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Time snapshots
I'm driving in my car to go to my chiropractor. I realize it's still morning, and I don't have my appointment until early afternoon, but for some reason I don't turn around. I realize it's about ten thirty, and I know I have a conference call at eleven, so I just need to be sure not to miss it. I go through a light in the right lane which turns into a right-hand-only turn lane. I somehow end up letting the car coast to a stop. I'm really confused about what's going on. Two large trucks are to my left, also stopped. I remember there's an app on my phone that saves snapshots in time and lets me go back to them. I quickly pull it up and hit the Back button. With a sound like a timebug in World of Goo, I'm back at the last light, going through it. I know this is too late - I'm about to get stuck on the turn lane - so I hit the button again. Now I'm at the previous light, and I have time to switch lanes before I get stuck.

I'm really excited about this. If I can rewind time yet still remember everything that happened, the possibilities are endless! I can read all the books I want, then rewind time so that the reading took no time at all! I can spend a long time solving a difficult problem, then rewind time and remember the solution. I try to think if there's a way to bring something back with me, a completed piece of work, but I don't know how that could be done. Maybe there's a way to time-proof a USB stick? I start to think about sleep - surely being awake for a long time would take its toll? - but then I reason I can sleep whenever and then rewind time to before I slept.

I'm still driving. It's almost time for my appointment, so I can't turn around, but I'm still going to be pretty early. I'm on a two-lane road with lots of trees. Someone is trying to come out of a driveway on my left but waits for me to pass first. Now I'm walking into a strange structure. I'm in a short stairwell that's C shaped. The lighting is pretty dim. I start to walk up, then realize I'm still too early. I hear someone coming down and hurry out; I feel like I'd be embarrassed if I met them. Now I'm back outside walking down some steps. I pass a maintenance worker going the other way. I realize I'm wearing only my V-neck undershirt. He comments "nice neck." I'm a little embarrassed but I don't worry about it too much.

Now I realize that I can undo this whole trip if I have a snapshot from before I left. I go to pull up the time snapshot app, but I find that I have a bunch installed and it takes a moment to figure out which is the one I'd been using earlier. I'm disappointed to see that it only has three snapshots. The main listing only shows the time the snapshot was taken and not the date; I have to click the triple-dot icon to get a details page. One seems to be some kind of default snapshot - the date is 1-1-00 - and I'm not going to touch that. The next has a very strange label that I don't understand. In trying to get details about it I somehow put it into Sharing mode. I have no idea what it means to share a time snapshot, but I wish I hadn't done it.

Now I'm walking down a hallway in a building similar to the one I work in. Windows are floor to ceiling to my left, though there are occasional pillars and lots of moving boxes piled around. A wall is to my right, occasionally opening out into an office or other open area. I realize I'm now completely naked and don't have the phone any more. Oddly, I'm not embarrassed at all, more annoyed at myself. I have the feeling the phone is on my jeans on one of the piles of boxes further back in the hallway, but I'm not positive. I realize I have to get the phone: if I do, I can undo all of this. I turn around and start heading the other way. A couple of women come out of an office in front of me. I sidestep behind a pillar and use a hand to cover myself, nodding respectfully to them as they pass. Neither one takes any notice of me.

After the women pass without comment, I realize this is a dream. I do a nose-pinch RC to further convince myself, and I'm not surprised to feel air moving through my closed nostrils. I immediately try to remember my current goals. I know that number one on the list is to look at and count my fingers. I hold up my right hand and look at it. I have five fingers, but when I hold them stretched out, my middle and ring fingers are at a very obtuse angle - a little further and they'd be pointed directly away from each other. I keep looking and my hand kind of blurs; now it looks almost as if my left and right hands are superimposed on top of each other. I can see a thumb and pointer sticking out of each side, and there's a jumble of fingers in the middle. When I bend my pointer, I see it moving on both sides of my hand. I wiggle another finger and see both copies wiggling. I had been hoping I'd get an extra finger that I'd have conscious control over. Oh well, maybe another time.

