lucid

My wife is watching the girls at ex in-laws house. I don't see the ex any place but I see her parents working in the yard. There is some neighbor boy detailing cars. I go out to do something. I say, "Oh your washing the cars?
He simply replies "Yes." I notice we has drenched everything in Armor All. He looks at me and says, "I love armor all. Smell."
I tell him, OH! It's different but smells good." I notice a sweet chemical smell. Not bad. I walk about some and sit on a tail gate or some truck. I watch the ex in-laws working out side. I see my wife sit down next to me. Now that I am just sitting I have time to ponder. I say to her, "I don't know why I am here." I feel confused. I think harder. "Ha I am dreaming!" I laugh and slap my wife's leg. Blackness.

I lie still trying to remember the dream so I can record it. This causes and accidental DEILD.
I have an FA where I am entering the dream exactly on my phone. I start with the boy and enter all the details. I have a hard time getting the text to type out right. Something seems off. I see the ex in laws working again. I become lucid again. I speak to my ex mother-in-law sort of rudely. "Hey what are guys doing?
She pauses with a rake in her hand and says, "Getting ready to move."
"Oh ya where?"
"Next door."
"Psssh! What? This is a dream. There's no next door."
"Over there." She points to the old Mitchell house.
"Yeah right. I'm going to see."
I am curious because I always wondered what it looked like on the inside. I am instantly in the other front yard. I feel my steps are heavy like I stepped into a shallow hole. I breifly worry about waking but I feel like the dream is really stable. I think I will go on for a long time. I relax and go with where the dream will take me. I walk and see an impossibly long room for the house. The living room, dining room, and kitchen are all open with no dividing wall. There is blue carpet. I say, Notice some parts of the wall are bare sheet rock. I yell back behind me. "You still need sheet rock... I mean... um... texture. I get to the end of the room and see a raise section like a big square. "What is this? A stage?"
I hear ex father-in-law say, "Yes."
I turn around. I see her at the far end near the door and he is in the doorway.

Now I think to speak to the dream. "Hey let me as you something." She fades away and camouflages into the wall. She seems really nervous now. I ignore her and I go to him. He looks like L from work now. I feel the dream fading but ignore it. He's nervous. He knows what's happening. He walks away from me trying to avoid my question. I ask it anyway. "What does this dream represent?" He gives a nervous laugh and tries not to look at me.
I insist, "Oh common man. What does it represent? Does it mean anything?" More avoidance. I continue, "Or is it just Random bullshit?"
He gives another nervous laugh. Awkwardly he says, "I... don't...know."
I go blind now. I try to get one last word in. "Why not? Tell me!" I wake up and try to DEILD again but it is no use.

5:20AM Short WBTB With Coffee

I have a non-lucid about being in a collage dorm. I hear a woman make an anouncement on the intercom. She gets her words messed up and laughs and tries to correct herself. I think the more she talks the worse it gets. I see my wife and she says something about JM. I lay down to go to sleep.

I get SP. I feel the vibrations for longer than usual. I takes me some time to realize what is going on. I hear my wife saying, "Honey, get up. You're going to be late. Get up." I realize this is a dream and I think about getting into the dream. At that moment I feel her straddle on top of me. I open my eyes and see that fractal rainbow demon again. I screams a banshee scream like an electronic raptor. I try to scream in fear but I can't. I try to get up but the weight of the thing is holding me down. My hands are pinned above my head. Instead of fighting I say, "You are not real." I relax and push the thought of it all away and it leaves. I am now free to move. I am calm now and all fear leaves me. I get up but instead of leaving I get the idea to try and see my body. I turn around and in the dim light see that I am not there. I see my wife's form sleeping. I try to feel her face but she is like a phantom. My hand passes through and I hit her pillow. but it is just pillow. I try again and only paw at her pillow over and over. I stand up and say, "Oh well piss on it." I walk out if room and wake up.

This is my dream journal. I will be recording my experiences i have in my wierd mind here. enjoy!

It was my second lucid in a long time. There was another scenario I was in before this one but I forgot. I remember first spawning in a room with my old friends in high school. Chris, Johnny, and Jerimiah. But all I could is Chris' back. He was wearing the same red sweater he wore in high school.

Already lucid, I followed all three of them. I'd like to mention too, while I was lucid, I tried my best to try and stay in the dream for as long as I could. Our intention was to go in to Pacific High School and knock on a few classrooms. The school is very close. We're in cafeteria right now and it looks a lot like a dream where I saw Varaporn in.

