lucid

Fragment about daughter tearing paper from a book.
I wake up from some dream about work. Who cares? I DEILD. I have been trying all night I actually fell aleep the last time wondering why sometime it is easy and sometimes I just cant.

I feel the sp and wait for it to "even out". It feels just about time to try to get up so I smoothly and easily was able to imagine my legs moving over the bed and then stand up. Once I stand up I am in the dream. This time I was blind again but I have learned to handle that. I slowly try to open my eyes. Nope I see ceiling. I forgot I was not in the bed room at the time and didn't realize I could see the living room ceiling. But all that mattered was it was not my dream eyes I opened. I am way too excited. I remember to relax as if I am in meditation.

OK. So I just felt the walls. I have been wanting to enter the full length mirror on the closet door as a way out. I stabilized my focusing on the feeling in my hands. Thank you Sivasion and Dream Yoga class. I felt the door frame of the bathroom since thats what I would have been facing if I was in my bedroom. I remind you I was not. I just find that funny that I forgot. Anyway, I felt left from there until I felt the smooth surface of the mirror and the egdes of the trim. Not being able to see made is so much eaiser than I had expected. I just stepped through like it was a cut out in the door. I forgot to think of where I was going. I just wanted to see.

I found my self standing in the doorway from the bedroom to the dining/living room. I can see. I see my brother walking through. I was shocked and was not expecting this and the scene goes black. I think no. SEE! I focus on seeing the room again. It reappears like someone turning on a light from a dimer switch. I am way too excited again. I remember to relax as if I am in meditation.
I focus on the walls. I see the walls of the living are covered with hundreds of hats. I focus on that for a bit. I see a Yellow ball cap with a green "T" on it and trimmed white around. I have no idea what team that is and I don't care.
I walk right and see my brother.
I say HEY WHATS UP MY BROTHA?
Hey bro whats up?
Im dreaming! I clap my hand and spin around and say, "yeah!" Fist pump.
I feel fading and I am so fucking excited. I have to stabilize again. relax. My mind relaxes some just like meditation.

I focus on the walls again. I see a lot less hats now. "Hey where did all the hats go?" I am truly upset that I can't find the hats. I look and try to make the appear. OK never mind. I had real goals. OK. The competition. I'll do my 3 step. I already did flying. OK lets do TK. I look around. There is this table with a bunch of dirty glasses and other stuff... I dont know. I see a one liter plasic bottle of what looks like Dr. Pepper. I focus on that. It is half full. I try to make it move to my hand. Nothing. I try harder. Nothing. Then I hear the words of wizard Sageous (From another LD) "You can do it if you believe it." OK I believe I can do it. I really take that to heart. I relax my mind a bit and just allow it to flow. It comes straight to my hands. Yes! I drop it and now it looks like a plasic wine glass. I push it around with TK. I try to make it float and shoot off fast but can't. I try for more advananced TK. I look at the hats on the walls. I try to imagine them all shooting off at once. I lift my arms in the air and bring them together but nothing happens. Hmmm maybe that really is too advanced. (I didn't believe Matthew 17:20 )

OK what else was I going to do? Basic summon. I just try to do the same thing I did last time but now I am losing focus. I reach in my back pocket for a flash light but it is like I am pretending. It is getting dark again. I dont feel it or see it. I make a click noise with my mouth when I push the button. But wait. I did do it. I see a beam of light in the darkness and I feel something in my hand. I think misson accomplished. The darkness takes over my light and the dream fades. (I forgot to stabilize)

I have a false awakening. I am in my bed alone. It is bright and sunny from the window. I am trying to record my dream on my phone. Then it turns into being on some quilt on my bed. All of the memory from the LD is recorded on my quilt. Now I just remember fragments from the dream befor the LD. I am trying to touch a send text knitted on but it won't work. Then the kids come and jump all over me and and bed. I freak out. Noooooooo! I will forget my dream get of go away. Just give me a few minutes. I say go and I mean it go. They finaly leave. Now for some reason I safty pinning my phone to the quilt thinking that will fix things. I wake up suddenly.

Thinking About My Dream

It was a very bright, sunny day. I was driving down the road. On my left was a chain link fence surrounding my friend J. F.'s back yard. He was also with to women who I believe were his sisters. They were all shirtless, fat, and sweaty. The ladies may not have been shirtless, but all I saw was skin.

One of the women commented to me or to one of her sisters that she thought I had held out a badge and that I was the sheriff. She started laughing.

