lucid

12/22/12

Night Whispers
I am on a beach like the one described in my hypnosis program that I fall asleep with. I am fully lucid. I am thinking I should find someplace where I am needed. So I trace out a circle in front of me and it becomes a portal. I step through the portal and into someone's bedroom. There is a kid in the bed sleeping, a boy that looks like he is about 15. There are several people standing around him, though they are not waking him up. They are leaning over his bed and whispering things in his ears. When I get close enough I hear that they are talking about death and murder. I ask them what they think they are doing. One of them looks up at me in surprise. I think he is surprised I can see him at all. I tell them to leave the boy alone. The one who looked up at me tells me not to mess with things I don't understand. I tell him we can do this the easy way or the hard way, but stop trying to put negative thoughts into the kid's head. The man says I have been warned, so now I will pay the price. All three of them approach me, I stand my ground. They transform into strange demonic creatures right in front of me. I summon a sword from my Witchblade. The demonic creatures seem to hesitate, I think they are surprised I am going to stand and fight them… then they attack me. I duck down and underneath a nasty looking sword as it is swung to remove my head. I use my sword to run the demon through and pump light energy into the thing. It burns up from the inside out, disappearing in a flash of white light. I barely respond quickly enough to block another attack coming from behind. I duck around and turn, taking out the other two demons quickly with my sword. I look back over at the boy in the bed. He hasn't even been awakened by all of the commotion. I think either he is the deepest sleeper I have ever seen or maybe I have been fighting in the astral plane, which is the only answer that really makes sense. I don't have a chance to check before I wake up.

I kept waking up then going to sleep into this dream. I remember the leader or dictator of this world I was in (even though it was all just my house) Was a hacker. This was like a computer game, but it was real too. I met this girl named Ann. But she was Nagisa from Clannad. She didn't act like nagisa, she was much more.. awesomer. There was the hacker always causing trouble, But when I was nearing getting up he didn't do as much. He killed about 3 people. But after he stopped doing crime, we were an awesome couple. I was in the kitchen eating and noticed ann wasn't there. I went to look for her and I found her in the carport outside. She was missing half of her arm. I asked what happened and she said "I like the taste of the ceiling."
So aperently she licked the ceiling and fell and broke her arm. I woke up then went into the same dream. She had her arm back. We were walking in our backyard and I asked "What would you do if I touched your tit?" She said "I would kiss you" I didn't plan to say this, but still xD. I didn't do it. (I should of xD). I woke up and went back to sleep again and she was over by a pine tree in my back yard and we just ran up to eachother and hugged then I woke up to not go to sleep again D:

I randomly realized I was dreaming while outside in the street. I headed to the end of the road and saw someone's silhouette through a window. I flew through the window and found a woman in the house. We talked for a bit before the dream began to fade.

12.22.2012

You're Lucid Dreaming (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm basically doing a nose plug reality check and telling my mother in the dream that she's dreaming.

I kept doing the nose plug reality check and it's clear that I can breathe through my nose while I plugged it.

She's surprised, and I tell her, "Yeah....."

We were in a completely different dimension where it was just us, it felt like a nice place with absolute assurance of safety.

It's hard to describe, it was like a void, but the environment consisted mostly of yellow, orange, red, and other vibrant and bright colors.

There were some sparks here and there, and the ground we were standing on was invisible, which felt weird, but I didn't pay attention to that for very long.

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12.22.2012

We're All The Same (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was making constant trips to this Gas Station mini-store, and as I'm trying to get Pringles, Cheetos Puffs, or just a simple soda drink, I meet this man who looks Asian or Hawaiian.

He looks a lot like Sammo Hung, and he seems passive most of the time as a employee operating the cash register. I think my 3rd trip going into the store to get something, as I'm about to leave, he tells me,

"You may have this............(forgot the content on what he said), but we're all the same........we're like mirrors...."

The store itself had a lot of items to buy, and a lot of aisles for a small area. They were easy to pass through, and most of the items were a blur to me until I acknowledged that I wanted something from the aisle I was in.

The Pringles can was kind of deformed and a bigger than normal, and I had insane cravings to just buy the biggest snacks I could afford.

