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Lots of bits and bobs this time, all non lucid

Watching 'Sherlock' on the telly. He was having a lucid dream, I was itting there thinking 'I get those sometimes..'

Bah!

Standing outside, the overflow pipe from our house was pouring oot water, and I was trying to suss oot why.

Speaking to a blonde haired lassie, she smiled and her front tooth was three inhes long and all yellow and jaggy an' that. She realised I was staring and tucked it away somehow.

that was my first batch of dreams, I woke with a feeling of unease for some reason.

Watching a home video. I was on the back of a boat, I was holding a fishing rod with a multiplier and yellow line. I did a really crappy cast. There was a tall guy with longish hair wearing a uniform of sorts, and we blethered aboot nothing in particular. The dream then became first person. I friend I knew in real life had a bag of rocks. She gave me a couple. One glittered a wee bit and I asked her if it was real gold and worth a lot of money - she shrugged. I then argued with a familiar lad that the rock I had was formerly a Sponge. 'Halfway betwenn a plant and an animal' I mind saying. He disagreed and I started getting angry with him.

In a woodland clearing. My faither said I had to get the railway line up before the train arrived. I did so, it lifted up no probs, and was aboot ten feet long.

Looking at a newsletter featuring Bill Oddie.

My wee boy chasing me roond the hoose.

hmmmm

Dream 3

I was running around with my brother and we were with other people. There was a time when I was arguing with someone about snow dogs being out in the summer. I said it was possible the other DC didn't.

Dream 4

I recall being in my living room with a guy and he told me to try guessing what he was thinking. I tried and a portal opened up about a sonic adventure game. So I said Sonic and he was amazed and asked me to tell him who another white sonic related character was but I didn't know.Than I suddenly appeared on my bed and outside my window I could see a storm coming. There was also a pole with purple flames there. I thought it looked epic and sort of creepy. When I got up my left hand was stuck to my back. As I walked to the front door I managed to get it unstuck and walked onto the front porch. I walked to the stairs and saw in the distance 3 DCs who looked like they were dressed as witches/magicians but in blue. I than looked to the other house and saw a castle like balcony and a anime character who looked like Dawn but with short hair and a robe standing on it. I jumped up and asked for him to pull me up but I woke up.

Couldn't recall much and didn't remember to try summoning Manei When I was Lucid. But I'll try some other time.

Non-lucid Lucid

I sat on the floor, in a creepy, old house. It was cold, and I was freezing. I heard horrible sounds from outside.
I looked out the window and saw a scarecrow with white eyes. I freaked out at that moment, and tried to hide, but of course I couldnt. The scarecrow found me every time and it was laughing.
" You can't hide " it repeated while I was desperately trying to run away or hide, but for some reason, my hands popped up in front of me, and I knew I was dreaming. The scarecrow stood still and I imagined a bomb or something on it. I yelled out that the scarecrow had to disappear, and.. BOOM.. everything just exploded and I entered a new dream scene. But now, It wasn't a nightmare anymore. I was in the middle of a big beautiful field with yellow trees and like thousands of rainbows everywhere. Yes, that was amazing. The last thing I remember, is that I saw a friendly dinosaur..

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #253: Miranda Gloves

Wife and I are sitting next to each other on the patio of a restaurant, chilling out and enjoying the nice weather. I think that we’re near Disney World. Another couple enters the patio area and Wife asks them how they liked Disney World, but they look irritable and don’t respond. Wife gets annoyed at first, but then says something like, “Never mind, they’re having a problem right now.”

Wife gets up and walks through a nearby door, signalling that I should follow her. Now we’re in a carpeted area that looks sort of like our master bathroom. She locks eyes with me while explaining what this woman is going through. I feel this big swell of lovey-dovey and amorous feelings and think to “look for the dream”, becoming lucid as I do this. Wife continues talking, explaining that the woman is frustrated by her life and is eager to disappear into virtual reality. I get a vision of the woman wearing a pair of haptic gloves that Wife calls “Miranda Gloves”. There’s something terribly sad about her life, but she feels real hope at the idea of her escape into VR.



As the story concludes, I’m incredibly drawn to be physical with Wife. I say some silly line that I can’t remember (but I remember even then thinking it was really cheesy, ) and Wife looks unimpressed. I shut up for a bit, though, and now she’s interested too and we start making out. Things proceed quickly and we go to the floor for sexytime.

I'm leaving out most of the details because this got quite graphic, but one part in particular was very striking.