Dream Skip

I'm in a building. It may be an office building, but it wasn't formal. The floor had blue carpet with a strange design in white.

I was with a couple people still. One may have been B. L. I'll say it was. B. L. Went into an elevator around a corner, and came out an elevator on my side of the corner. I brought this up to him. While he didn't think much of it, I pondered that for a while.

I kept thinking about the carpet in this building and that elevator. I kept saying how strange it was, and then it dawned on me that I was dreaming.

Now I'm with my cousin M. B. and I yelled out to him, "I'm dreaming!" I thought to my self, "It's lucid time." I was going down stairs so I took the wall. I ran along the wall to get to the lower flight.

I made it outside. I was going to follow the sidewalk outside, but decided to jump a fence. There was metalwork at the top of the fence. As I jumped over the fence my fingers got caught in the metalwork. My fingers were bending and I thought I would break them but I thought I better pass through as I might pass through a door, and my fingers did pass through without harm.

I saw a girl at the top of a flight of steps. I went up to her and started talking to her. I tried to make conversation until I could take my pants off. Then she did a back-bend. I said, "Are you in gymnastics?" She said "No." I was having a little trouble with my pants, but I put my groin up to her face. She didn't fight at all. The only thing is she wasn't that cute, so I decided to run and look for someone else. Flying would be fun anyway.


I ended up waking up. I had to go to the bathroom, but our cat and dog were making a racket also. I hope that's why I woke up.

[COLOR="royalblue"]Non-Aware (Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="blue"]Partially Aware (Lucid Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="navy"]Fully Aware and Vivid (Astral Projection(OOBE)[/COLOR]

I went to bed late and knew that I wouldn't remember much dreams for the early night, although I might have a chance with the later morning dreams. I went to sleep 23:39

[COLOR="royalblue"]After I fell back to sleep in the morning I had a dream where I see two girls, but for some reason I could see a slightly red color on the edges of one of the girl's head. And on the other girl the edge was green.
I wondered what was happening then I see man come in to the room with a cat wearing black latex and a top hat
o. O

He told me he was going to teach me Remote Viewing and seeing auras. I didn't trust him or at least I was a little afraid of him so I went to his office to look for papers or information of who he was. Although he caught me in the act and told me to follow him. He said he wanted me to meet someone.

I then hear a voice from unknown direction saying "Close your eyes". "Imagine being on a traveling train seated in a blu chair." I did and saw it very clearly. "Good your almost there, can you see me waving my hand?" the voice said.
I saw a brown haired woman waving in my vision and then she said "Now your here!". And I was on that train.
"You are now in the dream" she said. "You see that guinea-pig on that table? Concentrate and you can understand what it is saying.". I looked on it and saw something glowing from it's legs and the woman told me to perceive it's energy.

Then I hear a voice "Hey you there. Haha I can talk and you understand me!". I looked in shock and so did the rest of the people on the train. The guinea-pig stood up on two legs and was as crazy as the guinea-pig in the movie "Doctor Dolittle."[/COLOR]

Then I woke up and I had my eyes closed. I heard a ringing tone and it kind of sounded like the sound you hear when you yawn, but higher pitch and louder. But it wasn't constant it came in bursts like an alarm clock. I thought to myself that it might be a biological alarm clock (not realizing until now how crazy that idea was). Then I opened my eyes and the sound slowly faded away. The time was now 03:28

I had more dreams after this, but I didn't noted them because I at the time didn't considered them as important x.x

I was at a bar with a friend named Betsey. It was populated by hipsters and on the same road that was also the setting of my dream where I had a fight with a homeless man. The bar had the character of being a food court. Even though it was a bar, me and Betsey were drinking coffee and sharing a small cigar. We were passing it back and forth with each other. I started, passed it to her, and then smoked the rest so that I got 2/3 of the cigar. I felt that this was unfair. Also, the cigar was falling apart as we were passing it. Most people in the bar were smoking and I mentioned, "I thought that smoking in a bar was illegal in New Jersey." I saw a high school acquaintance named CJ. He didn't acknowledge me even though I was trying to meet him in eye contact. Suddenly some friends of Betsey came into the scene. I didn't recognize them and they barely said a word. One of them was lying down in her chair. They reminded me of the friends of my real life ex-girlfriend who I had met last month at a bar. Then I had an idea. I said, "Betsey, we should go to your place and watch TV!' She was excited by that idea. We started walking out and she change to my current girlfriend for a little while. I was mostly naked and had to go back to the table to retrieve my clothes. Betsey was back when I went outside again. There was no car. A man offered that we take a huge Rutgers bus. Betsey offered to drive it because I was nervous. She is totally confident. The bus is dirty. I sit in the second row (because it's safer than the front row) and buckle up. We start to drive through New Brunswick. She is driving too fast and I am nervous. WE accidentally get onto Route 18 South when we should get on North. When we are on it it changes to "Amwell Road" and becomes a country road. She keeps swerving into the other lane and onto the lawns that are on teh side of the road. I say we are going to crash. She denies it. I say, "when you keep drifting off the road like that, we will crash" and she laughs. Next we go straight into a tree. I start coming into the mind between waking and dreaming. I try to will myself to make the airbags go off but they don't. Instead I have a vision of a light crunching of the front of the bus. I then have the thought, "lt's okay if you crash in a dream" and just as soon as I have that thought I wake up.