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12.22.2012

GPA Miscalculation (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This obviously pertains to how I had to set up an appeal letter because of my GPA in college right now. I hope it gets approved >.<

Anyway,

I looked at a transcript that seems to be my own, and I looked down to see my GPA in waking life, or at least the GPA for the given semester of college. I checked the overall GPA, and it seemed fine.

I was busy speculating what I did so wrong here to make me get into having to set up an appeal response for financial aid. Then I realized, soemone miscalculated the GPA by placing the current semester as a separate row below the overall GPA.

This made the system probably assume that was my overall GPA, which wasn't the case, it was my GPA for this semester before 2013. I get irritated by this, and I immediately set plans to go to my Academic advisor.

Apparently a relative of mine was going to help me get to there, and I felt she would help me, but when I went outside, it seemed she was long gone. She was wearing a slightly lime green shirt mixed in with some blue to make it a little darker.

I can still see her, and I was basically following her for a few seconds until I decided to go find a path on my own. I used a teleport/transport medium of some sort that involved using the Thunder God Jutsu from Naruto where I have to touch an item that I can remember easily so I can transport myself there instantly.

So I picked my two items, and this elevator door appears out of nowhere, and when I open it, it's a portal to get to the Academic Advisors office for Biochemistry. It wasn't anywhere close to the office in waking life, but I had a feeling it would be in this dream.

I go through the door, and I'm now in a different dimension or location in the dream. I go up to my Advisor and provided her the information on paper, and she clearly saw the miscalculation.

She stated that she would go over this, and contact me as soon as she can. I feel a lot better, and honestly, if I could make this waking life reality, it would be SO AWESOME right now since I'm kind of afraid of what's going to happen now.....

So while I'm waiting for her to contact me eventually, I decided to summon the elevator door to transport me back to my dream apartment so I can let loose for a while. The amount of stress being lifted off was amazing, I felt like I could breathe again knowing that it was a miscalculation that would boost my GPA big time.

I don't know what I was doing in my apartment, but it was definitely something pertainin to just relaxing and not worrying about the outcome. The dream shifts where I'm apparently being contacted by the advisor, so I quickly set up the Elevator portal, almost forgetting an item I should use in case I wanted to quickly transport myself to the apartment again.

The advisor tells me it definitely was a miscalculation, and I looked at the new transcript to find an even better result than last time. I saw an A somewhere on the bottom, and a B, and a few other good grades as well. There was one "D," but I didn't mind at all since my GPA met satisfactory standards to continue receiving financial aid.

So I started thinking about things I can do to boost my GPA more, and getting motivated to work even harder because of me being able to endure through the small conflict I had when finding the miscalculation of the GPA.

I realized that the advisor had a mini-fridge behind her while she's sitting down, and apaprently, I could take some stuff and help myself out to a drink or some food. But I didn't take anything out, however, I have the mindset that I did take something out before, and I asked my advisor if she and her assistant wanted me to get them something to drink that I could put into the fridge.

They didn't mind, and I remembered I had a full liter of Ginger in my fridge back at my dream apartment.

While I was remembering that, I also get a mental picture of my dream apartment again, and if I had paid more attention to the format of the apartment, I could've been lucid. The thing that was different about the dream apartment, at least one noticeable thing now as I'm typing it out is that the Refridgerator was placed in a different position.

Instead of being on the left side if I were to enter the apartment and head to the kitchen, it was placed on the opposite side from where it was before. I go through the elevator portal again, and I quickly opened the fridge to grab the Ginger Ale.

I also noticed that I had a few other things in the fridge, like the soda I picked up from the previous dream where the guy told me that we're all the same (the Sammo lookalike dream character).

I quickly go through the portal once more, and realized I don't need to worry about fixating on an item to transport myself anymore if I have a portal that appears with my mere mention of expressing my will to its manifestation.

Maybe I should do this for meditation.

I then get random dream shifts of several areas that looked like they were mixed from other areas in waking life. I saw a few random dream characters and a few familiar faces here and there. There was one girl I saw that liked me in High School, but I quickly ignored her.

I can't remember anything else that happened in the dream.

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12.22.2012

Her and my Father (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I just remember my girlfriend meeting with my father, which was something I was very afraid that was going to happen.

