non-lucid

*Had a dream I couldn't recall

I was in a hotel room chatting with my brother. We grew tired and wanted to sleep. I receieved a call from my mom telling us to go to sleep, but she was laying on the bed with her back to us. I didn't hear her talk outloud but I can hear her from the receiver. I went to her bed to sleep while my brother went to the other bed to sleep, sharing with his dad that's not in the room yet.

I was running around a mall with closed stores, trying to get to school on time. I was searching for elevators but when I found them, I couldn't remember why I needed them. I turned around knowing that I'm late already. I was outside now, facing a really big staircase. My physic class was coming down the stair going toward the stadium, so I thought I could just walk with them. Another science class was also coming down the stair and I got confused and followed the wrong class. I only reazlied that I'm in the wrong place because of the unfamiliar faces I'm seeing. --- I sat down at a bench with my friends. My friend, P.W. was trying to talk to me, and I was trying to ignore her. She asked me what's wrong and I didn't say anything because I didn't know what to say. --- I'm in a really big locker room, it felt like it was underground. --- I was in a bathroom? when my friend, A.A. came in without pants on. --- I was back in the locker room, needing to get somewhere, I walked and walked. The locker room was a big circle without a center, the hallway just goes on and on, next to the lockers are black plastic toilets. I just knew I was going to be late again.

07/25/2012
12AM-10AM

I have a dream last night that I was traveling in some town or amusment park and I went on some tram thing on water and was parinoid that something would happen and had excitement and was comfortable.

I was waiting in the lobby with my friend, A.A. I wanted to go to the bathroom but we were waiting for the others. Our friends finally arrived and I went to the bathroom with one of them, L.Z. A girl came out of the the big stall on the far right and I went in that one. The seat was up and I did my business...

It was around midnight, I was back at my old house behind Starbucks. I went out of the gate and walked to the mini plaza a few minutes away. In place of a fast food burger place in RL, it was a hot dog place, I felt like it's always been there. I walked home with my food and drink. It was really quiet and someone was walking behind me. I thought to myself that if I need to fight, I would. For a second, I thought I couldn't go home cause I forgot my gate remote. I reached in to my pocket and found it (different shape than RL).

I was in a bounce house, it was just bouncy staircase, that's all there is to it. There were a bunch of kids and 2 people my age. They said or did something and they were at the top of the stair away from the kids.

07/24/2012
1AM-10AM

Once again, I had a dream where I was able to fly, although this did not happen until the end. It started in the countryside, I was staying at a country house, presumably staying with a friend or relative. He looked like what I remember my great grandfather looking like.

A woman on a train mentioned she saw something, maybe helicopters? I don’t know, I can’t remember. A man suggested it was an escort, and she denied it because she thought he was talking about a Ford Escort.

A couple of people appeared in my dream, such as [SNIP] who I glimpsed walking into a shop (after I received the ability of flight, I kept going to the shops for an unknown reason) and [SNIP] who I saw twice, excluding the part where he runs from me. The first time we didn’t talk, the second time we did, although I cannot recall what about.

There were also parts with [SNIP] and [SNIP], and I was trying to avoid dog crap. Towards the end of the dream I flew to the bottom of the garden, where earlier I had been avoiding the dog feces, and spotted [SNIP] with an unknown woman. I knew they were there because I had a mini-map which told me where they were - the same mini-map as Second Life.

They saw me and ran. That’s when they complained to the house owner (the man who looked like my grandfather) about me, and [SNIP] accused [SNIP] (another familiar face) of telling me they were at the bottom. That’s when I took off and just started flying. I flew until I came across some children playing in their back garden, two were on a trampoline and one wasn’t. The one that wasn’t seemed amazed and questioned me about how I was flying. I told him I was still learning to control my ability which is why I couldn’t hover perfectly. I landed and then his mother came out, she asked me if she could ride on my back as I flew and I said I didn’t know if I could hold the weight. She jumped on and suddenly I had a jet-pack, I pressed the button to increase the thrust and a menu appeared from Second Life. Then I saw the woman and wanted to change her to a younger woman, which I did. Then I stirred, rolled over, and woke up. I was semi-conscious towards the end because I wanted to change the woman’s appearance, which actually worked. I wasn’t in full realization I was in a dream, though. Just partly, in a way I was, but it didn’t occur to me I was lucid and I should try and control other aspects of the dream. If I was fully conscious, maybe I could have lucid dreamed. The only problem was the shock from a semi-conscious part of my brain realizing I’m dreaming, because I could change the woman, woke me up.