Woke up on 8/18/2012
*Only remember fragments of first dream

Successful DEILD

1) I’ m at a zip lining place with my sisters and there are three difficulties. There is a small body of water and the zip lines zigzag across it. They are only about one-and-a-half body lengths above the water and they are made up of one very long zip line which is hooked on to pieces of the rocky wall surrounding the water to make the zigzag pattern. We are at the side of the easiest one and I complete it with ease. As I approach the end of the first line I quickly pull the pulley up somehow and land it on the next line. As I reach the end of the medium difficulty zip line I prepare to jump the device to the hard difficulty zip line, but I start swinging wildly as I approach it. I decide not to let go and the pulley slides back to the beginning of the medium difficulty zip line. I try to regain my balance in order to try again. When I reach the wall I try to kick off and keep my momentum straight forward. I swing wildly again as I approach the hard zip line and slide back to the beginning once more. After failing twice, I decide that I need to jump diagonally towards a ledge that is next to the hard difficulty zip line. I reach the start once more, kick off as hard as I can, and slide quickly toward the ledge. I let go of the pulley and leap off the zip line hoping that I will have enough momentum to carry me to the ledge. I reach out, but I am not able to grab the ledge. Instead, I end up on a huge blue bucket with no lid which stands in the water next to another bucket. I have a firm grip since my elbows are hooked over the edge, but the tall bucket begins to lose balance and I’m sure I will fall. I hear my sister say something along the lines of “Aw! Well, falling in the water doesn’t mean you lose”. Then, I try to shift my weight upwards and bring my arms further into the bucket and, miraculously, it regains balance and I’m able to climb up on the rocky ledge with some difficulty (I kind of wanted to try the hard zip line though).

DEILD
I am slightly awake in real life, but I am very sleepy since I had woken up in the middle of the night. I was probably half asleep because I don’t remember any real life images since I probably never opened my eyes. Somehow I was still able to think clearly and I seized the opportunity to attempt to imagine a dream scene, though I didn’t think about the fact that I was DEILDing. I didn’t have any specific dream scene in mind but I just told myself over and over to imagine a lucid dream scene. Almost immediately, the dream starts to fade in and I am fully lucid.