The same encounter that I tried to avoid ended up being casual and nothing of conflict ironically. But I still had my guard up, trying to listen to my girlfriend respond to my father.

Things seemed okay, and my father was helping her out by picking up and carrying the suitcases she had in the trunk of her car, which was weird, because it wasn't the van/jeep at all.

She looks down at the trunk, and she seems a bit phased out, and she has her mouth slightly opened while she's looking down. I felt worried that maybe she didn't know what to see to the both of us, and before I tried to comfort her, I forget what happenes next.

Encountering your dream guide in almost every dream does have it's advantages.

I can't really remember how I got lucid, but when I did, I found myself in my backyard. My backyard has a terraced porch, and me and Lia (My dream guide) were sitting on the brick wall surrounding the porch. The dream's recreation of my backyard was very accurate.
I knew that I had so many questions for her, and this opportunity is rare, but at first I couldn't really seem to speak. I just continually stuttered. I was about to ask her name, but then I remembered our last conversation.
Then, I asked her, probably the best question that I could've remembered.
"How do I... Generally have more lucid dreams with less work?"
"3...4... hours before you go to bed, put down the video games."
"How old are you?"
"Three, Three and a Half, but if you count that last guy I did, that makes me 44?"
Around this point, the door to my basement started flailing around, opening and closing very loud, and interrupting our conversation. I promptly got up, shut it, locked it and sat back down.
When I did, I noticed that I was wearing some gloves. I began to take them off and feel the surface of my own gloves. I could sense the dream was destabilizing. I felt the bricks on the terrace (That for some reason had become a leather couch) and had virtually no sensation.
One or both of us yelled out that the dream was destabilizing. We grabbed each other's hand and everything went to black. All I could feel was a hand slowly slip from mine, and, you guessed it, I woke up.

I had one of my friends over at my house and we were in my basement when my dad came home. My dad said it was time for my friend to go home, so we drove him in the car. When we got back home, there was a party going on in the house, full of kids that I knew but wasn't friends with. The kids were in all the rooms and were partying and making a mess of the house. My first response was to get angry so I started screaming at this girl to get out of my house, and she seemed shocked. I went into the basement and did the same, but the kids down there were playing pool and when they saw me they didn't listen and started to mock me. They started teaming up on me, and I was outnumbered. I remember seeing my dad really disappointed and overwhelmed with what was happened I tried to tell him that it wasn't my felt. Then I woke up.

I had an awesome astral dream last night! I was in a very high dimension with another person I know (guy I like) and we were communicating with each other with light! It was so beautiful!!! I saw his 3rd eye chackra glowing and felt the light enter through mine and light up all my chackras, there was electricity everywhere and I sent light to him and could see him receive it and process it in colors. It was so beautiful and so easy.

5MG Melatonin at bedtime

WBTB 3:30AM - 4:00AM (I spent the time meditating) No aids

I got back to bed and do SSILD. At some point I feel vibrations. I don't get super excited but I say "yay" in my mind. I try to move out of my body but it feels like I am moving my physical. I wait awhile to let the SP set in.

While waiting, another dream forms that is mostly non-lucid and/or uncontrolled. I am at work and some one brings me a cable to fix.

While talking to them I go ahead and transition into OBE. I feel the floor and begin walking out. All the while, I am having this other dream. I go back into SP. And transition out several times.

There are no ID's on the cable. All the sleeves are yellow blanks. I question this and the man replies something. I now see that here is a black sleeve.

At the same time, I am in the living room but I am blind. I try to produce fire from my hands. I can see light like behind closed eye lids.

During that, I tell the man that needs to be a fire image on the black ID sleeve. I make an outline of it with my finger.

I wake up and try to DEILD once more but I was too shocked.

I literally had two dreams at the same time. It's really hard to make an entry like that but that's the way it happened. Fascinating!

While thinking about this dream I remember a fragment of being at work. I am twisting two pieces of spiral wrap. One is colored blue and the other is red?... Yellow?. Anyway, while doing this I tell someone how I had a dual dream. Two dreams at once.