Extremely vivid dreams. I can’t remember them in much detail as unfortunately, I’m writing this at night where I’ve had a whole day to forget what they involved. I do remember a black jet, much like the one in Captain America. It was flying over a city.

The main dream I was somewhat of a gangster. No really. There were the Ballas from Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas, and I think they were giving me trouble. I scared them off, and then I saw a can thrown my way. I looked around and [SNIP] was approaching me. He simply said, “I need £100.” In which I replied “I don’t have “£100.” He pickpocketed me and ran with my wallet, then [SNIP] yelled “Go get him!” which is actually pretty out of character for him.

I chased him down, pushed him to the floor, and kicked him. This unnerves me as I have nothing against the guy. It also disturbs me that my dream self was so out of control and had a lack of empathy.

A few nights back I said I’d listen to that lucid dream inducement video the night in which I posted it. Well, to clarify, I haven’t, and I am having an easier time remembering my dreams without it. It may be coincidence, I don’t know. What I do know is: I’m trying WILD tonight.

Three dreams. The first was the main one, with a lot of the squad from Mass Effect 2 (I'm a nerd), including Tali, being trained under some commander. He looked a lot like the commander from the film Avatar. There were a few who weren’t from the Mass Effect universe, the most notable, Alex Mercer. Again I dreamed about this guy, maybe he can become a dream sign. If I see him, then I know I must be dreaming.

The second was simple really. It still had the commander in it but it was just about a guy dating what looked like Foxface from the first Hunger Games. It ended when the commander hovered above her house in a helicopter. I remember, before the commander arrived, her boyfriend coming to the door, who actually looked a lot like Thresh, another character from the Hunger Games. She opened the door and said she he can’t come in because she was babysitting. They kissed in the doorway, and one of the children who was being babysitted claimed that it was weird what they were doing. They stopped, the two children walked off, and before she closed the door she kissed him again. If I see any Hunger Games characters in the future, I’ll hopefully know that I’m dreaming.

The third and final was the smallest. Alex Mercer (again) jumping from building to building in a vast city, riding on a helicopter, and then jumping off to land on the roof face first. He got up and the place he landed was a restaurant, so he ate there. He could only order his food when the neon light switched on under the bar, and he had to be quick enough to order before they turned back off. Pretty random, but I’m noticing Alex Mercer popping up a lot in my dreams. If I see him, I have to be dreaming, considering that he’s a fictional character.

If I see him again, I hope I will come to the realization that I’m dreaming without being shocked awake.

Strange dream. Can’t remember the chronological order in which it happened, but at one point I was Alex Mercer, at school, finding it hard to resist my predatory instincts and hurt other students. I remember using the hammerfists and the spikes entering underground, then stopping the spikes from coming back up. I was successful in conquering my hunting instincts without anyone getting hurt. After this I started running up the school buildings, and I found a woman on the roof. I brought her down to safety.

Later on (or earlier) I remember I was in a white, sterile room with a group of friends including [SNIP]. I then took down one of the walls and there was a perfectly flat field with different buildings. I came to the conclusion we were inside [SNIP] head, walking around his subconscious. It was very strange, it was like we were seeing prominent buildings from [SNIP] life such as the [SNIP].

There may have other parts of the dream, although I can’t remember. The strange thing is I actually remembered this dream on a night I didn’t listen to the lucid dreaming inducement video on Youtube. And other nights when I have, I can barely remember anything. Maybe the video is halting my progress? I’m going to try again tonight without, then tomorrow night I’ll listen to it again.