2) I see Bobby Lee as a realtor next to a doorway leading to a room in a house. He is in a light yellow buttoned shirt which has blurry white lines mixed into it tucked into what I believe are whitish-yellow pants secured with a brown belt. Somehow, I get the feeling that he knows I’m lucid. Though I was fully lucid, I could still feel the slightest bit of consciousness. I believed Bobby was telling me to go along with the dream story so that I could be fully enveloped in the dream and still remain lucid. He tells me to try to sell the house to two people and beckons me inside the room. I walk inside and describe the room to the old Asian couple as they looked around. To maintain lucidity, I said or did something while looking out a window to my right. Bobby peeked through the doorway and told me to describe it some more and I obliged. After doing this I was confident I was fully asleep and would not wake up so I looked out the window and prepared to find my dream object. Through the window, countless things were going on. Though there was a small field of vision, I could somehow see a zoo, a hangar (There are two hangars outside of my neighborhood in real life), tanks, school buses and trucks driving next to the tanks, futuristic planes in the sky, and roads with bustling cars everywhere. There was so much going on, yet I didn’t feel any sense of chaos. I yelled out, “I want to be guided or led to my dream object” (This is explained in the dream notes in section 2). Suddenly, I see a small object fall from the sky. It travels through the window next to the one I was looking through and landed in my room (The room in the house became my real room at this point). I pick up the object excited to see what it would be. I look at it and I become immensely disappointed. It is some kind of orange/black band made of rubber with a small screen. It almost looks like a watch or a pedometer, but the band looks like it’s meant to go around a finger (To put it into perspective, imagine a tiger printed watch meant to go around your finger instead of your wrist. Don’t imagine too many lines, though. The face of the device was mostly orange and there were a few waves of black on the edges). I knew the device wasn’t a watch or pedometer and I was hoping that my dream object would be something I could easily find in real life. I called out again saying something like, “C’mon! Give me another one!” hoping for a better result. Something else flew down and I picked it up. It was the same object and I became annoyed. I walked back to the window and, for some reason, said that I wanted something more sophisticated (What an odd word choice. I think I meant to say “meaningful”). I saw something fly past my vision to the other window. I walked back and picked up the object. It was a square version of the original object. I looked on the back to see what it was. There were letters carved out of the rubber, and since they were the same color and material as the device itself, they were a little hard to read. I see the word “yoyo” and a few other letters after it which I could not make out. I concluded that the device was meant to be attached to a Yoyo and could somehow count or judge the Yoyo tricks while you played with one. I looked out the window at all the commotion and asked what my big dream object was. I thought that you only had one dream object, but I decided it was worth a shot and that if I had a big object that I could take a picture of in real life, it would be better than nothing at all. Letters were shown in the road below. I don’t remember what they said, but after reading them I looked up towards the area where there were tanks and buses. I remember thinking it was one of those and I think I asked if it was a school bus (I may have said something else). The word “ZOO” appeared on the road and I looked at the zoo. My sister was next to me all of a sudden and told me I was looking at the wrong place and that I was supposed to look at a car near the zoo. Suddenly, I was in one of the bustling cars on the road and there was no roof or window (I was probably in a convertible). I looked at the road and I think I asked for a hint. A text appeared on the road and, though we were moving fast, the text remained in the same relative position to me. There was a transparent image of a car top sign with a moving LED text on it that said “NO TRESPASSING” and I assumed it meant that was my dream object was a car that had those words on it. For some strange reason, I thought of a Toyota. I asked my sister what type of Toyota had that and if a Corolla was the right answer. She said she didn’t know, so I decided to just guess all the Toyota cars I could until I found the right one. I looked down at the road and asked if it was a Toyota Corolla and a text appeared that said “WILD GUESSES” or something with the word “GUESS” or a form of it in the text. I got the sense that I was being told that I wasn’t supposed to randomly guess to find out and that my dream guide had nothing else to say to me for the time being. My dream faded out around this time.

Dream Notes:

2) I watched a video by ReeceJones87 on YouTube about dream bridging. In the video he said that to find a dream object someone is supposed to say "I want to be guided or led to my dream object" while lucid. He also said that your dream object could be big or small and that if it is too big or does not belong to you then you can take a picture of it instead of taking it with you. In my dream I was disappointed with the same object so I decided to ask for a bigger one in order to get a different result.

Alligator

An alligator attacked my boy. It bit his foot and my boy started screaming. I opened the alligators mouth with my hands on either side of his mouth. I saw its teeth. I showed the inside of his mouth to someone.

I eventually let it go, and then I was afraid it was going to attack me. I think it did turn to attack me, but it didn't try hard, and my dream ended.

Short Flight Lucid

I started flying and I realized I was lucid. I flew up well but then I became heavy. I never tried to stabilize, and I my dream ended.

I wouldn't even count this except that I want to keep track of every time I become lucid.

Showering etc at mum and dads. Take too long, will miss all busses to work. Driving instead. Still too late. Try to turn around. Suddenly being towed (not in a car) by a racehorse. Becomes a race. Spawn a dog to chase the horse to make us faster. Suddenly ahead of the horse, make it a personal race against dog and horse. I win. I think I was second in the actual race, but I didn't stay for the awards. Left with Rohan.

Italic Text = Personal Thoughts
Normal Text = Non-Lucid Segment
Light Purple Text = Partially Lucid Segment
Purple Text = Lucid Segment

As expected, my dry spell finally broke when most unexpected. I went to bed late last night and was worried about dream recall, let alone lucidity. I woke up for my WBTB and remembered no dreams but shortly after I tried to go back to sleep I was disturbed by my Dad. Apparently we had a power cut and he wanted me to call the power company to find out when it was back on. This resulted in a much longer WBTB than I usually have (About 30-40 minutes, as apposed to my 10-15 minute normal ones). I went back to sleep after a lot of rolling around trying to relax after waking myself up so much and the following dream occurred.