I'm walking through a hallway with elevators, and I think I might be dreaming. So I look at my hands (my standard reality check) and I see that I am. I just remembered I had a dream goal to fight like Neo (Matrix) and that this would be a great time to do so. I fought some Agen Smith clones, coming from the elevators, like in the later movies and it was a lot of fun. I also dodged bullets. Then I got a false awakening during 'sleep walking' while staying over at a friend's house, in a big room with large windows. I find it rather emberrasing that I have been sleep walking, especially since the entire town was able to see me through the large windows. I might have become lucid again at some point, but my recall isn't very good. My control was very, very bad during tonights lucid dreams, though.

I've always wanted to become lucid in a dark scene like this. I'm walking on a lonely street on this dark night and see nothing but empty areas. At one point, I felt it to be a dream but I stared at the sidewalk right next to me and continued to look at it until I became fully lucid. When I finally became lucid, I already started to panic. I tried to control myself by telling myself to calm down and walk calmly. The dream began to fade away and before I knew it, I woke up.

Something else happened when I woke up. I noticed I had just woken up from the dream and because it was a very short lucid, I wanted to see if I can go back in and try it again.

My whole body was numb, and it kind of scared me. I didn't want to go in to a paralyzed state. I still did performed one of the handy techniques I read about on Dream Views though. I didn't even have the confidence being able to go back to sleep after having a lucid. I don't remember hearing anything creepy right now.

This next dream I had was, I guess, a way of my lucid dream telling me it's sorry because I woke up quick from it. This dream was a sex dream.

You might want to close your eyes if you're too young.

It happened at the old house I used to live in. My parents were gone and it was already dark. Me and this other girl first started to make out in the room I currently live in. She didn't even try resisting me and the best thing about it was, her kisses didn't taste bad either. I started to share my tongue with her(it was a dream focused on sex, I don't remember being lucid). Sometimes I would pull her pants down and use my mouth there. She gave me oral too! At first, when she put her mouth around my dude, she only wanted to suck until I finally told her to lick.

At one point, when she was sucking too much, I found her mouth stuck to my penis. And the more she sucked it, the tinnier my thing got. When she sucked too much,I pulled her head away and accidently broke part of her mouth off. She told me something like, "I have another one."

I heard my parents coming from the front door. I quickly carried this girl to my parents bedroom and locked her in there with me. I tried to do the best I could before I woke up. And before I could do anything really exciting, I woke up. I think you know the next part.

7 Tornados

I was looking out of the windows of an office building. I showed someone some strange looking clouds with a circular pattern in them. I knew a storm was brewing. This was a nasty looking cloud. I thought it was a funnel forming.

I was getting really nervous--then I saw a funnel--then several. In the end I saw 7 or more. They were basically everywhere. I tried to run to a safe spot, but ended up losing my house (?) and couldn't find a good place to hide out. I decided to take cover in a room in the office building still by a window. I couldn't find a better place.

Eventually I ran into a bunch of people going about their business, and the tornados were no longer an issue. One of the boss ladies said she worked in cancer. I said, "Oh, oncology," as though I would impress her by knowing that. Then I went on to tell her about some food synergies that would help fight cancer. She didn't like me trying to school her on her field, so I left, but as I did, I said, "How can you absorb A, D, E, or K without some fat?" (They are fat-soluble vitamins.)

Dream Skip

I saw some men with low-profile derby style hats. They all looked the same and I thought everyone looked Affected. Then I said, "LUCID DREAMING!" and started laughing. The exclamation and the laughing were both beyond my control, so it was a more genuine laugh than if I were in control. It was very strange, and a good release on both counts.

I wanted to get more control, so I looked at my hand. I saw my fingers and didn't even try to count them. I knew I was dreaming. It was a very strange feeling.

I ended up waking up, but closed my eyes and went back to sleep. I was very tired, so I focused on sleeping again and immediately was slipping into lucidity. It was like my waking world world was fraying into the dream world.

I heard my son talking to me and wondered if it was real or a dream. I eventually figured out I was dreaming. I woke up and relaxed and immediately was going back into lucidity. I didn't really have to try. As soon as I began thinking of falling asleep lucidly, it was already happening. This time I felt my body buzzing. It was awesome. I tried to think of a blonde I fancy, but I couldn't make her materialize.