Not much of interest really. Just running through a supermarket that looks similar to the shop from Stephan King’s ‘The Mist’ with a burger in hand. Whilst the burger was in my hand the police chasing and shooting me could not harm me. I ran outside to find a large car park with a single car parked and a group of people around it. I ran up to it, and I think it was a few friends and family telling me this was all a prank. I can’t pick out individual faces except my father. Come to think of it, the car may have been a hot dog van, which would fit in with the whole fast food theme of the dream. It was reasonably vivid, but nothing special. I’ll try again tonight.

-"Bedworms"-

I was in some sort of orphanage or foster home for some reason. There were various and strange creatures all around this home, varying from the strange to the perfectly sane, though they all had many different features to them. This one, a sort of red looking imp creature, was playing a game called "Bedworms", where when he'd wake you up, and if you were to move somewhat rapidly when you woke up, he'd then proceed to pull up your shirt if you had one on and spread peanut butter all over your belly. I for one, caught on to this little game and would only pretend to sleep when told to. When I was awoken, being in the same room as my brother, I didn't make a single move, and the imp said "Nice job. Here's your reward." and gave me a phone with a hot babe in a bikini on it, though she would suddenly appear in the same bed as me and would say in a quite seductive tone "Don't mind me if I just sleep over here, 'kay~?" and I nodded and gave a small chuckle in return, being as suave as I was. My brother on the other hand got the peanut butter, but went back to bed with it, but he also had an addiction to aspirin. I pretended to go back to sleep, the girl's feet rubbing against mine. I picked up the phone, she had texted me asking to "See a picture of my ass". I turned off the phone, she started crying and she was gone. I proceeded to pretend to sleep. My brother woke up fine this time, and so did I. So, the imp came over to me and hopped onto my bed, saying "Well, you're doing pretty good. Grandma's bed is bad to sleep on." I didn't know who grandma was, nor did I care to know, but he then resumed "Wanna sleep on grandma's bed?" I shook my head and chuckled. That was the end.

In my first dream last night, I was playing a Zelda game on the Wii. I don't know what game it was; it wasn't one that actually exists. When I say "playing", I mean I was watching the game from a third-person point of view (so my entire field of vision was what was displayed on the screen), but I was still aware that I was using a Wii remote (this is similar to how I usually play video games in dreams, except I'm not usually aware of the controller).

Anyway, I remember Link being able to shrink down (and return to normal size) at will, like in Minish Cap, except he could do it anywhere. I (remember, I'm playing the game and, therefore, controlling Link) used that to get into this building where I was in this room full of people.

Suddenly, I was actually in the game myself! And, no, I wasn't Link (I have no idea what happened to him); I was myself. I had to play Epona's Song on the ocarina for some reason. Strangely, though this seemed normal at the time, instead of covering the holes and blowing into the ocarina, I had to press buttons to play the notes. For some reason, I kept trying to play the notes for Saria's Song (though I thought I was trying to play Epona's Song), but I kept messing up.

This man approached me and I told him that I couldn't seem to get the notes right. We ended up talking about Legend of Zelda for a little while (he was a Zelda fan, too), and I forgot about the ocarina entirely. Soon, I saw my parents arrive, so I said goodbye and told him I enjoyed talking with him, then I left with my parents.

Next thing I knew, we were driving through the village where I live (well, I actually live in a town just outside of the village itself, but I used to live in the village). The man was in the car with us, which was unexpected, since I'd said goodbye to him and left. Anyway, we were driving along South Main Street, going past the power substation, with the bridge just up ahead. It didn't occur to me in the dream, but my mom may have been driving us to our old house (where I lived until I was seven), as that was literally just a few houses away. The dream ended before we got close enough to see our house, though.

(Note: I'm sure that bridge will forever remain in my memory, along with the "beep beep" of reversing trailer trucks. You see, the bridge could be seen from my old house. Even though there was a warning sign stating the height limit, many truck drivers would ignore the sign and try to drive under the bridge anyway... which usually resulted in them subsequently getting stuck under it. This, of course, was followed by the high-pitched beeping as they reversed out to take a detour. I lived in that house until I was seven (or eight, maybe; I can't remember exactly), and I have seen many trucks get stuck under that bridge.)