I was in a supermarket of some kind queuing up with my mother when we bumped into my aunt, my sister and my niece. We all decide to go for a picnic and as we're heading to the park my niece picks up a blade of grass, attempting to perform a grass whistle but doesn't seem to be succeeding. I laugh and figure I'd show her how to do it later on.

We get to the park and we set up on this picnic bench. My sister pulls out these cards and wants to try this game with me. I'm not entirely sure what happened with the first game, she had some Pokemon drawn on these cards and it was something about matching their colours to country flags. Really confusing.

The second game was much more interesting. The cards now had moving images on them of old 1950s style streets, with retro cars driving around them and the game was to count all of the cars in the scene. At some point I just became part of the scene, I was no longer looking at the cards and watching it, I was walking around the streets myself. I then noticed on the side of the road a lime-coloured extremely modern car which first prompted my awareness.

As I continue walking I enter a sort of layer zero mindset, somewhat knowing what I'm experiencing wasn't waking reality but not fully lucid yet. I'm heading down this street and keep trying to pull my awareness forward, it's really hard to describe, almost like flicking switches in my brain to become lucid.

I finally reach a point of awareness where I know I'm dreaming. Everything looks amazing, the wind against my skin and the vividness of the trees around me. I even notice the warmth of the sun and how it makes me squint as I walk into it.

At this point I remember to reality check, just to stabilise myself more into the dream state. Something I've been forgetting to do in any lucid experiences recently which have resulted in them quickly dying out or fading back into non-lucidity. I lift my hands and my fingers had their normal odd lengths so I knew I was dreaming. I got really exciting, finally I was lucid again!

I decided to stray away from the path of the dream and phase myself through this hedge on the side of the road that I'm standing on. I enter somebody's yard, it's huge and inside the house I see a man cooking dinner but decide to ignore him. As I'm walking down the side of this house, tracing the grey cobbled wall, I remember that I wanted to summon a dream character. I also remember that the best way to do this would be passively.

I come to near the end of the wall that I'm tracing and I say to myself "When I get around this corner, my mum will be standing there." for some reason at this point I look down to the ground and the wall seems to extend further beyond its original point, my subconscious obviously toying with me. I pay more focus to this wall and finally reach the end.

I turn the corner and I'm disappointed, nobody was standing there! I'm about to walk back behind the wall to try again when I see a character running towards me from a distance. I recognise that it's my mum immediately, although, she looks about 6 or 7 years old and tagging along behind her is her twin sister and my aunt. I'm completely baffled at my subconscious power to do this without me even suggesting it or having anything to prompt it!

They're running around me laughing and I can't help but laugh with them. The hilarity of meeting my mother as a child was just too much. I go to sit down with them on a bench and again am insanely glad that I'm finally lucid!

I start thinking about where I fell asleep, for some reason while lucid I thought I fell asleep in the park from my non-lucid segment before this DILD. I was going to wake up and not have my dream journal to write the lucid down in! Thinking about waking must have shocked my subconscious because the dream sort of "jumped", as if it briefly zoomed in and then zoomed back out rapidly before fading to black and the dream ended. I didn't have any time to stop it.

I fade back into waking life, and at first I'm somewhat confused that I'm in my bedroom considering I thought I was in a park in my lucid. I jump up and immediately write down my lucid in my dream journal, ecstatic that my dry spell was broken.

Dream - Lucid

Finally, some good recall again!

I was with Jake. I can't quite remember where.

Then, I was sitting at my desk putting a baggie with a tiny piece of a marijuana bud in it in an envelope for my friend, Grace (who doesn't smoke in waking life). I was going to mail it to her. I felt like I had mailed marijuana before and it wasn't a big problem (yeah, I'm not dumb enough to do this in waking life).

I then was walking through what was supposed to be a high school or something. I was still with Jake. I then saw my reflection in something we walked past, not a mirror but a very reflective surface, and I looked quite a bit different. My hair was short and straight and styled in a bouffant fashion. I was wearing a short skirt, red I think, but I don't remember what kind of top I was wearing. I looked at it for a second as we walked by.

I again saw my reflection, and it looked the same as before, bouffant hairdo and all.