This pattern finally came to an end as I had to wake up for work. I believe this was all induced by a late cup of coffee that wouldn't let me sleep. I tried from 12:25 to 1:40 AM. I then got on the computer until 2:40 AM before going to bed and going through this lucid experience.

This was the second of my galantamine dreams from last night. The beginning and middle were fun. The end? Not too good.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #47: Lost in America

The wind is loud outside but the noise suddenly settles into a murmur. I know that I'm close to a WILD, and soon... I'm in a light rail station, holding hands with my son E. The floor is red brick and the sky above us is clear. Tall buildings surround us on all sides. I don't recognize the buildings, but for some reason I believe that this is New York.

I tell E, "Well, buddy, we're in New York. This is... well, this isn't real, but it's a train station." He hops around, pointing gleefully at the train. I walk with him to the opposite end of the station.

The train starts to move, and E suddenly breaks away from my grip and runs toward it! I'm panicked at the site of him running carelessly toward that train and I run after him. He stops short of actual danger and I grab onto his hand, making sure I've got a good grip this time. "E, you can't do things like that! If you're going to run off, we can't be here."

I take him with me out to a parking lot and our family car is waiting there. There's a small memory gap here, but I'm pretty sure that the car didn't have child seats, but I just ignored this. We're driving in the neighborhood where I grew up. E is there at first but after a few blocks I look back and he's gone.

I pass a set of kids that look like they're fighting. I can't tell what's going on but it looks like someone might be taking a beating. I jump out of the car, forgetting that it's still moving. To my dismay, the car keeps going, turns the corner by itself and drives out of sight. The kids disperse, and nobody seems upset anymore. There's another memory gap before I find myself being shown a house by a real estate agent who looks kind of like CSI's Marg Helgenberger. She calls herself "Madge" and the house has a beautiful, open interior. I'm impressed with the place and wonder if it's similar to any other houses I've seen IWL.

When she takes me into the back of the house, though, things take a horrible turn. The rooms in the back are dark and smoky with makeshift drapes blocking out the sunlight. Drug addicts are passed out all around the place, laying on beds, floors and furniture. Some of them twitch occasionally and I see one man whose leg is streaked with blood. Madge seems mildly embarrassed and says, "It does need a little fixing up."

When we get to the bathroom, I see a clearly dead man lying in the tub. I panic, probably lose lucidity, and run back down the hall. Madge is running too, but the hallways have all changed. I can't find my way back to the sane part of the house and my panic collapses the dream.

A wild chain of false awakenings and DEILDs finally led me to a most interesting encounter with Wife's DC, who was even more irrepressible than usual. This was the first of two lucid dreams from last night's session with galantamine.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #46: The Blind Man, the Bully, and the Nerd

I'm in the kitchen with Wife. I'm talking to her but I'm almost completely blind. I'm embarrassed by my blindness, convinced that it's some side effect of the galantamine that I just took. Rather than seek medical attention, I try to slink up to bed so Wife won't know. Unfortunately, she keeps asking me to hand her things, and I flail around the kitchen knocking things over. "What's wrong with you?" she asks. I have a false awakening into...

...sitting on the floor of our living room as my 1-year-old son "R" runs around me. My vision is dim but I can see better than before. I'm still convinced that I'm suffering from some kind of bizarre galantamine side effect. R is sprinting around the room, pulling objects off of tables, knocking stuff over, and tossing various knickknacks into the recycling bin. I try to stop him, but he just laughs, squirting right through my arms when I try to grab him. He says, "This is so fun, Daddy!" and I briefly become lucid, remembering that he's way too young to speak like that.

I quickly wake up but keep my eyes shut and hold still for a DEILD... and I find myself lying in a bed in a room I don't know. I get up, ready to explore. A strange, gnome-like creature with a hooked nose hops off of the floor and gets in my face, waving his arms wildly about. He's about three feet tall, covered with warts, extremely agile, and very annoying. He brags to some unseen listener: "See? I can stop him from doing what he wants in this dream!"