I woke up after that and decided to try DEILD. I quickly felt myself being pulled into another dream. Unfortunately, even though I know I'm not supposed to move during DEILD, my half-asleep brain decided it would be perfectly okay to roll over as long as I didn't get up. That completely ruined my DEILD attempt.

I quickly went back to sleep anyway and had another non-lucid dream. In this dream, I was with my friend Lizz. We were in her backyard, but it didn't look like her backyard - or anywhere I'd recognize, for that matter - in real life. So there we were, as well as three little girls, around seven or eight years old. I can't remember who the girls were, but I have a feeling the group may have included her little sister and/or some of the girls around that age at my church.

Anyway, we were in "teams" (i.e., Lizz and I vs. the other girls), and each time had a "fort". Our fort was "defensive", as it was a shed with a wire fence around it. The girls' fort was "fun", as it was a colourful playground set with a treehouse (i.e., a swingset and slide with an attached treehouse). I'm guessing the "forts" were for some kind of game, though the dream skipped ahead to the next morning before anything much really happened.

I'd apparently spent the night at her house, since I was still there the next morning. We went to the dining room (again, it looked different than it does IRL) for breakfast. She started asking me what I thought about some video game that she'd assumed I'd played (I forgot the name of it, though). When I told her I hadn't played it, she decided to show it to me.

I guess the dream ended before she had a chance to show me, since the next thing I remember is from the next dream. I was playing the "drums", though it actually looked like a keyboard (a piano keyboard, not a computer keyboard), not a drum kit. For some reason, the drumsticks I was using were short and made of black plastic. I think the "drums" may have actually been a keyboard, as I had to set it to 101 (first percussion setting on a MIDI keyboard) to get the right sounds.

The next thing I knew, I was at home, and my parents were there. I put the drumsticks down on the table. It turned out I was supposed to have three more (I only had two), so I had to go outside to find the rest. Instead of just three, I ended up finding a lot more and setting them all down on the table.

Me and my buddy Eric were hungry so we drove to Wendy's and got two Jr. Bacon Cheeseburgers and two medium fries. Then we were driving aomewhere and I at all the food except for one burger. I was getting full while trying to eat the last burger, and I said we needed some drinks. He agreed and we drove into some busy city and stopped at a mall. Inside the mall we bought some large sodas. (Like the ones you buy at McDonald's, they were empty cups which you could fill at a soda fountain.) Mine came full of water, so I poured it on the floor and got another drink.

Also I remember sitting in an office with some lady on a computer. She was on some news site, and she was also talking on the phone. While on the phone she said something like, "Yeah I can look at SlickDeals right now."

Opening Statements
One night. Only one night, and my dream recall has already improved!
At this rate, i'll be rembering full dreams in no time! Now without furthur ado, have fun with a snippet of Skyrim: The Realumpco Version!

Legend
Black = Dreaming
Blue = Aware That I'm Dreaming
Green = Lucid

Entry
I was in a temple (or really old building of some sort) surrounded by boxes, I picked a couple of them up, and they transferred to my inventory. I suddenly felt that I had to deliver an undamaged box, for whatever reason, so I left the building to do so.

Ending Comments
And that's where my memory gives way, sorry if these aren't entertaing, but don't worry, you'll be getting some good stuff from me soon enough.
BTW the only reason the dream was Skyrim themed was because that I could open up an inventory, and it was the exact same one found in Skyrim (How did that not tip me off that I was dreaming!?), and everything was shaded like it was in Skyrim. That's where this entry ends, Cheers!