Then, we were walking through a garage, still at the school apparently, and I was smoking a cigarette. As we walked up the stairs to the door to exit the garage, I flicked the butt behind me, not watching where it landed. My dad was then walking with me, and commented on the stink of the cigarettes (apparently lots of people smoked here).

~

I was going to Jake's. I went into his apartment, and immediately thought that the locks had been changed for the new roommates moving in, and I didn't have the new key. Oh well.

I walked through the apartment, which looked much different than in waking life. I remember walking past a cabinet with these two new, gold locks on it. On the living room couch were his two new roommates, two college guys. I remember one having a very short black mohawk and being shirtless. I don't remember what they were doing, I think they were just drinking soda or something. They didn't even seem to notice as I walked in.

I then went to Jake's room. It was super messy, and he was sleeping on what looked like a cot in the middle of the mess, kind of close to the door. I woke him up and said something about his new roommates.

~

There are some fragments that I can't really place.

One, I was watching something on TV in my room with my mom, when the bouffant girl that was supposed to be me in the last dream came on TV. I got excited and told her about the dream. She smiled and got excited too (lol she wouldn't get excited in waking life).

Another was of me driving topless. I felt exposed. Why the hell was I driving topless?

I then remember something about seeing my old cat, Pounce, or at least a cat that looked just like her. This triggered lucidity, and I looked at my hands to stabalize, but I immediately lost it and went into a non-lucid dream.

~

I got a text from my pen pal, Gabriel, whom in waking life I've never met in person, and who lives in another state. It said
"Wanna get a drink?"
I hadn't realized he had texted me; it had been about 30-45 minutes since he had asked me. I got really excited and I told him yes, but he didn't answer right away. It was kinda late too, like 8:30pm or so.

So I got online and ordered some ticket to some bar in Franklin, the town he lived in in the dream. I then somehow had the small white ticket. It looked like a ticket to a movie.

I was then in the kitchen at my house, My mom was then telling me how she wanted me to help her with something. I told her I wasn't going to be coming home that night. She asked why, and I said I was going to go get a drink.

I realized that he never answered my text. I then called him, and he picked up on the first ring. I was a little nervous about talking to him.
"Hello?" he said.
"Hey."
"Hey."
"I do want to get a drink."
That's about all I remember of the conversation, though I'm sure there was more. I felt more at ease as we talked. His voice was soft and deep; comforting.
I think he texted me his address.

I then left. It was dark, obviously, since it was late. I only had about an hour and a half to drive (only 30 min. away in waking life).

I was then at his place. We went into his room, and he was talking to me as he went through some stuff on his bed. He had already bought this six pack of hard lemonade-type drinks. So I guess we were drinking at his place. His apartment seemed a little messy, but it wasn't bad. He had short black hair, looked youthful, and was a little shorter than the average guy. He actually would later in the dream remind me of someone I'm acquainted with in waking life, Tony.

I sat down at a desk chair, and we started on our hard lemonades. We were talking, having a good time, feeling each other out since we'd never actually met in person. I was a little skeptical just because I felt like I kinda rushed into getting drinks with him, but he seemed gentle, nice, and genuine.

At one point we were talking about the lemonades. He was already on his second, and I was still on my first, though it was almost gone.

I then fell asleep. I woke up, and didn't see Gabriel. I went to the bag the six pack was in, but all the lemonades were gone. I guess I had been out long enough for Gabriel to drink the rest.

My mom then came in and did or said something, I can't remember, but I thought it was insane that she even knew where I was, that she even knew his address. Weird.

Then, Gabriel came back in with a bunch more booze. He pulled out amber liquor and beer, which was the same color. I started to open one up, but realized it was liquor, so I started to open up another, smaller bottle instead. I actually wasn't sure if it was liquor or beer or something else altogether, but I poured it into a glass and started to drink it. The flavor wasn't bad, though it tasted muted for some reason. I could taste the slight bitterness, but it was fine.

Then, we were talking again, I think I mentioned something about my mom coming over. I was a little tipsy, but mostly I think I was just tired. Gabriel started talking to some of his friends, whom I think were supposed to be his band. They were looking at instruments that were in what now seemed to be a mixture of Gabriel's place and a music store. This is the part where I really thought he looked like Tony. He made hand gesture to his mouth to tell the guys we were drinking. The next thing I remember, they were gone.

At some point, I noticed his bed. It was a queen with old, dusty, worn-looking white bedding. I thought it would be perfect to share with him.