Spoiler for Explicit:

During orgasm, Wife grabs up handfuls of carpet and the carpet bunches into her hands like she's grabbing up bed sheets. It's just one of those dream details, but it's probably the sexiest thing I've ever seen in a lucid dream.

As we continue this, a woman dressed like a food vendor at a baseball game wanders by. The box of items she’s wearing contains haptic gloves instead of food! She notices what Wife and I are doing and looks interested, beginning to take off her box of gloves so she can join us. Wife waves her away, though, and she wanders off.



A window to the left catches my eye and Wife and I somehow flow from what we’re doing to standing beside it, dressed again. We’re looking over a city skyline set against a reddish sky. Wife is surrounded by a faint red halo, too, and she looks stunning. I place my arms around her waist and lean in to be as close to her as I can.

The building nearest to us towers above the rest. As I look at it, the other buildings fade into the red sky. This building has a large sign on top of it that reads: “Miranda Gloves”. After a moment of looking at this, I wake up.

I'm listening to a man die while I remain in hiding. I'm thinking that maybe I should have moved sooner and saved him, even though I'd have risked being seen - but I don't have any particular emotion about this, except maybe a little irritation at myself. I've been sent into this old stone ruin of a fortress, and I'd intended for only five particular men to be spared. Now I'm down to four. It's not ideal, but I'll have to live with it.

I couldn't hear her very clearly from my hiding place under their bed, but the woman who stabbed him said something to the effect that he should have recognized her. Some personal revenge thing - none of my business. Now I'm seeing the sort of smoke haze of colors passing before my eyes that I associate with life leaving a body. I watch it dissipate in the air, and I'm irritated at the waste. Waiting around is pointless now - and the woman should be directly above me. I stab up through the mattress.

When she dies, my perspective shifts. I'm floating in the void, with this massive black slab of a door in front of me, as wide as it is tall, some kind of geometric symbol across it. It's standing on this sort of grid far below, like a chess board where all the squares are black, with the door as a line across the center of the board. There's a few gravestones occupying some of the squares of the grid - that's new. I realize immediately they represent the previous targets the door sent me after - one of them must represent that woman whose death brought me back here. The door's saying something in my head about bringing it wisdom for the dead.

+ straddled by an incredibly hot naked girl, we're trying to keep it on "just friendly" terms.
Don't recall the beginning, but at some point I see her and appreciate her amazing hot hard body, lie down (naked I think) on the floor and she straddles me. I put my hands on her butt and try to pull her down on top of me firmly, but she resists and hovers her lower body just above contact with me. Meanwhile her face is right in front of mine but I'm kissing her only tentatively lightly on the cheek -- for some reason we resist fully going at it, like we're trying to keep it on friendly terms...

+ college girl sex fair, encounters for as low as $4.99, I'm indecisive about whether to participate, I realize my wallet is missing and spend the rest of the time trying to backtrack / find it
I'm walking around an indoor/outdoor fair where college girls are selling sex, I'm not really interested in participating at first. At first I see a pile of cardboard with apparently someone underneath it and imagine this is the "room" available for the encounter and am not really interested in that. But then I see a young black guy coming out of a tent followed by a naked hot black girl and he says, "yeah, $4.99 man, it's totally worth it". I'm still trying to decide, and think I'd have to ditch my father who's around somewhere in order to participate. I realize all of a sudden that my waist bag is missing and that it wasn't missing earlier,it must have been stolen. I try to backtrack and find it, but I never do. At some point I walk through a dressing room and exit to the outdoors, there's a school scene (with zoo animals?) on the other side of a fence under blue skies

+ some sort of conflict situation in a strange environment
I end up in a room with some people and am talking about a large cabinet and radio stations.

I wasn't practicing seriously for the last couple weeks as I felt too busy with work to devote much time to journaling, so my motivation to LD was also low (because successful attempts commit me to hours of writing if I'm going to record them right). Last night I felt more motivated so instead of playing video games late at night I went to bed early (11:30pm, early for me anyway) and put in a solid WILD attempt, with a full two-hour WBTB (from 1:45am when I woke up naturally until 3:45) followed by 14 minutes seated meditation and the usual counting ritual on returning to bed.

The attempt felt promising as I didn't fall asleep too quickly but maintained liminal awareness for awhile, and it was around 4:15am when I finally went back to sleep. However I did not achieve a WILD, and experienced nothing but an extremely vague NLD (something about a shoot-out, I was a young man in Vietnam I think, maybe during the war, the guys on my side had a sort of built structure to take positions in but it was full of rats, and my character felt very uncomfortable about the rats).

