, Strange solders, zombies, demon creatures.
Influences: World war Z, Constantine, the matrix, left for dead.

We are always running. being chased by gouls, zombies, demons. The Police cant handle them all. They just keep coming. People get bit and turn into creatures themselves.
We are hiding out in a school. I'm not familiar with it. Its dark, dirty, scary. We hear gun fire outside. The military is here to help. creatures keep coming. They don't seem to be affected by normal guns very much. They are trying to hold them off. We move to a lecture hall. The lecture hall reminds me of a theater. Stage where the prof. would talk and then seats going up in rows. They barricade the bottom doors. Outside more guns, yelling, screams, snares. The creatures break through suddenly! Guns blaze and cut through some of the smaller ones. Bigger ones push through and make their way up to the back where we hide. The back doors burst open! Can't see what came in its to dark. Its a man. Dressed in a trench coat and wearing strange glasses, and firing a futuristic looking hand gun. It seems to shoot strange colored projectiles, almost like light. Another man similar look enters and jumps on to a desk and begins battling the creatures hand to hand. A woman in similar fashion bursts in and tells us to run! My Wife, her dad, and I make a break for it out of the room. We find ourselves running down a dark alley way. the school to the right of us and a large industrial looking building to the left. Smoke stacks and cylindrical tanks adorn the building along with a crane and loading area. I turn around to see the hoard chasing us. jumping down from the roof tops, running out of doors, breaking through windows. The mysterious group continues to aid us and the others in our group. My wife falls behind with her dad and i stop to wait for them. I see a creature dive from a near by roof at them as they walk beneath it completely unaware of the danger. I run, jump and collide with the zombie creature knocking it away from them. I wrestle the zombie but it bites my side savagely. I break away from its bite and proceed to tear the creature apart. I look back at my wife and father in law and say im sorry. I run into the building to the left leading many of the creatures with me.
=Perspective change=
I see one of the strangers fighting a group of creatures and receive several wounds and bites. He crawls into what appears to be a release pipe for the factory/industrial buiilding. Through his eyes I see strange colors flowing like water toward a place of unknown origin.
=Perspective change=
I am me. Seeing my self crawling now like the wounded stranger. I unexplainedly start to see the same flowing colors and remember one of the strangers saying go to where the white is. I crawl, stumble, limp. Following a stream of color. To my left i can see a orange stream, and in front a green stream. I crawl into a large pipe and see that the colors are mixing into white at the end of the pipe. I slide down the pipe. Like a water ride at a amusement park i slide through tunnels and caverns. Through a conveyor belt system. Then into a sort of mine cart. The cart races down the tracks and i start to see light ahead. I slam into the end of the tracks and i am flung out of the cart. I land on my feet and seem to be OK. I hide as I see a person has seen my entrance.

Part II
Setting: unknown. resembles a farm. dirt roads. strange pool of water like fluid. Forrest like area. futuristic training area and obstacle course.
Characters: Me, Fairy Women, Fairy Men, Trainers, Humans like me, Liam Neeson look a like.