The cafeteria was a really nice one. It gave a Las Vegas buffet kind of feel. Me and my friends walked past a few obstacles such as a boy, a little girl, and a drinking machine. Before we made our way past the drinking machine, there was something very strange. I was no long following anyone, instead, walking up past me were a few kids, similar to all three of my friends. The third kid who was passed me appeared to be a lot like an older version of me. It could of been Jerimiah but I had a strong feeling I was only in this dream to look back at my past.

Now that I was alone, I realized that I did visit this dream before. There were people around eating and talking to one another. At one point, I did meet a few friends I met in the past before, but there was one who caught my eye. Her name was Mylinh Thieu. I never met her in reality, we would only chat on Facebook. She was sitting in front of a door I wanted to pass by. I tried not to stare at her but she stared at me. This got me thinking about her and why we never ended up meeting each other.

After a few more tables I walked by, I finally reached a part where the dream was becoming harder to stabilize. I walked up in front of a girl and told her something. "We're in a dream." She looked a little shocked. I put my left hard on her right shoulder and left the area.

I found a new exit. There was a door. I opened the door and met a few people inside. I don't remember who they were. I quickly walked to them and told them something else. "If you're real, email me. It may be able to help me with my depression, or not depression, but an idea." Maybe the exact words but I do remember saying it could help with my depression. She told me okay, so I proceeded to the next room.

This was the last room I entered. There was no one in it. I began to become more worried about the time in the waking world. I saw a box of chocolate chip cookies on the counter in the room. It was Chip's Ahoy cookies. I walked up in front of it and grabbed it. At the time I grabbed them, the dream was fading away. I stared slowly at the ceiling and forced myself to wake up.

I woke up trying to move my legs and body. At first I wasn't able to but a few seconds later I did and woke up to this world...

12/15/12

Infused Potion
I am on a beach. I recognize the beach right away, it is the beach described in the hypnotic mp3 that I play as I fall asleep each night. I walk along the beach and look out at the water. At first there are a few people around, but I don't pay any attention to them. I keep walking until I see Rumplestiltskin from the Once Upon a Time series. He is holding a vial of potion and has a strange smile on his face. I wonder what he is up to. I can't shake the feeling he is up to something. When I get closer to him he throws the potion to me. I reflexively catch it. He says that's the potion I have been looking for. I ask since when does he give stuff away for free. He says not to worry about that, Q already took care of things. I wonder what Q might have done in order to get me the potion. I decide Q wouldn't have done anything that was too far out of line. Ok, so in order to make the magic of this potion merge into the potion I mixed up in my waking life I need to set it in the exact same place… I can't help but have doubts on if this could work. I have to take the potion to my room. I focus on a portal, but a portal doesn't open. A door appears from nowhere, however. I open the door and it leads to my bedroom. I go in and find the place where I put the waking life version of the potion. There is already a bottle sitting there. When I hold the bottle I got from Rumplestiltskin near the one on the book case, however, the two bottles merge. Well, if it's going to work that should do it. I lie down on my bed and wait to wake up.

I remembered a lucid fragment from the other night. I was standing in front of a topless engineer from Prometheus. I wanted to compare our height difference before making my move. I walked up to him, and I was eye level with his abs. The dream immediately faded. Don't remember how I became lucid, I think it was the really premature start of a DEILD because I remember having just woken up before that dream started and was already lucid. I had also just incubated a scene with the alien.

Getting closer Ophelia! You can do this!!

I wake up and look at the clock, then go back to sleep. I'm in a shopping centre and somebody I know is trying to get me going into a shop labelled 'Stargate', which sells merchandise and viewings for that show, which I've never watched, but I'm not interested because I don't think it sounds any good. At first I decide to go along anyway, although I think it is weird that they have such a niche place and it seems so successful. It occurs to me that I'm dreaming, and end up passionately lecturing someone about how they're just part of my dream, but in the end I start to think I might be awake after all and I am left feeling embarrassed. (This might have happened in a prior dream or a different scene, I can't quite place it at the moment.)

In the end I decide to go home instead (and the dream just skips from scene to scene, no need to walk anywhere) and I look at the clock in the car, but realise that every time I look at it, the time is different. At one point, it has the year on the end, 1932, and it occurs to me that it's a classic dream sign. I don't want to make another scene if I'm wrong, but with the case so strong, I end up getting out of the car to try and explore the dream world. I think about shouting for more clarity as you're supposed to do, but decide that would attract too much attention if it's not really a dream. I try spinning instead, but the only result is vertigo, and then the dream ends not too long after.