Date: 24/07/2012
Place: My bed
Time of getting into bed: 11.00pm
Nothing before bed - Ginseng & Ginkgo the morning before

Waking thoughts in black
Non lucid dreams in blue
Lucid dreams in red

Dream 1 - non lucid (12.55am)

So, I was all intent on taking my Lucid Dreaming pill on a WBTB last night, for the first time. I went to bed early, and fell asleep normally. I must stress I DIDNT TAKE ANYTHING, not even the usual B6 as I wanted to see the effects of the G&C without any interactions. I took Ginseng & Ginkgo the morning before, which I have been doing for about a week now. The night was particularly hot (we're having a heat wave, woohoo!) and I slept semi-naked, and out of the quilt. This always gave me nightmares as a child.

Dream fragments -talking on DV about WILDing and lucid dreaming. I wrote this in my DJ, I was sweating and really tired (hence just a short sentence / fragment) but I was feeling weird. I was slipping in and out of consciousness and as I was I was unintentionally WILDing! It came on so fast, I would lie down to sleep, and felt my body go numb, then a floating sensation, all in a matter of minutes. I didn't fight it, but I mostly 'popped' in and out of it, very unusual sensation. This happened all night, at one point I checked the G&C pill on my bedside table to make sure I hadn't taken it in my sleep, because the feeling was so intense. I hadn't. I decided not to take it, as it was too early. (even though I was dreaming?) I slept, and then woke up to a loud noise a little later. I woke up (or did I? FA?) because there was a loud noise outside, at first I thought it was a helicopter flying by )it happens) but it got louder and louder, I realised I was awake... (I think... I didn't RC) but I was in SP - the noise got loud and turned into screeching, just like HH that people describe, but I've never had it. After the noise, I felt tingling all over my body, and fell asleep. Thinking about it now, was this a dream about WILDing? Or did I wake up in SP briefly? I have no idea.

Dream 2 - non lucid
Two guys are performing oral sex on me, the dream gets really weird, with medieval torture devices being used, I'll skip the details, but it was weird and erotic. This was one messed up sex dream.

Dream 3 - non lucid / slight lucidity at end - 3.00am
My mum is coming to pick me up from somewhere because I have been drinking. When she gets there she has some pizzas ready for me to eat, which I'm thankful for because I'm starving. My mum disappears, and I begin to panic. I ring her phone but she isn't answering, I worry she's been in an accident. However she then pulls in the drive with her car. The car is a big silver estate, and puffing out clouds of black smoke. I initially think she's had car trouble, but she gets out with my younger sister and says she's been in hospital. My younger sister is in tears - I ask her what's wrong? She says her favourite singer Adele, is in hospital. I laugh, and say 'I know she is, she's been in there for ages, call yourself a fan?' but she get's even more upset and says its an operation on her throat. I make a mental note to check weather Adele really has had an operation when I wake up, or weather my dream is making it up, as I can't remember right now.

I woke up, with a music in my head from my childhood, that I had COMPLETELY forgotten. It was eerie and freaked me out, as I tried to get back to sleep, I kept remembering dreams from YEARS AGO. I shit you not. I thought about getting up (this was about 3.30am now) and watching some TV because I was so freaked out I daren't sleep. However I forced myself to sleep, but I woke up again and again, each time remembering dreams from about 5 or 6 years ago, with amazing detail. I thought I'd completely forgotten these dreams. What the hell was going on? I finally fell to sleep properly again.

Dream 4 - non lucid - 5.15am
My family owns a food shop, I go in search of starting my own food shop. I have a clothes shop, but this gets shut down. A pink tie is left hanging from one of the windows, and I take it as a souvenir. I open a shop selling action figures, and I make shoes themed with cartoon characters and comic characters.

Dream 5 - non lucid
I am chilling with friends when someone asks me if I want to take part in a fun, free experiment. I agree. I have to hold these 2 black bars, it's a new kind of virtual game where you play an incredibly life-like character, that moves just by sensing through the bars in your hands. When I grab the bars, they hurt me at first, but I get used to it. I am a young soldier, in the war, I follow his life as he struggles to survive and still look after his wife and young child at home. I get really involved in this soldiers life, eventually feeling like I am him. I wake up in the dream, and the soldier is now a real man, stood over my bed. He tells me he is real, and wants me to follow him, I'm shocked, but not scared. I go and meet his wife and daughter, it is an emotional reunion for them, I watch quietly. Again, I wake up and feel like I'm WILDing, entering SP without trying. My body is tingling and numb at the same time, I feel like I'm floating over my bed. I remember more dreams from my long forgotten past, but this time I try to remember more and I'm shocked when I can. I quite like it. I fall asleep.