I am quickly found and captured. I am not ruffly handled but bound non the less. My captors are human in form. They whisper among themselves and I catch words but don't understand. A female of middle completion approaches me and ask why i am here. I then realize that i can no longer speak. My mouth moves and nothing comes out. I panic. She says " I see" then motions to some one to the left. I am sat at a table by what appears to be a lake not far from my entrance, which now has no tracks or carts but rather a gently winding path up a hill. I beautiful woman, looking similar to my age, comes to the table and sets some things down. A strange bottle. A strange flower. A root of some sort. She doesn't speak just looks at me. She has a soft look about her. Golden brown hair. Blue-green eyes that seem to reach out to you and make you feel good. I immediately take to liking her. The way she interacts with me and her almost loving glance is intoxicating. I feel safe when she is with me. Warm, loved, cherished. I am extremely shy of her though. The sensation of her is almost to much. I will name her Clair for discernment sake.
A man strongly resembling Liam Neeson approaches. They others that have gathered part and greet him. He seems like a leader of sorts. Clair stands smiling beside me. I notice that all the people are scantly clad with garments that appear to be made of large leaves and some simple white cloth as a scarf, cape or toga. Elvish looking one mite say. Leader Neeson ask me a series of questions to which I still cannot talk to respond. They show me visions of my life. The only ones i see are a repeat of the earlier occurrences. I have a scar but no wound from the large bite i receive from the zombie creature. They tell me that I am special and will join their ranks. They explain that the warriors that tried to save me and the others were a special troop from their world. Trained to wield weapons and perform feats unthinkable by normal humans. Certain people have a hidden aptitude and power and can become these elite fighters. I accept the offer and get whisked away to start training. Clair is with me always. She seems to enjoy my company almost as much as i enjoy her's. She does seem to grasp my shyness though and breaks the boundaries of comfort.
My first task is a simulation of rescuing friendly captives. I am shackled with strangle chains and suspended above a pool. A strange clay/resin like ceiling and walls are in front of me. I see the captive dummies stuck in the resin wall. I don't understand how to get to them. The trainers shout go get them! I can talk now! I ask them how am i to rescue them if i am chained. suddenly the chains jerk and send me into the ceiling. I feel like i am flying. I collide with the ceiling. I am then drug across the ceiling. The resin breaking against me is painful and i reach out to block incoming obstacles. The trainer yells but i can't hear. I see another recruit to my left experiencing the same training. "FLY!" Screams the trainer along with some soldiers watching. I see the wings for the first time. All different. Each pair special and unique like a finger print. Shapes, sizes, textures, colors, all different. Each person had a main color. Some had 2. I would later find out that was a measure of natural ability. I tried to think I had wings. Maybe I did and had to make them appear. The chains continued to drag me around. The pain was intense. I push out my hand again to will myself in a direction. It worked! The chains pulled me towards the captives now. I smashed through the opaque wall encasing them. I grabbed both dummies and again willed my movement back to the place i had started. I descended to the platform and the teacher and Clair stood astonished. I turned to see if I had wings but sadly I did not. A soldier step up to greet me and congratulated me. "I was one of the few that got it on the first try" he said. "You did to and even quicker than i did" he followed. I smiled. i fell to my knees over come by injury, emotion, and mental exhaustion. Clair looked worried at me and I quickly became super embarrassed of my sad state and sorry for making her worry. Even though she never spoke with her mouth, I could feel everything she was trying to say and how she felt. I was taken to rest in a bunk house near the lake i had entered this world at. I woke up, in my dream, from my rest and instantly sad. my heart ached and i was afraid again. Clair was nowhere to be found. I started to panic. I ran out side. I looked around feeling lost and abandoned. I looked to the hill and spotted Clair looking a mirror of my dreary state. As quick as it came my terror and ill feeling left and i was overwhelmed with joy as her gaze met mine. We ran to each other. We met and is grabbed my hand and held it to her chest. I freaked, but was entranced but the feeling of her heart and more so the feeling and emotion that she displayed along with it. I could tell she had worried about me since they had separated us yesterday.
We are approached by the lady from my arrival and Leader Neeson. They explain that i will be partnered with a beast of color today and it will help me advance and strengthen my inner being. The lady asks Clair why she is so protective of me. The lady ask this of Clair the same nonverbal way Clair talks to me. I seem to be able to speak this almost base telepathic language and i catch the conversation. Clair doesn't answer only states that she will do the discerning. The Discerning I am informed of, by Leader Neeson, is the assessment of my potential, my color affinity and other qualities about me even I don't currently know. Clair is apparently very good at this but has never taken such interest in a recruit before. Leader Neeson is hesitant but gives the ok. Clair leads me off down the path she came from when we rejoined. Beside a lake next to what is possibly her dwelling we stop. She positions me against the wall of the house. She stands arms length from me and stairs into my eyes. Her vibrant blue green wings emerge. They shimmer matching her gorgeous eyes. I feel squeamish. Its just us, alone, her and me. I am nervous for my Discerning. Will it hurt? Why does she like me so much? What is she going to do? She places her hands on my shoulders. I feel her telling me to relax and that it will be ok. I feel my self start to relax. She stares into my eyes and i can't look away. She is getting closer and closer. I start to panic. Her Eyes glow, her wings glow. I see the universe spanning before me in her eyes. I feel as though i will be sick. Her nose is now touching mine. Locked in a solid unblinking stare I feel like we are flying. My nerves are about to explode. the sensation of her touch, smell, gaze, and nonverbals is overwhelming. Her expression changes to one of shock then concern. Then for the first time she speaks. My legs give out. My eyes glaze over and I break my stare. I feel myself slip from consciousness. "Chris" Is the word she said. My name. Never in waking or dream had i ever felt so much from that name. Never had so much feeling and passion been put into it being verbalized. everything is black.
(Dream fastwards itself)
I wake to find Clair sitting beside my bed. Watching over me as usual. I am dressed in a uniform like the other soldiers. Clair and I report to the obstacle course with the other trainees. She watches as I begin my final test. All the recruits charge into the course. We defeat trainers dressed and acting like enemies. We climb and crawl through terrain challenges. Then the color field. Our affinity makes allows us to draw power from certain colors of light. Others hurt us and darkness always hurts us. The color fields test our knowledge of our affinities and our endurance to our weaknesses. I approach the field and the "enemies close in on us. Capturing and ravaging recruits just like real enemies the trainers enforce the realism and direness of the moment. I was never told my affinity so i hesitate. I feel Clair reach out to me and say "fly". I smile at her and see her smile back. I think of that day we met. I think of my training. I think of my discernment. I jump full force arms outstretched into the air.

I wake up. Alarming buzzing. My heart sinks a bit and I revel in Clair's eyes until i can't remember what she looks like. though out the day i think of her and how she made me feel.