I remember the next thing on the list was to try to become extra aware of my environment. To my left is what looks like a small section from a dollar store. Shelving units are filled with all kinds of junk. I decide to reapply the nose pinch (using my left hand) to help keep me focused, then start to look at the items on the shelves. The shelf nearest me has what look like baby bath toys. As I'm trying to slowly move my attention from one to another, I realize that I'm now holding my upper lip instead of my nose, so I readjust my fingers to once again hold my nose. I notice a couple of stacks of items on the shelf, and I realize they're shaking. I identify this as the dream not being as stable as it should be. I try to stare at them, willing them to stop shaking, but it doesn't work (in hindsight, focusing on them gave the vibrations more power; I should have just ignored them). I give up on it and keep walking along the corridor, coming out into a larger room. I get stuck with my eyes closed and I try to focus on breathing through my closed nose. After a few moments, the feeling of breathing through my nose changes subtly - more like my nose is stuffed - and I "realize" I've woken up so I can't breath through a pinched nose any more. I wake up for real moments later.


Fragment:
I'm trying to do something for a group of women. Nothing I do makes them happy, and I'm starting to feel really frustrated.

My mom and I were at oak grove when she was startled by a rooster flying about in trees. Some people nearby wondered what we were looking at. My mom thought that we might try to catch it in a net. She swings and misses. The chicken then morphs into an ostrich. It's pretty cute, and my mom and others attempt to usher it into the pickup. It sort of pecks at my face, but I wasn't too worried. In a later fragment, Raychelle was with me as we watched a commercial that featured the ostrich, and I forgot that she had been there. She was a little offended by my not remembering her. She claimed that it had to do with her physique and assured me that she was growing into her pants.

Small fragment behind some mail warehouse. I saw the slot where mama n papa's mail is supposed to go. It was a small slot with both of their signatures. I watched as trainee drivers were practicing going in reverse.

There was a series of huge waves crashing on the shore. I was in a group that was attempting to evade the crashes. The group included Steve and Eric. We eventually caught one of the waves and rode it very far inland.

Last two fragments fit in somewhere just not sure where. They are both lucid fragments. The first took place after parting with my family in some small city. I became lucid while walking and walked to a cute girl and asked her to come with me. She sat down on a bench of some kind and I began to feel her up. Wake up. The other fragment was with a group of women peers who I guess I just had sex with. I could feel my cum on my leg. They were discussing the possibility of a large group sex interaction. I was excited but expressed concern that I would cum to early. I became lucid and walked over to Stephanie, told her this was a dream, and told her we were gonna have sex right then. I remember being aware of how little traction there was and woke up.

So I dreamt that I was in the downstairs bathroom shapeshifting myself into stuff. I thought it was real life, so I thought, "AWESOME SHAPESHIFTING CAN'T WAIT TO DO STUFF." Out of habit, I did a reality check. The check itself worked perfectly, but I didn't care because FREAKING SHAPESHIFTING POWERS. So, not conscious enough to prolong the dream, I woke up a few minutes later and was disappointed.

My latest G night was mostly a fail so this will be quick. I did enjoy a lot of very vivid dreams but I just could not hold on to awareness like I usually do plus I had quite a few distractions.

I tried to DIELD three times and got into the vibrational transition stage. I enjoyed some really amazing physical sensations but each one was interrupted by either my wife turning over or one of the cats meowing at the door or my son crying out. The last time I managed to hold on to the vibes for a long time despite interruptions but I lost focus and I either woke up or fell non lucid. I'm not sure which.

I did hit a DILD once while looking in a mirror. I recognized the bathroom I was in looked like a house from my childhood, but I quickly lost it because the nose plug failed. It's amazing how that has been happening. I even had the thought that it was too bad since this wasn't a dream because it was so clear and vivid. My reflection even looked normal for once. I then went to bed to try to do an in dream WILD but I got many interruptions even in my dream. I guess it wasn't my night.

Semi lucid:

I was trying to pee in urinal in a strange bathroom but it felt like I was about to pee myself in bed. I was in and out of lucidity there trying not to pee myself but also thinking theres a urinal in front of me. I eventually woke up in time to go to the bathroom.

Other non lucid dreams:

I won $11 million in a slot machine but the machine was giving out actual cash and ran out. I spent the rest of the dream trying to convince the casino that I deserve the rest of my cash.