Between then and waking up, or maybe before the others, there is a fragment where I see a comedy sketch, except it was done wrong or something. When I did wake up, I notice that the time is over an hour earlier than the time I remember from when I woke up beforehand. It was probably a false awakening, and one that felt very real compared to the other dreams at that.

Non-Dream
Dream
Lucid

A couple minutes after going to bed after a routine awakening, I heard a whispering voice that said "Shawn, are you lucid?"I did a reality check and confirmed I was dreaming. As I went outside to fly, I noticed a dog I used to have. I jumped up to fly and noticed this dog started flying with me! I landed so he would land and flied faster and higher so he couldn't catch up. As I looked down, however, I noticed he was still following me, jumping over 7 foot fences into neighbors yards as if it was nothing. Eventually I landed and tried to get rid of him once and for all using telekenisis. My skills are still far too weak however. After several seconds of trying, I woke up.

I enjoyed getting back to a dream that was just pure play. I was a bit of a mall rat as a kid, so perhaps that's where the setting came from. Only regret: not looking for the video arcade!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #43: The Flying Mall Rat

I'm in a mall walking through a jewelry store out into the main hallway. I have to maneuver around a family coming toward me. For some reason I employ a fancy (and physically impossible) spin-move to get around them, twirling all the way around and sliding several feet across the floor. It suddenly occurs to me that I need to remember whether or not I'm dreaming and in this case it feels very obvious that I am.

I walk out into the main hallway and see that the mall is three stories high. There's mall music coming over the PA system. It sounds like it's three or four girls harmonizing, and they're singing about breaking up with some schmo. They're actually quite talented, with sort of a sound like a modern-day Andrews Sisters. The lyrics and the tune itself are utterly generic, but since it's my dream, I can be honest with myself and admit that I find it catchy.



I'm feeling excited and playful so I leap up onto the railing of a short stairway and grind down (in other words, ride down the rail on my shoes.) I want to see what things look like from higher up, so I hop up to the second floor, grab onto the railing and swing myself over. I then perch my feet on the railing and leap upward across the gap to the third floor's railing.

At this point, I remember the Christmas carol Task of the Month. For some inexplicable reason, I decide that "Grandma Got Run Over by a Reindeer" is a Christmas carol and try to see whether I can remember it. In spite of it being several years since I heard it, the first verse comes back to me without any trouble, and I go swinging and leaping around the mall singing it, vaguely worried that I'm singing in waking life. From what I read in the TotM thread, this is a very common worry.

I spend a few more minutes having fun soaring around the mall. As I reach the end of the main hallway, though, I notice the entrance to a movie theater. I land on the ground floor and step inside the theater, curious what's playing. The theater is packed and I'm surprised by how many people I recognize from my own life. I walk through the crowd for quite a while, greeting old friends and acquaintances as I pass by them. The lights in the theater aren't dark yet, but everyone returns my greetings with whispers, as if they don't want to talk over the movie.

I happen on one friend, S, who appears to be the size of a child in her seat. For some reason I feel like I need to make her look "right" and tell her "Oh, you're much taller than that." She starts stretching out until her height seems correct, but now her head has gotten distressingly skinny. I start getting flustered and fixated and it's not long before I wake up.

Been a week or 2 but I am back, lets get down to business.

First off I was fully lucid for this whole dream.

I was in a tower that seemed to extend into the heavens. There was a staircase that spiraled upwards. I walked up this staircase for what seemed like a hour. I looked up to see how much higher I had to go. I saw that girl again standing in front of a door. I ran as fast as I could to get to where she was in hopes of confronting her. When I got there she was gone, so I opened the door to reveal a massive room. The walls where covered in shelves. There was a latter like in a library that extended up a fair distance. I decided to climb it. As I climbed i looked at what was on the shelves and I don't know how but I knew they were my memories. When I go to touch one of the memory's I instantly was some place else. I was standing in front of a camp fire at night, talking to some girl I don't know and we talked for about five minuets. I looked up at the fire and was transported again. This time it was to the center of my town. some guy walked up to me and said he was with the Molemen and they were taking my town for there own. At this point I just wanted to have some fun. So I told him not if I have something to say about it. Then I proceeded to flick him and watch him go flying. Now a bunch of the same guy I just flying surround me. I figure since I am dreaming why not try to fly away, and it worked I started to float away. I was about 30 feet off the ground when I looked down and saw her. That little girl was and she did something very different this time. For lack of a better way to describe this, she grew black angle wings and began to fly at me. This horrified me for some reason, I have only seen her move once before this and now she was coming towards me at a very fast rate. I looked up to the sky and awoke.

i had awareness in the bed, went to the street, had a look on the sky - there were some clouds. I made one of them to fly closer and made it snowing. It was really wonderfull, because snow brought some happiness and i began to laugh and jump)) But then i tried to make a snowball, the snow was dirty and the snowball wasn't white. It was yellow and grey;((((Then i tried to find the norh to sea aurora borealis, but half an hour spent going through walls and sellings, gave up it and went to real.