I then took too big a sip of my alcohol. I let it sit in my mouth for a second, afraid to swallow cause I didn't want to puke, but sucked it up and did it anyway. It wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be. In fact, it was just fine.

I feel like my mom was there again. Someone was, anyway, and I was laying on my stomach on a bed or something. Gabriel then put his hand on my back. A big smile painted my face. His touch was so gentle and soft. I trusted him a lot more then.

Finally, Gabriel said he was going to go to bed. I asked him if he wanted me to stay or go.
"Ummm..." He was thinking.

I then was woken up to hearing my neighbor call their dog.
"Sawyer!!!"

Oddly, in the last dream, I think part of me knew it was a dream. I didn't want to wake up, and I remember looking at my hands trying to keep the dream, but I wasn't actively lucid. It was just "in the back of my head" or something. I dunno. Either way, I'm not going to classify it as lucid.

[COLOR="royalblue"]Non-Aware (Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="blue"]Partially Aware (Lucid Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="navy"]Fully Aware and Vivid (Astral Projection(OOBE)[/COLOR]

I got home from a party about 03:15 and went to bed immediatelly, no usual falling asleep routine today, because I already knew my recall was doomed to fail.

My parents woke me up and I had headache and was really tired so I yelled to them "Close the door and let me sleep!".
They understand :P later on this motning they even made me toasts with salmon on it and with that my favorite morning drink of apple juice ;)

Anyway when I went back to sleep I had some dream I can't remember but then I woke up and I did a DEILD by misstake, if you could call it that.

I was thinking random thoughts and suddenly made up a little story in my head. I thought about a little house near a beach and me feeling the water with me feet, for some reason a friend was there as well. [COLOR="blue"]But then suddenly the daydream got more vivid and I can actually see and feel the sand with my hands. I stopped a moment to think about my hangover and I could kins of still feel it, and even though I was very aware I was not aware or smart enough to resist my greatest enemy to my lucidity. A hot chick (blonde)....:roll: I walked to her and she was very seductive herself and I was in her trap. Bye bye lucidity. [/COLOR]

[COLOR="royalblue"]I am not going to explain details I am just going to let the readers here use their dreaming uhum imagination. She was very, how to explain it with proper words, ehm naughty, asking for it...
And for real i don't really like these girls I am more of a guy who feels sorry for them. But in this dream I was all over her. Although the real thing never happened but we got far into foreplay. We went to her house and it was really messy clothes everywhere not cleaned for weeks maybe months. But when we was going to rock "the casbah" her friends came into the room. Around me she behaved like we were a couple, then something weird and embarrassing happened.
My two friends Tom and Eric walks into the room looks at "my girl" and do the "WOW" with their mouths, walks to me and say "Hang on to her and congratulations man!" and I believe Eric said "Lucky you" with a smile.

I went out in a yard where "the girl" and her friends were. They talked about different stories but I remember a guy said to me "Do you know where your girl is from?" "No" I said and shake my head" and he answered "She is from Nigaru".
I looked at her and back at him with a weird gaze and thought to myself "Is she from Africa? or where is Nigaru it sure sounds African, ah well she is not really my girl so why do I have to worry?".

Then I see some guy throwing a iPhone speaker and another guy catches it with his ear :shock:
"How did he do that?" I yelled. And instead of answering they tell some weird story that I instead of only hearing, starting to experience, Inception in other words. I remember that they made fun of him jokingly and told him that he is the superman whose only power is to use his ears. Then I see some guy standing on a church tower and take down a cross and yells "F*ck Christianity we are the new rulers now!". Then I am back in the yard talking to the people.

I went to look for "the girl" again and I open the door to her room and say "Hello?" and stick my head through the door run. I see 4 girls sitting on a bed and I get pushed by some guy that runs away laughing and the door closes.
One word "akward". "Uhhmm have you seen" I suddenly realize that I don't even know her name and the girls look funny at me. I then see a girl I know crying and cold me I walk past her...

And I see the girl I looked for and then I think to myself "Nobody seems to do anything I need to ask her how she is doing.". I tell the girl "that I need to talk to the girl who is crying" but she just answers "Yeah ya" like nothing has happened. When I go to the crying girl and ask her what's wrong she say "I got breastcancer" I see her cry and say "Don't worry everything is going to be fine, they can fix it you know." I remember feeling stupid for saying that but she said "They are going to perform surgery next week."
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Then I woke up 11:54. And I was kind of worried that it was a precognitive dream, even though I don't believe in such.