I played guitar with a band for the duration of one song. This one was very life like and convincing. The feel of the strings and actual chords that I remember was spot on. After the song the dream went to some other jumbled nonsense.

There were some more but I do not remember them since I failed to record anything. I was too intent on DEILD/WILD to bother with it.

*Anyone reading this, to encourage me to keep up my DJ online I am going to start to paraphrase many of my entries...too much work for me at the moment*

1230? ~545-620? ~7am=wake from DILD, vibration mantra, SSILD, sleepy mantra. #95

Awareness DILD after ~5hour, wbtb. Once again I have a driving DILD. I am looking at my dashboard wondering why it is one solid dashboard without any of the normal items, not any of the plethora of items on my dashboard...nothing! Confusion for a second, then, I am dreaming! I very quickly decide to fly up out of the car (my mindset is...the car is immaterial, kind of like "there is no spoon" from The Matrix). I fly around but it is dark and I decide to fly up into space again stopping to look back down at Earth. The view is a little fuzzy. I decide to try out the Bonus TOTM. I fly back down look for a body of water, hold out my hands superhero style and freeze it. I spawn a pointed saw and start to cut a hole before I end up fading back to bed. Lasted maybe several minutes.

Edit: to add record of short dild during morning nap. I don't plan to count this one. After a few hours I went back to bed and had an awareness dild just before waking. I had just ran into the house taking cover from geese flying overhead shut the door and shortly after heard a wood chipper going at what felt like the early morning and I realized I must be dreaming before waking up.

Note: I literally had about 20+ FA's last night, so I'm going to put down what I remember, from the ones I remember. Also, my "finger biting" RC is used for every single one of these.

1. I woke up, RC'd and became lucid. For the first time ever, I remember to stabilize by rubbing my hands together, whihc is why this one lasted so long. I ran to my sister Karens room. Now, I've always wanted to fly in my dreams, but could never quite achieve it so I woke Karen up and asked her to take me and show me how to fly. She said okay and told me to get on her back. I did, and she took us out front and jumped down the steps. We glided over my front gate and onto the sidewalk, but she said it was too much weight to fly. So, I tried alone, and failed. Then, plan B came into play. Plan B, is sex. I remembered that I saw Karen's friend Melissa (who is smoking hot) sleeping in her room too, so I returned there. I rolled her over and began making out with her and kissing her in, uh, places you wouldn't usually kiss people, etc. but she kept pushing me away, which made me kinda mad. But, then I saw her other friend, alexus, and began eating her out.Unfortunately, I woke up. Or at least I thought I did.

2. I was in my room, "awake" and I didn't RC, so this is the only one I wasn't fully lucid for. I just recall there being demons and what not in my room, messing with me and playing bass guitar, etc. I got horrified and ran to Karen's room and slept in there. Then I "woke up" again.

3. I woke up in my room again, and I realized that that was impossible, because I slept in Karen's room. I RC'd and went lucid. It was then that I realized what was wrong. I was stuck in a loop of FA's. At this point, I thought it was pretty cool because I had more chances to do stuff. So, I headed downstairs to attempt flying again, but, in my kitchen, was Alice. Alice is quite possibly the hottest girl I know, so my mind was quickly changed about what to do. I asked her if I could see her iPhone and she let me. I started filming her on it and she kept laughing and telling me to stop. She ran to the bathroom and I followed her in and shut the door. I began eating her out as well, through her sweat pants and then turned her around, pulled her pants down and put my face in-between her butt cheeks and just sat there, in ecstasy. But, before anything could be done, I "woke up" yet again

4. I was in my room, I Rc'd and was lucid. Now, at this point I was on the verge of crying because I felt as if I'd never wake up, and I even began trying to wake myself up to no avail. So, I figured if I'm stuck in my dream, I ought a have fun. So, I returned to Melissa and successfully had sex with her and it was awesome. I "woke up" again.

This process went on for an unimaginable amount of time, but eventually I woke up, and looking back, it was actually very enjoyable. If this happens to you, don't be worried, because you'll waste a very long lucid dream, and whats the point in that? I went from fearing FA's, to loving them! Hope to have another like it soon!