Dream 6 - non lucid
I'm watching a TV show about young fathers meeting their in laws to be. One guy is wearing nothing but a purple robe, he has a scruffy beard, and lots of body hair. He poses and messes around and his naked body is clear to see.

Dream 7 - non lucid - 9.03am
I'm at a dinner table in a restaurant, wearing fancy dress. I am wearing a santa costume, but it isn't totally correct. Someone nearby is a policeman. We add up 'fancy dress points' that we get for our outfits, so that we can have enough points to leave the restaurant. There was more to this dream, plus a whole other dream after this one, but I didn't write them down.

Overall, what a weird night. I feel refreshed this morning, but still in awe of the crazy night I had and I can still remember those dreams from years ago!

Some more nonlucids:

• I don't know WHY, but apparently I was roommates with some old coworkers of mine: Rich and Daniel. I shared a room with Rich. A bed even. Yuck. And for some weird reason when we went to bed, I thought it would be cute/funny to grab his butt. Double Yuck. Anyway that pissed him off so he jumped out of bed while still holding on to the top cover, in which I was somehow entangled, so it pulled me across the bed onto the floor. I landed on my butt and said "Yeah, I suppose I deserved that." Then he turned on the light and left the room. I felt so shitty. So I got back into bed and got under the 2nd layer of covers, lied down on my stomach with a pillow over my head like I always like to do. Finally I had the sense that Rich came back into the room, and was just standing over the bed, as if he was thinking of something to say to me. Then FINALLY the lights went out, and I could tell he was in the bed again and back to sleep. Weird thing: I woke up, but I felt kinda like there was no transition. I was in the exact same position and everything, and still feeling relieved that he went back to bed after my faux pas. I felt that way for maybe 4 seconds, then I thought, wait a minute, I live with my boyfriend Danny, and our kids! None of that happened, it was all just a dream. I can't believe it took that long to realize that. So then I was super duper relieved. So weird.
• I dreamed that I lived just a couple miles from work again, and so I decided I wanted to take my bike to work. This kinda classified as a FA because I remember waking up in the bed and it was light out, but I thought we had to get up at 5am to go to work (which was true irl). But Danny said, no it's ok, I'm off today. It's about 6am so you have a couple hours to get to work if you want to ride your bike. So I got ready and went outside to unlock my bike from the bike rack in an apartment complex that we no longer live in irl. I fumbled with the lock a bit, a normal device issue in dreams that SHOULD have sparked lucidity. Anyway, it's one of those letter combination locks which has 4 spaces. Of course mine is a 4-letter-word if ya know what I mean. So I finally got the brown word to work and the lock opened. And for some reason, this was now my bike:
  
  Basically that, but yellow I think, and the trailer was longer and wire frame. I had a moment of thought like, "I don't want my coworkers seeing me pull up in this shit." But I took off with it anyway. And man, I don't remember those 3 miles having all those stairs and drops and shit, but there they were, and the bike took it like a champ! I practically flew up this nearly vertical set of green stairs. Then I was soaring through a parking garage, and this guy sitting in the corner and smoking said to me as I zoomed past "Watch out, there's a huge drop off" but it was too late. I dropped off but I was ok. That's all I remember from that dream. It was a fun ride though!
• I was at a restaurant and I was a guy, and I was royally hitting on this one chick. I sat down next to her and I was fully prepared to start nibbling on her neck and ears and god knows what else and that's all I remember from that one.

I was playing Chess with a friend(I did this only once in rl a month ago). I had the white pieces and he had the black ones. Somehow his bishop managed to defeat many of my pieces, he even killed my bishop and my queen at once(Yeah, the rules were different). I think I lost but I don't remember anymore.