I found my self waking up and getting ready for school, I left in a rush and went to go car pool with my friend. I noticed after getting into the car I did not even bother getting out of my sleeping clothes and even walked outside with my blanket still around me. So I went back to my apartment to find something terrifying on my door, I saw an evict notice and then looked around and saw they had thrown only half of my stuff out of the apartment. I went inside and I saw they had removed all of the sanitary fixtures as well (Toilets, sinks, bathtubs). I started to get really scared and then I started thinking that I always pay my bills on time and this doesn't make any sense, and being evicted doesn't mean they will start throwing plumbing fixtures outside the apartment. At this point I realized I had to be dreaming and there was no way I was being evicted. I pushed my finger through my palm and realized it was a dream. Once I realized a dream I started to feel the world collapsing and I closed my eyes trying to stabilize the dream, I failed and the dream crashed. When I woke up I was in a totally new environment and had forgotten I achieved lucidity and I ended up with people I didn't know, I forgot why I did an RC here but I did and regained lucidity. I was in another families house and they were all staring at me smiling except the only one I payed any attention to was the little boy. I screamed "CLARITY NOW" and his face became more sharp, then I screamed "BRIGHTER COLORS" and his face had this greenish and purplish colored undertone. I waved my hand across his face trying to change the color on his face at will. When my hand passed his face hatched colored lines appeared around his face. Every time I waved my hand the colors of these lines would change but not his face, I was trying to change the colors to orange but it did not work, the colors changed to everything but orange. After I finished playing with this kids face I decided to fly out of their window. I ran towards the window and the blasted right out of it and straight to the clouds moving at incredible speeds, I could feel the power of my flying and the view of clouds everywhere was amazing, even while flying I yelled "CLARITY NOW" to make the clouds look sharper. I then changed direction and went straight down into the ocean, I was moving to fast to notice anything though even in the ocean. Then it ended and I woke up in my bed again thinking I just woke up from my lucid dream. Then my parents rang the doorbell and I let them inside, they came in and started complaining about how messy my apartment is and how there was shit on the counter-top. I never even noticed there was shit on the counter top, and I knew I could be a bit messy but shit on a counter top messy? I don't think so. I tried to do a reality check to see if I was dreaming and it actually didn't work this time. I don't know why it did not work but because it failed and I convinced my self I was not dreaming and this was reality, then the dream ended and here I am now on my laptop typing this journal. I basically had 3 lucid dreams, and every time a new dream started I lost lucidity and had to regain it (these dreams happened right after each other with little down time). I only wish I had experienced this before I feel like I could of done more with this lucid dream.

One night, I fell asleep in the bed with my laptop on my lap. Then I kind of woke up, but it was very different than usual.
I could feel my physical body, even see something (the dim light of my laptop), but I couldn't move.
Then I realized something, except for my usual "physical awareness" there was something else, like a dream construct, filled with fog, but it was a dream. Then immediately I had the thought "Yay! Let's have a lucid dream!".
Then the fog went away, I was in a forest area, with a large path. My dream body "spawned", and I kind of dropped on the ground from something like a meter and immediately started running (against my will). I could control the direction of my running, I could look around with my head, but I couldn't stop.
Then I tried the classic example of dream control: I shouted "there's a bunch of ninjas!" believing strongly that ninjas would appear but nothing.
After that, I completely lost control. I was running towards a huge tree (against my will), so I pointed my hand towards it (that WAS my will) and I wanted to make it burn, to make myself passage.
That didn't work either, and I just woke up.
The "dream construct" disappeared, and my physical body "gained priority" in my brain.