I woke up again at 6:30am and was desperate enough to take galantamine, even though I hate the after-effects and it hardly works for me anymore. This was followed by another vaguely-recalled dream which involved distinct manifestations of dream control (elaborate flying and levitation, which felt like I was deliberately testing the limits of my abilities) but very little dream awareness. At the end I was having what felt like a very meaningful conversation with a DC, but I don't remember what we talked about. It felt like there was great complexity to this dream as well as the previous one but my recollection was not sufficient to preserve it.

At 8:30am I woke up again, realized I had another bust, and as a last resort tried my vibrating alarm. I felt it go off three times but each time it jostled me out of sleep and I didn't feel like there was much I could do dream-wise, nor did I remember any dreams of note. The last time I at least remembered to try to DEILD but the REM atonia was apparently already broken, so it didn't work. I've always been able to instinctively DEILD-chain my WILDs, even before I knew what it was called, but for some reason that is the only situation in which I've been able to pull it off. Woke up for the final time at 9:30am and now I'm frustrated enough to declare a dryspell. Writing a report anyway because it was a deliberate attempt and also so that my mind can't use the break from journaling as an excuse for not dreaming properly.

Hi everyone! I want to share with you a frightening (maybe not) dream I've had not last night, but the one before.

I was lyng on a surgical bed, while the doctor was preparing his instruments. Around us, only the purest darkness. He said the operation aim was to kill me in a slow and atrocious way. He took a little bisturi and cut my left hand's fingers with a diagonal line. I could see bone and blood. I was really scared while he was doing this, but I felt no pain, and so I accepted my coming death. He showed me two swords and asked me what was the one I liked most: one was a dark blue saber, full of reflections, the other one was yellow and a bit more opaque, and the edge was more straight. I preferred the second one, but I felt kinda of captured by the first, and I said it was my choice. He used it to pierce my heart, and blood scattered everyone. There was a still image showing the scene from my right, with me, the doctor and the objects which where nothing but shadows printed on a light brown background.
The doctor (surgeon/murderer) was angry because of my apathy.

I had this dream three times that night, one the doctor had yellow skin, and of the other one I remember nothing.

Seems like cops and mercenaries have been recurring elements in my dreams, lately...

10/26/2014
"Maritime Mercenary Mayhem"

Spoiler for Short Version!:

Summary:
Long, hazy lucid dream having to do with cops-turned-mercenaries, hidden treasure, a massive battle on a waterside cliff, and then becoming lucid just before tearing a tank apart with my bare hands. Good times.

This was a crazy, long dream. I really don't remember all of the details, but will do my best. I was with my family, and we were having a small party. Sometime during the night, the neighbors ended up calling the police, and there was a huge ordeal about it. The cops turned out to be mercenaries (again), and we found out that the reason they were messing with us had less to do with our noise than it had to do with some hidden treasure, that they were after, thinking that we had something to do with its disappearance.

There was a lot of action, in this dream, and we were in constant skirmishes withe these mercs. I remember being out on the water, and the mercenaries had some sort of cliff-side fortress, on a peninsula, which we were trying to storm, conceivably to get a hold of whatever treasure it was that they were looking for. My allies and I died many, many times and I just kept re-spawning back in the same place, destined to repeat the scenario. (Likely a throwback to Edge of Tomorrow, but the fortress reminded me much of Alcatraz in The Rock.) It became less about us trying to get away from the mercs than it was about trying to beat them at their own game.

It was around this time that I realized I was dreaming. We were heading back to the fortress, on a small, military-style motorboat. My best friend T was now with us, even though I don't think he had been there the whole time. Now lucid, I was revved up and ready to face this mercenaries again, and I was expressing my excitement to T, talking about my lucidity and trying to get him to join in, once the fighting started again. I took a look at my hands and grounded myself into the dream, hoping to make it last as long as possible. Off to one side, an enormous mech suit or robot towered about waste-deep in this ocean. It looked to be Godzilla-sized and had a shiny, metallic-gray body with blades that stuck out to all sides. T commented on it, and I told him about how it just had been standing there, throughout the entire battle, immobile, and was nothing that we needed to worry about.

When we arrived to the small, waterside fortress, which had two tall towers rising above the jagged rocks on one side of the shore, it was all-out war, once again. At first, I stuck to using firearms, as I had done earlier in the dream. We pushed into the towers, making our way up through the levels, periodically ducking in and out of cover while mowing through enemy after enemy. Just as we had completely taken the upper-hand, I found out that one of the girls in my group, to whom I had been really close, was abducted from the fray, in a tank, and taken away from the tower, further into the mainland. From the top level of the tower, I could see the tank speeding away through the dirt, maybe 100 yards from the base.