Other people have monsters, dragons or at least a rabid dog to threaten them - me - nope.
I have a horror-rabbit - second time.
Last night I had one moment of semi-lucidity - but was happy with having 5 fingers - got to change RC - my dreaming self knows now the number of my fingers.
They were blurry and unclear - but the fixation on counting was hindering me.

Bit later in that dream - I got attacked by said killer-rabbit - I admit - I am a bit embarrassed by my subconscious choice of opponent..

It was nasty - I got lucid - and then it jumped me and bit into my arm - it hurt!!
I thought about anotherdreamer and his gnawing demons and tried to love it - still hurt - so I rather made a roar and flung it away.
And good was.
And lucidity was also gone..

I was in a nice quiet bar with my brother and friends. I had no money but for some reason i ordered 50 shots. I started drinking and wondered how i am going to pay for all that. After about 25 shots which tasted like liqour i thought why the hell i arent drunk? Well when i started drinking i became drunk which was kinda weird because it felt lot like being drunk in reality. I had already 500€ tab and went to speak with my brother that we should drink as much as we can the make run for it. We all started drinking and the bartender asked me havent i had enough i said no give me some drink. I drank some delicious fruit drink and asked him to give bear. It tasted like a normal bear. After i had drank my bear i told my brother and friends to make a run for it. We ran away from a bar to restoraunt opposite side of road. The dream changed a little at this point. I somehow got met Gordon Ramsey and we bought some fancy food. I still remember the tastes but it wasnt that good what we ate. Gordon got mad when i said this tasted like shit. Then i said something back at him and decided to go vip area of that restoraunt where my brother was supposed to be. When i tried enter a woman stopped me and asked my vip ticket. I had lost it and called her a bitch for being so annoying about it and decided to leave the place. Then a restoraunt staff tried to stop me because i hadnt payed my food but i wrote them a check with fake id which worked. I then wispered to someone i knew that i faked a check he could try the same and said i was going to leave. I went outside and felt the cold air on my skin. I looked around and didnt reconize the place and had no idea where to go so i decided to try to go to a vip area where my brother was. I went this time from different way where only staff was supposed to go and i got to the top floor where was bright white lighting and my brother was there. I started explaining him stuff and realize in middle of our conversation "wait a minute. This is a dream" I stopped talking to my brother saying he isnt real and rubbed my hands together. I was amazed how clear and focused this lucid dream was. After stabilizing the dream i walked towards window and walked trough it. I then levitated down to a ground and thought what should i do. I looked around saw a bus station with to people and decided to try telekinesis. I made a women coffee cup fly off of her hands and she freaked out. I started smiling and made a guy bike fly over a building. For some reason i felt bad for the guy because he seemed so sad so i made a bike appear to him again. After this i wanted tp fly again so i started levitating to air and felt the cool air on my skin and wind blowing. After i was about 10 metres in air i stopped and looked around and was amazed of the view. Being at same height as the building were but just levitating in air was so amazing. Then everything started to black out and i woke.
This dream was insanely detailed. Coolest part of the dream probably was when i was drinking at bar because i tasted so many different drinks at it felt so real that when i woke up it didnt felt like it was a dream but that it actually happened.

I was lying in bed and I did the hold your nose RC. It worked so I tried to open my eyes but I couldn't for some reason. I blinked and closed my eyes and tried to open them but it didn't work. My eye was barely open and blurry. I did some stabilization things and they finally opened. I walked to the door and decided to try and fly to a new scene. I went out and tried to make some flying shoes appear behind me on the steps outside by turning my back but instead I made a revolver pistol appear. I picked it up. I went over to the Werdine's and went into there house because the doors weren't there. There was a stranger in there so I shot at him but kept missing so I ran out the garage and now he had a gun and was shooting at me. He was missing but I shot him in the balls but the bullet was a hard plastic torpedo thing instead. I then tried to fly away but my eyes did that thing again. I continued jumping higher and higher anyway until one time I jumped as hard as I could but straight out and low to the ground. I then willed myself to go higher and faster. I did it, I was flying! Then the dream faded.

I woke up in my bed and tried a RC it worked so I got up and went to the kitchen. I leaned against the counter and my dad leaned against the one opposite me I looked around and analyzed the entire living room. The dream was pretty hazy but when I really focused it would be more clear. Then I went out the tool room door into the empty parking places and heard my dad who was now outside say something about scout being anorexic. I felt the dream fading and spun around. Then I looked at my hands and they were deformed. Then it was like my vision paused and I kept seeing my hands until the dream faded.