I try to leave the room but the little gnome keeps hopping up in my face, cackling and poking at me. He jabs me in the eyeball and I get incredibly angry. I grab the gnome by the throat, push him to the floor and hold him there. He growls and kicks his legs, but he isn't able to move. Even though he's immobilized, I'm so out of control that I still punch him once, hard right under his left eye. I immediately feel terrible about this and release my grip, allowing him to scamper away.

I stand there brooding about this for a moment before the gnome walks back in. He no longer looks disgusting and infuriating, but just like a small little man. I tell him, "I'm sorry that I hit you. I didn't need to do that." He walks up to me, points at his blackened left eye and softly says, "Fix." I nod, touching his bruised skin, and the black eye immediately heals. "All right, hug it out," I say and I kneel down to hug the little dude. The dream fades...

I buckle down for another DEILD and in a few seconds I'm back in another bed room, although it's different from the last. I'm standing and Wife is here making the bed. "Hey!" I say. "This is a lucid dream. Quit making that bed and let's go play."

She keeps making the bed. "You can go do what you like, but this work still needs to get done."

I can't believe it. "But it's all a dream. You don't have to worry about whether beds get made. Come on, I've got lucid goals I want to work on."

She stops for a second, laughs, and looks at me, wrinkling up her nose a bit. "Lucid goals? What does that even mean? You better not be trying to arrange a threesome on the bed that I just spent all this time making!"

"Come on, get serious. You'll like this... I want to visit the Great Pyramid." Then I look at her, hold out my right hand and say, "You will come with me."

She laughs. "Oh my God, nerd! I can't believe you just tried to 'command' me. Is that the kind of stuff you do in these dreams of yours?"

I smile, amazed at how like herself she is and how much I'm enjoying her company. "I think I can do this, though," I say, and levitate her a few feet off of the ground. She looks amused.

I float her over to me and set her on the ground. When I try to kiss her she doesn't resist. I feel her fingers graze my left temple but then she turns to walk away. "I still need to make this bed," she says, as the dream fades.

I went to bed at 11:30pm, woke up at 2:00am. I took a double dose of Galantamind, only my second time taking it, and I won't be taking it again for at least a week. A double dose equals 8mg of Galantamine and 200mg of Choline, but I took an extra 200mg of Choline bitartrate separately. I started into a WBTB method and as a drifted I felt the sleep paralysis come on as Ryan Hurd and others have described. I reminded myself to stay calm and focus on my intent to get lucid, and not my fear of being paralyzed. This went on a for a little while and I suddenly woke up in my dream bed. My youngest daughter was sleeping beside me and I knew I was in a dream. I was lucid as well but I'd say not fully stable. I reminded myself to modulate my emotions, and not fix my attention to any one thing or else I'd risk slipping into unconscious dreaming.

I wandered out of the room and up the stairs past my wife who didn't pay me any attention, she was doing chores. My oldest daughter was upstairs and started talking to me in the middle of watching a show with some friends. I'm not recalling exactly how I responded, but I went outside the kitchen door, and looked at the dark night sky. The ladnscape was different for sure, huge and wide open with dimly lit houses scattered across hillsides - very magical feeling. The moon was bright and I wanted to fly up to it but reminded myself not to or I'd risk loosing lucidity. Instead I flew out and across a field in search of some exploration. I wound up at a classic building, like a mall, but more like the Louvre in Paris. People were everywhere. I wanted to find someone but I didn't know who, I dropped to the floor when an overwhelming feeling of sadness hit me. I cried intensely and woke up.

The sadness was related to leaving my family in search of adventure. Although I knew this was a dream and not waking reality, there's probably some aspect of this this 'desire to escape' in my waking world as well that I could look at closer. I believe that part of my loosing lucidity was related to the emotions, but also not having a clear goal for the dream state.

Bedtime 9:40pm
Melatonin 5MG


I clearly remember being lucid but the dream recall was a blur. It seemed like a crazy nonsense dream. Something about choosing door number 1,2,3. I woke up and thought I saw the bedroom door. Started rubbing my hands for some reason. I think I was still in the dream because I woke up shortly after that and my hands were down by my side. I tried to DEILD but it wasn't happening. The time was 11:39PM

I am not adding this to my count but I think it was interesting that I was lucid in such early REM.