I planted my feet, bent my knees and then launched myself into the air, flying straight through the roof of the tower (not sure if I broke through or phased through) and into a high arc over the rocky terrain before dropping me, feet first, directly onto the body of the tank. Through the front window slot, I could see the mercenaries scrambling to attempt to attack. Both the machine gun and cannon began whirring around in my direction, taking aim on me from point blank range. (This is surreal, now that I look back on it, because even though I was standing on the front of the tank, the cannon was, somehow, short enough to still be aimed at me.) I laughed at them and told them that 'this was my dream' and I was in control, standing my ground and egging the weapons to begin blasting away at me. When the firing began, I pushed my hands out in front of me, feeling the bullets bouncing harmlessly off of my palms, along with a couple of explosive shells which did no more than their smaller counterparts. I just kept all of my focus on pushing away, and it created a sufficient enough barrier that not a single shot was able to penetrate. When the shooting ceased, I reached one arm down below the barrel of the cannon, planting the other one on the deck. I then shoved the cannon upward, trying to bend it up and away from me. Instead, the barrel didn't bend, but rather the entire top portion of the tank ripped open like the lid of a wet cardboard box, exposing the two or three terrified mercenaries (and female hostage) within.

My memory gets really muddled, around here, and I don't remember much detail. I know the fighting went on, but my recall skipped ahead until sometime after the ordeal was over. T and his girl were pulling up in a car as if they were picking me up. I, still being lucid, walked toward the approaching car and phased through the front of it, turning around to sit in one of the back seats. We all got to talking, and they were being pretty 'hush-hush' about something that they had 'brought back' from our ordeal with the mercenaries. No sooner did they say this than a few ghosts of our earlier allies (who hadn't re-spawned back to life) poked their translucent heads through the back seat (having been stowed away in the trunk). They said they were smuggled off the battlefield and that there was some plan to bring them back to life. Though I was happy to see them, part of me figured that the mercenaries would find out about this, and would soon be chasing us down again.

That's all I can remember.

As I Transit , I became unable to move ,hearing a very loud sound , and feeling that the pressure changes.
Like a compression. So here I am , able to do nothing . In app. 10 seconds later this ends.
I'm in . I stand up , I'm in a bit different room , the lamps are a bit different, there are some unfamilliar thing..
There used to be an electronic clock on top of the TV which show the time in red colour . Now on the left side of the TV , there is another clock like that , difference is , this one was glowing in light blue instead of red.
It showed 15:00 minutes, I guessed that its all the time I have in this dream , but then I blinked for testing.
It changed, with the original clock. It was quite funny and fascinating , I played with it for a minute and then leaved the house.
I decided to walk to the neighbour , and kill them with a lightning ,for the fun.
But I was unable to cast the lightnings. Nevermind then
I continued walking and then I met with an old woman, with blonde hair and weird greenish-bluish eyes.
She looked a bit surreal , and now she wanted to hug me for no reason , and said something but I did not paid attention. So I threw her with an aikido technique , and then she charged to me and I threw her again, and again and again, In the end it looked like if we practice aikido , I'm the tori and shes the uke. lOl
Then remembered that I need a dream guide, I asked her in english if she is, . She said something again but I did not understand. I asked her if she can teach me something, She started to talk , but hell if I remember what she said.
In this second ,when shes talking, the dream fades away, I tried to relax and stabilize , but failed .

The room was dark visibility was very low in the room. I could make out the walls the door frame and the bed I was on. I hear somebody in the shower in the distance as I hear the water running. I look around and hear my father inlaws voice. He is talking to me but I cannot find out from where. It seems like he is outside the door but while sitting up in bed i cannot see him. I think to myself. This must be fake I must be dreaming. I pinch my nose shut and try to breath, a rush of air comes swarming in, it works! I then say lets just make sure again so I look at my hand and poke my finger through it. I feel the feeling as my finger slowly pushs through. I look up and think to myself, my DG will come to me. As I think this a male voice fills the room and yells EARTH QUAKE! like its trying to use a special ability. I think to myself that my wife isnt in bed with me which is odd. But think i think back to where my DG is. I see this figure come into the room its looks still confuse me. it had a white dress and a female figure. But its arms and head was not that of any human. There was brown and red and blue and other colors floating around the object. My best description would be somebody made of rock but the rocks are not touching they are being held up by water and filling the gaps of the rocks. On the outside of it all though is fire. The figure stepped onto my bed and began to stradle me. I panicked and got scared of the object and woke myself up.