non-lucid
lucid

I'm taking a nap before work and I'm dreaming that my alarm didn't go off. When I try to figure out what time it is, the numbers keep shifting around or include letters. There's a tv at the foot of my bed that isn't there IRL, at first I'm looking at a website and then it's a video on the television. I get out of bed and start walking into the living room, trying to use my phone to call work to let them know I'll be in as soon as I can.
I start to become suspicious that I'm dreaming. I think "This is all pretty weird. If I look at my phone again and the clock isn't there then I'm dreaming." I look. The clock is missing. "Yes!" I think. I make it into the living room. For some reason there are two televisions in there. One is playing a movie about a dog. Suddenly I'm really small. I try to return to normal size but instead I just start floating. I can't seem to make my feet stay on the ground. The movie is annoying so I try to turn it off. Nothing works.
"Off!" I say, pointing at the TV. Nothing. I try that again in a few different ways, even just believing the TV will turn off when I say doesn't work. I start to get pissed off that I can't do something so simple. The screen gets static bars across it. Then the sound of static is annoying. I focus on the sound and it ceases. The static increases. "Guess in here I have no subtlety. Leave it to me to just destroy something when I can't make it work the way I want..." both televisions gain more static, I clench my hand into a fist and they become pure static. I laugh a little and realize I'm wasting my time. I could be doing something fun right now! I see a small window over the sink in the kitchen out of the corner of my eye.
I run at it, the sky is a perfect blue with puffy white clouds. I want to be flying. I open the window and I start climbing out----

My alarm goes off. sigh

Non lucid about my sister and DECA.

Feel like I was lucid but can't remember.

4:00 WBTB

4:20 back to bed coffee 200mg b6

SSILD

5:30 wake up feed baby. Vague memory about being lucid or dreaming about it. Something about trying again.

6:00 back to sleep one more coffee sip

vivid non lucid about some cops.

Wife's alarm 7am

I move around some but really focus on DEILD. I think I can hear the alarm again but I know she just hit snooze. Ignore it knowing I am about to be lucid. Now, I feel vibrations. I notice the sound from the box fan goes away completely. I can't move yet and I feel like I am not quite there. I wait a few more seconds. I imagine my feet moving over the side of the bed but its not working. I relax and notice the vibrations. Now my legs feel like they are floating and I move them over the side of the bed. As soon as I feel it I rush like the wind out of the bed and through the door. I didn't even bother to open it nor did I realize that I was phasing through.

Now I am standing in my dining room. I see light coming through the windows and the area I am standing in is lit but the rest of the house is dark. I run to the front door but everything goes black and I can feel nothing. I pause not wanting to wake up, I step back while rubbing my hands together until I am back in the light and can see.

Instead of fighting the dream I decide to try something else. I raise my hands in supplication and tilt my head back like I am praying to God. I say to the dream in a loud and clear voice, "Show me something important... PLEASE!" I pace around while asking this and end up walking into the kitchen. For some reason I always feel like I am really talking in my sleep and I worry that I will wake my wife up. This thought of the physical world makes the dream to begin to fade. I get the same visual as when I went to the front door. Dark nothing. So I back up rubbing my hands.

Now there is no light in the window. I can still see my hands but nothing else. Then, I can't even see my hands. I can hear the sound of the box fan again. I hold still for DEILD.

I feel vibrations and the fan fades out once more. I think instead of transitioning out of my "body" maybe I can visualize a new scene and skip all this escaping the house. My mind draws a blank and I just end up visualizing myself walking. I can feel my feet like they are moving in my bed. I feel the blankets rising and falling and the feeling of it on my toes. I laugh to myself knowing its not real. I rub my hands and together and it feels like I am really doing it. I lick the back of one hand. My mouth opening my tongue reaching out and touching my hand. The warm moisture of it. All of it feels as real as real life. Now for some reason, perhaps I am thirsty, I feel like I have a cup in my right hand. I am still blind and feel like I am laying in bed but I know the cup. It is the green plastic MSSU cup we got at the art walk. I put it too my lips and drink. The taste is amazing. Cold wet and sweet. It tastes a little like Dr Pepper but flat. It is the best taste ever. It feels like pure ecstasy in my mouth. The feeling beyond real and indescribable. At some point I feel like the dining room table is pulled up over most of my body and it feels like a part of the table cloth is tucked under my chin. I think that is fine I don't want to feel like I spilled it on myself. I continue to take little sips and after each one I smack and let out a "mmmmmm" sound. I just enjoy the sensation so much that I get lost in it for a while.

Then I hear my wife. She makes a sighing sound like she had just woke up. "What are you doing? You're drinking something out of the back of your hand?" For a second I think this is real. I think I am lying in bed making out with my hand. Then I realize that I am probably still dreaming. In fact I know it. I laugh to myself again. I try to get back to drinking this wonderful stuff but now it really feels like the back of my hand. I allow myself to do a check. Somehow I can now feel my real hands down by my side and my dream hands at my face at the same time. This is shocking and I begin to wake up. I can hear the fan come back into my reality and I open my eyes. The snooze alarm goes off again. 9-10 minute dream?