Mom signed me up for music lessons with some friends from SJE like Lawson and Graham. The group had a catchy name I can't remember. For some reason I had to find the group at my house but it really looked more like Tyler's old house and I didn't know my way around. I went down some stairs to get outside. I realized I was in a dream while looking for them and decided I wanted to try and fly again. I walked to the middle of the porch and looked through the branches of a tall oak tree at the stars. I jumped up and down through branches to fly but just jump really high. The last jump I went up so high I was in the clouds and I kind of hung there for a while until my dream faded.

It was like 10 o'clock in the morning and I had just woke up and wanted to try FILD. I didn't move once waking and soon felt like I was going to fall back asleep. I started to wiggle my fingers and while I did it a whoosh came over my body.

I did it a little more then held my nose and tried to breath. It worked! I visualized my room and got up. I walked out and went out the back door to find myself on a baseball field in a park. I know I'm dreaming. Suddenly a helicopter crashes near by. I go down the street to to go into the nearby AMC movie theater and on my way find more helicopters crashing. I hear the radio talking about it as I walk. Now I'm at a playground right next to an office building. I do an RC. Then I hear a lady talking about how all the helicopters are crashing b/c of her not letting a bill pass or something. The dream faded and I woke up.

I got out of bed and realized it was a dream. I went into the kitchen and rubbed my hands together because the dream was already fading. I went our the front door and decided I wanted to fly. In the front yard I jumped and bounced like I was on the moon. Eventually I got all the way on to the roof and did flips and stuff but didn't fly. Suddenly I looked up and saw the northern lights. I thought it must have been the most beautiful thing ever. I went next door to get a better look. The Hershock's house was replaced with some other building or something and a few people came out to talk to me. The dream faded into a new one and I lost lucidity.

I woke up in my parents bedroom, walked out to the living room and looked out in the back yard. Will and Colton were driving their boat in circles in the pool and I yelled to my mom. She told me to go out and play. I got outside and I stood on the edge of the pool. The boat was now a large inner tube and they were just kicking it around the pool. We talked a little and they invited me in and told me to jump on. Instead I jumped in the water and then climbed on the tube. We spun around for a while and got out and suddenly I realized I was in a dream. I tell will to check it out cause I was about to go lucid. I did a few reality checks and spun around and then told the kid who I sit next to in us gov I was lucid we talked then I went to let scout in the front door. I walked out and scout ran to the Werdine's house but I went down the street. Nothing really happened. Now I was at a marina and my dad kept asking for help with the boat and I almost fell in the water and I lost lucidity. He kept asking until I woke up.

It was late at night and I was about to go to bed in my house, except I was sleeping on a mattress in the doorway between my parents room and the living room. I said goodnight to my parents and was about to try and get some sleep when I heard something over by my old room. I look in that direction and see through my open door the figure of a man, all black, more like a ghost or a shadow than an actual person. I decided to go over there and as I got closer I noticed the light in my sisters old room was on and I went in there instead and it was just like my sisters room before we changed everything around. Me and Christina sat on the bed and were served food and drinks by waiters in our house. I drank a few cups of pomegranate juice. They asked us how we liked everything. My sister said something like "this is to fattening" or something and I apologized for her and said it was very good. I then got up and went to look for that ghost thing in my room and went in there. I didn't find the thing but I suddenly realized "I'm dreaming, this is all a dream!" I look at my hands and they were so blurry I couldn't tell how many fingers I had. Yup, I was in a dream. I was walking through my kitchen from my old room to go to the bathroom so I could look in the mirror but then thought "what am I doing, I should be flying and going to the beach not looking in mirrors." But the dream was still pretty blurry so I stopped and rubbed my hands together and demanded "clarity now" and "make this dream vivid" and boy did it work. All of the sudden it felt just like real life, I felt the AC on my shoulders and the floor under my feet, and it kind of scared me how real a dream could seem. I opened my eyes and hoped to see how cool it would all be but it was blurry and getting worse so I tried spinning around to get some stability. It failed miserably and I woke up in my bed.