Entry #1

I was walking down a sidewalk that lead all the way around a large circular bay. The area was an industrious kind, with average sized sky scrapers and corperation buildings. The immediate view made the dream what it turned out to be.
I knew I was in my head, but this place was too serene and beautiful to lose any surreal value. Lifting up in the air, I looked around to see a cruise ship docked in the water bellow me, and I decided to warm up with the simpler push and pull movements. I reached my hand towards the ship to direct of movement and it began to slide forward and gain speed- all until it crashed on the other side of the bay, shattering a wooden dock and part of the sidewalk it was connected to. So I flew over the clearest of layered waters I’ve seen first hand, towards a building that needed to be changed, all the while trying to figure how I was going to change it, and attempting to convince myself I already knew how to change it.
Because of the amplified thought process dreams bring, if you find a reason to believe that you are already capable of accomplishing a certain feat, you’ll be suprised at what revalations you might have in the mechanics of getting it done. Is that an answer to induction of revelation?- and is it the entrance to a unlocking a larger percentage of the brain mass we don’t consciously use?

Entry #1

I was walking down a sidewalk that lead all the way around a large circular bay. The area was an industrious kind, with average sized sky scrapers and corperation buildings. The immediate view made the dream what it turned out to be.
I knew I was in my head, but this place was too serene and beautiful to lose any surreal value. Lifting up in the air, I looked around to see a cruise ship docked in the water bellow me, and I decided to warm up with the simpler push and pull movements. I reached my hand towards the ship to direct of movement and it began to slide forward and gain speed- all until it crashed on the other side of the bay, shattering a wooden dock and part of the sidewalk it was connected to. So I flew over the clearest of layered waters I’ve seen first hand, towards a building that needed to be changed, all the while trying to figure how I was going to change it, and attempting to convince myself I already knew how to change it.
Because of the amplified thought process dreams bring, if you find a reason to believe that you are already capable of accomplishing a certain feat, you’ll be suprised at what revalations you might have in the mechanics of getting it done. Is that an answer to induction of revelation?- and is it the entrance to a unlocking a larger percentage of the brain mass we don’t consciously use?

1:42 p.m.

I thought I was awake. I was on the bed. I can feel the bed. I can feel my body. I can see my room. The light was in. But I move my arm in front of me and I can't see it. I can't move it or can't see it. Am I getting blind? I can see my right arm move via my right eye. Realized it's a sleep paralysis. I willed myself to wake up. No go.

I am starting to panic. I locked my door, so no one can come in and help me. I moved but my eyes are still faulty. Afraid. How can I live with a bad eyesight? I thought up dozens of ways to live. I am hearing the audio playing in the background. I want to wake up. But I can't. I'm still in the in between. I tried moving my body and feet. I can still hear the audio. I moved my right arm and took the phone so I can change the audio; didn't work. I'm still asleep. Relaxed somehow. I just have to wait it out. Went into a semi-aware dream. Moved in the "room" and did capoeria moves. I jumped-crunched. McDo. Meeting all N2. Donnie. BP nearby. Change of venue. Closer. Checked my body on bed. Still can't move. I was on the bed trying to move. I can but not awake.

Finally woke up completely. Moved my arms, checked my room.

lucid-non lucid

I notice this guy sitting at a table right next to a side street. I walk up to him and notice that he has the same birthday as me by reading his driver license, which was placed on the table. Then I asked him your mixed with black and white too right? He said yea I am. The then I asked who is white, mom or dad? He said dad and I was like wow that's crazy same here. Then I asked his age, he said 25. Then I said wait a minute this is just to weird to actually be happening. I questioned my reality and keep to the conclusion I was in a dream. I read article on dreamviews about stabilizing by looking at your hands intensely while shouting stabilizing lucidity now! It worked for a bit but then I quickly lost lucidity

My lucids usually last alot longer then this

lucid-non lucid

I notice this guy sitting at a table right next to a side street. I walk up to him and notice that he has the same birthday as me by reading his driver license, which was placed on the table. Then I asked him your mixed with black and white too right? He said yea I am. The then I asked who is white, mom or dad? He said dad and I was like wow that's crazy same here. Then I asked his age, he said 25. Then I said wait a minute this is just to weird to actually be happening. I questioned my reality and keep to the conclusion I was in a dream. I read article on dreamviews about stabilizing by looking at your hands intensely while shouting stabilizing lucidity now! It worked for a bit but then I quickly lost lucidity

My lucids usually last alot longer then this