This is as close as ive come so far to seeing my DG other attempts I lose the dream before im able to try and get my DG to come. Last time i got this close i became lucid and thought to myself my DG will be behind me but as i said this I closed my eyes and couldnt open them again without openining my waking life eyes.

11/03/14 Was very lucid for perhaps 45 minutes. I met up with DG and she got a bit mad at me because I seem to worry about sex way to much in my dreams. She started to take my dream away, so I stated that I knew I needed to learn control and focus, and stop being so wild or I would loose her.
She brought me back, and we spent the time in nice foreplay. We practiced using a stabilzation method I made up every time the dream became iffy. I would reduce all the visuals down to just one of her nipples and place my full attention into ... well you know. It worked very well and I was able to treat her right over at least 15 minutes, instead of the normal beasty dream stuff.

Two days after the last entry she came to me and announced that for now she was not allowed to bring me with her anywhere. It seems her friends despise me and feel I am an ignorant savage or something like that.
She still seems to be sticking with me though. She even made out with me after that. Perhaps she is more like a Dream Girlfriend (DG) than a Dream Guide (DG)

10/20/14 I was taken by the new female DG who seems to be the older of the 3 women I have known before, to a large event. I am feeling pretty sure The Diplomat has been reborn, and left me to her care.

I think I disappointed her. I kept finding it funny to change the visuals in order to make female guests appear topless. When she threatened to send me away, I tried to covertly make female guests hair style do silly things, like stand straight up.
I need to gain more inhabitions when astral. I should remember to stabilize and perhaps start using a mantra to remind me to behave.

I suddenly appeared outside like I had been tossed out one of the doors. I sensed 3 men around the corner and got very suspicious they intended to rough me up for messing with the female guests. I leaped up on top of a near by spire before they could act. They came out and tried throwing black energy clouds up at me. I did not throw anything back at them, as I knew I was already the bad guy here, really. Instead, I threw my own energy at theirs and thus blocked it.

I left the astral all together and practiced running upside down on ceilings. It was inspired by Inception, and I even got my prespective to cahnge so gravity seemed to come from the ceiling.

Another sludgy dream last night. The clarity is picking up a little, but not much. I'm sort of on a dry spell. I was driving with S to my college and I pulled over and made S get out because we were running low on gas.
I then drove about half a mile to a gas station, and pulled up. I was ready to pump the gas and realized that I had to go pee. I was also thinking that I should go back and get S where I left him, by the side of the road.
I went into the gas station and in the bathroom, for some reason, there was no toilet, just a large PVC pipe sticking out of the floor. The gas station was doing maintenance or something, and I figured It was where the toilet was supposed to attach, and that I could just do my business in it.
So I'm doing my thing and I realize that this situation is actually rather absurd, so I start reality checking. For some reason it takes two nose pinches and a host mental questions for me to properly become lucid. When I became lucid, I realized that if I was having dreams about peeing, that I might have to get up and go to the bathroom, otherwise I could wet the bed. So, I simply woke myself up.

Well I didn't have to go to the bathroom in WL. Kind of wasted a lucid there.

I was thinking about something on the drive to college. When I started lucid dreaming, three and a half years ago, my goal was nightly lucidity. I would sometimes say to myself that I wanted to 'become' a natural lucid dreamer. To be honest that is still my goal, and I getting closer. I have about one lucid dream a week now, and no shortage of close calls and partially lucid moments in-between. I'm really not that far off from my goal, but there is still work to be done.
Late October was a good time for me, and now I seem to be in a bit of a slump. Probably due to stress in WL. I was thinking about holding off on lucid dreaming a little bit this next week or so, letting the dry spell blow over and focusing more on issues in waking life. Because for me to be truly happy, both my waking life and my dream life have to exist harmoniously. So I might be a little less active in this next week or two. By no means will I stop posting, but I might only log on once a day to lay out a quick nonlucid DJ entry.
Back on the topic of my nightly lucidity goal. I was thinking about how all too often I forget that I shouldn't just be focused on the end result, but perhaps the journey along the way, too. This hasn't always been an easy mindset to have for lucid dreaming. To me, I always thought of 'completing one level before moving onto the next'. By that I mean, attaining nightly recall before I started practicing lucid techniques. Then, attaining nightly lucidity before practicing stabilization techniques. Then, I with a consistent means to lucid dream, I could learn stabilization and dream control with no shortage of windows to practice. But that isn't the way it's happened for me, or anybody else. I've been developing all of those skills little by little. So I'm going to try and change my mindset; lucid dreaming is an adventure to be had, in all of its stages.