November 29, 2014

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I was at the school in which I am student teaching, and we were doing the reading buddies program we have (basically my 1st graders are paired with a 4th or 3rd grader, and they read together). There was this large egg-shaped rabbit thing. It was yellow, and would role around and bounce up and down. I'm going to call it Ralph for now.

So Ralph was rolling around the class helping out, and then the kids went to lunch, or a specials class. The room was empty, even the chairs and tables were gone. Ralph was glitching or something; he would jump up and down on a spot on the floor, doing the Mario Ground Pound, and would seem to go through it, at which point the floor directly under him would spin. He would get stuck in a few cycles of this, and then roll away. He would go do something, but every time he rolled over that spot in the floor, he would glitch.

I decided I wanted to know what was up with this spot, so I wanted to see what would happen if I went over it. I was aware that something was weird here, but didn't get to lucidity yet. I walked over the spot thinking I would glitch too, but I didn't. So I jumped and used a Ground Pound, and the floor gave way, spinning like it had for Ralph. I was falling down a long shaft. It was lit pretty well, but I don't remember seeing any actual light sources.

I landed in a large, rectangular room. Every inch of wall was lined with cupboards, drawers and two fridges (one at the corner behind and to my right, the other midway along the wall to my left). There were two eggs that looked a lot like Ralph. One was smaller than my first, the other was as big as my head. I picked them up and put the smaller one in my pocket, and somehow managing to also fit the larger one in my hoodie pocket.

I thought that Ralph would be happy to have younger ones of his own species (I assumed they were eggs for his species). I started looking through the drawers and cupboards, finding nothing much at first. As I made my way around the room, the drawers and cupboards started having things in them. By the time I reached the second fridge, the one in the corner, it had parts of toys in it. Like bags and bags of a single part of the toy, so you could make lots of them by putting the pieces together. There was also some sort of snack food in the fridge.

A colleague opened a door at the corner directly behind me, which I had not noticed before. They were calling me because the kids would be back soon. I turned and left the room, and was surprised to find myself in the hallway just a few doors down from the classroom I'd started in. How could I be in the same hallway if I'd fallen down that long shaft? I looked down at my hands and realized I was dreaming. I was aware enough to do a task.

I could have gone back to the classroom to tell the kids we were in a dream, but I didn't remember that task... Instead, I went to what I assumed was the door to the outside. I paused before opening it, trying to envision the kind of surroundings I wanted to see. I knew this place was supposed to be the school I teach in, but it was so different that it wasn't too hard for me to envision a new surrounding. One with more trees, and therefor more leaves.

I opened the door, and there was a long lane with houses on each side. All the houses had big front yards with big maple trees. Perfect! Some of the trees were bare, some were green, and some were orange, red and yellow. I think my subC didn't really have a grasp of different seasons being at different times. I did notice that the trees that were colorful seemed to clump together, as did the green trees and the bare trees.

It was almost like a temporal whatchamahoozit. Like there were different times at the different clumps.

Anyways, I walked over to one of the clumps of fall trees, and looked around. There were leaves on the ground, but no piles. I was too lazy to rake them up, so I decided to walk along the lane until I spotted the house of a more conscious leaf-raker. It didn't take long for me to find one. There was this big old yard with a decently large pile of leaves.

I stood next to the pile for a moment, and then decided to jump in it the way I do IWL. I stepped back a bit, and hopped through the air right into the center of the pile. At first it was just super normal. I was on my stomach, so I turned so that I was sitting up in the pile. I let myself fall back into the leaves, and then it was like every leaf was a gentle spark.

I could feel a lot of little tingles and waves on my back and the backs of my arms, and there was a sensation of sinking. I felt like I was being sucked in, and then I was completely surrounded by leaves. I stayed there for a moment, and then felt air on my back, and pulled myself up face down in a pile of leaves at my Oma's house.

Leaf pile = dream portal?

I dinked around in my Oma's back yard for a bit but lost the dream pretty quick. I kept trying to remember another task to do, but couldn't before I woke up.

November 28, 2014

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I was in a high school shop or art class, but my boyfriend was missing. I knew that he liked to sit in his car and listen to the radio, so I went out to the parking lot to see if he was there. The lot was a lot like the lot at my high school, just a bit bigger and with more trees around the edges.

I found him in his car and he wanted me to sit on his lap facing him. We sat like that fooling around for a while and we're just about to have sex when another classmate (his friend, who turned out to be one of Zukin's housemates... We'll call him J) was walking toward the car, calling my boyfriend (lol, I don't even know what his name was). I hid in the back while the boyfriend talked to J just enough to get him to go to his own car, which was on the other side of the lot.

Classes were just about to get out for the day, so we decided to just leave and go somewhere quieter.

Flash-forward, and I'm at my conferences that night. I was acing all my classes, but the shop/art teacher had docked me half my grade for missing class that one time. What a bitch.